#IM SO SCARED IM WORDING THIS WRONG

[voidyapperemi]

shoutout to all artists who:

feel they have a 'beginner artstyle'

are still at a beginner skill level despite being 'too old' or having created art for years

can only draw a few characters

can only draw from one perspective

can't draw poses/anatomy

can't draw pespective

can't draw something correcty the first try

can't draw something without a reference (USING A REFERENCE DOESN'T MEAN IT'S NOT YOUR ART. IT'S JUST HELPING)

can't draw it the way it looks in their head

just start drawing with zero plan and see what comes out

don't work on improving their skills (if you don't want to, not because you're procrastinating. DO YOUR WORK GUYS)

can only draw a certain thing/are only interested in drawing a certain thing (i don't and can't draw backgrounds)

feel pressured by the 'need' to improve! even if your art sucks you shouldn't be stressed about how fast you're improving :3

don't have expensive art supplies (traditional)/a stylus or tablet (digital)

What matters about YOUR art is that YOU have fun making it! No matter how many stupid thoughts about how it doesn't look how it does in your head and that it doesn't feel right show up, PUSH THROUGH IT!!! You're doing this for YOUR enjoyment. And whatever that means for you IS OKAY!!! If that means you don't improve? Fine! If it means you have to ask other artists for help, or use a reference, maybe even trace a part of the pose (with credit)? ALSO FINE!! Do whatever you need to for you to be happy! Because if you consistently feel like shit creating your art, it'll stop being a hobby and just become another chore for you, ART IS FOR YOURSELF FIRST!!!

And to all my artists that do prioritize improving their art: I love you too!! Both ways of creating art are completely fine! There's just different goals behind them, and any combination of these can work too! How you choose to create art and what you do it for depends entirely on your own funky little brain :P I don't mean to discourage learning with this post- In fact, I'm damn envious of those who do, keep up the good work - What I do mean to do is calm down all the little silly goobers who look up to all these other artists so much they hate their own art! Because honey, that's now what you should be doing - Creating, and getting better at creating, art has to come with some level of fun too! I'm gonna have to start my own learning journey at some point in the future- but when? I'll see! C:

[cryptidmickle]

hi your amnesiac au has me in SHAMBLES plsplspls im crying sobbing stabbing the floor

im so glad i discovered your blog 😭 your art is so lovely and nice and just. Yes. eats everythibg snd leaves no crumbs /silly

PLEASE i require more info about amnesiac au.

could this happen to the other Beasts? if it can happen to Shadow Milk, it might be possible with the others, should their Ancient counterparts get lucky with their attacks

does Shadow Milk gradually become less of an ass? does he seek answers as to Why he was so awful? does he care at all?

how horrified is he at the revelation that he was such a huge issue for the faeries + PV, if at all? he already doesn't know much about himself, so would not knowing he was such a problem, such an awful person, terrify him, considering he doesn't remember any of this?

idk. i personally would be so so incredibly horrified and terrified that i was so terrible and..well, monstrous, if i may. i kinda project onto Shadow Milk im ngl so that's probably why im saying any of this

IM SORRY THIS IS SO LONG im just so,,, AAAUAGTHYBHLRHTLBFLTTKG /POS abt this entire au. hoenstly it inspires me; both your art and your ideas and concepts

hope you have a good day!! stay safe /gen

SOBS IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE THIS AU!!! i read all the tags on my posts btw so if any of u went crazy in there i saw it and went crazy w u. im deranged and mentally ill if u cant tell.

i would say the cracking of the souljam and loss of power is very possible for the other beasts! the amnesia however is a Very special case of pure vanilla fucking up the spell he cast

the other beasts would be depowered and much weaker, but retain their memories...... actually, would their corruption break as well since the souljam disconnected entirely from them? hm, i think redemption would be more possible if an ancient got a lucky shot, in that case

shadow milk does in fact become less of a jerk! what with no longer being secluded in a spire losing his mind and sense of identity all by himself, his personality is forced to become. eh. LESS THORNY.

pure vanilla is socializing him like a dog and he is NOT enjoying it. but i am. put that guy in situations.

shadow milk does in fact seek answers to why he did so many terrible things! he knows his... current personality isn't the greatest, but he can't imagine doing some of the things described

he feels a certain disconnect to the him others describe terrorizing them to the him of present, while he feels bad for what happened to them he doesn't really feel apologetic because was it really him? how's he supposed to know?

should he feel sorry because it technically was him, just.. evil? would that excuse it if he doesn't feel sorry at all?

this is where shadow milk and white lily have similar dilemmas because they both have previously done terrible things to others, especially pure vanilla. they feel bad about it, they dont wanna hurt him or others like that ever again

but then this is where they separate because shadow milk doesn't feel at fault, he doesn't remember doing all those things, he doesn't even know who that was! you want me to grovel forever about it? pathetic, what's done is done anyways, why not try to do something now?

white lily absolutely despises that mindset as she's competing with pv over who can hate themselves more, and she is winning. she thinks they both deserve to repent forever for their crimes but is constantly reminded of the fact that she remembers but shadow milk doesn't! she knows what she did, why she did it, it was bad and terrible, but she understands and that's what's important and she must repent for it

shadow milk doesn't know, he doesn't know anything at all and theres even more that they can't tell him as he's apparently been evil for centuries. it's hard to argue that he needs to feel bad when the personalities are truly separated.

......i went on a ramble again.

he doesn't feel bad about what he did but he is in fact, very unnerved that he may be capable of those actions again, and with pure vanilla trying to teach him to be good and kind its...... panic inducing sometimes, that maybe he can do something terrible again, that the evil is possibly just lurking under the surface and hes fooling himself and everyone around him

[basilpaste]

i think. i think people forget, sometimes, that unlearning things takes time. and theyll get mad at themselves for not shifting their behavior immediately after learning something is wrong. its something that requires conscious effort, like breaking a bad habit. adjusting your thought patterns is not a one and done kind of deal.

and beyond that, exclusionary groups are inherently predatory and feed on your insecurities. lots of young people are corralled into these kinds of things because theyre looking for direction, for someone to tell them how to behave because they dont understand what theyre experiencing. and exclusionists will jump at the chance to dictate what it means to be a 'good' minority.

i got pretty trapped in trans/sysmedicalist spaces when i was younger and i still to this day find myself lapsing back into that way of thinking sometimes. i had an epiphany that i dont know if i actually want top surgery today. and my first thought was "but i wont pass that way" despite the fact that i havent cared about passing in many years. when i talk about my experience with plurality, theres often a nagging worry that people will decide im doing it wrong somehow.

i dunno where im going with this, really. just... give yourself some grace. shit takes time. youll get there.

[ev-fav]

I haven't seen anyone mention this yet, but how are the Yellow fans doing after 49? Is anyone else thinking about the fact that a poem that Arthur told to Yellow is what John uses to bring him back? To convince him to live? That John admits he doesn't know where he learned this poem from???

[cutemeat]

why is this even a conversation if we know one thing its that the writers room’s most common phrase is “we’ve done that already” and they quite literally ALREADY did a plotline about what happened to Trump LITERALLY LAST SEASON down to everyone just getting nicked by the bullet 😭😭😭

[sophiethewitch1]

Playing homicipher and realising that I'm actually fucking stupid lmao

[skunkes]

the bad: i have been raised without much warmth from my parents in childhood, but also pressured to conform to familial authority, doubt myself always, and value familial connections above all else (<- failed at this, and feel guilt about it.)

but also in experiencing this i have been so isolated from the entire rest of the world and others, that it will be nearly impossible to create my own "family" -> find safety and comfort in anybody else once my family is Gone. despite dis i find it really difficult to break away from the familiar, disobey and disappoint, because, well, why are my wishes more important than anybody else's. why would I cause upset and distress in anybody, and exert so much effort into my doubt filled half decisions, for my meaningless little Wishes. being away would also mean less time with these people who I'll never see again once they're gone. being raised this way is definitely paying off for those who did so.

the good: yaaaay adjacent inspiration for writing talon lore

[itsalongwaytotipperary]

May I suggest an interesting way to rewatch 1899? Recently I started rewatching episode 8 with the assumption that it was the first loop, and then when I finished episode 8 I watched episode 7, with the assumption that it was necessary for episode 8 to finish in order for episode 7 to start, and so on for the previous episodes. It really shows some interesting patterns and tricks

That sounds intriguing! Do you still think of it as a linear narrative, like a regular season but with the order of episodes reversed? Or is it like you're starting at the end and going to the beginning? (<- that probably doesn't make sense sorry) Is it like each ep is a different loop? Or they're all part of the same loop?

Sorry I'm asking so many questions, obviously an answer does not have to be provided. I'm kind of struggling to get my brain around this idea, and I'll probably try this myself to see how it is. Decidedly compelling and i like it :)

[st4rstudent]

i feel somewhat responsible for this, even if i’m not the one saying these things. I’m genuinely so sorry.

No need to apologize! It's not one singular person doing it and truth be told I don't think it's a large majority that thinks that (albeit the ones that do are quite vocal). I didn't mean to upset anyone or anything when complaining about it, I was just letting off some steam.

Having a yap session under the cut sorry I feel like rambling under your ask anon.

Admittedly, I do think there are reasonings for people thinking this way. A lot of the focus with Clash has been on the cogs, especially after the 1.3 update. Which I can't say I blame them! Managers were something new and exciting and (from what I can tell) really separated them from the other servers. I don't blame them for wanting to put focus on that because that was their thing. Alongside other things, but majorly when you hear Clash the managers are mentioned in someway shape or form. But as we all know, toons ended up taking the short stick from this. This isn't helped by the gameplay itself, being mainly a fetch-quest deal so you often only talk to npcs once or twice unless if they're repeated ones and the taskline wasn't entirely accessible on the wiki for a while (shoutout to the wiki maintainers. The taskline script is a savior). Which I'm quite excited to see if they deal with this issue with the rewrite. I imagine they will, but anyways. Social media posts would often contain more managers than toons, which I also believe they're starting to fix. And ontop of this, I believe most of the team in the early era of the sever is gone, so there's been some stuff lost in the change. So yeah, dialogue/writing has been kind of rocky. AGAIN- I am completely aware of the rewrite going on and I am not judging them harshly based off of their current state. I'm very appreciative of the fact that they took the time to listen and are focusing on trying to fix it up. And then there's also fandom mischaracterization- especially of the cogs. Forgive me for mentioning mischaracterization because normally I wouldn't really care (I've mischaracterized characters before..especially in my younger years. I think it's just a process of learning an having fun and I hate to limit anyone because of it). With that being said, there's a lot of baby-fying and coddling of the managers. Especially with those who have more 'sympathetic' stories (Misty, Chip, Winston specifically). Don't get me wrong, I like these characters and I can appreciate the story they're trying to tell, but I feel like so many people will hear their dialogue and then misplace their anger. People get mad at Bessie for trying to protect HER lighthouse or at the Elders for trying to keep YOTT safe (lets not forget Winston was there to brainwash toons). Yes, yes technically there would've been better ways to do it but consider this: The toons are scared. Their homes, stores, lives are being taken over by a big corporation that has more resources that they do. They don't have the privilege of waiting, seeing, and gathering. And then people forget that the company has such a huge role in both toons and cogs lives. If you're mad over the mistreatment of Misty or the fact that Winston is still in the dungeon, your anger should be directed at the company who doesn't care. I may be completely wrong in saying this, but I feel like the stories with almost all of the managers is a reflection of the company. The toons are only trying to protect themself and their environments and yet this seems to go forgotten when people start bashing them. And of course, I'd consider myself a toon guy so me saying all this and complaining may come off as "I HATE the cogs and everyone who posts only about them!" and for clarification that's not true. You all know how much I like that little brain thing. The cogs are interesting, their designs are fun, I don't blame people for liking them because I do too. I just wish that the thought process behind so many of these discussions wasn't so cog focused because I believe that this anger at the toons for, RIGHTFULLY, defending themselves helps push this mischaracterization of them as a whole. That they're mean, boring, unlikeable while the opposite is true. Yes there are some, what I'd consider, "filler" dialogue from the shopkeepers. This is just because of the gameplay. But there are some funny and cute moments with them if people would just listen and read.

Which also brings me into another point: people skip the dialogue. I've caught myself doing this before (on my first account. I have 4 accounts total, so I reread the dialogue on like 3 of them). But people will complain about lack of toon personalities while doing this. It's like reading through a comic book, only looking at the drawings, and then complaining because there "isn't a storyline". Luckily, there's been efforts to keep track of the dialogue on the wiki but I doubt a lot of people are going through and reading the entire script. It just feels very disingenuous to criticize the dialogue when you haven't even read it. Likewise, people don't seem to read the blogposts either. This is both from a dialogue aspect and from an update aspect (people continuously asking about hammerspace/mix-and-match under unrelated posts).

[dreamdripdistance]

hey why do i work myself up into like genuine panic attack levels of anxiety over just the most stupid shit. rude

[weird-color]

Sometimes I think that everything we see in DHMIS is just Lesley's head and own imagination driving her to the edge of insanity. Like with the entire thing of her yelling at yellow that he's "not her real son" made me think that mayhaps everything we see is taking place in her own imagination and delusions. She is imagining a world where her son is alive and even made new friends, yet she is already so twisted that the world is full of these weird adventures and "teachers" going around while doing horrible things to him. Almost as if she can't control it. Or as if the teachers are a way to remind her he is dead and she can't do anything about it. Only revive him and watch him suffer over and over.

Lesley is desperately trying to cling to the idea her son is alive and he is fine, even living with her. Yet she has these brief moments of reality and says "You're not my real SON" because she knows about this. She knows it's all in her head, but she clings to it as a way to comfort herself and try to forget about what happened. Even in the few memories of David being hit by a car, it is all animated in a cartoonish kind of way. This is either because she can't remember it fully, or at least, realistically, ORRR because the world of puppets is doing whatever it can, no matter the aesthetics, to remind her of what happened and bring her back to reality.

Lesley is denying everything and making up a place where her son is alive, but due to age or delusions, her life with him that was once colorful and full of life, is now starting to corrupt and show real life memories and desperately telling her to move on by showing a million times, no matter what, that David is dead.

[laika-of-the-stars]

that scene with cyn/the solver and uzi at the very end where the solver/cyn is still a part of uzi.... so OSSDID/System coded fr fr.... im going insane abt it. im so autistical abt this

please please PLEASE send me asks abt this i am so eager to talk to ppl abt it

(rambles in tags)

[blu3-sp00ky]

white person online: 'youre a racist islamophobic bitch' me, a brown aroace trans neurodiv jewish person who only said that he supports israel because he doesnt want his people to die out: '???'

[maple-leifarts]

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[2-kamikou-1]

ok but no guys seriously how do you ask for reassurance in a way that doesn't make you look like a stupid yandere stereotype

[zackcharine]

I'm probably gonna work on the Brooke/Grace fic today if my brain allows it....