#IM SO FUCKING TIRED I JUST WANNA SLEEP BUT IVE GOT TO GO TO SCHOOL. AND DO CHEMISTRY😭😭😭😭😭

[ilonacho]

it hit me what makes me the most miserable abt my work week is how it’s just school all over again. just hanging in there until the weekend. repeat. repeat. repeat

[dizzybevvie]

screaming into the abyss

[puppmeo]

Have you ever been assumed to be romantically attracted to someone and even just the thought of that makes you want to throw up . Anybody

[lycankeyy]

Okay here's the whole thing I filled out with boyf in-character enjoy his one total braincell if he's lucky. I'm putting zero effort into formatting this bc tumblr is glitchy on my phone blank template is here

(cw: sexual humor. also a bunch of intentional typos and gratuitous swearing)

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1. Okay, first question: what’s your name, age, and gender?

- they call me boyfriend im 19 and i sap the gender out of the music

2. How would you describe yourself, personality-wise?

- fuckkk man idk. im p chill i think ig im pretty cool. pretty swag pretty gamer

3. What’s a typical day like for you?

- welll I wake up at like. 11 usually at earliest and I hang out w one of my partners sometimes I watch movies w em or work on music. not a lot going on usually

4. How do you wind down at the end of the day? Do you even wind down?

- most of the time i literally just wait until i crash out sometimes gf and peeks gotta drag me to bed lol

5. What is your earliest memory?

- UHHHHH oh god uhhh. I think. When I was like five we went to a festival or smth and we went on one of those twirly things and I made my dad spin the thing so hard I threw up LMAO

6. What is/was your relationship with your parents?

- i mean p good i think but we dont rly tlak anymore thats mostly my fault tho

7. What do you do when you’re bored?

- succumb to the madness mostly

8. Do you regret anything you’ve done?

- i mean not like currently

9. Do you dress to be functional or fashionable?

- bro i wear the same exact fucking outfit every day to be honest with you lol. It's not like I'm fuckin going anywhere

10. Who are your best friends? How did you meet them?

- DUUUDE assuming my partners don't count gotta shout out my man darnell we've been workin on a collab ep recently it goes hard as fuckkkkk. we met back in the stupid therapy program back in middle school he introduced me to pico n nene

11. Have any siblings? If so, what is your relationship?

- yea got a big sister and a lil bro. they're both sweet but kinda clueless tbh. technically got other stuff goin on too but im kinda worried that ill get like the government on my ass if i talk abt it

12. What is your job? Is it tiring or difficult?

- closest thinf ive got to a job is music ig and nah. really wouldn't rather be doing anything else even if it payed more tbh. when I get burnt out I wanna die but thafs not a big deal lmao

13. When you’re going through a rough time, do you seek help or consolation from others?

- on a scale of liek paper cut to nearly died how rough are we talking

14. How easy is it for others to gain your trust?

- ive been told im pretty trusting but i feel like any person whos meant to hurt me was pretty upfront abt it so ┐(´∀｀)┌

15. What is your sexuality, if you don’t mind me asking?

- all the time all the time

16. Do you have a significant other? What are they like?

- "a" singular. lol. lmao even. bros asking if I got one singular partner lmao try two bitch and thyere the best most important people in the world

17. Have you ever lost a loved one?

- not like perminently

18. How often do you act on impulse? Does it ever backfire?

- lsiten if i do it all the time then like statisicly it only backfires like 40% of the time okay

19. Do you believe in ghosts?

- I believe in everyone bro

20. How about aliens?

- aliens are hisyorically very mean to me but ig i can just then believe that they can be better people. or aliens

21. What traits do you value the most in others?

- uhhh probably like being just nice ig? idk i think it can take a lot more effort than people think to be considerate and stuff I appreciate when people are nice even if they have a reason not to be

22. Do you dream often? What are your dreams like?

- i used to not to but somethings happened and now I get them all the time. don't really want to talk about it they're mostly just weird

23. Are you a light or heavy sleeper? Do you sleep in?

- my partners say im such a heavy sleeper that one time i slept through gf falling off the bed in the middle of the night but I was asleep so I can't cofnirm

24. Okay, this is a bit personal, but… Have you ever (uh) “done the do”?

- dude like u wouldn't believe

25. Do you have any pets?

- nah but I think it would be cool to have a guinea pig they seem chill and I appreciate their vibes

26. Ever been drunk before? How often do you drink?

- i try not to toooooooo much but i think i have a hard time telling when too much is too much. dont tell my parents

27. Are you respectful to authority figures?

- they only have as much authority as you give them. manipulate a landlord today

28. What kinds of movies do you like you watch?

- https://youtu.be/HgjyQ0_coJo?si=L5Bzhey5cxaoNpWU

29. Do you have any guilty pleasures?

- ██████ █████ █ ███████ ████ ███ ████ ███████ ███ ████ ████████████ ██ ███ ███ ████ ██ one time nene found it in my dresser and I almost DIED wait was this question not about sex stuff

30. What would you say is the happiest memory of your life?

- ohh thats hard uhh. happiest is hard to qualify i think. I think I'm happiest whenever I think abt waking up next to my partners

31. How about your worst memory?

- thats a good question

32. What did you aspire to be when you were young? Did that dream change as you grew up?

- i didn't think I'd be fuckign anythang

33. How far would you be willing to go to get what you want?

- u gotta quantify what I want here tbh. is it like a chocolate bar or one billion dollars. cuz id kill someone for a billion dollars. honestly i might also kill someone for a chocolate bar but like not as badly

34. What is sure to ruin your day?

- idk nearly dying again probably

35. Do you have any nervous habits?

- uhhh sometimes i mess with my hair and when i get rly upset i pull at it til it hurts. i used to scratch my face a lot when i was upset too but it freaks ppl out so i try not to if i can help it

36. Play video games often?

- i tryyyyy but i get distracted so fast i play a game and im like oh shit this reminds me of another thing i was gonna play n then i go play that and then I never FINISH ANYTHIGN

37. What kind of things do you laugh at?

- https://youtu.be/47EOSLWu-EI?si=kuzPv2Vndl91Oj3C

38. Favorite genre of music?

- BROOOO ok gonna be basic as shit and say breakcore. also a huge fan of speedcore and drill & bass but breakcore is my home. i wishhh it wasn't called this but my favorite like subgenre of breakcore is probs lolicore not for any fuckin weird reason but just bc the way the vocals are usually mixed scratches my brain sooooooo fuking good. listen to various types of ads by loli in early 20s and youll get it. i fucking love experimental breakcore my favorite album rossz csillag alatt született mixes breakcore+dr&b w classical and it's sooooo fucking good it's SO good i need to learn more fuckin instrument plug ins so I can make shit like that. in general i just love music that feels like it's fuckin drilling it's way into youre brain and rewiring it i want the music to fuckin labotomize me fr

39. What do you think your spirit animal would be if you had one?

- idk maybe a rat i like rats. dude imagine if i was a rat like ritz we could have cheese together. we can do that anyway but it would be more awesome

40. Have an accent of any kind?

- yea autism

41. Chess or checkers?

- checkers i have no idea how to play chess but it sounds convoluted as fuk

42. Do you feel sentimentality toward a particular object?

- i love my laptop even if I get a new computer and this thing breaks completely im keeping this laptop ily laptop

43. Are you generally pretty secretive, or are you an open book?

- im like accidentally secretive i dont even try like wtf do you mean im supposed to talk about shit

44. What are you most embarrassed about?

- i feel like this was addressed in the nene thing

45. What are your deepest fears?

- have you ever seen that fuckin brony stuff where people get teleported to pony world as horses gf is obsessed with that kinda thing but that's TERRIFYING if i woke up as a horse id fuckin die of a heart attack

46. How desperate would you have to be to lie to, steal from, injure, or murder another person? Do you do any of those things regularly?

- i like the implication that i would admit to murdering ppl on a regular basis

47. Do you have any scars? How did you get them?

- it's so fucked up i got this scar on my face and it's so bad bc I don't even scar that easy like i get into fights my entire life but i only got one scar just bc some weeb tried to kill me. like ok

48. Say someone has mistreated you in some form. Would you immediately lose your temper, hold a grudge, or simply let it go?

- you wouldnt believe my epic power to do all of those simaltaneusly

49. How do you deal with physical and mental pain?

- max volume noise nothing can hurt me if the Loud

50. What is your ideal place to live?

- never thought abt it tbh ig anywhere with my partners

51. What was your childhood like?

- just 18 years of stupid therapy programs and stupid special ed classes and ppl telling me how to think and how to act and like I was 4 years old forever i don't careeee

52. What is your favorite kind of weather?

- i think snow is pretty

53. How important to you is friendship? What about romance?

- i think they're both pretty great but idk i feel like urself should be most important bc idk shit happens and ppl leave so if you dont like yourself youre just gonna be stuck with some miserable loser who doesnt have any friends as ur only company

54. Have any disabilities, weaknesses, or allergies?

- i feel like in a hypothetical situation i would be pretty weak to godzilla

55. What’s your favorite thing to eat?

- SPICY FOOOOOOOD my spice tolerance fucks hard i will drink hot sauce. right now holdbon

56. Do you have kids? If not, do you picture yourself ever having them?

- could you fucking imagine.

57. How well can you sing?

- idk but i like it

58. Are you particularly confident? Does your confidence level change if less people are around?

- if nobody got me i know i got me

59. Do you like shopping?

- delivery apps were invented for a reason

60. How do you interact with strangers?

- tbh i usually just tune out anyone that's not talking to me LMAO

61. Have you ever been betrayed by someone you loved?

- not like perminently

62. If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?

- don't like this question

63. If you could meet anyone from the past or future, who would it be?

- fuckkkkk my gf isn't home rn can I pick her

64. If a genie granted you three wishes, what would they be?

- money bigass house and then I wouldn't use the last one so we could just vibe forver

65. Do you like attention?

- ask pico

66. Are you glad I’ve run out of questions to ask?

- ig bc im puttin off chores ily though

[thatblvckboyy]

girl i have sm delulu ideas imma just drop it then sleep on grass MWAH (you could put any idol as substitute and with my storage being likr 0.1 empty i need some pics LOLz)

1. jeno being the school heartthrob but no one knows except for his friends cause its obvious to them on his crush on this cute femboy but he doesnt wanna do shit with him cause hes scared of genuine relationships so he just hookup with random ppl thinking its him until he finds out that the girl hes talking to make out flaked on him and hes flirting with the femboy that he's been crushing on but his crush thought hes not interested when jeno got shocked and jeno proved him wrong in the library

2. soobin and yn were roommates and what yn doesnt know is that soobin was that member of the rock band hes been listening and also was the tall guy with the mask and big tiddies and abs that always wear calvin klrin and make sure his outfits make him show it which he wants to get fucked by him so bad. soobin and yn hates eo tho cause yn is annoyed with the commotion soobin is making all the time and soobin is annoyed at yn just cause hes cute and hes fun to tease so his surprise when he sees yn fingering himself to photo of him he knows who his muse is gonna be in the next album

3. sunghoon and sunoo are really close and ppl think theyre a couple and knowing sunoo being so pretty yn thinks hes not gonna get sunghoon and he becomes jealous overtime at sunoo for being so pretty and getting the hottest guy in the school but that all stops when a drunk confession by sunoo says how sunghoon wants yn to [REDACTED] and yn is now frozen when sunoo dropped forward to him and he has to help sunghoon to bring sunoo home and trying to cover the fact that he knows that sunghoon has the heats for him (and maybe sunoo has the heats for yn too)

4. taehyun. just taehyun. there was literally no chance for taehyun to see you and make him sign an nda with you. unless....

5. bangchan/felix (idk they both fit) is an obsession for no reason should you be buying all their merch watching their relaxing lives (no its not cause theyre shirtless half the time) and giving and funding them gifts if you can i mean its rlly embarrassing but at least you wont get to meet them so its just support so... "hey! im your new neighbor. hope we get along" that accent feels all too familiar?.!,!,

6. san was so drunk he didnt recognize that he wasnt hugging his pillow but his crush. and yn was stiff as a rock feeling san's body knowing he's- GRINDING? you scream but when san got out of his drowsiness and drunkness you relaxed "yk i liked it. ive always liked you sa-" "fuck. kiss me pls yn"

7. seven minutes with anton. from him being the cutest most innocent big man to you clenching yourself from his 7 inch FAWK I NEED HIM

mwah rate each one its obvi i got tired at some of them BEJDKFKFKFOF

Omg girllie wat r u doing here go and make a fic already I wanna read them all

[lonelyplanetfag]

how r u ? what hv u been doing ? favorite album l8ly? what r u looking 4ward 2 ? favorite thing uve seen recently?

im rly rly tired i need 2 go 2 bed but im half reading this book n my eyes hurt so so bad but i don't wanna sleep yet so i'm not gonna !! n like my mental health is Worse which sucks major ass but it's wtvr its all good yk !! its just kinda that time of year 4 me ig. n ive just been going 2 school n coming home man that's abt it:) i don't ever rly do anything which is probably bad but idk what 2 do !!! shits expensive n im always tired n got a headache or smth so its not rly worth it yk? oh n ive been listening 2 use once and destroy a lot cuz its familiar n it fucks me up n ive been rly insane abt bobby the past couple weeks but also im listening 2 just a lot of random shit by the cure recently n idk why !!i should make a playlist 4 the cure but not 2nite.n as 4 stuff im looking forward 2 its rly just taking naps after school n nothin else idk!! but actuslly now there's franks radio show which is real fuckin cool n possiblymy favorite thing on earth !!!!!!!!!!!!! n the best thing ive seen is all the pictures grey sends me when he takes his cat n his dog on walks downtown !! that shit is wonderful !!!!!!!! he took them out 2day n sent me like a million photos it was great:))

[lostacelonnie]

It sure is the new year & somehow im still tired and way busier than i would like. So uh. Sorry this took me a bit to get to. The first time i read your response i thought you'd said you were watching bocchi which confused me because you had already. But im glad you are enjoying bofuri. She's such a chaotic disaster character. Ohh i think i feel you on that my brother in law & i have like. Opposing autism vibes & coexisting with him when we share apace is exhausting. I hope school is going well for you! Yeah like. Honestly sometimes ill chat with people at a theater but mostly just. Please do not. Im just there for a film. Love the communal effort to just. Understand your teacher what a time that must be. My parents did teach to cook a bit. I learned spaghetti & a basic taco recipe from them. But i learned a lot from there so i had a bit of a spring board to go off. I hope you have a fun time learning to cook stuff i enjoy it immensely. Even with all the dishes it can make. Honestly schools are just. Weird if anything. Liminal space adjacent but in a way neither good or bad. Im sad i missed getting to pull her i want ruan mei but due to bad storms my internet was out, which also contributed to late response, for the last days of her banner. So i have to save for her re run. I am so normal about her & stelle(lying). I finally finished the argenti quest but had to level & gear himeko & welt. Got kafka on my console account from her banner & it gave me e1 bailu when i hoped for clara. Ohh so its like a character growth/change type thing. As the story progresses & they change they gain new herscherr forms. I think if my understanding is right. Or right as it can be for something not fully explained? I miss manaria & the gang already. Can only tide myself over with other villainess shows til it returns. Or i read more. Dungeon meshi at least has an airing anime adaptation now which means i can see my favorite fail girl marcille in animation. I will remember that & look to the community for help as needed if i pick noita up thank you for the tip. I too want himeko to be fine & alive so i sympathize with the hi3 fans. I dont remember if she's getting off on penacony or not if thats been said. But penacony definitely has some characters i want. Oh okay damn i always wondered about her floating. So thats one mystery solved. Wait seele has just. Basically a good dog aura? Oh so kiana mei & bronya have the most extensive lore? What about uh. Durandal? I feel like ive seen that particular polish phrase before whats it mean?

HI HELLO its been 20 years which im SO FUCKING SORRY about...... my life has decided to just Not give me a break recently. and understandable akdfkgjksj i should really continue watching it but ah.... so busy. and Tired all the time. actually got to skip school today bc i was so sleep deprived i thought i was sick but then i slept for another 4 hours and i feel so much better now. should be studying [have 8 exams coming up until the end of february.......] but i also Need to chill for a bit. agghhh. and oh understandable!! it really is just like that sometimes. school, as i said, is. psychologically torturing me but im actually not in that much pain so yeah!! and thanks also. i hope my teachers let us catch a break soon. at least ive recently picked up baking to destress so at least im not about to become the joker. and REAL LIKE i also dont mind talking with people in public places from time to time but i usually just wanna mind my own business. and yeah its SO funny but also im surprised how nice all my classmates are about helping others. like. if we had to cooperate to create a message with my old classmates everyone would just instantly start making fun of each other for not knowing something. OOOH COOL....... when i have more time i should learn to make some spanish dishes. went to gran canaria with my mom recently and god ive missed their cuisine SO much. god yeah schools are like another dimension to me ngl. they work based on different rules then the rest of the world. AND AUUGHGH PAIN...... good luck with getting her on future reruns tho!!! same with being Totally Normal. and hey congrats on all that!!! i also ended up doing argentis quest and luckily didnt have time with fighting him thanks to clara who makes it extremely easy. generally shes always carrying me. finally got to trailblaze lvl 65 and i only have my clara team at lvl 80 rn so i should probs work on kafka etc but i hate grinding mats...... hell on earth. oh well. and yeah more or less!!! tho it also depends on the person and circumstances, as some people will get new authorities, some will kind of. get closer to their current one? and some people might even give up their herrscher authorities with time. but yeah honkai loves to retcon itself so its kinda blurry sometimes. I MISS EVERYONE TOOOOOO and i started watching reborn as a villainess some time ago but ah. didnt have time to continue. i ALSO started watching dunmesh and ALSO didnt have time to catch up with it but im SO excited for it bc ive only watched 3 eps but love it already. if you ever Do pick up the game then good luck!! its as brutal as it is fun to play. himeko protection squad forever....... i should finish penacony when i get the time and motivation. wasnt too interested in any chars at first but acheron stole my heart....... so would sparkle if she wasnt so Racist for no reason. yes seele Does have a good doggy aura SHDKFJKS even The Great Herrscher Of Sentience cant say no to her. shes so sweet and i love her. and yeah basically!!!! since theyre effectively all the protags, even if kiana is the "main" one. AND I WILL VERY EXCITEDLY TELL YOU LITERALLY ALL DURANDAL LORE AS I KNOW IT BY HEART BUT ALSO LITERALLY DONT HAVE ENOUGH ENERGY TO WRITE IT ALL DOWN RIGHT NOW SO ILL TRY TO GET THAT DONE BY YOUR NEXT MESSAGE. so well both have time to write our respective stuff. and oh polska gurom is a misspelled version of polska górą [since its pronounced almost the same] which more or less means poland on top. its used ironically most of the time and i LOVE saying it

[frostbite-the-bat]

goofy ass ms paint werewolf eating a mango as a divider between the rant under this bc i do not wish to be precieved rn but i still wanna rant some thoughts out

random lovely guzma urge to delyeet everythin on myne site bc not only did i make it for petz things back when i was active between petz folks and got some encouragement there and ended up never finishing petz things for it, but i also feel horrible and uncommited for it being hosted and made on weebly and for bein too lazy to yeet my shit over to neocities just cause that shit gives me a headache and instead of getting inspired by people i feel jealous and unwelcome

also been working on my sleep schedule its a bit better now and im like. better in general now..? idk how long i can keep this up but getting up early makes me just. so tired like all day urgh i do not understand how i used to keep myself up when this tired. tired tired. brain empty. hard to do shit for long. defo needs more breaks but i swear to god everything feels like its frying my brain but i got nothin to do indoors. guess i can go draw traditionall but i end up putting such high expectations on myself i just yeah. fuck it up. get stressed. not fun. i need to stop thinking about others bc i keep thinking i put effort into smthn i need to show it off.like if i wasted time here i might as well. no this isnt showable it sucks damn it

even stuff i do draw purely for myself as self indulgent shit i go urhh this aint right

oh and then i try doin a lil excercise so im not like. physically diyng but my god that tires me out like instantly. but its okay, baby steps.

dont know what sort of place i am in mentally. the type id prolly spiral a bit over if it werent nice and 2 pm. wacky stuff. i wanna maybe do some stuff but ugh my brain just. isnt big thoughts when im tired. but honestly when am i not tired. and i am getting art done but i cant get myself to draw all day again ill end up in pain again my hand rn already is being a bit of a bitch

uhhh played pokemon in the morning but i need better pokemon already. i fuck up every raid (raids i need so i can get better mons easier) (and my shiny ralts i want easier)

hmm maybe i need a break from stuff but what kinda break what even is relaxing in my case? and "break from people" is a slippery slope of self isolation i always slip into. bit difficult to figure myself out

also, different thing, but ive been considering this for a good few months now and kinda ignoring it but i read one (1) thing and i m intrigued to do more n more research now but man do not like how moral ocd clicks perfectly with a lot of my most common issues . so i guess thats a thing to consider going into (like research) . if it helps .bc dear god i am Sensitive

but uhmmm yea sleeping better now ig like i went to sleep around ONE. my usual sleep time was 5-6 am a while ago !!!!!!! 1 am has always been my kinda usual time. man and i used to do that even when i had school and i *functioned* with less sleep. how did i do that. uhm. not well i guess

but yeah. things.. arent feeling right and i kinda wanna wipe my brain. also the neocities thing seems to be a part of my issue of (ppl who dont care abt me) r gonna thingk i suck bc i dont do (this that i find difficult) (coding) i will be exploded forever and shunned andhated

uhmmm what else yea last thought i forgot as i was gonna type it and the last thing i am deciding not to share anyway bc Shame so hooray

guy who is eeypy tired

i am just realizing how like tired i am but if i go nap ill make it worse so uhmm cope i guess lmfao at least it keeps me going to sleep at a more regular hour but like srsly brain we got around 8 hours of sleep why are you tired we used to get less and function fine. maybe not as good but we functioned

[catfish-and-the]

bout 2 rant

the way my life has been full of suffering like from what i remember my friends have always treated me like shit from elementary school thru. undergrad and its not even the same group of ppl its different ppl but they all treat me the same and when i made a band i thot i finally had some people to count on but they let me down so many times and i just had to suck it up because i know that this is the best it was gonna get and i eventually got tired of putting up with all of it thhat i just got rid of them but since then i havent been able to put a working band together bc i literally just have to put up w ppl asking me out and showing up at the wrong gig venue and not learning songs bc thats still more than any other musician has ever done for me and now im in graduate school and i sit on my ass all day coding bc i have so much homework and studying to do i cant do anythknng else and i cant go to concerts because all concerts do is remind me that everyonees friends treat them better than i get treated for over twenty fucking years and iget jealous bc i just want someone to be nice to me and i hate my program i didnt even choose it my parents forced me to go into grad shcool right away i wanted to get a gap year to see what i wantd to do and they didnt let me do that so now im stuck doing something that i hate and its sucking up my life and i hold a grudge agaisnt my parents but i also know that theyre only doing it bc thtey care about me and its really capitalism at fault but i cant help hating them and hating musicians for treating me like shit all the fucking time and ruining everything that ive ever loved and i just dont see how anything is gonna get any better bc all u do after u graduate is work 9-5 so its not any different from me coding from the moment iwake up to the moment i go back to sleep all i wanna do ever is drink and smoke bc its easy and it forces u to be happy and it takes no brain power cuz im exhausted at the end of the day all u do in life is get abused and work ur life away for money im seriously just considering k*lling myself bc i dont see how this is gonna get any better now that i dont have to do things i like and most of the things i like have been destroyed for me by all the years of mistreatment so i dont know what to do the only solution i cant hink of is su*c*de because my alcohol tolerance has increased by like 400% soon its not gonna help me either i dont know what to do i am just so angry that ive worked so hard whether it was for the band or for school i tried so hard to make everything in my life tolerable and in the end it still came out like this like it didnt work it didnt even help a little bit and if its been like this for over twenty years i dont see how its ever going to work out in the end so i feel like i just need to end it now to shorten my suffering like this is horrible this is awful

[life-with-a-4yearold]

Rambling about shit really.

Life-with-a-4yearold back again, hope everyone is doing well and not to stressed over the thought of the school holidays coming up ? because I no I am! She only goes to pre school 3 days a weel 9-3 but they are lovely days, I can get things done or I can lay up my sofa and do fuck all. Because you no what WE DESERVE a break every now and then. Anyway what the hell are we going to do to keep the kids entertained for so long ? need to be a millionaire to do anything these days. Im tired just thinking about it. All honesty I love spending time with my daughter but 6 weeks of a 4 year old that acts like a 14 year old is far to long for me. Thinking about setting up a baby sitting group in the village and then we can all get a break. Not sure how I feel about other peoples kids I don’t really like them so maybe its not a great idea…..

I would love to be one of the mums that has all the neigbourhood kids over and lets them play and you no the “cool mum” but I just aint got it in me. I avoid eye contact at the school in hope no one speaks to me then as soon as she walks through the gate with the teacher I scurry of home back to my happy place till 3pm then I have to do it all over again. I no terrible. Since when did everyone become so talkative I don’t care that your kid shit in the toilet for the first time, that’s their business you wouldn’t say “I had a shit in the toilet today” to someone you hardly no? like great now I no your kid had a shit, life complete. Yes I get it it’s a milestone well done but im sure there are people who you are closer to that you can tell, not someone who avoids all communication. Talk about making things awkward. They has their taster day at school the other day for then to go in to reception. I had this weirdo going round asking for peoples numbers so they can set up at whats app group for the new class. Now im getting random messages of people I don’t know asking when the next coffee club is ? THANKS VERY FUCKING MUCH. Probably come in handy as I am the one who forgets everything and have to text the one person I actually like to find out whats going on that day nearly missed sports day.

I need to try and find things to do with her as shes a very active child and wont sit and watch the tv or ipad and yes I do let her have ulimited screen time as she never watches it really anyway, not that I begrudge anyone that lets their kid have screen time. Sometimes it’s the only way to get on with something.

We try and make things fun the child isn’t deprived of anything shes well fed well looked after and quite frankly spoilt rotten! She has a 15ft swimming pool, 12 ft trampoline and a climbing frame along with multiple toys in the garden. Its good for her but then we always get the neighbour hood kids wanting to come over, even though they aint friends with my kid. Or I get their mums messaging me asking what im up to and if I fancy a coffee, then comes the “your house or mine” knowing they want me to say my house. This is all before ive even answered the fucking question lol. I sound so miserable but im here for a good time I don’t wanna be used for the things I have. I like to sit in the garden with a glass of wine or a bottle of beer and have a good old chat putting the world to rights, I don’t need the fake shit. I don’t need to be friends with everyone. I will never stop my daughter playing with certain kids and id still let her have sleep overs. Im happy with the few friends I have that we can meet on a Saturday afternoon at the local have a few to drink and then come home order a Chinese and watch a film. They are the friends I like they all have older children im the youngest of the group Im 28 and most of them are in their late 30s early 40s my partner is 44. We all get on great.

Dreading September, I no its going to be crazy and stressful but trying to put all that behind me and try and enjoy the summer holidays before she goes to school full time, till shes 18! Unless she drops out like I did, which wont be encouraged! I want her to be successful and have a good career unlike me. Stuck working behind the bar because I didn’t get any qualifications, and no one would employ me… I started to look at collage courses then I found out I was pregnant so give up on that idea. Now im doing nothing apart from being a bad house wife blogging how bad I am haha. Got to think if some ways to keep me entertained I suppose!! This should be fun. Day 2 complete!

Life-with-a-4yearold.

[themagnificentmx]

im so tired y’all

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[mihai-florescu]

My sleep schedule has been All over the place lol

[bnerdler]

Too awake to be asleep but too asleep to be awake

[gottlem]

HI i did not finish chapter two of the theatre au yet bc i started school again this week and then got very poorly on tuesday night and 48 hours later i still feel awful !!! i will continue when i can make coherent thoughts again !!!!

[spicy-tomato]

hey hey hey what if like,,,,,,, you and sap are j chillin j smokin and fuckin, like, waking up still high with him? and like sleepy lazy high sex where you’re both just too out of it to do much other than “make out” (you’re both so far goddamn gone its basically just sharing breath from each others mouths) and grind up against each other. at some point he gets enough semblance of mind to shove your underwear down enough to get his hands on you and you both just cum so easy, him getting his all over you before the both of you just fall back asleep

hey sorry ive been gone a sec, i work and go to school full time so ive got a ton on my plate but ive got another work im like half finished with which should be coming out soon, like always thank you so much for your continuous love and support :))

After a long stream, sap needed something to help him calm down. He had read a few of the negative comments by accident and they stuck with him. Luckily when he walked back into his room from recording he found you sitting next to the window with it opened it half way and the led lights on a pale pink. You looked almost ethereal to him as you sat there, prepping another bowl and humming along to the soft music playing in the background.

“Hey doll,” he walks over and sits across from you, pulling you into his lap and kissing you. You hum and carefully set the bong down next to the two of you before moving your hands to his hair and wrapping your legs around his waist. “I see you started without me?” he says as he pulls away. You nod and tuck your head into his shoulder. He runs his hands over your back before reaching to grab the bong and lighter, tilting his head and lighting it up before taking a hit and blowing it towards the window.

“Made that bowl for you love,” you mumble into his neck and he hums, taking another hit. He continues to smoke the bowl while you hum to the music and play with the hair on the back of his neck. He finishes the bowl and sets the bong down before pulling you closer into his chest. You pull your head back from his neck and lean up to kiss him softly before pulling away and turning to get the bong and the grinder, setting up another bowl.

“Shotgun it to me babe?” you hum and take a good sized hit before moving to press your lips softly against his before blowing the smoke into his mouth. He gladly accepts before pulling away and blowing it softly in your face, pulling a giggle from you.

“You just wanted me to kiss you, you big baby,” he laughs and tugs you back into another kiss. Minutes turn to hours as you both sit there just smoking and basking in the presence of the other. After a while he picks you up and carries you to the bed, pulling the blankets over you two and pulls you close to his chest as you both drift off to sleep.

The next morning you wake up groggy, grabbing your phone and looking at the time to realize you had only been asleep for 4 hours. You sigh and put your phone back on the bedside table before rolling back over to face sap. He yawns and looks down at you with a smile.

“Mmm still high,” he mumbles and you nod.

“Me too.” he chuckles softly, god his morning voice sounded like angels singing. He leans down and kisses you softly, pressing his thigh between your legs, causing you to sigh and grind down on it softly.

“Wanna make you feel good baby, please,” you whimper and nod, pulling him back into a kiss, both of you still to high to make it more than just sharing breath with soft kisses in between. He moves one hand to your thigh, guiding you against his thigh as you moved a hand between his legs, tugging at his shorts. He hums and moves his hand between your legs, pulling his thigh away and causing a whine to fall from your lips. He dips a hand under your underwear and slowly rubs over your folds softly causing you to moan softly. You move your hand down into his boxers and start to palm him as you kiss softly. What felt like hours later but was only a few minutes you both start to move your hands again, having gotten lost in the soft kisses and forgetting what you were doing. You giggle softly before starting to rub him slowly, spreading him precum down his cock to make it easier to move your hand. He lets out quiet moans as you do this, moving two fingers inside of you while using his thumb to rub your clit. You whine and grind into his hand, moving yours a little faster. The kisses have become just shared breath, focusing on making the other finish. It didnt take long for him to have you shaking from his movements.

“Sap...mm gonna cum,” you mumble and he nods, biting into your neck softly and sending you over the edge. You tighten around his fingers and moan, throwing your head back, your hand faltering with its movements for a second. He starts to fuck your hand shallowly before you start moving your hand again, causing him to finish all over your hand and himself before you pull your hand away.

“We need to clean up love,” he mumbles and you hum.

“We can do it later, still tired.” he nods and kisses your forehead before pulling you back into his chest, your hand now around his waist, still covered in his cum. A few minutes later youre both fast asleep. Dream knocks before carefully opening the door and seeing the two of you tangled in each other, fast asleep.

“Guess hes not gonna stream with me,” he mumbles before carefully shutting the door with a smile. “At least hes finally got someone he deserves.”