#Im just rambling

[ayyy-pee]

waking up freezing and shivering, teeth chattering every night because your husband is a blanket hog. you know it's not on purpose. he just can't help it. doesn't even know he does it most times. you'd think after years together you'd be used to it, but waking up curled into the fetal position as you try to retain even a smidge of warmth is something you don't think you'll ever adjust to.

so you reach behind you, feeling your spouses large form wrapped snug as a bug in your shared blanket and you grip onto the fabric. you pull as hard as you can but you don't manage to move him even an inch. you try once more...same result.

"ken..." you whisper, wrapping your arms around yourself. no response. "kento..."

he doesn't budge. you're tempted to just get up and go grab another blanket, but your husband, despite his seriousness, can get quite pouty when you do that. so you tap him hard instead sure to jab him in the spot you know is his most sensitive. this seems to do the trick as he grunts in response.

"I'm cold," you tell nanami and he sits up quickly, realizing what he's done. his pajama top hangs off one shoulder. his blonde hair is pointing every which way and sleep is heavy on his eyelids, threatening to weigh him down again any minute.

"I'm sorry, love," nanami speaks, voice rough and deep with exhaustion, but the sincerity in his apology clear.

then he's throwing the blanket back over you both. only he adds in a little extra warmth as he wraps his arm around your waist and throws a large leg over your body.

nanami buries his face in your neck, adjusting himself so that he can be as close to you as possible. only a few seconds pass before you hear his light snoring behind you. and you know the warmth you feel is from more than just his touch.

[babylonfelldown]

I saw a tiktok about Jon and Theon and it made me remember how fuking insane their dynamic is

They're broken mirrors of each other: both of them just want the starks to see them as family, they want to feel wanted, they envy and hate each other.

Theon is a trueborn son of a great house, an heir even, but at the same time he's treated as a squire and a ward when convenient, (he helps Ned and Robb), he's also seen as a hostage and a threat, never quite trustworthy. He says repeatedly that he never felt wellcome by the Starks and that the only one to have any affection for him was Robb. Theon dreams to be wed to Sansa, not because he loves her, but because them he would be a son for Ned. He envies Jon because even being a bastard he's loved by Ned (ln a way neither Ned or his actual father loved him), his sibilings (all of them) love him, even if Lady Stark doesn't like him, he is family in Theon's eyes.

Jon is a bastard, he's a shame that must remain hidden, it doesn't matter how much Ned or his sibilings love him, he will never be a true Stark in the eyes of westerosi society. He is trusted but his loyality is always at question, Jon is a threat to Robb's claim in many peoples eyes, like he wants his brothers birthright, and the worst of it all is: he does. He desperately wants to be a trueborn son, but he loves Robb deeply, more than he could ever wish to be legitimate. He envies Theon because he is a trueborn son, he is an heir, he will get to have a wife and children of his own, legitimate children that won't be called names.

Truely insane dynamic of hatred and envy that culminates with both of them trying to one up each other on everything.

[cyrankaa]

still wishing the blackfyre rebellion had succeeded can you imagine how funny it would be. so westeros used to be ruled by targaryens but they were so lame they got overthrown by their illegitimate cousins. platinum blondes overthrowing platinum blondes it's a revolution literally nothing changes except the ruling family's name. oh and no dragons still

[h4venpha]

i think i find comfort in vashwood because of their unwillingness to say outloud how they care and love for one another. like CANONLY, theres so, so much they dont say, yet their actions reflect everything.

i’m pretty sure i’ve spoke on this before but i like to think that they never say more than they need to because of the world they live in, the type of people they are, the type of upbringings theyve had. it all stems back to them not really feeling worthy of the love they are offered.

wolfwood who only thinks of himself as some fucked up modified killing machine and that he believes theres no chance someone as kind hearted as vash would see the good in him, or what little there is left of the good in him. he’s done nothing but kill, he could never redeem himself, and yet vash isn’t scared nor shuns him for it even with his pacifistic ideals.

vash who has seen the brutal truth of wolfwood’s being and still decides he loves him to the very end.

vash who doesnt believe he deserves any ounce of love or commitment because he only hurts those he gets close to. it’s happened before and itll happen again, like hes a walking time bomb and everything will blow up again and the people close to him will die no matter what he does. and wolfwood who canonly sticks beside him until the end! literally calls himself his guide.

vash who has never had true companionship in his 150 years of living, and wolfwood who follows him to the ends of gunsmoke.

just up until vol10, theyre still toeing the line of the relationship theyve created. but the exact moment vash shows up and chooses to prioritize wolfwood over going after knives (the fucking thing he’s been working towards since the big fall, over a hundred years ago) is the moment he steps past that line. its so extremely open and explicit, even wolfwood asks him ‘why are you here?”

while what he says here is true yes, it also sounds like “you cannot die, i’m here to ‘save’ you because i want to live.”

then to this when wolfwood knows and accepts he will die— the sheer HORROR on vash’s face when he realizes wolfwood wont allow him to save him.

few pages ahead, vash’s monologue starts and these old panels come up. “deep down, he had become very close to me.” basically implying that back then, during the ‘shoot’ moment, they weren’t really close. and when vash accused him: “you’re the coward here.”, “you give up all hope so easily”, it was almost surface level in a way? talking to him at surface level

but now, so many chapters later when wolfwood really does give up hope, vash, with all of his developed love through out the story realizes how differently he feels now. wolfwood made him put a fucking gun to his head (giving up hope), and vash who only scolded and accused him, vs vol10 where when wolfwood gives up hope, vash feels straight terror, that he’s really going to lose him. (also the inverted panel is just so gorgeous.)

the whole “isnt that right, wolfwood?” just proves my entire point that vash’s presence here in this fight steps over the line of vulnerability they had created. he knows how he feels, and he knows that wolfwood feels the same, even if hes speaking to him indirectly.

[tiedsh0es]

Can we talk about how no one is happier in Inanimate Insanity until they leave the show? Marshmallow, Lightbulb, Balloon, Taco, Microphone, now even Mepad.

It's brought up again and again. Even by OJ that the show changes you. That you can't better yourself until you get away from it.

The show is this cycle of anger, and cruelness from a host that uses it as a distraction from his past. Mephone is given so many chances to change. Even Mepad, who sticks by him because this is supposed to be the freedom from Cob's Mephone saved him from- is hardly even acknowledged by Mephone.

The contestants even try to be a little kinder towards Mephone because they know his past now- yet Mephone just returns it with more cruelty. Because that's the thing about Mephone he never once tries to change.

Never once tries to actually befriend the characters who try with him.

He's not without chances.

I believe that the only way Mephone can free himself from his own cruelty is with the end of his show. No more seasons, no more spin-offs. All this show is, is a distraction. Something to keep him as far away from his past as possible.

Yet can he do that?

He's driven away every single person that's ever tried with him. His show is the only thing he has control over. The only thing he's ever known since running away.

[xkingmox]

No but... Did anyone else notice how he looks less deranged when literally lighting up someone's house on fire in comparison to all of his appearances lately? Like he found a way to cause the same amount of destruction to Swerve's world his own world was destroyed with months ago and now that's bringing him peace, knowing he's getting his revenge in the most hurtful way possible and now he can focus on ending Swerve in that cage for all out

[thefallennightstars]

My guilty pleasure about Veilguard is def Elgarook ship and toxic and twisted dynamics. Having read a few of the fanfics that I am able to find about them is so good. But I am quite curious as to why none of them tried to use the quote that Cyrian says during Bellara's quest. The "Have you ever felt the warmth of a god's happiness?" because it would work amazing against a mind broken Rook, or a Rook that got twisted and changed by the gods.

[fanaticalthings]

I love it when artists draw Bruce wayne all pretty. if there's anyone in the DC verse that deserves to be a pretty, pretty boy, it's him.

[silentmouthpiece]

AND ANOTHER THING

1) Jimmy is not naturally sadistic. He's an asshole of epic proportions but he's not a sadist. Nor is he a senseless killer. Would Jimmy have killed Anya if he had access to the gun? It's likely. We dont know that for sure, but if he were to kill her there would be too many questions, too much time left on the ship to avoid facing immediate consequences (and lose respect from the rest of the crew) and he'd have to fight and kill everyone else. That's just too much for a man who's concerned about his image. If he killed himself though... no matter what happens afterwards he wouldn't have to deal with the fallout.

Crash the ship and everyone dies? No fallout from the crew or consequences.

Crash the ship and everyone but the captain (who was in on the plan until the last second) comes out unscathed? "It's Curly's fault! I'm good, he's not!" and Jimmy gets to avoid that fallout for a bit. And then Anya starts talking and fuuuuck, he cant get out of this one now can he? But he's captain now, so he's gonna take this second chance and not let anyone take it from him. Granted... Granted he did cause the crew to die, but the only intentional death was Swansea's. I dont think Jimmy would've put Curly in the cryopod if he understood that Curly would freeze to death so there's that, too.

Jimmy is manipulative but he's also delusional. This man believes in his bullshit and that made him so dangerous.

He wasn't always just doom and gloom. We mostly only saw him after getting the worst news of his life twice and tossed into a pressure cooker hell of his own making. That he swore he wanted, btw. Delusional. He was weird but chill before the Pony Express announcement.

This man's main coping mechanism is when he's not in control of a situation is denial and when that doesnt work he lashes out. How can anyone confront him when he doesn't even want to confront himself? I know his mind goes blank before he makes all kinds of excuses for his mind to eat up. It's that panic. That moment of realization that lashes at his hind brain and he has to build a wall to protect it. When the wall isnt enough he has no idea where to channel that frustration except through outburts and violence. Someone should've given him a journal or some shit.

Jimmy was hallucinating Daisuke's grave before the kid even died, lord have mercy. He did not mean for that to happen and the guilt was attacking him immediately. He still went in denial mode tho, trying to save him with that damn mouthwash. That being said, the denial mode was weakening and the guilt was coming for Jimmy tenfold. He couldn't even commit to the whole "It's Swansea's fault" bit. Reality was breaking through his denial door and Jimmy couldn't stop it. And it was thus when he lashed out at Swansea with the gun.

And damn... that speech Swansea gave him. A reality that Jimmy couldn't accept. If Jimmy was in a better state of mind maybe he would have understood what Swansea was trying to tell him, but I think Jimmy heard Swansea say "this ideal life I worked so hard and so long for wasn't what I wanted" and Jimmy's first thought was "I'll fix it... with a gun".

... Makes me think how long Jimmy thought death was a way of fixing things.

[long-lost-soul]

oughhh johnnie redmayne as a character makes me so sad,, like we’re introduced to him in hurricane as a kid who’s charming and reckless in love with being alive. he’s in a band, he’s in a gang, he’s got two older brothers that he definitely looks up to.

and then he’s dead. and as we learn in vide noir, it’s because of his recklessness. now he’s stuck wandering the desert as a ghost or something adjacent; not quite alive but definitely not all dead either.

and maybe it’s because of the way he died? vide noir is more than a drug after all. but maybe it’s because he doesn’t know how to die, that there’s no thrill in being dead, like he said? maybe the recklessness and zeal for life that killed him is keeping him from being really gone??

idk idk he’s just such a good character and i love him dearly.

[delicatebarness]

FATWS!Bucky confessing to one of his fears regarding an actual relationship with Agent!Reader -

Bucky: I’m not going to age the same as you are.

Reader: What are you talking about?

Bucky: I can’t live in a world that doesn’t have you in it.

Reader: You already have lived in a world that doesn’t have me for 80 years.

Bucky: That wasn’t living.

Reader: So what now? We spend the next who knows how many years being alone because neither one of us can allow the other to be with someone who isn’t them? But, at the same time, can’t allow themselves to be together?

Bucky: …

i cant read your mind | prologue

[vraiment-amoureux]

my real number 1 kink is a guy being an absolute gentleman with me and being kind and modest and caring and uh yeah like. cute date and maybe with permission he can kiss my cheek <3

[sleepy-cone]

Ok, listen, Essek canonically HOT, like Gods bless Caleb to have a sexy, smart, (rich noble family) and magically powerful ass love,

But do Astrid and Eadwulf also think he's hot?

If this were a reality show, IMAGINE the DRAMA!!

Edit: Also, I want to add that it doesn't necessarily have to be in an "I'm interested in him" type of thinking. Just a general: "Oh fUCK...Bren bagged a HOTTIE."

[virgil-anon]

something something hannigram and tomarry both showcasing will and harry with deer/stag imagery while hannibal and tom are the serial killer/murderers who view these stags as their one exception, or one solely interesting thing in their lives. harry and will being the protagonists who are constantly traumatized by said murderer boyfriend and many others around him.

something something parallels because harry and will represent humanity in a way that transcends anything hannibal or tom can comprehend because they are both lacking in humanity in a SOUL because of their own actions.

[thedarknesseater]

Because i've been thinking about hannibal and because eating a body part lets a sorcerer copy techniques is already a thing in jjk AND also because geto's technique makes him literally swallow cursed spirits. I went a bit further with suguru giving him the ability to eat a sorcerer to steal their technique.

And i was thinking about geto cannibalising gojo because he wanted limitless for his agenda with the monkeys. And gojo lets him because like this at least he's close with suguru. He let himself be captured and he let himself be eaten day by day, piece by piece.

[royjamierot]

the reason i love roy so much is bc i genuinely can't think of another character like him. he is a man who is so deeply ingrained in a culture of masculinity and anger but all his closest relationships are women. he's been praised like a god for years but he's deeply insecure. he wants attention and praise more than anything else from anyone. he's clingy but scared of being clingy. his best friend is the same man he hated two years prior. he plays princess and dragon with his niece and he's the princess. he hangs out with drag queens and women in their 60's. in a tough situation he knows when someone needs to be hugged instead of defended. he's just some guy. he's a professional footballer. i love him.