#I've drawn more in the last month than I have in the 5 years since school orz

[justarandomlambblog]

i.. actually really like this little doodle

Im still trying to figure out a style (im.... a realism artist, cartoons are hard t_t) but I like how they turned out in this one....

[acciofictionalmen]

lust life - SIRIUS BLACK

(sirius black x female!reader)

summary : you've been hooking up with james potter over the summer, but when you return to hogwarts you find yourself drawn to his best friend. you've adamantly hated sirius black throughout your school years, and you're sure the feeling's mutual... or you were

a/n : hopefully if things turn out well this will be a story with at least 5 parts (probably more)? so feel free to stick around :))

warnings: sexual references, strong & suggestive language, 14+

other parts:

PART 1 (current)

PART 2

PART ONE

Hands buried in his jet black hair, you kissed him heatedly as he pushed you against the wall. Void of any thoughts, your mind was focused solely on the rush of adrenaline that the feel of his hands on you was causing. After a few minutes you pulled away, and looked into his dazed green eyes with a small sigh.

"I should get going, the girls will start wondering where I've gone." You said, your voice dazed and distant.

He nodded almost reluctantly, looking you over once more before leaving, giving you the chance to quickly fix your smudged lipstick in the mirror before also exiting the cramped toilet. You poked your head out of the door and checked the corridor of the train for anyone who might be watching, but thankfully it was empty. Flattening down your skirt, you made your way back to your friends' compartment.

You and James Potter had been hooking up for... 3 months now, was it? You weren't entirely sure and you hadn't exactly been keeping track. It had started off just before the fifth year of school had ended, and it had continued over the summer. It was simply founded on - like most things - sexual attraction, with both parties strictly agreed to no strings attached. It had stayed that way since. Potter needed an output for his energy (of which from personal experience he had an abundance of) and you were scared to commit emotionally in a relationship but still wanted certain benefits, therefore your arrangement just worked.

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Sirius smirked as James entered the rickety train compartment, his hair even messier than usual and his glasses spread jauntily across his face.

"So, how was she?" Sirius asked, humour evident in his voice as James rolled his eyes whilst sitting down.

Remus and Peter looked up from the chocolate frog cards they'd been comparing (who had gotten the rarer card: "wanna swap?" "i will for your dumbledore"), finally taking notice of James' disheveled appearance.

"Who?" Peter asked, looking between the two boys nervously.

"His sneaky link of course- the one he won't tell us about." In that moment James felt extremely vulnerable as Sirius' eyes raked up and down him, looking for any sort of clue.

Remus quirked a brow, and Peter's faced promptly turned red as he busied himself by stuffing a struggling chocolate frog into his mouth.

James shrugged, "Good. Nothing much to say really." He paused, taking notice of Sirius' suggestive expression, "And it's definitely not like what you're thinking." He emphasised the last part, picking up the latest daily prophet that was strewn across the floor. James began to rifle through the pages, clearly not reading a thing.

"Who is she?" Sirius exclaimed, ignoring James' previous comment, curiosity biting at his voice. "This has been going on for months now, Prongs, and you haven't even introduced her to us!"

Sirius paused, taking a quick glance at the blond with the remnants of chocolate frog spread around his mouth. "I mean Peter I understand.." He lowered his voice, "but Remus and I... I'm your best friend. Plus I always tell you about the girls I'm with." He said pointedly.

"Only because you have so much to say; there's a new one every bloody week." James gave up pretending to read the newspaper and gave Sirius a look. "Sorry mate but it's just the truth. I'll tell you at some point she's- just not ready."

Sirius stood up with a dramatic sigh, a sign that the interrogation was over. At least for the time being. "I'm going to go grab some pumpkin pasties, anyone want one?"

Peter raised his hand, and Sirius began to leave when James stopped him.

"Here." The boy with the round-rimmed glasses gestured to the money in his right hand.

"James." Remus muttered warningly. He knew that Sirius could never accept money from his friends. Especially not from the Potters, who from Sirius' perspective were already kind enough to allow him to live with them over the summer ever since his parents had completely cut him off.

Sirius paused at the sliding door without fully turning around, so that only the side of his face was visible. "I can handle a few pumpkin pasties, Prongs." Sirius' prior demeanour of happiness vanished, and James realised his offer to help his best friend had likely offended him instead.

James quickly retracted his hand, "Yeah mate, of course."

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"-and then I hexed him, because what kind of asshole stands a girl up at Madam Puddifoots?!" Your friend and fellow Slytherin Serafina exclaimed as you burst out laughing. The two of you had always been good friends, and had gotten especially close in the past year: largely due to the fact that you had the same humour.

All of a sudden the trolley lady popped into view as she stuck her head through the open compartment door.

"Anything from the trolley dears?"

Your eyes lit up, saying that you adored food was an understatement, "I'll have a-"

"Got any more pumpkin pasties?" A voice interrupted you, a look of disdain making it's way onto your features.

Sirius Black was in the corridor of the train, right outside your compartment. This had taken you by surprise- you hadn't expected to see him so soon. You had been hopeful that you wouldn't have to see Black at the very least until when lessons began. His sudden appearance had caught you completely off-guard. Granted, he hadn't exactly changed all that much since you had last seen him- which happened to be during an extremely awkward and unpleasant encounter during the summer holidays, just as you were heading to the Potter's home to meet James whilst his parents were away. You had made up some silly excuse at the time, waiting for an hour in a coffee shop before you dared to return to the Potters' home. But then, you hadn't really had the chance to properly look at him, since your eyes had been focused on your trainers in an attempt to conceal your red face.

Mind snapping to the present, your eyes drifted again to Black. His dark wavy hair was now chin-length, just about long enough to brush against his defined jawline. From where you were sat, he seemed noticeably taller too. A shame, you thought. The days during your first three years of Hogwarts - when you had been able to make fun of Sirius Black for being shorter than you as it was the one advantage you had - had clearly long gone. On top of that, Black appeared to have visibly matured. His air of arrogance and mischief were still there, sure, but he looked more... burdened. The dark circles underneath his eyes didn't escape your notice.

All of the girls around you except for Serafina immediately began to smile shyly.

Black, completely unaware, was in the middle of grabbing four pasties when he noticed his gaggle of admirers.

"Ladies," He acknowledged with a smirk, and you got the distinct impression that he was basking in the attention, like a cat in a garden enjoying the sunlight.

That was until his gaze fell on you. "(L/n)." He dragged out your last name in a disinterested tone, the anger in his foggy grey eyes betraying how much your appearance bothered him. Apparently you still got on his nerves. Good.

Your glare somehow increased as your eyes met his. It wasn't until the trolley lady asked again for what you wanted that you broke off from his stare. Black, taking that as a sign of victory, went back to his gang of troublemakers, allowing you to finally relax and scoff your cauldron cakes. Serafina had watched the two of you interact, now deep in thought as she absentmindedly fiddled with an empty chocolate frog box.

After a few moments of bated breath followed by a reassuring click as the compartment door slid shut, the girls began to giggle amongst eachother. Their gaze flickered to you every so often as they excitedly recounted what had just happened. This behaviour was pretty normal, and so you had learned to block it out by now. The girls you and Sera were with in the compartment were just some Slytherins you'd sat next to in class before, so it wasn't like you were obliged to chat with them or anything.

Lost in thought, you leaned your head against the cool window, swirling your tongue around your mouth as you savoured the taste of the delectable cake. Here was to hoping that your sixth year would be as sweet as the chocolatey goodness in your mouth.

Saltiness flooded your taste buds as you accidentally bit your tongue.

my first piece on this blog done ! 🫣

thank you for reading! please leave a comment of your thoughts as i'd love to know what you think so far & it'd be v encouraging to know if you're enjoying the story ! lmk if you're interested in finding out what happens next ahahsh :')

feedback appreciated as long as it's done kindly <3

[transguyjesus]

GOSH it has been ages since I've done an update. I've just been so out of it due to many happenings and also because I moved the blog to a different account.

SO. I went off T about a year ago.

When I first started, i knew that there was a possibility that i'd want to go off eventually for different reasons. Months into hrt one of them became obvious: I was producing way too much blood. By the second year i was going to need to get my blood drawn ever few months to keep me at healthy levels. Due to other reasons, (mainly the pandemic) i was forced to stop before that happened.

But when i started back up, desperate for the changes i needed (deep voice and facial hair were always my priority) the blood became a concern again. So by the third year, i had to start getting my blood drawn every few or so months, just as me and my doctor had thought.

I also started losing way too much hair. My hair was thinning FAST and I thought i was prepared to go bald for the sake of my dysphoria but it turns out I wasnt. I didnt like, cry about it, but i realised that it bothered me way too much.

So I thought for a LONG WHILE and ultimately came to the conclusion that, well, my beard has filled up quite nicely, i even get healthy envious comments from cis dudes about it, my voice is quite deep and with voice training i can get it even deeper if i want to. I am definitely planning on going back to working out when i find both the time and the place, and i dont think i want to have much more hair on my back, i already have some nice patches on my shoulders and my chest and stomach are also covered in a decent amount of hair.

I decided to try it out. If i hated it, I could always go back on T.

A bit over a year since my last shot, this is what's happened:

-My voice can still go just as deep as ever, but now it's easier to also go into higher ranges. I suspect, with some light voice training, I'll have a pretty wide range and that pleases me, as I love to sing.

-I started bleeding again only two months ago. I was dreading this, as it was a huge GD inducer. But it was just meh. I really think that my mental state regarding myself helps with this. I am so comfortable in my body now, as a man who happens to have these parts, that thinking of myself as "a dude who menstruates" is just whatever now. Being able to look in the mirror with how T changed some of my facial features and gave me a nice beard DEFINITELY helps, though lmao

-My hair stopped thinning. And it's growing back a little, so far just enough to cover the worst of it. I know it will not grow back completely and i don't want it to. I just want to be able to keep my hair for at least another decade without any bad balding.

-i have not yet seen any significant change in fat distribution. My hips are still smaller than my shoulders and my waist is still bigger than it was pre-T. I hope me eventually getting back into regular excercise will help me keep it that way.

-About that last bit, my chest was always pretty small. I was very lucky in that regard. Pre-t it was still too much for me so i wore a binder daily. With fat redistribution it got smaller, i think both due to fat not depositing in there and because my shoulders got broader (i can fill up shirts i couldnt before). I'm still able to not bind. And i can comfortably walk around shirtless if i want to. This is very likely also due to higher confidence in myself. I don't think I'll go back to binding. It already damaged me enough. If for some curse my chest does get bigger I'll just hurry up the process and take a loan for top surgery.

-My beard, for some miracle, is STILL filling up. I recently noticed that it's covering a bigger area than before. This is likely to be from my PCOS, as even pre-T i had some very light facial hair (it was just enough to use mascara to darken it and pass it off as the weakest goatee in the world 🤣 but it made me happy back then. Wish i could show that little dude how he'll look 5 years later, his face would be AMAZING)

And that's about it, so far. I'm pretty ok with how things have turned out. I have to get some blood work done to check my hormone levels, I'll be updating how that's going. Will i go back on T? That's yet to be seen. Some days I feel like i want to go back on T right now. But pretty quickly i realise that no, I'm still good. It's very likely I'll go back on T in the future. How far? No idea. Could be next month. Could be next decade. But yeah. Off T for a year and I'm still no less a man. I'm very much still just Me.

I wanted to share this because it's part of my journey as a person and I also know many people think you can't go off hrt once you've started. I've seen enough people mocking others (specially binary trans people talking to nonbinary ppl) for planning on taking hormones only until certain changes happen and then stopping. I'm here, as a binary trans man, to say that's bullshit and you can do whatever you want.

I can't speak on estrogen hrt, but if you're afab planning on getting testosterone hrt for any reason, the only thing i advise if you're planning on going off after certain changes is to THOROUGHLY research what those changes will be. I've seen enough people complaining about bottom growth when that is ALWAYS the very first change. Nothing else happens as fast when you take T. Also Look at the men in your family. I was wholly, 100% aware i would go bald, i thought i was prepared for it due to knowing it would happen, but clearly i wasnt. Make an informed decision and listen to yourself if, like me, you initially thought you were Ok with a change you knew would come but when it happens you don't like it. It's ok. People change.

Be confident in yourself and your identity, nobody knows you better than you. Only you know what will make you happy.

[babyslutbuck]

i haven't drawn barely at all since I dropped out of college and not once in like 5 years and now 911 has me drawing again it's kind of crazy how much this show has changed my life in the last 7 months like I have a group of friends, I've picked up an old hobby, I'm happier more days than I'm sad I'm just being squishy and soft but. I love u fandom I love u 911 I love u yaoi

[moonspirit]

when you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! then, send to your last ten people in your notifs (anonymously). you never know who might benefit from spreading positivity.

Hello anon! Thank you for sending this in :3

Hmmm, five things....

Okay so lately I've begun journaling again. It's a habit I've stuck with since 2019, so I have a big journal full of memories and feelings for each year since then haha xD Last year though, due to various reasons I fell off from journaling, and while I wanted to restart it at the beginning of 2024, that didn't happen (once you break a consistent habit, sometimes it's hard to return). But after winning a long-drawn battle about how "wrong" it is to start a journal from September 2024 (perfectionism ey?), I've finally opened a new book and it feels really good to dump my head on paper again :3

(some funny stuff I wrote in my 2021 journal above! using eren as a motivational figure was so lame lmaooooo 🥲)

2. Dry ginger tea! So this is a tea commonly drunk during colder months like monsoon and winter but I somehow... chug it ... at all times of the year. Though being more of a coffee person than tea, I do like dry ginger tea for how spicy it is. Very good for when you have colds and sore-throats but if you're easily obsessed like me, then also very good to burn your throat with for no fucking reason at all xD

3. The sky at night has been really beautiful lately. Lots of little stars (I don't get to see all much living in a suburb and the city pollution is strong) and some planets that visit. My phone's gone whack so I can't use my constellation mapping app for now (*sigh*) but it's still nice just lying flat on the roof and watching the pinpricks of light traveling from millions of years ago. Something about that really puts things into perspective.

4. I've been walking to work lately! 30-40 minutes! It feels very good to sweat it out in the morning considering I've been quite inactive for a while. Back to exerciseeeeee yeeeeeeee

5. I'm very excited for an event that may take place in December! Thinking about it makes me happy :3

Thank you so much for asking anon! I hope you have a good timezone ~

[ask-whitepearl-and-steven]

Alternative question to the one you answered earlier:

How long did you think about/prepare for the comic before you started the comic and did you ever worry that it might not take off?

I came up with the design for White Diamond Steven on August 4th, 2018. At that time, I also said this:

.......famous last words.

Going against my own advice, I DID think about how it all happened. I thought about it for a month, and then in September I sat down and banged out the very first White Diamond AU comic - the one about Earl and Steven leaving together.

To tell the truth, at the time I just thought it would be a neat little idea. I never worried about it 'not taking off' because..... taking off wasn't my goal. I had no diabolical plans to craft a 5-season story, the longest I'd ever done. I had no aspirations to make this AU incredibly popular or well known.

I just wanted to draw silly comics about White Diamond Steven and his Pearl wandering around together.

The original concept for all this wasn't an epic tale. It was just a slice of life.... a very odd slice of life, but a slice of life nevertheless.

Which is why the first season of the story is what it is! Some people complain that it's directionless and boring, but. That was kinda the point. It was meant to be a melancholy, atmospheric little comic strip.

There wasn't any specific goal. I had a backstory, of course, and I KNEW even back then what was happening. But I assumed the interest - both mine and the audience's - would wane and I would just leave it whenever its time had come.

But by October, we had already come to this:

And I think it was around this time (or shortly before it) that I realized that this story couldn't remain in a perpetual just-vibes state forever. I had teased some hints about where the Crystal Gems were, and what their situation was. I had hinted that there was more to the story than had been revealed. And I suddenly thought that maybe I could actually write it.

.... and I kinda did.

(It's still weird to think about how MUCH I've written/drawn for this.)

I think.... a lot of people believe that writing/planning a story is something that happens on command. You sit down, you take a blank sheet of paper, you start from the beginning, and write everything in chronological order, and maybe in a week, or a month, or a year, you'll have 'the plan to write a story'.

And sure, that's one way to do it! But a lot of time, the story comes to YOU.

Rebecca Sugar knew Rose was Pink Diamond before the first episode aired. Was Steven Universe a planned story back then? Arguably, no. But the team had a framework.

I also knew, before drawing a single comic, what WD!Steven's deal was. I knew within about a day how he had come to be. I knew how Greg got involved in all of it. I knew the answer to every single 'BUT WHY DID WHITE DIAMOND--' question you guys have asked me for the past 5 years before I even created this blog.

But that isn't really a 'plan' so much as a concept.

I continue to plan the comics to this day. I know the end, and I know the main story beats. But the middle stuff about how to get there elegantly - that part takes planning. And I never really stopped planning since that day in 2018.

Here's to... more planning in the upcoming year!

[aqua-dan]

Fav artist for Garth?

I have been thinking about this ask for multiple hours, and I am unsure if I can pick a true favorite because there are so many wonderful artists who have drawn Garth over the years! However, I think I built a pretty solid list of my top 5 artists for Garth (oops!), so here goes:

#1: Phil Jimenez

I have so much love for the way he draws (and writes) Garth! Of every artist out there, I feel he has the most love for drawing Garth and I can feel that care and attention to detail in all his work. I am absolutely in love with the way he draws Garth's expressions too! He allows him to have exaggerated expressions and really allow us to feel the emotions of the story through the art. He's not afraid of showing him in painful and less than idealistic moments, and allows his face to reflect that. I think it's something that a lot of current comic book artists shy away from for fear of making characters look "ugly." But Jimenez goes all in on it and still makes Garth look stunning 24/7!

#2: Ramona Fradon

Ramona Fradon was one of the co-creators of Garth, and was, in my opinion, one of the most incredible people in the comic's art industry. She sadly passed away last month at age 97, and she only just announced her retirement from art a month prior to her passing. Her influence on the industry, especially for female artists, was monumental, and her art style stood out so uniquely amongst others. I've always loved how fantastical her art is. She creates fascinating underwater creatures and has an absolutely precious way of drawing Garth. I appreciate that she made the decision to draw him looking as young as he was at the time, especially since a lot of other teen sidekicks were drawn to look older. I feel very lucky that I was able to get a piece of art from her (the first pic in this section!) around the time of her passing. I will treasure it forever!

#3: Nick Cardy

There is something so charming about the way that Nick Cardy draws Garth! There's a simplicity and retro feeling to it that comes off as so fun! I don't know exactly what it is about his art, but it always makes me smile!

4: Mark Buckingham

Buckingham's style is like if "stretch and squash animation" was a static art style, and I LOVE it. It looks so funky and bouncy and expressive! It's one of those styles that I don't think everyone loves, but it really works for me and makes the comics extremely enjoyable to read for the art alone! It's not super polished and has some rough edge qualities, but that's precisely why I like it!

5: Lucas Meyer

Meyer is a newcomer in the scene of comics, but WOW! I am not immune to how gorgeous his art style is. I'm so happy that he's been named the ongoing artist for the current series! (Even if I can't get good writing, I'll at least take the nice art!) I think his style is so clean and pretty. I do wish that he went more "all-in" on expressions sometimes, as I do feel that his characters all look slightly generically pretty and don't emote particularly much. That said, the art is undeniably gorgeous, and he's already skyrocketed himself up onto my personal favorites list despite only starting with DC in 2022.

I do have a few honorable mentions as well, which include: Ivan Reis and George Perez.

There have been plenty of artists who did a great job, but these are my personal favorites! Thank you so much for the ask!

[redmelawashere]

There's something lurking in the water (SNSMonth24 prompts - week 1)

Hiiiii late to the party as usual, but I have been participating in this year's @snsmonth24. This time, I've paired each official prompt with a monster and "spooktober" prompt just to spice them up and 'tis the season. Here are the week 1 story summaries. As always, full fics can be read here on my AO3 😊

AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOUR FAVOURITE MONSTER, HORROR, SUPERNATURAL, AND SPOOKY WRITING AUs AND TROPES ARE!! I GOT 31 OF THESE TO COOK UP 👹

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1 - Sun and Moon | Murder investigation

The palm on her left-hand stings, and she digs her nails into the small circular ring forever burned into her skin. A silent fuck off to Sasuke who'd become nosier than ever since they started their investigation into this string of serial murders. She used to rely on the fact that she could feel his emotions through their connection, that Sasuke the unreachable finally was. Now she understands why he used to get so pissed off about the lack of privacy.

(While investigating a brutal serial murder, Sasuke silently comforts a disturbed Naruto.)

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2 - Beach | Siren AU Murderous mermaids (Siren!AU)

"Hey. Naruto, right?"

She nodded slowly, not quite sure if this was a dream. His smile only grew wider, revealing his long, sharp teeth.

"Cool. Now, we're even."

He'd pushed himself off the shore with ease, jumping back into the water and swam away.

(Naruto had always been drawn to the oceans surrounding Uzushio, but she never imagined that the mythical tales of monsters swirling beneath the surface could ever be real.)

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3 - A happy ending | Murderous mermaids (Siren!AU)

“No.”

“Sasuke, please. There must be some truth to—”

“—I’d have to kill you, Naruto,” he eventually blurted out, fingers wrapped around her throat as he lividly barred down over her. “I’d have to kill you. And there would be no guarantee that it would work. The last story of a human being turned is over two centuries old, and that’s assuming it’s real.”

(Sister fic to "Beach" and pt. II of the "Siren AU" spooktober prompt.)

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4 - On a date | Halloween Party

"I'm not going to apologize for how good my ass looks in those shorts, and it's your fault for agreeing to go to a business meeting with your father outside of town during the Halloween weekend where you know Ino's house party is always the biggest, baddest event everyone goes to."

If Sasuke could breath fire right now, he would.

(In which Ino post's a picture of Naruto on Instagram captioned "Make Men Sluts Again™")

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5 - Canon divergence | Demon sacrifice

She just—she never thought she'd use it at all let alone this young. She'd never expected Sasuke to switch sides months ago. She never thought their rotten friendship would blossom through the layers of thorns into something more. She tried to swallow away her regret.

(In which Naruto activates the Dead Demon Consuming Seal.)

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6 - Travelling together | Hunting a cryptid

"We are not going to get jumped by strange mythical creatures in the forest. The worst thing that can get us, is a coyote or a bear."

"You saw the statue of his metal ass. You don't know what he's capable of."

"Are you afraid of sleeping in the woods, Naruto?" Sasuke sneered, briefly glancing at her before his eyes returned to the winding road ahead. "Or are you too chicken shit to admit that maybe this hot idea Kiba had was actually stupid?"

(While camping with their friends, Sasuke and Naruto encounter something mischievous lurking in the woods.)

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7 - Jealousy (Monstrous enough)

Honestly, her suitors were lucky she was mostly oblivious to someone paying attention to her in a romantic or flirtatious way. It made it easier for him, that he didn’t need to rip out someone’s spine through their throat with his bare hands or scrub their eye sockets clean with kunai when she’d punch people out first or a simple icy glare would be enough to cause a recoil.

He never imagined however, that his undoing would be that stupid fucking pillow she bought.

(The only monstrous thing about this one, is Sasuke's hilariously monstrous jealousy.)

[forevergazingatstars]

Today I did something I thought I would never do

I beat The Last of Us Part 2 on grounded mode.

I started playing this game in 2022, about 5 months after I had beaten the first game. Both of these games have always been very close to my heart even before I had the chance to play them.

While I know part 2 is not nearly as beloved in the community as part 1 and, in my honest opinion, I definitely prefer the story of part 1 to part 2. However, ever since I beat part 2 for the first time, I've found myself drawn to it time and time again. I've played through this game on at least 5 separate occasions and spent over 100 hours in it. To put it bluntly, this game feels so good to play.

Maybe going agaist the intentions of the game makers, but shooting people has never felt as good as it feels here. People usually say they hate shooting on controller, but Naughty Dog did a phenomenal job at making the gun play actually feel responsive and good. Like as much as the story makes me want to rip my hair out, there's nothing quite as satisfying as getting to blow peoples heads off afterwards.

Now to get to the point, you might be asking "why'd you say you thought you'd never beat grounded?" to put it in simple terms, I am a level A coward :D just the idea of having to go through this 20 hour game without listening mode terrified me. I do not like dying nor getting spooked by an enemy popping out of nowhere. Also I was convinced that if I ever did make it all the way to the rat king that that would be it and I would be stuck there forever.

Well, what ended up happening was that in April of this year I beat the game on permadeath, which meant I had every single other achievement in the game and I thought "FUCK IT I'M GIVING GROUNDED A TRY" and then I failed miserably.... I ended up not even making it to Abby's section, I got stuck in the mall fight on Ellie day 3 and I just got so incredibly frustrated that I quit.

However, then a couple months passed, and I did have one trick up my sleeve. My first attempt of grounded had been on the normal version, not grounded+. I had wanted to not beat the game on grounded+ just to prove to myself that I could do it without the extra help, but sometimes you have to admit that you need help so again I tried with all my great guns and upgrades.

I will say, my thing about being afraid of not having listening mode proved to not be that much of an issue. The main emotion I felt while playing was not fear, but pure frustration and rage. God this game is so ANNOYING. Like you'd think the gap between survivor and grounded wouldn't be that bad, but it felt like night and day. I kept getting stuck and dying and my main strategy just ended up being to run for my life :D I know grounded isnt even near the hardest gaming challenges and maybe it was just a skill issue but man did I spend hours in some fights not making any progress at all.

Now you might be thinking, what about the rat king? I am happy to say that I BEAT THAT FUCKER FIRST TRY. I wish so badly that I had gotten it on video, because I have never been that locked in during my entire life. It felt like I had become Abby in that moment and I was channeling all my rage into killing that thing. Actually, I struggled wayyyyy more with Ellies bloater fight than the rat king, which was very surprising considering it's the other way around usually.

When I had beaten Abby in the final fight and I was watching the last few cutscenes, I got a bit emotional and teary eyed, which honestly surprised me a lot considering how many times I've played this game. Even during my first playthrough I only cried during the beginning when Ellie was going through Joels home. Maybe I was just happy the suffering would finally be over? I mean I do relate to Ellie on the level that I've also lost my father. Maybe my emotions were heightened because of the struggle and the 6 month journey it took me to get here.

To end this extremely long post I'd just like to say that if you ever think you can't do something, just try it anyway. Even if you end up failing, it's important to challenge yourself and besides, you can always try again. I know beating a video game isnt the coolest thing in the world but I am so proud of myself for not giving up.

[fainthedcherry]

2024 Human Art VS 2019 Human Art !!!!!

AS PROMISED, HERE'S A POST WITH SOME NEW ART!!!

And also an art comparison, just to see, how much I improved in drawing the 2 bois <3

I'm MEGA tired despite having slept after work, but I WON'T let that deter me from writing a description!! YAPNADO AHEAD;

FINN AND MARCOOO. FINNANMARCO. BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE ACOUSTICALLY AND FERALLY YELLED ABOUT MY 2 FICTIONAL MEN WHOM ARE CLOSE TO MY HEART.

I'm SO glad, that in the new drawing, Marco finally looks like the twink he always was, but still enough meat on the bones to look NORMAL lmao, can't say that about the 4 other sketches of me trying to redraw this ref for years. xD (why yes, his wings took forever, why do you ask? /lh)

I'M MEGA SUPER DUPER GLAD, that Finn FINALLY looks like a chubby, wild bastard TOO, OH TOOTHPASTE MAN, HOW MANY HEARTACHES YOU GAVE ME OVER STRUGGLING TO DRAW AN ENDOMORPHIC BODY TYPE. BUT I CAN NOWWWWWWWwwww!!!!!

God this habit of loudly reading out my posts as I type them made me realise what a bad Schwarzenegger impression I do on accident bc I'm overly excited to post something after a month of silence SDKFSKLDG

ONE THING I ALWAYS WANTED TO DO. IS PUT EVERY DETAIL I NEEDED ON A BIG REF. SO I DID! I've drawn closeups of the boys's eyes, I've drawn Finn's tongue so that I don't need to constantly remind myself what his blush and flesh colours were sdfkldsgkl, I FINALLY denoted their heights, so people know that they're tall TALL dudes (and that Finn obviously will struggle w/ his lanky mfing legs, we LOVE giving a middle-aged man heart attacks once he reaches his 40's!!!)

ANNDDD ALSO SOME SIDE VIEWS OF THEM. The last side-view I had of F & M, looked REAL bad. Like, Marco's face looked WAY too stereotypically European (to my fault bc surprise surprise not many African people live in Europe so I had poor frame of reference but I've been fixing it via looking up images online instead, at least it helps but yeah, I have a hard time so far unfortunately💀), Finn's was just... B u c k e t. NOT LIKE HANDSOME BUCKET. BUT JUST BUCKET. IT NEEDED FIXING (fun fact I accidentally made Finn have the most attractive jaw shape for men according to beauty standards and I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I JUST WANTED THIS MAN TO LOOK S Q U A R E AND THAT'S IT, MINECRAFT STEVE HAS MORE RIZZ THAN MOST MEN OFFICIALLY).

OH YEAH ALSO A CLAW REF AGAIN FOR FINN!!! His old ref looks too cool for me to give up on it tbh even as dated as it is sfjklsdglk, BUT I felt like I needed to redraw them properly.

FUNNILY ENOUGH A PERSON I COMMISSIONED SAID I HAVE SOME REALLY CLEAN AND NICE LINEART. I wish I heard that 5 years ago when I was really insecure about my bad lineart skills xD, I don't use lineart anymore nowadays outside of reference-drawings like these I don't plan to redraw in the next years unless necessary soooo yeah! They're gonna appear much rarer unless I go off and about making more ref sheets of all of my Sonc OC's sfklsdgsdfksdg

This drawing took 5 days to make btw. Not the hours spent on this LOL. 5 days of my life I'll never get back tho bc I care too much about my babies and I feel they deserve proper refs sdfklsdglk

WHAT ELSE SHOULD I MENTION.....HOPEFULLY I PLAN TO DRAW MORE HUMAN REFS IN THE FUTURE INSTEAD OF STAY IN MY COMFORT ZONE OF SONIC OCS ONLY. I for years wasn't confident in my ability to draw humans, but I can do so NOW at least!!!!!!!!!! Even if I'm like...3 years too late to how I wish my art looked back then already dsklfdsg, I have some high standards I need to continue to knock down as my 2024 resolution sdfklsdg

^IT'S BEEN WORKING THOUGH AS YOU CAN TELL BC I'VE BEEN UPLOADING SOME BAD DOODLES AND SKETCHES, BEEN DRAWING MORE GARBAGE AND BECAME MORE INVOLVED IN MY BELOVED FANDOMS. I wanna continue doing so! It was the most fun I've had with art ever. I hope to properly meet more fandoms I left in the past bc I thought it'd be embarrassing to share my passion for a franchise back then. I EMBRACE THE CRINGE NOW AS AN ADULT AT LEAST EVEN IF 7 YEARS TOO LATE ON THAT FRONT TOO. We all age and mature ig but I just become more silly year by year,,, c:

Oh yeah if you also see this btw lemme know, whether the new watermark tiles are subtle enough to not be noticed!!!! I know, watermarks are annoying and nobody likes them, but ever since AI invasions, I REFUSE to put my work online without ANY form of proof that somebody took it from my page. I just want people to stop lying on the internet for cloud and pick up a pencil. It's not that hard smfh. The only time I could excuse AI art is w/ amputees man. That's the only time I could empathise with someone, who wants to be an artist but LITERALLY can't bc they got dealt a bad hand in life. I digress my AI hate can be rambled about some other day, I know I love yapping and writing essays about THAT topic for sure sfklsdklg

I chose to post this ref to my Tumblr first tho, bc I still wanna work on my drawing of Abbacchio,,,, he is quite dear to me and I'd love to put effort into a doodle of him that won't take too long. Like 4 hours or 5 hours tops. I still have yet to figure out, if his cute star shape on his head is a hat or part of his hair. Bc I CAN'T TELL TBH AND I'VE BEEN DRAWING IT AS PART OF HIS HAIR PATTERN BUT I THINK IT'S A HAT NOW EVER SINCE I LOOKED AT MORE ASBR CAPS OF HIM I TOOK FOR REFERENCES. xD

Also another side-note, but I've ofc reduced down the lankiness of the dudes I draw™, but I in result wanted to sliiightly make larger feet/hands bc my Sonic phase will continue to possess me 'til the end of time /hj, if you also wanna lemme know what you think on that, bls do! I am messing about with stylization still. I am finding my footing with stylizing humans sOOO yeah!!!! I hope to some day be satisfied with my artstyle change of '24! So far it's been really rewarding and eye-opening to me and my journey as an artist for my 7 years of existing on the 'net w/ my silly goobers I like to scream about to in the void <3

Once again, tagnado also incoming below bc I dunno how to properly tag my art so lemme throw in things I THINK are relevant to this post sdkldsgkl

See you hopefully tomorrow w/ a lil doodle dump if I get around to it!!!! : D

[kinnbig]

✨ people I wanna know better! ✨

tagged by the lovely lovely @prismatic-witch 💖 thank you!

Last Song? Troye Sivan One of Your Girls! I've been listening to it on repeat since it came out I love it

Favourite colour? soft baby pink or sunshine yellow 🥰🩷💛

Currently watching? mostly just Only Friends on Saturdays! also the new season of Sex Education but very slowly (I'm bad at binge-watching). Bee and I just finished the documentary series we were watching (BBC Earth), but Planet Earth III starts on Sunday so we will soon have a new nature documentary to lose our minds about 💪

Last movie? lmao on Saturday I watched High School Musical for the 10000th time with my mum and sister and Bee. it's my ultimate comfort movie, 1000/10, will watch several hundred more times.

Sweet/spicy/savoury? sweet!!

Relationship status? in a very 100% legitimate polycule with @aikinn, @divorcedmalewife, @kimchaybrainrot, and @thewholedamnboulangerie... if only there were no oceans separating us.... fjkdjkjgjfd no I've been engaged to and living with Bee tumblr user aikinn for 5 years, but alas weddings are expensive 🫠 we'll have been together for 7 years next month! she's an angel and the loml and an all round good egg. and also very pretty. 🩷🤍🧡

Current obsessions? at the beginning of September, having previously never drawn anything more complicated than a stick-man, I decided I was going to teach myself to draw. as you do. and now it's been 6 weeks and I'm obsessed and it's taken over my life and replaced all of my other hobbies 🫣 sorry anyone who was waiting for fic updates.... I've been obsessively drawing pictures of Big.

Last thing you googled? lol it was Planet Earth III cause I couldn't remember whether it started on Saturday or Sunday 🫣 before that apparently it was emoji kitchen. I wanted to make fun lil guys 🥺

Selfie?

these are both a few months old cause I sooo rarely take selfies lol 🫣 but here is a very rare occasion of me wearing makeup (for a Mika concert) and also on holiday channeling Ram in My Engineer the Series episode 10 [part 3/4]… 🥺🌸

Friends I wanna get to know better: omg okay I'm gonna try and tag some lovely mutuals I don't already know super well - but no pressure if you don't want to (and bonus no pressure to do the selfie part if you don't wanna put your face on tumblr) @yeetlegay, @lady-guts, @rainbowcolored7, @cytharat, @wildelydawn, @bisexualbard 💖💖

[bellmo15-blog]

Dante outfits based of how much I'd wear them.

Been a while since I've done one of them silly little things hasn't it? Well I'm back with a new one of these that's a lot simpler than the Batsuit or Spider-Man suit ones. Mostly because there aren't that many of these costumes in game lol!

As I'm sure a lot of you have seen already, last month I got a pic of my self insert sona dressed in Dante's outfit from the original Devil May Cry. And there were very good reasons for that. Aside from Devil May Cry just being one of my favourite franchises of all time Dante's outfit in the original game just really, really appealed to me a lot that I had to get my sona dressed in it one day. I mean most of Dante's main outfits are great anyway. And while I likely won't be getting another pic of my sona dressed in his drip for a while given the amount of other ideas I want to get drawn for me I thought I might as well resurrect this kind of tier list I made a few years ago but for Dante's drip! I was also considering every other character as well, or at the very least every playable character, but decided to limit it to Dante just cause. I feel like I've wasted enough time so let's get into...

Good luck trying to convince me to take these off: It literally speaks for itself! My favourites of the funny demon mans outfits. From his original design from the first game plus the coatless version from 3 and his outfit from 2. Then again, who doesn't love his outfit from 2? It's commonly referred to as one of the only good parts of Devil May Cry 2 for a reason!

Would still love to wear: Then we get to the ones that I would pretty much still love wearing as a backup if his 1 and 2 costumes were not available to me. And yes, you are seeing that right, the Desile branded costume from DMC 2 is on this tier for me. Yeah, I know it's pretty much just one big product placement for a real life fashion brand but I also don't really care because I kind of really like it. And beyond that is pretty much every other main Dante costume in this series from 3 to 5 because they still look just as good to me. And also this one funny beach themed costume from Peak of Combat. Enjoy seeing it in this tier because pretty much every other outfit from PoC beyond this is downhill for me. Oh and also Dante's look from the upcoming Netflix anime. (PLEASE don't be cancelled 2 seasons in!)

Ehh, maybe: The ones I pretty much have very conflicted thoughts on to be honest. First there's the Sparda costume which I've never really known how to feel in general and it looks like it'd be WAY to expensive and hard to maintain for me. And then you got the EX colours for Dante's 4 and 5 outfits. I don't know, these colour swaps for the outfits just look fine. And then there's some of the other Peak of Combat costumes which I have no idea how to feel about them. They feel, how do I put this, over designed? I don't know, they feel like they got two much going on in them to me.

The amount of beer I'd have to consume to even consider wearing these would also kill me: Yeah, don't act like you didn't see the placement of these costumes coming. Even as someone who actually does like the 2013 reboot because I really don't think it's as bad as everyone makes it out to be I would not pick these outfits to wear casually in any capacity. They don't have the same "cool factor" I'd argue the other Dante costumes do. Which really sucks when you look into the development history of the reboot and see that they did originally try to make it look somewhat more like classic Dante. And spoiler alert, the remaining 2 Peak of Combat costumes aren't any better either. The former has the same issue as the reboot costumes and the later... yeah I'm not a fan.

Oh and then you got the coatless version of his DMC 3 outfit with is literally just him in pants. I have no real strong feelings towards this costume one way or the other.

And... that's pretty much it!

[fearecia]

Ah yes, the incompetence of the medical field.

See the PCP to try and get appropriate referrals because I really need one person managing my HRT and hashimotos, since the former directly affects med dosages of the latter. I also want to try and get a handle on the constant inflammation issues that are most likely not related to the hashimotos.

Doc is running behind. No one gets a medication update from me. Manage endo referral and get inflammation panel ordered, but get rushed back out of office without half the things on my list addressed.

Doc runs blood work. Blood sugar comes back a little elevated, cholesterol is completely whacked, WBC count is, as usual, nicely elevated, and inflammation makers are pissed off as expected.

I get a call stating that they are all concerned about the blood sugar and the cholesterol. Want to repeat labs in a week. Oh, and they ordered an A1C.

Bitch, I'm on accutane. That shit fucks your cholesterol. I also have needle poke anxiety, so the blood sugar always spikes. Chill. It's fine. Please redo my T labs because they came back stupid high, and it's probably because I had applied the gel maybe an hour before having blood drawn.

A1C comes back pre-diabetic. Huh. That's odd. I'm usually really darn good on that one. Oh hey, look at this. Turns out that accutane will raise your A1C noticeably around the 5 month mark (hi, that's where we're at). Well that makes sense. Cool.

Repeated CBC comes back with yet further elevated WBC. Surprise surprise.

Get a call from the assistant. "You're in pre-diabetic levels. Doc wants you to eat a low carb diet and we'll recheck in 3 months."

"I'm on accutane. It will raise the A1C. Yeah, sure, we'll redo labs. Whatever."

Bitch, I've been on a low carb diet for at least the last 5 years. Like, cool it. And maybe have half a brain. If you'd bother to look at the previous recorded result, you'd see that I'm usually golden. Also maybe look at things a bit more holistically? Like, I'm losing weight, for gods' sakes. Did you bother to notice that I weigh less than last time you saw me? Did ya? Nah. Didn't think so.

I'll let you run labs in 6 months. One, because I probably have another month of accutane left. Two, the A1C reflects the last three months of blood sugar, so we need to give my body time to recover. Three, because chronic inflammation also affects all that shit, and my body needs time to calm down.

Also, how about you address the elevated WBC and inflammation markers like I asked you to? HMMMMMM?

All this followed by an automated email from planned Parenthood stating that my hormone levels came back high and they want a SHBG run.

We ran the SHBG alongside the testosterone. 🤦

And yes, the second round of T labs did come back lower, but still higher than I was expecting. Combined with the SHBG, things are a little high, but we'll adjust and be fine.

Nothing like having to educate and manage your own damn doctors. Constantly. And nothing like having to wrangle referrals from said doctors because you need specialists for your care, and said specialists won't take new patients without said referrals.

I'm annoyed and bitching. Because chronic health conditions also means chronic doctor management. And I'm tired of it.

[artsartblog]

I don't currently have any new art, but I have some old art I can pass along here. I don't believe I reblogged any of this from my main account, if I did I don't remember, but here it is. It's art of my tmnt oc (specifically the rise era) featuring Leo and April.

So the first drawing is of Emlyn and April just hanging out at Em's place (specifically her bedroom). I know the colors on April aren't particularly accurate to her show counterpart, but I was kinda eyeballing the colors instead of outright color picking them because I didn't think to do that at the time. The conversation the two are having is probably school or turtle related, though it could really be anything.

The second image is just a bunch of sketches put together of Emlyn. Top left is her at 5 years old in a ninja suit similar to that seen on the foot clan because she had learned to be a ninja like her sister, Cassandra, but decided she wanted to do something else instead (to let Cas have something for herself). Top right is Leo patching Em up after she failed to pull off a skateboarding trick she had tried learning to impress the turtles (mostly Leo) while Leo is telling her that she should've been more careful since she's a lot softer than the turtles. Middle left is a drawing of what Emlyn thinks of how Leo would look like as a human, taking a more likeness to Splinter than the others, which was done out of pure fun for her. At the bottom is a drawing of Em dressed up as Heather Chandler for Halloween, having convinced April and Sunita to be Duke and McNamara.

The third image is a what if kind of drawing. It's a mutated Emlyn, her as an otter (or water chipmunk as I kept calling it when I was drawing it). If Emlyn were to ever be mutated, she'd probably end up as a mutant otter.

The fourth image is from Pride Month a while back. I reused the pose from the second image of Emlyn as Heather Chandler and gave her a cute outfit with her flag colors (Pansexual). With Happy Pride Month written above her.

The last image is a drawing of Emlyn ice skating, which is set during the winter episodes. It's one of the few times I've drawn a background. Also, it originally was going to be a full-on comic of her ice skating, but I didn't have the patience or energy at the time to do that, so I changed it to that. I was going to add the turtles in the foreground without obscuring Em, but I decided against it and just have it be understood that the group found her and are watching her skate. (Actually, I struggled to pick out colors for her costume, but settled on blues because of winter then was like, "Ha, blue because of Leo lol.")

[noelbobby]

The Penn Comics

I should probably transfer over my Penn comics to this Tumblr account. Who is Penn? Well, it all started with violent, pistol-wielding thug who said some weird dialogue that came t' me one day.

Then it evolved into an' occasional segment with a more realised violent, pistol-wielding thug who smoked and had delusions of greatness that he certainly didn't have who was part of a larger cast.

There's a fair bit to this story, 25 works total, so hit that 'read more' if y'am interested. Otherwise don't because you'll be scrollin' a while, I'm gonna be writing for a while... bloody Hell, its sinking in.

This is 'A Pack of Pens from the Pound Shop', it was written on the 27th of March, 2022. At this point Penn didn't have a name and I wasn't intending on ever bringing him back.

That changed on the 9th of September that year, when I created the second ever Penn work, called 'This Person Again' (at the time I hadn't decided Penn was a man).

This started a minor interest in Penn from me. So much so I drew the next Penn image on the 12th of that same month and named Penn as 'Penn' in this time. A crossover image between Penn and my at the time ongoing (now on indefinite hiatus) comic Treasure of Microchips character Gecko Onslaughter, called 'Onslaughter and Penn'.

Now, Gecko Onslaughter is a far more competent character than Penn, I won't get into them, but I made it quite clear that Penn was very outmatched (as a sidenote, Gecko Onslaughter could be described as 'non-binary', but its their culture, and all ToM characters cultures, more don't have a gender-binary culturally... no, I didn't know I was non-binary when I started Treasure of Microchips, no I'm not very smart).

2 days later on the 14th I gave Penn his second ever comic 'Penn's Negotiation Tactic'. Which demonstrated the direction I was goin' with the character

That is to say, he's a joke. An overconfident fool who thinks throwing pens at people makes him seem serious and respectable. Becca's last line is the perfect summing up of the absurdity.

Penn drawings continued but for some reason I only uploaded the next 3 images on me DeviantArt on the 9th of December, 2022.

Luckily, I know when my drawings actually were drawn. The next 'un would go back to the location of Penn's second image: Penn's Place and was drawn on the 26th of October.

Notably in this image you can see a pack of cigarettes (and a loose cigarette). This image, literally called 'Penn Smoking' drawn on the 30th of October 2022 would do what it says in the title.

Why did I make Penn a smoker? Well, Penn smoking cigarettes contrasted him nicely with Gecko again, who is also depicted smoking, but they smoke cigars. Also since Penn is always smugly smiling, so I thought it'd be funny to draw him trying to maintain his massive grin while smoking. This was also about when I decided 'Norm' was a name of Penn's. Is his full name Norm Penn? I've never actually decided.

But now things get interesting, on the 9th of December (the same day I uploaded the other 2 images to DeviantArt) I 'ad a funny idea. Penn is an incompetent fool who thinks he's a dangerous and tough mercenary. So, what if he thinks he's a rival of a real dangerous merc? That's when I drew 'Penn's 'Rival''.

Penn's 'Rival', Cox, was designed in contrast to Penn: ae wears a suit rather than casual clothes, ae's bald rather than having a baldspot (and is stated to shave aer head), ae maintains a 5 o'clock shadow while Penn has no facial hair and aer skin is a teal shade in contrast to Penn's red with green hair. However, we'll get into the biggest difference between the two soon enough.

Cox is also, as you may've noticed, an ae/aer user, that's nothing t' do with Penn, and is incidental to the character, really, but I think that adds to Cox's coolness.

I moved back to Penn exclusively for the next joke, Penn at a Shooting Range on the 3rd of January, 2023.

I love to imagine the delivery of the 'Sir?' there... also is it obvious I've never even seen a shootin' range? Probably.

On the 25th I drew a full-body image of Cox creatively called Cox Image. My January self said this in the description of this image

'Penn thinks that he is Cox's biggest enemy, but Cox would say aer biggest enemy is aer desire to always look aer best. The shaved head, meticulously maintained stubble and insistence on businesswear means Cox spends more time in front of a mirror everyday than ae would admit to most. When aer style looks effortless, that's when Cox is satisfied. Still, as eccentricities go Cox's actually ends up making aerself look more serious and competent, unlike Penn's which makes him look a bit weird. Cox would never use a prop in an attempt to convince a client of aer worth. Cox's reputation speaks for Cox.'

See, Cox and Penn are both into presentation. Penn's presentations are more literal, theatrical use of pens in a strange gimmick. While Cox's presentation is appearance-based and ae have skills to back up aer look.

Then on the 8th of March I decided to go into Penn's backstory in the image 'Norm', well, more specifically in Norm's description.

'Norm was an accountant who was arrested as he had defrauded his clients in a very obvious and stupid way. He was put in a low security prison, of course, but Norm started feeling... powerful after his arrest. His feelings of power and his ego grew and grew in prison. By the time he was released Penn had started feeling invincible... and he's been working under that feeling ever since.'

What can I say, I wanted to add some depth to Penn. I certainly didn't add anything new on the 31st of March, 2023. When I drew 'Penn is about to Fire'

I pointed out in the description that Penn wasn't aiming that gun even slightly.

It was only a matter of time before I drew or write a story where Penn actually managed to kill someone. He's funny, but he also is still alive, so of course sometimes he's gotta stumble into victories. A very literal title was created on the 3rd of April, called 'A Written Penn Scene with two Visuals'.

'Gunter could hardly believe this man standing in front of him. The man had walked into his office and loudly declared a murderous intent, pulling a gun from his trousers "You seriously think you can shoot me in my own office and get away with it? I don't know how you got past security, but you clearly know I am a connected and powerful man. Do you honestly think you can shoot me right now and escape this office alive?" "Yes." "You are the most imbecilic—" Gunther couldn't finish his thought before the man fired and... hit his computer. The man fired again, this time it hit to Gunther's left "Seriously?" Gunther thought in disbelief "This man can't even shoot straight at this range how did he think he can—" the thought was ended by the fourth shot, a bullet to his brain. Penn put his gun back into his holster and turned to leave another job well done. On his way to the stairs he thought "Typical inflated ego. No actual sense of self-preservation to earn it."'

(its still a joke because Penn is saying the last line)

Of course, Penn's compitence can't be too great. Which is why I created Trigger Discipline is Important when Posing on the 9th of May.

Description from the time: 'If Bradley-Anna had opened the door I'm sure they'd have found Penn's pose very cool before Penn shot them. As it is, Penn stood there for at least four hours after this and Bradley-Anna fled the country.' yeah, Bradley-Anna is non-binary. It's a stable of me works because since no binary artists add us, I might as well.

I then got the idea of giving Cox an interesting tattoo on aer back. So on the 11th of May I drew 'Cox's Back'.

This also shows that Cox's name is W. Cox.

On the 16th of July, 2023 I had a hilarious thought: What if Penn met a less competent and more obnoxious person than himself? In a comic that's so big I needa divide it for Tumblr. It's the longest Penn Comic I've ever made so far.

This is called 'Penn meets Unicorn Browne' (and Mx Marko is another fine example of me many non-binary characters in this comic).

Original description also said 'The text that's blurred together reads: Unicorn "The greatest of all time, the new Goddess of mercenary work! Unicoooorn" Penn "I am the most expensive of all pens! You should go back to the pound shop!" And in the text under Marko's shouting Unicorn is going 'Broooooooo'[wne] and Penn is saying 'This pen is you: cheap!'.'

I fuckin' love Unicorn Browne, lemme upload me 19th of July image 'Cox, Penn and Unicorn Browne' an' then explain why.

See, Cox is a contrast to Penn in that Cox is more competent, capable and aer 'gimmick' is that ae wants to look competent and capable. Unicoooorn BROOOOOWNE! (sorry) She dresses a lot like Penn, she smiles like Penn, but she's even more overconfident than Penn. If his ego is Jupiter, he's is the Sun.

Design-wise she's also got the inverse skin and hair to Penn and she also is ever-smiling, but it's an open smile, all the better to yell her own name. Which is her gimmick, an even less fancy, even sillier gimmick than Penn's props. She contrasts Penn, but also Cox in many ways.

On the 30th of July I made this more explicit with these 'Unicorn Browne Drawings'. Showing that she, like Cox, has tattoos, but her's are knuckle tats that read 'UNICOORN BROOOWNE' rather than an elaborate back tattoo with a somewhat cool slogan.

On the 9th of August I had a weird idea called Penn's Invite, another long comic.

Penn's sister. No, I haven't developed this idea further. I maybe one day.

I really like Unicorn Browne, I like them all, but Unicorn Browne is such a strong gimmick I made a Unicorn Browne exclusive on the 12th of September, 2023.

This is called 'That's why she uses a Pool Cue' and the description says 'I think Council's face manages to say it all.' while its not as explicit as Mx Marko, Council is also a non-binary character.

Next few images'll be very quick. I've been writing for over an hour.

This is 'Cox Paint Drawing', drawn on the 13th of September, there's not much to say on it. I wanted t' draw Cox in Paint. Ae looks good no matter the program, I think. Hahahaa.

On the 16th of September I drew a non-Paint Cox drawing called 'Cox's Morning', Showing Cox after ae has finnished aer 5 o'clock shadow maintinence. Look at aer happy face.

Simplistic Penn character drawings on the 3rd of October is another Paint drawing. I wanted t' see if the three looked the part without the colours because I felt a tad self-conscious about me face-design that day.

9th of October, Penn in Pen. The creepiness of Penn's design shines through in pen, I think. He's funny, but since the original image he's meant to have a bit of an edge.

Now on the 20th of October is 'Unicorn Browne Thumbs Up'. Drawn because I wanted to do somethin' with her knuckle tats. I'm not entirely happy with this image. I also considered instead having her flipping you off.

And we am at the latest Penn Comic image. Which, ironically, has neither Penn, Cox or Unicorn Browne. On the 21st of October I drew 'Penn Comic Bosses (so far)': Becca, Mx Marko and Council.

I pointed out in the description that funnily none of these 'Bosses' are confirmed to have ever hired a main character.

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Gordon Bennett, that was a lot, wasn't it? I'm rather tired after that, but, yeah, that's the 'Penn Comics' universe so far. Hope ya enjoyed it. I'm tired after this compiling, but I enjoyed writing it. At some point there will be more Penn Comics, but, luckily, that time I'll be puttin' 'em 'ere separately.

[leaveitalonesky]

Tag Game: This or That Writer's Edition

I was tagged by @pens-swords-stuff

1. historical or futuristic

I have always been a fan of science fiction. And even in fantasy, I've always disliked medieval/historical settings. Writing present or future times comes way easier for me.

2. the opening or closing chapter

I like the beginning of things because it means hope. There's hope for what's to come.

3. light+fluffy or dark+gritty

Ok, this one's harder. But, to me, sometimes writing dark themes is a way to process real life things for me. And I used to do it a lot, and I still do most of the time. I just don't like posting it.

With that said, I've been having a hard time this last few months and I've been writing fluffy and lighter, and more hopeful things.

4. animal companion or found family

Found family is my trope. Again, I always feel like I'm writing in a place of hope when I do it. I'm the kind of person that cherishes relationships - and I mean like friendships and such, I truly see those close to me as family (most times more than my actual blood-related family)

5. horror or romance

I love horror. I do, I am drawn to horror, have been since I was young. I like monsters and freaks and the gore and the fear. And yet I seem unable to write horror.

Maybe it's because I'm more of a fic writer than original stories writer. But I feel like I just don't know how to make a good horror story. I also feel like horror fits better a visual media rather than written word. Romance comes a thousand times easier for me when I'm writing.

6. hard or soft magic system

I'll be that person and choose both. So here's the thing for me, I think both have a place. And they both can be entertaining. I love lore, and I love thinking about situations that aren't mention in canon and then kinda using the lore available to make guesses on what would happen. That said, I feel like a soft magic system can be incredibly enticing in a story.

7. standalone or series

In general, I tend to like stories that have an end. It doesn't have to be a full end, I like a good open end. I don't know but I think I'm just tired of series, and spin offs. Sometimes a story doesn't need more stuff.

8. one project at a time or always juggling 2+

Listen, I wish I could be a one project at a time. I'm not. I have bursts of work on stuff, and they'll be finished when I get the inspiration for it. It could happen in 2 minutes or 2 years.

9. one award winner or one bestseller

I don't really care about awards. I want people to read what I write, and hopefully they'll get it and like it.

10. fantasy or sci-fi

Big fan of both (but not a big fan of high fantasy). But listen, I am a scientist. I love when stories use correct science for things. I am that kind of nerd.

11. character or setting description

I'm very character driven when writing. Like there's not even a chance for setting description unless it's 100% important

12. first or final draft

always first.

13. love triangle in everything or no romantic arcs

Love triangle that can be turned into policules is my thing.

14. constant sandstorm or rainstorm

i hate sand. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i'm not tagging people cause I don't know who wants to be tagged; so if you see this and you want to answer it: I tagged you, you have to do it. do it now.