#its truly just like. im not asking for solutions or comments here

[rabdoidal]

idk how to express it but like. my mum asked me earlier "do you have initiative? you need to learn how to do things without people telling you" and idk how to tell her like. 1. i am autistic and a HUGE part of that is not having motivation or initiative in the traditional sense because its harder to read what people want from you, 2. i also have executive dysfunction with my depression, and 3. she is the reason why i have a lack of motivation! because my whole life when i Try to do things to help out, i either get confused or i do it wrong, and shes not patient with me and also doesnt explain things to me - and the worst part is 4. i dont know how to explain stuff to her without it feeling like an excuse, because when i speak plainly, she thinks im dodging blame, when im actually just trying to communicate my default settings and how im working on overcoming them because i live in a neurotypical society. when i dont contribute or help out because im scared of messing up, i am ridiculed and shamed, and when i do contribute, im not allowed to ask clarifying questions or ask for support, because then i am an idiot. and y'know what? its annoying to be told i have no motivation when right now is the time where i have the most self-driven motivation ive ever had

[the-kipsabian]

wrestling fic writers!!

i have decided to be the change i wanna see, so lets do a nice little thing for each other, as a community full of incredible and talented writers. yes this is writer specific only, but thats cause thats where the main problem of people not interacting with creative works lies in this fandom as far as i can tell and have seen people talking about it especially in the last couple of months

if you read this, please add links to your written works. it can be just a single fic youre really proud of, your writing blog, your writing tag, your ao3 account, anything where your works can be found

and if you leave your link here, PLEASE check out someone else that has left their works, and interact with them. leave them a comment, even just a kudos, REBLOG their fic, etc. interacting is the keyword i want to emphasize here, along with building a sort of a masterpost of where to find people writing in this fandom

and if you are not a writer, youre still highly encouraged to interact with this post and share it and show love to the writers in this fandom, obviously!! i think that should go without saying, but adding it in anyways

a bit more about my vision and resources and such under the read more, but thats the gist of it. happy linking and please be kind and supportive to each other!! 💜

nobody is too big or too small to add their things on this list. if you write and post anything in this fandom whatsoever, be it fics or drabbles or headcanons, any companies or any kind of ships or reader inserts or any content whatsoever no matter how 'dead dove dont eat' or hell even if its just meta, we welcome all here and nobody can say that one thing is less valid than another. just please tag your content accordingly, especially if theres content warnings, and feel free to mention what you write, who you write, any info you wish to leave that would help people before they click on your links. but even so, that should not and hopefully will not deter people from interacting, no matter what it is. someones trash is another ones treasure, i promise you

and unless the amount gets really overwhelming, im personally going to be checking out everyone that leaves something here. unless it squeaks me out, but even then, i'll spread the word. and i just wish as many people as possible will do the same, and not just use this as a potential board to only get eyes on their stuff. ofc thats also the point, but you should give as much, if not more, than you get. we need to be kind and supportive of one another (besides, from personal experience, if you show love to someone else, they are more likely to do it back than without you taking the first step, so... pay it forward)

as for resources, heres a few links that should be helpful in leaving comments and feedback. of course everyone does their own thing and no comment is too big or too small to leave, but for those who need them. if you have anything you'd like added to this list, dont hesitate to get in touch or drop it in the post yourself!!

101 comment starters

ao3 floating comment box

kudos html

dont know how to comment? easy solutions

a quick hot guide to commenting (by yours truly)

an overall guide to appreciating fanfic writers

and just in general.. leave people comments. leave them asks about their projects. just go over and gush about their work. i know it sounds embarrassing but writers love nothing more than to hear that someone likes what they are doing. if you find a fic that hasnt been updated in forever, comment on it. it might just be the spark the author needs to continue. while kudos and likes are nice, and just as valuable to some, its definitely in the words the people leave for them that matter the most. im not saying this to put pressure on anyone, its just how it is, and i feel like unless people are writers themselves, and even then sometimes, thats just hard to grasp, especially if the writer is a smaller and less popular one who doesnt get a lot of traffic in the first place

i think thats all. just be nice and considered to everyone, reblog peoples works, this post with others add ons and so forth. and if i find anyone talking shit here or at other writers for something they share, you'll be blocked and im probably taking your kneecaps. be fucking nice. we are all struggling here and we need to stick together

happy sharing and commenting 💜💜

[definitelynotshouting]

I’ve been trying to grasp why I’ve been so in love with hunger au, and it wasn’t until looking up the lyrics to ‘ibuprofen’ to try and spoil the next chapter for myself (I am very good at making things up) that I figured out why.

Your World building is beautiful and I’m a massive sci-fi fan I thought that was why I was originally so invested, but I realized that the entire story (as of rn) can be read as a metaphor for a type of personality disorder?

This isn’t me saying that the story MUST be a metaphor, or even that you intentionally wrote it like that, but goddamn it does click some button in me like oh!!

Sometimes w personality disorders it feels like all you can do is hurt people. You’re carefully restricting your actions and expressions so you dont ever get too comfortable and hurt someone, but you inevitably fail and all you can do is feel bad because you were able to be yourself and meet some kind of internal satisfaction but the result is other people being hurt and you still aren’t happy cause that’s inherently a bad thing.

And then the logical conclusion is that you should never speak or hang out with people (or like. Live.) ever again because it’s not right to be hurting other people with your mere existence.

Idk if anyone else has mentioned this before but yeah that’s this for me lol. But!! Help exists!!! and Grian will get help too with his watcher tendencies after he realizes that his existence isn’t inherently detrimental and that there are solutions for his problems if he uses his big boy words and asks.

And no one will forgive him for what’s happened overnight, and those who forgive him will still have been hurt, and some of his relationships will be permanently altered because of the way he’s hurt them. But it’s not the end for him and it’s not the end for anyone else!!

Sorry this is so long! Idk if I should tag anything sensitive in case you decide to respond so Ima leave that to you— I’m a tumblr lurker I’ve been here for years but never commented on anything lol. Ty for the story, keep living laughing and loving (It’s what Grian would want apparently) and have a good one!

placing some obligatory tws here for those with post filtering: tw for discussions of mental health, personality disorders, and minor suicidal ideation (in the ask)

alright with that out of the way this is actually really validating for me to hear bc a lot of what you're seeing in this has been inserted very deliberately. While its not intended to fully be a metaphor for having a personality disorder, a lot of what's been depicted does draw on that, so im really glad this resonates with you!!

At its heart and core, hunger au is about the raw process of recovery, and how grueling but ultimately rewarding it is to commit to getting better. Showing this process through the fic is, i suppose, my way of holding the hand of everyone who is struggling with their own recovery and saying "i see you. i understand. you arent alone."

I cant overstate how humbled i am by everyone who has taken the time to tell me how theyve seen themselves in hunger au. And the fic is just getting started!!! The fact that people are resonating this hard with it at only 5 chapters in just blows me away. Its everything ive wanted for this fic. Thank you for taking the time to tell me this, because im truly so grateful that i am making an impact with it, no matter how small or personal.

[gadriezmannsgirl]

So im the anon who asked when you'll publish again cuz I missed it and I just wanna say sorry im so late but i jus saw ur post. BESTIE i dont even know where to begin. so first im gonna say i just read the new fermin fic and it was INCREDIBLE. SO CUTE. AND I LOVED IT. second, i want to give you my complete understanding. of course im not a writer but it takes very little empathy to understand why a lack of engagement would make you demotivated to write. im so sorry and im sure others here too that we dont give u the appreciation u deserve. for me personally, its the fact that im afraid to come off on anon and comment with my account, but i realize even i can give feedback through anon. whenever you are ready to come back, even sporadically, i will talk to u more here because u deserve to hear what we think of the fics u so cutely write for us to enjoy. let me just tell you for now that i have never found someone that does non smut in such a mature way. i cant even explain what i am thinking so bare with me i hope you get this. often i just want to read reality and what a real relationship with these boys are like. that's the stuff that makes me kick my feet and giggle fr. but you are one of the only ones that can do that in a way which is perfectly descriptive and realistic. your fic with Gavi for the fight after he waves a sandwich in your face??? BBG. i cant believe i never told u how much i loved that detail. of course it was a shit thing for his character to do but that is the kind of stuff that realistically happens in a relationship fight and leads to a silent treatment and argument -> discussion -> solution like in ur fic. i was reading it with my mouth covered like damn she got it JUST RIGHT. i legit read ur fics over and over they are so SO good and SO well crafted. i really feel like i am in these stories. and i know it wasn't your intent so please dont feel bad for your well deserved post to my anon note, but i feel so embarrassed that i never gave u the credit u deserve. please dont look at this anon and let it pressure u into writing again because that is nowhere near my intention. i just want to say take your time, relax and also GET READY. cz im gonna talk to u more and more like i should and all ur followers should. te queremos!!!!!!!!!!! i even learned some slang from ur culture clash fics

Hello dear anon! I hope you're doing great! :) First of all, I'm truly glad you liked the fermín fic and thank you for taking your time to write this lovely message, it means a lot💖

Thank you for also understanding my point of view, I don't really want to come off as rude or ungrateful, that's not my intention and it will never be. It's just really hard to come, write for hours, wanting to do something enjoyable for others and not get any feedback (I know it is not mandatory but it would be very nice for me and I can take constructive criticism to improve in new writings), but it's also something that it's going to the point where I reblog any ask game or tell you guys that I'm bored and wanna chat with any of you and only two or three asks pop up in my inbox (And I don't even know if those two-three asks are from the same person😭���🏻‍♀️) however when I post that my requests are open, I can assure you that my inbox can be 0 but once I come back +20 asks are in there and it makes me kinda feel like I'm just here to write. write. write. write and write😭

I also understand you, if I wasn't a writer here I would also go to my favorite writers inbox and tell them my thoughts as anon but like you said you're writing on anon, which means I don't know your account (or anyone who writes on anon) you could be also commenting on my post/reblogging/etc and I wouldn't even know it's you! Either way I respect that🙏🏻and I appreciate the fact you'll be on my inbox more often either if it's to rant about your day, talk about a fic or anything, even if I'm not as active with writing as I used to be, you can still sent me an ask and I will gladly answer you!🌻✨

I try my best to do the fics as realistic as possible, obviously I don't know the guys (sadly😭) but I try my best to imagine how they can be outside the pitch and insert that into a real life couple with ups and downs but gurrrllll you even made me go back and read the sandwich fic 😂lol. Anywho, I'm really glad you like my fics and go back to read them again when I'm away for a bit. Slang🇻🇪 is very chevere, hopefully I get to do once again Latina!reader😌 Once again thank you for your message and once more I don't want to be rude or ungrateful. 💜 yu guys too, hope you're having a great day/evening/night!

[mugenloopdalove]

it really just seems like tumblr is not an affirming place for you and only makes your mood tank.

I think you would really benefit from a hobby you can do in a physical space with other people. It will do a lot of good for you to get out of the house and be around others rather than stay in a self perpetuating spiral of loneliness at the house. See what sort of events your library hosts etc.

Look into your local community to find others and keep an open mind. Yes its going to be hard and anxiety inducing at first but it gets easier each time you push yourself out of the comfort zone of your home/internet space. Its really hard work but you can do it!

Theres a very limited amount of help complete strangers online can offer, you need to start helping yourself.

Also please don't dismiss this as not offering a solution, because I am an internet stranger taking time out of my day to type this and try to help you. An F/O ask/comment isnt a healthy longterm solution to depression, its a momentary boost in serotonin that is gone almost immediately and only serves to fuel your depression. You have to at a certain point realize that some things you seek only make your issues worse and you need to try other things to help yourself.

I'd love to truly, but the hard part with that is. I don't drive. Like I've wanted to get involved with community stuff, especially theatre, for awhile, but I'm still working on getting my permit and overcoming the STRESS I have around driving. (I can control a car very well, I was almost a natural, but seeing other cards gives me panic attacks that cause me to disassociate).

The bus system here ain't great, shit schedule and buses constantly cancel randomly. Uber is way to expensive for me to regularly take for say. Rehearsals which will probably be almost daily. There isn't even a library on the only accessible bus route (which I have to trek up a hill for and even when I have my cane is difficult) and can I just say that's uh. Infuriating I feel like that should be a thing that is just. Default.

I'm rlly in the situation of suburban life being SO FUCKING UNFRIENDLY if you don't/can't drive. Bc I'd love to get out and do stuff. There's so much stuff I wanna do but I literally can't bc Im at the shitty mercy of so many shitty variables.

And like... Yeah the f/o asks won't cure my depression that's why I'm getting back into therapy. But it would be nice to like. Not have to deal with the 50 hours a week of being home alone + not even having someone to send me just a message online, even a simple one

I'm hoping that now that I have a job again and the hours are pretty good (tho. Opposite of hubby's which is gonna SUCK but not a lot of overnight stuff is hiring rn) I'll be. Better. Its really been the five straight months of being locked in my room that caused. This mess I'm in. I tend to make friends pretty easily at work and from what I've seen of kitchen staff in general working multiple restaurant jobs it's always a fun time w them shskdhd

I do appreciate it I just. God. Trying to find local community when you can't drive and have a shit bus line sucks lol.

[gale-gentlepenguin]

ML What If 4B

(Previous part)

(What if Luka Learned the Truth in Truth?)

This is Option B which was the second most requested

(B. Adrien says they will runaway together.

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-“I am glad I got to tell you before I forget.” Marinette spoke softly.

-She kisses him.

-“Good bye, My kitty.”

-Marinette prepared to renounce her Guardianship. Until Adrien covered her lips.

-“Wait!”

-Marinette stops.

-"That can't be the best option. If you lose your memory, then I still have to fight Shadowmoth on my own, and you will still be targeted."

-Marinette thinks for a moment. Adrien had a point. Sure if she forgot, she couldn't give up any useful information, but that just put all of the responsibility of chat noir. Shadowmoth knows Chat noir deeply cares about her... so she would STILL be targeted. As would her family and friends.

-Marinette felt despair. Adrien was right.

-"Then what can we do?"

-"We run away."

-Marinette blinked.

-"We can't just abandon the city."

-"Its for the sake of Paris that we do. Shadowmoth is only interested in the miraculous. He will pursue us anywhere we go. So we run and try and find a solution."

-"Adrien... but what about your life?"

-"You are losing more then I am bugaboo..." Adrien admitted.

-"We need to make a few preparations.

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-Shadowmoth dispatched the police with ease. Now trying to figure out how to pursue Ladybug and Chat noir.

-The heroine couldn't hide from him. At least thats what he thought.

-A message on the TV caught his attention.

-The mayor was with Ladybug and Chat noir.

-Shadowmoth watched the tv.

-"Shadowmoth. We know you are out there. We are leaving Paris. If you want our miraculous, you will need to find us. If you attack Paris while we are gone, we have made sure that other heroes will handle you."

-Shadowmoth remembered that Ladybug and Chat noir did indeed have other hero friends. (remembering Majestia, the one that could MOVE THE MOON,) He had to admit, that was clever. Shadowmoth had attacked NYC, which technically made him an international terrorist. (he had covered his tracks in Shanghai, but not in NYC)

-Ladybug and Chat noir used their space forms and flew off.

-All of Paris was shocked, it was quite a tragic day for Paris.

-Shadowmoth growled. He decided to return to his lair. He would need to figure out where the two heroes had gone. No point in attacking Paris if they aren't IN Paris.

-Shadowmoth needed to reconsider his plan. But first, he needed to ensure that this wasn't a bluff.

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-After a week, Gabriel had made a sentimonster known as Pursuit (a monster that looked Like Feast, but had his insignia instead of the guardian box, was Red and had wings to fly) To search all over Paris for them (subtly), but the sentimonster came up short.

-It wasn't a bluff. They had left Paris.

-It infuriated him! Where could they be hiding? He knew the identity of one of them.

-"Perhaps they went to Shanghai? She does have a relative there."

-Gabriel noticed something, the mansion was... quiet.

-"Shouldn't Adrien be practicing Piano at this time?"

-He moved to his son's room and noticed it empty.

-"Adrien?"

-He looked around the room and noticed a letter on the bed.

-He read the letter.

Dear G, Nathalie and Father:

You likely noticed my sudden absence. I know how sudden it is and how frightened you must feel. I am alright. I am safe. I have decided to make a life for myself outside of being a model. I hope this doesn't give you the wrong idea, I am not leaving out of hatred or spite, quite the opposite. I am leaving because of love. I will keep in touch when I can, I will try and pop by every now and again. Thank you for everything.

Love,

Adrien Agreste

-Gabriel felt his brain snap after reading this. The only remaining part of his family had just... ran away? How did he not realize it?

-Gabriel decided the miraculous could wait, Right now, he needed to find his son!

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-Anarke was concerned.

-"Its been a week and Luka hasn't set foot outside of his room."

-Juleka patted her mom's shoulder.

-"He... he is going through a lot mom."

-Luka had sat in his room, his mind was racing. It was his fault. Marinette's identity was exposed. He failed her. He tried to be there for her and he failed her.

-Luka knew even if she didn't say it, that look she gave him before leaving him on that rooftop, that was the end of any relationship they had. But that wasn't what concerned him, he put her in danger, which was FAR worse. She had to leave Paris. Her family, her friends, and everyone else to protect the city. He knew why and he couldn't tell anyone. This was the punishment he deserved.

-There was a knock on the door.

-It was surprising for him to see Adrien's girlfriend at the door, the fencer. Kagami.

-"I was told It was okay to come in."

-"Yea... its fine." Luka weakly muttered.

-"I imagine that the break up was just as painful for you. Your probably the only one that understands it."

-Luka blinked.

-"How did..."

-Kagami was holding a letter in his hands.

-"I didn't expect to get dumped by letter." Kagami confessed.

-Luka could hear the sorrow in her heartbeat.

-"I didn't think he would runaway with her." Kagami commented.

-That caught Luka off guard.

-"Wait what?" Luka blinked.

-"You didn't know? Our exes runaway together, like some sort of soap opera."

-"May I see that letter?" Luka asked.

-Kagami looked at him.

-"You didn't get your own?"

-"No, but I didn't deserve one."

-"Don't say that, Marinette was the one that..."

-"Im the reason she had to runaway."

-Kagami could see the tears forming in his eyes.

-She handed him the letter.

-Dear Kagami,

I wanted to do this in person, but there was really not much time. I caused you a lot of unnecessary stress and pain. I'm sorry for that. You were right, I keep hesitating, I keep being unsure of my actions. Even our relationship had you pushing and me receiving. It wasn't right that I let that go on. I think it would be best if we ended things here. I need to stop hesitating and do what I truly want. Thank you for showing me that.

Love,

Adrien

-Luka could tell that Kagami didn't know the truth, but Luka was able to figure it all out.

-Adrien Agreste was Chat noir.

-"Are you okay?"

-"No, but I will be."

-Luka felt himself calming down. He would help fix his mistake. By helping everyone hurt by it.

-"Know you aren't alone okay?" Luka spoke.

-Kagami turned to him. She had to admit, that was nice to hear after all of this.

-"Thanks."

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-In the streets of Shanghai, a girl with straight dark brown hair, and a boy with black hair walk the streets. They were holding hands as they were taking a walk. A nice break from the restaurant they had been working as waiter's at.

-They took notice of a mugging happening in an alley way.

-The two looked at each other and smiled.

-A mouse and a snake Kwami pop out of their pockets.

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(End of Part 4B)

[foilfreak]

Beauty and Her Beast: Summary and Ch.1

A Salvatore Moreau x Female!FishMutant!oc fic based on this idea I had the other day that a very specific subset of the fanfom went absolutely apeshit for, which I'm here for and decided to act on. I can't make any promises for consistent uploading or even a finishes product by the end of this, but so long as im still interested in working on it, I'll keep working on it, and if im not, then I wont, plain and simple. Anyways, here's the summary and chapter 1, please let me know what you think of the story so far, i hope you all enjoy (you'd better all enjoy), and I can't wait to see you all again for chapter 2. Bye! <333 (Link to ao3 posting will be in comments so check there if you want to read it there instead)

Warning: This fic is rated NSFW and contains graphic depictions of things some people may find disturbing or alarming, including, but not limited to: violence, gore, unhealthy family relationships, Oedipus complexes, gratuitous amount of pornographic literature, ableist language, physical, mental, and emotional abuse, etc. If you are someone who does not enjoy fiction with these elements in them, then I suggest you refrain from reading this, because this fic will have all that, and probably a lot more. So, this is your first and final warning to turn around and go somewhere else if stuff like this just isn't your vibe, because from this point forward, your emotional wellbeing is in your own hands, and I will not be accepting blame if you disregarded my warnings and ended up reading something you didn't like. Idk why I feel compelled to write one of these despite this being Resident Evil fanfic, but I figured I'd cover my ass just in case.

Summary:

Now, I’m sure everyone already knows the ancient tales that tell of a beautiful young woman slowly falling in love with a horrific monstrosity of a man. The pure and true love this innocent beauty comes to feel for him, despite his terrifying appearance, is the key that breaks the cruel and twisted curse under which he’d been kept prisoner. This allows the man behind the monster to not only return to his true human form, but then go on to live his Happily Ever After with the beauty who saved him. Everyone already knows of these tales, as well as the messages behind them, however that is not quite the way this particular tale plays out.

The tale I am about to tell bears many similarities to the one above, however there are also quite a few important differences. For while the original detailed a beauty falling for a monster because of the kind and loving man he was behind his hideous exterior, this is a tale of a beauty, with a few monstrous qualities of her own, falling in love with a kind and loving monster, not at all despite his grotesque appearance, but rather, in part, because of it.

This is a tale, where the Beast still falls for his Beauty first, but the Beauty is the one who will be pursuing her Beast.

Chapter 1: Mother's Gift

Few of those who lived isolated from the outer world, high up in the mountains of Romania, would expect anyone of reasonable sanity to be out traveling in this hellish sort of weather. The wind howling a demonic high pitched tune; snow, sleet, and hail pounding into the ground like an endless shower of bullets from the heavens; and hungry lycans still roaming the area, tirelessly looking for their next meal, would be enough to incentivize even the strongest of mortal men to seek shelter away from the deadly conditions of the outside.

A man by the name of Salvatore Moreau however, one of the 4 lords of this mountain region who lived in the reservoir just past the windmills, did not appear terribly concerned with what other people thought of the traveling conditions. Completely unbothered by the horrifying weather and threat of suddenly being ground into doggy food, the hooded man trudged his way through the dark and barely maintained snow paths. Starting at the reservoir and making his way toward the village, Salvatore moved as quickly as his deformed body would permit, an unusually chipper spring added to his lumbering hobble of a walk.

Mother had a gift for him.

Yes, a truly joyous day it was whenever Mother Miranda called upon him to join her and the other lords for a meeting. Miranda was usually so busy with her experiments that she rarely had time to visit her children outside of these ‘family meetings’ they’d been having recently. However, it would appear as though Mother has come up with a solution of some kind to this problem and wishes to share it with them in person. Whatever this solution is, the mutated man has no idea, as Mother Miranda had been quite vague in her message, however the fact that Salvatore was being given the chance to see his radiant mother AND receive a gift from her, all in one day, was more than enough to make up for how agonizingly lonely he’s been these last few months since winter set in, as well as how agonizing it was for him to walk in this weather.

Salvatore arrived at the usual meeting site just as the clock struck 8pm, precisely as Mother had instructed. However, much to the hooded man’s confusion, when he turned the handle on the large wooden door to enter the room, he quickly realized that he was currently the only one present. This was especially strange considering that, usually, at least one of his siblings was always present a little earlier than necessary, usually Alcina or Karl, but occasionally Donna with Angie in tow.

Mother had clearly said in her message that she wanted to start the meeting at 8pm sharply, so where on earth is everyone?

“Moreau” Mother Miranda’s voice called out, immediately pushing all thoughts from Salvatore’s brain as her powerful, yet lucious voice echoed against the halls of the room like a choir of angels.

“Y-yes! W-what… is it… M-mother Miranda? I-i-i came to you… j-just like you asked” Salvatore responds, bowing his head in reverence as he slowly crosses the room and approaches the otherworldly woman.

“So you did, though I suppose you coming exactly when I call makes the most sense. You always were the most obedient of my children” the woman remarks with casual disdain, her voice devoid of any sort of motherly affection or tenderness. Despite the clear disgust and disregard with which Miranda regards the hooded man standing before her, her words light Salvatore’s soul ablaze, filling his mangled body with intense feelings of heat and desire that melt his heart of the cold, icy frost that had frozen it over the course of the long winter.

“Y-y-yes, y-yes of c-course, Mother M-Miranda! I-i would… I would do any-anything... for y-you. A-anything you s-say... anything y-you n-need… I’d d-do it... f-for you. W-without question!” The deformed man says, practically getting on his hands and knees and crawling as he neared closer and closer to Miranda, stopping only when he’d arrived just in front of the steps the raven mother stood upon, his gaze trained at the ground as he knelt at her feet, awaiting his fate at his mother’s hands.

“I know you would, Moreau,” Miranda says cooly, gently brushing the palm of her hand against the black fabric that covers the top of Salvatore’s head, “which is why I’ve called you here today; to reward you for your loyalty and service to me thus far.”

Salvatore sinks sharp and jagged teeth into the flesh of his bottom lip, nearly drawing blood as he desperately tries to silence the needy whine that wanted to tear its way from the back of his throat. His body shivered and twitched in unimaginable delight from the sudden tender caress to his sensitive skin. How long had it been since someone had touched him so gently? How long since someone had spoken to him with such kind and soft words. Took the time to gather presents as a reward for years of faithful servitude? How long since someone had loved him like this?

‘Too long’ the disfigured man sighed to himself, reveling in the soft, gentle contact for as long as he is able.

“Moreau. Look at me” Miranda commanded firmly, and despite not wanting his beloved Mother to be forced to bear witness to his hideous face, he complied, lifting his head up and back to allow his gaze to lift from the floor and up at the glowing figure that was his Mother, his beautiful, incredible, intelligent, majestic mother.

The light shining down from above illuminates Miranda from behind. From Salvatore’s perspective on the floor, the light darkens her face and most of her torso and waist, giving a softened, almost ethereal glow around Miranda’s figure. This, along with the rest of her garb, makes Mother Miranda appear even more like the holy woman that Salvatore naively believes she still is. Despite her less than affectionate treatment of him thus far, Salvatore still stared up at the darkened face of Mother Miranda, his eyes shining with reverence, love, desire, and unending devotion.

“Y-yes... Mother?” Salvatore breathed, barely able to speak above a whisper as Miranda stepped away, gesturing for him to follow.

“Are you ready to collect your gift now?” The raven mother asks, speaking more softly than before and even holding her hand out to Salvatore, her pose and appearance mirroring that of a powerful god taking mercy upon her wretched follower, reaching out to reward the years of faithful servitude and worship.

Salvatore, barely able to keep himself calm as he stumbled to his feet, did not grace Mother Miranda’s question with a proper response, instead practically racing to take the woman’s outstretched hand in his own.

“I’m ready Mother… I-I’m ready for... my g-gift now… can I… c-can I have it n-now… p-please?” Salvatore begs, pulling at Miranda’s hand like an overly excited child, seemingly unaware of the disgusted twist of her face when the hooded man’s cold, slimy fingers firmly latched onto hers.

“Of course, my child” Mother Miranda says, pulling her hand back from Salvatore’s and instead placing it along the man’s hunched back, beginning to guide him to wherever it was the raven mother had hidden his gift.

As Salvatore limped next to Mother Miranda, the deformed man couldn’t help but wonder what exactly it was that Mother had gotten for him. Was it a new cloak, to replace the worn one he was currently wearing? Perhaps a new set of romance films so he didn’t have to rewatch the ones he already owned over and over again anymore? Or maybe it was something to help with his digestion?

It would be nice to get his chronic acid reflux under control again.

Regardless of what the gift actually turned out to be however, Salvatore was merely pleased that he was finally getting a chance to spend time with Mother Miranda all by himself for a change.

Maybe, if he was lucky, she’d even agree to hold him, just like she always did back when he was still undergoing cadou treatment.

Oh how wonderful that would be!

[whatgaviiformes]

The Personal Trash

Okay, I needed the catharsis of writing this out, but I am throwing it under a read more because I honestly don’t expect anyone to read this. Family shit below

I feel like before I start I have to say first I love my husband very much and am continually excited by the life we are and have been building together, and the only goddamn constant in these circumstances is that he is my best friend always. 

The second part of this before I jump in is that his mother, my mother-in-law lives with us, and there are parts of this story I can’t tell because it’s her story and I am not that kind of person.  One of the things I love about him is his loyalty to family. I am the same way. Living with elders does not make me bat an eyelid - they’ve taken care of us, it feels comforting that we can take care of them.

But I need to share the context of our home - it’s a 2 bedroom, 2 bathroom townhouse with the three of us, three dogs, with almost every space shared. One kitchen, one living room. It’s a small place. My husband purchased the house in September 2014, and it was around when we started dating. One of our first outings was his housewarming. It was, and still is, a starter home. 

So since he’s had the home, I’ve been around - starting with a weekends, back and forth, and finally a moved in in 2017, married in 2019, and now we are here. Four years later. 

We’ve talked upsizing, getting an in law place if we can. But the housing market is a sellers market at the moment, and things have been good. For four years. 

For four years, the family unit has been the three of us. We’ve all contributed in different ways, and in that time, MIL has retired, husband has switched jobs a few times, and mine has been constant. And I *adore* my job. But it keeps me incredibly busy, overwhelmed often. Work-life balance is a bit of a joke for sure. Like anywhere there are days that I’ve gotten off work and cried. Or, checked out mentally that I couldn’t engage in other things. It’s can be intense, but its rewarding. And there was a period through the past few years where I was the source of income keeping our heads above water. And we were - we were fine.  But it put a lot of stress on me.

In the meantime there have been some health issues - which I will gloss over. Not my story. But MIL has had few different things, on top of us worrying about COVID. We’ve taken her to some different appointments and such.  

We had one such scare two weekends ago, and it kind was a catalyst to a bunch of other stuff that I’ve been dealing with behind the scenes lately. So on Sunday, husband and I went to the grocery store (she was supposed to go on a trip for four days or so) so we were going to use the opportunity to cook a few things together, and we needed to replenish. We were about to grab lunch, and called to see if she wanted anything, and she told him then she wanted to be taken to the hospital. She told us a few days earlier she was having some problems, but only mentioned to my husband that she was worried this might happen. But to me this forewarning was not mentioned, and I was only told because he advised her that she needed to be upfront of what was going on. (For the record, she still was vague). 

This ^ will be a theme.

So we skipped lunch, came back home, I unloaded the food and started putting stuff away because he and I agreed that’s what we do and I told him to keep me updated, and she left without saying anything to me or vice versa.  Husband comes home because COVID means you can’t stay with anyone. Also no beds, so it took awhile (F*CKING GET VACCINATED PEOPLE SO PEOPLE WHO DO EVERYTHING RIGHT AREN’T LAID UP FOR YOUR STUPIDITY  -alsoyesiknowthereareotherreasonspeopleareinthehospitalforcovidjustgivemethisimfrustrated)

11:30 PM that night we picked her back up. It was late, I was tired.  A few days later she tells us that she had a lot of time to think while at the hospital, and tells us she is going to move out. 

First - you know what we did while she was in the hospital? We freaking worried.  Okay - so all of that is facts, details, and I’ve gotten you caught up to the this-happened-then-this-happened. The rest of this is feelings so buckle the fuck up

Husband  - immediately lashes out because he doesn’t like the reasons (still doesn’t) and I find out that there was a conversation the day before between the two of them I wasn’t a part of  - and he felt because she was not being honest with me, he was forced to have to lie to me, his wife, and didn’t like that feeling. 

Me -  feeling confused, a little like this is out of left field, and only not completely surprised because this has happened before with husband telling me, and then it never happening, we misunderstanding. and more times than not it never made it from her mouth to my ears. Also it was never for *this* reason. See how this escalates more  below.

Husband- “I had to learn to live with strangers, and you just can’t stand not being in control” Me -  so wait I am a stranger now?

Husband - do you even like my wife...

and so on. So apparently everything I thought I knew about our home changed in the course of this conversation. What I was able to get out of the cacophony of chaos is that I am insensitive because I don’t interact with her the way she expects me to? And she feels like she’s intruding all the time, despite us assuring her she’s not, inviting her to game nights, and in general sharing in the things that you do as a family like vacations and dinners.  And the more we argued, the more little things came out and little clues.  She’s mentioned leaving before, almost on a 6 month cycle, and the last time was this one -  

So like... when we got Della, and three days in she was like “If they don’t get along I’m going to take Dino and my own place” and so   like... hold up, you can’t just throw away a comment like that. They’ve barely gotten a chance to know each other. (they are fine by the way. Della is a puppy and gets in his face a bit, but she’s still learning. They play, sleep together fine, and we are constantly taking care of the fur kids).

And from what I get from the comments to leave  - because shit there’s still so many pieces to this I feel like I am missing -she will rationalize other reasons like the dog example above.

So when this happens it sends my husband in a spiral, he tells me because she won’t say anything, and the one time we did try to have a conversation about it, she shut down and made it sounds like he misunderstood and made him out to be the asshole. Then in the same breath tell him its not his job to fix everything as a stab at me, but like continue to talk only to him when it involves everyone.

I don’t know if that makes sense. A lot happens without me involved.

So then  - those clues - the hints that all of this is really about me: 

health - i stopped asking because she stopped telling me things, so how am I supposed to know what she can and can’t do. but im at fault for like... not asking.  but she’s not telling.

home - apparently my understanding and my husbands understanding about the stuff she does around the house  - some cleaning, groceries (we pay for) and loading dishwasher, cooking sometimes,. We thought she liked doing them to help around the house, and she’s never told us differently. EDIT- no, she’s told us she likes to help. Cue - you can stop right there, I am an adult and I never asked you to clean up after me.  

I feel like whatever feelings she has for me started a long time ago, and  she continued to let them harbor instead of talking to me about it, until it got to the point where it couldn’t really be solved.

I mean, I am not lacking the self-awareness to recognize that, yeah, I can be messy, and yeah, I can be single minded. There are days where my husband is talking me and I just space answering him because I can’t or or I just mentally lose it in processing.

I am seeing this mirror reflected back at me of like - I have all these expectations for you, and you are a problem and, but like.... it kind of goes both ways? And I feel like you’ve made these circumstances yourself? And if  you want to leave that’s fine, but its not from our doing? 

And so in the end *I* feel like I am the one under scrutiny for everything I do or say and how I interact in my home. And it feels like selfishness, and self-victimizing behavior that I’ve seen time and time again, and I don’t really see a way out. 

So husband just wants to keep the family together, he’s taking this to heart - its his mom, and there are feelings there about how they’ve provided for each other. He would feel differently if they got the house and she moved in with him under the notion that she was going to save, get her own place. But it wasn’t, and so he has this weight on his shoulders for it, for failing in some way.

And I  - well. I didn’t really realize the family unit we had wasn’t working... at least to that extent and that it stemmed from me and I’m really hurt by it. Aside from the stuff above, I am really easy going - I try to give everyone space, and make everyone happy. I shut down if I am processing something. I’ve never intentionally tried to make her feel unwelcome. I’ve invited her to my family vacations, we’ve all equally enjoyed dinner’s out. 

And though I’d be willing to try to do better, i am absolutely livid that this conversation waited until it was at its worst. So now I don’t really want to try to do better because I am mad and hurt, and don’t feel like my sacrifices or contributions are being acknowledged, nor do I think she will do the same thing to be self-reflective and recognize her own part of all this. And above all things, I truly hate to be misunderstood. And I will completely shut down under that kind of self-victimizing behavior and thoughtlessness to other people. I don’t want to lose myself over this, in my own home.

So neither path is really an easy or right solution. She moves out, husband loses a bit of respect in her and the relationship they have.. She stays, recognizing your own part in lack of communication is a long term thing, and I have to feel this awkward limbo for that whole process.. if it  even gets there.

I feel like I am walking on eggshells constantly. 

I should never have to question if a “Hello” will be taken the right way and that’s how i fucking feel. 

[okneiljos]

​reasons the umbrella academy is my new favorite show (and why i have seven new children):

• they are all my actual children with whom i fell in love with instantly like i instantly adopted them the moment they were introduced bc when i saw klaus i was like “uwu i luv” and with allison i was “A WOMAN” with vanya i was “tALENT” and so on

• klaus

• the dance montage in ep 1 was literally one of the most iconic moments i have ever seen in my entire life

• bc luther literally had just accused his entire family of murdering their father and then he goes into his room to his moutain of records and is like “hmm what will possibly mend this? what can bring us closer as a family? what can make this better? what can make me feel better” and the choice of song has me in an early grave bc his solution was to start dancing his problems away and honestly same bc he then does it AGAIN later on

• number five’s badass killing of like 5 grown ass men

• the fact that he is a 60 year old man inside a 13 year old body and i, too, am a teenager with the intellect and soul of a senior citizen

• also the fact that the first thing he does when he gets back is makes himself a peanut butter and marshmallow sandwich and that was what vanya made for him when he was away so he wouldn’t come back and be lost :’)

• klaus in the skirt “is that my skirt?” and the fact that klaus’ response to this is “its a little dated...but it airs out the bits” and fives comment on it im gone

• ALL OF KLAUS’ CRACKHEAD MOMENTS I LOVE MY CHILD

• i’m sorry but literally all of his comments sent me

• the run boy run scene was so cinematic holy crap like whoever did the soundtrack and editing did such a good job bc the scenes were cut together so well and the flashbacks and the music went perfectly with the scenes like ???? it was so amazing

• klaus trying to be a Good Big Bro and protec five from the fight between luther and diego and five just slaps his hand away

• the funeral scene where everyone is like “plz stop” and then klaus is like “hIT HIM!” had me gONE and this man showed up with a pink umbrella while everyone else had perfectly reasonable mourning umbrellas

• also klaus’ choice of clothing throughout the entire series will truly haunt me because he is a Disaster Gay™️ if i’ve ever seen one but he’s the best kind like the skirt, those low-rise leather pants with that top PLUS the cardigan like... sweetie

• bEN PLZ DONT GET ME STARTED

• ben could’ve left or gone ANYWHERE BUT HE STAYED WITH KLAUS PLZ IM BOUTA CRY YALL

• the scene where luther and diego are trying to get into the van, like once wasn’t enough but they did that shit AGAIN and looked at each other like -_- and finally luther has the audacity to say “i’m number one” im skdkskdk

• the fact that they fight all the time but the moment one of them are threatened they all bring the thunder and the claws come out and it’s totally on and i’m like wow uwu, like even though they are estranged they really do love each other

• the office scene with five and klaus im DONE WITH MY LIFE “what about my consent”

• during the fight scene in the house klaus is oblivious and is dancing around in a bath towel (with one in his hair as well) and that was so funny to me it got even funnier when ben poked his head in and tried to warn him like “klaus, our whole family is about to be slaughtered, klaus hello, klaus gunfire is raining down, okay whatever” and then he leaves, presumably to watch over them and the intruders and then klaus gets kidnapped but that had me

• the torture scene “there’s nothing like a little strangulation to get the blood flowing” plz klaus i can only handle so much wheezing before my lungs give out

• also “plz make him stop talking” like it was becoming torture for the torturers torturing him im—

• the ice cream truck scene which is made 100000% better bc klaus can’t/doesn’t know how to drive and yet diego is like “GO FASTER!!” and cute lil ben is like “wheeeeee” im so gone for this family man

• the scene with allison and luther in the booth had me in my feels + on the phone how you could hear the “SPACE BOY” that right there was really freaking cute

• diego with the “guns are for sissy’s, real men throw knives!” for some reason this just really stuck with me and like then i realized like that’s his entire brand in life... just knife boi. 

• the entire bowling alley scene was the funniest thing to me skskakskxi “ur two dads” “i’d rather chew off my own foot” “maybe they’re here for kenny’s birthday party”

• diego’s stutter coming back during times of stress really made me so sad and like upset and i wanted to hug him

• vanya’s feelings of sorrow and isolation made me feel so sorry for her and then this dude comes in and uses and takes advantage of her but she shouldn’t have done that to her sis bc they were both like what 7 when their father made allison do that ??

• klaus’ battle for sobriety throughout the entire series he is so strong <3

• klaus’ power up in the last ep akskdjdj yes sweetie you get yours

• ben is literally the biggest bean ever but he also socks klaus in the face bc he’s like “i need u to stop being stoopid for two seconds”

• “shut up... said with love” and the “drop dead.” gasp “low blow” i love their relationship so much it literally meant everything to me bc ben is klaus’ biggest fan and like i cry thinking about that ya kno

• how allison literally diSPATCHED RAPER FACE GUY IN VANYA’S APPARTMENT sis knew something wasn’t right

• hazel literally eating everything in sight identified with me on a spiritual level

• diego and klaus little talk and ride along bc it was just so pure like diego loves his family soooo much even tho sometimes (like luther) he says mean shit he will do whatever is necessary to protect/save them

• klaus sets the table for himself, five, luther, AND ben i’m kdksk crying im crying is what im doing ok im just gonna be in the corner and the others don’t even mention it like ?? kskaak do they not notice it or do they know

• vanya’s badass white suit and violin change at the end there like ICONIC much

• vanya flipping that car, her at the show like im shaken to my core here skakaoso

• five just like five man “i was going to ask what you were doing but then i realized i don’t care.” like he’s such a mood.

• klaus and five are my biggest moods,, the biggest crackhead and the biggest narcissist

• THE ENDING AKSKDIDJSK I NEED MORE GIVE ME MORE OF MY CHILDREN PLZ PLZPLZPzlzzpzlzl

(there is so much more i could say but i wrote this in like 20 minutes off the top of my head if you can think of anything else plz let me know, also i tried to put this in some semblance of order bc when i wrote it it wasn’t ordered at all so sorry if it’s a mess, also sorry about the grammatical errors i know there surely are that i didn’t catch - not including the ones i did on purpose)

[nayeon-sadly-owns-me]

Mini-series post

For those who are returning to my mini-series Analogy/Review/Recap(?) of Gold Dust, thanks for reading! For those who haven’t read my Part One post about Gold Dust, I highly advised you do because you probably just end up lost and confused.

The same promises I made in the first post carry on to this one. I split Chapter 2 into two posts because its too lengthy to talk about in one shot. As usual this is a warning that I write A LOT. Enjoy~

Part Two-

First half of chapter 2

Spoilers beyond this point

Miscommunication is often an incredible frustrating trope used by writers to create drama. On the surface, Nayeon expresses self-hatred because she has led herself to believe that Momo needs normal and that means she needs her as a friend. Her past habits (being a manipulative soul eater basically) have led her to a place where she feels like anything she does is impure and undeserving of Momo. Meanwhile, Momo’s feelings have broken the surface of being romantic, only wanting to be friends with Nayeon because she truly believes that Nayeon doesn’t like her like that. With her inferiority complex, she can’t see herself deserving of Nayeon.

You might think to yourself, how can Momo think of herself as undeserving when she is an angel sent from above and Nayeon has already labeled herself as Satan. Well, remember that Momo has lived her life alone with neglectful parents who out right abandoned her when she was around the age of 11 (Maybe 12). When you’re forced to live such a lonely life, anybody who makes an effort to change that (Nayeon) becomes a precious person. Momo has seen her at her worst, but because she has convinced herself that she can’t be greedy with Nayeon, choses to look past those flaws and see the good in her. So, when Nayeon has her freak outs, Momo can only blame herself because she can’t contemplate that it just might be Nayeon being irrational and it will pass.

With as much internal trauma that these two have generated for themselves, the concept of drama coming from miscommunication can no longer be applied. Instead it becomes a journey of when they will finally come to a place where they start to understand the depths of each other’s issues and how they can finally talk about it. I wouldn’t expect this for a while though.

Trauma is hard to talk about much less unspoken trauma that has had years to fester and stick. It’s why I never felt a usual ping of annoyance over watching the cycle (that I mentioned last part) repeat itself because we could gain something new from each scene and watch the characters grow. These characters might never come to a complete understanding but to a place of acceptance, and that’s what makes it worth wild to watch them go from start to finish.

With all that said, we open up with Nayeon engaging in one of her older habits, drinking away any leftover taste of Momo. We get to witness another turning point, where her relationship with Momo (loosely term based) has now overridden her previous destructive habits. Despite the fact that Wine is known for its lingering taste, Nayeon’s brain has convinced itself that it can’t drown out the taste of Spearmint. Think of it as- Nayeon is trying to drink herself to forget, but the thought of Momo makes it impossible to do.

She has to come to terms with the fact that Momo isn’t a presence that will go away with time. If anything, it only gets stronger as time progresses. The 10 or so years she spent trying to destroy herself enough so no one else can is now slowly being minded. When you’ve dealt with severe self-hatred for that long, any idea of change can be alarming at best. Change that a person didn’t ask for can be even worse.

So Nayeon has to decide a new strategy to battle against Momo because now she is starting to remember what it’s like to feel and not just live to cause destruction.

She thinks of it as her being caught in a trap, unable to break free so she goes for her last-ditch addiction. Except Momo has already beaten her to it. Gum has become a personified version of what Nayeon has come to identify as the Momo addiction. Momo replacing the cigarette with a piece of gum is a representation of how Momo wants her to pick up a new habit to replace smoking.

Instead of smoking a cigarette that could be anywhere, she gives into her impulse and chews the gum instead. Because if Momo is in the equation, Nayeon will always choose her over anything else.

The next scene starts with Nayeon determined to stop things between them. It doesn’t last long because she sees Momo waiting with the recovered book in hand and a cute injured face. It reminds her how much she does care.

Momo begins to hint at her feelings, claiming that she can’t forget the fact that they have fucked each other in 2 separate locations. This leads to Nayeon realizing that Momo had never done anything like that before.

The panic that Nayeon expresses goes back to the games she played with Jihyo and Jeongyeon when sex was just a tool. With Momo it wasn’t. It’s a feeling that she took advantage of her like she did with the others. She views Momo as too pure and now she feels like she has tainted her because she doesn’t feel good enough to be her first.

Even when Momo is trying to express the fact that she liked it but will go back to the way things were before, Nayeon won’t have it because it simply goes against what she believes is the truth. When Momo leaves, all she has left is her habit of smoking and an empty feeling.

Seungyeon plays a much more outgoing role this chapter than her quiet role in the first one. She has Nayeon explaining that she spent years wishing she was dead only to get over it 2 years ago by fucking up other people’s lives. Seungyeon brings up that previously, Nayeon was at 98% of the ‘I-want-to-die’ scale, back when things were bumpy but not as rough as now with Momo. It gives insight that since Momo has entered her life, her will to live has increased even if only slightly.

The painting of the mother-child that Nayeon hates is a good symbol for the hatred she has for her own mother. There is not enough context about the sunrise/sunfall painting to clarify if it means anything other than it meaning another day is coming/ending. It might remind her of a tomorrow, one that she doesn’t deserve.

“Because destroying something that makes you uncomfortable is so much easier than giving yourself a chance to like it, right?” is a good analogy given that it perfectly describes her reaction towards Momo. Although only the audience can really comprehend that.

Nayeon not wanting to be at 100% can testify that there is something that’s keeping her here. Whether it is Momo or her dad, we can only assume.

They say that when you’re intoxicated you say and do things that you actually want to do. Nayeon seeking out Momo is exactly what sober Nayeon would do if she didn’t have her self-created mess to consider. In the meantime, we have Momo dealing with the fact that she is overloading over feeling like it was her fault the team lost and her fault that Nayeon doesn’t want her back because now the idea that Momo likes Nayeon has reached the surface.

Intoxicated Nayeon breaks her out of her head and Momo is left to take her back home. Her dedication to Nayeon can know no bounds because she has chosen Nayeon as her person. Momo is good about blocking out Nayeon, it’s only when Nayeon returns that she breaks because that’s her person, she just can’t leave her. Momo will come to her aid no matter if it is temporary or permanent.

We get our first meeting between the maid and Momo. Their interactions are detailed as Momo being no one important, hoping to be someone important, and then finally introducing herself as Momo. This form of repetition is used to show how their relationship changes from indecisive to intimate.

Despite all that Nayeon has done, Momo still values her wishes (although false ones) higher than her own by requesting that she be properly looked after before walking away again.

Although Momo has never talked about Momo extensively outside her conversations with her dad and Sana/Jisoo/Jennie, she still breaks Im Nayeon character by allowing her maid to talk about her. We get mentions of her violent nature as the standard, but she remains calm and composed as she listens to her maid talk about how much Momo cares about her. When Nayeon is thinking rationally, Momo is definitely her source of calmness.

Instead of snark, Nayeon responds with insecurity that we have only seen her show in front of her dad (and to a small degrees, Momo). This leads to Nayeon coming to the realization that the more they are apart, the more they become unstable. It’s a relationship that screams out toxic and yet they’re better when they are with each other. The creation of such a complex relationship like this is really hard to do. In order to come up with a solution that will abide by her previous misdoings and her need to stop the pain from being away from Momo, she decides that friendship is what they both need.

By just being a friend, she has herself believing that she isn’t treating Momo like the girls in her past. That she is doing what Momo wants because she can’t fathom why Momo would want anything else with her. I say that she decides this, because Momo would go with whatever she thinks is right. Because expressing her feelings makes her feel like she’s asking for too much especially from Nayeon.

Momo had made an off-hand comment about how reading makes her sleepy. So, strategically, Momo making the library her new spot could make perfect sense because it would be the last place Nayeon would look. Except, I think that Momo chose the library because it reminds her of the safe feeling she had while reading the crime mystery novels with Nayeon.  It’s because of the days spent reading that she came to see a brighter side of Nayeon, so she can’t easily throw that away. Think of it as Momo trying to appease the side of her that wants to be with Nayeon. Like how she walked Nayeon home even though it ends with Momo asking if Nayeon wants to her to forget they ever met (Nayeon agreeing and Momo walking away).

We get to see Momo make it crystal clear that Nayeon can’t keep saying that she doesn’t want to be around her but then come back a few days later. It goes back to Momo requesting Nayeon show her something real. She wants Nayeon to use her words and mean them. On the other hand, Nayeon has spent the last 10 years learning how to lie in order to keep people away from her. It marks the first time that Momo begs her to say what she really wants, and Nayeon not doing it out of being self-conditioned to say otherwise.

Instead she tries again at Momo’s house because her need to be with Momo has now exceeded any need to be the self-proclaiming loner bitch that she use to be.

She finds Momo in her brooding position (arms wrapped around knees- Also real life’s Nayeons iconic picture taking pose but that’s irrelevant here). It’s the first time that Nayeon gets to see the result of her actions. Nayeon made herself believe that Momo was more put together just because she had never seen her crumble before. A reaction bad enough that Momo had missed group session previously.

We see Nayeon finally come to terms with the fact that she can’t say things she doesn’t mean. When she is indecisive with her words or says things she doesn’t mean- it’s like a reminder of the games she used to play on people in the past.

We get our glimpse at Momo’s fragile state from how desperate she is for normality. You can also say that Nayeon misinterprets it for wanting normality in their relationship when Momo means it in general. Thinking that she needs someone close when in reality Momo could mean having the ability to make friendships/acquaintances and watch them end (or leave) naturally without experiencing extreme bouts of self-loathing.

If there is any evidence that Nayeon just wants to be friends, it certainly doesn’t show in the fact that she thinks about when they had sex. A lot. (But of course, she’s trying to be a better person in her own way.)

Normality leads them to a coffee shop where they try to act like they’re completely normal people. Except they aren’t.

This was one of those times that I had to silently cheer for Momo because she’s getting more comfortable asking questions without fearing that Nayeon will walk straight out the door. It’s also a testimony to how serious Nayeon is about this when she instantly declines the idea of going back to how things were before the whole ‘we kinda fucked and liked it oops?’.

It is also easy to understand how Nayeon can get so wrapped up on the ‘just friends’ thing when she is gaging Momo’s reaction to her claiming there wouldn’t be baggage and messing around. Seeing as Momo agrees, specifically saying that “This is what I want” creates a moral compass for Nayeon to make sure that she gets what she wants.

Reading becomes their common ground for spending time with each other without having to worry about overstepping boundaries. It’s only natural that now Nayeon has to get the best mystery book she can find for Momo and pretend that she has no idea what its about so she can see her get excited. Why stop with books when she can also get her the best new pair of boots she can find because believe it or not footwear is very important when it comes to soccer. (Believe me ive played in worn out cleats, that shit can destroy your feet.) (Also its totally because she wants to make Momo happy anyway she can now.)

Their relationship is awkward at best, but if this ‘friendship’ was portrayed as smooth sailing I would call bs. Ultimately, Stormy made good writing decisions when it came to showing that they can be friends while also reminding the readers that honestly their feelings for each other are founded on a need to be around each other and finding a way to be good enough to be with said person. The pacing is also just right. It’s not fast enough that it feels like important details are being left out, mentioning’s of their relationship not being in the ‘correct’ order as a ‘normal’ relationship.

It is also not slow enough that you start to feel frustrated that they aren’t together yet. Because from the start of this chapter there has always been a romantic tension of “When will they…”. For a 2 chapter fic, with the first kiss happening at the end of the first chapter, it feels surprisingly like a slow burn relationship but without the dreadfully slow pacing and the multichapters of them brooding over not being together.

Because Momo is not use to people doing good deeds for her, she has a hard time swallowing the fact that Nayeon is willing to pay for such an expensive item that she, herself, won’t actually be using. We get a taste of what Momo is like when she has shut down mentally when not even Nayeon can reach her until they are alone.

While reading this, I began to think that Momo was going to actively decide to protest against the top of the line shoes (maybe go for lower quality, thinking as Momo- I would think that I deserved those more) but was pleasantly surprised by the rush of emotion that Momo shows her. It felt very natural in how awkward it initially feels but how genuine a moment it grows to become. Nayeon may blow it off as no big deal, but it is a very big deal to Momo. She might not understand it then, but she will eventually.

We get our first Jeongyeon appearance of the chapter. In my last part, I initially discussed how I wasn’t sure of her stance in what her motives were. True to my word, I gotta update it because I’ve settled for the fact that Jeongyeon doesn’t have any malicious plans If anything, it’s because of how rightfully cautious she is of Nayeon. Jeongyeon brings up an incident that happened before Nayeon came into the picture, an incident that made Jeongyeon care about her much later on but ill mention it now.

I don’t know what that incident was but we can guess that because Momo’s therapist is Jeongyeons sister- that Jeongyeon is responsible for her going to therapy (much like Nayeon indirectly brings up the fact that Jeongyeon probably brought up her issues to JYP to use to get her into therapy too). Meaning, the incident happened two years ago. Or Jeongyeon only just convinced her to go to therapy two years ago. Honestly we just don’t know enough for a concrete theory, just a suspicion.

Either way we see how cautious she is talking to Momo because she has seen her at her lowest and doesn’t want to see her that way again. Because of how much of a broken state Nayeon got her in, it’s only human that she believes that Nayeon is trying to do the same thing to Momo. She doesn’t know the amount of time they’ve spent together or the long monologues they’ve dedicated to each other in their thoughts. Dramatic irony is a bitch.

Then again, Nayeon doesn’t know about the situation that Jeongyeon has been in, or that it’s a thing at all. Both sides are kept in the dark when it comes to how much the other thinks the other knows about Momo.

Something that peaked my interest about the whole ‘being nice is weird’ scene for Nayeon is that she assumes Momo is being cautious because of her potentially fucking up. She doesn’t take into account that maybe Momo is being cautious because she’s worried that Nayeon might come to her senses and leave. After all, she still isn’t in a state of mind that believes she’s worthy of having people be kind to her so she keeps her guard up.

For all that they have learned about each other, they are still stuck on the ‘me’ factor of their issues. Progress is progress though, as Seungyeon would say. They can now be more like themselves without worrying that the other will misinterpreted it.

Nayeon is now moving towards treating Momo the opposite of how she treated Jihyo and Jeongyeon. She wants to avoid fucking up her head and keep her from overthinking things until she is running herself ragged from self-loathing. Of course she still has a ways to go before she has shed that skin of hers because she still gives Momo a fight for wanting to run even after practicing for 2 hours. Saving the last bit of snark for when Momo can’t hear her because Nayeon is too aware of how much she doesn’t want to hurt her feelings.

It shows that Momo can’t mentally handle confrontation when she jumps to the conclusion that there would be no way Nayeon would wait for her after snapping at her. Its gut-wrenching to know how relieved and surprised she is despite the fact that Nayeon took her stuff.

(For any Fool’s Gold readers- ‘Forgetting something?’ is a callback)

If there is one thing Stormy doesn’t want us to forget, it’s that Momo is Nayeon’s relief when her emotions threaten to topple the surface. Her relationship with her mother is put as a comparison to a loving mother taking care of her child after he slips in the rain. It something that she didn’t have, a kind, caring mother. Instead of relying on an unhealthy habit, she picks up her order and cookie and goes to Momo.

It’s also noticeable that Nayeon waits for a good opportunity to reveal the cookie because she is purposefully trying to catch Momo off-guard in the best way as much as she can now.

As a reader, it’s a good suggestion that they come up with healthy ways to get them back on the healthy, non-destructive mindset. Although they never disclose what Nayeon’s solution would be, we know that the solution is her going to Momo because she never wants her to see her using bad coping mechanisms again.

Because Momo had to carry Nayeon into both her, and Nayeons house, she never got to be properly invited in. It’s hidden symbolism for the fact that Nayeon never invited her into her life. She just showed up and became a crutch for her.

When Momo is asking if she wants to come in, it feels like it’s a request for Nayeon to get closer to her.

Momo’s house is disorganized without any sense of being a family home. Nayeon acknowledges that her house shares a similar lonely feeling except her house is spotless and clean, like nobody has properly lived there yet. A key difference is that Momo has drawings and markers all over the place, showing the kid side in her in contrast to Nayeon’s museum like mansion.

The roof scene is held as one of my top 5 memorable scenes of the chapter, it lets us see the serious damage that Momo’s past has caused her. Although it’s never specifically said, Momo hints about her contemplations of suicide because a journey in the stars sounds more inviting than living in a world where her parents are no where to be found. Nayeon actively tries to swat down those thoughts. In her current state, I don’t think she can mentally handle the idea of Momo no longer being around. If I were to guess, I would say that the importance of Momo being in her life is now approaching the importance of her dad still being around.

If theres anything to say about Nayeon’s possessive feelings about Momo, it’s that she doesn’t want to watch anyone get close to Momo who might be a threat. I think at this point, anyone who isn’t her is a threat. She’s become hypersensitive to what being a user means and has become protective that Momo will never experience that. It’s also a good excuse to cover up the fact that she has a jealous streak.

Stormy gives a nice little throwback to Nayeon’s first time getting Dahyun to reveal Momo’s hiding spot with a date with Sana. Good on you Stormy. Of course Sana is delighted, I can’t help but hope we see this relationship get more fleshed out because of how frequently it gets brought up. Does Sana sleep around to make up for the fact that she can’t get Dahyun the way she wants? Does she even fancy Dahyun at all or is it just a game? We already know Dahyun has a thing for her so this subplot has substance.

Whether it was because of Momo’s comment about not paying attention because she was waiting for Nayeon, or the fact she was in a good mood- she decides that if Momo thinks she needs to run then she should do it too. It again plays into the factor that Nayeon is actively trying to make Momo feel good like happy good, the way she deserves. It’s hard to recall just how terrible of a person she was before she became serious about Momo.

She hasn’t changed, she has just now started to let the other side of her show. While that doesn’t excuse the wrongs that she has done, it doesn’t mark out the good that is still buried deep inside her.

The last scene focused on in this part revolves around the same location that was used in the last chapter. Last chapter, the hill overlooking the city became a place where Nayeon allowed herself to feel, even if it was only for a few minutes with the help of Momo. Instead of it becoming a place of fond memories, it’s now a spot that requires Nayeon to try to not act weird about the fact that Momo fucked her at that same location.

It’s also an intriguing detail thrown in that Momo really can recall every part of that experience as she mentions wanting to pet the golden retriever they saw while doing it. It really does contrast with how down Momo can get because of small moments.

If you thought this part was worth your time (I doubt it) just wait for next part~~

[actualbird]

Hmmmmn do u have any all-time fave fics u could ref? I trust u

OH MAN!!! u didnt specify any fandom so im assuming you mean my all time faves from WHEREVER and OH BOY!!! 

i actually have fic rec page on my blog which spans over a whole bunch of fandoms and has cool legends like humor and angst and stuff (im still working on it tho omg) along with my catchall fic tag where i shove all the fics i reblog. but you asked for my ALL TIME FAVES so here are some off the top of my head (im limiting myself to one per fandom or else id be here FOREVER). 

(note: pls check the tags of fics before you read them)

Designations Congruent with Things by cleanwhiteroom (alt link) [Pacific Rim]

He begins at it already pried apart

OHHHHHH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. oh my GOD. okay i lose my shit over Designations Congruent with Things on a yearly basis because it is, by far, one of the most stunning pieces of fiction ive read. full stop. not only is it a feat of fanfiction (it’s GODDAMN LONG. it’s been taken off of ao3, so i cant check the wc, but damn i remember it was long), but as a story, it’s just. god, i dont even know what to say. ive already talked about this fic in a previous ask, so im just going to reiterate all my love again, just phrased slightly differently.

DCwT is an epic piece of Newt/Hermann Pacific Rim fanfiction. it follows Hermann and Newt after the events of the movie and delve painfully into each and every consequence their actions cause. it’s quite possibly the hardest thing ive ever read, for many reasons; the emotions are so vivid and they hurt; the science is so well researched it took me an hour to get through a paragraph because i my brain was still trying to catch up; Run On Sentences For Miles; it’s really, really goddamn long. i remember it got some flack for being over complicated, but in my opinion, the things that make this fic difficult are exactly what make it incredible. it’s overly cerebral in a way two messed up genius scientists would absolutely be. this fic is. i dont have words for it. i have only read the whole thing in its entirety ONCE and i have tried to reread it but goddamn is it difficult. this fic is definitely not for everybody, but it’s a piece of art that gained a bit of a cult following back when it was updating. (theres a fictional band in the fic that inspired ppl to make the band and the music real. RIGHT???) anyway this fic is basically the cornerstone which i worship when it comes to fanfiction as a genre of literature. jesus christ. jesus christ.

World Ain’t Ready by idiopathicsmile [Les Miserables]

Enjolras presses his lips together. He already looks pained, and Grantaire hasn’t even opened his mouth yet. That’s got to be a record, even for them.

“I need a favor,” he says at last.

“With what?” says Grantaire. “Ooh, are you forming a cult? Can I join? I’d be awesome at cults, I just know it.” He ticks off his qualifications on his fingers. “I love chanting, I look great in robes—”

(High school AU. Grantaire the disaffected stoner is pulled into a cause bigger than himself. Or: in which there are pretend boyfriends for great justice.)

if youve ever been in the les mis fandom i know you know this fic. i know youve already read this fic. i know that your dog has probably already read this fic. i know that this fic has been recced to hell and back, and currently resides as the most kudo-sed work in the les mis tag on AO3. but im reccing it anyways because it’s just THAT GOOD. this fic got me INTO THE FANDOM. pacing. plot. characterization. teen angst. HUMOR. this fic is perfect. literally no other words. it’s just perfect. i read this in my last few months of senior year high school, and never before have i ever read a fic that actually, truly, felt like it was about teenagers. the narrative and the voice. the dialog. god. if this were a book, id buy it. and that’s saying something because im always BROKE. but id buy this fic. several times. who am i kidding. you dont need to know this bc youve read this fic before. if you havent, please. do yourself a favor. oh my god. oh my god. (and when youre done, read all of idiopathicsmile’s other fics too god theyre all SO GOOD)

catch me if you can by isawet [Teen Wolf]

What do you think of my solution to the Kobayashi Maru?

hands down one of my favorite teen wolf fic. a vague summary gives way to a fic with incredible characterization. fucking beautiful writing style. non-chronological story telling done wonderfully. and gosh, that ending. hilarious in tiny bits that make it all the more better. just, honestly. this fic needs so much more love. it’s my go-to fic whenever i want to understand just how one can utilize suspense and tension in writing. what the hell. what the

Segments [series] by d_aia [Kingsman: The Secret Service]

“Are you sure that’s how you want to tell him?” Merlin asked once again.

“He will need space to deal with situation. It’s how he copes,” Arthur explained and a bit pretentiously at that, if one were to ask Merlin. “I’m giving him a place and a reason to run.”

Merlin chose to shut up.

all fics in this series? my favorite. it’s intelligent, brutal, beautiful. it’s been a while since ive read these, but theres a reason these fics still haunt me. god. god.

Graduate Vulcan for Fun and Profit by lazulisong [Star Trek: AOS]

It really does take a village to raise a Jim.

The members of the Kelvin’s crew watch over Jim as much as he lets them.

I LOVE THIS FIC SOOOOOOO MUCH. it’s a really delicate, heartfelt piece that isnt afraid to be an asshole sometimes, which is basically jim kirk in a nutshell. not only does it go through an incredible reflective relationship with some rando vulcan who decided to take him under his wing, but it does so in a realistic way that doesnt over dramatize aspects, but still ends up very vivid. also, THERES VULCAN LINGUISTICS. linguistics + fanfiction = 10000000% Best Shit EVER.

fathers and sons by M_Leigh [X-Men: DoFP]

“I have an – interest – in Peter Maximoff,” Erik said, somewhat grudgingly, glaring. “A – familial – interest –”

Everybody stared at him.

“In that – mutantkind is one – large – family –” Erik said valiantly, if pathetically.

“Oh, shit,” Alex said. “No way. No way.”

ghghgfjhdh the first xmen fic i ever read and by far, the most fukcgin hilarious. jesus CHRIST. theres just something subtly incredible about how the author uses phrasing to make every sentence as goddamn funny as they are. im really in love with the comma placement in this fic. every comma is exactly where it needs to be. every em dash is where it belongs. IM NOT MAKING SENSE, but i would send this fic to people as a prime example of narrative humor uplifted via phrasing and punctuation. just read this fic. it’s got Hank POV, Charles being a “strange lecherous Englishman”, Peter being a Teen, and everybody drags Erik’s fashion choices. 

Repeat After Me by queenieofaces [Yuri On Ice]

Victor learns language through mimicry, hears phrases and repeats them back until the inflection becomes second nature. Yuuri seems to communicate best through euphemism, through metaphor, through talking around the subject rather than approaching it head on, and so Victor tries his best to mimic him, to take his words and echo them back.

(Vignettes in language learning and communication, spanning the whole series.)

SO!! FUCKING!!! GOOD!!!!!!!! i think ive mentioned how much i LOVE LANGUAGE and this fic tackles the language barrier in a beautiful, earnest way. as a bilingual, this fic was just so so so good. victor is just bounding with love in this fic and the writing just feels so..,,,,warm.,,,,, 

OKAY i know you only asked for fic recs and not….all these rambles but. i just have a lot of love for fanfiction. fanfiction is so great. we are so lucky. we are so lucky. dont 4get to leave kudos and comments on fics you like! happy reading anon!!!

[liveandloveandlearn]

Shutting down my machinery

I’m taking even longer these days to come to a conclusion. Am i turning “Perceiving” instead of “Judging”?:))

Nah. Unlikely. I do like to judge.

I’m taking even longer these days to voice my judgement. Information gets processed in my head in a very intense but inconclusive manner. They swirl together like a batch of whipped cream being folded in melted chocolate. I feel the multi faceted implications of everything all at once and then non at all in a split second. It’s hard to find an anchor to make a conclusion on the spot. Everything seems to demand me to think about them or feel them out a little more, a little longer.

But I got a few conclusions out of the blue.

Apparently I joined a cult in college. AIESEC. A defining experience in my life that both empowered me and emptied my soul a little. All the tell tale signs were there. I also got depressed at the end after I left - wondering who I was, what my purpose was, what I was supposed to do afterward. It was truly a cult lol. I didnt believe anyone could grow into a full fledge functioning capable adult without it. I was totally brainwashed. I don’t think I regretted it though, still. I learnt that I was capable of things I didn’t know I was capable of. Partying, talking to people, leading, selling, public speaking. Working like madness and believing. Feeling confident. And I also learnt from its dark sides. Inclusion doesn’t just mean including people of different looks, skin colors, genders, etc. Inclusion means including traits that are unique about people, and not dismissing them in others and suppressing them in yourself because only certain traits were celebrated. AIESEC was loud and hype. AIESEC told me to be less introverted. I couldn’t be less introverted, so I felt like an outcast. But still, here and there during one-on-one moments, people told me they appreciated me. That they felt I embodied what drew them to AIESEC. That I was thoughtful, and kind, and hard working, and passionate. AIESEC brought me out of my shell, and I will always be grateful of that.

“You are very smart. You can see everything. I can’t see everything as you so, i’m not as smart as you. But you should slow down...”

I don’t remember now exactly what that guy was trying to advise me to do or if he was just totally BS-ing me just because he was hired by the MC to come and make us feel...something. But I remember feeling deeply validated. Somebody was able to see me and telling me I was special. Maybe he was BS-ing me, but I still believe his BS was built on what he saw. I was and still am smart and can see everything...well, “everything". That's what i'm trying to do now. I wanna see everything before coming to a conclusion. The older I get, the longer I feel that process takes place. The “truth” only looks more and more grey. I hesitate to give advice, and lean more on naming facts, naming what i think is likely to be happening and will happen, and giving encouragements and potential options. My general mojo is that the solutions need to be custom to the problems as much as possible. No random online advices or lists will be good enough for me. Maybe it will spark something to lead me somewhere, but I will always have to walk the lonely road, wrestle with conflicting ideas and limitations, and come up with what works for me.

Apparently my skin is a little thin. After all of that work with Jordan Peterson and Brene, I can still be fazed by a gentle little unpleasant comment. A couple weeks ago, a friend made a few passing comments about how I should find a job. Yesterday my sister pointed out that my linkedin profile hasn’t been updated and asked “are you even looking for a job?”. I mumbled “maybe” and avoided eye contacts. It’s difficult to describe what exactly i’m doing/going through internally. I think the best word to describe is “loitering” - GREAT word from the lady from Brene’s pod cast - she said she had to do some “creative loitering”. I had the chance to try to explain it but I didn’t. I was busy feeling shamed. My shame, in a split second, was telling me that I’m not gonna be able to explain my “loitering”, cuz maybe it’s not even a real valid thing but more of an excuse, and even if it’s a real valid thing, my sister would not even understand, so why dont i just give a non-answer answer. But for the next hour or so I felt out of it. I felt shame. I felt alone. I felt disconnected. And then I started missing some old connection, particularly to an ex-coworker. Wasn’t he cute. He made me feel awkwardly special here and there. What would it be like if I were with him...It’s enticing to half-ass fantasize about something that’s never real while still feeling pretty crappy. I decided to go to bed. This morning I woke up and recognized what a silly train of thought that was. It had nothing to do with my reality. Just funny how the brain works.

So i guess my skin is a little thin. I could probably throw myself out there a little more to thicken it by a few layers. I want to do that. And also, I want to try to explain my “loitering” to people. Not in its entirety since it’ll be so long and inconclusive, and definitely not to prove something. But just to let myself be seen. 

I’m reading a couple books and thinking and processing some ideas.

I do want to find a job. But I wanna go about it the right way or at least the way that feels right to me. I’m searching for what it is about me that I want to do and want to sell. I’m pretty close. I think i still wanna be a BA. Still undecided on whether I wanna be in healthcare. My resume and cover letter that I put together in May was a little uninspiring. I can probably still update my Linkedin profile and I will, but im just holding out for a little bit more inspiration. I’m very fortunate to not have to be in a rush.

I should just start. I want to start. I think this is already a good enough place to start.

- Make a list of at least 5 people to reach out for warm referrals (Matt, Melanie, Tom, Gopal, 

- Reach out to them

- Update resume & cover letter

- Ask some people I trust to look at my resume and cover letter

- Start writing on Medium about business analysis

- Apply to online jobs as I see fit.

[alanajacksontx]

Link building techniques that still work in 2019

The truth is, ranking your website without links is quite an undertaking.

Links are Google’s #1 ranking factor. Their importance in the entire Search Engine Optimization dynamics is evident from the fact that backlinks are Google’s Reputation Management Tool.

Link building is all about getting web pages to link to each other. With the presence of links on the web, the users are able to get around more relevant data on the internet.

When it is about search engines, links help them crawl the pages of your website and this is probably the top reason that your link building activity should be on point.

As long as you take your link building activity seriously and are doing it in the right manner, you are helping your own website rank well and also helping the audience reach discover deserving content.

Eight link building techniques that can still work for you in 2019

Let’s check them out.

1. Help a Reporter Out technique

Also known as the HARO, the Help a Reporter Out technique works through a platform meant for journalists and sources.

While journalists use this platform to find new stories, you can use this to pitch a story to journalists and get backlinks. To get this started, you will have to register yourself on the website and you will then start receiving emails for source requests. This is a great way to get authoritative backlinks.

2. Blog about hot/trending topics

This is a classic activity for your link building exercise. Creating content/blog around hot topics is a good way to get backlinks. Since these topics just got in, not a lot of information is available around them over the internet.

So, if you are able to capture relevant content in a quick time phase, your content/blog will become the go-to resource for those topics. These will help you gain a large number of backlinks from different websites.

3. Co-authoring

You can pitch your content ideas to different website admins and request them to let you co-author the piece with their content creators, obviously mentioning the backlink clause.

If you are a subject expert, you don’t need to worry about the argument that this a this-for-that favor situation or might be an unethical link building technique. This works because the other admin will have a great piece of content curated by you and you will get a quality backlink from an authority website.

4. The broken link technique

There are always broken links present on your website or other websites. They can become an asset for you when it comes to link building activity for your website. You can simply use the Link Juice Recovery tool to find the broken backlinks that your site has and try to recover them and repurpose this content.

Also, you can look for broken links on other websites and notify their admins about them. You can then request them to let you create content around the topics that were previously explored on those pages. However, this is up got the discretion of the admins of other websites.

5. Building link relationships

Building good professional relationships is essential for the sake of creating a good link profile. You will have to create new business contacts in order to tap into opportunities of link building. You should probably join communities related to your niche so that you can find other websites that are open towards ethical link building activities.

This is not going to happen overnight; you will have to engage with the individuals on these platforms and comment on their posts and show that you are interested in their content.

Once you are on the same page, you can collaborate for building link relationships. You can also offer testimonials for some of these websites (ethically) by writing about them and earning a backlink.

6. Get a blog for your website

Something that will keep working as a link building technique in  2019 and beyond is running a blog on your website. You can develop a blog if you don’t have one already.

Now, when you start blogging, you can start writing around niches that concern your website, you can earn backlinks for authoritative content. Blogging regularly is a step towards building a great link profile for your website.

7. Turn mentions into backlinks

Turning your mentions into backlinks is indeed a clever yet simple hack for link building for your website.

What you need to do here is, whenever someone mentions your website or its product offerings, you can get in touch with them and ask them to turn that mention into a backlink.

However, this works only when these websites have not already linked to your website in their piece. Use tools like Backlink Profiler (BLP) to find these mentions.

8. Skyscraper technique

Very difficult to accomplish but a highly effective technique for link building is the Skyscraper Technique, coined by Brian Dean of Backlinko.

It requires you to create really amazing content around a specific issue related to your industry and then offer a solution for it through your content.

If you are able to offer the right solution, you will eventually end up earning a lot of authoritative backlinks.

Take care of these link building directives

Don’t go for excessive reciprocal link building for the sake of heavily cross-linking to a website. The search engines are smart and when they find out, they will penalize your website. This will negatively affect your website’s ranking in search results.

Links with over-optimized anchor text are a big blunder.

Adding your site to any web directory just to get a backlink will have a negative effect on your website’s ranking. Always be relevant to the directory you choose.

Don’t add optimized links in the post or signature of your comments

Never buy links, this is highly discouraged.

Write a good guest post and earn a backlink.

Conclusion

Link building isn’t truly dead, at least in the impact that it managed to cast in the ways we optimize our websites for great search engine rankings. Yet, denying the fact that links are important is equivalent to killing the ranking of your own website.

So, for the link building activities mentioned above, you can still use them towards building a great link profile for your own website and make your website rank better.

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FREE MARKETING STRATEGY SKILLS AND SALES WEEKLY WEBINARS | 2019

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