#I've got to function after this!
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
If you need me, me and my praise kink will be right here.
#boy next world#this week has destroyed me#I cannot think#AND NOW THIS?!#I've got to function after this!
71 notes
·
View notes
Text
BREAKING NEWS!!! Local idiot ghost absolutely blown away when boyfriend gives him a nickname for the first time, more info after this broadcast.
Bonus pet-name edition:
(Yeah I know it's ooc for grovyle to EVER use the term "babe" but lets go ahead and assume he's done it accidentally a few times rather than intentionally. He's deeply in love with the dumb ghostman, ok. Sometimes it just slips out.)
Dusknoir is still recovering from hearing it. And when he finally calls grovyle "love" himself on accident a few days later, he falls deathly ill for two weeks cause his body couldn't handle the aftermath and started rapidly shutting down on a molecular level.
#dusknoir he is dying pls for the love of god just give him the heal seed already#i headcanon that grovyle starts to call dusknoir just “noir” simply because it's less effort but dusknoir is legitimately touched by it#he's never had a nickname before so he cried happy tears for only 2 hours after this interaction#celebi thinks noir's drama over the entire thing is very funny so she starts calling him “beloved” even more and he has a meltdown#and dusknoir being a literal functional storage unit is my favorite thing he is so good at HOLDING stuff for his BF and GF#he carries water bottles and snacks for them like a total mom when they go exploring#(he got the habit after hanging out w/ echo and sora. those are his kids so of course he's gonna have treats!!!)#what's in the void you ask??? who knows probably a pocket universe or the elusive pmd2 remake#i had way too much fun drawing this is it obvious?#and i really like the new brush i've been using lately so i'm happy#also first comic i put decent effort into!!!! yay#actaeonshipping#future trio#dusknoir#grovyle#celebi#pmd#pmd2#pmd eos#explorers of sky#my art#tw blood
625 notes
·
View notes
Text
Something I've always found fascinating about Raymond Shields is that despite seemingly having altruistic reasons for being a defense attorney, his reasons for trying to convince Miles to be one are anything but.
It seems understandable enough on the surface. After Ray comes around and agrees to work with Miles in The Imprisoned Turnabout, he sees remnants of Gregory shining through him despite von Karma's influence. Whether or not he recognizes that Miles' decision to become a prosecutor wasn't just born from that alone—that it was in tandem with wanting to distance himself from anything that reminded him of his father to alleviate the burden on his heart—is up for debate, but regardless: he acknowledges Miles as Gregory's son through and through and wants to capitalize on his dedication for pursuing justice in a way that he knows would make his father proud. He wants to let Miles in on the life he was robbed of at 9 years old—the life he once dreamed of living, where he follows in the footsteps of his father by giving everything he has to save people, by fighting like hell for the vulnerable and the condemned.
That said, as much as Ray dresses up his proposition by making it out to be as if he's looking out for Miles' best interests (and the best interests of society, even)...his motives for trying to get Miles to switch sides are almost entirely selfish. Ray's efforts (and most of his actions in general, really) are ultimately a product of his desperate attempt to cling on to anything related to Gregory out of an inability to move on from his death. Wearing his hat and coat, leaving the name of his office unchanged...and now, requesting that his son literally change jobs just because he can't bear the weight of his own loneliness anymore. Because he can't bear to think that the damage done by DL-6 is irreversible and Miles has moved on while he has stagnated for the past 17 years. Because he has an idealized vision of what he thinks Gregory would want and fails to realize that his son's occupation wouldn't matter to him as long as it brings him happiness and fulfillment. In his mind, letting Miles go means accepting the circumstances that brought him where he is and allowing both of them to move on. And that terrifies him.
It's even more deceitful when you realize that Ray's pitch comes at a very opportune time for Miles given his circumstances at that point: that is, he's under threat of investigation for prosecutorial misconduct and at risk of being stripped of his badge. Ray might fake incompetence, but he's not stupid—and he takes full advantage of Justine's warnings to try to sway Miles when he's in a more vulnerable position in terms of his job. Which is...pretty fucked up, to put it lightly. Despite having a better idea of where he came from compared to most people, through this Ray shows a lack of understanding of who Miles truly is and a lack of respect for what he's come to value, even if his path toward obtaining those values had some bumps along the road. But he's so blinded by his grief that he doesn't even stop to consider how much he's really asking of him, or what Miles is really searching for.
Ray was moved by Gregory. He values saving people. Defending the weak is an undeniably noble endeavor. But to ask that of someone else without consideration for their best interests is decidedly less so.
For all his occupation requires a certain selflessness, Raymond Shields is far more selfish than he lets on. And I for one find that contradiction fascinating to unpack.
#ace attorney#phoenix wright ace attorney#pwaa#aa#ace attorney investigations#aai2#raymond shields#eddie fender#<-i'm not calling him that bc i strongly dislike that name. but just to prevent confusion#miles edgeworth#gregory edgeworth#aai2 spoilers#meta#my meta#hopefully this is coherent. i am currently at war with my fog headaches as we speak#aai announcement means i've got ray on the brain again. surprise surprise#sometime in the near future i also want to explore the possibility of ray losing his altruism at some point after gregory's death#or at the very least how it becomes less genuine. and he only keeps it up because it's what he thinks gregory would want#i have a LOT of feelings about how his need to keep up the good person act is EXTREMELY reminiscent of sister iris in that way#but this post is already long and if i write any more i may not have a functioning brain tomorrow soooo. another time unfortunately#↖️ this user is NOT normal about raymond shields ace attorney and you best BELIEVE she's going to make it everyone's problem
139 notes
·
View notes
Text
Getting super ill to the point that I can't write fic just after I regained the ability to do prose again wasn't on my 2025 bingo card, and yet
#Just had my doc dismiss the hell out of me too so RIP#They're pursuing SOME diagnostic paths#But not the ones I'm pretty sure I need#I even have a diagnosed condition that may be causing it!!!#But nope!#After I suggested I thought of that as an option too#Guess what they stopped pursuing#I am. So tired#This is all I've got man#My body barely functions as is#Anyway#HAOHB is completely written so it will be finished#But that might be it from me#I can't focus idk if this even makes sense#Cool cool cool#I keep hoping it'll magically just be the worst flu of my life and I'll get better#Yadda yadda
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
Consider this mess lore
#ssoblr#star stable online#starstable#star stable tumblr#sso oc#sso#sso art#starshine legacy#star stable art#never made an actual comic ever in my life#i know it's bad#but hey - lore i guess#look at tiny sabine why is this scribble lowkey cute#can you guess what this resulted in#don't ask where and when this is i don't fucking know#odette nobledew#i wanted to make actual ore piece but i'm too bad with poses i quit after trying for 25 mins#reference wasn't very helpfull there so this is the best i've got for now#weather is too hot to function i don't have energy at all#odette 🤝 hunter (getting their ass beatn by sabine at some point)#its for the lore your honor
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before
#like it was one thing when i was in high school and college like wasn't socialized as a child due to not receiving schooling and growing up#sda blah blah whatever but like i'm almost 27 and i am barely functioning lol like i feel like i'm struggling to have a normal conversation#even more than i used to and i think my speech cadence is noticably off which i don't think it always has been#some of it is definitely from chronic exhaustion from having to get up too early and the stress of having a frequently panic inducing boss#but like. come on now. i can't even drive despite finally having a license because i'm too scared/distractible/poor reaction time#over a dozen antidepressants have not worked. adderall is not working great either#i'm SO much dumber than i used to be and it's driving me quite literally insane#i don't even think it's from getting covid in july because i was noticing it before although it definitely became way more noticeable after#i got this job. i've never been this bad at a job in my life and it's something anyone who knows me would assume i'd be good at#it's embarrassing. i cannot fucking remember anything i struggle to do the most basic of arithmetic to fill prescriptions i make the same#silly mistakes multiple times i am constantly asking stupid questions and still somehow fucking up all the time#it's not as bad as it was a couple months ago and frankly i'm shocked i haven't gotten fired i keep thinking that's going to happen#of course i wanted to quit this job four months ago but now i'm at like a sunk cost fallacy point unfortunately#this is obviously not like any kind of career position for many reasons but i don't know what else to do unless i move across the country#again. i'm not even qualified for anything besides animal related things and summer camp which are fine obviously but not great if you want#things like benefits or paid leave or not to get burned out as hell lmao#i don't even feel like i could do any customer service jobs because i literally struggle to put a coherent sentence together on the spot#everything is so slow. soooo slow i'm literally losing my mind which is catastrophic because my mind is all i've ever had going for me#and i'm having kind of a horrible existence lately which is exacerbating all my problems except the problems make it mostly impossible to d#anything to fix it. ok going out and doing some fun stuff for a day makes me feel better that's great. except then i need a day after that#to recover from doing things the previous day. so the only feasible day for doing things would be saturday. except on saturdays i'm#recovering from working. i literally only work 4 days and barely over 30 hours it's Not that crazy. i mean the boss is crazy and the job ca#also be crazy obviously but 30 hours a week is minimal compared to other work schedules i've maintained before#anyway but the most i can do after work is go to the store if i need to but i almost never have energy for anything fun#and the fucking bus doesn't run on sundays and walking miles to get literally anywhere takes a lot of energy i don't have#i'm about to move next weekend and i'm dreading it because it's going to be so much work and i'm so fucking tired#and i don't have any friends to help me with cleaning i might be able to get help moving my stuff but i'm not even confident about that#i might have to rent a uhaul but i would honestly rather pay somebody to help because i'm that scared of driving even for one 30 min trip#whatever....sorry i had to feel bad for myself in the tumblr dot edu tags again i'm not in therapy rn#(<- guy who should be in therapy)
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
okay like, i know other people have done it before but hear me out. how bad of an idea would it be for me to make a Fake Peppino Anatomy post
(pic unrelated (i think))
#like. i got headcanons about this boy. just. kinda weird headcanons. he's a weird boy he's gotta be kinda weird.#i've seen like at least 3 other people make post detailing their Fakes so. i mean. i might as well??#just. wondering how bad of an idea this is gonna be though. is the world prepared for: How The Fuck This Frog's Body Functions.#i am debating it. maybe after i do a couple more asks. but hooo boy.
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
seriously can catastrophes stop happening for five minutes my brain is already fried from the ones we're already experiencing
#I fucking. missed d&d tonight by accident#I straight up forgot#and just didn't show up to the session#my sleep schedule is absolutely fucked#I should be sleeping now but brain won't shut up#my creative output is the lowest it's ever been and I've been in some level of depressive funk since like early january#I am just deeply unfathomably exhausted#like mentally and spiritually#all the time#my memory and sense of time are both shit#my spelling is worse than it used to be for some reason??#I really don't know what to do to make my brain start functioning again it's frankly worrying me#I couldn't even handle college so it should come as no surprise that I'm reacting poorly to the world being a perpetual screaming trash fir#and yet#idk it's been hitting again lately that I have never succeeded at anything in my life and just keep tripping and falling up for some reason#fucking everyone is in hell right now and with my overall success rate I should be dead in a ditch but I'm actually doing spectacularly#due to a series of improbable accidents and weird circumstances that happened to turn out in my favor instead of completely fucking me#aside from the looming spectre of my various failed attempts to have some kind of life trajectory#it just doesn't feel like this can keep up forever#like surely at some point the luck has got to run out I can't just keep living like some kind of folkloric trickster archetype#but my motivation and sense of purpose kind of died after the last failed attempt so I'm still just here#doing whatever this is#maybe I should drive out to the coast#maybe staring at the ocean would fix me I've been away from it for too long#I mean it can't make me worse#I should wait until further into summer though so I don't have to drive back in the dark#everyone around here has trucks with those goddamn LED headlights and I've got a little sedan that's directly in their blast zone
23 notes
·
View notes
Note
Heritage implies age, these aren’t heritage posts they’re just posts you like
you aren't wrong, i've just decided that maybe that's okay tbh
#not a heritage post#ask#anon#i am fully aware of this. three reasons some of the posts on here are pretty new:#a) season 2 just came out and tumblr's search function sucks. most of the posts i'm seeing after literal *hours* of searching today are new#b) some of those^ posts have got like 20k notes in 24 hours. they may not be old but they're already iconic (ive seen them reposted already#c) it's my blog so im ok with some of the posts just being posts i like :)))#if u want to see older posts then filter the blog for “GO1” or “book omens” and you will get all the ones i've found so far!!#but yeah. idk if there are widely accepted universal criteria for what makes something a heritage post. until someone shows me the rulebook#i am making them up as i go :)))#anyway SORRY im rambling just thought id put that out there until tumblr makes it easier to search for stuff there will probably be at leas#some new posts on here and if u just wanna see the older posts then search for the respective tag on the blog :)))
66 notes
·
View notes
Text
I am not immune to being shilled stupid things
#my physical bookshelf at this point is very tiny after purging and getting an ereader I don't need an ISBN scanner to catalog my 'library'#and also it's probably a horrible idea at this time (2024) in this place (U.S.A) to have a database on what books you own out there#goddamn jack edwards for putting the idea in my head#i think this is fifty percent of the reason I hate being advertised to--bc I'm stupidly susceptible to fall for it all#also I have a Scanmarker USB I've been playing around with that allegedly can read barcodes but that function hasn't worked for me#honestly THAT was a stupid purchase too but I was trying to work on a project for my friend using it but that project has since been aborte#it was a hundred dollars and luckily I got it as a christmas gift last year after I asked for it but honestly it's so not worth it#i feel we got ripped off#but going back to the point of this post my physical books take up all of three shelves I don't need a catalog to keep track of what I have#and yet I want
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#it snowed again and I got to see it this time :>#(in a little over 2 weeks we will find out if we're moving somewhere with winter this time)#also I've been archiving my drawings properly again cuz I stopped saving them offline for a while#and I might be off on my twitter numbering!#I did make one mistake with my files which took like half an hour to fix#but even after fixing that the most recent one I've saved is actually one further than I said on twitter!#being only one off after all that time is really not that bad tho!#(so far anyway)#besides it's not like anyone expects twitter to be a functional archive in any way lol
126 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#horrible leg cramps have calmed a bit but are continuing along with thumpy heartrate increase#and my magnesium supplement is out of date and i'm not trying to go out after more#look up leg cramps just to see if there's helpful advice#let's see continuing leg cramps causes: diabetes ✔️ okay. thyroid issues ✔️ vitamin deficiencies yeah ik. severe anemia too ✔️#this does not narrow it down at all#oh also cholesterol medications too so ✔️#but the only one the dr has been calling me to come in for is the anemia so ...#just why suddenly after work you know? like they still *function* fine it's just this constant 'something is wrong'#ever since i got sick my body chemistry has been utterly whacked and now i'm not sick but it's getting weirder not better#i have had leg cramps before (why i had the magn and potassium supplements) but they went away after i slept#these went away then came back also they showed up just as i was feeling better#after a day of just feeling the malaise of a bad day spent feeling 'something is wrong' but nothing specific enough to identify#so like it was a good sogn bc i felt better but now it keeps on and i'm feeling bad again#i really hope it *is* the anemia because it would explain it but damn how am i gonna function until friday i can't sleep#and also like i've been whete these numbers are at before so why is it so much worse so suddenly#that's what's worrisome - where are all my red blood cells going? bc that means the internal bleeding thing is back on the table#well or the bone cancer?#there are too many things that could cause the same symptoms what tge fuck#torn between just taking aleve until nothing hurts (except if it's my kidneys ... or hey my stomache bc nsaids)#and packing a hospital bag just in case because catastrophisizing is what you do when you're home by yourself#it's so hard to tell when you're fat but you *think* you've been losing a weird amount of weight for no known reason#ignire this i'm typing it out bc i need to put it down somewhere and this blog is like a journal
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
I hate complaining in public (in this case, on my blog where strangers on the internet can see it), but I need someone (other than my close friends who hear me bitch about this all the time) to know how much I need my sibling to move out.
I am a solitary person. They were only supposed to live with me "for a few months," to quote their own plans.
They have been living with me for over 5 years.
There are a myriad other issues I have, but this is what I'm frustrated with at this moment.
It's dumb. Cost of living is high. Groceries cost too much. 5 years isn't even that long, in the grand scheme of things. I should be happy that my sibling isn't on the street with no roof over their head.
But in this moment, there is nothing I want more than:
To rearrange my apartment back to the way I had it before my sibling moved in.
To not have the presence of another human being pervading my space for all hours of the time that my sibling is not at work
To not be forced to leave my home to get any time/space to myself
To be able to do things without feeling like I'm always being heard/watched
To know that when I put my dishes away, they go where they belong and won't shift places every time they get washed
My sibling flew to visit our parents a few years ago. They were gone for a month. The moment they left the apartment, I felt so much freer and happier. My depressive symptoms practically evaporated.
I'm sorry I feel this way, but I'm also having strong feelings and I'm frustrated.
#I told myself after my time in the military#that I would never have another roommate#I made an exception for family#and I regret it#and I know it's not clear from my post#but my family has taken advantage of me in this#my sibling has spent a lot of time unemployed#and has not contributed equally to rent since moving in#I had to write my parents a typed 5-page letter#about how their child is not taking basic measures to function as an adult#and I get it#both of us deal with depression#but they have taken no steps to seek help or counseling#and when I've tried to talk to them about behaviors in the past#it triggered a new depressive episode#or I got passive-aggressive nonsense thrown at me#But they want to move out next spring#and are taking steps to move in with two of their friends#once those friends have also made their preparations
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
Scavacule is so fun because you get so many dynamics between different pairs packed into one big dysfunctionally functional relationship that despite everything somehow WORKS
#rambles#scavengers#they're so funny#no clue how spin and krk met but i can do as i please with that#broke mis out and he just stuck with them#kidnapped crank and he just shrugged and said whatever apparently#i can also do whatever i want with that#picked flwheels up after he landed on their windshield like a mosquito#also just didn't leave#and looted fulcster's 'corpse'#he saw this happening then listened to mis#and chose to stick around#they're soooooooo#💜#I'd say they're a pretty tight-knit crew#but like#...#they're close and care about one another#and i think they are over all healthy and communicate fairly well for a bunch of poly cons#but also i feel like they're all one jenga argument away from a (not at all serios) divorce if that makes sense#they're dumb and in love but they've got like 4 million yrs worth of baggage to unpack together#and according to the wiki they've only known eachother for like 10 ish yrs#theyre fun#but difunctionally functional#idk if any of this makes sense#i've been up for about 21 hrs and am really tired#final thoughts before bed#might delete these tags if I hate them in the morning idk#this spiraled#goodnight
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
is my dash glitchy or did tumblr....... straight up get rid of the header with all the different post types for making a new post
#now I've just got the blue pencil in the corner like on mobile#I don't understand the desire to make desktop websites look and function like whatever corresponding app#it's not an app. it's a website.#UPDATE: is it not tumblr that's glitchy? is it the thing I installed to put tumblr back to the way it was after they did the compressed das#forgot I had that tbh#my experience of desktop tumblr is so many cobbled together xkit and stylish and tampermonkey things at this point....
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#so i finished my 4 out of 4th 12 hour shift in a row last night and i'm literally so exhausted and i was glitching mid simple tasks 🤡✌️#my coworker asked to change shifts so he could have that one specific day as off#and he managed to do some very critical mistakes in his 4 days prior and that's considering his gf is often with him there#and i was the one suffering the consequences even if it's literally not my fault#ever since i've got this job i've been fixing so many mistakes of his i kept wondering who's the newbie here??#like i try to leave my shift as good as possible i clean everything check everything and do all my duties#and when i come here after his shifts it's.. a fucktonne of work mistakes and literal dirt like dude!!!#4 shifts in a row never again man never again i am so tired my brain is nerfed and i can only rest for 1 day today because tomorrow i'm#going to a doc;#my social battery is not just dead it's nonexistent at this point#i just want to lay in bed and not be percieved or interacted with for at least the same amount of days 😫#i really thought i could take a socially demanding and rather multitasking job without it taking hugest toll on my mental state huh???#and i had such a bad sleep too i had a very graphic and sickening nightmare which woke me up 2 hours after i fell asleep#and then i woke 2 more times after that and i feel so exhausted and not rested at all and so fatigued i can't even do anything#man for me my sleep being interrupted is the worst like i function better if i have a smaller amount of sleep but it's uninterrupted#than longer in hours but it gets interrupted and i wake up even once#sorry i come here once in few days vent post and then dissapearvckfkv 😭 i miss tumblr but have no energy currently to even rb anything 🥲#tbd
5 notes
·
View notes