#Im just rambling

[jestersocks]

Alex kralie is so important to me as a character because he’s such an interesting foil to Jay.

Jay sits around and finds clues and posts them on the web.

Alex vanished from his life trying desperately to stop this infection that was rapidly spreading and hurting all of his friends.

people forget his long-term plan was to kill everyone involved and then himself.

he was trying desperately to help everyone the only rational way he knew how!! how else do you stop an infection spreading when the people don’t even know they’re sick!

it was an impossible situation

In honor of his birthday, one of my favorite aspects of Alex is that he's an incompetent murderer precisely because he doesn't want to kill anyone.

[dramadred]

okay this is just me rambling but imagine this.

lanfear gets the upper hand on moiraine in the fight. she has her on her knees and starts taunting her / acting like she’s going to kill her & moiraine braces herself for that.

however, instead of killing her she makes a comment about siuan and we get a parallel scene of what’s happening to siuan at the tower. as lanfear makes that comment we see moiraine react to siuan being stilled (aka feeling their connection cut off) while the scene cuts to siuan being stilled. then lanfear leaves moiraine after taking the sakarnen because a broken aes sedai and amyrlin is more useful than a dead one. (perhaps that’s our doorway alternative for now.)

and that leads us to the scene of moiraine crying in lans arms because she now believes siuan to be dead and that means that all of this has been for nothing.

[lycee289]

imagen casually walking in mha univers, you turn a corner and you get trauma dumped by todoroki:

no one:

shoto: you don't want to hear about my tragic backstory???😦

[ayyy-pee]

waking up freezing and shivering, teeth chattering every night because your husband is a blanket hog. you know it's not on purpose. he just can't help it. doesn't even know he does it most times. you'd think after years together you'd be used to it, but waking up curled into the fetal position as you try to retain even a smidge of warmth is something you don't think you'll ever adjust to.

so you reach behind you, feeling your spouses large form wrapped snug as a bug in your shared blanket and you grip onto the fabric. you pull as hard as you can but you don't manage to move him even an inch. you try once more...same result.

"ken..." you whisper, wrapping your arms around yourself. no response. "kento..."

he doesn't budge. you're tempted to just get up and go grab another blanket, but your husband, despite his seriousness, can get quite pouty when you do that. so you tap him hard instead sure to jab him in the spot you know is his most sensitive. this seems to do the trick as he grunts in response.

"I'm cold," you tell nanami and he sits up quickly, realizing what he's done. his pajama top hangs off one shoulder. his blonde hair is pointing every which way and sleep is heavy on his eyelids, threatening to weigh him down again any minute.

"I'm sorry, love," nanami speaks, voice rough and deep with exhaustion, but the sincerity in his apology clear.

then he's throwing the blanket back over you both. only he adds in a little extra warmth as he wraps his arm around your waist and throws a large leg over your body.

nanami buries his face in your neck, adjusting himself so that he can be as close to you as possible. only a few seconds pass before you hear his light snoring behind you. and you know the warmth you feel is from more than just his touch.

[mythalism]

i think whats so interesting about the severe fumble of the dragon age elves is how i get the feeling that the devs underestimated how many people identify so strongly with them, even outside of the cultures they are most often cited as analogous to. you dont have to be indigenous or jewish to see yourself or your family or your people in their struggle. anyone who has ever experienced racism, xenophobia, religious persecution, or any sort of social and economic discrimination can find themselves reflected in the elves of thedas. anyone who has experienced poverty. anyone who has ever experienced the threat of sexual violence. perhaps not all of the experience would resonate but some aspect of it would. and even if they weren't so universally relatable, they should have been treated better for the way they do so clearly mimic real world experiences of genocide, racism and discrimination and the implications of veilguard's message to just "forget the past and move on" is frankly disgusting when viewed as an answer to the same questions faced daily by the real world cultures they reflect, and yesterday's anon showed that brilliantly.

but im also fascinated by the thought process behind how they just got so readily written off as an irrelevant monolith. it feels like they thought it would make no difference for players to lose this major point of connection to the world. epler's comment about how the "elves had their time to shine" haunts my nightmares. where are they getting these ideas from like genuinely? i dont understand where this conception of the players being sick of elves comes from. sick of solas, sure. even ancient elves. this is a widely expressed sentiment all over the internet and i don't blame people for it. but modern elves? city elves and enslaved elves and new dalish clans? are people actually saying this somewhere? or did they just conflate people being sick of how over-exposed solas and ancient elves were with being tired of elves as a people? did they think that requests for more dwarf and qunari lore meant people wanted the elves to be narratively absent? and did they really try to remedy that with giving titan/harding a throwaway line about how the elves have "thrived" while they suffered? and not actually really giving the dwarves or qunari anything substantial anyway? or did they fear criticism for writing them "wrong" and decided it was better to barely write them at all? did they think the players just wouldn't care? did they think at all?

[bee--28]

Santa Fe isn't real, that's the whole point. Jack was never going to move out west. He never was gonna leave New York. It's a hopeless pipedream, something he knows he'll never get. "I'm saving up" No you're not, you don't have the income to be able to save up. He had to steal food to survive because he didn't have the money to buy it. "Are we going to roll over and let Pulizer pick our pockets" He HAS been doing that this whole time anyways.

Santa Fe is just a dream, it will never be a reality. Believing that it could one day maybe be true is kinda really all that kept Jack going.

[protocabbit]

warframe 1999 finale spoilers ahead!

im thinkin Thoughts about the hex finale and other stuff regarding transference by the drifter into their bodies.

thinking about the cutscene where youre able to help amir and just. the fact that amir was beginning to have a panic attack and a hard time breathing but the drifter decided to take control of his body via transference and manually breathe for him and calm him down and tell him to use the parazon which has the potential to auto hack systems, and in this instance, saving much more time and preventing the reactor from doing its thing.

and THEN i just think about the level of trust and intimacy that goes with the hex allowing the drifter/operator to use transference on them and take control of their bodies. and now that we have their gemini skins, it makes it even moreso

to willingly allow the drifter to pretty much possess their body in a way is such a massive amount of trust. when i do it with amir (cuz i have his gemini skin cuz of course) in missions and revert back into his body, he makes a comment not to go through certain memories labelled ‘recipes’ cuz theyre not actually recipes. that implies that the drifter can access their memories as well, which again just goes into the amount of trust the hex has for the drifter.

its so intimate in general, whether romantic or platonic. idk. i find it really cool and unique

[babylonfelldown]

I saw a tiktok about Jon and Theon and it made me remember how fuking insane their dynamic is

They're broken mirrors of each other: both of them just want the starks to see them as family, they want to feel wanted, they envy and hate each other.

Theon is a trueborn son of a great house, an heir even, but at the same time he's treated as a squire and a ward when convenient, (he helps Ned and Robb), he's also seen as a hostage and a threat, never quite trustworthy. He says repeatedly that he never felt wellcome by the Starks and that the only one to have any affection for him was Robb. Theon dreams to be wed to Sansa, not because he loves her, but because them he would be a son for Ned. He envies Jon because even being a bastard he's loved by Ned (ln a way neither Ned or his actual father loved him), his sibilings (all of them) love him, even if Lady Stark doesn't like him, he is family in Theon's eyes.

Jon is a bastard, he's a shame that must remain hidden, it doesn't matter how much Ned or his sibilings love him, he will never be a true Stark in the eyes of westerosi society. He is trusted but his loyality is always at question, Jon is a threat to Robb's claim in many peoples eyes, like he wants his brothers birthright, and the worst of it all is: he does. He desperately wants to be a trueborn son, but he loves Robb deeply, more than he could ever wish to be legitimate. He envies Theon because he is a trueborn son, he is an heir, he will get to have a wife and children of his own, legitimate children that won't be called names.

Truely insane dynamic of hatred and envy that culminates with both of them trying to one up each other on everything.

[cyrankaa]

still wishing the blackfyre rebellion had succeeded can you imagine how funny it would be. so westeros used to be ruled by targaryens but they were so lame they got overthrown by their illegitimate cousins. platinum blondes overthrowing platinum blondes it's a revolution literally nothing changes except the ruling family's name. oh and no dragons still

[h4venpha]

i think i find comfort in vashwood because of their unwillingness to say outloud how they care and love for one another. like CANONLY, theres so, so much they dont say, yet their actions reflect everything.

i’m pretty sure i’ve spoke on this before but i like to think that they never say more than they need to because of the world they live in, the type of people they are, the type of upbringings theyve had. it all stems back to them not really feeling worthy of the love they are offered.

wolfwood who only thinks of himself as some fucked up modified killing machine and that he believes theres no chance someone as kind hearted as vash would see the good in him, or what little there is left of the good in him. he’s done nothing but kill, he could never redeem himself, and yet vash isn’t scared nor shuns him for it even with his pacifistic ideals.

vash who has seen the brutal truth of wolfwood’s being and still decides he loves him to the very end.

vash who doesnt believe he deserves any ounce of love or commitment because he only hurts those he gets close to. it’s happened before and itll happen again, like hes a walking time bomb and everything will blow up again and the people close to him will die no matter what he does. and wolfwood who canonly sticks beside him until the end! literally calls himself his guide.

vash who has never had true companionship in his 150 years of living, and wolfwood who follows him to the ends of gunsmoke.

just up until vol10, theyre still toeing the line of the relationship theyve created. but the exact moment vash shows up and chooses to prioritize wolfwood over going after knives (the fucking thing he’s been working towards since the big fall, over a hundred years ago) is the moment he steps past that line. its so extremely open and explicit, even wolfwood asks him ‘why are you here?”

while what he says here is true yes, it also sounds like “you cannot die, i’m here to ‘save’ you because i want to live.”

then to this when wolfwood knows and accepts he will die— the sheer HORROR on vash’s face when he realizes wolfwood wont allow him to save him.

few pages ahead, vash’s monologue starts and these old panels come up. “deep down, he had become very close to me.” basically implying that back then, during the ‘shoot’ moment, they weren’t really close. and when vash accused him: “you’re the coward here.”, “you give up all hope so easily”, it was almost surface level in a way? talking to him at surface level

but now, so many chapters later when wolfwood really does give up hope, vash, with all of his developed love through out the story realizes how differently he feels now. wolfwood made him put a fucking gun to his head (giving up hope), and vash who only scolded and accused him, vs vol10 where when wolfwood gives up hope, vash feels straight terror, that he’s really going to lose him. (also the inverted panel is just so gorgeous.)

the whole “isnt that right, wolfwood?” just proves my entire point that vash’s presence here in this fight steps over the line of vulnerability they had created. he knows how he feels, and he knows that wolfwood feels the same, even if hes speaking to him indirectly.

[shynthoo]

It was at that fleeting moment... that I glimpsed the familiar face of my very best friend.

[tiedsh0es]

Can we talk about how no one is happier in Inanimate Insanity until they leave the show? Marshmallow, Lightbulb, Balloon, Taco, Microphone, now even Mepad.

It's brought up again and again. Even by OJ that the show changes you. That you can't better yourself until you get away from it.

The show is this cycle of anger, and cruelness from a host that uses it as a distraction from his past. Mephone is given so many chances to change. Even Mepad, who sticks by him because this is supposed to be the freedom from Cob's Mephone saved him from- is hardly even acknowledged by Mephone.

The contestants even try to be a little kinder towards Mephone because they know his past now- yet Mephone just returns it with more cruelty. Because that's the thing about Mephone he never once tries to change.

Never once tries to actually befriend the characters who try with him.

He's not without chances.

I believe that the only way Mephone can free himself from his own cruelty is with the end of his show. No more seasons, no more spin-offs. All this show is, is a distraction. Something to keep him as far away from his past as possible.

Yet can he do that?

He's driven away every single person that's ever tried with him. His show is the only thing he has control over. The only thing he's ever known since running away.

[dooblebugss]

Sometimes I think of characters interacting with each other (need to keep myself entertained during meetings Somehow)

And Hornet usually ends up as the most terrifying person/bug/au-thing Everytime.

[koifishhies]

oh god when karen white confronts alec at the trader’s hotel saying “i won’t let you do that to another family” and he just. stares. he was going off at her a moment before, but now he just stares. then the scene cuts. oh my GODDDDD YOU CAN SEE THE WAY IT’S EATING AT HIMMMMM

like yes alec already has a habit of just blankly not responding. he’ll follow through with a conversation and then just hop off halfway through (*cough* autism *cough*). but this time, his silence is different. it isn’t him not knowing how to respond, it’s him ACTIVELY FIGHTING TO HOLD HIS TONGUE

he made a decision to take the blame for tess and daisy’s sake, and now he just has to sit there and take it, to cope with his own decision. you can see him gritting his teeth, coming to terms with that in that moment, and it’s ONLY something you can notice in hindsight once you know about sandbrooke

[xkingmox]

No but... Did anyone else notice how he looks less deranged when literally lighting up someone's house on fire in comparison to all of his appearances lately? Like he found a way to cause the same amount of destruction to Swerve's world his own world was destroyed with months ago and now that's bringing him peace, knowing he's getting his revenge in the most hurtful way possible and now he can focus on ending Swerve in that cage for all out

[thefallennightstars]

My guilty pleasure about Veilguard is def Elgarook ship and toxic and twisted dynamics. Having read a few of the fanfics that I am able to find about them is so good. But I am quite curious as to why none of them tried to use the quote that Cyrian says during Bellara's quest. The "Have you ever felt the warmth of a god's happiness?" because it would work amazing against a mind broken Rook, or a Rook that got twisted and changed by the gods.