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feathercreates · 3 months

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"Old friend... I miss you so much. I'm so sorry."

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coldshrugs · 6 months

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take a deep breath

vierapril day 10: breath

#io laithe #ffxiv #endwalker spoilers #azia gposes #vierapril24 #posting these out of order and at 2am T^T failing the community event #GOD. my game crashed during my first attempt of this and i wasn't sure i'd feel like redo-ing it #but tbh i've been thinking about this for a minute #what it means for her to be A Hero and still have anxiety on a good day. but on the bad days...#what it means to the people who love her most to see her break #maybe not for the first time but in a raw and scary way they haven't witnessed before #so important to me that thancred is the one who goes to her first (and who takes her inside). idk. their friendship is so special!!!#and estinien's shock is also v important to me (peep him dropping his lance). he's feeling so many things rn alkjsfdlk

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conspicuous-clown-car · 2 months

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okay so, let me make it 100% clear, I DO NOT SUPPORT DISNEY OR ANY OTHER COMPANY THAT GIVES MONEY TO IS-NOT-REAL OR SUPPORTS THE GENOCIDE.

i get that giving positive attention to anything disney related could cause someone who doesnt care about the boycott to give disney their money BUT GUESS WHAT!! I CANT STOP WHAT OTHER PEOPLE DO!!! AND INSIDE OUT 2 IS ALREADY POPULAR AS FUCK

so think whatever you want about me, ive wasted enough mental energy stressing over one person, im tired. im gonna blorbo post. dont like? block.

in the words of an anon, im going to enjoy that weird little orange Thang to my hearts content, thank you, free Palestine

anyways im gonna ramble about her, spoilers below ig

Anxiety's anxiety attack gave me a visceral reaction and literally made me cry because of how similar it was to how i experience anxiety/panic attacks, and i just relate to her so much in general with her planning and obsession to be perfect and in control. i also really appreciate how she wasnt seen as a fully "bad" emotion either, and that sometimes anxiety can be necessary and helpful. i just really enjoy her as a character because when i was younger it was rare to see anxiety/panic attacks in kids movies, and at that time i was dealing regular and debilitating anxiety/panic attacks and severe anxiety in general, like to the point that i was agoraphobic. it made me wish i had this movie when i was a kid to know i wasn't broken, but it makes me happy that kids have this movie now. but yea anxiety is a comfort character now, i will literally MAKE a plushie of her if i get more obsessed with her

#im done man #just let me be autistic in peace #if you break boycott to watch inside out 2 in theaters or to buy anything disney related because of me just block me i dont want you here #like genuinely #if anyone other than that one person has a genuine issue with me posting about anxiety from inside out 2. let me know.#i wasnt even gonna post any drawings of her here at first but here we are #inside out 2 #anxiety inside out #inside out anxiety #inside out 2 anxiety #anxiety inside out 2 #free palestine #kirbsart

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jinhogae · 3 months

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It's not my fault you can't sit with the hard thing, you really thought you would get what you wanted.

#bloodhounds #bloodhounds netflix #woo do hwan #park sung woong #kdramaedit #kdramadaily #asiandramasource #asiandramaedit #dailyasiandramas #userjinki #seamayweed #tusermona #rinblr #tuserkinga #usergif #*gifs #for once not tagging blood or violence for them ... a first!#see they can be neat ... anyways u ever think about how they put the causes of their lives on each other (all bc of myeonggil)#and only one of them managed to break free because where they are different is gunwoo's hope compared to the rot inside of myeonggil <3

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silverskye13 · 2 months

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Trying to analyze the tropes in my own fics to see if I think they're successful as component pieces and getting so confused I give myself psychic damage send help

#spazzcat barks #i was trying to figure out how -- if at all -- the 5 man band structure appears in RnS #Helsknight has been labeled: Leader Lancer and Strong Man #i think i am more firmly planting him on Lancer/Strong Man #but the story itself makes a compelling case for Helsknight is the leader but the story is narrated by his Lancer [Tanguish]#Tanguish not surprisingly Ive put in: Hero/Leader Lancer and Heart #EB i think could be Strong Man or Heart with emphasis on Heart #Martyn could be the Smart Guy for Tanguish or the Lancer for Helsknight #in which case if Martyn is Helsknights Lancer than Tanguish could compellingly be Helsknight's Smart Guy instead #conversely Tango doesnt fit into the 5 man band structure. he is instead an inciting insident / catalyst #who could become a support character role a la Heart later but only once he gets more screen time #as of right now hes very one dimensional #meanwhile Welsknight is one of three plot antagonists #the Main Antagonist is the Universe/Death #it represents a force of nature antag #the major secondary Antag and the Tanguish specific antag is the Demon #he represents what needs to change about the world and the concepts that Tanguish is ideallgocally opposed to #Welsknight however is theeeeeee #oh words #i belive its called the Saboteur? Antag archetype?#he is the thing that breaks things down from the inside #also to be further established #anyway ive been thinking about this for hours >:/#if i can not put my little guys into their assigned boxes i think that means i didnt quite make the mark on those boxes #which isnt inherently bad -- the main cast of RnS is a duo Hero/Right Hand Man archetype first #and a 5 man band second #but still! frustrating

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akkivee · 11 months

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can’t believe they just highlighted ichiro and kuukou’s hand size difference and matching rings set up in one swoop like that lmao

#this is vee speaking #like can you believe that lmao????? they break up and somehow still match each other despite the years being apart lol #they’re soulmates fr lol you can tell because their right hand pinkies are bare to keep their connected red thread of fate unobstructed lol #oooooooh that reminds me of some ichikuu art i wanted to make after track 5 came out hmmmmmmm #ngl i hope we’re getting more nb interactions between them lmao #i love kuukou and ichiro’s very brief back and forth that cleared the air between them #but i also feel like they were referencing a conversation we haven’t seen like an inside joke between them lol #and i would like that context lol but if it doesn’t happen then it doesn’t happen lol #BUT I WOULD LIKE FOR IT TO HAPPEN—#also????? i think it was really cute when kuukou approached ichiro the first time saburo actually turned to look at ichiro concerned???????#like he knew kuukou was one of ichiro’s hurts??????? and was happy when they were cool again saburo wtf?????????

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b4kuch1n · 9 months

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what if I stream tonite. for dragon business

#bakuspeech #taking one (1) day break from comm bc my brain was starting to melt outta my ears #and try to figure out some lunar new year stuff instead #it is now a new year and the red envelope duty has come around once again #second year. I drew cats for the niblings last year. its dragons this time around #and since its like 20 red envelopes I can Probably fix up and assemble the myself #I dont. like the idea of buying red envelopes. esp since there will be like A Doller inside lmao #I'd rather use the card envelopes with something scribbled on top rather than buy red envelopes. idk Im a weirdo abt this #but yeah. dragons first. and then I'll see if the shrink film I have is printable #if not I'll do stickers. I still have sticker paper #thats the plan. I'll probs bring up all the shit that happened to or around me in 2023 on stream lmao #and see if my friends are good to hang out on stream with me #okay. alright. uhhh probs I'll try and be live at 8pm (in 3hrs)? been a slow day Ive done nothing but walking very slowly around the house #mmm. have a good day guys. perhaps see u on stream. lets have fun

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cerealmonster15 · 2 months

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truly genuinely why do some people just not lock their car doors... thats absolutely unheard of to me yet every so often someone casually will mention it and im like ?????? you just leave it open???? for anyone to have easy access????????

#my capoeira leader guy was warning us the other day that #someone was found sleeping inside someones car that i guess theyd left unlocked at the parking lot of the place we practice at #and he was like 'and i usually leave my car unlocked-'#and im sitting there like YOU DO??????????????????#why 😭#like if ur locks r broken or w/e that's different but why purposefully do that #or when people would leave their dorm / apartment doors unlocked #my partner would leave his apartment door unlocked before we lived together / at a different location #bc it was one where you needed a key card to get in the building first #and im like THATS GREAT BUT PEOPLE WITH KEY CARDS ARE STILL CAPABLE OF BREAKING AND ENTERING??????????????#MANY PEOPLE HAVE ACCESS TO THIS BUILDING LOCK YOUR DAMN DOOR #absolutely baffling behavior.#we lock our current apartment door always tho

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blueheartedwolf · 3 months

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I wish I could find a doctor that wants to find out what’s actually wrong with me instead of recommending prescriptions to address the symptoms. I’m so tired of being recommended ibuprofen for debilitating pain. Tired of relaying my medical history to a new doctor and getting the same furrowed brow and shrugging shoulders I get every time. Tired of having so-called medical professionals ask why I need a cane if I’m able to walk down their clinic hallway without it. When will someone fucking help me?

#Leif barks #this is gonna get vent-y and shit in the tags just general mental and physical health issue TW #I’ve really given up on going to doctors atp #I used to have at least one sometimes two dr appts every week and I haven’t seen anyone in 6 months #saw a specialist in January for an MRI follow up and he basically went “wow your spine is fucked up! want some pregablin?“#I am 25yo with degenerative disc disease in 4 discs and facet joint arthritis and you as a specialist are not concerned?#because I sure fucking am!#why is my spinal column breaking down inside my body #I also developed an eating disorder in all of this mess bc when my symptoms first started at like 21yo #the only thing I heard from dr’s was “lose weight” so guess what I did #150lbs in a year and a half #and now when I go to a dr I get congratulated for losing it and then get told to take ibuprofen again #also wow getting told you did a good job at starving yourself is a crazy mind fuck #like you can look at my chart and see the weight loss in real time and that’s apparently wasn’t concerning either #I’ve stopped losing weight but now I’m terrified of gaining and I’m in this maintenance limbo that is literal torture on my brain and body #I’m just over here suffering #I tentatively started therapy again bc the depression-anxiety-cptsd-autism-eating disorder combo is killing me #and I’m not kidding I got three sessions in and she told me I’m too much for her to handle #so I guess I will be letting it kill me bc I don’t know what the fuck to do

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elytrafemme · 1 month

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my best friend (no. 4, i'll start assigning emojis soon for lore followers) asked me about BPD and i told them i'd talk more about it in person because BPD is the exact overlap of my own lived experience (note: i am not diagnosed but have extensive history with BPD in a secret more confusing way) and my psychological interest. but like now i'm thinking about it and generally speaking i think anything that was a symptom towards BPD i experienced has either grown more mild now that i'm out of an active trauma situation, OR has just become part of what i consider my amorphous CPTSD thing,

but i do like. think about the efforts to avoid perceived/real abandonment. and maybe i've not gone to the lengths some folks might with this but to be honest the more i think back to my own personal history the more i realize that i do in fact repeatedly do insane shit to avoid abandonment 😭

#NEVER beating the abandonment issues allegations #haunted by the time someone tried to break up with me and i told them they could cheat on me with other people so long as they didn't leave #ALSO haunted by the idea of breaking up with my ex causing me so much anxiety i was physically sick and begging then like very soon after #i lost pretty much all interest in my ex 😭 ALSO thinking about getting into my first relationship so that person wouldn't leave #ALSO thinking about being unable to sleep at night knowing that if i don't get a job i will never see my dad again (NOBODY SAID THIS)#also almost ******* ****** because my friends were at an unknown location together so i was convinced they hated me #also feeling ******** at the thought of my favorite professor not liking me as a student. & spending my 1st r acting out so id see them #Um. anyway i don't have BPD but i'm never really beating the allegations for it anyway #mostly because BPD and CPTSD are so similar and you have to wonder if they'd be different diagnoses if we didn't have-#-such a carceral system that stigmatizes BPD and certain kinds of survivors and condemns them to never being treated like humans <-#who said that omg...#when i lay it out it doesn't even really sound like i have abandonment issues because these all seem kind of normal #but i think maybe that's insane. I don't know. kisses u with tongue #i'm able to have healthy friendships now sometimes but some people i am deep seededly convinced will leave and betray me #and i don't really know what distinguishes one person from another but it does kill me inside !#Shout out to best friend no. 2 & no. 5. i text one when i'm episodic so i can get her attention & the other i consistently like.#Will do literally anything for so that they don't leave me

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mizukiko-kun · 2 years

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Productions of Hamlet where Hamlet downs Horatio’s poisoned wine himself, my beloved. Drinking the poison meant for your best friend to save their life must have felt so intimate…

#bonus points if horatio realises how decisive hamlet is being and just watches him do it with a very broken-hearted look on his face #i prefer that to the struggling and very visibly sobbing horatio. he’s more suited for silent tears. to me.#the rational stoic guy breaks down on the inside and you can see it #ALRIGHT ILL CONFESS that’s just my fav production of hamlet #it’s a musical and it’s in japanese so i don’t think the shakespeare girlies know about it but one day ill write up a post #and in that post ill be so obsessed with it. as i constantly am.#hamlet #also hamlet drinking the poisoned wine also means to me that he gets to kill himself even if he’s going to die from the poisoned blade first #and that makes him as many times killed as claudius. i haven’t thought deep enough about this part #on the other hand it also enables him to die for the purpose of saving someone instead of the purpose of avenging the already dead #(if someone’s trying to produce hamlet with the main message being it’s better to die to save someone than to die for revenge #this would be the chance)#(although why on earth would you want to undermine hamlet’s grief… don’t make his entire story pointless c’mon #if anyone has a better way to fit this point into the story than i do pls tell me)#the amount of times i think about the final scene of hamlet is just the amount of times normal teenage girls do the ending of r&j i guess #also look at this bitch describing what happens in hamlet like it's a real historical event

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the-acid-pear · 5 months

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I never tried the option myself bc it'd probably mean skipping the Reason You Suck speech at the end (fire for speedrunners though) but I Love that you can frame your Phoneys in 3, especially so if you've already killed the previous two. Like yeah couldn't send you off to die so i'll let the goverment do it for me 🧸 like its just Peak evil imo.

#luly talks #i do relinquish in the pain and the agony but dont get me wrong the thought of any of them 3 getting jailed makes me SO sad #rog esp since he's the one im writing about and the biggest nerve wreck #gingi voice they'll be the last one to pick the board game for prison-game-night..........#actually yknow i wonder if rog would end up almost believing it after all when you try to gaslight him for the shits and giggles #(as in: telling HE was victim of the bite of 87 and the like) he tells you to not do that bc his brain is already scrambled or something #so there's a chance perhaps he'd believe it if he had everyone constantly accussing him of it?#not like it'd matter much i have no hopes for the dsaf justice system i know its been 35 years since jack got framed but still #i just remembered when the option popped up i said ''god im really becoming steven 😭''#first time i made the joke too was when i said ''imagine your boss sucks so bad you turn suicidal'' no clue what the context was #OH YEAH JAKE SAYING HE'D RATHER FUCKING DIE THAN KEEP WORKING HERE yeah. poor guy.#anyway im derailing my own post again uhhh. yeah. yeah i dont trust any phoney is avoiding the death sentence #dsaf #roger jones #dsaf roger #btw just for the sake of yapping longer i truly cant decide whether harry or jake would survive better in the enviroment #probably jake to be honest. I mean Harry has a lot of experience inside freddy's but he didnt really live outside it muhc #jake is so confrontational though #hey did you guys watch the hit movie felon? sure that guy wasn't framed but. i feel like jake would end up w that attitude #except for. you know. everything else that happens in the hit movie felon.#hey actually forget about this game go watch the 10/10 movie Felon from 2008 starring Val Kilmer and Stephen Dorff #because its one of my all time fave movies and probably the saddest i've seen #not bc there arent movies that are more tragic but bc no movie was able to break thru my walls of idgaf and make me cry anyway #yeah you thought i couldnt bring up my movie fixations on my different fandom posts well you were WRONG in fact #im gonna go tag my other post i left untagged yesterday bc my ass was Cooking

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mashmouths · 6 months

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my parents are selling their house and i'm dealing with it so rationally and maturely btw. the 73 pictures i just took are completely unrelated to my fears of change and forgetting the little bits of memory that made this home

#i've never moved house before but i've been grieving this house since high school idk how to explain it #to have felt so trapped here for so long and then having it as a place i have to come back to every 3 months to the thought of one day never #? being allowed inside it again? how does anyone do anything ever in life this feels impossible but also like the smallest most trivial #thing in the world. hello.#i missed my sibling's spring break visit home bc of finals and now i'll never hurt my back watching tv with them on their bed? ever? for #fucking serious????#craning my head to make stupid faces at them through the hallway before bed. never ever? :(?#wish this horrible pattern of me missing the last chance i'll get to see someone bc of school first it was my dog and now it's my sib here #and i just. sigh.#sorry to mope on main again i'm just melancholy and this blog is my diary youre all just reading it #a post

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acourtofquestions · 4 months

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"Please."

Rowan kept approaching, the bearer of some inescapable doom. And she knew that she could not outrun it, and could not fall on her knees and beg for it to be undone.

Rowan stopped within reach but did not touch her, his features hardening again-not from cruelty. Because he knew, she realized that one of them would have to hold it together.

When I tell you my stomach DROPPED when Rowan turned around & proceeded to tell her about Endovier💔🖤😭🫥 with THAT FINAL LINE

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arolesbianism · 10 months

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Finally got around to designing some of the oldest members of the og magic cat world story, yknow only took me like 5 years fhfksgkfg

#keese draws #oc posting #oc art #oc #ocs #ok ok tbf all of them had concept designs I had doodled over the past several years but I never actually sat down to draw them properly #but yeah the first is sharp she’s the 4th member of the main ‘protags’ in the seth ari and flutter crew #she’s also a crusty old warcriminal woman so boo and throw tomatoes at her #ok it’s technically more complicated than that but not by much #basically she joined a government agency with her girlfriend to ~tear it down from the inside~ or whatever #but she ended up gutting like all of her morals to climb the ranks and is currently sitting in ‘it’s not the right time’ limbo #she is currently the mentor of the other three and her whole arc is her just being like oh god right morals #and eventually being abandoned by everyone and everything as the consequences of her actions hit #and she realizes that she was always doomed to fail since she was trying to play by the systems rules to break it down #anyways the doggy is shaded and she’s flutter’s girlfriend #shaded got dragged into the main conflict between these two governments after running away from home and dying #she had been rescued by the third character and after she was brought back with the goop™️ ruby put a good word in for her and got shaded #out of the goop gang and took her on as an apprentice #ruby is ofc the last one and she was the girlfriend that joined with sharp to tear down the government #she had been trying to make connections with those she knew were working against the government but after sharp found out abt this she #got told on but hey wow how merciful of sharp she painted it as an accident caused by neglegance so Ruby only got her life %90 ruined #<- sarcasm btw ruby was still put through years of grueling investigation and was fired and had her reputation ruined #so when the guy who I still need to design but he’s like super important trust me was like hey wanna burn ur ex #so she got some magic woo but bad news she’s sort of locked herself into working for a different shitty government #so some lore background in the non magic world there’s a very very large country that controls the entire continent they live on #and when the magic world and the non magic world started colliding more they were all like sick more territory #but while they were still in the planning phase their ambassadors performed a coup and took over and colonized the place for themselves #this was all about 70-90 years ago in world history #so now the goverment controlling the largest magic world kingdom and the goverment in the non magic world country that wanted the land are #in a very slow and so far mostly small scale slap fight as they play a game of chicken

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bibottes · 1 year

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with peace and love how the hell are you supposed to hollow out the sockets of a bjd body

#trying to sculpt one #my first mistake was not making the tinfoil insides wide enough #my second mistake was using apoxie sculpt #I could drill tiny holes around to break off a piece???#help #mine #bjd sculpts #art doll

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