#Idk maybe I'm just overthinking things I have no idea lol

[king-candybug-backup]

I'm noticing an uptick in comments complaining that most of the current WIR fandom content is Turbo instead of the other characters and, like... you guys know you can search other characters by their specific tags, right??? Or exclude Turbo from search results by temporarily blacklisting him in your filtered tags?

Idk, it's just weird to me to be discouraging towards people making fandom content just because it's not the specific content you want to see, like, it's ok to want to see other content, but complaining about how other people aren't catering to your tastes enough instead of just making the content you want to see yourself is kinda bad vibes, y'know?? (And that's not to say that I think those comments are intended out of malice of course, I really don't think they are, I just wanted to point out that it can come off as a little entitled, as well as discouraging towards people who just want to draw Turbo, which is something that should be fine if that's what they want to do. Fandom should be fun for everybody, and there's lots of tools available to curate your experience with it!)

[cuephrase]

2024 Writing Review

tagged in this by @androxys, tysm!!

number of stories posted to ao3: four- three drabbles, one one-shot and one multi-chap fic

word counted posted for last year: 37, 886!! that's so much for me, crazy (both 2022 and 2023 were around 7k, for comparison)

fandoms i wrote for: batman - all media types, babyyyy. two of the drabbles were very comic specific so i have batman (comics) and nightwing (comics) tagged. wait. lmao that was wrong, i've edited it now, was supposed to be batgirl (comics) someone help me oh my god

pairings: we've got two hits for Tim Drake & Bruce Wayne, then Cassandra Cain & Bruce Wayne, Dick Grayson & Everyone, Tim Drake & Jason Todd, Tim Drake & Dick Grayson, Tim Drake & Dick Grayson & Jason Todd, Jason Todd & Bruce Wayne, Dick Grayson & Jason Todd, and Dick Grayson & Bruce Wayne

so, bc that's giving me a headache, five Dick tags, four Tim tags, four Bruce tags, four Jason tags, and one Cass tag. all but three of those are one fic tho lmao.

stories with the most kudos, bookmarks and comment threads: penance, far and away. that fic got (is getting?) so much more love than i could have imagined or hoped for. absolutely mind-blowing fr

work i’m most proud of (and why): okay so this is a tie between penance and plea for two completely opposite reasons! penance is the first multichap fic i've ever completed and that's a huge milestone for me. plea i'm really proud of bc it's only 100 words but i feel like i managed to accomplish absolutely everything i wanted to and it's sooooooo satisfying to me.

work i’m least proud of (and why): hmmmmm. maybe inventory? it was supposed to be fluff and i corrupted it. so that frustrates me when i think about it even though the finished product isn't bad.

share or describe a favorite review you received: oh gosh ummmmm. help. i really loved every comment letting me know they'd cried real tears bc i am Evil. but if i had to choose one comment, i think this one has stuck with me the most (some parts blocked out bc Spoilers)

the fic has an ending spoiler now that it's complete, but when i was posting it i hadn't totally nailed the ending down. that apprehension meant so much to me, that willingness to follow the story- i could be reading into it idk, but i really value the trust that early readers had because, quite frankly, i don't think i had earned it. i also loved that they both couldn't decide what to think about tim and that they liked it- what i was portraying is messy and complicated and i think there's a really fine line there between stuff being ooc or frustrating or exhausting or dissatisfying with that kind of thing, so it was super !!!!! to have successfully walked that line for them!

but my favorite part of this comment is easily "the power of love is truly an ugly and beautiful thing...made me appreciate life". i don't really write romances, but the power of love is one of those things i end up wrestling with thematically a lot because it's just so captivating and it's one of those things i feel like i can't ever find the words for actually, i need you to just feel it and they felt it and- yeah. just yeah. and then writing/storytelling is something i use to help me appreciate life so overall just 🥹😭🫶 x1000

a time when writing was really, really hard: after i finished penance, rip. i got psyched out by all the positive attention and couldn't write 😅. there were plenty of times this year where i just wasn't trying to write so like i guess that was hard, but being paralyzed by overthinking when i had plenty of ideas and wanted to write Sucked. it's okay, i talked to my therapist finger guns

a scene or character you wrote that surprised you: slight penance spoilers lol, but in ch 3, the dick and tim hug surprised me. not that it happened, bc i knew it was going to, but i just had the image of the scene, yk, not like. how it would truly feel to be in dick's headspace in that moment. and omg. it just attacked me. i couldn't stop crying it was so frustrating. i'd pause to collect myself, come back and just nope. the scene is actually shorter than i originally envisioned bc i physically couldn't smh

a favourite excerpt of your writing: oh gosh. um um ummmmmm i really like this bit from ch 1 of penance-

this moment was just incredibly fun for so many reasons, not least of which is that i got to break tim for the first time 😇

how did you grow as a writer last year: i learned that i can, in fact, start and finish something that isn't a one shot. idk if my writing has improved on a technical level at all? but, despite it being a bit of a one step forward, two steps back thing at times, i do think i gained some confidence in my ability to write and that'll be really nice in the long run if i can, yk. take the steps forward without going back.

how do you hope to grow this year: by writing more. i want to actually write things instead of daydreaming and maybe getting down like twenty words and then never looking at it again. at my most ambitious, i build a habit.

who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer, beta, cheerleader, etc.): oh shoot. i got so much support from so many people i almost don't know where to start. i am so beyond grateful to everyone who has supported me, and i'm going to single out @a-canceled-stamp, @canonicallyshort, and @koraesrambles for enabling the crap out of me. love you guys sm!!!! (that extends to everyone not just those three ofc!!)

anything from your real life show up in your writing last year: the grieving process haha.

any new wisdom you can share with other writers: oh gosh ummmmmm. follow your gut. forget about audience, and rules, and whatever- if you know the story you want to tell, tell that story. just get it out. it deserves to be told.

any projects you’re looking to start (or finish) this year: the sequel to penance. my jason fic, my dick fic. i don't want to get ahead of myself or anything, but i hope i've got a handful of fics to look back on next year!!

no pressure tagging @sunflowersandink, @goldenraeofsun, @fleur-de-violette, @byrambles, and @elegitre (plus everyone already tagged)!!

[lover-of-mine]

okay so I had a really terrible thought and I’ve been following you for a while and I wanted to hear your thoughts (maybe i’m just in a place of doubt rn) BUT

since they’re basically writing the episodes as they go, and are seeing fans reactions (and possibly taking them into consideration as they write), do you think if they see such a positive reaction to buck/tommy, they’ll make him more long term (and possibly endgame)…? again, I could be overthinking it but I’ve been seeing a tON of buck tommy stuff and idk if they’re going to consider that when they write the upcoming episodes for the rest of the season…like buck/tommy is cute ig don’t get me wrong bc we see bisexual buck and him enjoy his first male relationship and like i’m so proud, but…i’m an eddie-girl and buddie has always been my endgame

Okay, hi, ngl, I had this exact thought too when Tim kept insisting there's no plan. But the thing is, I don't believe him. I believe he doesn't have the full plot locked and loaded, but I doubt he doesn't have any idea where the story is gonna take him. Personally, I doubt that a few weeks of excitement over Buck being bi will be louder than 5 years of people BEGGING for buddie to happen. Buck and Eddie have a compelling relationship that's been cultivated for YEARS. And, look, far from me to make Buck's bisexuality about Eddie, but making a character who's HEAVILY shipped with another man for years queer in season 7 while having no plan on following through with the love story they've been building for 6 seasons would be dumb. Buck with a new guy and Eddie doubling down on being straight and ending up with some random woman is the worst case scenario here. This fandom is weird in the way that most of it is mono shipping. It's Buck and Eddie together or nothing. So they would piss off the homophobes, who are already pissed, and a solid amount of the people who have been following buddie for years and that's bad for business. They have the power to have a ridiculously compelling queer love story that's built on a foundation that's been there for 6 seasons. Buck and Eddie getting together could be EPIC. And they made the move to make Buck queer. They didn't have to. I love that Buck is getting a queer storyline, but if we are going there with Buck, what's actually stopping them from going there with Eddie? I don't see how you can have one of them being queer and not go there just because people are excited that Buck is bi. Tim can't say it's gonna go there. That would be a spoiler. A huge spoiler. But narratively speaking, or from a business perspective, Buck being bi has to mean buddie getting together. Because that's what people have been wanting from them. And honestly, if they wanted to play Tommy as having any chance of being Buck's endgame, he wouldn't have so many parallels with Taylor. The TK of it all, the helicopter of it all, the kiss that happens because Eddie is injured, Buck is even wearing a shirt that looks like the one he's wearing when Taylor comes back, like, seriously, what the fuck? And that's not going into the symbolism they have to know is there on the way the loft itself is a symbol of romantic doom, because Buck got it in a relationship that instantly Ended and the 2 times he started something there it went up in flames, so like 🤨🤔 I'm curious to see where it's going, but, personally, don't see them actually lasting the rest of the show. At least that's what I'm telling myself to calm down when I panic and trip into the bad place lol

[chrai]

[TADC EP 4 SPOILERS !!]

I HAVE SOME THEORIES BUT I NEED TO RANT FIRST!!!

this episode was funny n sad honestly LMAOAIIDDL gangle's mask design looks SOO CUTE 😻😻

I swear caine's just trying to torture pomni cuz did he really need bring gummigoo into this.. also I was lowk suspecting that gangle had bpd to but IDK!!!!!!!

Also also ragatha was so funny the entire ep bro someone needs to get me that stupid sauce

+ the ending scene was AMAZZZING I LUV LUV LUV LUV LUV LUV LUV ZOOBLE AND GANGLE'S FRIENDDSHIP THEYRE SO CUTE AURHRHFRH

OK THEORIEZ AND STUFF I NOTICED !! / me overthinking everthing

-First is when gangle said "being a shift manager was my job at one point".. WHAT DID SHE MEAN BY THAT. GUYS. Maybe it's hinting at her backstory LEL

-when Jax had to watch the video , gangle said something about the viewer wanting to be a comic artist which, imo, seemed to be directed towards Jax ! The video can obviously respond to Jax since it literally replied to him AND it cut back to Jax when the video said that

-ragatha said "I miss my horses"- I have no idea if this was just her talking nonsense but I still noticed it..!!!

-gangle getting hit by a truck might be a metaphor I think cuz it means "experiencing a sudden, overwhelming, and forceful impact" which can show how her emotions change?? I'm not really sure yet but I really like the metaphor theory thing lol

-jax immediately dropping his smile when he walked out might mean that he's just masking it

-jax saying "no one can see this right?" shows how he doesn't want other ppl seeing him vunerable

[unlucky-leek]

I'm still really struggling with the whole novel writing thing. I'm gonna ramble a bit so you can ignore this if you want lol

Basically I've realised that I keep settling on an idea, doing a bunch of research / planning, getting super into writing it for a while, and then lose all motivation as soon as I reach some sort of roadblock. For example I'll be like "OK cool, so how do we get from plot point A to plot point B...", but then the more I start trying to come up with solutions, the more I start overthinking everything, and then I end up in this spiral of "that doesn't make sense, the characters wouldn't do that, that's too cliché, that's just a dumb excuse for x, y, and z, no-one would read this or take this seriously, imagine the negative reviews, etc etc", which I *know* is dumb because I've been writing for *years* and ever since I was a literal child I've had people complimenting my story telling and writing style. Even my fanfics have had a lot of nice comments from people. And it gets worse than that - I occasionally find forgotten collections of my own writing from over a decade ago and I'm like "damn, this is actually really good, how did I do that?" And then I get miserable because I feel like younger me was writing much better than current me, and I don't know how to recapture that.

I think a major issue I have is that my characters tend to take on a life of their own, and then it becomes hard for me to make them do things I know they wouldn't do, which makes changing and adapting the story much harder once I've established them. On the flip side, if I don't do that, then I don't feel invested in them and can't be bothered writing their story, which also sucks.

Something that simultaneously keeps impressing me and annoying me is my writing from 2016-2017. As it turns out, I wrote a LOT that year. There's so much, and I love re-reading it because it feels like I'm reading someone else's work (maybe that's a dumb thing to say, idk). But the problem is it's all half finished or random short stories that will never fit in anywhere. It's so mystical and philosophical, full of dark themes, pondering existence, fairy tale like settings... But none of it is finished, and now I feel like I can't do it justice.

There's a story I started back then that I'm desperate to finish but it's so philosophical that I get sad every time I try to work on it, which sounds ridiculous, but it is what it is lol (it's based on the concept of Tulpas if you know what they are).

Then there's the story I've had going on in my head since 2008. I've written a few scenes for it here and there, but the damn thing spans over 3000 in universe years and almost 20 irl years, how the heck are you meant to condense that into a book?? I tried writing a new story set in the same universe, but it just didn't feel right. Ironically they're the characters I feel most comfortable writing about even though I can never publish anything about them (probably).

Then there's one I've been working on recently that was based on an old fanfic story of mine (the original plot, not the characters), but I keep getting paranoid that I can never publish it because the original fanfic from 2011 is still out there. Are original adaptations of fanfics you wrote a thing? Would people sneer at it?

Then I have a random other story I got pretty far with but realised I don't know enough about the themes or the community involved to write it respectfully, so I've temporarily given up on that for now too.

I've kind of ended up in a bit of a slump I guess. In no small part due to the fact that since 2017 I just haven't had as much time to write as I'd like, and if I do I overthink it all and don't actually write anything. Or I'll be spending time doing other things I enjoy and an annoying thought will be going "you could be using this time to write", and then I just feel annoyed at myself.

Maybe I should just start with a short story collection or something... At least I know I'm relatively good at those. Or maybe I'll push through the sadness it causes and just work on the Tulpa one at last.

Not sure why I'm writing this to be honest, I think I just needed to get it all down to clear my mind.

Thanks for reading if you got this far, I hope to have an actual story for you to read one day!

~03/10/2024

[llumimoon]

Pssst Cal in a dndads Voltron AU which teen do you think would control each lion? ,':) (yeah Hermie is included here lol there's 5 lions after all!)

BABA YOU DONT EVEN KNOW ... I ALREADY ASSIGNED ALL THE TEENS LIONS BEFORE. I'VE THOUGHT ABT IT TWICE NOW WITH LIKE A MONTHS LONG GAP BETWEEN..... You came to the right place is all I'm saying JWBEVAJHAHAHA

Okay lets get the most obvious one to me out of the way, which is Link in the Yellow Lion. Like. First of all the fact that Yellow is A LEG and also Yellow representing kindness .... I think he really does support the team and grounds them in many aspects. Also Yellow is bulky like a dnd paladin LMAO it just makes the MOST sense to me? Yellow also being the color I associate with Link so maybe that gives me a slight bias lmaooo

The rest are. LESS clear to me. I HAVE already settled on an arrangement I'm more or less okay with but I could make a lot of arguments for alternative placements !! I will also admit maybe the places I settled on are a little color biased?

The Lions DO kind of have traits associated with each one except its. much less clear in some cases than others and I had to be a little flexible bc in my opinion NONE of the teens r like . smart enough for the Green Lion JWBECWUAGAHAA like they're all smart in their own ways and I do bend some rules a little to make their smarts work as an argument but I feel like Green is more book smart than anything which makes it difficult.

Uhmmm everyone else from here on out has at least two lions I could argue for and then I'll say which one I settled on? But like if you disagree thats totally fair LMAO like I said many assignments can be considered

Scary I mainly thought about the Black or Red Lion... There's the whole. Scary's the leader! Thing and also the idea of power corrupting... but also she can be pretty impulsive which is why I considered Red, also her tendency to have fire based magic mishaps LMAO I think Scary shows a lot of growth and inner reflection and also she has good insight on how the others seem to be feeling even if she doesn't always act on it or use it in the right way, so I could see that as the markings for the beginning of a Black Lion learning to be the leader type arc? Also to be honest shes the Main and practically Only contender for Black so she ends up getting it by default.

Hermie I think could be the Blue or Green Lion. I don't actually remember if they say IN THE SHOW what the Blue Lion stands for, but like. I've read so much Lance fanfic LMAO that to me it stands for Flexibility and what is Hermie if not flexible. Maybe too flexible? In the sense of. She will fill any role that is needed or given to her, like water will. I also thought Green bc to me Hermie is a character who is VERY in his head. Like they overthink to the point of looping back around to stupid again but also shes always playing mind games with other people. Hermie seems to always be one step ahead or at least is good at pretending they are. Also you can say the nature stuff is Hermie in his poison ivy era. Green is also pretty small and easy to damage which lines up with how fragile he is in a fight and maybe you could make an argument for the camouflage being like shapeshifting? idk. Anyways I decided on Green I think.

Normal I think I'm biased bc he's my fav and Lance was my old fav and I already made a post before about how I think they're similar and would get along and ANYWAYS LMAO I think its clear I gave him Blue. Something something, the legs being the support of the team something something water meaning flexibility but also ice can be stubbornness something something how I associate Normal (and lowkey the Doodler) with water (a whole nother thing to get into u can ask me to elaborate later) etc. I also played around with the idea of him in Red as Scary's right hand bc . shakes them . I think it could possibly fit but not as well? Fire isn't really Normals thing. I also briefly considered him for Black bc Normal is usually the one pushing the group towards a certain goal, but also his plans kind of never end up going through so I was like hmm not sure about that one. Blue I think is the best fit for him in the end which is why everyone else ended up where they did.

TAYLOR. Ok process of elimination you probably already figured out that I chose Red for him BUT I also considered Blue and Green. Green is fun bc you can play with his roughish abilities, like hiding and sneak attacks. His knowledge is more obscure facts and survival skills but I think it's enough to be a contender! I cannot explain the Blue stuff its all vibes in my head but trust me . I think also leaning into, Blue and Yellow are the legs that support and stabilize the team thing, Taylor is actually pretty good at keeping a cool head all things considered. Red, yes maybe slightly process of elimination but COME ON ITS BIG SWORD AND ALSO FIRE POWERS!!! Taylor would love that shit. Also going zoom zoom fast. Also the Red Lion is the second in command/right hand of the Black Lion and it just fits Taylor's protagonist vibes LMAO I think he usually is off doing is own thing which is also very Red Lion.

So to summarize: Scary Black, Taylor Red, Hermie Green, Link Yellow and Normal Blue.

Again I could totally see the justification for shuffling them around a bit but this is the assignments I settled on? The colors lining up is also nice I will not lie. I also could see an alternate universe where Normal is Red, Hermie Blue and Taylor Green, I think thats my second most favorable arrangement.

LMAO SORRY I DIDNT MEAN TO MAKE THIS SO LONG I'VE JUST THOUGHT A LOT ABOUT IT BEFORE. AS YOU CAN CLEARLY SEE. I take sorting my characters into categories VERY seriously 😤 enrichment for me.

[slytherinshua]

113 L. SEUNGJUN

genre. onf universe au (byubyu specifically). fluff. warnings. kissing. seungjun kinda overthinks a tad but reader sets him straight. seungjun is locked up for time travel. a brief mention of guns and a past wound ig? pairing. seungjun x fem!reader. wc. 1.5k. request. no. a/n. i'm pretty proud of this fic idk why skdjs onf lore fics are always so fun to write im still fascinated by their lore even tho i don't understand it too well lol but i try my best.

The sound of metal clashing outside made a groggy Seungjun blink his eyes open. He had been locked up for over 48 hours now with no access to food. He was allowed a little water if he begged the android guards extra nicely. His throat was scratchy and dry from the time spent locked up despite the water supply. They certainly didn’t treat time travel criminals as nicely as escape rebels. 

Seungjun was sure he looked horrible by now. Or “a little bit scruffy around the edges”, as you would say, even the time when he had a gaping wound in his side. He missed the way you could make light of any situation right about now. He would do anything to have a reason to laugh again.

Seungjun was no stranger to the computer operated prison cells he was often shoved into after being caught. Years ago he had been thrown in for smaller crimes, but got out within a couple hours when he figured out the lock code while no one was looking. This time, it was a lot harder. They had upgraded their system; those damn robots learned quicker than the human brain could. 

He had almost accepted his fate of rotting in the small square room by the time 24 hours had passed, but he still kept out a sliver of hope. You were still out there and free, which meant you could still come to save him. 

He wanted to laugh whenever he found himself stuck in a situation where he had to rely on your good graces to get out. One of these days he was sure his sweet words and gentle kisses wouldn’t be enough to convey his thanks. You were sure to get sick of him eventually, right? He was always the one messing things up.

His pride didn’t entirely allow him to accept that you were better than him, though he knew in the back of his mind that you were. You were perfect wherever he was faulty and just as decent at the skills that he professed he excelled in. Maybe that was why you were perfect for each other— or, rather, why you were too perfect for him.

It was strange how the human mind always wandered back to the people they loved. So much time and energy was spent just reminiscing memories, and while he found it beautiful, he also acknowledged it as one of humanity's weaknesses. The androids certainly didn’t spend their hard-drive space with personal connections. They didn’t have anything to lose, and that was why it was so hard to win against them. 

Seungjun shook off the thoughts in his head and focused on the noises he heard from the corridor. From his watch, he knew it was deep in the night hours, a time when security usually lessened in numbers for recharge sessions. Now was as good a time as you were ever going to get if you were coming to save him. And, by another glance at the watch, Seungjun had a pretty good idea that you were.

The entire team’s locations were shared across the watches; a necessary safety measure for situations like now. The little red dot that showed your location was moving steadily closer to Seungjun’s, and that was when a shadow of a smile started to form on his face.

He stood up and walked to the edge of his cell, peaking out into the dark corridor while also being careful not to get too close to the electrically charged door. If he touched it, he would get shocks charging through his body— something he learnt the hard way. In order to escape, he’d have to take down the electricity system, but pulling off such a scheme without the android guards finding out was beyond his power with such limited resources. You, however, might just be able to pull it off undetected. 

A hushed curse just barely reached his ears, and he perked up, trying to hear anything else. It definitely came from you; there was no way any of the robots would let such profanity past their voice record logs. They weren’t the best with advanced vocabulary.

Soon enough, your figure appeared into view, searching around quickly between cells. Once your eyes fell upon the room with the code that read ‘113 L. SEUNGJUN’, you were quick to rush up to the other side of the door.

“Hey, time travelling dumbass. Long time, no see.” You whispered out with a smirk playing on your lips. Seungjun could feel his heart leap in his chest and he returned the smile. He had really missed you.

You quickly punched in the code to his cell and Seungjun watched as the door flickered away. You reached out for his wrist, already pulling him along before he could ask what the escape plan was. You seemed more than familiar with the layout of the building even in the dark. Seungjun opted to let you lead him to the way out without a word. He still didn’t know if there were any guards who might be on patrol.

It was a smooth escape, and you both were out into the cool night air before too long. Seungjun let the crisp fresh air fill his lungs fully, now realising how he had been holding his breath out of caution on the way out.

“How did you disarm the security cameras without getting caught?” He asked once he had caught his breath. Though he had been mostly focused on getting out, he had noticed the distinct lack of little red flashing dots that had been his constant reminder that whatever he did was being watched those 2 days straight.

“Minkyun figured out how to hack it from the inside, so all I had to do was find the control room. Hyojin got me the blueprints and Jaeyoung helped set up the game-plan. My job was pretty simple; get in, disarm, and then go find my stupid ass boyfriend.” You grinned, ruffling his hair as you said the last part.

Seungjun would’ve complained about you messing up his hair, or even the crude nickname that he secretly adored, but he had been apart from you too long to object to anything that came out of your mouth. He was hanging onto every word, soaking up the sound of your voice as his eyes studied yours fondly.

“You’re uncharacteristically quiet. What, did something else happen while you were in there?” You questioned with a quirked brow. Seungjun just shook his head at your question.

“Nothing happened. I’m just glad you came for me.” 

“You didn’t seriously think I would ditch you that easily, right?” You stared at him in shock as his eyes told you all the confirmation you needed. “Lee Seungjun!” You smacked his shoulder as you called out his name, causing him to jump and rub the spot afflicted in pain. 

“Do whatever it takes to get this thought into your ant-sized brain, okay? I am in love with you which means I will not leave you behind. Ever. Even if I get blasted by one of those androids and die— I’ll haunt you as a ghost until you realize that you can’t get rid of me that easily! Don’t you ever forget that.” You told him sternly, your eyebrows furrowed.

He wanted to laugh, or maybe cry, or maybe kiss you until he couldn’t breathe; he wasn’t sure which. How he had ever ended up winning your heart was beyond him, but he was so grateful that he had. And so, he decided to go with the third option.

“I won’t forget.” He whispered, leaning closer until his breath hit your lips. 

You took the first move, pushing your lips on his, starting the gentle dance of passion and care. You didn’t mind that his lips were dry and slightly chapped from the days locked up. No matter what state they were in, they still felt perfect over yours. He pulled you closer almost desperately, but you were just as eager to have him as close as possible. The effect of his absence for 2 days on you was something you never wished to repeat. Though you were sure it would come back to bite you someday; you needed Seungjun like oxygen. 

The kiss lasted until Seungjun was gasping for breath, just like he had hoped. Still craving your touch, he stayed in your arms, his chest pressed against yours as close as possible until he could feel your heart racing as much as his. 

And he realized that maybe you weren’t too perfect for him after all. 

Maybe you were just right. Maybe he could be yours without feeling guilty about all the trouble he dragged you in. Maybe you even liked how rebellious he was, Seungjun thought as you curled your fingers through the section of bright red hair blanketed under his raven strands. The thought made him smile, summoning that warm feeling in his chest that he had always been a little wary of in the past. 

Maybe he liked having someone to rely on as well, even if it was another weakness he had to account for. He made up his mind that no matter what, he wouldn’t doubt you again; you deserved at least that much, after all.

↳ onf taglist: @eternalgyu,, @candewlsy,, @weird-bookworm,, @seunghancore,, @haecien

[trippinsorrows]

Does she become more vocal about her attractions to Roman or is it subtle things like how you mentioned with stroking his beard or stuff? Regardless, he knows her like the back of his hand so he knows when she's feeling him lol

she does! it'll never ever be as vocal or blunt as him, but as the years continue to pass, she'll continue with her subtle gestures, but she'll also compliment him, tell him he looks good, especially when she wants....something 😅

side note: i'm trying to see what and if i can do something with this idea ya'll done triggered in my head. dreamland based where maybe roman finds himself struggling with some insecurity with his marriage with solana. cause maybe she has a male coworker or colleague who also has kids (this is after his jealous stage btw lmao), and idk, maybe he sees how well solana gets along with ole dude, how they mesh well over being parents, etc.

and, he just struggles a bit, cause he's not that dad, and it has him overthinking, wondering if she's still happy. cause, the line of dialogue i have in my head is him asking her, "you're still happy with me, right?"

but, idk, i gotta figure it out 😭😭😭

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - February 23rd

marauders kin anon (new), remus anon (new), the anon, school trip anon (new), therapist anon, stag anon

marauders kin anon

i have no idea who my marauders kin is bc i'm just like a mixture of them so i can't even pinpoint one. like i care too much about my grades and i'm a good test taker like barty because of my memory but unlike him i live for academic validation like lily but at the same time i'm also a burnt out gifted kid (i'm working on that part) like marlene. i'm overly ambitious like regulus and dorcas and i lie and cheat to get my way in literally anything like idek really know who (lowkey barty and sirius maybe?). i act like i don't care except i care far too much like evan and i don't think good things will last like him and regulus but at the same time i don't think good things will even happen like barty. i love my friends but i like spending time alone like reg, evan and remus and i overthink too much like lily. i'm sarcastic and most people seem to think i'm a bitch like dorcas. i'm introverted like reg and remus and i have slight attachment issues with my friends like barty. i don't trust people and i have commitment issues for no valid reason like sirius and my love languages are words of affirmation and acts of service like lily. my parents pressure me to do well like reg and barty's but i put more pressure on myself than anyone else dorcas and lily.

probably too long of an anon for something so stupid but i asked my friend and she was like "idk" very noncommittally. lowkey kinda frustrating because she's the only other person in my friendgroup who knows about marauders but we aren't very close so there's that.

I mean I'm getting mostly Reg vibes overall but you don't have to just kin one person! You can just be yourself and kin everyone a bit!

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Remus anon

hi Cas :)

I guess this is lowkey a vent bc I’ve been wanting to talk about it to, like, EVERYONE 😭 and I’m dying inside. there’s this guy that I really think I like and I know he likes me (at least I hope so) and we’ve been talking for a month and a half or so and we’ve been out a few times and we’ve kissed, too. He’s just straight up my type and matches my quirks so much — like my favorite character growing up was always Remus and he is LITERALLY him. Tall, nerdy, sarcastic, etc. I think he’s just adorable and I’ve never really properly liked someone ever, much less been in any sort of ‘talking’ stage or relationship. I guess I just REALLY don’t want to mess this up and I’m scared that either one, he doesn’t actually like me and just decided it’s maybe time to be in a relationship, or two, he does like me but as time is going on, he’s growing annoyed or something.

I guess I’ve just been overthinking so much and I really don’t want to lose this bc I think I really like him. But I’m so scared I’m going to mess it up in some way, either because I come across too clingy or not interesting enough.

Idk. I guess I’ve just been wanting to talk to someone about it and I don’t want to annoy people.

Hi!

I mean if he's kissed you then I'd guess he likes you lol. I totally understand the feeling of not wanting to mees things up, but you don't want that fear to stop you from trying, you know? I think the thing is, with a good relationship, communication is VERY important. So I would try telling him you're nervous. You don't have to share everything, just say "hey, I really like how much time we've been spending together and I'm nervous about doing somethin wrong." I know it's scary to be that vulnerable, but his reaction will actually be a really good indicator of if he's a good fit anyway. If he gets mad, then he's not good enough for you!

I'm sending love and keep me updated if you want!

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The anon

SO SO SO

Hi, Cas!! It’s the anon back with some random things (talk about my bf/partner and some good things)

So, my family booked a sudden trip to Vegas (I’m super excited, but that’s another thing)

As soon as my partner found out, they kinda seemed upset. And the last two days, they’ve been making comments about it and how I’m ‘abandoning’ them or smth for a week.

It’s honestly kinda getting to me- like, I just wanna enjoy the holiday with my parents and younger brother, but at thé same time I feel like crap.

But on the positive end of things!! My mom said I shouldn’t need to put on my ‘straight cosplay’ for Vegas, so I’ll be able to wear my usual outfits and such :D OO, and I get to ride in a limousine from the airport to my hotel, so that’s pretty cool

Anygays- that’s all for my brain ❤��❤️

Hi!

It sounds like maybe your partner could be feeling insecure. Like you'll forget about them or things will change if you're gone for a while. I know they way they're reacting isn't cool, but I'd try maybe saying something reassuring like "remember, nothings changing. I'm coming back, and I still care about you" or something like that. See how they react <3

I hope you have fun in Vegas!

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School trip anon

Hey cas, idk how to rlly start this but this happened?

Basically i went on a multi day overnight school trip and was rooming with this girl in the hotel. And we were talking and she showed me a photo of her baby sister and i was like cute picture for cute picture and showed her a photo of my friends dog. She asked some questions and i answered but then she asked me how i can assume the dogs gender. I laughed a bit and was like "oh haha they then" and she kinda dragged it out which whatever.

Then like 2 minutes later when we were done talking she goes "do you support the trans trend- i mean do you support transgender people"

I didn't really answer, and she pressed me about it, so i said, "i mean... yeah" (im genderqueer myself btw if it's not obvious yet that i defo support trans people)

Then she was like "i just dont get the people who get mad that you misgender them when its obvious that they are either a man or a woman you know"

I didnt know what to do so i just kind of stopped talking to her.

Then later that day she called me girl and was like "oh sorry did i misgender you" but she seemed kind of sincere. I said like "no im a girl ur good"

Then she goes "do americans actually apologize for misgendering people?"

I said "yeah, i mean if you get it wrong and someone corrects you i would probably just apologize and correct myself"

And then she asks if ive meant a trans person and i said yeah bc i have and she asked if i misgendered them and i said the first time i met them i did on accident but i corrected myself

And then she fucking says "oh but its like their fault you know"

I just what the hell. And both of these times we werent talking about anything to do with gender, or trans people or anything of the sort. She brought it up every time. I guess i just want to ask should i have said something more? And like been more outward that i wasnt transphobic? Bc im never gonna see her again and i was gonna have to room with her for a few days and like idk it was weird. If it was a friend that i was gonna have to deal with i wouldve said something but idk. Am i a bad person for not saying anything? Does it make me part of the problem?

Honestly it sounds like she was being annoying about it. Like she wasn't being kind or curious, she was being rude. So in that case, I don't think there's any right or wrong way to deal with it, because any answer you give her will just end in her getting more pissed off about something she has no right to be pissed off about. Like it sounds like she wanted you to be part of her angry echo chamber.

I don't think you did anything wrong. Yeah, you could've tried to educate her, but she was obviously making you uncomfortable and if you felt unsafe then you absolutely weren;t required to put yourself in an even more unsafe position.

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Stag anon

hi cas, it's me again

I don't know what's wrong with me anymore LOL I can't catch a break atp

so I'm copying a post I made but this is the gist of it

I feel like I don't love the right way

like no matter what I do, I always feel like my romantic love isn't genuine, or it's skewed

I always question if I've ever had a real crush on someone, because I don't know how I get over people so easily

I got broken up with my first bf in 8th grade and I feel like he's the only one that (at the time) i didn't get over him in like a week

and then all my crushes

they fade so fucking easily

at this point I just confess to get the feelings over with, because I know they'll die out eventually

And with my bf freshman year, I liked the dude for like a week before I confessed. I didn't expect him to say yes bc well, I'm me, but he did and we dated

and he made me really really happy, but there would be brief times— that I never admitted— that I was scared I didn't like him, that my feelings weren't real

same thing with my first bf to

and when my freshman year bf ghosted me, I got over him so easily, that when a month later he told me he didn't wanna be together I was fine

I had already moved on

and even now, with one of my more recent exes

I don't know how I felt anymore, I know I loved them

or at least I think I did

I don't know anymore. Cause sometimes it feels like I choose my crushes but sometimes it doesn't

I had a crush on my best friend irl for almost two years, but not consecutively. I'd get over him, like genuinely, and then somehow like him again

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me and I hate it

because sometimes I want that connection, I want to be so undeniably in love, but I don't know if I can be

I think I can, I think I have been, but I don't know anymore and that scares me

I want to love someone as much as I want someone to love me

Am I like, going insane for feeling this way? or do I have commitment issues? or am I possibly aromantic? I have no idea and I'm so confused and scared

-🦌

Hi! <3

I don't think you're insane at all. Feelings can be really confusing, and things you have experienced in the past can affect the way you experience your feelings now. I think it's important not to judge your feelings, whatever they are. So many people look at their feelings and judge them, but feelings just ARE. They aren't good or bad or right or wrong. It's okay to have feelings that change quickly or feelings that aren't logical. Try to be a little kinder to yourself and allow yourself to feel without judgement <3

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Therapist anon

Hi cas therapist anon here!

My best friend got a girlfriend recently and I'm so beyond happy for her

But...because we're close and have been for years (since I moved so over a decade) and it's in no way awkward between us bur I'm just wondering how I got about our friendship now

Just cos I'm a touchy person and call people names like 'gorgeous and lovely" as a greeting (just cos I like making them happy) as in I'll go hey lovely how are you or hey gorgeous what question are wr on

But I don't want to like not upstage (G-d this is awkward why are words so wordy) but make her feel uncomfortable or make her girlfriend uncomfortable (we havnt met yet but talked through messaging like I message my friend and then she tells me what her gf said kinda thing)

Do you have any pointers on how I can make sure I'm not upstaging( is thay the word?) Their relationship and not making my friend uncomfortable because hey ill stop as soon as she says the word but I dunno how to ask her without coming across as weird or jealous

Thanks and have a great weekend!

Hi!

Honestly I don't think you should change how you're acting at all! That's how your friendship is and it shouldn't change just because of a relationship. I mean if you two were making out for fun it'd be different, but friends can be affectionate in a platonic way. I think unless your friend or her girlfriend says anything, just act the same <3

[vacate-et-scire]

Happy new years!!!! May this year treat you well! Hopefully I’m not late for the match up urhrhruhrh:( if it’s still going I’d love to get matched!

For started, I'm an entp-t and a Leo. I'm a very quiet and shy person, until you approach me to start a convo, I'll get chatty with you in no time! (if the person matches my freak) I guess in general I'm a very open and loud person.

My hobbies are doing art and collecting trinkets! I have a whole box and shelves full of charms, stickers, little figures and whatnot. I also still keep my toys and sometimes even play with them when I’m bored, more specifically littlest pet shops iykykykyk. Oh, right, I also love cosplaying!

I’m quite soft-hearted, and I get hurt easily if you say something out of the line, and I need lvl 999 reassurance or else I’ll overthink and have a mental breakdown. (Quietly)

Coming from all of my friends, I’m very humorous and I always make the people around me feel comfortable, and make sure they’re having fun around me of course. I’m also selfless(sometimes), for example if I’m having my favorite meal, I’ll definitely offer you a bite so you can have a taste, or I’ll buy extra of something just to give it to you, etc.

I’m very big on physical touch, though I’m big on every other love language too. If we’re close enough and I know you’re okay with it, I’m gonna be touching you every second LOL whether it’s holding hands, hugs, kisses, anything. I could just out of nowhere stuff my face into your tummy bc i love you idk. I loooove giving compliments, or saying anything silly that’ll make you laugh! I will also do things for you, like tuck you into bed, try cooking for you, learn about your interest, tie your shoe, ANYTHING!!!! I pick up a lot of small details and make sure to note them too!

It’d just be a random saturday, and I’d most likely start sobbing thinking about how much i love you. yea. I have a lot of love to give 😞

I will definitely introduce you to my interests too. I’ll make you play my toys with me, draw with me, maybe cosduo together, literally anything just to hang out wit u.

Your Blue Lock Matchup: Isagi Yoichi

Isagi would be the one who truly appreciates your soft-hearted, playful nature. You’d catch his attention immediately with your openness and unique blend of humor and warmth. He’s drawn to people who are kind and authentic, and you have that in spades—your ability to make everyone feel at ease is something he would admire deeply.

While he’s not the loudest person, Isagi’s perceptiveness and deep emotional intelligence would complement your more spontaneous, outgoing side. He would find joy in your interests, whether it’s drawing, cosplaying, or even playing with toys. Isagi loves people who can match his energy and creativity, and he’d find it endearing how you include him in your passions. Plus, he’d probably love the idea of cosduo-ing with you—Isagi’s the type to support his partner’s passions wholeheartedly.

As someone who’s a little more reserved but emotionally aware, Isagi would understand your need for reassurance and provide it without hesitation. He’d constantly check in on you, offering comfort when you get overthinking and reassuring you in his own calm, steady way. He would also be the type to notice the little things about you—the details you bring up or the way you interact—and show his affection in subtle but meaningful ways.

Your love for physical touch would match his need for closeness, and Isagi would love how affectionate you are. He’d embrace every moment of being close to you, whether it’s hugs, holding hands, or just enjoying quiet moments together. He’d enjoy seeing you express how much you love him, and it’d warm his heart to know that you’re so thoughtful, always giving and sharing love in the smallest, sweetest ways.

In a relationship, Isagi would be your emotional anchor, supporting you through tough times and celebrating your quirks and passions. He’d be happy to spend random Saturdays with you, laughing and making memories, and always showing you just how much he cares.

[n3rdyslvt]

What I like <3

I'm just gonna list kinks and things that i'm into (with explanations because i'm an overthinker and feel the need to explain my weirdness). I'll also list some of the things I do not like AT ALL.

I color coded it bc I ramble A LOTTT hopefully it’s easier to read now!!

Likes

pretty women (manifesting a pretty switchy gf to ruin me currently)

pretty men (manifesting an adorable switchy man for me to ruin RN)

Praise (literally the bare minimum praise will have me barking and kicking my feet)

Mirror sex (something about the idea of being forced to look in the mirror while a pretty girl edges me and praises me and gives me little kisses is soooooooo amazing)

Forced eye contact ( i get nervous… but don’t let me )

Exhibitionism (i'm very awkward irl so idk why I like the thought of doing shit in public butttttt it just seems like fun lol)

Somno ( before you judge me, please understand that i'm just a girl lmao, but I like the idea of waking up to a dom or sub in between my legs with prior consent obviouslyyy)

Bondage (pleaseeee tie me up omg)

Spanking (I'm not a fan of like hardcore sadist shit with the knives and torture devices, but I mean being a brat is fun sometimes so i'm down for an attitude adjustment every once in a while)

Costumes ( I LOVEEEE the idea of wearing a cute lil costume or even just really nice lingerie and getting all pretty for a night of fun)

Home movies ( maybe it's because i'm a film nerd, but the idea of having a camera with a bunch of pictures and videos of us looking pretty and fucked out is so nice)

and I just discovered this last night because I saw a photo and was like RRRRR GRRRRR BARK WOOF WOOF ARGGGGHH, but women in boxers with the bulge from their strap prominent... just give me 5 minutes and a towel, i'll make magic happen.

High sex (bro I wanna take an edible with someone and turn into the neediest, touch deprived slut in existence )

monsters ( just let me expl- )

yanderes ( guys… i played mystic messenger at a young age WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM MEEEE )

Dislikes

Scat ( ... )

Watersports ( I just can't do it, i'm sorry )

Torture shit and Sadism (I love a good soft dom that's realllll gentle and tender, i'd rather be good than be punished harshly sooooo i'm cool off of the crazy shit lmao)

Ageplay ( fuck no, I once had a man ask me to pretend to be NINE… I wanna vomit just thinking about it)

dd/lg ( I fear that i do have a daddy kink and do wanna be taken care of, but i dont wanna act young or innocent soooo idk)

Raceplay ( idk how I forgot to add this one, I’m a black woman so I don’t wanna be degraded or degrade someone bc of their race and I just don’t feel like someone getting off to the idea of me frolicking in cotton fields should be talking to me 💀)

Fauxcest ( I have a family that I love/tolerate very much and I just can’t imagine pretending to be related to someone and then fucking them… cause then you’re family and that’s odd, but if you like a good stepbro I got stuck in the dryer moment I won’t shame you lol)

and more, but I can't think rn

DNI vs INTERACT

TERFS and any other radical and offensive people THIS IS NOT A SAFE SPACE FOR Y'ALL

All of the horrible ists and phobes

Anybody that is pro genocide (as in everything happening in Palestine, Sudan, Congo, Yemen, and too many other countries doesn't fucking disgust you) please disrespectfully never interact with my content, find somethin safe to do

Oh and minors obviously this is not a safe space for y'all because it's 18+ so kindly pretend like this page doesn't exist to you

Men interactions:

Subs ( i love y’all i’m just not always in a dom mood and i’m more gentle compared to what the masses like 💀)

Switches

Gentle doms

Hard doms ( i’m not into sadism or being degraded 😭 i just want praise and light teasing )

all women are perfectly welcome here <3 love y'all

oh and any trans or nonbinary or genderfluid people are also welcome!! this is a safe space for all the cool people :)

Feel free to message me!! I swear I don't bite lol

[milksnake-tea]

omg tumblr ate the first paragraph of this LOL WHY

I basically just apologized because I was the og anon who mentioned the full leak the SH Sunday info came from was sus/heavily stated not confirmed from what I gathered online, but many people saw it, took it, ran with it outside of the full context and made it look more confirmed. It seems a lot has happened to your inbox since then so I hope it wasn't too much of a bother! I overthink these things...

honestly I have personally seen great reasonings both for and against the SH and AE for Sunday. I have faith that whatever they write for him will be great regardless, but I do hope it will be AE just to see him more x) I heard (I don't recall this being said in a stream but I may be wrong) that Shaoji's fave character from the cast IS Sunday, so I definitely think extra care will be given and regardless of where he ends up, the story will be satisfying.

And who knows... maybe he will be given the Firefly treatment where he gets a bunch of ads and additional screen time 👀 personally I'm anxiously awaiting his merch series. hyv never fails in that department (well, maybe they miss out on small seemingly better merch ideas but still lol). Like I bought some Aven and Robin merch and I am SO excited for future versions of those that will be Sunday themed (like light cone sand block). Plus his cute little nendo with Robin and oh boy I'm getting sidetracked lol

Personally I wasn't fully sold on the SH Sunday side until I saw a video on YouTube about it. All people talking about it really glossed over details and made it sound very circumstantial vs tailored to Sunday. I also do think that though Sunday has done some morally ambiguous things, I lowkey feel like he would still ?? can't think of the word but I imagine a version of Sunday almost clutching pearls because of the intensity of what the SH do sometimes. He viewed his ideals/methods as worth it, but idk if he'd feel that way about others' methods for similar ideals, if that makes sense. Either way, I'm excited for him to be a permanently relevant cast member. WE ARE IN THE FINAL STRETCH I CAN'T WAIT

dude i completely forgot to reply to this BUT YOURE FINEEE DWDW I WASNT THAT BOTHERED BY IT honestly i was just being dramatic GOODBYE 😭😭😭 bc imma be so fr. i dont care where sunday ends up and honestly ae works out bc we see him more !!! i just want sunday to do some crimes. personally

HONESTLY HE HAS TO. IF HE DOESNT GET THE AVENTURINE/FIREFLY TREATMENT IM GOING TO COMMIT A FELONY I WANT THAT MAN ANIMATED !!! tis what he deserves....

and yeah you're right he would clutch some of his pearls but at the same time i personally don't think he'd be too opposed to it depending on who it's being done to - how i see sunday is that he is completely fine with doing fucked up things if the people he's doing them to are also just as fucked up/are a threat, if that makes sense? but yeah he'd probably be like wtf... when he sees silver wolf unleash idk a bunch of data demons and watch them wreak havoc... IDK !! i still think sh sunday would be a fun idea BECAUSE of how he clutches his pearls but he's still there regardless bc elios plan to save the universe is pretty appealing... also adds the whole paradise thing in there too if that makes sense.... but again ae is also amazing for him so good for lil baby

BUT HES HERE !!! HES HERE AND IM GOING TO BITE HIM !!!! SUNDAY FANS REJOICE WHATEVER STANDPOINT YOURE ON

[rooviebae]

oh em gee look who's back

coming at you with another cute request

ok so like Kyojuro x Reader fluff sorta thing?? maybe?? sobs idk

imagine spending a cold winter night with Kyojuro Rengoku

like he is a personal heater omg what

you don't have to write this one if you don't want, but you said you liked my ideas so here I am 😭

tyyyy bonnie 💗💗💗💗💗💗💖💖💖💖💖💖👑👑👑👑👑👑/p

WHAT'S A BLANKET? I ONLY KNOW A KYOJURO!

Spending a cold winter night with Kyojuro

Get yourself a Kyojuro when it's cold. It doesn't even have to be winter

This man is the Flame Hashira for a damn reason, now get a Kyojuro🤺

I'm pretty sure he's rarely even cold in the winter tbh

He'll hug you when he sees you shiver even the slightest, you don't even have to say anything to him. He sees a little shiver and he's there.

He'll make you hot chocolate to make you feel better.

He'll shower you with blankets to warm you up LOL

He honestly hates seeing you cold, and may overthink just a bit because he doesn't want you to get sick.

He might question why you aren't wearing more clothes in the winter even though you might be wearing leggings and a sweater.

Even if you were sick though, he'd still be your blanket frfr

Long story short, get a Kyojuro as your blanket

[music-for-them-asses]

Idk man... maybe it's just part of me constantly overthinking about myself and if it's normal or not...but sometimes I worry way too much about my enthusiasm for bands and music. Like, I'm too old to be acting like this. But I'm so hard on myself. There are people way older than me in the Fb fan groups arguing and making embarrassing posts all day long. Irl I'm petty subdued even among my friends (they know I love DM but have no idea how far the brainrot goes lol). I try to keep things in perspective and honor people's privacy. Am I just convinced enjoying things, even to a silly degree, is cringe? Sometimes I also think it's just because I'm single, but let's be real, even if I had a boyfriend, the celebrity crushes don't go away. A lot of adults have celebrity crushes and that's okay. So why do I feel so ashamed about it???

[aeide-thea]

overthinking things as per uʒ but:

[a transcript is under the cut, for anyone who prefers that format. <3]

aeide-thea sent a post "love sports love when people write about them in a normal fashion"

aeide-thea: lol i AM insane but the more i contemplate this post the more it irritates me actually

elucubrare: what aspect of it?

aeide-thea: like i have no particular stance on the success of this lyricism but as a general position i feel like. yes actually anything can come under the besotted lens of a prose stylist and get elevated thereby. cowardly and boring to laugh at writers not being 'normal' when in fact the elevation of the everyday into the ecstatic is one of the highest and best uses of language. like YES defamiliarize that shit. YES hallow it.

elucubrare: yeah ok, i'm with you!

elucubrare: i also have a half-articulated thought about Not Liking Sports and dismissing them as a tribal marker on the internet & so this description of a player like someone on tumblr would talk about idk. a supernatural man feels like it's unpleasantly transgressive

aeide-thea: yes i think you're onto something! like there's definitely a way in which a certain kind of (maybe especially modern, maybe especially on tumblr) writer feels like there's Their People and then there's Sports People and never the twain shall meet, and like, it's not that i don't recognize the incongruity myself but i also think the joke IS fundamentally based on the idea that anyone who loves a sport is a dumb redneck which like. IS instinctively how i feel about football but there are enough sports i do love that i can check that impulse in myself and recognize my own arbitrary bias

aeide-thea: like admittedly i haven't *read* eg roger angell's baseball writing but i feel like there used to be more room for the idea that an american writer could write about an american pastime (which like. problems of their own there but.) without it being like. writing is for nerds and sports are for jocks!! no—i'm tempted to say 'miscegenation' but i think that's probably an offensively reductive metaphor. however i do sort of feel like it's on the same spectrum of tribalism however far apart??

elucubrare: yeah i agree!

elucubrare: i think when i think about mid-century sports writing that i've been aware of, it's less overtly lyrical or flowery than this, but it *does* take its subject seriously or metaphorically the way this does

aeide-thea: no exactly. and like. idk if you've read that famous DFW piece on federer but like. would be very curious to see if OP would make fun of that the same way or if the fact that it like. has lit cred would stop them

aeide-thea: like dgmw i know i've done a lot of objecting lately to like. people pointing out Amusing Incongruities (see also: 'blorbo' in the NYT) and i know i sound like a humorless idiot but the thing is, it's not that i don't get where these posts are coming from! i just think the fundamental 'humor' of them is predicated on false dichotomies

elucubrare: yeah for sure!

elucubrare: i think here i think the snippet *is* a bit much but i would think that no matter what the subject was

aeide-thea: oh i super don't disagree!! but i also think like. it's tricky to evaluate the success of a snippet stripped of all buildup and ALSO i don't actually think the post was taking issue with the craftsmanship (where i'd probably have agreed with them/you!), but rather just laughing at the fundamental *attitude* regardless of execution?

elucubrare: yeah, i agree!

elucubrare: i think also this is a place where ur crusade against "normal about" comes into play b/c it really does sneer generally but say nothing except "this is not how *i* would have approached this"

aeide-thea: god no exactly. like fundamentally ALL you're ever conveying with 'normal' is like. 'i don't have to actually explain or justify myself bc Everyone (Who Matters) Already Understands so really this is just a general sneer to amuse and bond us, the preexisting in-group'

aeide-thea: like. articulate! your! objections!!! you might find in the process of having to explain yourself that you don't actually agree with yourself! learning and personal growth might happen (god forbid)!

aeide-thea: (also unrelatedly how do u feel abt having portions of our sportswriting convo reproduced 4 public perusal. 'pls no' is totes ok, i can always make my own post if i care that much i'm just feeling lazy lol)

elucubrare: (Go for it!!)

[elisedonut]

Hello hi hi it's the Percy/Sirius anon backk

I had to take a break from tumblr lol but I'm back now :)

Lately I haven't been writing much, feeling a little unmotivated for the ship rn ; - ; (totally have not been busy writing a James Potter/Percy Weasley fic with multiple POV's including Harry who is Not Happy with this asdfghj)

but anyway to your thing about omegaverse and control, for the purposes of the story it's not flat out sex pollen approach but yeah, pretty uncontrollable lol, which is fun to write sometimes :p

The most dubcon I think (I think) is the wedding night. So my approach is; Sirius has issues with control, with feeling like he has it, anxiety over losing it ect, but sex has always been the thing to make him feel calm, in his lane yk? So he kinda slips into his "role" during their wedding night while Percy is just there like "hello this is weird and I didn't know half this stuff existed why does this feel nice and why is everything so embarrassing literally kill me"

I'm trying to go for a Percy is very overwhelmed thing. Also! Idk if I've mentioned that they are in an arranged marriage because their ancestors had an agreement (before the Weasley's became known as blood traitors) that one Weasley omega was owed to a Black alpha (yeah, omegas really were treated like property back then haha) now originally I thought okay, percy would have to enter the agreement as soon as he's of age but I just. Ick. I just couldn't do it. It felt gross. I know it's not much better but Percy will be almost 19 at the time of his marriage instead because idk, consenting adult. Might bump it up to 20 tho. Thoughts?

On scents, I love the idea of scenting, as like a platonic or sexual thing. I just find it very intimate, very fun :) but I have no idea how to describe scents T^T like what does it smell like?? Can you describe someones scent as the scent of something else?? Maybe I'm overthinking lol

Also I only caught the typo on the snippet I sent as I sent it T^T "dragged a hard through his hair" lmaooo

Wb!!

also that is so valid I've been working on like seven things at once lately so i get you also neat rip Harry he really would hate that askdfjfads that's so fun

also hell yeah that sounds very fun for it a bit of a mid level of control nice nice

also Yeah Omega's being promised even before their birth is always an easy and fun set up

oh noo sdkjfklsd poor guys are just both suffering

overwhelmed Percy is always a vibe and rip Sirius his brain was like "this will relax you" but it was a lie he's now even more stressed

also yeah thats fair my thoughts are basic but i think you should do whatever makes you comfortable if you think you need to age him up you should age him up if you feel fine where he is you should leave him where he is

im so so not the best person to ask on that because ages in fiction just don't tend to ick me much and never have

like unless its really really outrageous i'm just like hmm alright this does not bother me in the slightest

like to me "of age" just is adult?

unless you mean like "of age" in a in-universe way where its the presentation age(in a lot of fics being like puberty age so early teens) in which case i can see what you mean about an expectation from those around them to jump into the relationship but also how you would be icked by it so yeah fair decision

but like i don't really think thats what you meant dkfjsdlf

IDK i'll be honest i just assumed it would be expected to happen as soon as Percy graduated so he'd be like 17 (since he only turns 17 a week or two before starting his 7th year)

But again you should do what makes you comfortable you can always hand wave anything with just "it being how things are done" or "Sirius was throwing a fit and was able to get it pushed back this much but he can't run forever"

for the whole scent thing

this might sound weird but i would just find a perfume/cologne you think works for the character and just steal the scent notes

like obv you can't say like

"She smelled so sweet, like Bath and Body Work Buttercups & Berry Bellini"

but you can just ignore the name and use the notes to just take and change as you see fit that makes it like sound pretty

like for that scent the notes are strawberry purée, buttercup flowers and bubbly prosecco

"She smelled so sweet, like a strawberry wine and freshly picked buttercups."

is that the same?

no but i think it works better then trying to make Prosecco fit if that makes sense

though you could always replace prosecco with like honeysuckle since according to google prosecco smells like honeysuckle

a more masc example is Like Freshwater - Italian bergamot, mountain spring water and oak moss

which again you can take and pick as you please but it gives an easy starting point maybe? and gives you a scent in your head if you have it with you

"He always smelled like the air after rainfall. With hints of bergamot from his tea and the oak of his wand it always made him feel like home."

or uh something like that idk

tbh most people only smell like person but in something like omegaverse you can be more creative with that like they don't have to just smell musky

I don't know how well this works in practice because i haven't really explained scents much in fic but it popped in my head when i read this so i think it could work as a method with some tweaking