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𝜗𝜚. Rosalie always wanted to become a ballet dancer since she was a child, being an idol was a spure of the moment decision when she saw a video of SNSD performing once.

𝜗𝜚. Her aunt is well known in the kpop community seeing as how she owns the company ‘UTOPIA ENTERTAINMENT’ that manages the groups New Jeans, IVE, and ITGIRLZ.

𝜗𝜚. In 2021 Rosalie did resign a contract with Pledis Entertainment for her career with SEVENTEEN but the company has no power over her solo career, her Aunt’s company controls her solo career.

𝜗𝜚. Jihye does not drink alcohol often, whenever she does she basically has to have a babysitter because of everything she gets into.

𝜗𝜚. Rosalie is one of the youngest musicians and first ever female kpop artist to win a Grammy and an Oscar.

𝜗𝜚. Rosalie was invited to headline Coachella 2 years in a row but she declined each time.

𝜗𝜚. She likes to play video games so she can collect all the skins. For example, she’s amazing at playing Fortnite and Call Of Duty but mostly just plays for the skins and weapons. (Of course of her skins are pink)

𝜗𝜚. Rosalie featured on Taylor Swift’s album ‘Midnights’ on the song Snow On The Beach. This caused her to get a lot more recognition and attention towards her group once it released. She was even a surprise guest during the Eras Tour to perform the song on stage with Taylor. Rosie said it was one the most surreal moments of her career.

𝜗𝜚. Rosalie is Korea’s best friend. She earned this title from bringing friends with almost of the idol/acting industry. She loves making new friends and likes to speak to anyone that will listen.

𝜗𝜚. Rosalie likes to speak up often about mental health. In many live videos she’s spoken up about her struggles after her sister’s passing and how she’s been going to therapy since she started training as an idol.

𝜗𝜚. Rosie was a straight a student through her whole career. She carried a 4.0 GPA until she graduated high school and got accepted into a prestigious university where she takes online business classes.

𝜗𝜚. Rosalie broke her hip after falling during a ballet performance. She was lifted into the air by her fellow male dancer and his grip slipped causing her to fall on her left hip. She has a some issues with her hip to this day, swelling and pain.

𝜗𝜚. Rosalie had a slight school girl crush on Joshua when she was younger and just joined the company. She admitted it once in a live with him and it’s been a running joke in the fandom since.

𝜗𝜚. Rosalie wrote her song ‘Good night My Princess’ whilst she was visiting her family. She was having an emotional night and even though she’s an adult she crawled into bed with her parents and they sang a lullaby to calm her down.

𝜗𝜚. Rosie loves sweets. Anything candy she will eat, she has a candy basket in her’s and woozi’s bedroom on her bedside table.

𝜗𝜚. Rosalie wants to be a mom someday but unfortunately she is infertile due to some issues with her developmental when she was a fetus. She plans to adopt in the future.

𝜗𝜚. Rosalie was born prematurely. She was born 2 months early, doctors were worried she wasn’t going to make it but she pulled through after being on oxygen for 3 months. She would go to the doctor every month for a year or so to make sure she was doing okay.

𝜗𝜚. Rosie is engaged to fellow band member Woozi/Jihoon. Wedding plans are still the works.

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Something Uniquely Human

Chapter 2 boys let's go (Chapter 1) (ao3 link)

Doctor, I Can't Tell If I'm Not Me

One way to absolve his crime.

Of all the things he expected to happen after speaking with the lizard, this had to be the worst possible option. There aren't a lot of things that could bother Bill Cipher; there's no form of torture, no violent act or psychological horror that could sway him when he's made up his mind. And believe him, people have tried. He laughs in the face of his torturers, sometimes giving them advice because they clearly don't know how to torture people effectively. 

But this–this was unlike anything he had ever endured. Alone in a white room, his only company a single mirror and the various inspirational posters the wardens with the audacity to call themselves nurses had put up for him, he lay on his bed staring at the blank ceiling. He replayed his conversation with that stupid reptile over and over again. Honestly he thought it had gone pretty well, there wasn't much more he could've said to make himself look good. It wasn't his fault Axie’s a pretentious, holier than thou, self-righteous, know it all, moron. 

Every day was exactly the same. Talk therapy, group therapy, arts and crafts, puppet hour, reflection time, talk therapy, group therapy, arts and crafts, puppet hour, reflection time. The only thing that ever broke up the never ending cycle of people poking around at his business was the surprise checkups. Which was just more people poking around at his business, honestly, but at least this time he could get them to stick the IV in and leave him alone. 

His train of thought halted when he heard the knock at the door. “Patient 63205? This is nurse Premolaris, I'm coming in.” Bill sighed and sat up. Here we go again. “Good evening 63205, how are we today?” Premolaris was probably his favorite of all the nurses and therapists around this awful place. That's not to say that he liked her by any means, it's just that she's the least terrible. She had a toothy smile a little too large for her face, and 8 eyes stacked on top of eachother. Bill thought that that was too many features for one face, one eye had served him just fine for longer than her species had even existed. “Terrible. I hate it here.” He answered her flatly, rubbing his face and she wheeled in a cart of medical supplies. She hummed in thought at his response. “Have you been doing your positive affirmations?” She sat down on a small stool and typed something into a holographic pad in front of her. It faced away from him and he couldn't tell what was being written down, he just knew he resented it. 

“Oh, of course! Everyday I stare at myself in the mirror and tell myself what a pretty princess I am!” He clasped his hands together and kicked his short legs back and forth off the bed sarcastically. “Please. If there was anything good worth saying about myself I would know it already.” He dropped the act with that and crossed his arms, looking away from her. “Now, Bill,” the use of his real name took him aback a bit, “You know very well that that isn't the purpose of positive affirmations. Having knowledge, and being convinced of something are two very separate ideas.” He huffed. She put the cold metal of her stethoscope up to the closest area he had to a chest. It made him shiver. “Remember what you learned about self deprecation? Give me your arm,” She wrapped the stethoscope around her neck and held out her hand. He rolled his eyes but held out his arm surprisingly willingly this time, and Premolaris put a small clamp over his index finger. She continued as she read the data on the screen, “What you s-” Bill cut her off, “What you say about yourself you believe about yourself. Blah blah blah, I know.” She looked at him with a disappointed expression, but didn't linger on the subject anymore. He cringed internally. He was so sick of people looking at him like that; that terrible mix of disappointment and pity, it was driving him nuts. 

She typed something in again and removed the clamp, and he retracted his hand. “Well 63205, I'm going to be honest with you. I personally do not see you leaving any time soon.” “Wow, thanks.” He answered in an exasperated, monotone voice. “However,” she emphasized, “Somebody special has requested to see you.” Now that got his attention. A requested visit? Somebody special? Who in the multiverse would willingly visit Bill Cipher? Certainly not those backstabbing henchmaniacs, they haven't come to see him once. Although he couldn't totally blame them, he wouldn't willingly visit this place either, regardless of who was inside. Before he could ask any of the many questions plaguing him though, she stood up with a sigh, gathered her things and started to leave. “Have a good rest of your day, 63205. I'll see you in the morning.” The door opened and closed behind her quietly. And he was left alone with his thoughts again. 

When night finally came he couldn't bring himself to sleep. Sleep had become one of his dominant coping mechanisms for the draining dullness of his everyday, and yet he couldn't stop his mind from running through a list of everyone he knew. As the night dragged on, he could hear the night shift workers outside his door. He thought again about Premolaris' sentence, and the context she said it in. And suddenly, like a freight train, the realization hit him all at once. The only person in any dimension that would want to speak to him about leaving the theraprism, it couldn't have been more obvious. He internally cursed at himself for becoming just as slow as all the other knock off villains in this place. And suddenly he was more eager than ever to get to sleep. He closed his eye trying to force his consciousness away.  

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A different form, a different time.

He fluttered his eye open, giddy like a little kid when he saw absolutely nothing. The small, padded room he had grown somewhat used to seeing was replaced with deep space and distant star clusters. Before him rested the Axolotl. He held an unreadable expression, and patiently waited for Bill to fully come to. Oh this was going to be so easy. All Bill had to do was recite all the big therapy words he memorized, tell a good sob story, and fain repentance. He had to fight to keep the smug look off his face. 

“Bill Cipher.” The Axolotl's voice echoed out into the void, reverberating off of Bill. “How has therapy been treating you?” “Oh, it's been great, Axie. I really feel like a new triangle.” Bill said, adjusting his bow tie. “This is good to hear. Although some have said you are having trouble, is this true?” “Psh, of course not.” Bill waved him off. “You know me, Ax, I'm the best patient they have. I'm running circles around all those other wannabes.” He stretched out his hand to look at his nonexistent nails. The Axolotl hummed at that. That's never a good sign. “Self improvement is not a competition, Bill, there is no trophy of gold. Perhaps you are not as ready as I have been told.” “What?!” He cleared his throat–as if that makes sense–and tried to regain his composure. “I just- I meant I'm making so much progress it could be considered a sport. Not that it is-! Figure of speech, y'know?” Nailed it. 

“Ah, I see. In that case I have summoned you to bear you one final word, only good news, rest assured.” “Lay it on me, Axie.” “To earn your freedom, one final test. However be warned, failure means eternal rest.” For just a moment Bill let his concern wash over his face before scrunching it back into its calm and collected facade. What in any world did that mean? failure means eternal rest? What, is he going to actually kill him if he screws this up? He decided not to worry about that, though. How could he possibly screw it up? He always had some cheat or scam, there's no way. 

“What kind of test..?” He questioned. Though some part of him didn't want to know. “A record of all those who you have burned; to gain your freedom, first forgiveness must be earned.” You have got to be kidding. “Forgiveness? Hey, don't worry about it, big guy. I totally forgive you for locking me away in prison against my will.” A little cockiness sneaked its way into his tone. “That is not what I meant.” “Ehh, worth a shot. So who is this final boss anyway?” “The choice is yours, but wise may your choice be, not all will grant you such mercy.” 

What a joke. Gaining anyone's forgiveness would be the easiest task he could think of. Who wouldn't forgive him, he's so charming? And it's not like he's done anything actually wrong, humans in particular just tended to be extra sensitive. Speaking of: his choice definitely needed to be human. It was so easy to trick those flesh bags it was almost comical. He ran through a mental list of all the humans he had met, but quickly had to narrow it down to the ones who were still even alive. The Axolotl could visibly see the light bulb go off in his head as he came to his conclusion. 

“Stanford Pines, 21st century.” He declared with pride. Of course he had to choose good ol Fordsy. He was reliably consistent, malleable, and oh so gullible. If he wasn't senile by now he could easily fall back on old tricks; Ford's almost crippling insecurities and need to feel important was too great to withstand Bill's attention. A couple well placed compliments and reassurance and Ford would practically be begging to make another deal. He almost felt bad for slipping right under Axie’s nose like that. Almost. 

“And you are sure this is the being you wish to meet? It may not be as simple as you think. For if trouble should befall you in this land, I will no longer be here to hold your hand.” The Axolotl warned, but he was quickly brushed off by Bill's unwavering self confidence. “Yeah, yeah, yeah I get it. Improvement takes time, forgiveness is earned not taken, yak, yak, yak. I've heard this all 100 times over, Ax. Just snap your fingers and let's make this happen, yeah?” The Axolotl sighed at his impatience. “Very well. To truly know your old friend's woes, you will walk among them, one or their own.” “Wait, what?” “This is your final warning, a message to heed; Gain forgiveness or cease to be. May your journey be successful, I wish you well in your new vessel.” “New vessel? Now wait just a minute, Axie, what're you…” But before he could even finish his sentence, let alone process Axie’s, he felt his vision blur and his consciousness slip out from under him. 

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His whole body ached and his head was spinning. He attempted to open his eye but was met with the blinding light of the sun directly over him. He closed his eye again, screwing it shut to block out the blazing rays. At the very least he knew he successfully made it to earth. He groaned and rubbed his face, laying on his back. Wait a minute. No, that wasn't right. He dragged his hands over his face, feeling every bump and divot in utter bewilderment. A large structure protruded from the middle of his face, and underneath it he found two flaps covering a chasm. He recognized this layout of features, and the realization of what was happening horrified him. It was the kind of softness and roundness he only felt while possessing a human being. But there was no way, no possible way the Axolotl would do that to him, right? He opened his eye-eyes-again, this time careful not to stare directly into the sun. If he really is somehow in a human body he'll have plenty of time for that later. 

He looked around himself, taking a minute to adjust to the new found depth perception. Tall trees and warm grass surrounded him, though the grass itched his skin. With another groan he attempted to sit up, he felt the pull of gravity firmly take hold of him and try to force him back down. His stomach lurched and the world spun around at a dizzying speed. He closed his eyes again and held his face in his hands, both to stop the vertigo, and to completely focus on not vomiting in the grass. 

He cursed at himself for being naive enough to believe that ugly salamander, of course this would happen. He always has to twist his word and bend the truth in some way. Not too much unlike Bill, but it was different when it was happening to him! He tried to open only one of his eyes, at least to get a better look at his surroundings, but the vertigo wasn't any better with one eye closed. He propped himself up with hands and fought with his stomach to stand on wobbly legs. He held out his hands for balance like a newborn deer. He only got a few steps away before his knees buckled under him and sent him crashing unceremoniously to the ground, landing on his knees harshly. The sudden drop was the final straw for his stomach and he doubled over, throwing up in the small clearing. He stumbled backwards off of knees to be fully sitting back down so he didn't land face first in it. 

There was absolutely no way this was happening. Was this some kind of sick prank? Did humans seriously live like this every day? This was disgusting. It felt completely different to possessing a human. There was a barrier then, an obvious distinction between the body and Bill. But now he could feel every automatic process his body maintained to keep itself alive. Every expansion of his lungs, every beat of his heart, the acid bubbling in his stomach. It was almost overwhelming. 

He thought about the Axolotl's words, “Gain forgiveness or cease to be…I wish you well in your new vessel.” He felt his puny heart jump in his chest. Ew. The sound of it filled his ears, it made him feel even more sick. He really did have no choice. He needed to find Sixer and get this over with or that was that for him. His heart picked up the pace at the thought, he grimaced at the feeling. He lay back down in the scratchy and hard ground. The heat of the sun was so warm. He felt exhausted and everything hurt so bad. He closed his eyes as his breathing slowed, wondering if he would ever be himself again before he passed out.

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CHANGES IVE MADE IN MY BNHA DR!!

Posting this for shits and giggles + if any other MHA shifters want ideas for things to script in/out to replace traumatic events (such as the wars) then here you are🙂‍↕️

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Oboro/Kurogiri:

After the training camp/Kamnio fight, and Kurogiri was taken into custody, with the help of Zula and Satoshi (my two support team OC’s I have scripted in as my aunt & uncle figures) along with other doctors who specifically specialize in quirk restoration, they were able to recover Oboro (as in he’s no longer Kurogiri, but Oboro, though he still has Kurogiri’s looks to an extent)

FC AND IDEA FOR THE CHANGE WAS BASED OFF THIS ARTIST ON TIKTOK: @mrqueertz.bv1

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The LOV (Aka Leauge of Losers):

My DR is very different than the canon arcs and stuff. A Lot Was taken out (wars, villains, ect)

One of this being the Leauge. In my dr, they’re nothing but a bunch of rebellious losers who think they’re cool😭

Tomura was still found by AFO, but instead of murdering his family, he just ran away with Spinner, his childhood best friend (who ran away because of quirk discrimination), and they were found by AFO who raised them because they were a package deal lmao. No grooming happened

—Toga just joined for fun, she is also childhood friends with Ochako and the two along with Spinner work to create a program that helps teach and help kids who were discriminated against for their quirk!! Her parents never shunned her for her quirk, instead, they helped her and brought her to therapy to control her urges, and now she’s trying to help kids with similar issues she had

-Touya never became Dabi, but he still heavily rebels and dislikes his dad lmao, he joined because he thought it’d put a bad name to his dad that his first son was in some “rebellious group” (the most they do is like spray paint walls lol)

-Compress, Mange and the others joined for similar reasons as Toga, plus they were intrigued by the group-all became one big found family

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The Wars + Replacements:

The wars are obviously scripted out, so in replacement, UA hosts school games. All of the best of the best hero training schools come together to compete in games, each course/assigned had its own assigned games!

[for example; the support courses have to make a suit to adapt to a quirk that represents each element they are given (fire, air, light, wind, ect). General studies have huge competitive jeopardy games based on topics they learned (like quirk history, history, heroes, ect). Hero department has big fight matches/games (such as dodgeball lol). Each course has a game, the school winner gets a trophy.]

The Games take place at the end of the year, so for our first year, during the First War timeline. And in replacement for the Second War (I believe it was like halfway through our second year?) we go to the training camps again lol

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UA/School Changes in general:

- the uniforms are different! Instead of their canon look, they were changed and have multiple options (example, boys and girls can wear each others uniforms, unisex versions, ect)

- UA has a school store where you can buy UA clothing, mugs, trinkets, ect. You can also make your own custom merch lol (pins, mugs, flags, clothes, ect). Students get it for free

- UA starts when you’re 16-17, rather than 15

- The classrooms are also set up differently. Instead of one set number of students, they can seat up to 30 people (like American schools) [this was made because I have lots of people scripted in and I want to be one big class lol] the classes also have big giant windows (because I’d feel stuffy and claustrophobic if they didn’t)

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The Hero Commission/HSPC:

While the HSPC isn’t perfect, it’s not as bad as it is in the canon.

Last Nagant never killed the Chairman. She realized that his ways were corrupt, and she soon left the HPSC. She was still a well known hero, but she stayed on the down low for a while as not to draw attention to her leaving. The Chairman was fired for it being revealed he was trying to corrupt Nagant, and Madam President became in charge.

She wasn’t really talked about again until it came up that I intern with her! She’s like an aunt/older sister figure to me lol I love her

Because of Kaina/Nagant’s leaving, the HPSC took in Hawks a while afterwards. Once he became a hero, Madam President was fired, again, for corrupt thinking, and was replaced by a new higher up in charge, her name is Reina Kokoro

She genuinely cares about society, and works to fix problems needed (like quirk discrimination, villains/general violence, ect)

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Thirteen Months:

In my DR there are 13 months instead of 12.

Every month has exactly 28 days, and 4

weeks. The first of every month is on a Monday and the twenty eighth is on a

Sunday. We line up with the moon cycle as well.

We still call them by “Jan, feb,” ect ect, but the names following below are their scientific name.

The months are:

Ysolis —— (January, [my birth month])

Florin —— (February)

Virael —— (March)

Solura —— (April)

Alerith —— (May)

Druun —— (June)

Lunaris —— (July)

Frostar —— (August)

Vireth —— (September)

Serith —— (October)

Gharon —— (November)

Thalir —— (December)

Emberis —— (“recap month”)

[CREDITS TO COLE FOR THIS IDEA :D]

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More questions!

For your GS!AU

i dont think Ive seen this mentioned anywhere but is there going to be a Casey Jones? And if so, how will the turtles have met him?

Are the Kraang going to be a big enemy in the series? Is Leatherhead going to exist?

Despite how serious Leo is, does he end up developing any hobbies that dont include training?

As of right now, Casey isn't present. I think he'll definitely have a place after I get through this first big phase of the story I have planned. Irma is currently the only other major human ally.

The Kraang are also something for the future. I have a big focus on Stockman right now. Shredder is also a huge threat, of course, but I've got a lot planned with Stockman. Other than IDW, I feel like they don't really let his character shine. I hope you guys will enjoy GS!Stockman as much as I do! Bro needs serious therapy.

A version of Leatherhead will exist.

Leo gets really into puzzles and card games. Please play UNO with him. It's his favorite.

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okay my job is Very blue collar, can you talk more about being told to go to a… doctor’s appointment???? for inappropriate workplace behavior? is this common? obv not saying you were actually inappropriate. but if someone was homophobic at your workplace, hr can tell them go to therapy??? like a tumblrina scorned???

yes well i can do my best! officially i can say all this now Technically but dont rb but if you are in the field im happy to speak to colleagues, i had a disciplinary action filed against me for privately correcting a coworker for using the wrong pronouns for a trans girl student. she is on the school board and she works closely with someone who lost a city council race in large part because she had worked with bethany christian services and was discredited. so of course i very innocently talked to our director about how im soooo worried about her possibly being radicalized by this issue on the school board--have you watched the news? no? are you not getting the ALA emails....? so i had a conversation with her about she pronouns, she screamed in front of patrons that nobody can tell her what she has to call them. she called our student a karen. i asked my director to handle this, specifically said if you ask me to handle this i will feel like its undue attention as a queer person in the workplace please have someone else do it. set up a process for pronoun stuff, i found him some training resources, the whole thing. his solution was to force me in a meeting with this person in which she said that pronouns quote reminded her of being enslaved. i was not allowed to leave, cried, made five or six on paper and recorded on video claims of quote homophobic retaliation. the other person filed a complaint against me which means she cant face any disciplinary response. officially my report on paper you can probably FOIA it says that the discipline was for using the word homophobic and transphobic. well actually my discipline was for rude behavior in that meeting plus saying the words homophobic and transphobic but they found in my hearing that i was appropriately apologetic for raising my voice and crying but that i refused to apologize for saying homophobic and transphobic (they didnt ask me to but obviously i would not have. so thats what my report says. a little birdie told me that in the hearing discussion the words quote religious freedom were tossed around. its unofficially prohibited to communicate about someones pronouns in the library until further notice and ive been told they will get a procedure on paper next year. as a consequence for my behavior (saying homophobic and transpobic i face mandatory counseling. can they do this - i think yes but i really think its a legal technicality that has never seemed a winnable fight to anyone. my understanding is that it is probably common. what i believe is typically the case is that employers will partner with something called an employee assistance program. the employee-facing component of these orgs is access to mental health services as a benefit (in the case of me, in lieu of healthcare benefits(. employers partner with these orgs to offer those employee-facing mental health services while contracting the company for other org psych/HR services. here is one of the big companies that does this, based in detroit, who i believe does this work with state of michigan employees (who i am not( - https://hmsanet.com/managed-behavioral-health.html the employer contracts this company to provide employee benefit limited mental health services and also uses their services for various disciplinary, mediation, crisis management, probably also consulting purposes. in my case, im being required to have a counseling session with a counselor through what is described by the company and my employer as a voluntary program, but i have been instructed that doing so is mandatory.

interestingly, in the past when ive worked with union members who got this disciplinary action, it was posed to them as they could choose to go to counseling or have a higher level disciplinary action. i was expecting this to happen to me, but i was not given the false option. mandatory referral through your employer are the words used. im required to sign a release of information allowing the counselor to disclose information about my participation and progress and it appears that this will likely be in the form of a checklist certifying my compliance. obviously what i would prefer is to create an even more complete paper trail of them doing homophobia on purpose so were considering the strategy...

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

HI

ive been ever so sneakily updating the playlist on yt, mostly for lucio my beloathed and im here to share

BUT ALSO i went to look at lucios official playlist to check for repeats and was appalled to find that it was like half comprised of julian songs istg. im kidding of course its subjective but still the bidding?? THE fucking Bidding???? THE most julianest song ive ever heard and its on Morgassons playlist. i simply cannot even with this.

and so to start this off im giving the floor to julian with the entirety of Tally Halls The Bidding! *polite applause*

I've been sleeping in a cardboard box, Spending every dollar at the liquor shop/ (yeah this ones obvious) And even though I know I haven't got a lot I'll try to give you lovin' til the day you drop/ 🥺🥺(wait i just remembered mc technically has dropped one time already on his watch but i suppose hes learned his lesson bhjzdljzg)

I've been training like a Pavlov dog, Let my independence out to take a hike/(😩😩🙄🥵😤😤🥺come ON this is the most julian line ever) All you're gonna have to do is ring my bell/ (ok confession time i edited this line because this is the first time im actually reading it and im sorry but it looks so wrong who tf says Activate my Bell what in the hell) And I'll fetch you anything you like/ (in summary: heeeere subbysubbysubbysubby)

Going once, going twice, Every man here has a price/ (i highkey Love this one so much in relation to the game in general because boY DO THEY fucking EVER have a PRICE THEY GOT ME CRAWLING BACK EVERY DAY GRINDING FOR THESE DAMN COINS) Over where? Over there, sold To not a single lady in here

I've been here like a thousand times, Dated every woman in the atmosphere. I've been to every continent, Broken all the hearts in every hemisphere/ (mmm yaass we love a well travelled king. also yeah i can see that other bit being accurate, he is a catch) And if I'm not the type of guy you like to circumvent, Just remember not to love me when I disappear/ (yeah that sounds like him alright)

I graduated at the top/ (Mmmm we LOVE a medical degree king slay) I like to take advantage of the bourgeoisie/ (maybe not exactly how it happened i mean he worked for him for the most part but i count it as a lucio reference lmao) So if you have a fantasy of being a queen, Maybe you should blow a couple bucks on me/😏😏

Going once, going twice! Won't these gentlemen suffice?/ (*brain animatic director voice* pan over to the rest of the lads standing at their respective game show-y podium stands; a somewhat disgruntled asra, lucio preening for anybody paying attention, muriel's left already) Any here? Any there? Any motions anywhere? Going twice, going thrice, Guess this means we'll go four times a lady

I promise I'll be all you'll need, ever need You'll never have to shop around (don't shop around) And I'll give you all you'll ever need, ever need, Don't worry I will never let you down, let you down- Don't worry I will never let you down/ (admittedly this doesn't sounds exactly like something he'd say, the insecure avoidant wretch of a boy kjbdfkjadf maybe a bit later, god knows hes trying bless his little heart)

So many ladies are wanting for mates, And the prospects are good but the date's never great- Over here, over there, over where? Anywhere! They're too busy with winning the bidding to care! And he's sold!/ (*film director voice* the gavel bangs one last time, the doctor & mc pushed into each others embrace laugh together before going in for a kiss; curtains fall; brain animatic over, credits roll kbhsrjkdgh)

Alright lets get the lucio show on the road number one: Central Cee Retail Therapy which ive been obsessively listening to basically every day now for some reason but also im skipping like half the song literally only because i genuinely could not understand wtf hes talking about in there lmao

Fly uptown when I'm feelin' down I wanna do retail therapy/ (only kind of therapy i can imagine him pursuing) Been with the gang all week I need some female energy/ (ok tbh i dont remember how it went with him and nadia before they got together but this line just has me picturing him in his soldier mercenary days, back home from whatever job, done with boys nights, lookin to get bizzayyy) Sucked my soul, I lost my breath She got me breathin' heavy, Toxic relationship with my queen But me and the T got chemistry/ (ok im just now learning T means trap house but imma pretend i didnt see that gjhfhkgk)

Told her that I'm a Gemini Now she on Google checkin' the compatibility, She wanna see if I got the agility She wanna see if I got the ability/ (this bit may be silly but the first time i heard this while thinking about lucio i just instantly went "omg itd be funny if hes actually a gemini and it fits" and i checked, hes not, of course hes capricorn lol (but also wasnt there that one time when they gave him two birthdays on accident jgxgnvgs that just makes this even more in character bear w me) and after i learned that i just instantly reasoned that, at least to me, him lying about his star sign to get with nadia totally sounds like something he would do xD im not sure i can see him putting in the effort of actually researching which sign is compatible with nadia, but i mean hey he wants to bag a whole princess hes got a lot riding on this he might as well memorise some charts dgkhgj/ ok update i did in fact google the compatibility for cancer/gemini and its utter shit😂😭 she actually supposedly is more compatible with his actual sign but also, like. come on. look at them. if any relationship can be used to prove that thats all kinda bullshit or bad writing for a game about all this astral stuff? its probably them lmao

I went 'round three, she want round four- she killin' me, ADHD, my trigger finger fidgety

Walk in- Walk-in wardrobe look like the stockroom - Mum said I'm materialistic/ (literally canonically them fr shes such a hater bmvxhkhx) When you're the boss, that shit will cost, I'm buying my mumzy a crib for Christmas I'm livin' a movie, but it ain't scripted/ (oh honey if you knew how scripted your life is) God is my witness, get out my business, Back in the day I had one pair of trainers I wore that shit 'til it gave me blisters/ (also pretty canonically accurate sentiment i reckon with the living in a hardcore arctic hunter tribe situation n whatnot)

numba tew: Panic at The Disco's Emperors new clothes~ the music video for this one kinda fits the vibe for his storyline too a little bit at least aesthetically lol

Welcome to the end of eras, Ice has melted back to life - Done my time and served my sentence, Dress me up and watch me die - If it feels good, tastes good, It muuuust be mine~ Dynasty decapitated, You just might see a ghost tonight/ (kinda could describe his debut as a ghoast (ghost goat?)?)

And if you don't know now you know

I'm taking back the crown/ I'm all dressed up and naked/ (naked ghoast ass mf) I see what's mine and take it (Finders keepers, losers weepers) oooOOOh yeeeah, the crown/ So close I can taste it, I see what's mine and take it (Finders keepers, losers weepers)/ (yeah this bit speaks for itself i think, pretty biblically accurate lucio characterisation)

Sycophants on velvet sofas, Lavish mansions, vintage wine~ I am so much more than royal/ (i mean. mister I Deserve Everything. cmon) Snatch your chain and mace your eyes/ (man i dont know something something devil deal chains😭)

If it feels good, tastes good, It must be mine/ Heroes always get remembered/ But you know legends never die/ (yeeesss YYYEEEEESSSS UGH the auDACITY)

number 3: Nick Lutsko's Sometimes!

Swinging for the fences, Hanging from the moon, I cut my tongue on the rust of a silver spoon, I bet my billionth bottom dollar on a hopeless case-/ (i like those two lines for him being a nepo baby theyre so nice and evocative) And now the devil on my shoulder has a knife to my face/ (obvious allusion is obviousing)

Racing toward the mailbox With a letter in your hand But the postman's gone away, and you begin to understand- That you're no hero to this story, You're just another wretched pawn, Who bought his tickets to the sideshow And then slept through the alarm/ (UGH this song is just good i dont even have anything to say about that little blond bitch anymore htkjyufh no theres something in there i swear. about him taking on this bigger than life endeavour to acquire all this unimaginable power and dealing literal demons and barely even taking it seriously sometimes and not realising how played hes getting)

Sometimes the short end of the stick is the sharpest/ Sometimes the only road to take is the darkest/ Sometimes all you gotta say is "mommy make it go away"/ Sometimes the only way out is as a carcass💀

Sometimes you gotta finish what you shouldn't have started/ Sometimes you gotta shoot before you see the target/ Sometimes mommy's gonna say, "You're not worth the price to pay" Sometimes the tunnel only leads to darkness/ (this is where im cornered into admitting i only associate this song with lucio cause of the mommy issues. yippee)

im not saying anything but if you havent heard these songs before theyre reeeally fun to listen to and worth checking out i prommy👀 i enjoyed thinking through this so much im not great at Lucio so the details might be iffy i hope it made any sense thank you bye goonight🥰🥰

@tetsuoooooooooo HII!

Ugh I can't begin to say how much fun it was to read all of this, thank you!!! I always love how you unpack the lyrics for different characters ^.^

I've just added all of your suggestions to the playlist and I'll put them on the tag too. (Istg I will never be able to listen to The Bidding the same way again, you've effectively Julian'ed it for me XD)

Cheers friend!

[solar-halos]

POV – something that’s already happened, retold from another character’s perspective

no (writing) excuses askbox game

first of all, thank you for this ask! <3 it was so fun esp since ive been playing around with this scene for a whileee

second of all, i got carried away! in my odesta longfic annie isn’t very happy about finnick wanting to be on the star squad so i chose to write the scene where he breaks the news to her in his pov. fair warning though this is so majorly long and at first i was only gonna include the last section but then i remembered nothing is ever that serious so here's like 3k words of angst + slight sprinkling of fluff at the beginning

with that being said, i feel like this one warrants some warnings: there's referenced non-con (for annie's capitol imprisonment specifically), hurt NO comfort (yet! there’s comfort in the longfic), and annie just overall isn't very fucking nice to finnick. so without further ado here it is under the cut

🤍 DO NOT DISTURB, PLEASE! 🤍

Finnick helps her tack the handmade sign up on their door. Since their fingers are laced together (they never intend on letting go, either), it takes a bit longer than expected. 

Finnick glances down at Annie, who is practically squirming out of her skin in excitement. The strap of her wedding dress falls down one shoulder. Her frizzy curls fluff up around her head like a wreath. 

“You’re so pretty, Annie.” He tucks a piece of hair behind her ear because he knows that’ll make her lean against his palm. He takes a moment to admire her, so kind and genuine and wonderful. Love and being loved by her feels surreal. Like the odds really are in his favor. 

Her eyes light up. He smiles.

“You’re pretty,” she insists, her hand inching toward his shoulder. He slouches a bit so she has an easier time hooking her arm around him in a hug. 

He takes this opportunity to sweep her off her feet, carrying her back inside. He’s rewarded with a giggle and a kiss on the cheek. 

“I love you,” says, sighing against his chest. Warmth courses through his veins. “We are so forever.”

And they call Finnick a poet. He ducks down to press a kiss to her hair.

Annie is love. Annie is life. Annie is forever. Permanent. 

“You and me,” Finnick agrees. “Forever.”

They seal the promise with another kiss.

———————

Finnick’s concentration problems are catching up to him. Maybe they never left him alone in the first place.

He’d been training in 13 ever since he managed to shed off that hospital gown, but they weren’t teaching him anything groundbreaking. So, when President Coin tells him that she’ll send him straight to the Capitol if he manages to pass a series of tests, it’s an offer he can’t refuse. 

It’s not like he’s being cocky about it. He knows what he’s getting into. In the arena, there was always one guaranteed survivor. If he goes out on the battlefield—if he finally takes down President Snow—there’s a very real possibility that none of them will come out alive. 

That won’t be a problem for him. Again, he’s not being cocky. He just knows his strengths. He’s already familiar with hand-to-hand combat—real hand-to-hand combat, the stuff that people in District 13 can’t really train for—and that’ll make him a real big asset to the team.

Anyway. What was he saying?

Oh, right. Concentration problems. Training, too.

He remembers that he has to wake up early the next morning, and he remembers which room he has to report to. He even remembers to set his alarm clock for the right time. But then Annie comes back from her therapy session, and he’s enveloping her in a hug, and suddenly it’s like he’s only capable of conjuring up Annie-related thoughts.

She falls asleep in his arms. He wakes up to the sound of her cussing out his loud fucking alarm clock. He takes a moment to admire her fiery, effortless passion, ‘cause she’ll curse at just about anything if it’s early enough. 

“Sorry, my love.” He kisses her cheek to pacify her. She melts back into the bed. “I have to train today.”

“No, you don’t,” she says, which is mildly confusing, but then it hits him:

He forgot. He forgot to tell her. Something heavy settles over his stomach as he rushes through his explanation, but he already knows she’s not happy with him. It’s written all over the crinkle in her brow, the frown on her face, the small crinkles over her nose.

“Stay with me for a few minutes,” she says, so he does. Of course he does. He’d light himself on fire to keep Annie warm. (She does not ask him to set himself on fire.)

A few minutes turns into half an hour. Finnick is starting to get antsy, because if he misses this first training session, then they might just drop him from the program, and then he’ll never get to Snow, and—

“Finnick.” Annie’s voice is hard. Unhappy. His stomach twists. “Are you training today, or not?”

“I have to, my love.”

My love. My love. My love. She’s his love, so he doesn’t ever want to make her unhappy, but he’s not doing a very good job. She huffs at him.

“No, you don’t. The whole point of District 13 is that we don’t have to do anything. If you want to train, just tell me that.”

Yeah, Finnick couldn’t just tell her that. She’s already so upset with him, so he should just stay put and wrap her up in his arms, but he can’t. He doesn’t want to, either, but don’t you dare fucking tell her that, because the only reason he wants to go at all is so that he can take down President Snow. Then, they’d be free to do whatever they want whenever they want. A moment of torture away from her is worth a lifetime of happiness in her presence.

Annie understands that. She understands that they need to take down Snow, and she wants to take down Snow, but she also hates the military industrial complex. And Finnick would hate it, too, under normal circumstances, but how else was he gonna fight for his freedom? The Capitol took a lot from him, but he couldn’t wait to show them just how proficient he was at turning the odds in his favor. In the country’s favor.

Annie is glaring at him. He decides to stand his ground.

“I want to train.”

She blinks at him. Wrong answer. He tries to backtrack, but the damage has already been done. 

“I’m going to visit Johanna today.” Then, before he can ask, she adds, “Alone. You can do whatever you want.”

The pit in his stomach is overwhelming. He never planned on attending every single session—just the ones he needed to. Like the ones about assembling a gun (the arena never had anything like that). He also shows up to schedule a time for his exam.

“I’m a bit nervous,” he tells Annie. She glances over at him before promptly returning to whatever she was drawing, almost like she’s making a point to ignore him.

Almost. He and Annie don’t ice each other out. It’s not their thing.

“Annie?” he repeats. He knows that she was upset with him for leaving, but they already talked it out, and she already said she forgave him. If they're not okay, then he understands, but he just wants to be on the same page. It'll make trying to fix things much easier. “Are we good?”

Sometimes, Annie ignores him when she’s working on a drawing, but it’s nothing personal. She ignores everything—even her own appetite—but she usually multitasks whenever she doodles. 

She looks at him. Finnick lets out a breath. “Do you want to play a card game?”

He thinks about repeating himself—he’s nervous, and he wants to know if they’re good—but he doesn’t want to risk upsetting her again. It’s not her fault that he’s putting his life at risk.

“Okay,” he says. She grins at him. He forces himself to grin back.

——————

“We need to talk about it,” he says, because they do.

She knows exactly what he’s referring to. It’s why she doesn’t answer him.

“Annie.” He sits right beside her. “I meant what I said. I’m not leaving you. The mission is still in the planning stages. We don’t even know which route we’re gonna take.”

She’s locked in on another drawing. He sighs. He can feel himself getting frustrated—he’s not leaving her, because he’s incapable of living without her—but getting snappish isn’t going to fix anything. Especially not with Annie. Her parents fought a lot, so he doesn’t want to risk setting her off. She’d never treat him that way—would never scream or throw anything at him—but she’s naturally very expressive, and that doesn’t bode very well for any of them when she gets angry.

She stares at him. He knows what she’s gonna say before she even opens her mouth. 

“Wanna play a card game?”

“Annie.”

“What?” she’s not yelling, exactly, but she’s being firm. Too firm, considering that all he wants to do is talk to her about something important. “Dr. Aurelius taught me how to play. It’s fun.”

“Can we talk about the mission?”

She makes a move to get up. He relents, even though he really, really shouldn’t, but he can’t stand the possibility of sleeping in separate beds tonight. 

“Never mind,” he says, placing a slow, gentle hand at her hip. He’s testing the waters. She dives straight into his arms. Thank goodness. “What’s the card game?”

“It’s a bit tricky at first,” she replies, reaching over to shuffle the deck. "But you're good at stuff like this. I think you’ll really like it, ‘cause there’s so much strategy in it.” 

Conversations about the mission were easy to avoid when they were still in the early stages of planning. The last time Finnick brought it up, Plutarch and Coin were still negotiating if they needed to add another member, but it’s an inescapable part of his life now. He gets the stamp, attends all the meetings, and introduces himself to everyone else on the team. They’re even calling themselves the Star Squad. 

They examine the holo splayed over the table, where everyone squints at a battlefield riddled with mutts and traps. It hits a little too close to home.

His gut twists. What’s he gonna tell Annie?

“Nothing,” Katniss answers, because apparently Finnick said that out loud. “That’s what my mother and sister will be hearing from me.”

Fair, but Annie isn’t his mom. Or his sister. She already forgave him for not telling her anything about the rebels, and he promised to tell her everything that he knows from now on, so he had to tell her about this. He had to, or else he’d make everything worse.

His mind is in overdrive throughout the entire meeting. Words usually came to him so easily, but things are different with Annie. He doesn’t love anyone or anything nearly as much as he loves her.

He decides to just play it by ear. The meeting already ran long, so he doesn’t want to keep her waiting. 

He steps inside their compartment. She was pacing around the room, but she stops dead in her tracks the moment he closes the door. She wrinkles her nose at him.

“I’m sorry.” He is. He’s sorry about a lot of things, actually, but maybe if they talk about it for a bit, everything will be okay. Annie loves him, so that’s already a huge source of comfort. “I’m sorry, Annie. The meeting ran long.”

He can’t tell if she’s giving him the silent treatment again—because that’s apparently something they do now—or if she’s just thinking of a response.

She frowns at him, obviously very unhappy, but they don’t have another choice. They don’t have time. If it took them this long to breach the subject, then that already means they’re in trouble.

“I don’t even care,” she lies, but Annie’s emotions have always been stamped so clearly across her face. And, right now, her face tells him that she cares a lot. “Let’s just go to bed.”

They can’t. They can’t. They can’t. He stands his ground, and she relents. He takes that as a good sign.

“District 13 is organizing a mission where we finally infiltrate the Capitol. And they’ve invited me to go.”

“Well, you’re not.”

It sounds final, they way she’s saying it. Finnick forces himself not to give in. He had to do this. He had to get to Snow. 

He stands his ground until she snaps at him. His heartbeat spikes.

“You goddamn fucking liar! You said you wouldn’t leave me again!”

He’s not. He never could, and he tries to explain that to her, but his mind goes absolutely blank. She’s never called him a liar before, but he supposes that’s the truth, isn’t it? He didn’t tell her about 13, but the Capitol captured her anyway, so she’s well within her rights to get upset with him. He just wishes she wouldn’t yell.

“You promised me you’d stay, but now you’re suddenly infiltrating the fucking Capitol?” she demands, which doesn’t sound right. “Did you make that decision before or after they locked me up?”

No. No, that doesn’t sound right at all, because that’s not what happened. He made that decision a long time ago, but whenever he’d try to tell her, she’d pretend that he wasn’t even talking to her. That hurt, but he didn’t address that concern with her—he’s not even addressing it with her now—because he knows that this must be hurting her harder.

Finnick can be cocky—even now, especially now—but he’s well aware of the risks. Nothing is ever guaranteed, and 13 is no exception. But if they both agree that they need to take Snow down, and if they both agree that Finnick dealt with the brunt of all his cruelty, then why aren’t they reaching the same conclusion? 

“So sorry, then, Finnick, that I’m not as important as your stupid fucking trident.” She’s angry with him. Finnick wracks his brain, trying to think of ways to coax her into liking him again, but nothing makes sense to him right now. Annie’s never yelled at him like that before, ever. “I bet the Capitol is gonna love seeing you with one again.”

“Don’t say that to me.” The implications of that don’t hurt. Finnick had thought a lot about that, too. The last time he had been so eager to prove himself to anyone was when he was enrolled at the Academy, desperate to show off his expertise at all the different stations. 

But this is different, both literally and fundamentally. And he knows that Annie knows that, so he doesn’t really appreciate being branded as a Capitol puppet.

“But it’s true,” she says, even though they both know it’s not, and Finnick doesn’t understand why she’s doing this to him.

He’s not an idiot. He knows that she’s worried about him leaving, just like how Mags left them, but he doesn’t like how she’s framing this like it’s a choice he’s making. Like he’s walking away from her. Like he’s engaging in something inconsequential for the sole purpose of hurting her. Like he doesn’t love her, when that’s the only thing in his life that he’s ever been sure of. 

Finnick doesn’t want to hurt her, but he understands that his intentions don’t match up with reality. He understands that she has the right to be angry with him. He understands that she’s upset about how secretive he was about the rebel plan, because their relationship was supposed to be built on a foundation of trust, so—

“Is that why I got captured, then?” she asks him, and she’s right, but she’s also not. The Capitol would have captured her no matter what, but he could have done more. He could have pushed Plutarch harder about rescuing her from Four. He could have encouraged 13 to execute their rescue plan a lot sooner. He could have neglected the rebellion entirely, because at least he’d know that Annie would be safe.

Finnick should have just done that. He got all in his head about how he wanted to be safe, too, but it’s not worth it to have Annie yelling at him right now. 

Moldy food. Capitol cells. Rape.

If it was hard to articulate his thoughts before, there’s no hope for him right now. He always knew what they were doing to Annie, even before she told him herself, but now that she’s not holding back—rape rape rape rape rape, just like how they raped you—he’s trying his best to just remain coherent. His memories in the Capitol were always so hard to suppress, but the thought of the same thing happening to her makes his body revolt against his mind.

Annie is always so sweet to him. Always used to remind him that nothing that happened in the arena or in the Capitol was ever his fault. But if she’s saying all this now—rape and pills and you let Mags die I stayed with you throughout everything never even thought about leaving you most miserable bitch I’ve ever met just fuck off and die already—

Fuck off and die? Isn’t that why they’re having an argument in the first place?

Finnick doesn’t know. There’s not enough oxygen circulating to his brain, and his heart is beating too hard to overcompensate for that, but it’s not like he can feel sorry for himself when Annie was in Capitol cells and Peacekeeper clutches and beatings and rape and all you did was sit here and wait for it all to be over, you fucking asshole.

“Stop pretending like you’ve ever cared about me!”

It’s the last thing he can remember her saying before they’re interrupted by a knock at the door. Maybe it’s someone complaining about the noise. It wouldn’t be the first time he and Annie received that sort of complaint, even though the circumstances back then were kinda different.

The thought of being separated from Annie still makes his stomach plunge to his toes. She’s saying a lot cruel things to him, yes, but it’s not like she actually means them, and it’s not like she doesn’t have a reason to be upset, and—

She grabs a marker. They both ignore the banging on the door, staring at each other instead, because what she does with that marker is going to predict the trajectory of their relationship. Her parents threw things at each other, yes, but they’re not her parents. He can overlook the yelling, but there are some things that he won’t even forgive Annie for, and this will be one of them.

She sets the marker down. The District 13 guards let themselves in. They start walking toward Finnick at first, but maybe they can sense that reality is very blurry for him right now, because they promptly ask Annie to remove herself from the room. She goes without a fight, but if there’s one thing about Annie Cresta, it’s that she has to have the last word. 

“I don’t know why I love you,” she says. “I don’t know why anyone would love you.”

The door closes. Finnick finally gives himself permission to melt onto the floor, curling his knees into his chest. 

I don’t know why anyone would love you. That makes two of them.

[rubyfa]

"Demigods live too little to have the wrong body".

Charlotte, the eldest of the children of Dionysus, smiles at her affectionately when Sena [the feminized ending of her dead name is a temporary nickname until she chooses something better] may be squeezing her hand too hard when Castor with trained accuracy inserts an IV needle into.

Accelerated hormone therapy, she is 13 and, of course, in the understanding of mortals, she is too young for her, but her gender dysphoria is too strong and, again, demigods live too little.

"It's going to be a weekly routine, Sena," Charlotte ran her fingers through her hair, straightened the ribbon in her hair.

They had grown out, the strands almost fell over her shoulders.

She cried when the new camper called her "Poseidon's daughter."

She looked like a short-haired girl and people who saw her for the first time immediately perceived her as a girl.

It was too good.

"Demigods live too little to have the wrong body", Mr. D told her when she told him who she was and burst into tears in front of him.

Thank you for this anon. Not exactly my vision of how it'd go but this is a beautiful little bit of poetry. I'd like to think Dionysus due to his nature would offer an herbal solution rather than a traditional medical sort of vibe but I enjoyed reading this and your new name for Percy is neat. :)

[nickibun]

January 31st, 2024

12:12 PM

Café on Fifth Ave

— ed log:

Jasmine Tea | 0 cal

Latte w/ Almond Milk | 130 cal

— usage + mood:

i’m feeling still today. granted, i took 1 mg of kpin and a bit of doc before bed last night, then a bit more this morning. also 10 mg of adderall to balance it out. thought i’d be able to make it to class this morning. obviously, i didn’t.

i’m sitting in a cafe sipping this latte trying to find the will power to sit in a classroom with my peers. my professor hasn’t seen me since two weeks ago. i keep telling myself im ok, and i truly think i am, but whenever someone asks i suddenly break down.

— daily log:

yesterday, i woke up next to 'A'. we rolled around in bed, and cuddled, and pillow talked. i really started to believe i could open up to her. we've been talking for about three months, on & off.

i am beginning to really like her. i introduced her to some of my friends the night prior. we went to a party and had a great time. sneaking off into corners, doing bumps of blow + making out was my favorite part. the stares we'd get were a close second.

we're both fashion students, but shes a bit older. ive been skeptical as to whether she really likes me at all, but that night seemed to confirm it.

once the party began to wind down, things got a bit strange. id rather not relive it so lets leave it at that. i told her i wanted to leave. so we did. hopped in a cab back to my friend's place, grabbed my tito's and went to mine.

we kissed and laughed in the cab. we took our clothes off and snuggled in my bed. once the energy was right, i lit candles and played the right music. ate her out for an hour until she came all over my sheets. her moans live in my mind.

we took a bath together, giddy yet calm conversation amongst candles in the dark.

"we complement each other well" she said.

as she dozed off while i caressed her back, i couldn't help but realize i might be falling.

i went to the bathroom to get high again.

the next morning, she wakes up around 8:30 am.

im already up, crying on the phone to my best friend about who knows what. as well as starting an argument with my friends from the party. my energy is heavy again.

'A' texts me from my bedroom, "did you sleep at all?"

i quickly rush out of the bathroom, my pupils pinned and eyelids heavy,

"of course dear, i got up early. i didn't mean to scare you."

she raises her arms out of the blanket, signaling me to give her a hug. she can see ive been crying. we laugh and pillow talk all morning. we talk lightheartedly about our trauma, childhoods, and she tells me she really likes getting to know me when i show vulnerability.

the juxtaposition of morning sun on our skin, what others would deem dark topics while we laughed and cuddled and kissed make it impossible to not love her. ive never felt more comfortable or genuine with a girl before. she sees me. i see her.

my soul feels light once again.

we get coffee, she leaves for therapy at 11:30, kisses me good bye. calls minutes later to see if she forgot something. comes back. as i open the door she says she had found it but came to kiss me again.

my heart is numb but if it could, i knew it'd be fluttering.

hours pass, we both have class. speak at five, with no demise. then at nine, i begin to whine. paranoia creeps in. theres nothing wrong, except that the days been too long.

"whatre ya doing?"

she doesnt respond.

"never mind then"

i call her, she declines.

"im on the train."

i check her location,

shes a few blocks from mine.

i check again;

she turns it off.

im getting high again. i call my best friend and cry again. my energy defaults, heavy once again.

[lnights]

Layla, first of all: I LOVE Pt 12 of your Soulmate AU sooooooo much 💞💞💞 I am soooo happy for Eevi that she got support from (at least) some part of her family. And I really like Liisa🫂. I kind of treat the AU like a whole series and each chapter like an episode🙈. So between “episode” 1 & 2 I made up my own version of the series in my head but wanted to wait till the “season” is over to share it because I didn’t want to risk influencing the story as it unfolds. I just love your storytelling too much😅 (also my version is way darker than yours because I am a sucker for Angst).

So, my brainworm is, that for whatever reason Aleksi didn’t tell the guys about Eevi and Liisa and also didn’t meet Eevi again (and therefore also never Lisa. Also Eevi is only 17 and a few months away from turning 18.). The girls go back home and a few weeks pass and somehow Eevis family finds out about her and Liisa before she is ready to tell them and shit hits the fan. They take away her phone and put her in some religious pray-the-g-away-camp. Because she is still a minor there is nothing Liisa can do and she doesn’t have Aleksi’s contact info. Thinking that he won’t believe her when she reaches out in social media, she takes the next train to Helsinki and begs the receptionist at the entrance to the studio to tell Aleksi she is here. The receptionist calls in the studio and whoever takes the call (its not Aleksi) is more than confused and tells the room that a Liisa wants to talk to Aleksi because someone named Eevi got found out by her parents and is now in danger. Aleksi understands and immediately races out of the studio (followed by the guys) to meet her and is shocked when she tells him what happened. The guys are of course not happy he didn’t tell them anything but are ready to help him safe Eevi. After getting Eevi out of the camp doesn’t work (they are threatened with the police if they should trespass) and also not talking sense into the family (they only scream at nonsense at them), Aleksi decides to make his story public. His reel on IV goes viral and the public is outraged that Eevi is held against her will at the camp. Eventually, the pressure on the camp gets too much and they release Eevi. For the last month until she turns 18 Aleksi gets custody of her and then she moves in with Liisa. Not sure what happens after or if her parents get punished for basically locking her up, but I do think she and Aleksi are doing a lot of interviews, maybe a doku about both their stories and are definitely becoming activists for same-sex rights✊🏳️‍🌈.

Hi Gemma!

I'm glad you enjoyed the fic! I absolutely love your idea for it

I do love me some angst too, ngl I did have an idea to make Eevi 17 and the threat of conversion camp being a major factor.

Apparently a couple years ago a motion was brought forward to Finnish Parliament to ban it, but it lapsed. (I think only 26 states here have it banned, plus DC and Puerto Rico. Some municipalities have banned it in other states as well, but then that's simply the matter of crossing from one city to another...)

In that version, which was actually my first draft, was that Eevi was going to run away and track Aleksi down at a BC concert and beg for help. They would help hide her until she turned 18 and her family legally couldn't send her, then she would confront them with Liisa at midsummer, and Aleksi would go with her for support.

I had the idea for assault tbh, Aleksi was going to get punched in the face by his dad and Tommi was going to retaliate. The family was going to call the police but Joel would point out that they have all the messages they sent Eevi telling her she was going to be sent to conversion therapy, as well as confirmation of their past abuse to Aleksi, and a recording of the fact Aleksi was hit first and Tommi was defending him (Joel was recording everything just in case something happened)

I almost kept that part in the current fic 😅

Niko pointing out their career would bounce back, even if they took a little hit or had to take a break for a year or two, but their family name would forever be tarnished with child abuse allegations. So they dropped it.

Liisa and Eevi would still have their happy ending and so would the BC boys.

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so in my university you can do this neat thing that lets you display your chosen name on the uni's internal channels like uni email, website profile, myuni app, anything as long as it isnt an official legal document like your graduation certificate. so. after four years and with merely one year left of uni (<- me when i lie and severely overestimate my ability to take one years worth of exams in three months) i am doing this thing right cause im going to therapy and learning that i do not have to hide and cower in shame and beg for peoples forgiveness just for existing, you know how it is. right.

so my uni's website is a black hole hostile to any kind of intelligent life form which means that the steps needed in order to Activate this thing are a total fucking mystery. so i ask the Uni** Trans Council and they tell me to go ask this one professor whos basically in charge of the whole thing, which is a pretty normal occurrence in my university bc my university is held together by a pack of toothpicks and a bestemmia. so i have no choice but to email the man and ask him to help me navigate the dark seas of bureaucracy.

(picard voice) now gentlefags. idk how many emails yall have sent in your lives but i have sent one too many emails to uni professors alright. i have trained reflexes. i open up a gmail tab and my fingers are already instinctively typing Gentile Professore. i have completely lost the ability to write an email that doesnt end in Ringraziandola Per La Cortese Attenzione Le Porgo Cordiali Saluti. but this is different. this is me, a humble idiot, going to this guys house and kneeling on his doorstep begging for help, so virtually not that different from what im usually emailing professors for, but this time i can actually CHOOSE. how i sign the email.

i have two options: i either have to sign my email with my deadname, or with my chosen name. not as easy as it sounds.

my deadname is the obvious professional option, bc it's the name thats displayed in my email, the name youll find on the university records, the name youll find on my id. im obviously sick to all hell and back of having to actually SPELL my birth name like write it down myself as opposed to having to hear it passively from all over, which is not as bad as youd think if you dissociate enough, but writing it? thats the ultimate humiliation isnt it? so obviously id want to avoid doing that, but theres also the added factor of sounding kinda stupid - hi, i want a different name displayed on my stuff, but im not gonna tell you that name! hehe :3

on the other hand, though, theres that part of me with the autocompleted signature in the back of my brain that stops me short of just fucking writing "sam" on the email like a normal person. perhaps it's the part of me that says "like the dog in i am legend" when the barista asks me to repeat my name for the third time at pedros (we dont have starbucks here so we had to make our own brand). in any case, i just cant help but perceiving my own chosen name, the one that i am LITERALLY formally asking to have displayed on my account, as something thats a tad too silly to reveal to Any Public Figure. which is ironic bc bestie clearly that therapy is Not working

and btw, no, there is no third option. bc its a formal email and my uni survival instincts would rather stop the nerves in my hands from working before they let me send an unsigned email (unprofessional! youre gonna fail every exam if you do <- REAL innegociable truth of the universe), so my only choice is to die as a hero and never graduate again (because this is OBVIOUSLY what would happen if i broke the unspoken rules of a professional email to a professor whos not even part of my course), or live as a clown and deadname myself (which im used to, cause i Am a clown).

anyway so this is the story of how ive been staring at the unsigned email on my puter for the past five hours. how have yall been doing

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Comprehensive Healthcare Services at Home in Dubai: Convenient, Reliable, and Accessible

In today's fast-paced world, convenience is key, and healthcare is no exception. Dubai residents are increasingly seeking at-home healthcare services to cater to their medical needs in the comfort of their own homes. From diagnostic tests to wellness treatments, the availability of home healthcare services in Dubai offers a range of benefits. Let’s explore some of the essential services that you can access at home in Dubai:

1. NIPT Test at Home in Dubai

The Non-Invasive Prenatal Test (NIPT) provides expectant mothers with a safe and reliable way to screen for certain genetic conditions in their unborn babies. You can now take this test at home, allowing for comfort and privacy during the process.

2. Chicken Pox Vaccine at Home in Dubai

Vaccination is an essential part of maintaining health, and the chickenpox vaccine is crucial for children and adults alike. Getting vaccinated at home is a great option for those who prefer a more comfortable setting.

3. Hangover IV Drip at Home in Dubai

After a night of indulgence, many people find that a Hangover IV Drip can help rehydrate and replenish electrolytes. This therapy can be delivered directly to your home, ensuring a quick and effective recovery.

4. Physiotherapy at Home in Dubai

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5. Pregnancy Test at Home in Dubai

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6. Home Care Nursing in Dubai

Home care nursing is an excellent option for patients who require ongoing medical care. Trained nurses provide everything from post-surgery care to chronic disease management, all within the comfort of your home.

7. DNA Test at Home in Dubai

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12. Full Body Checkup at Home in Dubai

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How to Become a Registered Nurse in IV Nursing

The role of a registered nurse (RN) specializing in intravenous (IV) nursing is both rewarding and essential in the healthcare field. IV nurses are responsible for administering medications, fluids, and blood products through intravenous lines, ensuring patients receive the care they need efficiently and safely. 

Get to Know the Role of an IV Nurse

Before diving into the career path, it’s essential to understand what IV nursing entails. IV nurses are experts in vascular access and intravenous therapy. They often work in hospitals, clinics, nursing homes, and even in home healthcare settings. Their duties include:

Inserting IV lines and maintaining them.

Administering medications and fluids intravenously.

Monitoring patients for adverse reactions.

Educating patients about their IV therapy.

The role demands precision, attention to detail, and excellent communication skills.

Meet the Educational Requirements

To pursue IV nursing, you first need to become a registered nurse. Here’s how to get started:

a. Earn a High School Diploma or Equivalent

A strong foundation in science and math is essential. Focus on subjects like biology, chemistry, and anatomy during high school to prepare for nursing programs.

b. Enroll in a Nursing Program

Choose between the following options to obtain your nursing education:

Associate Degree in Nursing (ADN): A 2-3 year program offered by community colleges.

Bachelor of Science in Nursing (BSN): A 4-year program that provides comprehensive training and better career opportunities.

Both ADN and BSN graduates are eligible to take the NCLEX-RN exam to become licensed RNs. However, a BSN is often preferred for advanced roles and specialties like IV nursing.

Pass the NCLEX-RN Exam

After completing your nursing education, you must pass the National Council Licensure Examination for Registered Nurses (NCLEX-RN) to become licensed. This exam tests your knowledge and skills to ensure you are prepared for the responsibilities.

Tips for Passing the NCLEX-RN:

Take practice exams to familiarize yourself with the format.

Focus on key topics like pharmacology and patient care.

Create a study schedule to cover all areas systematically.

 Gain Clinical Experience

Once you’re a licensed RN, gaining hands-on experience is crucial. Start working on how to become a registered nurse to build your skills and confidence. Many RNs gain initial experience in hospital settings, where they can learn the basics of patient care and IV therapy.

Look for opportunities to assist with IV insertions, monitor IV lines, and administer intravenous medications under the supervision of experienced nurses.

 Pursue IV Therapy Certification

To specialize in IV nursing, obtaining additional certification in intravenous therapy is highly recommended. Certification demonstrates your expertise and increases your job prospects in this field.

Common IV Therapy Certifications:

Certified Registered Nurse Infusion (CRNI): Offered by the Infusion Nurses Certification Corporation (INCC), this certification is highly regarded in the field.

IV Therapy Certification: Many nursing schools and healthcare organizations offer courses focused on IV therapy skills.

Benefits of IV Therapy Certification:

Enhanced career opportunities.

Recognition as an expert in IV nursing.

Improved patient care skills.

Explore Registered Nurse Jobs in IV Nursing

Once you have the necessary certification and experience, start applying for IV nursing roles. Many healthcare facilities specifically seek RNs with expertise in IV therapy.

Job Search Tips:

Use online job boards to find openings.

Network with other healthcare professionals to learn about job opportunities.

Highlight your IV therapy certification and experience on your resume.

Continue Your Professional Development

Healthcare is an ever-evolving field, and staying updated is vital. As an IV nurse, consider the following to enhance your career:

Attend workshops and conferences focused on infusion therapy.

Enroll in advanced nursing courses to expand your skills.

Join professional organizations like the Infusion Nurses Society (INS) to network and stay informed about industry trends.

Why Choose a Career in IV Nursing?

Becoming a registered nurse in IV nursing is a fulfilling career choice. It offers opportunities to make a significant impact on patient care while developing specialized skills. Additionally, the demand for RNs with IV therapy expertise continues to grow, ensuring job stability and advancement potential.

Final Thoughts

Follow the above steps to gain experience, and pursue certification to excel in this specialty. Whether you’re just starting your journey or looking for registered nurse jobs, the path to IV nursing is full of opportunities to grow and make a difference.

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Continuing education for nurses

Continuing education for nurses is essential for maintaining licensure, staying current with medical advancements, and enhancing professional skills. Here are some pathways and popular topics in nursing continuing education:

1. Types of Continuing Education Courses for Nurses

Clinical Skills Development: Advanced procedures, wound care, IV therapy, or phlebotomy.

Specialty Certification Preparation: Courses to specialize in areas like critical care (CCRN), oncology (OCN), pediatrics (CPN), or geriatrics (GERO-BC).

Evidence-Based Practice: Training on integrating research findings into clinical practice.

Leadership and Management: Courses on team management, conflict resolution, and organizational skills.

Patient Education: Techniques for teaching patients about health management and disease prevention.

Public Health: Topics like epidemiology, community health, and healthcare disparities.

2. Popular Topics

Infection Control: Updates on protocols and disease prevention (e.g., COVID-19, MRSA).

Pharmacology: New medications, drug interactions, and prescribing practices.

Mental Health Nursing: Managing anxiety, depression, and substance abuse in patients.

Telehealth Nursing: Best practices for virtual patient care.

Cultural Competence in Healthcare: Addressing diverse patient populations effectively.

Cardiovascular Health: Advanced cardiac life support (ACLS), EKG interpretation, and heart disease management.

3. Online Continuing Education Platforms

NursingCE: Offers state-specific continuing education courses.

Medscape: Free CE credits for nurses on a variety of topics.

RN.com: Focused on providing practical and evidence-based courses.

Relias: Courses tailored for healthcare professionals, including compliance and clinical topics.

CEUfast: Provides accredited courses and meets requirements for most states.