#Interesting lad

[sysig]

Cure for whatever ails ya (Patreon)

[abyssconqueror]

listened to the do not disturb call again and it really hits me in the chest how sensitive sylus really is beneath all the bravado he has to display as the leader of onychinus

the way he responds when mc jokes abt it being a misdial after he asked if she called to celebrate finishing her workout… the way he just says “oh, i’ll hang up then” which on its own could be his way of messing with her but at least in eng he sounds legitimately a bit deflated abt it… and then “jokes” about how she didn’t check the weather before leaving but managed to turn on do not disturb and he tried to call her all afternoon (and mentions that she’s the only person who ever really calls him). and then it ends with him driving to pick her up and saying he’s not good at nursing sick patients, which to me is a callback to exclusive care when mc was being fussy and told him he sucked and he asked her to teach him

even in smaller ways like if you send the angy emoji and one of his responses is like “the reason you’re angry… it’s not because of me is it?”

it truly makes my chest ache how soft and considerate sylus is, and i’d say genuinely scared too, that he’ll do something to mess it up and end up back in a situation like that in the n109 zone, where she was disgusted by him. even if he knows the circumstances aren’t the same anymore, he also consistently points out that things can always change in the future

it’s just clear in his actions how much he cares abt and treasures his relationship w mc, and how the concept of her pulling away or being upset with him genuinely unnerves him

she was so right to tell him that he wears his heart on his sleeve at the lantern festival bc he really truly does

[b4kuch1n]

podcast people in my phone

[chiropteracupola]

c. 1540 CE: a young man from Chalco, and his dragon.

[honeyblackberries]

suffering from fictional dick withdrawals (hasn't read x reader smut in a month)

[kandavers]

Please elaborate more on the LADS poly, I want to know more OTL gimme crumbs, please

they sleep like this

rafayel likes grabbing xavier’s tummy, n mc sleeps away from them bc she gets too hot easily 😋

idk if this is true (bc i havent played the game till the end yet) but i read somewhere that sylus doesnt sleep !? i doubt it, but just in case, he is wearing those sleep masks so he can just cuddle n hang out while his partners are sleeping

[kiiseru]

"I'm sorry. I feel like I don't know how to...take care of you anymore."

[wannabeadetective]

I’m taking this account back up lmao

So i’ve been around here and there obsessing over this and that and happy to announce first time in my life an english project has motivated me to make some normal art (they look very bad and rushed but still i’d like to share it here).

So yes I’m officially a pathologic fan as well now!

[solifloris]

"even if he's the worst version of all the calebs from then to now, you still want him?"

lvl 51 affinity call — i still think about this call a lot not just because i have nightmares often too and i definitely would have called him too LMAO 😭 but because. this line... there's something so heartfelt about this exchange that i just 😭 my heart feels like it's twisting but /pos 😭

you can just. you can see how much he always wants to do for her, how much he's always wanted to do for her, even through everything that he has been doing already. bec he's been doing a lot!! so much!! it's how he's been trying to show love bc that's how it used to be!!

yet... the reality remains that things aren't how they used to be. and then he calls the him now the "worst version".

he knows. he knows that the person he is in the present isn't the person she's always had in the back of her mind, isn't the person she's familiar with, isn't the person she's the most fond of... is the person that has hurt her. he knows that she's been sensitive about the way he's been doing things, knows that sometimes the things he does doesn't make her happy.... and i think he really just... he sees it, you know? it's not something he just notices and then does nothing about... he's aware. aware that, making her happy, taking care of her like he used to... he doesn't know how to do it properly, doesn't know if he even can anymore. things are different this time. he's still learning to come to terms with that... still trying to deal with the struggles of presenting this whole self that he's very much aware of—without hurting her this time. and i think that a lot of the times :( like in this call :( he just really wants a certain reassurance from mc that he's doing something a little better...........

:( just :( the vulnerability jumps out so much here :( i really want to give him the biggest hug :(

it's such a myth callback... :( he makes me so ill i'm so sick to my stomach 😭 (/pos)

[oceanicfishies]

fratboy Caleb who is constantly mocked by his frat brothers about how much he likes you

fratboy Caleb who hooked up with girls that looked like you

fratboy Caleb who refused to admit he had any feelings but as soon as he’s drunk he’s a messy boy crying about how much he likes you

fratboy Caleb that calls you drunk saying how much he loves you and the next day claims everything was platonic

[keii]

Caleb's interesting peekabook sweater lol

[starmocha]

This game is coming with me to the grave.

[kaiaelsher]

Media literacy truly is dying bc why tf am I seeing bullshits like "mc is the problem all along" when i thought we all have talked it through and collectively agree on the fact that it was NO ONE'S (and i meant between the main characters) fault and MC is literally the BIGGEST victim compared to all of the LIs here??

[yes-no-maybe-soo]

Out of curiosity... would you guys be interested in me making a detailed post listing what Sylus is capable of doing with his Evol? 👀

I saw a couple comments asking about some of the stuff I mentioned in this post, and I'm happy to oblige with a bit more in depth info ☺️ I figured it'd be fun to make a full list while I'm at it

[miffysoo]

super long rant incoming for lads (if you read this i love you to pieces, if not i still love you to pieces): im not always the biggest fan of the reincarnation/past lover trope (which is ironic bc that’s literally the entire foundation of lads lore LMAO) because sometimes it feels like the LI’s are in love with the idea of us seeing as mc in the storyline is the past version of their beloved. i just can’t help but think, like are they actually in love with MC? or are they in love with some other version of her and that’s the only reason they’re drawn to her? it almost feels like they’re projecting who they THINK she is when she’s no longer the same person at all in this current timeline & lifetime.

it almost makes it feel like current mc is “the other woman” in some sense, even though that’s a bit illogical because the past version of her is literally her but so much time has passed, things change, people change, and mc is a completely different person than who she was in their past lives. bc truly, the only one who i feel like truly loves her present day for who she is, is caleb. i would argue zayne to an extent too because he technically doesn’t have any memories whatsoever of his past lives so him and MC falling in love feels like it’s happening for the first time again, it’s a blank slate.

and not to say that the boys can’t grow to love who she is without painting her as her past version, but a part of it feels ingenuine sometimes to me. bc although she shares the same face, the same body, arguably the same soul as her past self, seeing as it’s again, literally her SELF, at the core of it, she’s not actually HER anymore. she’s someone completely different. so sometimes it feels super bittersweet & the lines get blurred. i have a love hate relationship w some of the lads lore for these reasons.

so sorry for the fatass post, but the lore & past life concept in the game always makes me feel hesitant to truly immerse myself into the game (i don’t even actually play the game, everything ik and have seen are from youtube clips that people have uploaded for all the myths, memories, and the overall storyline). this isn’t to say i don’t look forward to new updates and such, i love love lads. but like whenever i indulge in fanfic, especially as a chronic reader of ‘x reader’ fics, i have to separate reader from being MC, which is why i always stray towards non!mc reader bc there’s no tangible lore and past lives/reincarnations attached to a nonmc! reader. at least not to the same extent as the og MC depending on how much the author diverges from canon and just basic background context for reader. but overall imo, non!mc reader just doesn’t carry the same heavy implications of the boys’ true feelings when it’s the actual MC vs a non!mc reader if any of that connected 😔

similarly why i also love iseki/transmigration fics as well; basically any concept where the reader is NOT the mc. bc just like in iseki fics, the boys don’t have the same attachments & feelings towards reader as they do MC. it just feels more sincere imo, idk.

i wonder if im just crazy and have too much time to think & talk to myself about this, or if other players/readers feel the same way. bc ik the whole point of an otome game is that WE are the MC. but ive just never been able to fully immerse myself like that, i see MC as a completely separate character, almost like an OC sometimes. like i just can’t connect or fully enjoy any fanfic with MC being the “reader”. i view MC and reader to be two different people if that makes sense.

and again, im completely aware that as the storyline continues, the boys have obviously shown to care and have deep affectionate feelings (love is a bit too ambiguous imo to truly label that as what they feel for mc) for current mc and its probably only going to strengthen as the story moves forth. but my mind still spirals and thinks about all the “what-ifs” and semantics of reincarnation and past lives. i wish i didn’t think this way, the game and concept of it would probably be more enjoyable all around for me, but i apparently hate myself to think too light heartedly, even for a fictional game/story 😭

truly tho, it’s never that serious, i just had to get that off my chest bc i really don’t know if any other (not sane) person felt this ardent & torn about this as i do, which is a little silly honestly but here we are LMAO 🧍‍♀️ but in the end, there’s something for everyone here in the world of fanfic & delusions! 🫶🏼🫧

[kedreeva]

Well, it is a sad and joyous day. I've been back and forth with a nice, retired gentleman from nearby who wanted to get some peafowl. He made it out today and took home two pairs; a pair of purple BS from Polaris and then, to my sadness but also happiness, Bismuth and Citrine.

I'm gonna miss those little shits. It will be more peaceful without them, as Bismuth didn't get along with Stella and Citrine didn't get along with Bug, but I still loved them both a great deal and I'm SO relieved that they were able to go to a home together. They absolutely adore each other. I've been promised update photos as they grow and mature, and the guy is in the process of relocating to a few hundred acres down south where they won't have to deal with harsh Michigan winters, which I'm sure they will appreciate.

I will still probably post some photos of them, as I have some from days I took a bunch of photos I didn't end up posting, but send your well-wishes to them in their new home!