#IM SO SCARED IM WORDING THIS WRONG

[cryptidmickle]

hi your amnesiac au has me in SHAMBLES plsplspls im crying sobbing stabbing the floor

im so glad i discovered your blog 😭 your art is so lovely and nice and just. Yes. eats everythibg snd leaves no crumbs /silly

PLEASE i require more info about amnesiac au.

could this happen to the other Beasts? if it can happen to Shadow Milk, it might be possible with the others, should their Ancient counterparts get lucky with their attacks

does Shadow Milk gradually become less of an ass? does he seek answers as to Why he was so awful? does he care at all?

how horrified is he at the revelation that he was such a huge issue for the faeries + PV, if at all? he already doesn't know much about himself, so would not knowing he was such a problem, such an awful person, terrify him, considering he doesn't remember any of this?

idk. i personally would be so so incredibly horrified and terrified that i was so terrible and..well, monstrous, if i may. i kinda project onto Shadow Milk im ngl so that's probably why im saying any of this

IM SORRY THIS IS SO LONG im just so,,, AAAUAGTHYBHLRHTLBFLTTKG /POS abt this entire au. hoenstly it inspires me; both your art and your ideas and concepts

hope you have a good day!! stay safe /gen

SOBS IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE THIS AU!!! i read all the tags on my posts btw so if any of u went crazy in there i saw it and went crazy w u. im deranged and mentally ill if u cant tell.

i would say the cracking of the souljam and loss of power is very possible for the other beasts! the amnesia however is a Very special case of pure vanilla fucking up the spell he cast

the other beasts would be depowered and much weaker, but retain their memories...... actually, would their corruption break as well since the souljam disconnected entirely from them? hm, i think redemption would be more possible if an ancient got a lucky shot, in that case

shadow milk does in fact become less of a jerk! what with no longer being secluded in a spire losing his mind and sense of identity all by himself, his personality is forced to become. eh. LESS THORNY.

pure vanilla is socializing him like a dog and he is NOT enjoying it. but i am. put that guy in situations.

shadow milk does in fact seek answers to why he did so many terrible things! he knows his... current personality isn't the greatest, but he can't imagine doing some of the things described

he feels a certain disconnect to the him others describe terrorizing them to the him of present, while he feels bad for what happened to them he doesn't really feel apologetic because was it really him? how's he supposed to know?

should he feel sorry because it technically was him, just.. evil? would that excuse it if he doesn't feel sorry at all?

this is where shadow milk and white lily have similar dilemmas because they both have previously done terrible things to others, especially pure vanilla. they feel bad about it, they dont wanna hurt him or others like that ever again

but then this is where they separate because shadow milk doesn't feel at fault, he doesn't remember doing all those things, he doesn't even know who that was! you want me to grovel forever about it? pathetic, what's done is done anyways, why not try to do something now?

white lily absolutely despises that mindset as she's competing with pv over who can hate themselves more, and she is winning. she thinks they both deserve to repent forever for their crimes but is constantly reminded of the fact that she remembers but shadow milk doesn't! she knows what she did, why she did it, it was bad and terrible, but she understands and that's what's important and she must repent for it

shadow milk doesn't know, he doesn't know anything at all and theres even more that they can't tell him as he's apparently been evil for centuries. it's hard to argue that he needs to feel bad when the personalities are truly separated.

......i went on a ramble again.

he doesn't feel bad about what he did but he is in fact, very unnerved that he may be capable of those actions again, and with pure vanilla trying to teach him to be good and kind its...... panic inducing sometimes, that maybe he can do something terrible again, that the evil is possibly just lurking under the surface and hes fooling himself and everyone around him

[basilpaste]

i think. i think people forget, sometimes, that unlearning things takes time. and theyll get mad at themselves for not shifting their behavior immediately after learning something is wrong. its something that requires conscious effort, like breaking a bad habit. adjusting your thought patterns is not a one and done kind of deal.

and beyond that, exclusionary groups are inherently predatory and feed on your insecurities. lots of young people are corralled into these kinds of things because theyre looking for direction, for someone to tell them how to behave because they dont understand what theyre experiencing. and exclusionists will jump at the chance to dictate what it means to be a 'good' minority.

i got pretty trapped in trans/sysmedicalist spaces when i was younger and i still to this day find myself lapsing back into that way of thinking sometimes. i had an epiphany that i dont know if i actually want top surgery today. and my first thought was "but i wont pass that way" despite the fact that i havent cared about passing in many years. when i talk about my experience with plurality, theres often a nagging worry that people will decide im doing it wrong somehow.

i dunno where im going with this, really. just... give yourself some grace. shit takes time. youll get there.

[denkilightning]

[NINJAGO LEAKS DR S3P2, talking about jay/rogue]

jay rogue walker is better than me because if i lost my entire identity and memory and didnt even know if my name was actually real and got for years manipulated and lied to and the people who got me kicked out and kept switching back and forth from being seemingly nice to hating me for every little thing then commissioned me a job, then wanted me to risk my literal soul which is fucked up already from the other guy to save people we werent there for just to not save anyone but the targets anyway, and then go do that again??? and then they get mad at me for not wanting to risk my life for something i never wanted to be a part of?????? yeah id murder them all honestly

[ev-fav]

I haven't seen anyone mention this yet, but how are the Yellow fans doing after 49? Is anyone else thinking about the fact that a poem that Arthur told to Yellow is what John uses to bring him back? To convince him to live? That John admits he doesn't know where he learned this poem from???

[cutemeat]

why is this even a conversation if we know one thing its that the writers room’s most common phrase is “we’ve done that already” and they quite literally ALREADY did a plotline about what happened to Trump LITERALLY LAST SEASON down to everyone just getting nicked by the bullet 😭😭😭

[beclight]

im known for being THE bec light fan of the fandom, so i feel like im in the right place to say this: YOU DO NOT OWN FANDOM CHARACTERS AND CANNOT PREVENT OTHER PEOPLE FROM LIKING THEM JUST AS MUCH AS YOU DO, and if that makes you uncomfortable (which is fine, and for any reason), THE THING TO DO IS BLOCK NOT HARASS THEM!!!!!!! ive seen too many ppl in this fandom disrespect others over DARING to say, even as a joke, that they're the number one fan of X character. If someone having the same favorite group of pixels as you genuinely angers you, to the point of feeling the need to insult them and having concerning thoughts about them, then maybe it is time to log off

[sophiethewitch1]

Playing homicipher and realising that I'm actually fucking stupid lmao

[itsalongwaytotipperary]

May I suggest an interesting way to rewatch 1899? Recently I started rewatching episode 8 with the assumption that it was the first loop, and then when I finished episode 8 I watched episode 7, with the assumption that it was necessary for episode 8 to finish in order for episode 7 to start, and so on for the previous episodes. It really shows some interesting patterns and tricks

That sounds intriguing! Do you still think of it as a linear narrative, like a regular season but with the order of episodes reversed? Or is it like you're starting at the end and going to the beginning? (<- that probably doesn't make sense sorry) Is it like each ep is a different loop? Or they're all part of the same loop?

Sorry I'm asking so many questions, obviously an answer does not have to be provided. I'm kind of struggling to get my brain around this idea, and I'll probably try this myself to see how it is. Decidedly compelling and i like it :)

[delicatetigerobject]

i need you guys to understand that when I say "he's so me" I mean it in an autism way, not in an "I want to fuck him" way. in case that's not clear already

hes not a "hear me out", he's a "wow this person is like me"

[v4mpyrsp1t]

very rough current WIP of viktor serving cunt because I need to project baddd rn. he means a lot to me can u tell

[weird-color]

Sometimes I think that everything we see in DHMIS is just Lesley's head and own imagination driving her to the edge of insanity. Like with the entire thing of her yelling at yellow that he's "not her real son" made me think that mayhaps everything we see is taking place in her own imagination and delusions. She is imagining a world where her son is alive and even made new friends, yet she is already so twisted that the world is full of these weird adventures and "teachers" going around while doing horrible things to him. Almost as if she can't control it. Or as if the teachers are a way to remind her he is dead and she can't do anything about it. Only revive him and watch him suffer over and over.

Lesley is desperately trying to cling to the idea her son is alive and he is fine, even living with her. Yet she has these brief moments of reality and says "You're not my real SON" because she knows about this. She knows it's all in her head, but she clings to it as a way to comfort herself and try to forget about what happened. Even in the few memories of David being hit by a car, it is all animated in a cartoonish kind of way. This is either because she can't remember it fully, or at least, realistically, ORRR because the world of puppets is doing whatever it can, no matter the aesthetics, to remind her of what happened and bring her back to reality.

Lesley is denying everything and making up a place where her son is alive, but due to age or delusions, her life with him that was once colorful and full of life, is now starting to corrupt and show real life memories and desperately telling her to move on by showing a million times, no matter what, that David is dead.

[laika-of-the-stars]

that scene with cyn/the solver and uzi at the very end where the solver/cyn is still a part of uzi.... so OSSDID/System coded fr fr.... im going insane abt it. im so autistical abt this

please please PLEASE send me asks abt this i am so eager to talk to ppl abt it

(rambles in tags)

[sasukemexican]

have you seen the crossdressing white queers on this site getting really fucking mad over the term "klansfem" lmao

so are we just all getting insane anons all at once rn?

[maple-leifarts]

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[zackcharine]

I'm probably gonna work on the Brooke/Grace fic today if my brain allows it....

[tokencisgirl]

i'm not sure if i really want more online friends outside of the people already inside my circle atp honestly because tldr; Discourse