#ITS NOT THAT HARD!!! literally gonna scream

[trophykisser]

ii ep 18 spoilers // trophy rant meow

$h + su1c1d3 mention tw btw 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨🤑🤑

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GODGDMOFDSKOJSAIADUFASFUSAFDSIUFDASFSA

ITS TROPHY TROPHY ITS TROHPY PJASPSM YTROYPHY OTRPYRYROO I LOVE HIM SO MUCH IM ACRUTUALLY CRYING I DONT GIVE A SINGLE SHIT ABOUT OBJECT SHOWS ANYMORE I DIDNT CARE OR LISTEN TO ANYTHING DURING THE EPISODE BUT IM IN SO MUCH TEARS ITS TROPHY HOY LSJIT I ONLY CARED FOR HIM I KEPT CHECKING THE TIME OF THE VID WONDERIJNG WHEN HES GONNA SHOW UP IM GONNA VOMIT I LOVE HIM SO MUCHJF IM CRYIJNG SO HAR YOU GUYS DONT GET HIM LIKE I DO YOU GUYS WILL NEVER GET IHM LIKE I DO OH JYM GODJODJFDSJDIASIFSDJFDSIADSAFDSA

im gonna cry im gonna cry LOOKJ AT HIM HES TJE ONLY THING KEEPING ME ALIVE STILL FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS YOU GUYS WILL ENVER GET HIM LEIK I DO IVE DONE RITUALS FOR HIM IVE DRAWN HIM ON MY WALLS IVE C4RVED HIM INTO MY SKIN YOU GUYS DONT UNDERSTAND HIM LIKE I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU NEVER WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111 HES LITERALLY ME HOYL JISJTITJIAJDSIJAISJFSAD SMY HUSBAND THIS IS MY BOYFRIEND MY HUSBAND I LOVE HIM SO MUCHFJ HES THE ONLY REASON IM ALIVE STILL YOU FUCKERS WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOYL SJISJISJFS IM SCREAMIJNG IM PISSING IM VOMITING IM CRYING MY STOMACH HURTS SO BAD OH MY JGODJD

HES SO PRETTY SO CUTE SO HANDSOME HES SO AMAZIJNG I LOVEHIM SO MUCHFJ MY BABY MY PREICOUS LITTLEJ BAJBY HES SO SKRUNRKYL I WANT TO EAT HIM ALIVJE AND KEEP HIM SAFE FOREVJERJE HES A APRT OF MY SOUL I AM MARRIED TO HIM ITS CANON ITS OFFICIJAFKAALFA ILOVE HIM J SO MCUFH LOOK AT HIM LOOK AT HIM HES SO PRECIOUS SO AMAIZJNG SO HANDSOME SO AWESOME SO COOL I LOVEJ HIM TEHERJS TEARS AND SNOT STREAMIJNG DOWN MY FACE IM GOING INSAJEN OVER HIM OH MY GJODJFDFD

im actually gonna throw up my stomach hurst sso mcuhfhfj TORPHJYHYFKSKJDSIDASIDDSIFDS

I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY

YOU GUYS WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HIM LIKE I UNDERSTAND IHM OKAY IF YOU TOLD ME RN THAT IF I DIED THERED BE A 0.1 MILICHANCE THAT ID MEET HIM IN THE AFTERLIFE ID KEMS ON THE SPOT NO HESTIATJTAON IM SO DESPRAETJE I LOE HIM SO MCUHFJ MY HEART HURTS SO FUCKIDJNG MUCH OH MY GJOD

OH MY GOD

HOY MGOD

OH MY JGODGA

I LOVE TROPHY SO MUHCJFJFJCFJK HIS CHARACTER IS SO INTERESTING HES THE BEST CHARACTER IN II TRUSJT ME I KNOW I CAN TELLEJ

im crying

im cirjtnrgi os hardf

I LOVE HIJ MS SCUSJDJDSJDSDJSDJSFKJKSDJS

i cant believe this is gen the end

trophy has gen be the only distraction ive ever had in my whole entire life id actually be de4d 2 years ago if it wasnt for watching ii and seeing him im so serious rn i love ihm so muchfj oh my gjod im actually gonna scream i find him so relatable in a way like i feel conntected to him on all levels im going to scratch my brains out oh my gjod my head hurts so bad from this ep i screamed when he spoke i have both butterflies and vomit swimming around in my stomach rn im gonna throw up im seo nasoeusifs oh ym gjodfd im cryijgn so hard

UUgghhNGHHGJGuUUUHH

[soliddaddy96]

me choosing the most weirdest thing youve heard to pour 1/2 of my life into

[boxwinebaddie]

hi uncle neen! in honor of freckle kyle becoming canon, does jers have freckles? <3

yES!!!!! YES HE DOES!!!!

YES!!!! HE!!! DOOOOOOES!!!!

hooooooly shit, oh My GOD, i am so sorry for being FERAL, you guys, but when i tell you that i have been WAITING FOR THIS QUESTION!

because jerseykyle does not just 'have freckles'.

obviously, everyone's kyle is different and i think a lot of people hc kyle having a nice light smattering over his nose, some light ones on his cheeks, neck and shoulders, which, again, i think is so lovely, i love when kyle has freckles, i think that is a perfect hc, tbh.

bUT JERSEYKYLE??????

JERSEYKYLE HAS FRECKLES.

for days and weeks and months and YEARS!!!!!!

anyways, follow me under the cut if you want my yelling.

okay, so, i wasn't sure how to explain this, but if we don't know, my embarrassing uncle nina lore is that in mid-highschool i used to tumblr rpg often which required the use of faceclaims or irl actors and models so i actually have...a surprising depth and wealth of knowledge when it comes specifically to models/supermodels so...

this is cintia dicker. X / X / X

( yes she is beautiful )

JERSEYKYLE HAS CINTIA DICKER FRECKLES.

like aaaaaalll OVER his damn face. like jersey be dominating boys in the bedroom, but those freckles be DOMINATING HIS FACE, BABY! like light ones, dark ones, idk, but they are fucking everywhere, all over his face, his neck, his arms, his legs, his chest,

EVERYWHERE.

which...Whew. he is sooooo pretty. it is seriously striking like he looks like pale pink sky with a blizzard of amber sparkles on his face. it's so wonderful, like jersey kyle please model for VOGUE. he is that bitch, he is freckly as damn hell, there are HUNDREDS, possibly thousands.

i might be exaggerating...

BUT I NEED YOU TO KNOW HES FRECKLY AS FUCK.

which...he was very embarrassed about for a long time. to this day, it is a large point of insecurity for him bc he feels really weird about them and considered using foundation to cover them up because of how strange and messy he thinks they make his face look because of the way society used to treat them, like they made his face look dirty or imperfect or ugly and AAAAAA OKAY!

so throwback ( as in i want to throw that man off a cliff and run over him several times w/ the barbie jeep i don't know how to drive ) when rm cartman said jers looked like he was 'speckled with shit'. :(((

it made kyle morbidly depressed/insecure to the point where he wanted to rip the skin off his face, but then stan told him that his mom said 'freckles are places where you've been kissed by the sun' and that ky must be 'the sun's favorite' bc he's been kissed so many times and he's trying to catch up…

WHEN I TELL U HE SWOOONED.

ravenstanley marsh, ceo of simping for freckly boys.

speaking of, so one time, i think they were watching a movie and stan was, uh, not watching the movie, he was literally watching jerseykyle. and kyle was like "what are you doing, dummy? is there something on my face?" and ironically stan shook his head and said "yeah, but they're fine where they are..." then trailed off in thought, still intently staring at kyle with Extreme Laser Focus.

and normally, kyle is used to people staring at him, y'know, bc he's fine as hell and really tall, that doesn't really phase him, but ravenstan staring at him makes him SUPER nervous, awkward and flustered, so he's like -anxious laugh- "seriously, dude, what are you do—“ and stan's like "shh" ( in a not condescending, loving way )

"i'm trying to count."

jerseykyle furrows his lovely auburn brow, trying to figure out what he's talking about, realizes what's going on, but still literally in shock, laughs again, because he thinks stan must be joking and goes "oh my gahd, are tryna count my freckles? stan's literally imposs--" and stan shushes again him in a gentle manner and is like "shh, i need to focus. quit distracting me, you're gonna make me lose my place."

literally on his face, counting kyle's, i shit you not, probably over 100 freckles, which i think is soooo fucking CUTE of him because he's literally swimming against the deadly current of his adhd, forcing everything in his constantly fidgeting body to focus so that he can keep count. it's a truly beautiful thing watching r.s.' brain whir and his pretty blue eyes narrow and widen, counting softly under his breath.

ravenstan does, unfortunately, find he can't count them all because like jersey said, it is a pretty damn near impossible task...that did NOT however, stop him from trying multiple times, the last time though, he didn't actually lose count, kyle just kissed the FUCK out of him because it was literally the loveliest thing he'd ever seen.

he did possibly get laid for that, i'm sorry.

but yeah FRECKLE SUPREMACY KYLE AND SPECIFICALLY JERS. that man has so many freckles that his body looks like the night sky on a perfectly clear day, it is...beautiful. it is a work of damn ART.

anyways...i'm done now.

do we see the vision ( of loveliness )

that is jew jersey kyle matthew BROFRECKLOVSKI????

-uncle nina, feral about extremely freckly jersey

p.s. ravenstan, as a man of justice for all and fairness, basically loves all of kyle's one hundred thousand million freckles equally but there is a darker one that is just above the right curve of his lip...THAT IS HIS FAVORITE FRECKLE, I AM SO SORRY IT IS THE EQUIVALENT OF THE RAVENSTAN RIGHT UNDER EYE BEAUTY MARK BUT FOR STAN LIKE HE IS FEEEERAL ABOUT IT. he does...give it a special kiss often...very gay of him. his second favorite freckle is...

anyways!

Next Question. <3

[kyunsies]

i want to add a dreamcatcher song to my fav tt's of all time gif series but the problem is I LITERALLY CANNOT CHOOSE ONE

[shooks-stupid-stuff]

it's time to be annoying about masumii and takoshi again :]]]]]]]]

only this time, it's au versions (the base concept is what if they swapped places, but in like a masumii was born to takoshi's parents and takoshi was born to masumii's parents so they had the other's lives and genetics and yada yada you get the point way-)

so here, shitty pen doodles (which are inaccurate actually bc i decided to make masumii's turtleneck sleeveless like she usually has)

more art (from aggies)/inane ramblings under the cut, bc there is A Good Amount and i don't want this post to take up too much space xjdhdjdk-

ok so takoshi first (ft a knife pika drew hurtling towards him which inspired the 2nd doodle fjcnck) and like. this is just takoshi if he had enough time to cope with his trauma and stop relying on his masking tendencies constantly, and therefore he is just A Little Guy. A Little Goober, if you will. silly and goofy and kinda pathetic but very well meaning and kind. i like him :]

...he is still very depressed though don't be fooled, the trauma is Not As Bad Anymore but it still affects him deeply.

and now masumii (ft. a bunch of Little Guys drawn by pika) (i didn't feel like drawing her suit jacket also) who is Significantly More Depressed. unlike takoshi she doesn't even try to pretend she has any light left in her eyes, girl is dead inside and dead serious about everything. also unlike takoshi, she's incredibly competent at running a business, you love to see a girlboss win

the interesting part about this au is that, since takoshi and masumii have what i have begun to refer to in my head as "genderlocked trauma", by switching places they kinda avoid the worst of it (and while i definitely could have just changed stuff slightly to make it still work like in the boy masumii/girl takoshi au that i ALSO have solely bc they would have a very comedic height difference, that kinda feels like it would be cheating in this au and also is boring bc i've already done it-)

emphasis on kinda.

because that doesn't mean they can't have DIFFERENT trauma-

overall though, in broad strokes bc i don't wanna get into the trigger-warning hell that is their backstories, takoshi still has his masking tendencies and struggles with doing things that aren't in line with other's perception of him, even if it's not what he wants to do or how he wants to act (this is where the whole flirty fuckboy act comes from) and masumii still has her general disdain for, well. flirty fuckboys, as well as her general abrasiveness towards people she has a bad impression of (and people in general, though normally she does conceal that one (albeit normal masumii does a better job of this)) and she is still incredibly sensitive about people touching or even seeing her neck, which do still have horrible scars(?) on it in this iteration (i'm not 100% sure scars are the right term but idk what is so)

the most interesting part to me though is how this au changes the way their deep rooted self hatred manifests. for takoshi, he really does hate himself, but he knows that all he does by punishing himself is hurt the people who he cares about, and who care about him in turn. and so even though that is something that just makes him more miserable, which he feels he deserves, he's the kind of person who is willing to do ANYTHING to ensure his loved ones are happy, so... he tries to treat himself kindly, and to let himself be happy even if he feels he doesn't deserve it, for their sake. this contrasts regular takoshi, who has absolutely no one to lean on for support, and has a self hatred so deep that he's on the brink of quite literally losing himself since he is pretending to be someone he isn't literally anytime he's around another person. which is like 95% of the time since he almost always has a girlfriend. he doesn't think he deserves anything, and that since people don't want the real him from him, he should just disappear. it's bleak, he's in a really bad place .

masumii, on the other hand, also really hates herself, but she actively takes it out on herself because she thinks she's a good for nothing disgusting hypocrite who deserves everything she gets. she hardly lets others get close enough to help, both because she feels she doesn't deserve it and also because she's incredibly wary about opening up or being vulnerable. and when she does start to enjoy being around someone, she does all she can to deny and suppress those feelings, because in her mind she doesn't deserve to be happy, and no one would want to be near her if they knew the truth (this is something that takoshi also feels, though to a lesser degree than masumii). this is actually pretty similar to regular masumii, with the main difference being WHAT trauma has brought on those specific feelings and responses. regular masumii has also had a lot more time to process said trauma, but (unlike this au's takoshi) has been unable to raise her opinion of herself at all, simply getting better at hiding it rather than actually healing and slowly starting to get over it (that said, regular masumii is at the very least a bit better about her self hatred than this au's masumii; it's still there and strong, but she can force it down and ignore it atleast partially if need be).

yeah i just. i love these guys so much, they're both such horribly broken people but they're able to find love and joy in each other and help each other heal and man that's just so fucking beautiful. it's not like things get better immediately, it still takes time (hell, corporate hell masumii and takoshi who have been together like 60+ years are STILL struggling with their trauma, and they're comedic relief characters-) but they're able to help each other make it through each day, one at a time, and learning to love themselves in the process.

i fucking love these two terrible straight people, thank you for coming to my ted talk

[howtotrainyouragents]

Channeling all my extrovertedness into my DnD character

[hecksupremechips]

My ass was trying so hard not to jump up and down with glee playing yttd with my sister and getting to the shin reveal I was like MY GUY MY FUNNY LAD MY SILLY RABBIT

[tortoise-teapot]

this tiny mortified storyboard solas is my favorite one i've ever drawn

[rubiesintherough]

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[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

Local girl has to. Go to school. And can only be comfy again at 4pm. Millions injured thousands dead

[todayisafridaynight]

DID YOU MISS THE EXAM... Either way I can believe in that superstition for a sec I'm so sorry 😭😭😭

NONO I TOOK IT. BARELY. I BARELY TOOK IT. I JUST THOUGHT CLASS WAS GOING TO BE NORMAL BUT NOPE <3<3<3

[sinfulforrest]

gehhh I can feel my brain starting to turn pretty fucky wucky and I would really prefer to not have that happen again cause it was really bad last timeee

[poppurini]

Hi-ya! Sorry in advance for suddenly barging into your personal blog, (I haven't the foggiest notion how tumblr works, help me- ) (Truth is, I am socially awkward worrywart when it comes to socials, so i can't help but give a tinker's damn of how i sound like through speech-so-I SWEAR I AM NOT SOME KINDA CREEP OR SICKO LURKING INTO YOUR ACCOUNT JAKSJQK) Ok after this unuseful twaddle -shooting from the hip-the reason I wrote to you..sooo...I made a tiny eensy-weensy doodle of Lilia (sorry to break it to you- it's not some majestic drawing unfortunately) and...I thought I would show you as a token of appreciation for being the biggest Lilia simp I've ever known🫡 and also I LOVE YOUR CONTENT💋 *faint distinct sound of crowd cheering in the background* ANYHOW here's my homage to you :> (i know its not much but hope you'll like it, im not tryna be an arse-kisser help please)

PLEASE DON’T EVER APOLOGISE FOR SENDING IN ASKS I’M LITERALLY ABOUT TO PASS OUT RIGHT NOW ????????

AUGURHEURHEUSHEIAHEUER DYK THE MOMENT I GOT THIS ASK I WAS JUMPING AROUND IN MY ROOM GIGGLING AND TWIRLING MY HAIR STFU THIS IS SO SWEET I’M GONNA CRY 🥹🤍

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU !!! i love receiving interactions sm and to have u share me a doodle of lilia bcos my world literally revolves around him IS OFD SF FUNTNY TO ME BUT ALSOS SO SI CUTE ????? LIKE YES I AM THE BIGGEST LILIA KISSER EVER 🎪🎪🤹🤹🎢🎢🎠🎠

aLSO YOU TAKE THAT BACK RIGHT NOW WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT YOUR LILIA DOODLE’S LITERALLY SO CUTE I SMILE LIKE AN IDIOT WHENEVER I GO INTO MY INBOX BECAUSE HE’S THERE POSING LIKE THE MOST UNSERIOUS PERSON THAT HE IS (AND I LOVE HIM FOR THAT) i’m gonna give u the biggest hug ever TAKE COVER

[delicatepoets]

work song by hozier

[kashmirichaiwithmehr]

trend this trend that..... how about a trend where u stfu and look up at the sky in wonder once in a while

[skenpiel]

pretty much dooming myself by posting this, especially on main, but. grits teeth i will so not fucking fall in love with a homestuck character ive never cared about before.