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favourite bang chan fancams 3 / ∞ [ 200709 mcountdown - easy ⋆ ]
#stray kids#skz#staydaily#createskz#bystay#staysource#bang chan#bangchan#channiesnet#3rachasource#userlau#usersa#:mine#t:gif#sayang#s:favchancams#t:fancam#tw flashing#look at the chanarms look at em#he has a different aura in this idk how to explain it#like oOOoh okay mr bad boy WOAH!!#on a different note they should bring back skinny jeans#i grew up in the 2000s i can and will not let go of the skinny jeans + sneakers combo#anyway IM LEARNING A LOT thanks for joining in my gif-ing journey guys#used vapoursynth again and i think i finally figured it out?? a bit. idk its complicated and im dumb asf sobs
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me when "waves of intrigue" season comes out next week:
#nsghwejj#i've been excited ever since it was announced#and now that the official trailer is out HHH UGH I CAN'T WAIT#AND LORSAN WILL JOIN US AGAIN *AND* HE'S FINALLY BECOMING RECRUITABLE ???#AAAAAAA I AM SO HYPED !!!!!!#afk journey#waves of intrigue#afk journey waves of intrigue#star won't shut up#literally this time
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zomg... the girls! Sketched out! And a few characters I never showed designs for! haha! I keep thinking about the beach, so this is their swimwear.
I hope to make a full fledged drawing for all of them soon~ then the guys~~
Some newbies are: Aura (blue!) Katya (Gold!) and more of Verra (Green!) We'll eventually see more about them as I draw more things and doodles.
#Because I realized I never drew the girls as much as I did the guys#I used to exclusively draw women until I figured out how to draw men... I then awoke drawing nudethaniel and speedo vincent#so we're reeling it back a little#Ryoko Kui said she draws her oc's outfits in modern times to see how the different characters would dress. I thought about it- it definitel#says a lot about your character!#Monica is REALLY tall. And muscular! with a strong ability! no wonder she's taken down armies! She doesn't care to swim much but will use#a rashguard to swim in.#Sera is copying her style a bit but thankfully owns an actual wetsuit. Feels like home considering how her aerodynamic armor is designed#Sonia is sonia. She seductively asks Vincent to help her put sunscreen on... Only to be met with an albinoid man's journey to sun poisoning#He eventually gets greased in sunscreen and aloe vera after what feels like hours of nagging him. (it was forty five minutes.) Sorry Sonia.#Some things cannot be changed. When he did eventually look at her body he laughed at her ass being out rather than think anything naughty.#Not girl Summer. Vincent did end up helping her with the sunscreen though. “Lmao you can't do this yourself or something?” ruined the magic#Karin tailored her swimwear. She bedazzles her arms with accessories <3 Her nail polish can detect drugs <3 & cyanide caps in her earring <#Poor Katya is a supermodel but is way too thin... Strohl doesn't say it.. But he's worried. She makes way too much money to want to quit.#Verra is in rabbit mode because her summon LOVES to swim and hey who is she to halt its fun?#Aura is pretty modest and prefers to meditate in the water or by the shore away from all of the roughhousing. Nate and Strohl join at time#They kind of freak out when she starts floating though. Or invoking the elementals of the seas. The guys are both areligious. Awkward.#Especially when the waves start to get a little rowdy minutes later. Strohl is torn between considering religion and asking for a tutorial.#ark_systema
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Melody Quotes - The familiar melody that once brought joy now struck chords of sorrow, each note a painful reminder of what was lost. Read more at - https://minimalistquotes.com
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Made a cool drawing of Teensy Wizard lol.
Would you watch one of her magic shows?
Progress below cut:
In the Fate of the Moons (our Rayman AU thing), her name is Willow. She' is a very famous figure around the Glade for being both powerful and charismatic. She is also the royal advisor of the Grand Minimus, often managing the diplomatic affairs from behind the throne since Minimus is oftentimes not present for those kind of things (too busy vibing with the Raygang). She has way more power than she leads on, but at least she's responsible with it.
She is also Goth's sister, but both of them don't realize that (for Wizard it's cuz Goth's trans and went missing for a long-ass time / for Goth it's cuz Wizard's trans and Goth's brain got scrambled).
Have a lovely day homies <3
#she/her for wizard plz#i am trying very hard to normalize this hc cuz i love it#*extends hand* will you join me on this journey? /hj#thanks zynt for the hc lol ima share it for you#she and goth are twins btw#and she used to dress in a lot of orange growing up#rayman#rayman origins#rayman legends#rayman fanart#rayman teensies#teensy#teensie#teensies#teensy wizard#illustration#katiekatdragon27
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sharks have more points than TWO (2) teams its time to start the stanley cup conversation
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It's time for: NaNoCryMo 2024!
It has been five years since I attempted to do NaNo, and this year I am BACK, ready to get some work done on an original project. For those who have not been her for previous NaNoCryMo, I love to bring my friends with me (and I'm always happy to bring more), and for the month of October, we prep for the long haul by doing a few exercises to help us out.
We’re mostly all working on original works, so if you send in asks about AnS fics-- or other fandom's fics!-- I won’t be able to prioritize answering them. But if you’d still like to help us out, I'll be posting ask memes each week to help us with character and world building, and we’d love for you to send us some asks. Most posts will be accompanied by a list of characters (different for each of us, of course) to make it easier to pick who you want to hear about.
Otherwise, I'll still be posting a few fics this month-- maybe into November, if I get a good queue going!-- and I'll be back for winter challenge at the end of December!
Other NaNoCryMo participants:
@infinitelystrangemachinex @claudeng80 @kirayaykimura @officiallallorona @balfrey
#nanocrymo#nanocrymo24#nano2024#obviously not affiliated with the garbage fire that is going on over at nanowrimo#we just like to do a good challenge every once and a while#if you'd like to join let us know!#we're always happy to take on more friends for the journey!
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my favorite thing ever is whenever we do our weekly D&D campaigns, we’re always in a dead end somewhere. So now every time I say something stupid the rest of the party always follows me so here we are, 9 players teaming up to seduce a couple of vampires and a werewolf just because Aurelia (me) here was trying to flirt her way out of being bit and killed because that’s all she knows how to do 😭
when in doubt, just seduce the enemy and they’ll most likely let you go (unless you’re the wizard of the group who keeps rolling straight 4’s with their modifications between 1 and 5) 💅🏻
#Now we have an army of 7 NPC’s who joined us on our journey#Consisting of a vampire (elf) a dragon a dwarf 2 elf bandits one tiefling and a Dragonborn and a human warlock#I love this game so much it’s not even funny#It’s always so chaotic for no reason at all#unhinged#dnd campaign#dnd#dnd art#dnd character#dndads#dungeons and dragons#dnd oc#cleric#dnd5e#dungeons and dragons art#dnd npc#dungeons and daddies#d&d oc#d&d#d&d 5e#d&d art#d&d character#ttrpg#tiefling#bg3 spoilers#bg3 fanart#bg3#bg3 tav#bg3 astarion#bg3 screenshots
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The hardcover edition of MYRIOS -Complete Illustrated Series- is now available in many regions! Please enjoy it and welcome it kindly!
#if its not yet available in your region it will be there soon -- i actually had to order my personal copy from US to ship to CA ^^'#but i am looking forward to seeing how everything prints! i will post updates when it arrives so if you wish to see photos of an actual copy#first i will post them when it arrives.#that being said -- the project and the Myrios Series as a whole is now complete! thank you for joining me on this journey!#hardcover#authors on tumblr#writeblr#drawing#artists on tumblr#anime#drawings#mangaka#manga#original character#light novel#original character art#rkgk#artist#original characters#myrios series#myrios complete illustrated series#myrios illustration project#paperback#novel#book#bookblr#kori omoide
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It is so crazy to me that in the year of our Duck Lord 2024, there are still StarKid fans who are only just now learning that Curt Mega was on Glee.
#starkid#team starkid#curt mega#you could also say the year of our Wizard God or Dead God or Lords in Black or in the year of our AJ Holmes (iykyk)#but as we all know. duck is lord. so i went with that.#this is because of a reply on one of Curt's recent tweets. and i see tweets of people realizing it every few months.#Curt and Tessa didn't sing 'I Wanna Be A StarKid Actor' for people to forget why Curt wanted to be one but wasn't one yet#those of us who were StarGleeks back in the day went actually INSANE when Curt was announced in the cast of Black Friday.#i know because i was one of them. i lost my mind. (and finding out Kim was joining too was another shock to my system)#watching the evolution from LeakyCon to him being in JMOMS then Tin Can Bros then StarKid was a JOURNEY.#it's times like these that i am reminded i truly am a starkid fandom elder... and it makes me feel ancient#(no shade to these fans. but this is like an INTEGRAL part of starkid lore because Curt and Kim are so involved now.)
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The NB in Non Binary actually stands for Numerous Bees
#has so much gender but so many more bees#And applying human genders to bees is already scientifically ridiculous#trans pride#trans rights#trans#nonbinary#non binary pride#nonbinary pride#enby pride#Bees#fairy#Save the enbees!#Still kinda salty a minecraft guy helped me on my gender journey but it happens to the best of us#Float like a bee#Sting like a bee#Join our bee cult now!#Oh “”””they/them is only plural””””?#Congrats on noticing it takes 400000 bees to pilot the skin/honeycomb mecha#Fault au#something to nom on#Pride month#pride 2023#lgtbqia+
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h how do I sct normal when wh om im reminded of omori final duet how do k not burtst out in tearas
#like.nuhm.#my sister tried playing it on the piano#i had to watch it again#man.#it doesnt affect je as much as it used to but.still#brings back memories frim this very summer#mannnnnnnn#Thenway it starts out w piano alone ....#then violin joins in ...#then piano disappesrs for a bit... (maris death)#then. then the piano joins again. its quieter but its dtill there#BECAUSE MARI WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR SUNNY EVEN IF SHES NOT ALIVE SNYMORE#she will always be in his head. comforting him. helping him move on. helling him on his journey through life#for sunny to move on.... its not to completely forget Mari. in fact the only way to continue with his life was to remember the good memories#but for sunny to move on he had to acknowledge that. yeah she is dead. you cant escape that..... but shes still there#MAN#SORRY#omori#omori spoilers#mari#sunny
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Hopefully the Twister fandom grows for the sake of more people able to understand the fics you're writing because I love your stuff but I'm missing all the subjective love a fan of the series would have
same! both the 1996 and 2024 movies are so much fun and deserve all the love and fics and fanart and gifs
like it was only until last week I think since Twisters got an official tag on ao3 (which is just a combo between toy and a twister 1996 but still!!! huge props to all the fic writers contributing to the fandom) and i have found that the Jake “Hangman” Seresin & Tyler Owens (Twisters) tag is common enough to be included when typing for the relationship tag so 👀 we are definitely getting there!
#also thank you <33333#i’m so glad you like my stuff 🥰#like the crossover i have for twisters rn is niche and is mostly bc both have Glen Powel lol#but i do wanna write some ot3 stuff for twisters#like the rivalry between Tyler and Javi before Kate joins their little drama#i read one fic that was all just comments on social media and this is a medium i crave to write in for fiction#like imagine the twitter discourse between storm par and the wrangler fandom#you’ll have accounts of people meeting Javi and his team where some ppl say they are nice or too snobby#and then the ppl meeting the Wranglers pre and post a tornado hits#maybe even a journey with Ben’s articles and how we see his attention shift to weather -> to the increase of storms-> to Tornado Alley#like my brain is firing over ideas and anyone else if free to use these#I’ll write my own version but it would be fun to read other ppl’s interpretations#asks#twisters#twisters 2024
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August Quotes - I hope your August is full of nice things.
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@dehvours - you did ruin my night. // @ kaeya (can't a guy just violently kill some monsters in peace around here 😔) \ TASKMASTER SEASON 17
( ✨ ) HE SCOFFS , PUSHING off the tree he'd been leaning against after idly giving a bored glance toward his nails. causing issues for the harbinger who was in his own neck of the woods was not his problem - at least not yet it wasn't. he shrugs a shoulder , crossing his arms as he looks to the dead mitachurl in question 'fore flicking his lone gaze back up to tartaglia after a beat.
❝ GOOD. MAYBE THEN you could answer my questions -- why are you in mondstadt. from what the traveler tells me . . you aren't stationed here. another one of you lot usually is. ❞
#dehvours#{ kae vc: u'll live. }#OUT OF CHARACTER ( MEME REPLIES )ㅤ ㅤ ( ㅤ 🌟ㅤ ) ㅤ ㅤ — thanks for being grand uwu#KAEYA ( MONDSTADT AQ V )ㅤ ㅤ ( ㅤ 🌟ㅤ ) ㅤ ㅤPLEASE ALLOW ME TO JOIN YOU ON YOUR JOURNEY. LET US SEIZE THE DAY.
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'Andrew Scott’s success did not arrive overnight. His has been a slow and steady ascent from supporting player to leading man. But his status is now assured: at 47, the Irishman is among the most talented and prominent actors of his generation, on stage and screen.
Dublin-born and raised, Scott first took drama classes at the suggestion of his mother, an art teacher, to try to overcome a childhood lisp. At 17 he won his first part in a film, Korea (1995), about an Irish boy who finds himself fighting in the Korean War. By 21, he was winning awards for his performance in Eugene O’Neill’s Long Day’s Journey into Night, for director Karel Reisz, no less, at The Gate. He arrived in London, where he continues to live, at the end of the 1990s, and worked regularly, with smaller parts in bigger TV shows (Band of Brothers, Longitude) and bigger parts in smaller plays (A Girl in a Car With a Man, Dying City). By the mid-2000s he was well established, especially in the theatre. In 2006, on Broadway, he was Julianne Moore’s lover, and Bill Nighy’s son, in David Hare’s Iraq War drama, The Vertical Hour, directed by Sam Mendes. In 2009, he was Ben Whishaw’s betrayed boyfriend in Mike Bartlett’s Cock, at the Royal Court. He won excellent notices for these and other performances, but he was not yet a star. If you knew, you knew. If you didn’t know, you didn’t know. Most of us didn’t know; not yet.
That changed in 2010 when, at the age of 33, he played Jim Moriarty, arch nemesis of Benedict Cumberbatch’s egocentric detective, in the BBC’s smash hit Sherlock. The appearance many remember best is his incendiary debut, in an episode called “The Great Game”. When first we meet him, Moriarty is disguised as a creepy IT geek, a human flinch with an ingratiating smile. It’s an act so convincing that even Sherlock doesn’t catch on. Next time we see him, he’s a dapper psychotic in a Westwood suit, with an uncannily pitched singsong delivery and an air of casual menace that flips, suddenly, into rage so consuming he’s close to tears. Such was the relish with which Scott played the villain — he won a Bafta for it — that he risked the black hat becoming stuck to his head. In Spectre (2015), the fourth of Daniel Craig’s Bond movies, and the second directed by Sam Mendes, Scott played Max Denbigh, or C, a smug Whitehall mandarin who wants to merge MI5 and MI6, sacrilegiously replacing the 00 agents with drones. (If only.)
There were other decent roles in movies and TV series, as well as substantial achievements on stage, and he might have carried on in this way for who knows how long, even for his whole career, as a fêted stage performer who never quite breaks through as a leading man on screen.
But Scott had more to offer than flashy baddies and scene-stealing cameos. His Hamlet, at The Almeida in London, in 2017, was rapturously received. I’ve seen it only on YouTube, but even watching on that degraded format, you can appreciate the fuss. Scott is magnetic: funny, compelling, and so adept with the language that, while you never forget he’s speaking some of the most profound and beautiful verse ever written, it feels as conversational as pub chat.
Another banner year was 2019: a memorable cameo in 1917 (Mendes again) as a laconic English lieutenant; an Emmy nomination for his performance in an episode of Black Mirror; and the matinée idol in Noel Coward’s Present Laughter at London’s Old Vic, for which he won the Olivier for Best Actor, the most prestigious award in British theatre.
The second series of Phoebe Waller-Bridge’s phenomenal Fleabag, also in 2019, proved to a wider public what theatregoers already knew: Scott could play the mainstream romantic lead, and then some. His character was unnamed. The credits read, simply, “The Priest”. But social media and the newspapers interpolated an adjective and Scott became The Hot Priest, Fleabag’s unlucky-in-love interest, a heavy-drinking heartbreaker in a winningly spiffy cassock, and an internet sensation.
Fleabag began as a spiky dramedy about a traumatised young woman. Scott’s storyline saw it develop into a bittersweet rom-com, brimming with compassion for its two clever, funny, horny, lonely, awkward, baggage-carrying heroes, lovers who can’t get together because, for all the snogging in the confessional, one of them is already taken, in this case by God.
It was the best and brightest British comedy of the 2010s, and Scott’s fizzing chemistry with Waller-Bridge had much to do with that. The ending, when she confesses her feelings at a bus stop, is already a classic. “I love you,” she tells him. “It’ll pass,” he says.
Over the past 12 months, in particular, Scott has piled triumph on top of victory, and his star has risen still further. At the National, last year, he executed a coup de théâtre in Vanya, for which he was again nominated for an Olivier. (He lost out to an old Sherlock sparring partner, Mark Gatiss, for his superb turn in The Motive and the Cue, about the making of an earlier Hamlet.) For Simon Stephens’s reworking of Chekhov’s play, Scott was the only actor on stage. On a sparsely furnished set, in modern dress — actually his own clothes: a turquoise short sleeve shirt, pleated chinos, Reebok Classics and a thin gold chain — and with only very slight modulations of his voice and movements, he successfully embodied eight separate people including an ageing professor and his glamorous young wife; an alcoholic doctor and the woman who loves him; and Vanya himself, the hangdog estate manager. He argued with himself, flirted with himself and even, in one indelible moment, had it off with himself.
It’s the kind of thing that could have been indulgent showboating, a drama-school exercise taken too far, more fun for the performer than the audience. But Scott carried it off with brio. In the simplest terms, he can play two people wrestling over a bottle of vodka in the middle of the night — and make you forget that there’s only one of him, and he’s an Irish actor, not a provincial Russian(s). An astonishing feat.
For his next trick: All of Us Strangers, among the very best films released in 2023. Writer-director Andrew Haigh’s ghost story is about Adam (Scott), a lonely writer, isolated in a Ballardian west-London high-rise, who returns to his suburban childhood home to find that his parents — killed in a car crash when he was 11 — are still living there, apparently unaltered since 1987. Meanwhile, Adam begins a tentative romance with a neighbour, Henry (Paul Mescal), a younger man, also lonely, also vulnerable, also cut off from family and friends.
Tender, lyrical, sentimental, sad, strange, and ultimately quite devastating, All of Us Strangers was another potential artistic banana skin. At one point, Scott’s character climbs into bed with his parents and lies between them, as a child might, seeking comfort. In less accomplished hands, this sort of thing could have been exasperating and embarrassing. But Scott’s performance grounds the film. He is exceptionally moving in it. He was nominated for a Golden Globe for Best Actor, losing to his fellow Irishman, Cillian Murphy, for Oppenheimer. Earlier this year, he made history as the first person to receive Critics Circle awards in the same year for Best Actor in a film (All of Us Strangers) and a play (Vanya).
Finally, last month, the title role in Ripley, a new spin on the lurid Patricia Highsmith novels. That show, which unspools over eight episodes on Netflix, was a long time coming. Announced in 2019, it was filmed during the pandemic, at locations across Italy and in New York. Scott is in almost every scene and delivers an immensely subtle and nuanced portrayal of Highsmith’s identity thief, a character previously played by actors including Alain Delon, Dennis Hopper, and Matt Damon in the famous Anthony Minghella film The Talented Mr Ripley, from 1999.
The fragile almost-charm that makes Tom Ripley such an enduring antihero is there in Scott’s portrayal, but so is the creepiness, the isolation, the fear and desperation. His Ripley can turn on a smile, but it quickly curdles. Filmed in high-contrast black and white, Ripley is a sombre, chilly work by design, but doggedly compelling, and not without a mordant wit. Again, critics swooned.
So the actor is on a hot streak. Later this year he’ll appear in Back in Action, a Hollywood spy caper, alongside Cameron Diaz and Jamie Foxx, above-the-title stars with dazzling, wide-screen smiles. But could they play Chekhov single-handed? They’ll need to be on their toes.
Before our shoot and subsequent interview, in April, I had met Scott briefly on two previous occasions, both times at fancy dinners for fashion brands. Compact, stylish, dynamic, he is impishly witty and charismatic: good in a room. Also, obliging: the second time I met him, he took my phone and spoke into it in his most diabolical Moriarty voice for a wickedly funny voice message to my son, a Sherlock fan.
At the Esquire shoot, on an overcast day in south London, Scott again demonstrated his good sportiness: dancing in the drizzle in a Gucci suit; generously sharing his moment in the spotlight with an unexpected co-star, a local cat who sauntered on to the set and decided to stick around for the close-ups; and entertaining the crew — and hangers-on, including me — with rude jokes. At one point, while for some reason discussing the contents of our respective fridges, I asked him where he kept his tomatoes. “Easy, Tiger,” he said.
At lunch the following day, upstairs at Quo Vadis, the restaurant and members’ club in Soho (my suggestion), the actor arrived promptly, settled himself on a banquette, and we got straight to business. It’s standard practice now for interviews published in the Q&A format to include a disclaimer, in the American style: “This conversation has been edited for length and clarity.” (Well, duh.) In this case, we talked for close to three hours. Inevitably, paper costs being what they are, and Esquire readers having busy lives, some of that verbiage has ended up on the cutting-room floor. But not much! I’ve tried to let it flow as much as possible, and to keep the spirit of the thing, in which we toggled, like all good performances, between light and dark, comedy and tragedy.
In early March, a month before this interview took place, Scott and his family suffered a terrible and unexpected loss: his mother, Nora, suddenly died. He went home to Dublin to be with his dad, Jim, his sisters, Sarah and Hannah, and their family and friends.
As an interviewee and, I suspect, as a person, Scott is thoughtful, convivial and solicitous: he doesn’t just answer questions, he also asks them. He is not above the occasional forearm squeeze when he wants to emphasise a point. He seems to possess a sharp emotional intelligence. Perhaps one should expect empathy in a great actor, but in him it seems particularly marked.
Before we began talking, there was some studying of the menu. Scott wondered, since I eat often at Quo Vadis, if I had any recommendations. I told him I had my eye on the pie: chicken, ham and leek. “Why would you not have the pie?” wondered Scott. A good question.
So, how was your morning? Where have you come from?
This morning I’ve been at the gym, Alex.
Are you working out for a specific reason or are you just a healthy man?
Just trying to keep it going. Exercise is so helpful to me. I don’t know if you know, but my mum died four weeks ago.
I did know, and I’m so sorry.
Thank you. So, yeah. Just trying to keep it going. They say your body feels it as much as your mind.
The grief?
Yeah, the grief. My friend said a brilliant thing last night. She’s been through grief. She said, if you think of it like weights, the weight of it doesn’t decrease, but your ability to lift the weights does. So, if you go to the gym and you’re completely unpractised you won’t be able to lift the weight. But the more you get used to it, the more you can lift. There’s a slight analogy to grief. I’m just learning about it.
Have you been through grief before?
Not really. A little bit, but not to this extent. And it’s a strange thing because, obviously, I’m in the middle of having to talk a lot [promoting Ripley] and making that decision of whether to talk about it or whether not to talk about it. I’m finding myself talking about it, because it’s what’s going on, and without giving away too much of it she was such an important figure. It feels right. It’s such a natural thing.
Is it helpful to talk about it?
I think it has to be. I feel very lucky with my job, in the sense that, all those more complex, difficult feelings, that’s what you have to do in a rehearsal room; you have to explore these things. So strange: a lot of the recent work that I’ve done has been exploring grief. With Vanya, and All of Us Strangers. So it’s odd to be experiencing it this time for real.
I wasn’t planning on making that the focal point of this piece, so it’s up to you how much you feel comfortable talking about it.
I appreciate that.
Was it unexpected? Did it happen out of the blue?
Yes. She was very alive four weeks ago. She just deteriorated very quickly. She got pneumonia and she just… it was all over within 24 hours.
What sort of person was she?
She was the most enormously fun person that you could possibly imagine. Insanely fun and very, very creative. She’s the person who sort of introduced me to acting and art. She taught me to draw and paint when I was really young —that’s another big passion of mine, drawing and painting. She was amazing with all of us. My sister Sarah is very talented in sport, she’s now a sports coach. And my sister Hannah was very artistic and she’s an actor now. So, she was really good at supporting us throughout all our different interests. What I say is that we’ve been left a huge fortune by her. Not financially, but an emotional fortune, if you know what I mean? I feel that really strongly. And once this horrible shock is over, I just have to figure out how I’m going to spend it. Because I think when someone else is alive and they’ve got amazing attributes, they look after those attributes. And then when they die, particularly if they are your parent, you feel like you want to inhabit them, these incredible enthusiasts for life. She just made connections with people very easily. I feel enormously grateful to have had her. Have you had much grief in your life?
My mother died, during Covid. She had been ill for a long time, so it was a very different experience to yours. But I think they are all different experiences, for each of us. I don’t know if that loss would be in any way analogous to yours. But like you, I love art and books and music, and that’s all from her. Last night, I watched a rom-com with my daughter, who is 14. And I don’t know if I would like rom-coms so much, if it wasn’t for my mum.
Love a rom-com! What did you watch?
Annie Hall.
Did she like it, your daughter?
She absolutely loved it. She was properly laughing.
Oh, that’s great!
And she’s a tough one to impress. But she loved it, and my mum loved Woody Allen. My mum can’t recommend Woody Allen to my daughter now, but I can, and that’s come down from her. So it goes on.
That’s what I mean. Your spirit doesn’t die. And I’m sure you went to bed going, “Yes!”
I did! It was a lovely evening, it really was. Tonight we’ll watch something else.
Are you going to watch another Woody Allen? Which one are you going to watch?
I thought maybe we’d watch Manhattan? More Diane Keaton.
Or Hannah and Her Sisters? That’s a good one. Insanely good. Yeah, it’s amazing that legacy, what you’re left with. My mum was so good at connecting with people. She was not very good at small talk. She was quite socially bold. She would say things to people. If she thought you looked well, she’d tell you. She’d always come home with some story about some pot thrower she met at some sort of craft fair. Being socially bold, there’s a sort of kindness in it. When someone says something surprising, it’s completely delightful. My mother sent me something when I was going through a bad time in my twenties. It was just a little card. It said, “The greatest failure is not to delight.” What a beautiful quote. And she was just delighted by so many things, and she was also delightful. And like her, I really love people. I really get a kick out of people.
I can tell.
But there’s a kind of thing, if you become recognisable, people become the enemy? And it’s something I have to try and weigh up a little bit. Because people are my favourite thing about the world. I think it’s part of my nature. My dad is pretty sociable too. And so it’s weighing that up, how you keep that going. Because certain parts of that are out of your control: people treat you slightly differently. But this phase, the past four weeks, it still feels so new. Just thinking about legacy and kindness and love and the finite-ness of life. All that stuff.
Big stuff.
Yeah, it’s big stuff. And it’s very interesting, talking about grief. Because it’s not all just low-energy sadness. There’s something galvanising about it as well. I don’t know if you found that, too?
One of the things about someone else dying is it makes you feel alive.
Yes, exactly. Even though we have no choice, it does that. It’s that amazing thing, the year of magical thinking.
[Waiter approaches. Are we ready to order?]
We are.
I think so. Are we two pie guys?
We’re two pie guys!
We’re pretty fly for pie guys.
Are we salad guys? Tomato, fennel and cucumber salad?
Yeah.
And chips, maybe?
Listen, you only live once.
So, the year of magical thinking…
You know, when you’re walking along, are you allowed to have a surge of joy? Or are you allowed to just stay home and… It’s extraordinary when it gets you.
Like a wave of emotion?
I had one on the rowing machine today. I’m glad of it, though.
That was sadness.
Just loss, yeah. Just loss.
So, there’s two ways to do this. You can choose. We can do the usual interview where we start at the beginning with your childhood and go all the way through to now. That’s totally fine. Or, I can throw more random questions at you, and see where that takes us?
Random!
Shall we random it?
Let’s random it.
OK. That means I might sometimes read questions off this piece of paper.
Reading takes just slightly away from the randomness of it, Alex…
That is a very good point. You are quite right. But I don’t read them out in order! They’re just prompts.
[Sardonically] Oh, I see!
Talk me through what you’re wearing.
Oh, this is so old. What does it say?
[I peer at the label on the inside of his shirt collar. It says Hartford.]
What colour would you call that?
I’d call it a bit of a duck egg, Alex, would you?
I’d go with that. And it’s like a…
Like a Henley?
And these [pointing to trousers]?
Mr P trousers. And a pair of old Nikes.
And sports socks.
When I am off duty, I think I dress slightly like an 11-year-old. You know, when you’re just plodding the streets, I wear, like, a hoodie and trainers.
And you have a chain round your neck.
This is a chain that I bought in New York. No, maybe I bought it in Italy. It was a replacement chain. I’ve worn a chain for years. Sometimes I like to have it as a reminder that I’m not working. When you’re in character, you take it off. Because when you’re in a show or a play, they sort of own you. They own your hair.
They own your hair!
Or sometimes you have to walk around with, like, a stupid moustache. Or, worse, chops. Actors fucking hate that. Like, nobody suits that, I don’t think. Right? I’m trying to think of someone who suits that.
Daniel Day Lewis, maybe? He can carry it off.
He’s got the chops for chops!
What’s something about you that you think is typically Irish?
It goes back to that people thing. When I go home to Ireland, I’m aware that people talk to each other a lot more. And I think there’s a sense of humour that Irish people have that I love. And I suppose a softness, too, that I love. Those are the positive things. And then the guilt and the shame is the negative stuff.
Catholic guilt?
Catholic guilt. I feel very strongly, though, that I’ve worked to emancipate myself from it. There’s a certain unthinking-ness to guilt. Your first thought, always: “What have I done wrong? It’s gotta be me.” That doesn’t benefit anyone. And with shame, I don’t feel shame anymore. I think I probably did before. But in a way, it’s an irrelevant thing for me to talk about now. The thing I prefer to talk about is how great it is not to have that anymore. Rather than how horrible it was. The thing I feel enthusiastic about is how there are so many beautiful and different ways to live a life that aren’t centred on the very strict, Catholic, cultural idea of what a good life might be. Namely, 2.4 children and certain ideas and a very specific life.
Are there positives to be taken away from a Catholic education?
The rituals around grief, I think, are really beautiful, having gone through what I’ve just been going through. And the community that you get in Catholicism. Because that’s what Catholicism is about, in some ways: devotion to your community. The amount of love and support you get is to be admired. It’s the organisation that has been the problem, not the values. Random question number 16!
When’s the last time you were horrifically drunk?
Good question! I was in New York doing press recently for Ripley. And I met Paul Mescal. He had a negroni waiting for me. Love a negroni. And then we went dancing.
Are you a good dancer?
I’m pretty good, freestyle. Slow on choreography but once I get it, I’m OK. I love dancing.
I love dancing.
Do you really? Do you do, like, choreographed dancing as well?
No! But I’m a good dancer.
Do you have moves?
Oh, I have moves.
Ha! I love that!
It’s so freeing, so liberating.
It totally is.
And it’s sexy and fun.
Exactly! It’ll get you a kiss at the end of the night.
It’s sort of showing off, too, isn’t it?
But it’s also completely communal. It connects you with people. Also, you can learn so much about someone by watching how they connect with people on a dance floor. How much of communication do they say is non-verbal? An enormous amount.
If you didn’t live in London, where would you most like to live?
I suppose Dublin. I do live a wee bit in Dublin. But one of the things I feel really grateful for is that I have sort of been able to live all over the place. I lived in Italy for a year, during the pandemic.
You were making Ripley?
Yeah, we were all over. Rome, Venice, Capri, Naples… A bit of New York. I’d love to spend more time in New York. I was very lucky recently to have my picture taken by Annie Leibovitz. We were outside the Chelsea Hotel, and this woman came up. [Thick Noo Yawk accent, shouting]: “Hey, Annie! Why don’t you take a picture of this dumpster? It’s been outside my block for two months! Take a picture of that!” There’s something about that New York-iness that I love. It still has such romance for me.
How old do you feel?
Really young. I don’t have an exact age for you. Thirties?
Some people feel in touch with their childhood selves, or almost unchanged from adolescence. Others seem to have been born an adult.
That’s really true. I think of playgrounds for children: you’re actively encouraged to play, as a kid. “Go out and play!” And I hate that at some point, maybe in your mid-twenties, someone goes, “Now, don’t play! Now, know everything. Now, turn on the television, acquire a mortgage and tell people what you know.” I have to play for a living. It’s so important, not just in your job, but in life. It’s a great pleasure of life, if you can hold on to that. Talking about my mum again, she had an amazing sense of fun.
She was a funny person? She made people laugh?
Absolutely.
That’s important, isn’t it?
It’s really important. I think having a sense of humour is one of the most important things in life. It’s such a tool. And you can develop it. My family were all funny. Laughter was a currency in our family. Humour is a magic weapon. It separates us from the other species. Like, I love my dog. I think dogs are amazing. And he can have fun, but he’s not able to go, “This is fucking ridiculous.” He’s not able to do that! So it’s a real signifier of your humanity, in some ways.
Also, being a funny person, or someone who can connect with people through humour, that’s how we make friends.
I think actors make really good friends. Because you’re in the empathy game. And because you’re making the decision to go into an industry that is really tough, you need to have your priorities straight: “I know this is tough, I know the chances of me succeeding in it are slim, but I’m going to go in anyway.” It shows a sort of self-possession that I think is a wonderful thing to have in a friend. Also, actors are just funny. And a lot of them are sexy!
Funny and sexy: good combination.
I know! Not that you want all your friends to be sexy, that’s not how you should choose your friends.
Oh, I don’t know. It’s not the worst idea.
It’s not. But I think it’s something to do with empathy. And it’s a troupe mentality as well. You’re good in groups.
It’s a gang.
I love a gang. Do you like a gang?
I do. Magazines are like that. A good magazine is a team, a great magazine is a gang. And the thing we produce is only part of it: you put it out there and people make of it what they will. The process of making it is the thing, for me.
Oh, my God. That’s something I feel more and more. Process is as important as product. I really believe that. You can have an extraordinary product, but if it was an absolute nightmare to make then, ultimately, that’s what you’re going to remember about it. You make good things that are successful that everybody loves? That’s lovely. But also, you make stuff that people don’t respond to. So, if you have a good time in the process, and the attempt is a valiant one, and there’s a good atmosphere, if it’s kind and fun, that’s the stuff you hold on to. One of the reasons I love the theatre is you don’t have to see the product. You just do it, and then it’s done. It’s an art form that is ephemeral. There’s a big liberation, too, in discovering you don’t have to watch any of your films if you don’t want to.
Have you watched Ripley?
I watched Ripley once.
And?
It’s a lot of me in it! Jesus!
Is that a problem?
I find it hard to watch myself. I do. There’s something quite stressful about looking at yourself. Have you ever heard yourself on someone’s answering machine? Horrific! You’re like, “Oh, my God, that can’t be me. How do they let me out in the day?” It’s like that, and then it’s your big, stupid face as well. Mostly, I have a feeling of overwhelming embarrassment.
On a cinema screen, I can’t even imagine. Your face the size of a house!
The size of a house, and there’s 400 people watching you.
Nature did not intend humans to ever experience this.
That is so true. It’s not natural.
I mean, even mirrors are to be avoided.
Maybe looking in the sea is the only natural way?
Well, Narcissus!
Yeah, true. That didn’t turn out well. I’d love for that to be a tagline for a movie, though: “Nature did not intend humans to ever experience this…”
But equally, nature didn’t intend the rest of us to gaze upon you in quite that way. We sit in the dark, staring up worshipfully at this giant image of you projected on a screen for hours. Is that healthy?
Without talking about the purity of theatre again, when you’re in the theatre, you, as the audience, see someone walking on the stage, and technically you could go up there, too. There’s not that remove. It’s live. There’s a real intimacy. That’s why I feel it’s the real actor’s medium. Your job is to create an atmosphere. I always find it insanely moving, even still, that adults go into the dark and say, “I know this is fake, but I don’t care: tell me a story.” And they gasp, and they cry, or they’re rolling around the aisles laughing. It’s so extraordinary, so wonderful that it exists. I really do believe in the arts as a human need. I believe in it so deeply. During the pandemic, our first question to each other was, “What are you watching? What book are you reading?” Just to get through it, to survive. It’s not just some sort of frivolous thing. It’s a necessity. As human beings, we tell stories. Expert storytellers are really vital. No, it’s not brain surgery. But, “Hearts starve as well as bodies. Give us bread, but give us roses.” I love that quote.
Tell me about playing Hamlet. Was it what you expected it would be?
It’s extraordinary. Loads of different reasons why. From an acting point of view, there’s no part of you that isn’t being used. So you have to, first of all, have enormous physical stamina, because it’s nearly four hours long. Our version was three hours, 50 minutes. And you have to be a comedian, you have to be a soldier, you have to be a prince, you have to be the romantic hero, you have to be the sorrowful son, you have to understand the rhythm of the language, you have to be able to hit the back of the auditorium — there are just so many things about it that require all those muscles to be exercised. You know, it’s so funny that we’re talking about this today. Because at the beginning of Hamlet, it’s two months since his dad died. His mother has already remarried, to his uncle! What are they doing? I mean the idea that next month my dad might marry someone else is so extraordinary! So, Hamlet’s not mad. Of course he would wear black clothes and be a bit moody. The more interesting question [than whether or not Hamlet is mad] is, who was he before? I think he’s incredibly funny. It’s a really funny play, Hamlet. And it’s a funny play that deals in life and death: the undiscovered country from which no traveller returns. It’s about what it is to be human. And what it’s like to be human is funny, and sad. The language is so incredibly beautiful and it’s also incredibly actable. And it’s also a thriller.
And a ghost story. It’s supernatural.
It’s a supernatural ghost story. And because the character is so well-rounded, I always think of it like a vessel into which you can pour any actor or actress. So, your version, the bits you would respond to if you were playing Hamlet, would be completely different to mine or anyone else’s. It can embrace so many kinds of actors. So Richard Burton can play it or Ben Whishaw can play it or Ruth Negga can play it or I can play it, and it’s going to bring out completely different sides. Did you do much Shakespeare at school?
I did. I studied Hamlet.
I remember Mark Rylance said…
[The waiter arrives with our pies and we both take a moment to admire them before breaking the crusts… The following passages are occasionally hard to make out due to enthusiastic chewing.]
You were about to say something about Mark Rylance. I saw his Hamlet in… must have been 1989, when I was doing my A-levels. He did it in his pyjamas.
I’ve heard. He came to see [my] Hamlet. He said, you feel like you’re on a level with it, and then in week four, you plummet through the layers of the floor and you’re on a deeper level. He was exactly right. Something happens. It’s just got depth.
Does it change you? Do you learn something new about yourself, as an actor?
I think because it’s such a tall order for an actor, it’s sort of like you feel you can do anything after that. Like, at least this is not as hard as Hamlet. You know you have those muscles now. We transferred it from The Almeida on to the West End. So, we did it loads of times. That’s a big achievement.
How many times did you play him?
One hundred and fifty. Twice on a Wednesday, twice on a Saturday. Eight hours [on those days]. Even just for your voice, it’s a lot.
We keep coming back to theatre. Is that because you prefer it?
It goes directly into your veins. It’s pure. You start at the beginning of the story and you go through to the end. When you’re making a movie, it’s a different process. Your imagination is constantly interrupted. You do something for two minutes and then someone comes in and goes, “OK, now we’re going to do Alex’s close-up, so you go back to your trailer and we’re going to set up all the lights and make sure that window across the street is properly lit.” And that’s another 20 minutes, and then you try to get back into the conversation we’ve just been having… And so the impetus is a different one.
The Hot Priest…
What’s that?
Ha! I watched Fleabag again, last week. It’s so good. But The Hot Priest, he’s a coward. He gets a chance at happiness with the love of his life and he doesn’t take it.
Well, not to judge my character, but I suppose there’s an argument that he does choose love. He chooses God. That’s the great love of his life. Whatever his spirituality has given him, he has to choose that. Is there a way that they could have made that [relationship] work? Of course there is. We’re seeing it from Fleabag’s point of view, literally, so of course it feels awful [that Fleabag and the Priest can’t be together]. But I think we understand it, the thing that is not often represented on screen but which an awful lot of people have, which is the experience of having a massive connection with somebody, a real love, that doesn’t last forever. I think somebody watching that can think, “I have my version of that. And I know that I loved that person, but I also know why we couldn’t be together.” And that doesn’t mean those relationships are any less significant. It just means that they are impossible to make work on a practical level. Not all love stories end the same way.
Annie Hall.
There you go! La La Land. Love that movie.
The Hot Priest is damaged. There’s a darkness there. Journalists interviewing actors look at the body of work and try to find through lines that we can use to create a narrative. It’s often a false narrative, I know that. However, that’s what we’re here for! Let’s take Hamlet, and the Priest, and Adam from All of Us Strangers, and, I guess, Vanya himself, even Moriarty. These are not happy-go-lucky guys. Ripley! These men seem lost, lonely, sad. Is it ridiculous to suggest that there’s something in you that draws you to these characters — or is it a coincidence?
That’s a really good question. I think it can’t be a coincidence. Like, even when you said “happy-go-lucky”, right? My immediate instinct is to say, “Show me this happy-go-lucky person.” With a different prism on this person, there would be a part of him that’s not happy-go-lucky, because that’s the way human beings are. If we could think now of a part that’s the opposite of the kind of part [he typically plays], a happy-go-lucky character…
How about the kinds of roles that Hugh Grant plays in those rom-coms? Yeah, the character might be a little bit repressed, a bit awkward at first, but basically everything’s cool, then he meets a beautiful woman, it doesn’t work out for about five minutes, and then it does. The end.
[Chuckles] OK, yeah. I’d love to have a go at that.
Wouldn’t you like to do that?
I would! I really would.
Why haven’t you?
I don’t know! It’s weird. That is something I would really love to do. Because I love those films. There’s a joy to them. It’s something I would love to embrace now. When I was growing up, as a young actor, I did want to play the darkness. With Moriarty, I was like, “I’ve got this in me and I’d like to express it.” And, conversely, now I think the opposite. I know that’s a little bit ironic, given I’ve just played Tom Ripley. Ha! But I have just played it, and I have spent a lot of time in characters that are isolated. And I was in a play [Vanya] that was one person. I don’t feel sad doing those things. It’s cathartic. But I would love the idea of doing something different.
Also, you don’t strike me as a person who is especially morose.
No! No, no, no. I’m not. But again, we all contain multitudes. My mother’s legacy was so joyful. Not that she didn’t have her soulful moments, because of course she did. I mean this as the opposite of morbidity, but it doesn’t end well for any of us, it really doesn’t. So bathing in the murkier waters, it’s wonderful to be able to explore that side of you, but also the opposite is true, the idea of joy and fun and lightness is something I’m definitely interested in. Like a musical! I’d love to be in a musical. I’ve just done a cameo in a comedy that I can’t talk about yet. It was just a day, with someone I really love, and it just lifted me up. But of course, there’s the stuff that people associate you with, and that’s what brings you to the table.
You played a baddie really well, so you get more baddies.
Yeah. You have to be quite ferocious about that. You have to go, “Oh, wow, that really is a great film-maker, that’s a lovely opportunity…” But how much time do you have left and what do you want to put out to the world? I feel like I want to be able to manifest what I have within me now. That’s a wonderful thing to be able to do. It’s such a privilege. And I feel so grateful for the opportunities I’ve been given. But why not get out of the hay barn and play in the hay?
Ripley has been well received. Do you read reviews?
I read some of them.
Why?
I’m interested in the audience. You know when people say, “You should never care about what other people think?” Of course I care what people think.
Ripley is excellent, but it’s quite gruelling to watch. Was it gruelling to make?
Yeah.
Because you have to inhabit this deeply unhappy person?
Maybe not unhappy. But very isolated, I think that’s key. It was hard. There was a huge amount of actual acting. Doing 12-hour days for almost a year. I’m not necessarily convinced you should act that much.
Ripley is himself an actor. He puts on other people’s identities because he doesn’t like his own. He doesn’t like himself. Some people think actors are people who don’t like themselves so you pretend to be other people, assume other identities. Or maybe it’s that actors are hollow shells. When you’re not acting, there’s no one there. No you. Sorry to be rude.
No, it’s not rude at all. I totally understand it. But I find it to be completely the opposite of what I’ve learnt. The essence of acting, for me, the great catharsis of it, is that you’re not pretending to be somebody else, you’re exploring different sides of yourself. You’re going, who would I be in these circumstances? Some of the darkest, most unhappy people I know are the people who say, “I don’t have an angry bone in my body.” Then why do I feel so tense around you? People who have no anger… I remember I used to have it with some religious people when I was growing up. People proclaiming that they’re happy or good or kind, that does not necessarily mean that they are happy or good or kind. That’s the brand they’re selling. I’ve always liked that expression: “fame is the mask that eats into the face.” How do you keep a healthy life when you’re pretending to be other people? You do it by going, “I’m going to admit I have a dark side.” It’s much healthier to shout at a fictional character in a swimming pool [as Moriarty does in Sherlock] than it is to be rude to a waiter in a restaurant, in real life.
You find that therapeutic?
Yes, you’re still expressing that anger. I think it is therapeutic.
So playing Tom Ripley every day for a year, were you able to exorcise something, or work through something?
Well, that’s why I found Tom Ripley quite difficult. He’s hard to know, and a harder character to love. If you think of Adam in All of Us Strangers, you go, “OK, I understand what your pain is.” What I understand with Tom, the essence of that character, is that he’s somebody who has a big chasm that is unknowable, perhaps even to himself. We’re all a little bit like that, we’re all sometimes mysterious to ourselves — “I don’t know why I did that…” — but to have empathy for someone like that is difficult. You know the boy in your class who gets bullied, and it’s awful, and you try and understand it but he doesn’t make it easier for himself? That’s the way I feel about Tom Ripley. It’s a thorny relationship. Your first job as an actor is to advocate for the character. That’s why I hate him being described as a psychopath. Everyone else can say what they like about him, but I have to be like, ‘Maybe he’s just… hangry?’ So you have to try and empathise, try and understand. When we call people who do terrible things monsters — “This evil monster!” — I think that’s a way of absenting yourself from that darkness. Because it’s not a monster. It’s a human being that did this. You can’t look away from the fact that human beings, sometimes for completely unknowable reasons, do terrible things. And that’s why it’s interesting when people talk about Tom Ripley. They say, “Have you ever met a Tom Ripley type?” The reason the character is so enduring is because there’s Tom Ripley in all of us. That’s why we kind of want him to get away with it. That’s [Highsmith’s] singular achievement, I think.
I find reading the Ripley books quite unpleasant. It’s a world I really don’t want to spend any time in. I read two of them preparing for this. She’s a great writer, but they’re horrible characters; it’s a depressing world.
I agree. That’s what I found most challenging. Where is the beating heart here? How much time do I want to spend here? And when you do, well, it took its toll. It did make me question how much time I want to spend with that character, absolutely. That’s the truth.
The way you play him, he’s very controlled. You didn’t play him big.
I think it’s important to offer up difference facets of the character to the director and he chooses the ones he feels marry to his vision. And those are the ones [Steven Zaillian] chose. And he executed those expertly.
Are you a member of any clubs?
Yeah, I’m a member of the Mile High Club. No, no…
That’ll do nicely.
OK, that’s my answer.
What’s your earliest memory?
Do they still have, I think it’s called a play pen?
Sort of like tiny little jails for toddlers? What a good idea they were!
I remember being massively happy in it. My mother used to say she just used to fling me in that thing and give me random kitchen utensils. I don’t know, like a spoon. I’ve always been quite good in my own company. I really remember being left to my own imagination and being very happy.
Do you live alone now?
Yeah.
Is that not lonely?
Of course I’ve experienced that but, ultimately, no. I don’t know if that’s the way I’m going to be for the rest of my life. But I certainly don’t feel lonely. I’ve got so much love in my life.
Would it be OK if you lived alone for the rest of your life?
Yeah. It would be OK. One of my great heroes is Esther Perel.
I don’t know who that is.
Esther Perel. She’s a sort of love and relationships expert, a therapist, and she’s a writer. A real hero, I think you’d really dig her. She talks about relationships and the mythology around them. The difference between safety and freedom. She talks with real compassion about both men and women; she talks about this idea of what we think we want, and what we really want. And how there’s only one prototype for a successful life, really, or a successful relationship. Which is: you meet somebody, da-da-da, you fall in love, da-da-da, you have kids, da-da-da. And that prototype just can’t suit every person in the world. There are some people who live in the world who might see their partner every second Tuesday and that suits them. And to be able to understand and communicate your own preference at any given time is really the aim. To be able to say, “At the moment I’m happy in the way I am, but maybe at some point…” I’ve lived with people before, and maybe I will again, but at the moment it feels right to sort of keep it fluid.
The difficulty, of course, with relationships, is there’s another person with their own preferences. Maybe you’re OK with every second Tuesday, but they need Thursdays and Fridays, too…
But isn’t that the beauty of love? That you construct something, like a blanket. You stitch all these things together. One of the things about being gay and having a life that ultimately is slightly different from the majority of people’s, is you learn that you can create your own way of living, that is different and wonderful. A homosexual relationship doesn’t necessarily have to ape what a heterosexual relationship is. That’s a very important thing to acknowledge. I mean, of course, if you want to do that, that’s brilliant. But you don’t have to. To me, the worst thing is to be dishonest or uncommunicative or unhappy or joyless in a relationship. It’s much more important to be able to have a difficult conversation or a brave conversation about how you feel or what you want. So many of my gay friends, I feel very proud of them, really admiring of the fact we have these conversations. It seems very adult and very loving to be able to acknowledge that the difference between safety and freedom can be real torture for some people. How do I love somebody, and still keep my own sense of autonomy and adventure? That’s a real problem. That’s what Esther Perel says. It’s one of the biggest causes of the demise of a relationship. That people coast along, they can’t have that conversation, and then the whole bottom falls out of the boat.
I wasn’t necessarily going to ask you about being gay. One tries to avoid labelling you as “gay actor Andrew Scott” instead of “actor Andrew Scott, who happens to be gay”. But since we’re talking about it already: because you’re famous, you become a de facto spokesperson for gay people. People look to you for the “gay opinion.” Are you OK with that?
I’ll tell you my thoughts on that. If I talk about it in every interview, it sounds like I want to talk about it in every interview. And, of course, I’m asked about it in most interviews, so I’m going to answer it because I’m not ashamed of it. But sometimes I think the more progressive thing to do is what you’re saying: to not talk about it and hopefully for people to realise that if you had to go into work every single day and they said, “Hey, Alex! Still straight? How’s that going?”… I mean, being gay is not even particularly interesting, any more than being straight is. But I understand, and I’m happy to talk about it. I suppose it depends on the scenario. I just don’t want to ever give the impression that it isn’t a source of huge joy in my life. And at this stage in my life, rather than talk about how painful it might have been or the shame, or not getting cast in things [because of it], actually, I’m so proud of the fact that I’m able to play all these different parts and, hopefully, in some ways it demystifies it and makes people — not just gay people, but all people — go, “Oh, yeah, that’s great that it’s represented in the world, but being gay is not your number-one attribute.” The problem is it becomes your schtick. Frankly, I feel like I’ve got just a bit more to offer than that.
Two reasons I think you get asked about being gay. One is just prurience — you’re famous and we want to know who you’re shagging — and the other is that identity politics is such an obsession, and so polarising, and we hope you’ll say something controversial.
I think that’s right, I think that’s what it is. But sometimes people think there’s just one answer, in 15 characters or less. That’s something I resist, slightly.
All of Us Strangers is about loads of things, about grief, love, loneliness, but it’s also very specifically about being gay. To me, anyway.
Yes, it is.
I thought, in particular, that the scene with Claire Foy, where your character comes out to his mother, was incredibly moving.
Isn’t it extraordinary, though, that you, who is not a gay person, could find that so moving? There’s no way you’d find that moving if it was only about being gay. I always say that coming out has nothing to do with sex. When you’re talking to your parent, you’re not thinking, “Oh, this is making me feel a bit frisky.” Anyone can understand that this is about somebody who has something within them — in this case, it’s about sexuality — that he hopes is not going to be the reason that his parents don’t speak to him anymore. And I think we all have that: “I hope you still love me.” And the great pleasure about All of Us Strangers is that it’s reached not just a particular type of audience, but all types of people. And I love they’re able to market it to everyone. Usually they do this weird thing where they pretend the film’s not gay…
Right. There would be a picture of a woman on the poster.
Exactly. Someone who’s playing the neighbour! But now you’re able to market a film with Paul [Mescal] and I, and the fact is that that’s going to sell tickets. I know there’s a long way to go, but that is progression. Before, that wasn’t the case. This time, no one gave a fuck. Nothing bad happened. The world didn’t explode. Family didn’t collapse.
Identity politics question: there’s an opinion now frequently expressed that gay people ought to be played by gay actors, and so on. What are your thoughts on that?
The way I look at it, if somebody was to make a film about my life — it’d be quite a weird film — would I want only gay actors to be auditioned to play me? I would say that I’m more than my sexuality. But there might be another gay person who feels that’s incredibly important to who they are and how they would like to be represented on film. How do we balance that? I don’t know. I don’t have an easy answer on that. I think it’s a case-by-case thing.
You’ve played straight people and gay people. You’re Irish but you’ve played English people and American people. I would hope you would be able to continue doing that.
The question I suppose is opportunity, and who gets it. It was very frustrating to me, when I was growing up, that there were no gay actors.
Well, there were lots of gay actors…
But not “out” gay actors. Now there are more. Representation is so important. So I think it’s complicated, and nuanced. And talking about it in a general way rather than a specific way is not always helpful. It depends which film we are talking about. Which actor.
You were spared the curse of instant mega-fame, aged 22. Would you have handled that well?
No. I think all that scrutiny and opinion, it’s a lot. Now I’m able to look at a bad review or somebody saying something really horrible about the way I look, or even someone saying really nice things about that, and go [shrugs]. Before, when that happened, it was devastating. But I survived and it was fine, and I got another job and I was able to kiss someone at a disco, so… Whereas if you’re 22 and you don’t have that experience behind you, you go, “Oh, my God. This is horrible, what do I do?” And also, there’s much more scrutiny now, so much more. I think that must be really hard. Social media is a crazy thing, isn’t it?
I think it’s a horrible thing, on the whole.
That thing you were saying about cinema, about how it’s not natural to see yourself, or other people like that… The amount of information that we’re supposed to absorb and process? Wow. You wake up in the morning and you’re already looking at it.
They used to say that the fame of TV actors was of a different order because they are in your home. People felt they knew the stars of Coronation Street in a much more intimate way, while movie stars, Cary Grant or whoever, these were much more remote, almost mythical creatures. People who are famous on Instagram or TikTok are in the palm of your hand talking to you all day.
And it’s so interesting what people on social media choose to tell you about their lives, even when nobody’s asking them any questions. Like, is that person insane? It’s a very dangerous thing. I find it troubling.
Do you think things are getting better or are they getting worse?
That’s such a good question. I have to believe they’re getting better. I don’t know what that says about me.
It says you’re an optimist.
I think I am an optimist.
What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever put in your mouth?
Fucking hell. Do you know what I don’t like? Any food that you don’t have to put any effort into eating.
Give me an example.
Custard.
Yes!
I don’t mind ice cream, because it’s got a bit of texture. But I don’t like mashed potato. I don’t like creamed potatoes, or creamed anything.
Risotto?
Absolutely borderline. So if it’s got a little bite to it, it’s OK. But baby food. Ugh! Makes me feel a bit sick.
What’s your favourite of your own body parts?
Ahahah! What do I like? What have we got? I don’t mind my nose? My eyes are OK. Like, my eyes are definitely expressive, God knows. Fucking hell. I remember I was in rehearsal once, and the director said, “Andrew, I just don’t know what you’re thinking.” And the whole company started to laugh. They were like “You don’t? What the fuck is wrong with you?” Because I think I’ve got quite a readable face.
Which is a tool for an actor, right?
It can be a tool for an actor. But you have to learn what your face does, as an actor. On film, your thoughts really are picked up.
What’s your favourite body part that belongs to someone else?
I like hands. And I like teeth. Someone with a nice smile.
Are you similar to your dad?
Yeah, I am. He’s pretty soft-natured, which I think I am, to a degree. He likes fun, too. And he likes people. He’s good at talking to people. He’s kind of sensitive, emotional. He’s a lovely man, a very dutiful dad to us, very loyal.
Would you miss the attention if your fame disappeared overnight?
I definitely think I would miss an audience, if that’s what you mean. The ability to tell a story in front of an audience, I’d miss that. Not to have that outlet.
Before you got famous, you were having a pretty decent career, working with good people, getting interesting parts. Would it have been OK to just carry on being that guy, under the radar?
Oh, my God, yes. Absolutely.
Would you have preferred that to the fame?
The thing is, what it affords you is the opportunity to be cast in really good stuff. You get better roles, particularly on screen. And I’m quite lucky. I have a manageable amount of fame, for the most part.
Some people are born for fame. They love it. They’re flowers to the sun. Others should never have become famous. They can’t handle it. You’ve found you’re OK with it.
Do you know what I feel? I feel, if I was in something I didn’t like, if I was getting lots of attention for something I didn’t feel was representative of me, I think I’d feel quite differently. I feel very relaxed, doing this interview with you today. I feel like, whatever you’re going to ask me, I would feel self-possessed enough to say, “Alex, do you mind if we don’t talk about that?”
Shall we leave it there, then?
Thank you. That was lovely.'
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