#IM GONNA MALD

[havanillas]

ITS BEEN 6 DAYS AND IVE FAILED EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM IF I DON'T GET THE 600 TOMORROW I'M SERIOUSLY GONNA DRAW AVENTURINE PREGNANT

[n0phis]

the art drought sorry . my hair is funny today tho

[mxhirus]

oh my god nobody understands how terribly i loathe hazbin hotel im going to actually kill myself in front of someone GUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

no cause why is this the 7 deadly sins of writing. and dont get me started on vivenne fucking medrano rn

i need this show to get set on fire and then combust

can this even be called a show when its so piss poor written and executed

perchance

[time-is-restored]

fellas that last ted lasso episode. hmm.

listen i'll be real no matter what im gonna be out here gushing abt trent crimm cause he's my special little guy and im obsessed with him, but considering the Literal Paragraphs ive been writing abt all the shit i LIKED about the show, i didn't know how else to process these Less Good emotions than by blurting it all out over like two hours (instead of doing the dishes, lmao).

tldr; s3e2 was such an emotional high point for me, since i really felt like it had something concrete + specific to say about physical violence + social/emotional violence, and how they're BOTH highly valued as masculine ideals. but the episodes since then...

it kind of feels like im watching the result of a long and bloody fight between different writers? writers who, apparently, wanted Very different things from this last season, so now we're getting this. bizarro world mish-mash of two hypothetical shows, where tone + content + themes vary WILDLY and inconsistently from episode to episode - and even scene to scene!

[cw: discussions of sexism + racism, in a doylist context, also s3e5 spoilers]

specifically, i feel really disappointed and hurt that they went that direction with shandy's arc. i understand that we're only half way through the season, and obviously anything could happen between now and then but... really? like, is there some kind of budgeting issue here? we can't afford for there to be more than three (complex, not sexy lamps) women in any given episode? is that why the second jack appears, barbara loses any depth (what happened to that lovely moment of connection with the snow globes????????), and THEN the second SHANDY goes off her head it's. jack time? apparently???? like. this would feel a lot better as a viewer if at this point the show hadn't PRIMED me for jack doing something insanely stupid + cruel for no reason except 'haha Keeley Bad At Her Job'.

like. the first thing we see of shandy fine is her pride in keeley, and genuine appreciation of her hard work and skill. she's CLEARLY not stupid, otherwise why would the rest of her introductory scene be her helping keeley out with filmmaking advice (the extras thing) AND random, life experience shit (knowing how to deal with goat shit)?? she knows her way around a set, and she doesn't make any of the footballers feel judged, even when she's clearly thrown by the clips they're providing her.

so why in the space of like, barely a few weeks, does ALL of that get thrown out the window? 'condoms for balls'??? why are we supposed to just take for granted that she's stupid + overly ambitious (other than the Fucking Obvious!) when the show put NO effort into actually setting that up???? like, if her first scene was her monstrously fucking UP the shoot for keeley, and keeley hired her on pure sympathy then like. sure. whatever. no room for bleeding hearts in business. but that ALSO sucks as a story line for ted lasso, a show that (according to its OWN press releases!) is supposed to be about kindness and human connection and breaking cycles!

it just. it hurts? in a way where its like, i don't believe even a little bit that this was what the writers were aiming for with those scenes, and it frightens me that there could be such a wide gulf between intent and result. especially when bonding about The Shandy Incident is what got keeley and jack together (which i am trying... So hard to feel positive about, because explicitly confirming keeley's bisexuality is amazing, least of all bc it makes her jokes with rebecca feel a lot less mean-spirited on the writers' parts, retroactively)... like how am i supposed to be enjoying their moments together when i feel like the show's whole premise has been betrayed???

and really? the one moment nate gets to feel good in this WHOLE season, it's bc the server at the restaurant who previously could not care if he dropped dead right in front of him showed him some affection + validation?????

like, sure, i GUESS im happy that this random excuse for an arc has lead to a slightly more sympathetic female character existing at least in the PERIPHERY of the show's main storyline, except no im fucking not? i don't care about this fucking restaurant, and even though ive been DESPERATELY trying not to hate jade (even though the writers themselves can't seem to decide if she's Literally Racist or just a depressed service worker) NATE shouldn't care about jade! the ONLY way i can see this being an actually interesting arc for nathan is if its another exploration of his inability to leave behind the things + people that have hurt him, combined with years of conditioning where he's never allowed to express being annoyed/upset at anyone (which richmond!!! contributed to!!!!!! 'if you're mad, count to ten. if that doesn't work, count again'??? cool speedrun tips for resentment ted!). like, an arc where we see that distance away from richmond hasn't helped nate as much as it's removed some of the worst triggers, so a taste of athens ends up in the same awful pit of resentment + loathing as ted did. which nate clearly hates! he doesn't LIKE being that person! he apologised to a PAINTED DOLL of ted!!!! but when he doesn't have the framework or tools or SUPPORT to do anything else...

like. where is his team? obviously im not expecting the show to start being about a bunch of football players that AREN'T from richmond but? even just a small moment of appreciation? or hell! maybe they hate him! if we could see LITERALLY ANYTHING abt the sport which nathan has dedicated his life to, and how his Actual Coaching style is positively or negatively impacted by the lessons he learned at richmond? this is a show ABOUT football!!!!!

i just. a taste of athens? again? a-fucking-gain?????

and honestly, the worst part is that i REALLY liked the little monologue that nate got to give about how important the restaurant was to him! as much as it showed that nate is still just as passionate + earnestly defensive of the things he loves, it ALSO shows that he 1. spends that energy explaining his passion to people who don't deserve it/won't care, and 2. gets attached to things that really fucking hurt him! and like. i am on my hands and KNEES for that to be the 'point' of this arc but at this point i feel like that's me being naive! but if fucking JADE from fucking ATHENS is the civilising white gf who FINALLY talks nate down from him ~ ignorant, vengeful crusade ~ against the absolute ~ matyrs ~ of goodness at afc richmond, i just. like. what are we even DOING here gang?

i don't know. it hurts that sam's gone from being an almost principal character in s2 to only getting passing lines in s3. it hurts that rebecca's off in her own world, talking to strangers, having life-changing revelations on her own, surrounded by sets we're never going to see again, where every scene she DOES get to spend w one of the richmond members feels hasty and rushed, like the episode wants to get a few characters obligatory appearances out of the way asap. it hurts that all the chekov's guns around zava's arc (jamie's resentment, ted's lack of guidance, dani being 'demoted' + colin being benched) were apparently all just blanks, to be hastily plastered over with one big long speech about... ted wanting everyone to have higher self esteem, or something?

and listen, more the fool me if another episode comes out next week that i completely adore, and i spend like five days singing its praises. im mostly writing this so i can go INTO the next ep without feeling resentful + upset! i'll be STOKED if i was wrong and all of those little details ARE actually important, and these arcs have more to them than this! but for now im just sad and annoyed :(

[calpalsworld]

i dont want to be a hater but in its current state the room 150 boss fight like reallllllyy fucking sucks lmao i spent like half an hour on it taking my time and being so careful and ive tried multiple times already and didnt win this time either and i feel sick to my stomach LOL but maybe thats a me problem

[khalss]

going through a saga of getting a root canal and if anything puts me off from having to experience another it'll be the combined wait time of one and half months for all the appointments plus the over $1k+ in bills to pay or everything lmao

[just-spec]

Fear and hunger 2 is ripping me apart and spitting on my grave. I just spent the past several hours going to key locations over and over again and fighting god awfully hard bosses, using strategies that let me get by just barely to have enough healing items for the next area. Though eventually I did it. I beat the bosses and finally did the requirements I needed to unlock what I believe is the final location to reach some kind of resolution. I would have preferred saving before continuing (honestly I felt this whenever I made any kind of substantial progress), before I probably fight, what I guess is going to be the final boss, but through testing beforehand I have no way of saving that lets me keep my party members. I considered it but, the state I'm currently in, I think trying to go into the end game with just myself is straight impossible with the resources I have. On the other hand, the only other method of saving, I unknowingly cut myself off of hours ago by letting a certain character die and that making a certain shopkeeper that gives me a very expensive save item disappear for the rest of my run. So, going forward was my only option and I was at the point where I would be happy at least being able to attempt fighting the final boss. I go into the area, go into one off shoot room and immediately get burned alive by a a random soldier I both had no time to react to and had no way of knowing that he was there. My favorite part was how long it took me to burn to death. I just had to watch my character get burned alive for several seconds just blindly hoping maybe this is a scripted event from how long it was taking. It was not. Being brought back to the title screen I realize I now have about three options infront of me. Option 1, I go back to my most recent save, go through the previously mentioned hell again just to maybe hope I can skim by in the final section if I'm just really really careful (this will ultimately lead to me doing this several times). Option 2, I go to one of my several other later saves and just try to continue things from where I left off and make smarter decisions based on what I know now. These saves are so far behind of where I am currently, its not even funny but at least its something. Option 3 is to give up and completely restart with a fresh run. Yeah I can go back to any of my earlier saves but, throughout all of them I made mistakes that I now see are fixable/avoidable in one way or another. One of those mistakes being the amount of times I saved. I didn't realize how much I'd be pushing myself into a corner later by thinking I'm doing the opposite, thinking I'm saving myself so much extra time by saving over important accomplishments but, I didn't.  There was so many times I should've gone a little bit further before I saved so I wouldn't end up where I am now. The funny thing is, regardless of how much I think about it and where I ultimately choose to go from here I have to make up hours and hours of progress. Everything leads back to fighting just to get back to where I was before with varying levels of success. To an area honestly at this point I'm not even sure is the final location. Least to say, I cannot remember the last time a game has made me feel so stupid. When I look at everything I've done in this game, its my fault I ended up like this. As unfair and frustrating and for lack of better word just *mean* as this game is, I cornered myself out of fear of losing progress much earlier in the game.  Fear and hunger 2 Termina is a video game.

[qqchurch]

new gacha titty monster being passed around really does exemplify that old post where the horniness of something can overflow and become totally sexless, everything is erotic and unfuckable and all that

[asbestos-11]

thank fuck murata is tall but why the fuck is she pale and why does she look like a biker????? were we not supposed to get like a land of dragons or whatnot and some war ravaged nation????

[heartate]

this is so not cool

[yb-cringe]

Okay well you didnt need to make me cry over a silly little theorist and his egg son and his assigned family in a silly little block game today

But you did and i loved every second and word of it

sorry lol! i love them a lot

[boyslit]

so the new war was. fun. i definitely didn’t panic my way through the boss fights or anything. :D

i wish i’d played it on my computer though bc I have clip recording set up and op being all ??!??!?!??! while drifter’s just casually waiting for him to decide was extremely funny and i wish i could have a little gif of him making silly think faces

[supertinytins]

[ghost--lights]

bruh why do random rammies on here think they have beef with me. literally just block me and move on instead of picking pointless fights

[astralcat]

meet The Twins

[mokacheer]

my sweet tooth this time around is crazy long