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Oh thats just not..
#Im so freaking confused#ISNT SHE A MINORS DNI ACCOUNT???#There was this girl who made this whole big deal abt turning 18 and not wanting minors to interact#……tell me why I get a notification from her liking one of my fics…#THATS JUST NOOOOOOT#I hate people who can’t take their own advice#And even if you “are okay with minors interacting” IM NOT INTERACTING EITH YOU YOUR INTERACTING WITH ME.#People on the site make my head hurt.#Im UNCOMFYYYYYY
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CAN SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN WHAT THIS ISSS?
i need context about this strange, pichu lookin, mac and cheese suace man. What is this add supposed to acheive???
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[ID: a digital redraw of the scene where chuuya shoots dazai in the shoulder. on the top of the drawing is chuuya holding a guy to dazai's head in the red and grey hallways of the prison. on the bottom of the drawing is dazai's pained face. the gunshot is shown stylistically as hectic lines behind his bloody shoulder. over the image is half a quote from goncharov that reads 'if we really were in love you wouldn't have missed.' the signature says dandelion-roots. end ID]
This quote from Goncharov (1973) in relation to soukoku has been haunting me from before I even got to that scene in the anime (the full thing is: Katya- Of course we're in love, that's why I tried to shoot you/ Goncharov- If we really were in love you wouldn't have missed). Violence as a tool for communicating emotions, especially love and hatred, especially love and hatred makes me go feral- how could I not think of the iconic quote that says that katya's miss was a sign of a lack of love/a fake love when chuuya didn't miss? Just... losing it over here.
#bsd#bsd s5#bungou stray dogs#soukoku#soukoku fanart#bungou stray dogs season 5#bsd spoilers#dazai osamu#chuuya nakahara#not to tell on myself but i just realized that i. used the wrong screenshot as ref JKDSKDJKDJ i have too many saved. its fine. u get it#just saying it in case anyone was confused#goncharov#also just to be clear if someone didnt understand the caption- i used the quote to be the opposite of what was happening#not to describe what was happening in the scene or to imply that chuuya later not killing dazai was him 'missing'#i get VERY specific imagery in my mind and i disregard everything else#and i do it in the way that would be incredibly confusing to most ppl at first glance. such is the world#im not wordy rn i cant fully describe my feral state after finishing bsd earlier today or this thing. hope u enjoy it anyway!#it was rly fun to do a screenshot redraw the bsd animation crew is so freaking talented and i got to see which colours they used where#i changed them bcs they wouldnt been too desaturated but lots of blues in the bg! colour theory babyyy#and got to play around w csp! fun fun been so long since ive done digital art
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“…In You I Taste God...”
Mr. Reed x young fem!reader
✒️ - 12/09/2024
📜 - TBD
[WORK IN PROGRESS]
A young student at a prestigious university is eager to return to Vermont in time to deliver her presentation for the Theology department’s annual conference.
However, after an unforeseen series of events, (y/n) finds herself stranded in Colorado during a snowstorm in the house of a rather curious and eccentric Mr. Reed.
As the storm rages outside, the odd pair find that they may have more in common than they first thought.
✧─── ⋆⋅ ♱ ⋅⋆ ───✧
“To quote.. if there is a God.. then he is either not all powerful, or not all good.”
“Hm. Epicurus?”
“Well.. yes, but.. I was thinking Neil deGrasse Tyson”

IM SO EXCITED IM FINALLY WRITING A FAN FICTION!!!
I genuinely haven’t sat myself down to WRITE FAN FICTION in years, and I’m so excited to finish this one!! This will also probably be my first published fan fiction; I’ve written a lot of them on my own, but never really shared them publicly until now - this is so exciting for me!
I can’t really guarantee it will be very good.. nor can I promise when it will be out, but I’m aiming for sometime this week! I have a feeling it will be a two parter, but lemme cook and we’ll see!
The title is based on song lyrics from Ava Adore by The Smashing Pumpkins, I added it above if anyone is curious (it’s a very good song). I love The Smashing Pumpkins, and I’ve loved this song for years! I’ve always wanted to base a fanfic off of it, but I kind of can’t believe I’m finally doing it for Mr. Reed. It’s one of my ultimate yearning songs - you must understand that this is a big deal for me!
✧─── ⋆⋅ ♱ ⋅⋆ ───✧
I feel like i need to thank @incorporealbombchelle for being such an excellent writer of this freak - i dont think i would have been so inspired if not for them!
#current wip#work in progress#this is in my notebook as i write this#im so excited its not even funny#you know i might make it an x plus size reader#because i want more of those#but that doesnt mean you cant read it if you don’t relate to that#in you i taste god#mr reed x reader#mr reed#heretic 2024#heretic fanfic#fan fic writing#fan fiction#a24 films#hugh grant#sister paxton#sister barnes#ava adore#the smashing pumpkins#i cant believe my first fanfic on here is about this freak#im so down bad for him#2022 me who downloaded tumblr for Hamilton fanfic#would be so confused
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reaction image for when short fur affinity kleptomaniac won't put your cravat down
#idv#identity v#art#fanart#i am nor coloring this!#they are both insanely detailed. no thanks#florimatt#floormat#???? i guess#florias?#idk#idv fanart#matthias czernin#florian brand#im so sickndor tyem. in case u couldnr tell#i realky wanr matthias' new a tier. I DONR ECEN OLAN ON MAINING HIM#I just like him a lot as a charactee. and want the cool stuff he has#when this essence drops TRUST i will be mashing the world builds#so they can be GAY.#side unrekated note sjeleton key is so cute imo#not a fan of the turnout for florian's hands but we ball....#i say “we ball” for the tenth time this week#enjoy all you freaks out there.#those demented twisted florimatt fans#again#nO IDEA WHAT I WAS DOING FOR MATTHIAS#his coat is so confusing without looking at a 3d model. im SORDY
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"she appeared in this world without a head. so, she didn't wanna scare us, so she found a doll and she ripped the doll's head off. and put it on her own head so she wouldn't scare us."
#literally crying so hard poor girl#she just wanted them to like her and they were all so mean...#imagine how confused she must have been when she did all that to not be scary to the other kids#and then they all run away from her and call her a freak and a monster... im crying for her...#rtc#jane doe rtc#ride the cyclone#ride the cyclone jane#not a jane
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I need to marinate more thoughts for this but. okay so gravity falls au. partially inspired by this. fiddleford has the memory gun and he's This Close to using it on himself to erase what he saw in the portal. he pauses. he thinks, just because I forget doesn't mean stanford will stop building the portal. he thinks it's all or nothing. he goes to stanford's shack in the woods. he sneaks in through the side door and sees stanford sleeping on the couch. it's dark outside. the lights are out. fiddleford can barely make out the shape of his former-friend's body. fiddleford looks at Stanford one last time. he types into the memory gun, Stanford Pines. he points the gun. half a second before he fires, Stanford stirs, as if sensing the danger he is in. he manages to get out "who-" before fiddleford, panicking, pulls the trigger before he can chicken out completely.
stanley wakes up on a couch he doesn't remember falling asleep in, with a terrified looking man standing over him, holding a glowing gun, and thinks this is one hell of a situation i've gotten myself into
#mads posts#gravity falls#gravity falls au#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddleford h mcgucket#stanley pines#stan pines#grunkle stan#LISTENNNNNN#THE POSSIBILITIES THAT ARISE FROM EXISTENCE OF THE MEMORY GUN#UNLIMITED#what if ! stan didnt know he had to get ford back#what if fiddleford fucks up soooooo so bad#will he use the gun on himself to wipe his own memory and abandon everything?#will he try to fix what he's done to stanley?#will he try to fix the PORTAL?#who knows? not me. idfk#personally im leaning towards fiddleford FREAKS OUT and just books it#as soon as he realizes that this guy isnt stanford#and then the next day he sees this really confused dude in town and everyone is asking him if he's that scientist in the woods#and stan ofc is like 'the who what in the where? also where am i'#bc through the power of handwaving i am declaring the memory gun erased EVERTYTHING related to stanford#and bc the journey and the town are so closely tied to ford stan forgot everything#eventually someone offers stan the money for a tour and he says yes bc free money#and takes this dude (who tf is stanford)'s identity#clearly this stanford guy is gone and not coming back because there are literally no signs that anyone has been alive in the goddamn house#(this is because ford is bad at taking care of himself and stan has been busy dying of an infected burn)#and fiddleford is like. fuck. i fucked up.#uses the memory gun on himself to forget what he's done#and then bc he doesnt remember what he's done he then uses it on himself to forget the portal
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Listen. I hate to be a Booker apologist on main (no I don't)
But is it just me or is he looking kinda...?
#fine#he is looking fine#just so theres no confusion#booker#lolo rambles#the old guard#2 old 2 guard#*jack dawson voice as i dance with Booker* you're still my best girl Joe ☺️#anyway#lol im freaking out too much about this gosh darn movie
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idk how to express it but like. my mum asked me earlier "do you have initiative? you need to learn how to do things without people telling you" and idk how to tell her like. 1. i am autistic and a HUGE part of that is not having motivation or initiative in the traditional sense because its harder to read what people want from you, 2. i also have executive dysfunction with my depression, and 3. she is the reason why i have a lack of motivation! because my whole life when i Try to do things to help out, i either get confused or i do it wrong, and shes not patient with me and also doesnt explain things to me - and the worst part is 4. i dont know how to explain stuff to her without it feeling like an excuse, because when i speak plainly, she thinks im dodging blame, when im actually just trying to communicate my default settings and how im working on overcoming them because i live in a neurotypical society. when i dont contribute or help out because im scared of messing up, i am ridiculed and shamed, and when i do contribute, im not allowed to ask clarifying questions or ask for support, because then i am an idiot. and y'know what? its annoying to be told i have no motivation when right now is the time where i have the most self-driven motivation ive ever had
#personal#its truly just like. im not asking for solutions or comments here#its just straight up confusing for me#and i get so overwhelmed trying to say this out loud to people#like i instantly start crying#but its not because im sad! or trying to get sympathy! i am just so freaked out all the time!#i have to be so self regulated its not funny#genuinely the only reason my family dont see me as an actual autistic person is because i can talk#if i was 24/7 nonverbal maybe theyd believe me#my god
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one thing about frank furter and elizabeth sparkle is that they do NOT play around when it comes to their homunculus creations that they harbor complicated feelings towards.


#‘me and my pet freak’ and it pans over to a confused and dazed conventionally attractive critter with deerlike wonder in their eyes#BEFORE YOU START THROWING ROCKS AT ME. ELISABETH AND SUE ARE CUTE. AND IM A STUPID DYKE. LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE SHUT UP GET OUT OF MY HEAD#also i lowkey feel so bad for rocky he was just a baby. just seven hours old. and the only thing he has come to trust is a rush of lust.#he deserved better. he deserved to be loved and cherishes im gonna cry#in another life where frank doesnt go mad with power the castle inhabitants are all just a happy family#brad and janet come over sometimes. brad brings coleslaw.#and i knowwww i know abt the symbolism of the substance. i was so fixated on analyzing it when i watched it#so like now that im done ruining myself and sobbing over the deep and incredibly realistic messages of the movie#let me be gay and stupid in peace. i deserve it i think.#ALSO THERES THIS AMAZING ARTISTS WHO POSTS GORG ART OF THEM AND IM OBSESSED#IF NO ONE GOT ME I KNOW THEY GOT ME CAN I GET AN AMEN#AND THEY POST SUCH WONDERFUL GOLDEN WIVES CONTENT#feed me#feed me seymourrrr feed me all night longgg#okay tag rant over#macposting#rocky horror#rocky horror picture show#frank n furter#rocky#the substance#elisabeth sparkle#sue the substance#elisabeth sparkle x sue#elisasue#himejoshing out#goodnight guys
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wait im unbelievably excited to see more of alex and yassen's interactions in alex rider season 3. yassen literally killed someone to protect alex.
we know from the books alex learned to appreciate yassen in some way because he died to save him, but this time around yassen lived but killed someone to save him. book!alex still thinks about yassen long after his death and chooses to keep the fact that yassen died for him to himself. he didn't even seem to hold a grudge that yassen's dying words to him ended up getting alex shot later on (possibly because he appreciated that yassen led him to the truth about his father, and he got to learn more about both of them).
different scenarios but they both led to alex succeeding in stopping damian cray. im curious to know if yassen was still out of it this time around, and he didn't actually want alex to go to scorpia. [insert that anthony horowitz tweet/tumblr post here]. very excited to find out. and also scared!
#someone hold my hand while we watch it together#yassen has always been honest with alex and alex really appreciates that#he's not even necessarily just being truthful to get something out of alex hes doing it because he cares for him and cared for hunter#we know how freaked out he got when he realized alex was involved with damian cray in the books and the tv show#so im delighted to see how worried he might get that he just led alex into the lion's den#also excited to find out how much truth yassen actually knows about hunter because the inconsistencies in the books slighly confuse me stil#im shaking and trembling and throwing up in excitement for season 3 and it's out next week sjjdjdjfjjfj#alex rider#yassen gregorovich#alex rider season 3#alex rider tv#this is just a chaotic ramble that is not very coherent at all !!
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DUDE. ITS A REAL PLACE!?!??!??!1
#im freaking the fuck out#what the hell#why does this exist#im so confused#vox the tv demon#vox hazbin hotel#hazbin vox#alastor x vox#vox#voxtekoverlord#voxtech#hazbin hotel#hazbin#hazbin fandom#hazbin hotel 2024#floofdrawsstuff
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doctober day 19: memory
aka "the first time lone pine doc recognizes the weird little kid hanging around his garage as the future boy who changed his life 30 years ago" :)
#back to the future#bttf#doctober#doctober 2023#doc brown#emmett brown#marty mcfly#christopher lloyd#michael j fox#my arts#my sketchy wip arts#im so freaking late wehhhhh >_< u can tell my effort went DOWNNNN as this progressed bc i was rushing to finish grrrr#oh well. it is what it is :P#anyway i imagine them meeting in lone pine timeline is a very doofenschmirtz moment. like#doc: 'a teenager...? ...MARTY the teenager?!?!?!?!'#when i say lone pine owns my ass. this is what i mean !!!!!!!!!#when one person knows more than the other person due to time travel but they cant say anything BECAUSE its time travel... delicious#also marty is confused but hes got the spirit <3 no idea why the crazy old man is upset(? happy??) but hell still try to cheer him up anywa#hes a good boy !#fun fact the pic of older marty was the first bttf art i ever drew! i tried to redraw it for today but it took WAY too long so uhhhh yeah :#corners were cut. >_>; but i think it looks alright so whaddya gonna do#also also i loveeee drawing bby marty <3 he is sooooo squishy ;w; literally just a lil guy <33 i love him <333#and finally. if this doesnt show up in the tags bc its a video. ill kill </3#(ps the audio is from american dad)
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Spoilers for Thousand Autumns/Qian Qiu English Volumes 1-3
Reading Volume 1 of Thousand Autumns: hmm I can see the potential for romance, but Yan Wushi is too much of an asshole for me, but maybe later on he’ll grow to like Shen Qiao
Reading Volume 2: Yan Wushi sucks! You betrayed him?? After Shen Qiao called you a friend??? I hate omg WHYYY???
Reading Volume 3: NO WHAT??? YAN WUSHI COME BACK!! Shen Qiao tried to save you after everything wtf don’t go! You would turn yourself in??? BITCH COME BACK DONT GET HURT AGAIN PLEASE
My emotions regarding Yan Wushi have been all over the place I cannot put a name to my emotions regarding him help me
please tell me he is ok I need to read volume 4
#yeyarants#thousand autumns#qian qiu#shen qiao#yan wushi#yanshen#WHY IS HE SO DIFFICULT TO UNDERSTAND#i have been extremely freaked out over how Shen Qiao and I had the same thoughts regarding Yan Wushi#we basically on the same wavelength regarding him#I DONT KNOW WHAT TO FEEL#I felt very neutral towards him when I finished volume 1#then extreme hatred and betrayal towards him in volume 2#and now I feel sad and hopeful that he’s ok because he literally turned himself in help me idk what to feel#YAN WUSHI IS IN LOVE FUCK#I wanted to get volume 5 of erha and volume 3 of yuwu#…but now I need volume 4 of qian qiu#I LOVE SHEN QIAO BUT OMG THE TURMOIL I FEEL REGARDING YAN WUSHI IS SO CONFUSING#DO I LIKE HIM OR NOT IDK#BUT I WANT TO KNOW IF HES OK#*point at Yan Wushi* you sir are a complicated enigma#and I need to know wtf is going inside your brain#I’m so confused I would have been fine hating him but now I feel like a concerned mother wondering where her child is#yan wushi the man that you are#meng xi shi#I can’t read erha or yuwu because I have become invested in this shit HELP ME#I NEED TO KNOW#YAN WUSHI ARE YOU OK???#im gonna reblog shit after once I’m done because I did not want to know any sorts of spoilers
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guys i caught a mouse at work today
#i was walking the tech guy back because one of our printers broke#and i opened the door like yeah its right back he- thats a mouse. thats a mouse sitting in the middle of the room#he was very small and i think very confused/freaked out because he just let me. scoop him up. into my gentle loving arms#like he tried to run a little but he didn’t seem to really know where to go#so i was just on the floor like trying to get ahold of this very tiny very pathetic mouse without hurting it#while saying hey um. dont mind me printers right there with a mouse half in my hands#printer guy brought me over a little basket he found and i scooped mousie into the basket#and then i had a mouse in a basket. so i went back into the lobby and went Guys i have a Mouse in a Basket#and then my supervisor escorted me outside and we found a nice little tree with some shade and little plants to dump him at#except hed been scrambling up the basket the whole time and i think hes just accepted his fate to live there forever by then#because he would Not get out of the basket. i had to very very gently scooch him out#and yeah. maybe i pet the mouse. what do you want from me. he was very small and cute and very soft and rabbies isnt real and cant hurt me#he was so fucking cute. oh my god he was so cute. i hope he does well for himself#coworker was like ‘youre just gonna put him outside to be somethings lunch?’#and i said well. better he be lunch for someone than die in a gluetrap in some dark corner of the office#slightly more dignified way to go. benefits something. but i will be praying for a long and happy life for him regardless#every single time ive seen a mouse in my life ive immediately gone ‘oh im fucking Getting You’ <- lovingly and adoringly#so far im 2 for 5. 40% accuracy rate of Getting That Sucker#which i dont think is too bad considering mice are very small and quick and good at not being getted
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bitches dont talk to you for months because of "anxiety" then you suddenly get a text and shes asking if you think its weird shes never seen any fanart of hellboy and abe kissing on this app
#im bitches#sorry to my friends#ilysm i swear#whats up with the fanart tho#my family its obsessed with the guillermo del toro movies since they came out#so to me all these years the fandom has just been my family#then i look them up on here for the first time in 20 years and nobody ships them ?????????#i thought this was suppose to be the freaks site#anyways then i go on ao3 and theres like 14 works.............#are they rare pair ??? thats so funny idk why#hellboy#abe sapien#you know the last time i watched these movies i was a teen so i was even starting to second guess my memories#and even looked up if they were brothers or something ????#but theyre not !!#and thats the only explanation i could ever think of for people not shippong them ????? so im confused
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