#Im just rambling

[lanalover2010]

i’m just a girl 🤪😵‍💫

[ayyy-pee]

waking up freezing and shivering, teeth chattering every night because your husband is a blanket hog. you know it's not on purpose. he just can't help it. doesn't even know he does it most times. you'd think after years together you'd be used to it, but waking up curled into the fetal position as you try to retain even a smidge of warmth is something you don't think you'll ever adjust to.

so you reach behind you, feeling your spouses large form wrapped snug as a bug in your shared blanket and you grip onto the fabric. you pull as hard as you can but you don't manage to move him even an inch. you try once more...same result.

"ken..." you whisper, wrapping your arms around yourself. no response. "kento..."

he doesn't budge. you're tempted to just get up and go grab another blanket, but your husband, despite his seriousness, can get quite pouty when you do that. so you tap him hard instead sure to jab him in the spot you know is his most sensitive. this seems to do the trick as he grunts in response.

"I'm cold," you tell nanami and he sits up quickly, realizing what he's done. his pajama top hangs off one shoulder. his blonde hair is pointing every which way and sleep is heavy on his eyelids, threatening to weigh him down again any minute.

"I'm sorry, love," nanami speaks, voice rough and deep with exhaustion, but the sincerity in his apology clear.

then he's throwing the blanket back over you both. only he adds in a little extra warmth as he wraps his arm around your waist and throws a large leg over your body.

nanami buries his face in your neck, adjusting himself so that he can be as close to you as possible. only a few seconds pass before you hear his light snoring behind you. and you know the warmth you feel is from more than just his touch.

[protocabbit]

warframe 1999 finale spoilers ahead!

im thinkin Thoughts about the hex finale and other stuff regarding transference by the drifter into their bodies.

thinking about the cutscene where youre able to help amir and just. the fact that amir was beginning to have a panic attack and a hard time breathing but the drifter decided to take control of his body via transference and manually breathe for him and calm him down and tell him to use the parazon which has the potential to auto hack systems, and in this instance, saving much more time and preventing the reactor from doing its thing.

and THEN i just think about the level of trust and intimacy that goes with the hex allowing the drifter/operator to use transference on them and take control of their bodies. and now that we have their gemini skins, it makes it even moreso

to willingly allow the drifter to pretty much possess their body in a way is such a massive amount of trust. when i do it with amir (cuz i have his gemini skin cuz of course) in missions and revert back into his body, he makes a comment not to go through certain memories labelled ‘recipes’ cuz theyre not actually recipes. that implies that the drifter can access their memories as well, which again just goes into the amount of trust the hex has for the drifter.

its so intimate in general, whether romantic or platonic. idk. i find it really cool and unique

[babylonfelldown]

I saw a tiktok about Jon and Theon and it made me remember how fuking insane their dynamic is

They're broken mirrors of each other: both of them just want the starks to see them as family, they want to feel wanted, they envy and hate each other.

Theon is a trueborn son of a great house, an heir even, but at the same time he's treated as a squire and a ward when convenient, (he helps Ned and Robb), he's also seen as a hostage and a threat, never quite trustworthy. He says repeatedly that he never felt wellcome by the Starks and that the only one to have any affection for him was Robb. Theon dreams to be wed to Sansa, not because he loves her, but because them he would be a son for Ned. He envies Jon because even being a bastard he's loved by Ned (ln a way neither Ned or his actual father loved him), his sibilings (all of them) love him, even if Lady Stark doesn't like him, he is family in Theon's eyes.

Jon is a bastard, he's a shame that must remain hidden, it doesn't matter how much Ned or his sibilings love him, he will never be a true Stark in the eyes of westerosi society. He is trusted but his loyality is always at question, Jon is a threat to Robb's claim in many peoples eyes, like he wants his brothers birthright, and the worst of it all is: he does. He desperately wants to be a trueborn son, but he loves Robb deeply, more than he could ever wish to be legitimate. He envies Theon because he is a trueborn son, he is an heir, he will get to have a wife and children of his own, legitimate children that won't be called names.

Truely insane dynamic of hatred and envy that culminates with both of them trying to one up each other on everything.

[cyrankaa]

still wishing the blackfyre rebellion had succeeded can you imagine how funny it would be. so westeros used to be ruled by targaryens but they were so lame they got overthrown by their illegitimate cousins. platinum blondes overthrowing platinum blondes it's a revolution literally nothing changes except the ruling family's name. oh and no dragons still

[h4venpha]

i think i find comfort in vashwood because of their unwillingness to say outloud how they care and love for one another. like CANONLY, theres so, so much they dont say, yet their actions reflect everything.

i’m pretty sure i’ve spoke on this before but i like to think that they never say more than they need to because of the world they live in, the type of people they are, the type of upbringings theyve had. it all stems back to them not really feeling worthy of the love they are offered.

wolfwood who only thinks of himself as some fucked up modified killing machine and that he believes theres no chance someone as kind hearted as vash would see the good in him, or what little there is left of the good in him. he’s done nothing but kill, he could never redeem himself, and yet vash isn’t scared nor shuns him for it even with his pacifistic ideals.

vash who has seen the brutal truth of wolfwood’s being and still decides he loves him to the very end.

vash who doesnt believe he deserves any ounce of love or commitment because he only hurts those he gets close to. it’s happened before and itll happen again, like hes a walking time bomb and everything will blow up again and the people close to him will die no matter what he does. and wolfwood who canonly sticks beside him until the end! literally calls himself his guide.

vash who has never had true companionship in his 150 years of living, and wolfwood who follows him to the ends of gunsmoke.

just up until vol10, theyre still toeing the line of the relationship theyve created. but the exact moment vash shows up and chooses to prioritize wolfwood over going after knives (the fucking thing he’s been working towards since the big fall, over a hundred years ago) is the moment he steps past that line. its so extremely open and explicit, even wolfwood asks him ‘why are you here?”

while what he says here is true yes, it also sounds like “you cannot die, i’m here to ‘save’ you because i want to live.”

then to this when wolfwood knows and accepts he will die— the sheer HORROR on vash’s face when he realizes wolfwood wont allow him to save him.

few pages ahead, vash’s monologue starts and these old panels come up. “deep down, he had become very close to me.” basically implying that back then, during the ‘shoot’ moment, they weren’t really close. and when vash accused him: “you’re the coward here.”, “you give up all hope so easily”, it was almost surface level in a way? talking to him at surface level

but now, so many chapters later when wolfwood really does give up hope, vash, with all of his developed love through out the story realizes how differently he feels now. wolfwood made him put a fucking gun to his head (giving up hope), and vash who only scolded and accused him, vs vol10 where when wolfwood gives up hope, vash feels straight terror, that he’s really going to lose him. (also the inverted panel is just so gorgeous.)

the whole “isnt that right, wolfwood?” just proves my entire point that vash’s presence here in this fight steps over the line of vulnerability they had created. he knows how he feels, and he knows that wolfwood feels the same, even if hes speaking to him indirectly.

[tiedsh0es]

Can we talk about how no one is happier in Inanimate Insanity until they leave the show? Marshmallow, Lightbulb, Balloon, Taco, Microphone, now even Mepad.

It's brought up again and again. Even by OJ that the show changes you. That you can't better yourself until you get away from it.

The show is this cycle of anger, and cruelness from a host that uses it as a distraction from his past. Mephone is given so many chances to change. Even Mepad, who sticks by him because this is supposed to be the freedom from Cob's Mephone saved him from- is hardly even acknowledged by Mephone.

The contestants even try to be a little kinder towards Mephone because they know his past now- yet Mephone just returns it with more cruelty. Because that's the thing about Mephone he never once tries to change.

Never once tries to actually befriend the characters who try with him.

He's not without chances.

I believe that the only way Mephone can free himself from his own cruelty is with the end of his show. No more seasons, no more spin-offs. All this show is, is a distraction. Something to keep him as far away from his past as possible.

Yet can he do that?

He's driven away every single person that's ever tried with him. His show is the only thing he has control over. The only thing he's ever known since running away.

[dooblebugss]

Sometimes I think of characters interacting with each other (need to keep myself entertained during meetings Somehow)

And Hornet usually ends up as the most terrifying person/bug/au-thing Everytime.

[koifishhies]

oh god when karen white confronts alec at the trader’s hotel saying “i won’t let you do that to another family” and he just. stares. he was going off at her a moment before, but now he just stares. then the scene cuts. oh my GODDDDD YOU CAN SEE THE WAY IT’S EATING AT HIMMMMM

like yes alec already has a habit of just blankly not responding. he’ll follow through with a conversation and then just hop off halfway through (*cough* autism *cough*). but this time, his silence is different. it isn’t him not knowing how to respond, it’s him ACTIVELY FIGHTING TO HOLD HIS TONGUE

he made a decision to take the blame for tess and daisy’s sake, and now he just has to sit there and take it, to cope with his own decision. you can see him gritting his teeth, coming to terms with that in that moment, and it’s ONLY something you can notice in hindsight once you know about sandbrooke

[xkingmox]

No but... Did anyone else notice how he looks less deranged when literally lighting up someone's house on fire in comparison to all of his appearances lately? Like he found a way to cause the same amount of destruction to Swerve's world his own world was destroyed with months ago and now that's bringing him peace, knowing he's getting his revenge in the most hurtful way possible and now he can focus on ending Swerve in that cage for all out

[thefallennightstars]

My guilty pleasure about Veilguard is def Elgarook ship and toxic and twisted dynamics. Having read a few of the fanfics that I am able to find about them is so good. But I am quite curious as to why none of them tried to use the quote that Cyrian says during Bellara's quest. The "Have you ever felt the warmth of a god's happiness?" because it would work amazing against a mind broken Rook, or a Rook that got twisted and changed by the gods.

[animangalover-writes]

Yk it really bothers me when I see people talking about eurylochus and the crew like they were the problem. It just feels like everyone is just missing the point. Yes they stopped listening to ody, yes eurylochus opened the wind bag, but that's what makes them so human.

Picture this, you leave your home to fight in a war. It takes literal years for this war to be over. You've lost friends, you miss your family, you've been through hell. You're starving and your captain tells you they found food on this island.

And then the cyclops happens. More friends die, you barely escape with your life, and your captain gives his name to the creature that killed your friends.

And everything after that is a direct cause of that decision.

So you hesitate to trust him. Yes he's smart, he's capable, he always has a plan. But he would do anything to get home, and you know that. So when he comes back to the ship claiming to have a bag full of wind, and when he refuses to let anyone near, refuses to trust his own crew, you get suspicious.

Its been about a decade by this point, and your captain seems to get more and more desperate to get home. A god is after you. Odysseus is forcing himself to stay away, all to make sure nobody touches that bag.

Its human, it's realistic, it makes sense that someone would open the bag. Because odysseus stopped trusting you, and so you stop trusting him. So you open the bag.

I just find it frustrating that people look at the crew/eurylochus as bad guys because of this, as pawns for ody to get home and thats it. The point of the show is that ody has become a monster, has dealt with and left behind his humanity. We, as listeners, root for him. We give him grace because of his circumstances. Because he's the main character.

But for some reason, people don't give that same grace to the crew. They're human, their circumstances are awful too. They have no idea if they will get home, they aren't sure then can trust their captain anymore. They question things. They make mistakes. They cause the deaths of others. It's human, its that feeling you get when you think that maybe hope is lost after all, it's what this story is about. Mistakes and loss and blame.

People dislike Eurylochus because he opened the bag. But odysseus gave the cyclops his name. And polites trusted the lotus eaters. And Athena told odysseus to be cruel to a fault. Nobody here is innocent, not really. And none of them knew better either. They were working with what they had, with the terrible circumstances at hand. It's no wonder they made mistakes. It's no wonder people died.

Why are we ignoring the humanity of the crew? Why are we arguing that they, or that eurylochus, deserved it? If the story was about them, odysseus would be seen as the bad guy. But he's the main character, so the others are stupid and wrong, right? All that matters is that odysseus gets home, right? Even if it costs the lives of his crew. His crew who stopped trusting him when he stopped trusting them. His crew who he sacrificed to get home.

I think we're missing the point here. Odysseus did become a monster, and although we cheer for him getting home and Penelope and Telemachus forgive him, we have to acknowledge that he did do terrible things. Those men will never see their families again. Why are we erasing that humanity in them?

Humans do bad things for the sake of saving themselves or the ones they love. That includes Odysseus. That includes Eurylochus. That includes the crew. And that includes every other character in this musical.

[fanaticalthings]

I love it when artists draw Bruce wayne all pretty. if there's anyone in the DC verse that deserves to be a pretty, pretty boy, it's him.

[long-lost-soul]

oughhh johnnie redmayne as a character makes me so sad,, like we’re introduced to him in hurricane as a kid who’s charming and reckless in love with being alive. he’s in a band, he’s in a gang, he’s got two older brothers that he definitely looks up to.

and then he’s dead. and as we learn in vide noir, it’s because of his recklessness. now he’s stuck wandering the desert as a ghost or something adjacent; not quite alive but definitely not all dead either.

and maybe it’s because of the way he died? vide noir is more than a drug after all. but maybe it’s because he doesn’t know how to die, that there’s no thrill in being dead, like he said? maybe the recklessness and zeal for life that killed him is keeping him from being really gone??

idk idk he’s just such a good character and i love him dearly.

[delicatebarness]

FATWS!Bucky confessing to one of his fears regarding an actual relationship with Agent!Reader -

Bucky: I’m not going to age the same as you are.

Reader: What are you talking about?

Bucky: I can’t live in a world that doesn’t have you in it.

Reader: You already have lived in a world that doesn’t have me for 80 years.

Bucky: That wasn’t living.

Reader: So what now? We spend the next who knows how many years being alone because neither one of us can allow the other to be with someone who isn’t them? But, at the same time, can’t allow themselves to be together?

Bucky: …

i cant read your mind | prologue

[vraiment-amoureux]

my real number 1 kink is a guy being an absolute gentleman with me and being kind and modest and caring and uh yeah like. cute date and maybe with permission he can kiss my cheek <3