#IS ANYONE LISTENING
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been slowly building up to watching the new alnst since i woke up and finally ripped the bandaid off and like. i knew. i knew this would happen but no amount of knowing couldve prepared me for that at all
#I FEEL SO SICK FROM THE ATOMS AT THE TIPS OF MY FINGERS TO THE DEEPEST DEPTHS OF MY SOUL#HELLO#IS ANYONE LISTENING#alien stage#beso babbles
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thinking about the captain's stupid fucking uniform again. because the sam browne belt is still backwards. and we have no answers for that. but I have to think about him putting it on for the last time. not that he knew it was going to be the last time. but idk, the exact timeline between the war ending and the veteran's event is unclear, so I imagine there was some time in the middle there where he got to wear his civvies. there were a few days, between the life that trapped him and the death that did the same, where he was free. right? there had to be. just enough time to loosen the tie and breathe for a moment, to see what life might have been like without the army crushing his heart in his rib cage. and then, the party. a victory celebration. a relief. he had to dress himself back in the costume of a competent commander, for the chance to catch a glimpse of the only person in the forces worth a damn. he had to wrap himself in his own funerary shroud. had to buckle every strap and thread every button with shaking hands. and then he pinned that god damn medal bar right above his pocket like the last nail in his coffin. everything that killed him he did to himself. and then havers pressed the god damn stick into his hands, still warm from his touch, as he turned cold on the ground. and then he was stuck, for 70 years, suffocated by every reminder that the only world he thought he belonged in wanted him dead. and yet still, when asked what he would wear instead if he could, it's his uniform. I need to lay down.
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songs that feel like jeno? i feel like i have a stockpile for haechan, but i want to write boyfriend jeno, and music is sweet inspiration
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let’s go outside smiling and holding hands and going lalalala while frolicking in a field where the grass, sky, and sun are all drawn in crayon. this can work for us
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packing for my trip to visit @beachytablecloth . what is life
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can you please. stop talking.
#*taps mic*#is anyone listening#do you hear me going insane#I mean this in an unhealthy way btw#in a toxic I love him so much kinda way#but I NEED him to shut up#raphael bg3#raphael#bg3#baldur's gate 3
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paralive has been kind of pissing me off recently but let me not linger on that lmfao i will muscle through this for visty lore
#the way the groups have been set up with each other is looking so terrible for the overall story#i just want some more plot and worldbuilding but if bae and cozmez keep winning we’re going to get nothing but more plotless fillers#i’m acually so sick of them winning everything. some of us have REAL PROBLEMS. what about alter trigger#the way akanyatsura and 1nm8 have the capacity to drive the story with their connection to alter trigger. and they might not even make it#i love bae but i’m kind of getting sick of the way paralive is written and the voting system that ruins everything#also like 😭😭 bae’s storyline i believe is Over. we dont need to touch that anymore#and cozmez have been through enough. just let them be happy dear god#we dont even know anything about iori yet despite the role he’s played in other ppl’s character arcs. INSANE#he was there for hajun’s phantometal erosion and kanata’s hallucination of nayuta BE SERIOUS#he has access to information that creates plot movement + he’s in a good position as the head of the suiseki group#to go bar for bar with alter trigger given his resources and also his wide reach#also the stakes are high for both akyr and 1nm8 to reach / take down alter trigger#it just makes for an exciting story. u dont even need to take Creative Writing 101 to know this#i’m just getting so mad thinking about it. i’m allowed to be angry because i love these characters & the premise#and i hate seeing it go to waste#not to mention the connection yeon conglomerate had with alter trigger themselves? what happened to that#getting dongha an arc and also simultaneously address yeon company’s unethical / dubious investments? HELLO#IS ANYONE LISTENING#i’m not delusional i know visty will very likely not make it through that first round. but 1nm8 winning will be for nothing#if we get the same two groups winning again#akyr and gokuluck. my life is in your hands#i’m just irritated and today was a bad day and i just need to not take things so seriously maybe#i love visty#i hope yohei had a good day today#ro talks
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I have no one I can talk to.
No one to bare my inner soul to.
No one to hide behind when I'm scared.
Of all these people that say they love me.
There's not one I can reach out to.
Not one who sees that I'm drowning.
No one who'll try and save me.
Will they at least mourn me?
#self expression#poem#poetry#micropoetry#bpd#bpd vent#bpd thoughts#borderline personality problems#living with mental illness#mental illness#im alone#suicide sunday#sunday blues#i write#living with ptsd#is anyone listening#cant save myself
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i honestly don't know that i matter that much, there's something wrong with me
i want to be social but my battery's too low
i want to talk to my parents but i'm too scared
i want to dance around but I can't find energy
i don't have a headache but everything's too loud
i've not been around people but i'm so overwhelmed
i want to be productive but i can't bring myself to care
i just want to sleep but i'm too awake
i want to live but i'm too tired
i want to die but i'm too scared
#dead inside#mental illness#self h@rm#depressing shit#sad thoughts#mentally tired#loneliest#suic1de#ready to die#ready to kms#why am i alive#I need help#is anyone listening#does anyone care#Does anyone see my pain#does anyone understand
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i wish i'd transitioned earlier. i wish i didnt have adhd. i wish i didnt have ibs. i wish i wasnt scared of needles. i wish i went outside more. i wish i could drive. i wish i had the mental fortitude to get a job. i wish i had the confidence to talk to people. i wish i had money to go places. i wish i could dress how i want. i wish i'd gotten to be a child. i wish someone would help. i wish someone would help. i wish someone would help. i wish someone would help.
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i’m aware of how this doesn’t matter on any scale of the universe but i am in love with the idea of the dynamic of these three. they are so cute!!!!!
#tbhk#jshk#is anyone listening#my three favourite characters#emphasis on kounene god i love them#non art post
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scream from hsm3 is a fabian aramais seacaster song and you’re allowed to disagree but i know in my heart that it is true and right.
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fabian seacaster#listen. just hear me out for a SECOND#it’s like sophomore year post fabian’s no good very bad day but pre i dance now fabian#is anyone listening
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tattoo artist!terry mcginnis who you met during your visit for a tramp stamp
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i like music. i like books. i like plays. i like watching plays, being in plays, reading plays. i like collecting playbills.
i like the piano, the violin, the harp. i like writing music, listening to music, playing music. i like a little bit of everything.
i like Mary Shelley, Oscar Wilde, Donna Tartt, Christopher Paolini, Rick Riordan. i like horror, mystery, fantasy, science fiction, thrillers. i like Frankenstein and The Last Man and The Picture of Dorian Gray and The Secret History and The Goldfinch.
i like coffee, i like tea. i like pomegranate black tea and matcha and hazelnut syrup.
i love pomegranates. the seeds, the tea, anything with pomegranates.
i hate pineapples. i haven't eaten one in years. i can't stand to be within five feet of one.
i like science and english. i can't quite sit through math. i believe there's a world where i would like math, but it isn't like this.
i like film. i like to edit films, to analyze films, to watch films with a bit of sweet and salty popcorn. i like sweet and salty popcorn. i don't like cheese popcorn, and i don't always like caramel. sometimes it's too sweet and too sticky.
i have a cat. she likes spending time outside, and she's rarely home when i'm home. sometimes at night, she sleeps in my bed.
sometimes at night, i sit outside with my cat and we look at the stars. i like looking for Perseus. i like looking for the Pleiades.
i like going outside. i like riding my bike at night and swimming in lakes. there are no good lakes near where i live, only pools.
i hate swimming in pools. i was on the swim team once. i swam a really fast backstroke. i miss feeling fast, but i can't have that anymore.
my sister swam on the swim team. she did cross country too. she rides her bike too.
i have sisters. i wish i had brothers. i wish i had a twin brother. i wish someone would keep me company. my siblings have their own lives now, and it gets awfully lonely at home.
i get awfully lonely at home. and at school. i have friends, plenty of friends, but nobody i trust, nobody i truly want to tell all of this to.
#i feel stupid#is this even poetry#is this anything#guys pls#is anyone out there#is anyone listening#is anyone even reading this#poem#poet#poets on tumblr#poetry#original poem#every tag i can think to use because i want someone to see this
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What age is too old for you?
older than 50 bc I have this fantasy of being a sugar baby butch for an older lesbian
#or in the sense of being a pampered little purse dog#or just let me be a housebutch#is anyone listening#*taps mic*#ask.layne#lesbian
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i cant fix him. i dont think i could make him worse either actually
#is this anything#is anyone listening#hello?#is this thing on#where am i#its so dark#hello??#anyone??#somebody???
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