#IS THIS ABT HOW I AM CURRENTLY FEELING BC I REFUSE TO TALK ABT IT?

[mlmxreader]

Love Me a Little Louder | Eddie Brock/Venom x gn!reader

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↳ ❝ Eddie Brock /Venom x Reader -> "I didn't kill him! Gravity did that for me" ❞

: ̗̀➛ Whilst Venom is not great at understanding human emotions, Eddie manages to pick up on yours with ease, and somehow has the ability to get Venom in on it when he realises you need a bit of extra love.

trigger warnings: ̗̀➛ swearing, smoking

↳ word count: 1000

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It was late, and for what reason you could not explain or even think of, none of your friends were speaking to you; all the texts you had sent, and you had gotten nothing back from them, so you ended up putting your phone on silent and plugging in your earphones.

You went to your music app, and turned the shuffle button on for Enter Shikari, hoping that maybe some music would help you feel a little better - although it didn’t, even after about half of their discography, you ended up going to the kitchen and lighting up a cigarette as you sighed heavily and decided to give up for the time being.

There was no point, they probably all had someone better to talk to anyway. You didn’t matter that much. Not to anyone, not really. 

You didn’t even notice the door open, or the fact that Eddie had made his way to standing right behind you until it was too late; a soft kiss to the temple and a pair of thick fingers plucked one of your earphones out as he smiled. What the fuck was he so chirpy about?

“Oh, it’s you…”

Eddie frowned, furrowing his brows as he tilted his head to the side. A little more hurt than anything else. “Everything alright?”

You shrugged, taking out the other earphone and handing them to him as you sat up on the counter and sighed heavily. “Doesn’t matter, not really.”

It clicked for him immediately. It was one of those days, and he understood probably better than anyone else in the world what it was like; so he sat up on the counter next to you, his hand coming to rest on your thigh as he hummed softly and cleared his throat.

Silently telling both himself and Venom that they needed to love you a little bit louder; they needed to tell you that they cared and that they wanted you around - they loved you a lot, and they did genuinely want to spend time with you no matter how shit a day they might have had to begin with.

With a little bit of extra dramatics, Eddie cleared his throat, allowing Venom to ooze from his fingertips as they both turned every ounce of attention on you.

“Y’know, we love you,” Eddie started, “and we love being around you. Right, V?”

Venom nodded, his small head looked like a glob of ink in the dim kitchen lighting. “You are our favourite.”

You scoffed, shaking your head. “Thanks, but I don’t need the pity party right now…”

“Not a pity party,” Venom insisted. “We love you.”

Eddie nodded in agreement. “In fact, we’ve done nothing but think about you today.”

“Even when Eddie killed a guy!” Venom chirped.

“I didn’t kill him! Gravity did that for me!” Eddie defended with a huff. “You know I get flighty around heights!”

Venom looked at him, and although he did not have pupils or eyelids, it was clear that the look was a bit more than disbelief. “Hmm. But you…” Venom got in your face, staring you down. “We love you. You are a good one.”

Eddie slumped his shoulders as he smiled and nudged you gently. “You’ll always be our favourite person, y’know.”

“Always,” Venom agreed. “We will always give you our favourite chocolate.”

Gently, you reached out to pat Venom’s slick head as you sighed and dared to smile a little. “Thanks, but… I think I just need to go to bed.”

Eddie frowned as he nodded slowly, letting you go as Venom sunk back into his hand; he wasn’t really sure what else he could do, in all honesty, as he wasn’t exactly in the right financial bracket to buy you fancy gifts and get you a late night reservation to any of the restaurants you liked.

So, for a moment, he sat completely still and thought hard about what to do next; Venom said that they should go out and get some chocolates and maybe also rent a DVD of that cannibal film he liked.

But all the shops were closed, and there was no way the DVD rental was open either; maybe you did just need some space and to go to bed, but from the way you had spoken to him, Eddie didn’t want to leave you on your own.

He heard the bed creak after a while, so he got up, trudging up the stairs whilst Venom went on about the cannibal film; he paused to shrug his jacket off and to shed his shirt before he dropped his jeans and got into the bed beside you.

It was then that Venom split from him, only connected by gooey black tendrils, Venom nudged you between his body and Eddie’s so that you were sandwiched between them.

With Venom at your back, he laid a clawed hand on your thigh whilst Eddie laid his hand on your face and dared to smile at you; they would always follow where you went, and they hoped that you knew that. 

“Do you want the moon?” Eddie whispered softly. “Because if you do, then I’ll go outside now, and me and V will grab it and pull it down.”

You shook your head, sniffling a little. “I just… I dunno.”

“That’s fine, too,” Eddie told you with a curt nod.

“Whatever you want,” Venom purred from behind you, his voice a low thunder. “We will give.”

“How about,” Eddie mused. “Just for tonight, me and V love you a little louder than we usually do? Would that be okay?”

“We will scream our love for you from the rooftops!” Venom declared almost a little too loudly.

You met Eddie’s gaze, pressing yourself into Venom’s body a little more as you nodded in agreement and dared to smile a little at last. “Actually… that would be really appreciated. But just… no pity, please?”

“Never,” Eddie promised with a soft whisper.

“Never,” Venom murmured roughly, patting your thigh. “Ever.”

Thank you for reading this, I hope you enjoyed it! But if I may, I would like to direct your attention to Hani; Hani is a 23 year old from Gaza who needs help getting family out in order to survive the genocide. If you could maybe spare £1, then it would truly go a really long way into helping to get this family out and to help them survive - it doesn't have to be a huge amount of money, but please, if you have any to spare, please consider sending it to Hani.

[loquarocoeur]

Maybe I’m the only one here like, I would love the proposal fic and I can’t wait for it, but sometimes you say it like it’s some form of finality to the yours verse, so I was so so happy that you decided on “more character development”, there’s never enough of the yours verse I can get, never be enoUGH~~~~~

There’s still so much kinks they could discover within each other! And so much more sweet and tenderness! Thank you for all the comfort the yours verse has brought me 😘

Okay listen I'm so sorry that I'm going to be using your completely lovely and innocent ask specifically to explain what's going on in my head, so this isn't just directed at you (i love you and i agree with you tysm) so don't freak out this is for everyone not you but YES okay:

So you're not wrong, it is a kind of finality to me.

Like obviously I know it's not that serious and I can just add in things before the proposal fic as I choose, I intentionally said that the fics aren't chronological for this kind of situation, but it still just feels a little.. set in stone you know?

Like there's so much more I want to explore about them, I feel like I don't even fully know them yet so how the hell am I meant to know where they would propose and how and what they would say and just what??

Because you know I'll be honest I currently have no intention about writing about a wedding (just personally kind of hate weddings sorry) or about married life or about kids for that matter, in terms of a timeline, the proposal probably would be the end of the yours verse for the forseeable future

So now how do I do them justice without even entirely knowing who they are yet???

There's just so much more about them that I could potentially explore and obviously I could just do the proposal thing and then add other things earlier into the series, but it also just feels kind of wrong and backwards

Like what if I discover something about them that I want to add into the proposal but now I can't because I already wrote the proposal? Or I want to add a new elemwnt to their relationship, but I can't because I already wrote the proposal one way, idk if you know what I mean bur whatever you get the point

Idk, it just feels like something very set in stone and very final which is a bit silly but I'm also just a little too attached to these characters that I've turned them into, they deserve more than me just writing the proposal now because I think I should

So yeah this is what I mean when I say I'm having a really hard time with the proposal fic and I'm actually really regretting saying that I'll write one bcs I kind of feel like I have to now? I have no idea what was going through my head, like I did put myself in this position of expectation all on my own and I know myself well enough to know that never ends well and that's why I try not to talk about my wips too much but alright I'll admit it I was stupid and I did it anyway and I fucked up

The thing is just of course I want to write it, but I feel like now there's people who are asking for and wanting it and they want it soon and I neither want to write it quicker just because I'm being asked to nor do I want to refuse to write it out of spite just because I feel pressured and annoyed about it

I do want to write it, I'm just not sure I'm ready yet? And I really don't want to make decisions abt what I write based on the readers, I want to make those decisions based on what I want you know?

Okay, I'm so sorry for babbling at your innocent anon ask like pls believe me when I say the tone in this explanation is not meant to be accusatory or rude or anything and it's definitely not directed at you personally, this is just an explanation directed at everyone who cares about the proposa and I'm just slightly panicking and trying to explain myself to people here and also reluctantly admitting that asking for the proposal fic does nothing but freak me out and also slightly annoy me, like seriously with all my love, I appreciate it and I feel bad saying it, but asking for it really doesn't help, I'm so sorry<33

[fappellmoan]

great glad i could be part of the problem for once. let’s wrap it up gang. in all reality i refuse to do a full rant and waste my time on such a stupid fucking issue but like i am tired. is anyone else tired. i and the people you’re pretty directly talking to (online lesbians, unless i’m really misunderstanding the target audience here, but regardless now i am just gonna rant abt the current online culture lmfao) never said u should be ashamed. i’m sure there are assholes u run into that try to gatekeep pride (maybe? lmfao but seems less and less likely given the majority of the community is bi) but can we talk abt how online bisexuals have created this idea that gay people (and again it’s usually lesbians that bear the brunt of these accusations) are like oppressing them when they engage with their hetero attraction (don’t start with me. i am not saying what some people are dying to say i am and it’s a stupid pedantic argument) when that simply isn’t the case. yeah your dyke friends might be honest with you if your boyfriend is acting like an asshole but that doesn’t mean we think your attraction to men is like aw no invalid yucky gross. and if a young lesbian is saying that stuff like i’m sorry but it’s probably on account of she’s like 15 and trying to work past years of comphet and that’s not about you. and more often than not. as in roughly 100% of the time. it’s bi girls that have gone Ohhhh ew ugh sorry i wish i was just attracted to women women r so hot omg i want them to step on me etc. and i’m just like. Girl ok… now keep swiping on ur entirely guy filled tinder like whatever… and i swear it’s just the presence of a lesbian that brings that on like i can swear i try to be a good sport when y’all r going on about dating men im not incapable of like doing that. now on here yeah im a hater bitch bc it’s my little safe space and i don’t feel like talking about men most of the time. but genuinely. GENUINELY. i am shaking you by the fucking shoulders rn. do you think this is the most important issue re gender that we’re facing rn? i don’t think we’ll ever move forward with progressing trans rights and just like feminism 101 womens rights if you people insist we constantly talk about your feelings about your attraction. go to therapy and get a fucking grip

[alangdorf]

Actually more rambling now. Currently thinking thoughts abt Tsuru and also Yabu (and Tsubakura by extension, obviously, who do you think I am,)

Always extremely funny that Tsubakura isn’t in most of Evanescent Existence just because they ignored the psychic intercom message and got really interested in the weird cave instead. What exactly was Tsurubami’s plan for if they hadn’t done that?? They run into each other and Tsubakura’s like “yeah I guess this might as well happen to me today”

Anyway the whole plot of Evanescent Existence is bizarre but it feels in character with how inscrutable Tsurubami is. Impossible to tell whether he has a convoluted plan or if she’s just having fun and it doesn’t matter cause he’s so all-powerful she’ll just get whatever she wants in the end regardless. Awesome!

Gotta mention one of my favorite fan works and definitely my favorite writing of Tsurubami is Misremembered Memories (fangame by Mugenri) (the person); I once summed up Yabusame’s scenario as “hey girl I didn’t call to talk to you put your dog on the phone” and made myself laugh extremely hard. And the bit where Tsurubami is like “it’s a trade secret!” And Tsubakura’s like “We have the same job? I’m filling in for you at your job?” And Tsubrubami’s like “Oh, I guess you’re right!” *blatantly continues to not tell them what they were drugged with* is LEGENDARY. But aside from the incredible banter I also love how Tsurubami asks Yabu & Tsuba for favors only after they’re already in a position where they can’t reasonably refuse. Feels right (kicking the “frankly I think it’s hot when characters are manipulative” tag from my ‘shall we dance’ pic under the fridge)

Oh yeah speaking of the song I happen to have a very strong link between liking music -> liking the associated character (slightly less so for Len’en than with Tohuhou cause I’m more interested in the story on its own merits for Len’en but it still seems to largely be the case) and I’m still very obsessed with the song. Thoughts on how it connects to the character 1) leading (like in dancing) 2) disorienting 3) silly goofy mischievous. Though I’ll admit I’m even more obsessed with broken eternal dance engine these days and that’s a twofer cause it’s actually Arde but would still presumably apply to a case where Tsurubami was outright trying to kill you! Either way 1) DANGER 2) even more disorienting 3) if you have the sound turned up just enough on that last big beat drop. Insane. The key change. The flip from just piano to full strings and heavy bass and crazy percussion. Kills me every time

(Tangent my friends who only know Len’en because of me talking about it are used to me very ardently insisting that Arde is just, like, pretty normal actually and today I was like “oh yeah I forgot this is her theme btw” *MO-NA-D-1 Memory Pursuit (basically a horror movie soundtrack)* lol)

Also I was thinking about the possibility that Tsurubami was the one who activated Rei (bc of how Rei talks abt him) and that’s got me spiraling. What all is she doing out there? If he was outright pretending to be Tsubakura again wouldn’t Hoojiro (& Haru) know about it? How’d he get access otherwise?

Extreme mental gymnastics offshoot from there: is Tsubakura a nepo baby??? Is it EN like 燕??? I dunno man. Trying to reverse engineer their backstory is such an ordeal; I keep muddling through their confusing relationship dynamics with Arde (it’s more straightforward with Hamal. Weird and bad, but straightforward!) and I’ll just be constantly going like girl (gender neutral) what is wrong with you…. Why are you like this……..

Anyway. My one big thing to share about Yabu is that I used to make the joke that Len’en as a whole feels like “Tsubakura’s terrible horrible no good very bad day, and also Yabusame is there” and then one day I had the epiphany to flip “it’s kinda funny Yabu just doesn’t really have a personal reason to be involved in all this” into “but she is anyway! They didn’t have to be there but she’s there for Tsubakura!” and got extremely soft about it.

Also uhhh I guess it depends on how much everyone knows about how Suzumi and their abilities work (always difficult to sus out) but in theory if Tsubakura knows about Yabusame’s immunity then them living with her would lessen paranoia that Suzumi could show up and then make them forget about it afterwards (though maybe undeservedly considering how BPoHC went lol)? Works as a deterrent either way. Okay so I think what we’ve learned here is I’m definitely not done with trying to make sense of a detailed headcanon version of precanon lol

[ringdabel]

PEEPS ID LOVE TO GET TO KNOW BETTOR !1!1!!!!1!!!

TYSM @shamblespirate FOR THE TAGIE!! You’re one of the people that make me feel so comfortable being myself and I LOVE thirsting over men and women with you <3!!

Last song : Copacabana by BARRY BANILOW

HER NAME IS LOLA SHE WAS A SHOWGIRL BUT THAT WAS 30 YEARS AGO WHEN THERE USED TO HAVE A SHOW— (yeah you can tell I am just obsessed with this song- IDK WHY I JUST LOVE THE BEAT ALR)

Favorite colour : golden yellow, Cream, light navy, pumpkin and tomato red!

WARM COLOURS WITH A SPLASH OF COOL COLOURS IS JUST PERFECTION! My personal fav is any shade of Yellow with any shade of blue, they’re PERFECT!

Last movie : Turning Red

Watched it with my sister weeks ago and I gotta say it’s rlly good! I totally recommend you watching it!!AND I MEAN YES there are some moments that made me genuinely CRINGED at but its a this-scene-reminded-me-of-myself-and-I-don’t-like-it type of cringe

Sweet/spicy/Savory : SWEET IS SUPERIOR

I love my mom’s salty meals and yes I do love a little bit of kick in foods to change some pace BUT!!! IF I CAN EAT SOMETHING FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE ITS GOTTA BE SWEETS! Milk chewing candy is something I always have my mouth watering over when I think abt it or someone is eating it. Sugar coated treats is also one of my favs!

Relationship status : SINGLE 🔥🔥

I had an ex-lover in 7th grade, I accepted their confession bcs i felt too guilty to decline 🫠, we dated for like 2 weeks until I told them I wanted to break up with them Bcs of my personal issues AND I STILL FEEL SO BAD. THEY LOOKED SO HAPPY WHEN WE DATED BUT IWHSHW :’(( (They did not deserve me 😭 I EVEN FELT JEALOUS WHEN THEY TALK TO THEIR FRIENDS FOR TOO LONG)

Last thing I googled : how to cover up a murder

I refuse to elaborate further

Current obsession : WRITING STUFF AND READING ONE PIECE NOVELS

I own 2 (and soon to be 3) novels : Novel Law and Heroines! (I didn’t buy Ace’s novels bcs i already have the manga for it) and I have more than 6 drafts writing scenarios, facts, etc etc… it’s killing my sleep but whatever 😈🦅🔥

TAGGGGGGIESSSSS : @thedemises @mspint @tabakkurilovna @reddstarr-exe @soninkk

[stardustanddaffodils]

SCOTT AND THE HEART FOUNDATION YEAH I WANNA TALK ABOUT THEM SO BADLYYYY

HOW SCOTT SAID OUT OF EVERYONE TANGO WAS ONE OF THE PEOPLE HE WAS LEAST CLOSEST TOO BUT STILL GAVE HIM A HEART AND WAS HORRIFIED AT SCAR KILLING HIM AND JOINED THE RESULTING FIGHT ON SKIZZ'S SIDE

AND HOW HE DID /NOT/ WANT TO KILL SKIZZ IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM AND TRIED TO WARN HIM AND BIGB TO RUN WITHOUT BETRAYING WHAT GEM WANTED TO DO AND HOW HE REFUSED TO GO UP AND PARTICIPATE IN THAT FIGHT

AND HOW HE LITERALLY HAS BIGB CORNERED WITH LIKE 20 DOGS WHILE EVERYONE ELSE IS DISTRACTED BUT LETS HIM GO AND ONLY ATTACKS HIM WHEN EVERYONE ELSE DOES CAUSE BETTER BIGB'S HEARTS GO TO HIMSELF, SOMEONE WHO IS JUST GONNA USE THEM TO HELP HIS TEAMATES, RATHER THAN SCAR WHO IS GONNA BE A BIGGER THREAT

SCOTT HAD BEEN THE HEART FOUNDATIONS BIGGEST FRIEND AND ITS AAAAAAAA BC HE REALLY WAS NOT HAPPY ABOUT THEM ALL DYING AND ESPECIALLY WAS NOT HAPPY ABOUT TEAMING UP WITH THE MOUNDERS TO KILL THEM

Hdkshdkslal sorry for big rant <333

THANK YOU FOR THE BIG RANT I LOVE BIG RANTS! i am also currently losing my mind over scott smajor YEAH YEAH YEAH YEA H

scott just. not wanting to kill skizz and bigb was so cool yeah... i feel like all the alliances in this were very tight knit so it was just so. fun to see how those change once it's literally a bloodbath.... i didn't really think that much abt scotts relationship to the heart foundation but YEAH YOURE RIGHT OH MY GOODNESS!

also also also also the fact that. every single one of scott's deaths in secret life was him sacrificing himself.... he made a deal with martyn for martyn to take his green life, then let gem take his yellow and red lives... it was all VOLUNTARY...... AUSDFH. i cannot stop thinking about it

ALSO the way pearl kept making references to double life.... LOSING MY MIND.

ALSO THE HEART FOUNDATION can we talk about the heart foundation.... tango's "i'd rather die than kill skizz" BRO. AUDHFDJF. they were so fun to watch cuz I think we kind of knew they were not making it to the end of this session but also. THEYRE SO.

[byunbaekhyunie]

hiii, how are you? I'm so sorry if this is annoying but, what happened? what was Baekhyun talking about in his live? I watched a bit of it and he seemed tired and upset but I don't speak Korean so I couldn't understand what he was talking about :( only caught SM and EXO sometimes. Please forgive me if I'm asking something dumb, I just don't really use Twitter and you're like my go-to blog for Baekhyun (I love your blog BTW!!)

thank you so much in advance!!

hi (..◜ᴗ◝..) sorry for the delay !! I had to get offline last night cause I was really too upset and it was also my bedtime so sorry I couldn’t get back to you faster :c I think you might be caught up to speed by now but just in case you aren’t, I’ll try to give a short summary of what happened, to my understanding at least, but even I am missing some context pieces bc I do not and will not seek out speculative, slanderous articles/forum posts abt baekhyun like I refuse to do that so idek how some of these things got brought up to the public attention but here’s what what little I did pick up, but mostly what baekhyun said

he came on live to clarify rumors that had started going around earlier that day and addressed 4 points in particular

1. the legal dispute that he took part in, along with jongdae and minseok, back in May. he didn’t say very much regarding that topic, he was so courteous and didn’t say one bad thing abt SM honestly he was so nice

2. the new company. so from what I gathered, yesterday it got leaked that baekhyun was starting his own company, and that’s I think the largest factor that pushed him to come out and clear the air cause speculations started ramping up like crazy. baekhyun confirmed that he is in the process of setting up a company with kasper and that it is done with SM’s approval, he will still be a part of the company and a part of EXO

3. his new house and the loan he took. ok so you might know that news broke out last week that baekhyun bought a new house. and… apparently, again idk who leaked this information or where but, it got out that baekhyun has taken out a very large loan and ppl got angry over it… I guess(?) honestly I don’t feel very comfortable talking abt this, it feels weird to me discussing smth that is quite frankly none of our business, but anyway baekhyun said that he took it to hold himself accountable in a way and put pressure on himself to achieve success with his company, and that he’s paying everything back and that he doesn’t understand how that’s an issue and honestly neither do I so .

4. and finally, his 4th solo album. talking abt this is reigniting my boiling rage, but I guess ppl where saying that he lost his path bc he’s not currently working on his next solo project and baekhyun said that he wants to do things correctly and it doesn’t feel right rn working on an album while also setting up smth as big as his own private company and that he’s sorry for keeping us waiting and not being able to go on tour and see us and that breaks my heart the most I won’t bore you with my personal output but I seriously need ppl to leave him alone I swear since he’s been back from the military ppl have been at his neck trying to get him for everything that he does and he….

anyway that’s more or less what happened ^^; and you’re not dumb or annoying for asking !! thank you so much for enjoying the blog (˶˃̵ ^ ˂̵˵) ♡

[neonstatic]

i'm struggling, like, a lot. i mean, i've always struggled. one thing abt me: i be strugglin' 😎 it feels like every time someone of trust asks me how i'm doing, i'm either saying i'm fine (in the most plain sense of the term) or say i'm tired. i'm always tired. i get my 8 hrs and i'm tired. i get 5 hrs and i'm tired. i sleep 12 hrs straight and i'm still tired. idek if it's physical or mental. i'm just. tired. my mom's noticed and said i should see our doc. i think it's more than just physical tho.

should i go to therapy? i've tried six yrs ago at uni. hated that bald bitch. it has more to do w me than him, probably. i didn't know what i wanted out of it and i refused to go to the queer support group he suggested to me (my brain was deeply rotten from online discourse at the time) and i was just angry and stressed abt school and we only had 3 sessions together. i remember talking abt being gay and mentioning my older sister being a total bitch to me... (we're good now) i can't tell you more than that. oh and i was getting headaches from trying to maintain eye contact. it's all v blurry. these sessions felt like a test more than anything and i was just not ready. you have to be receptive to therapy or it just won't work.

idk that i'll ever feel ready tho. it's not just that i can't open up for shit. it's also an ego thing. i've studied psychology then dropped out and it'd sting to sit across from someone who succeeded to do what i couldn't. cus they're intelligent and driven, and i am a fkg dumbass or wtv. i think i'll just sit here and be on the defensive half of the time. and i'd have to unpack some ableism i got in me brains (like, two yrs ago in winter i was having some very...interesting cognitive processes, and when a friend/coworker asked me if i was fine cus i literally had a dark cloud of energy hanging around me, i just snapped, "yeah i'm fine. what, do i look crazy? you think i'm crazy or smth? i'm not fkg crazy." which was a crazy response fr.)

anyway i'm thinking abt therapy. bc i've been feeling this miserable for a decade and there's an employee program i could benefit from if i wished to. and i think that if i quit my job in the current state i'm in, i won't be able to find another job. short-term therapy might help a lil the second time around. plus it'd be free. but idk that i should/can/deserve it. ahhhh i annoy myself

[watchfuleyeleans]

aw it feels weirdly comforting to have u encourage my pickiness... thank you n_n I'm so used to having to argue with people over the shite I'm picky about that this is kinda refreshing tbh!! and about ur ancestry that's super cool imo :000 I think being mixed rules!!! for me I know one of my birth parents was black and born here and one was Asian born out of the country, but I've never really done any digging to find out their names because I'm kinda scared??? nghngngng I thought maybe if I'd ended up a care leaver I'd look into things just so I could have some sort of family but as it turns out I got adopted again so :3 I'm really hoping this time I don't go back to being an orphan because that would kinda suck. so maybe I should forget about it. who knows!!!!!!!!! I clearly don't AND TODAY I'M SUFFERING FROM TMI-ITIS I'M SO SORRY FWEND T_T - ANON

heyyy sorry abt the wait anonbud, i ended up unable to log in much these past 2 days >_<

look i think being picky is fecking powerful. its like ye know some shites just not good for ye and ye have the power to say so. if other ppl dont understand it and refuse to listen to ye thats their problem ye keep being the metaphorical queen that ye are (metaphorical bc the real monarchy sucks arse)

HEYYYY WE'RE BOTH BLASIAN THEN, NICE :D what makes ye scared tho? are ye like afraid of what ye could find or of any repercussions ye think that might have? either way im glad ye have been adopted and seem to be satisfied about yer current living situation, i rly hope things work oot for ye and IF ye ever look into yr background, it's because yer family supports ye through it!! or at least doesnt give ye shite for it lmao. idk how that goes for adoptive families but i know some ppl may be super resistant to letting others know about their pasts when theyre directly involved. like me granda, he's still around but we dont talk much and he says his family's backstory shouldnt matter because what does matter is what he and me grandma built here. but grandma told me a bit about her home island while grandas like YEP MY FAMILY CAME FROM NIGERIA THATS ALL YE NEED TO KNOW KTHXBYEEEEE \^O^/ it gets on my nerves but who tf am i to argue right e_e

ANYWAY TMITIS IS JUST FINE HERE FRIEND, I DON'T THINK THATS A BAD CONDITION TAE HAVE, WHENEVER AN EPISODE HITS JUST COME TO ME AND WELL TALK IT OOT 8))))

[jinkicake]

Sigh, tighnari despite my best efforts has wormed his way into my heart and your thing didn’t help🤧 I am not immune to assholes unfortunately. IK he would oh so subtly but weird plants around for me to eat like oh nooo how on earth did that get there??? Sigh its an Aphrodisiac so unfortunately I have to rail you🙄 like he’s so annoying but also 5”4 so he shouldn’t get to cocky. He just has the vibe of someone who knows exactly what they’re doing you think your just hanging out w him for the day but by the morning when your picking your clothes up off the floor you realize he had it planned all along, alike of course were not far away enough from people so i can fuck you out of your mind, why would you even think that!?😣 motherfucker would destroy you and not feel bad at all, like your gunna be in a sex pollen situation there’s no getting around it it’s just gunna happen and when it does he completely loses all rational thought, he’s this is near a popular trail but who cares when he’s balls deep inside you? Will regain consciousness looking like you were hit by a train, bruises and bite marks everywhere, hair a mess and he has the audacity to be like “ I’m gunna patch you up” I HATE HIM!! Only way I will feel better is if I can suck him off while he’s tied to a hair unable to move; would like to see him squirming bc I refuse to let him get the upper hand ever, feels like most sex w him is like argument or angry bc he’s constantly testing the patience of everyone in his vicinity

omggg why were you refusing tighnari in the first place??? LMFAOOOOO nawr literally he is so sassy and so snide, i love it. There's just something abt mean guys, ya know?

okay.... you didnt have to bring up his height. you did that to hurt me, didn't you? he's my short king and oddly enough i feel like his height gives him a reason to be so rude LOL

but, yes, yes, yandere!tighnari is crazy and would drug you w an aphrodisiac just so then he gets to fuck you! i love it..... he'd be so obsessive, i want it!

His brain is so big, he's canonically smart so like he'd def know how to get into your pants without you even realizing it.... tbh talking about shitty!tighnari kinda makes me want him even more than if we were talking about nice!tighnari.... hmmm

NAURRR SEE FOR ALL THE REASONS YOUD HATE HIM, I LOVE HIMMMM like him being a complete dick and using you for his own pleasure time and time again makes him more appealing like??? yes tighnari i will help you get through any sex pollen or aphrodisiac or h34t that you encounter!!! i feel like if you tied tighnari down to a chair, he'd be a bitch and break his way out of the restraints hehehe ohmgeeeeee frustrated tighnari holding you down and fucking you with no hesitation, too good!!!!

i am currently jotting down angry sex w tighnari into my thoughts..... argument turns into sex... disagreement turns into tighnari cock..... hmmm yeah, that's perfect!!!!

it's kinda funny how much i enjoy fictional yandere and shitty!men topics bc if a m*n ever dared to treat me in a similar way irl i would not hesitate to k!ll him LOL

[mcytnoodles]

Okay its been a day, still rotating morph au around in my head but tbh i'm just fucked up thinking about them all and trying to put it into something coherent dhshshsh

Like Bdubs & Cleo and Scar & Grian being so close its weird, and Impulse & Tango doing the opposite bc the crastle alliance got messy

Or even like, characters who we haven't really seen yet?? Like idk if Bdubs & Cleo are so close they basically refused to split up, then hows Ren going to cope without Martyn? Tbh hows Ren going to cope with any of it bc The Red King was a lot.

Also! Idk how u made the "being dead" part of third life work lore wise but i would like to know, because like, does Cleo know Bdubs betrayed Impulse (also i'm shaking abt that one to a point of its making me wanna try write fanfic for the first time in years), does Scar know Grian killed himself???

ALSO the 2nd and final deaths leaving a lasting mark i'm vibrating rapidly abt that one (i don't have anything coherent to say i just think thats cool as fuck)

Tldr i'm rotating morph au around in my head a lot <3

!!! yeah!! 3rd life as media had such a thing with relationships that were codependent to an unhealthy extent and it's so interesting because!! how do you go from "me and this other person need to be together at all times to protect each other or we would both actually literally die" to just. interacting with them like you do with a regular friend or even partner? it's definitely something I want to explore more in the future!

and. um. **looks over at the ren-centric chapter sitting in my google doc** funny story. the ren chapter was initially supposed to be much heavier, but I. um. had one too many breakdowns while writing it and had to make it lighter. (the Martyn oneshot is still a w.i.p but it. definitely exists. it'll hopefully be done by the time the current fic is all up!).

I don't want to talk about it too in-depth right now, since I want to elaborate on it in the future, but in my opinion ren and martyn arguably had the most codependent relationship of all the duos, so them being the only two to be separated...

no one knows what happened after their final deaths. so no, scar doesn't know and cleo doesn't know. I actually put a lot of thought into that part.

if you write anything for this au I would literally cry/pos, it sounds too good to be true almost.

ALSO, one thing I like about the scars is that for some people, they're not necessarily visible at a first glance, maybe some players would actively try to hide them, even, which just...I don't have a point, but the idea makes me feel things.

I, too, am rotating morph in my head. in the last couple of days I have actually been rotating the cursed morph timeline from when I tried to figure out how long 3rd life took. I am putting it in the microwave like a bowl of soup.

I am coping by drawing a mlp hermitcraft 8 au in my sketchbook, I am very stable as you can see\hj

LOVED this ask. thank u <3

[fappellmoan]

rlly silly (watermelon) rant in the tags

[enderspawn]

op I am pleading for you to talk about c!Schlatt I keep getting interrogated for saying c!Schlatt was the best president and he really didn't do anything super terribly wrong please talk about him

i mean... im sorry anon but idk abt best PRESIDENT. manburg under schlatt.... kind of sucked imo JFKDLSJFKL

1. manburg had massive food shortages, to the point the average citizen (including fundy) had to eat spider eyes to survive.

2. he imposed ludicrious tax of his civillians (namely niki. we dont know if he did that to Every Business like w fundy or if he targeted niki specifically bc of her closeness to the ex-president, but neither is good)

3. exiled those who he saw as political opponents to keep his power

4. straight up ignored his cabinet a lot of the time to make his own decisions (such as destroying the white house, which led to quackity leaving)

5. was widely hated by all the citizens. literally at one point all the ppl left in manburg was schlatt and jack manifold (who was MIA on the server and left to found Manifold Land when he came back)

6. held a public execution, AGAIN without the consent or knowledge of his cabinet (IF I REMEMBER RIGHT. i know big q opposed the execution at minimum, but idk for sure if he knew it was planned at all before the festival)

7. was basically at war his entire presidency thanks to pogtopia's existence

and thats just what i can think of rn! the reasons i like c!schlatt are fully based around him as a character and HIS personal development, not around his policies or actions. especially when compared to the other two presidents, who either won or prevented a war and kept the majority of its citizens happier and healthier than Manburg, he's.... probably the worst president they had tbh

BUT since you gave me an excuse to ramble abt him anyway, i wanna go on abt what i DO like abt him (under a cut bc this post is already kinda long oops) but

tldr; i like schlatt bc of his relationships with others, his flaws and pitiable moments, and how he is a fantastic parallel/foil to the characters around him

I like his complex (and yes, abusive) relationship with quackity, especially after his death and quackity's feelings flipping rapidly between hating him and missing him. but before that they did have a honeymoon-esque period-- at least from quackity's view.

watching their date you get the idea schlatt mightve never really been interested in him and mightve just been using quackity's interest in him for his own advancement! but we dont know.

maybe he did truly love quackity in his own fucked up way in the end, even if he wasnt a good person. maybe he regrets his actions and cruelty. or maybe he doesnt.

in the end they were (like the animatic i linked said) "built from the same dirt", they're both incredibly ambitious and prideful people and parallel each other a LOT (see: q's need for power, his want to execute ranboo paralleling tubbos execution, etc). they're not good for one another, but i love seeing just how they fall apart together (i hope you die, i hope we both die kind of beat)

and.... god his relationship and impact w fundy i could ramble abt all day dude. fundy kept schlatt's sword after his death and calls it an heirloom. we dont know 100% how old fundy was when wilbur was exiled (i mena... he ran for president but current fundy is like 20something and tommy ALSO ran as vp at 16) but we can assume he was a late teen. his own father was gone, but schlatt... seemed to CARE. he showed him affection.

fundy's never truly felt like hes BELONGED anywhere (even the country his father said was all for him, he felt ostracized and made different by his fathers doting babying) and because of that hes always looking for a group to be a part of. hes a people pleaser (its part of why hes so easy for big q to get for las nevadas).

and schlatt GIVES him that feeling of belonging he deserves. hes a spy the entire time, yes, but he becomes conflicted about it as time goes on.

could schlatt just be using fundy and filling his head with empty praise? sure, i couldnt fault you at all for that interpretation, its perfectly valid. BUT, i dont think so. he seemed genuinely shocked to see fundy oppose him on nov 16th. remember, he didnt know fundy was a spy.

in that moment he realizes just HOW alone he is and always has been. and its a tragic moment: the last person he had, the person he himself mightve truly CARED about left him just like everyone else. he was alone, truly and fully. even his allies were only there out of obligation and bc of him paying.

he knows his health has been failing him. he cant even swim due to muscular issues but he refuses see a doctor about it because he refuses to let himself be seen as weak.

hell, one could argue that issue leads to his abraisive and abusive behavoir in relationships: he refuses to let himself be true and genuine to anyone, there always has to be a wall and a proud perfect persona. its part of why hes a great villain both in narrative and to watch as a casual fan: just like c!wilbur, he's playing an act.

hes a foil and a parallel to wilbur. both are men who hide their true selves behind a certain role or persona they feel they have to play while they hide their crumbling health (schlatt's more physical and wilbur's more mental). both experience their rise and fall. but wilbur isnt despised, even if he thinks he is, while schlatt isnt truly loved by anyone, even if he thinks he is.

most of all, their deaths couldnt be more different. wilbur went out with a bang. a large dramatic scene fit for a storybook, with a long monologue and cinematic final blow ALL made to fit how he saw himself in a story and simply filling a required roll. but schlatts death is practically overlooked (especially in comparison to wilburs death and everything else that happened that day).

he built his entire persona about being this massive, larger than life powerful guy but he died small, weak, and frail to his own failing body. its... pitiful, honestly. it doesnt feel fitting, it feels wrong. his life up that point demanded drama, but his death was nothing more than... an accident, almost. unintentional. clumsy. its fucking brilliant.

[risingsunresistance]

Golly u make it sound impressive lol I jus went like.2 sessions of crystal hollows metal detection and decided I NEEDED a drill lol THEN I didn't open Crystal hollows again till I had one ^-^ also funny thing when it comes to ANY spending I tend to be stingy to the point where I have 64m+in bank and refuse. To take like any out to buy stuff. I either sell stuff and buy on the spot or I like. Do fetchurs stuff. Or smthin. But I rarely spend money(unless on minion final form !!) And I think that's kinda funny its like 10k?? For crystal hollows?? But I don't do it often bc thats 10 whole k and I only have 64mil.... I feel like thats a bit silly but yaknow. Built different or smthin hehe (I have no one to rant to abt sb so .Apologies for all the chattery but I haven't talked abt it in a while LOL)

it's impressive bc i hate using the metal detector, it feels slow and too uncontrollable to me. i like mining bc i know my goals and exactly what i want out of them, the metal detector is a boring gamble to me </3

anyways we are polar opposites here JHDKDHH it's Very Funny

if i have the money to buy something and decide i want/need it bad enough, i'll drop everything to buy it. the second i got the money to buy the materials for my current drill, i spent our entire account. we had less than 500k left

i will also try my absolute best to power my way through something i am incapable of. i would simply go to the crystal hollows with no drill if i didn't already have one. me and ark are currently trying to go through dungeons with JUST the two of us, both in dragon armor with mediocre weapons, and she doesn't even have all the fairy souls 😭

also Please Do Not Apologize, you have no idea how much i love rambling about skyblock

[meursaulty]

saunters sauntuly in here... using that questionaire to learn more abt everybodies wizzies... here r my questions abt urs..

- does your wizard have a primary school? secondary school?

- does your wizard travel alone or with a group?

- what do they think about forbidden magics? should it be taught?

- how do they generally get along with most npcs? do they have favorites, or a best friend?

for all ur wizards!!

hiiiii so i technically have three wizards but i basically made the first a self insert because i did not think i would still be playing this game by now... so i will focus answers on my two actual characters. this is kinda long bc it's the first time im talking about them here so i gotta give context:

does your wizard have a primary school? secondary school?

- scarlet is my main death wiz. the story about her primary school is actually kinda funny, bc i made my current wiz acc in 2016 after my old one was banned (chargeback 😤). BUT i didn't use it until last year and thought she was a fire like my og character?? so then i logged in and it was like "welcome to the death school" after i named her scarlet and dressed her all in red 😀

- roslyn is a storm, and samuel is a life. nothing special behind those stories (at least not ones that wouldn't extend this answer by way too much)

- and i don't use secondary schools to characterize bc i am lazy..... but maybe i should

does your wizard travel alone or with a group?

- scarlet goes alone, bc i keep her story adherent to canon

- but roslyn and samuel. oh god. most annoying saviors ever. the deal with them is that ambrose sends them around the spiral as a team. the thing is... they are both wolf stormblades and just refuse to cooperate and only make it to dragonspyre through pure luck... in ds the gravity of the situation finally hits them, and they don't really talk again until celestia. but arc 1 and the time between dragonspyre/celestia gave them a lot of time to grow up. i could write a whole essay on this, but to keep it short, they are besties by end of arc 2 lol

what do they think about forbidden magics? should it be taught?

- i assume this refers to shadow magic? and tbh only scarlet has gotten that far in game, but roslyn and samuel are on the same page that it needs to be studied more, but that it can be seriously dangerous (reverie: the shadow in your heart twists your dreams) and not taught at places like ravenwood. maybe the history/theories, but not the spells. just enough to sate curiosity and avoid morganthe 2.0

- although roslyn is a less firm on this position. she's from marleybone (where there's no magic, according to wethersfield) and ravenwood is the best thing that could have happened to her (see next q), so she isn't sure how she feels being on the side for its containment

how do they generally get along with most npcs? do they have favorites, or a best friend?

- ok so i need to give some bkg on roslyn and samuel.

- roslyn is from the streets of marleybone. think victorian street urchin. part of a band of children with a strict code of honor. so she gets along fine with the npcs (if they don't to anything to change her mind...ahem giles in empyrea), but she would really get on with the hoods in mirage

- samuel is from a wealthy family in karamelle. think nepotism baby. set to take over his family's part of nana's when he's older. he's very aloof and haughty at first and doesn't really care about the npcs. but like i said in #2, both he and roslyn mellow out after realizing that they're part of something much larger than either of them

- but as for best friends... they are (eventually) each other's lol. this is actually great timing for this q bc i was up at like 3am last night drawing after seeing a vision of this meme in my minds eye

[domjaehyun]

you're not gonna like mars sign😭😭 i am a virgo mars with taurus risinggshsh and to top it off my moon is on gemini while my sun is libra

🧍🏽‍♀️

your air placements just saved your life im gonna be . so real with you KDFKSKDKD it’s never that a sign is Objectively Bad btw it’s just that . to me and my personality and MY placements and stuff….. there are signs i typically do not gel with and like . most of the ppl i have encountered w those signs have made this the case yknow?

WAIT ALSO I AM SO SORRY bc i don’t know if . you want me to read your chart?? but i regret to inform you that i don’t really know much of anything abt virgo mars 😭😭😭 or moon in gemini really 😭😭😭 i know a bit abt libras bc . mom is libra and i am a libra rising but i don’t think i’ll be able to give you the same kind of like . in depth analysis off the top of my head bc i Don’t Know about some of your placements and i’d rather not just talk out of my ass yknow?

what i WILL say is that virgo mars seems like i would find you VERY insufferable in arguments like i would just refuse to speak with you if you were like Trying To Prove A Point but it might mean you can be very determined when in arguments as well as logical/focused on the facts so !! a win for you!!

gemini moon makes me feel as if you or people who know you intimately might consider your moods to be kind of out of control? i don’t believe the stereotype that geminis are two faced at all—i actually love geminis 😭😭😭 like even if they were two faced!!! like “babe idc how many faces you have they’re all fine as hell i’m in love w u 💖” type vibes 😭😭😭 but yeah i feel as if you might be prone to sudden changes in mood and it might be kind of a like…battle internally with maybe the more negative emotions trying to be addressed while your more positive emotions are suppressing them? (thinking kind of like….. inside out the movie where Joy was kind of a tyrant and refused to let Riley be sad and then eventually Joy lost control (i forget why tbh it’s been a while) and Riley started feeling her negative emotions like . A Lot because she had been neglecting them before) so—yeah jdfjskd i would say that if this resonates w you at all that you should definitely try to be more open with acknowledging your negative emotions and giving yourself the space you need to process them so that they won’t always be lurking trying to sneak up on you!!

taurus rising w libra sun seems like a pretty harmonious combo tbh!! both ruled by venus, both pretty chill placements i think!! libras can tend to be the “mediator” or “peacemaker” or “social butterfly” of the zodiac (speaking from a libra rising who has played this role for abt as long as i can remember djfjsjdj i am only currently starting my villain arc) and as a libra you might be more inclined to adopt a favorable demeanor !!! which combined with the taurus rising which may come off as fairly chill/unflappable may give you the overall vibe that you’re pretty chill and not much really gets to you!! you might be more likely to give someone a very subtle side eye if they’re aggravating you in public than be more open about it!!!

I APOLOGIZE MY LOVE THIS RLY ISNT AS IN DEPTH AS THE OTHER TWO BUT AGAIN I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL SO . there are things i simply Do Not Know Much about 😭😭😭 so i am only going off of what i do know 🥺🥺🥺 apologies but IF ANY OF THIS RESONATED WITH YOU PLEASE LET ME KNOW IM CURIOUS!!