#IN CONCLUSION

[blanketforcas]

jensen answering a destiel question in front of a very mixed and passionate audience

[coldercreation]

Life update (GOOD)<3

Heyy all! Just quickly dropping in with a lil note because I feel like I’ve been less focused on the writing-front as of recent, and more inactive here in general :’)

Thank you to everyone who’s been commenting on my writing and/or left me messages and prompts this year and recently, I absolutely adore you all. I have started many a draft based on the prompts I’ve gotten, and there’s plenty more I still want to get to. Thank you for sharing your ideas with me, they genuinely help me with motivation and writing (even though I haven’t managed to finish anything substantial in a while…)

I always say it but I really just appreciate you all a lot<3

As to why I have been more inactive responding or writing/updating in general, well…

Life has just been really, really good lately? Consistently. All the time.

I’m starting to tentatively trust that the worst is well over with my health stuff/treatment, and I’m feeling so much better compared to where I started that it baffles me daily?? I kinda feel like I have a new brain - and a new life. As in, I feel fully Alive for the first time since I was a kid, pretty much.

I have so much energy. / I just go and do things now. / I might actually be an extrovert??? (I’m having a culture shock rediscovering my own damn post-chronic health issue personality lol) / Anxiety and depression, who are they? Turns out I can feel a healthy amount of sad or upset, and it’s not all consuming. / I feel anger now! And it's great lmao! / Even bad days feel like decent days compared to my past days / I have always been interested in other people, but now I have the energy to show it better and engage, without burning out before I even open my yapper. / I feel like I’m connecting with people so much easier and better, and I’m having such a good time!!! / I’m actively trying to come up with new things to do with all the time and energy I now have. I’m still figuring this one out, because yeah, it’s a culture shock, after spending my whole adult life actively avoiding things just because I didn’t have the energy for anything (Tell me your hobbies and interests!! Indoor-outdoor-solo-social??) / I feel grounded in my own body and feel present / I finally feel a sense of ‘Future’ and I'm able look forward to things, instead of being in a constant survival mode and feeling stuck in it. / I’ve started to truly FEEL things, not just think things. I’ve started to want things. And not want things. And like things. And dislike things. Anything but the mild-indifference I am/was used to. / I can get through a work day without falling a sleep. Hell, I did a 13 hour shift the other week and still had the want and the energy to go for a run, after?! I felt possessed and a bit feral with power that day lmao! / AND SO MUCH MORE and BETTER and AAAAAAA 

I tear up regularly because I suddenly out of nowhere realise ‘wow, what the fuck, I feel so great??’

I really thought ‘better’ wasn’t in the cards for me after living literal decades feeling ‘not-good-at-all’. 

But mann, I think this is already better than the better I thought I’d never get to feel xx

[redpinkwine]

You and me both brother you and me both

[winterpinetrees]

The Silmarillion is a book that fills me with many emotions, but the only part that makes me feel anger -not tragic grief at the narrative, but real anger- is the ending where the Lord of the Rings is summarized in three paragraphs.

It makes me feel anger because it gives a comparison for just how summarized the rest of the Silmarillion is. The entire fall of the Noldor, written in a way that condenses Frodo and Sam’s whole journey to “alone with his servant he passed through peril and darkness and came at last in Sauron’s despite even to Mount Doom”.

What else did Tolkien imagine over five hundred years of history that didn’t make it into any of his notes? What did he not imagine that still must have occurred? Who are the Boromirs and the Eowyns and the Bilbos of the first age? What witch-kings did they slay and what quests did they begin? What were the riddles and the detours and the love stories?

Its all been forgotten. No one knows anymore, and it’s likely that no one ever did. Not even Professor Tolkien.

[munson-blurbs]

Hopper minutes after a giant machine explodes .5 feet away from him:

Steve, Robin, and Nancy minutes after being choked by Vecna's vines:

Meanwhile... Eddie minutes after a few lil bat nibbles:

[evilbarking]

can we normalize disliking shifts please. i see so much positive talk abt shifts and that's great i love that some people enjoy tgem but whenever i come out of a shift it makes me feel so empty inside

like part of me is literally missing (it is)

idk i just wish people talked more about how shifts aren't always fun bc literally all i see on tiktok are people "shifting" after setting up a camera and them jumping around or getting on all fours and doing vocqls or smth. it makes me feel rlly crappy sometimes bc i don't get zoomies when i shift i get angry and mean and my body suddenly feels WRONG on all levels like it knows it's not supposed to be this way but it is for some horrible reason

[taurielofmirkwood77777]

I have Crowley as my phone background (as one has) and someone standing near me noticed and asked me who that is. And after about two minutes of me explaining Crowley, the conversation went like this:

Person: "That sounds like a man written by a woman."

Me: "He isn't."

Person: "Really? I can't imagine him being written by a man."

Me: "Well, plot twist. He is written by two men."

Person: *error 404 brain not found*

[24kmar]

imagine art with like a younger gf! who like forces him to make silly little tiktoks or smth and hes just happy to be there aweeee

Nonnieee this is so sweet 😭🩷

Thinking about older! Art not having ANY social media besides instagram, which he doesnt even use cause it ran by his manager since its a business acc.

I can just imagine you setting up your phone and him being confused and asking what you're doing. Doing the "tell me that you love me" victorious trend and him being so confused and being like "wtf even is victorious" and also the watch my s/o for me trend. Hes just doing whatever you ask him to, looking at you with lovesick plastered all over his face. Eyes full of adoration. Also imagine doing the moon river trend with him 😔✊🏻.

Imagine setting up your phone and him being like

"What are you doing" and then you telling him to just stand there. Waiting to see if he'll pass the victorious trend. Looking at him expectantly, then he finally gets it and is like "i love you" and "you take my breath away" 😮‍💨😮‍💨

[hawkinsbnbg]

Gareth: Booty or boob?

Eddie, leering at Steve: Why choose when I already got both?

Steve, blushing: I'm a boob guy, btw.

Eddie, smirking: Oh ho? I thought you're a balls guy–

Gareth: Jesus Christ. Get out, the both of you!

Jeff: Is this supposed to make us single guys jealous?

Grant, nodding sagely: Eddie's right. Only children have to choose. Adults will get both.

[illjustpretend]

DE AQUÍ NO SALES

[buddiesmutslut]

Okay, so this is a parallel of 7x04, right?? Buck takes an action, somebody gets hurt, & he spirals about whether he actually meant to hurt them or not.

I’ve been thinking about the difference between Maddie & Eddie’s reactions for a week already, but tonight sent it home for me.

Maddie said “it’s not like you meant to hurt him.” Even though she doesn’t automatically assume that he did, that’s still her first thought. When Buck hesitates & says he doesn’t know for sure, she immediately scolds him. “That’s not how you get someone’s attention, we don’t hurt the people we care about.” Given her backstory, it makes sense.

Eddie’s automatic thought is, “You saved him.” There’s no doubt in Eddie’s mind that Buck meant to help, not harm. It doesn’t even enter his thought process. When Buck freaks out, Eddie can’t think of why he would be doing that, bc Buck saved Gerrard’s life. What else could have happened?

Buck & Maddie will always see each other the way they did growing up, even if only in a small part of their minds. Maddie is Superman who has everything under control & all the answers, and Buck is the one who reacts rashly & causes damage for a scrap of attention. Their childhood was so intense & they only really had each other, they were literally in the trenches together their entire childhood, so there will always be bias there.

& I’m thinking of Eddie telling Buck in s5 that maybe Chimney knew Maddie better than Buck did. That maybe the partners they have now are able to see them clearer than their siblings.

Eddie’s trust & belief in Buck is steady & unwavering, even when Buck doesn’t believe in himself and it makes me want to SCREAM a little bit bc oh my god.

I have no idea where they’re going with this arc, but WOW I can’t wait.

[gwandas]

Cassian’s reaction to a malnourished Feyre

Cassian’s reaction to a malnourished Nesta:

[stari-hun]

Isokania

The biggest issue between Kakania and Isolde is a lack of understanding between the two. Kakania enjoys her close bond with Isolde they consider each other the closest person to them. But they don’t have an understanding of each other. Isolde thinks Kakania is the answer to all of her problems, he golden key, and almost idolifies her at times, and Kakania sees Isolde as a good person going through constant tragedy. The two of them mutually have a false idea of who the other truly is. In 6.17 Kakania talks about Isolde’s art of channeling spirits and how she uses it to be the star of Vienna. However what Kakania doesn’t know is how Isolde doesn’t stop channeling when she’s off stage, the CGs of Book 6 even ellude to how Isolde sees ever place in public view as a stage. Kakania has never once considered that Isolde wasn’t the person she portrays herself to be, and Isolde refuses to consider that Kakania isn’t the one she’s been waiting for.

Isolde and Kakania are also extremely stubborn people. Kakania is stubborn as a job hazard of having to fight for her own credibility, and Isolde’s natural temperament is reserved stubbornness. She decides what she believes in and without consulting others or stating her stance, Isolde sticks to it resolutely. Kakania acts in accordance to what she knows and learns, she's very stubborn about her morals and values of justice. Kakania is headstrong about her way being the correct way while Isolde is the same. Isolde is a reserved person as a job hazard of being a celebrity. Not only has she actively seen what stardom can bring through Playwright, she was raised to expect and ignore it. As such, Isolde is very resolute in who she places her trust in. Once she’s decided to consciously let someone in she waits at her Door for them to come in to her inner world. The tragedy for them is that she decided to let in someone who already thought she had seen Isolde’s inner world. Isolde refuses to believe anyone could ever understand let alone heal her besides Kakania. Isolde doesn’t believe anyone can save her besides Kakania, even when Theopil predicted Isolde’s mental state would deteriorate and sought out a way to help her.

Another reason they were doomed is the fact Kakania believed too much in Isolde. Kakania sincerely believed in Isolde and chose to believe that the rumors surrounding her following in Evangeline’s footsteps. To her credit, at that time the rumors weren’t true. But I feel like the issue also wrapped around to the fact Kakania was an unprofessional therapist to Isolde. @schneiderenjoyer talks about it at length in their live analysis. She underestimated the depths of Isolde’s mental instability because she didn’t think there was any larger problem than depression from the rapid deaths in her family. As a follower of Freud’s theories and an arcanist, Kakania should’ve been more aware that disrupting a person's ID and SUPEREGO could lead to consequences. She figured Isolde’s tears and initial confession about Theopil coming at her while on fire was the depths of her ID or unconscious instinct without morals. But Kakania is an arcanist, in 1914 no less, she had to face a lot of legal issues concerning people using dirty tactics either to tear her down or get their way. She believed in Isolde too much that her worst would be intrusive thoughts about harming herself due to guilt because of her proximity to Isolde. But Kakania didn’t consider her past in an environment of violence and family disposition.

Isolde also lacks proper coping mechanisms. There are quite a few arcanists with mental illnesses we see in the game however they all have some kind of coping mechanism to help self-soothe. It's not the same situation but Mesmer Jr. talks about how her anxiety is uncurable, but she has a lot of anxious tics to self soothe which we see her do in the series. Semmelweis who's similar to Isolde, with her condition growing worse with time, shows in [Echoes Into the Mountain] that she consistently reality checks her surroundings and mental state. Isolde however, doesn't have any coping mechanisms outside seeking out Kakania for her comforting presence.

It’s unclear exactly when or if she got acting lessons from Mr. Karl (if she had it be between 13-15), but Isolde uses acting as a defense mechanism. The Star of Vienna is a persona for her and something she’ll always fall back into when panicking instead of actually feeling her emotions. She'll separate herself from her urges and emotions, or tell spirits to possess her “whether willing to or not” so she can have a break. Isolde is unable to be clearly open, as shown in her character event. She acts Kakania if she noticed a door in her house, personifying herself as an unnoticeable within the Dittarsdorf house. Even after Kakania doesn’t give her the answer she wants, Isolde ignores it in a way. Stating Kakania will still be “the golden key to open her door.” Isolde was likely content to wait until Kakania finally “saw her,” or until she manipulated Kakania into being her key.

[redwhitebuddie]

lou gets it

[thefirstlioveyou]

what's with all those people walking passed our screens at rink o mania/the airport??

a initially believed these people were used just to distract us from mike and el's moment at the airport. i thought it was so weird that people were just covering the kiss. wouldn't you want us to see that? i guess they don't want us to care!

then i realized these people KEEP covering my damn view even after their kiss, and it continued even at rink o mania. it had to be a pattern.. and then i noticed. these people are only passing on shots that focus on mike. given all the evidence mike is being watched through the camera work, i believe these are just more evidence of so.

these people aren't being used to block out mike and el or block out anybody - they're there to single out somebody. something's watching mike at rink o mania and the airport.

(i'm gonna mostly provide ss because the scenes are obviously too long. here's what i've collected)

this specific shot (below) is so creepy. mike is the focal point, with his back turned to us - to the stalker. mike has no idea he's actively being watched as he's trying to be someone he's not - a shitty knockoff if you will lol. he thinks he's fooling everybody. but whoever or whatever it is that's watching, they ain't fooled at all. they're seeing it ALL.

these people continue to pass the camera even when they get to rink o mania

ah. yet again - mike is dead center. this is obviously love triangle imagery. but since we're starting to understand these are also stalker shots thanks to the walking people, this also represents as the stalker's main focus - mike.

and here too. we know he is the focal point of the shot here because the camera follows him and his pace. (also his bright ass fucking shirt is kinda hard to miss lmfao. which makes me think... could another reason why his shirt was yellow was to highlight/single him out for these shots?)

then we get the people during byler's fight - where mike also happens to unnecessarily clarify they're platonic and only platonic - as well. however this time it is more of an overall observation of the both of them

"but they're in public. it's just there to add to the environment and make it feel alive."

well.. yes. extras can be included to make the scene feel more alive. but all these people walking passed the screen is too distracting for it to just be there to liven the scene. there's more creative intent beyond that here. when you have said extras walking past your camera and blocking out your actors - and consistently on top of that - it's meant to inflict an emotion or tell you something. what emotion is all dependent on the context.

it can be used to create a feeling of being lost or making your audience feel crowded along with the character on screen. but obviously, here we aren't meant to feel either way. with the combination of the extras walking passed our screen and the focus on mike casually reuniting/having personal conversations, there's a feeling of intrusion here. what's happening isn't any of our business, yet we are still watching - something's still watching and it's watching with a target and goal in mind. It's looking for information.

we also know it isn't a coincidence because it's a reoccuring pattern with mike. we constantly see shots of him from weird angles and weird distances that make it seem as if he's being watched by something. this is just another piece of evidence to add to the folder.

[t-lostinworlds]

CAPTAIN AMERICA: THE WINTER SOLDIER (2014) dir. Anthony Russo and Joe Russo