#i dont know where i was going. w it

[h4venpha]

i think i find comfort in vashwood because of their unwillingness to say outloud how they care and love for one another. like CANONLY, theres so, so much they dont say, yet their actions reflect everything.

i’m pretty sure i’ve spoke on this before but i like to think that they never say more than they need to because of the world they live in, the type of people they are, the type of upbringings theyve had. it all stems back to them not really feeling worthy of the love they are offered.

wolfwood who only thinks of himself as some fucked up modified killing machine and that he believes theres no chance someone as kind hearted as vash would see the good in him, or what little there is left of the good in him. he’s done nothing but kill, he could never redeem himself, and yet vash isn’t scared nor shuns him for it even with his pacifistic ideals.

vash who has seen the brutal truth of wolfwood’s being and still decides he loves him to the very end.

vash who doesnt believe he deserves any ounce of love or commitment because he only hurts those he gets close to. it’s happened before and itll happen again, like hes a walking time bomb and everything will blow up again and the people close to him will die no matter what he does. and wolfwood who canonly sticks beside him until the end! literally calls himself his guide.

vash who has never had true companionship in his 150 years of living, and wolfwood who follows him to the ends of gunsmoke.

just up until vol10, theyre still toeing the line of the relationship theyve created. but the exact moment vash shows up and chooses to prioritize wolfwood over going after knives (the fucking thing he’s been working towards since the big fall, over a hundred years ago) is the moment he steps past that line. its so extremely open and explicit, even wolfwood asks him ‘why are you here?”

while what he says here is true yes, it also sounds like “you cannot die, i’m here to ‘save’ you because i want to live.”

then to this when wolfwood knows and accepts he will die— the sheer HORROR on vash’s face when he realizes wolfwood wont allow him to save him.

few pages ahead, vash’s monologue starts and these old panels come up. “deep down, he had become very close to me.” basically implying that back then, during the ‘shoot’ moment, they weren’t really close. and when vash accused him: “you’re the coward here.”, “you give up all hope so easily”, it was almost surface level in a way? talking to him at surface level

but now, so many chapters later when wolfwood really does give up hope, vash, with all of his developed love through out the story realizes how differently he feels now. wolfwood made him put a fucking gun to his head (giving up hope), and vash who only scolded and accused him, vs vol10 where when wolfwood gives up hope, vash feels straight terror, that he’s really going to lose him. (also the inverted panel is just so gorgeous.)

the whole “isnt that right, wolfwood?” just proves my entire point that vash’s presence here in this fight steps over the line of vulnerability they had created. he knows how he feels, and he knows that wolfwood feels the same, even if hes speaking to him indirectly.

[roppiepop]

Who’s coming to the cookout?

[teh-inggris]

pvp civ nation...... this aint much but pls take my contribution for this series bc im going insane i love hate this man so much get him out of my head

[saintaviator]

something something gman tommy something something gordon in stasis. you know how it is.

[dukeofthomas]

Here's my controversial opinion; if you're trying to write Bruce as a non-abusive, good parent, you should also write him respecting his kids' privacy, boundaries, and not stalking&surveying them.

[mikqchoux]

enlighten me, my dear. why am i still here?

[tunapesto]

let's fall down together

[homociphering]

lame ass loser ( i love him )

close ups!!

look at his stupid face

[astralzeraphias]

“he was mentally ill. this monster was a- was a sick fantasy. a product of his dementia.”

“…i saw it too. does that make me disturbed? demented? does… that make me sick too?”

[smrtnik07]

i havent drawn anything worth posting in a while hi ^__^ erm..... are texans always this strange and unusual?

[petz5]

gin. gin can u hear me. i can save u from the misogynistic writing of ur series, take my hand

[iremiari]

charles rowland is the type of person to end his marriage vows with "and you're my best mate" then think nothing of it

[guavie]

gameplay concept for my nier visual novel fanfiction thing!! i'm making it in renpy and don't rlly understand what i'm doing on the coding side of things but just getting this concept out of my head & semi functioning is rlly exciting for me hehe

[jvzebel-x]

here's an update for all the "tOuRiSm iS fOr ThE pEoPlE" fucks. always remember that the second anyone steps foot on that land in the name of "tourism" or any other haole institution, that is colonizing&that person is a fucking explicit modern colonizer who made the conscious decision to be one and has spent a lot of fucking money on that trip to get their title. only that kine want more of their kin there-- don't pretend that shit is for anyone else.

drop dead of spontaneous combustion specifically, not even the sharks would want that pīlau fucking meat.

[xincountry]

just saying sometimes i'll go about my day like a normal person and then remember "If there's something you need to tell him, do it while you have a chance. In this place, you never know if you'll see someone again." (s2e7 additional time)

i think what affects me the most is that it's framed like chigiri genuinely had something he wasn't able to tell kunigami post 2nd selection. the way back then chigiri had, with complete confidence, turned his back on kunigami/reo (and i phrase it like this but i don't mean it negatively: just that the panel of that scene in episode nagi we see it from reo/kunigami pov where they never see chigiri's determined expression as he moves to join isagi's team) to move on with a promise to beat isagi. "don't forget. we still haven't beaten isagi yet. i'll be feeling the same frustration as you while i wait for you, hero." among many other moments they share together, this is evidence of the deep trust chigiri has placed in kunigami, the confidence that he'll make it. he has to.

and naturally comes the upset when the person who walks through the door is shidou and not kunigami. the cold reality of this place. again, about what chigiri said in the s2e7 additional time, we kind of see a similar vein of regret during the 2 week break after the u20 match when they meet up with all the bluelockians and when asked who else was contacted for the meetup chigiri offhandedly mentions "and i don't know kunigami's contact" "wish i could've called him". that wish is so important. i think it just really shows how meaningful the connection he had with kunigami is—was—that even outside of bllk even knowing he was eliminated chigiri's making a conscious effort to mention him. like that. that even if he's the one who said they had to move on he cannot help but remember. agh.

[ominous-horse-noises]

watching misfits and magic 2 after skipping season 1 (harry potter rip off stories dont super appeal to me but taking them out of the school setting made it 100x more entertaining) and....... listen... why are sam and evan kind of. hm. hmm.