#IM GOING TO ACTIVELY CRY
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WHEN I CATCH YOU,
more no sweeter innocence propaganda btw because they make me ILL @lighthouseshepard IM KNOCKING AT YOUR DOOR
#IM GOING TO ACTIVELY CRY#HEAD IN HANDS DMCJEJJVKRKG#HOW DID YOU GET THEIR EXPRESSIONS EXACTLY HOW I PICTURED THEM#G R I S P S YOU#IM SO ILL#HAD A TERRIBLE DAY YESTERDAY THIS WAS THE BEST THING EVER TO WAKE UP TO#YELLING FOR A THOUSAND YEARS#malevolent#blind faith#holy trinity#AAAAAAAAAAAAAA (guards drag me off stage)#IM NOT AWAKE ENOUGH I WILL BE BACK
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something people just don’t think about is how often chronically ill and disabled people just don’t have access to good food. not healthy food, good food; well made, tasty meals that don’t come from a jar or a freezer. how many of us are housebound or can’t drive? delivery services only offer within certain distances, if you live outside a city they aren’t an option. many people don’t have the energy or ability to cook for themselves if they have the skill to begin with. many certainly don’t have the ability to learn how. it’s something that goes completely unnoticed, just the opportunity to have a good meal and how much that wears you down
#all i want is chinese food#the closest one to me is 40 minutes away and its a /bad/ chinese place#its my worst option and its not even an option#‘fried rice is easy to make heres a recipe!’#i cant use a stove bc the heat will give me a seizure#even if i keep myself cool something that should take 15 minutes will take upwards of an hour bc i need to take breaks#even then ill probably be too nauseous to eat it after being active for so long#all of that for a bad cooks version of fried rice#more expensive and worse than a takeaway place#but i cant get it from a takeaway place#repeat ad nauseum for the rest of my life and is it any wonder im so sick of the same food ive eaten for 10 years#the only time i get takeaway is when my parents decide to go out and bring something home#can you imagine living like that for the rest of your life?#i dont have to#and its so dumb to want to cry over rice#but its not really about the rice is it#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#spoonie#chronic illness#disability#pots#postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome#ehlers danlos syndrome#fibromyalgia#chronic fatigue#chronically ill#mental illness#mental health
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found an old thing
#moondrop#its 11 months old according to my malmal activity#im back to drawing them again it seems TT#they're the kind of characters u can't help but go back to whenever you're tired#or in this case; when you don't have any ideas to draw lol#drawing a character so much that its become a habit even when ure interested in smth else rn#anyway yes im drawing sun and i hate that my improvement really shows whenever i draw them >:(#sorry for the ramble but also not sorry for the ramble (i am the ruler of these tags)#might try writing a fic abt them once i get a hang of writing characters#with my whole heart; i wish for them to fucking Cry#they deserve to be able to weep the tears they haven't wept
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Feel free to ignore you've probably got a lot going on right now, but considering you know a lot about DOTC and Clear sky, I had a question...
We know that he's a terrible, misogynistic, woman beating and war mongering lunatic who was excused of all his actions because his equally misogynistic brother said " But-But he's nice! Deep down! This isn't the real him! "
But! In a world where the Hunters could write such a character, what do you think Clear Sky would look like as an actual sympathetic villain?
Idk if that makes sense, but what I've thought of doing is taking purely cannon Clear Sky and attempting to change him enough that he's still an antagonist, but not too far where only Reddit defends him.
I don't think he works as a sympathetic villain, on any level, ever. I think you're making a huge mistake to even try, and I have never seen an AU where it was done well nor am I interested in entertaining the thought.
Characters. Are. Tools. They exist to tell a story. The story that people tell me, by obsessing over some alternate universe where he was "ACTUALLY sympathetic and had a REAL redemption arc," is that they're not fucking interested in his dozens of victims. Nor do they actually care about the abusive impact he had on the minds and feelings of his family. They're JUST interested in Clear Sky himself.
Just like the Erins. Everything that happens in DOTC revolves around him. Everything. All his wives die so he can be sad about it. His brother defends all of his actions and BEGS you to sympathize with his pain so he can be 'redeemable.' One Eye comes out of nowhere so that there can be an example of "real" evil to contrast Clear Sky so he's less bad in hindsight.
The first three books of DOTC are bad, but the last three are fucking insufferable because SUDDENLY all that Gray Wing apologia pays off, and they take their main villain and throw him out a window. You CAN'T have "redeemable" Clear Sky and the plot of DOTC without dragging in someone else to drive the conflict, to BE the bigger threat to "unite" against. Slash and One Eye have to be conjured up out of thin air so Clear Sky can WHINE about how people only suck his toes instead of deepthroat them after he killed all their friends.
And yet, in spite of this absolute failure of an attempt, we continue to see this bullshit "redemption" be a mistake because Clear Sky is a fantastic villain, with major antagonist roles in nearly EVERY bit of follow-up material for DOTC that came after.
He's the most consistent monster in all of Warriors.
He's a fragile, egotistical, self-absorbed megalomaniac who ALWAYS sees himself as the victim, REFUSING to self-reflect and blaming everything else for all of his terrible choices. He will USE your love of him against you like it's a chain through your nose, step out of line and he will yank you into place with guilt trips, manipulation, public shaming, and violence.
He's a child abuser. He's a tyrant. He abandons the sick and disabled as soon as they're of no use to him, with grand speeches about "illness" and "weakness." He's a murderer who stands above the shredded corpse of his victim and bellows, "I'M NOT GREEDY! I'M JUST STRONG!"
And you'd write a "good" redemption arc for this, why?
Why are people so chronically unable to accept that there are LOTS of people like him, and you can't save your abuser? Why don't you ask yourselves why you're not interested in exploring Thunder, or Petal, or Gray Wing, and how his toxic influence impacts them? Why does the sympathy fall on Clear Sky? What about the DOZENS of victims who are dead by Book 3, and how THEY could have been saved?
Why ruin a perfectly good villain?
What's behind this trend where a billion people say to me, "Yes Clear Sky is a walking cavalcade of fucked up abuse apologia, and an incredibly realistic depiction of an abuser, but how would you change this while keeping it all the same?"
I wouldn't. You can't. It wouldn't be the same story, or it wouldn't be the same character. Never seen it done well, and I have seen it a lot. So I don't entertain this deeply frustrating "Well What If Clear Sky But Nice" impulse.
#The closest I'll ever get to that is Fallenleaf. And she lost it all#And spent years in the time-out tunnel#BAD KITTIES GO IN THE PEAR WIGGLER TO BE SUFFICIENTLY WIGGLED.#I don't think people in power typically change. If they do it's so rare it's not worth entertaining. Camel through the eye of a needle shit#and I mean ALL powers. this goes for abusive relationships too. I think they need to lose that power before they change.#When you have power. REAL power. You can fill those holes with it. You can force people to not leave.#so im actively hostile to stories that winge and cry about giving powerful people endless sympathy and chances#You've already shown me what you want to do with your power and as long as you keep it you haven't seen your consequences.#Power reveals.#It doesn't corrupt. It reveals.#DOTC hate#clear sky's redemption arc#If you're in an abusive relationship or under a terrible boss or in some other bad environment. You won't fix it.#You are not responsible for fixing it.#You can't fix it.#And they will not change. so GET OUTTA THERE#And that's who he functions best as. To me.#He's the bastard you need to escape.#And that's infinitely more compelling to me than Nice Clear Sky Attempt 32324#I don't write stories that beg you to sympathize with tyrants and keep your heart open to some maybe-change on the horizon#I write stories where they ruin everything they touch and have to be forcefully yanked out of power before they hurt more people.#And also screw every related take that's like 'ohhh after 5000 years of having his toes sucked he regrets it a bit :('#no he fucking wouldn't. he had his toes sucked for 5000 years. He's vindicated by how fondly he's remembered.#You can't fucking tell me that he doesnt REVEL in how violent the culture became. That him being offended about the clan's exile-#--was anything but him being offended his namesake was going away. That he wouldn't parade around like every choice he ever made was right.#''I made some vague mistakes which I will never name. BUT Im never wrong and always did it my way even if it was hard''#If you haven't met a person like that I envy you.#bone babble#Nothing makes me mad quite like this character#Again I yell about his brother a lot because he's widely loved by the fandom
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patiently waiting for more carl x male!reader fics 🤞🏻
#the walking dead#twd#carl grimes#carl grimes x male reader#I NEED MORE CARL X MALE!READER PLEASE IM GONMA CRY#i need.. more plez#actively going insane wtf#PLEASEEEE I NEED MORE
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WHAT TF DID YOU DO KABOODLE?!?
#oooof fucking COURSE she gets banned. great#crying screaming throwing up#BABYGIRL. WHAT DID YOU DOOOOO#anyway#get ready for Djevel's Descent Into Madness™ — Kaboodle Edition!#yes im counting it in#bc WHAT IN THE FUCK IS THIS#bc IM ACTIVELY GOING INSANE KABOODLE WHAT IN THE FRICKITY FREAKING NINE CIRCLES OF HELL AND TARNATION DID YOU DO THIS TIME?!#kaboodle#lifesteal smp#lssmp#lifesteal season 6#lifesteal s6#WHAT IN FUCK DID YOU DO RABBIT WOMAN?!
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Want to perish but hanging on 👍
#Ronkey posts#venting#Still dealing with a mind breaking headache ontop of my heart telling me every single reason im better off fading away#Just a constant barrage of physical VS mental and i#fall inbetween#It feels like im actively fighting to stay happy and it feels so unfair with everything going around#id be angry. id lash out. id cry - but theres so little in me from how exhausted i feel. on an existential level#the world doesnt stop#time keeps moving#i fall behind and i miss out and im overwhelmed#no matter how much i have myself figured out its still there#perhaps fading wouldnt be so bad#im sorry if i dwindle socially#im still working on things - i resumed commission work so at least my customers dont suffer through whatever this is im going through agai#ill email everyones completed pieces soon
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There's nothing wrong with "Kai is the Green Ninja" AUs but I feel like we forget that a) elemental powers are hereditary and b) Lloyd is the descendant of the First Spinjitzu Master. Like forgive me for saying this but I think him becoming the prophesied savior of all Ninjago had less to do with his character or destiny and more to do with the fact that he's the literal grandson of god
which then would also explain how Misako knew before anyone else like
Wu: the Green Ninja will wield all four Elements of Creation at once, just like the First Spinjitzu Master
Garmadon, with baby Lloyd in his hands: oh wow I wonder who that'll be
Wu, patting baby Lloyd on the head: such a mystery indeed
Misako:
Misako:
Misako: are you two fucking stupid
#ninjago#yes im aware elemental powers weren't meant to be hereditary originally#but even in the og seasons they actively acknowledge Lloyd's ancestry#and who even knows what's canon anymore anyway#though i do have some theories#i wrote this post bc im procrastinating on that day of the departed rewrite#i will do it at some point but currently#im only at the 'throwing ideas at the wall' stage and i already made myself cry#i needed a break#yall are going to suffer so much#(that is if i ever finish it lol)
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you are fucking kidding me.
#i am genuinely so fucking upset with netflix#dw !!! we will still get season 2 !!!#(im in denial)#i am ACTIVELY crying rn#netflix wants me dead#and netflix is going to get what it wants after this…..#dead boy detectives#dbd#edwin and charles#charles rowland#edwin payne#crystal palace#niko sasaki#im so sick and tired of netflix just fucking hating gay people#the show hasnt even been around for long#they gave it NO time
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I PUT THEM NEXT TO EACH OTHER ON THE CANVAS FOR FUN AND NOW IM FUCKING CRYING. LOOK AT THEM. IM LETTING THEM BE HAPPY FOR ONCE
#im actively trying my best not to lose my everloving shit my familys in the next room#gowr#god of war ragnarok#atreus#angrboda#atreus fanart#angrboda fanart#god of war ragnarok fanart#my art#LOOK AT THEM IM GOING TO CRY#im going to burst into tears#atreboda
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IS ????? IS AN AMERICAN ROCK BSND. YEARS ACTIVE 2023 - PRESENT OH MY GOD HOLY SHIT SOMEONE HOLD ME IM FALLING TO MY KNEES CRUING BEGGING SOBBK G IM GOING TO LOSE MY FUCKING MIND
#if this is a joke-#jon walker when i get my hands on you#im going to actually cry#if the young veins become active again im afraid it will become my entire personality#i love them SO MUCH#GOD PLEASE YOU WOULDNT TAKE THEM FROM ME AGAIN#the young veins#take a vacation#ryan ross#jon walker
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im hyperfixating on scythe again i fear
#my aoas blog is going to be rlly active lol#JUST OMG#GREYSON AND JERI MY FAVORITE#yeah i guess citra and rowan are cool too#yeah yeah he waited 200 years for her whatever#oh and curaday kill me now (affectionate)#BUT GREYSONNNNN#AND JERIIIIIII#no way he literally said they smiled with the light of the sun the first time he ever met them#hes such an idiot im gonna cry#eunoia annoys '♡'
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listen...listen... idk man i didn't expect downfall to hit me as hard as it did. but i'm at the end of ep101 and i have cried more maybe than during any other part of this story...and what a story within a story downfall is
it's about faith, the faith the mortals have in the gods and that the gods have in mortals, the faith in their creations, in and for their love of each other. and there is something so moving and intoxicating and emotional about that depiction, of gods deciding to become mortals to achieve an end goal, but of learning how much mortals love and feel and suffer
just the love between them all, everyone depicted. the wildmother and the lawbearer... the emissary.... trist and ayden, the everlight and the dawnfather... fucking just....everyone
idk man this sort of tragic story really just gets me so so so fucking bad, it hits me in such a unique way
#i am. so emo#cassida reaching out for the help of a god in a city that would kill her for prayer because her son is dying#betrayer gods and prime deities working together#asmodeus--ASMODEUS becoming who he is because he took the brunt of the force of their ship coming to exandria#the emissary being sent out ahead of the lawbearer because she could not bear to be unable to break her own rules if she had to save her wi#the way noshir's voice changed before the matron of ravens and he genuinely was a child#the way the lawbearer held the hand of her wife and asked the wildmother to tell her everything about her brave child#the way trist tried to hold onto her husband and children for as long as she fucking could. this mortal life she'd made#just...the matron of ravens being the matron of ravens. being kind.#the fact that the dawnfather was a fifteen year old boy#i am actively crying right now post episode#it's not a bells hells episode and i have missed them SO much but holy shit i think this six hour long insane episode has been my favorite#my favorite of the entire campaign#might even end up being of all of cr point blank eventually we'll see#not to mention the INSANE combat and roles#abubakar???? INSANE. what a fucking guy#silaha was a blast and the meteor swarm was unbelievable#the fact that nick knew the mechanics INSIDE AND OUT???#i'd literally watch it again just to pay attention to how he maneuvers the layers of abilities and stats#anyway im so weak right now#going to go through everything for those eps in the tags now#critical role#personal
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Thank you for one of the best peepaws and peepaw and young Leo dynamics ever. 💙 (Also your art pieces make me feel smoft)
HELLO???? I am now an even more important person on tumblr! I love them. There is a checkmark for each huggy Leo :) Thank you so much omg!!
#cackling#crying even#your friendly reminder I am a bio student#who uses AGGIE.IO and SNIP TOOL#how did I get here.#how did me reading and getting possessed by IMBI lead to THIS#WAAAA#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I have never even actively posted for a fandom before abjkdfnkldf this is all so unreal sometimes#ough but fr thank you#I am a big kid now#you have cass and then tapakah and then kat and then you go down a few feet and there I am standing so tall#at least thats what I imagine adbsnfjkn#anyways you are welcome for huggy leos#I made them to help myself cope and now they are heling everyone cope#im sorry in advance for the next update btw#or maybe im not sorry#who knows#ok how about this im sorry for getting possessed by angst#not sorry for what im doing to them </3#love you all#especially you captain I would give you a big leo hug if I could#wait ARE YOU THE ONE WHO GAVE ME 9 BUCKS THE OTHER DAY ON KOFI if so tell me so I can doodle you something!
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my blood tests just came back negative for all the SCARY things they were testing for, and even though i knew this yesterday the doc just confirmed it TODAY and OH. oh the relief. lmfaooooo
happy disability pride month y'all - may the only tests that come back negative be the ones you WANT to come back negative sldkjfslkdj
#im a medical mess#im not going into it but they were looking for some SCARY shit and i dont HAVE any of that#maybe now i can fuckin CHILL and engage in FUN ACTIVITIES AGAIN instead of sitting here worrying day in and day out lmaooooo#am i still chronically ill? you bet your sweet bippy. but GOD ALMIGHTY im glad i dont have Any of THIS Stuff lol#now every muscle in my body unclenches and i will probably cry into my spaghetti tonight lmao
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messy stupid fucked up vent art based on isttvg because ive been wanting to do a piece based on it for a while
#my art#casually spills guts#eyestrain#i think this is the first vent art ive made whilst actively screaming and crying . im going thru it#also th text on the side says IM FUCKING DYING ifyou cant read it
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