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The books and the shows aren't the same thing and?? That's okay?? It doesn't have to be??
Some of the artists haven't even seen the show yet, and maybe won't 🤷♀️ I know I've seen like. The 1st episode and that's it lol. And I really enjoyed it and I think it's really fun
But people tend to separate book fandoms from in screen fandoms, to an extent, at least, bc there ARE differences, and THATS OKAY
They are very connected but they are not the same and I don't understand why people find that so hard to accept?? Like. Genuinely I'm so confused lol
Like if someone was being disrespectful, or trying to whitewash Leah or something horrid then like. Defend her!!! (Do try to be polite tho bc people can and often do change, and they know what they have been taught until they learn more- like for example, a few years ago I had no idea ab anything lgtbq and I peob would have gotten myself canceled bc I had. No idea. Ab any of it. And despite having best intentions in heart i totally would have offended someone, and that would have crushed me, because *i didnt know*. I never would have hurt anyone on purpose, i just didnt realize what COULD hurt others on that specific topic, much less why. But now I identify with it and am learning new things ab jt every day and etc. And that's a super touchy topic for a lot of people and for good reason too! Just try to be kind first, then if they are jerks u can be a jerk back lol. Just give peopke a chnace to get better- and then PLEASE dont hold the past against them ubless they very clearly havent changed mk please please please let people grow and change and get better dont crush them before they can) anti Leah trash is. That. Trash
But why would you attack book Annabeth, just for existing? She was my childhood, and I identified a lot with her as I grew up. And guess what! I also identified with Hazel, and I do so even more now! No matter what race she will be casted as, I'm still going to imagine BOOK Hazel the way I always did. Doesn't mean I won't adore her actress, or appreciate art of the girl playing her role! But would you call me racist for drawing her as African American if her actress, was, say, Asian American? Or drawing Leo as Latino instead of Somoan? Because to me, u less I am being a jerk about it, all I'm doing is drawing the book instead of the show. Idk I'm too sleep deprived to put my thoughts into coherent words lol
I love the posts, where it's like, book Annabeth and show Annabeth holding hands. Those posts are my favorite, both because they are freaking adorable, but also. Because it's equal
They are different aspects of the same person
And
Thats
Okay
You know???
I quite literally grew up reading pjo. I read it at least once every year since I learned HOW to read, *partially on pjo*, until late middle school. I was raised on book Annabeth.
Show Annabeth is new and exciting and adorable and I'm so happy for it and I am very excited for all the people being introduced to it!!!!!!!! However, when I'm writing book pjo, I'm not swaping it out for show scenes, bc they are, in fact, different. Which, again, NOT A BAD THING. And you know what? When people from the show fandom write their scenes, they aren't going to be thinking ab the book scenes, and THATS OKAY TOO!!! And I could care less how my readers saw my characters when the read the story. I write them the way I imagine them, but it's their job as the reader to say 'no, actually :P' and swap out the appearance for one they liked better.
I did that plenty often as a kid, and i donf regeret it.
Which, ironically enough, was why my book Percy was blond until ab 6th grads XD I mixed up Luke and Percy's hair description ONCE and just. Never questioned it, though all the rereads, or looking at the covers of the books 💀 you can imagine my shock when I joined the fandom and found out Percy had black hair, instead of sandy hair like, you know, S A N D, like poseidon!!! And now show Percy is blond XD
That just proves people can imagine things how they want and jts okay- especially bc maybe, in an au, they're rifht!!! (Au being show Percy to me)
Anyways I lost my train of thought and it's almost 12 here lolll I hope I didn't say anything ill be embarrassed by come tomorrow~
Good night world :3
Hi guys, wanted to discuss something going on for a while now. What the hell is wrong with pjotwt? Like...whats wrong with this people? Do you see what they say? What they are even trying to do?
First of all, let me start by speaking about the cast. They are all wonderful children, Leah especially! She is doing an amazing job as Annabeth. But book Annabeth still exists yk? She is and she is literally white. It is not racist. But denying about a character being white in the books, even spreading hate like this...is racist. There are people out there related with Annabeth for years. People love her, every version, maybe book more maybe even the movie. How can you disrespect her like this? And most importantly, how can they attack an artist like this, with an art being so beautiful. What they are trying to do is not protecting Leah, it is spreading hate. It is awful. Making this fandom toxic, so so much.
Them trying to erase book Annabeth because she is white, trying to cover her by painting on her, shaming artists, calling people that loves her racist...What do we do about this in pjo fandom? This fandom used to be so beautiful, but now. This people are not part of the fandom in my eyes, because real fans, would respect every version of the characters, love them with their anything, even flaws. They would protect this characters because they love them, so much. And not to mention this characters are the ones Rick wrote 20 years ago, they were with us for so long.
What do tumblr think about this I wonder? Since pjo fandom is pretty active here :3
#is it so hard to just like love them all? i consider all versions of the pjo characters canon. who says that there only has to be one canon?#ramblings with regina#thd show and the books are dif and thags how its SUPPOSED TK BE#ITS OKAY#and so are everones interpretations :÷#let them coexhsist as they shoulddddd#im not giving up my book annie for show and- OR VICE VERSA#THEY ARE TBE WAY THEY ARE MEANT TO BE#LOVS THEM FHEG ARE AMAZING AND BEAUFIFUL#and so are everyones interperetaions :3#i enjoy seeing posts that play around with dif nationalities dor all of the characters#anyways cutting off b4 i ramble again gn~
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Buddie: Episodes 6x10 vs. 8x7
Last Thursday when I watched the promo for this week's episode, I noticed a lot of similarities to 6x10 and since then I've been wondering if the callback to the lightning strike will have any significance along with an effect on Buck and Eddie. Aside from the obvious of a firefighter hanging from a ladder truck's aerial, there are several others that are blatant and appear to have been done on purpose.
Since season 8 began, there have been numerous callbacks to previous seasons and they include emergency calls the 118 has been dispatched to. In 8x6, they were sent to a home where a young boy was trapped in a pipe and it looked similar to the well Eddie rescued Hayden from in 3x15. However, before Eddie could be pulled up to safety, the well collapsed and Buck lost his mind and started clawing at the ground and trying to dig Eddie up with his bare hands. Now, even though the 8x6 callback to the well didn't appear to have any obvious effects on Buck and Eddie, it's possible the call in 8x7 might.
An actor from the TV show set of "Hotshots" gets injured and he ends up hanging from the 119's aerial. It's too eerily similar to a call the 118 was dispatched to in 6x10 and it's when Buck got struck by lightning and he died for 3 minutes and 17 seconds. However, this call seems to be more than just a similarity because all of the 118 team members are standing in positions and doing the same things they did in 6x10. It almost seems like TM (showrunner) is setting up something big and he's trying to jog someone's (Buck's) memory (it makes me think my Buddie Crack Theory [linked here] is still in play).
Reminder Buck was dead, so he has no idea what happened after he got struck but everyone else does. In CANON, no one has told him about that time period that he was hanging in the air and the look on his face in the promo makes it seem like he's trying to figure something out.
Let's get started.
After the 118 arrives on the scene, one of the first things I noticed is Eddie, Chimney and Buck are all standing in the same positions they were in before Buck climbed up the ladder in 6x10. Eddie and Chimney are right beside each other and Buck is standing away from them. In 6x10, he was preparing to go up the ladder.
The second thing I noticed was Bobby looking up at the Hotshots' actor the same way he looked up at Buck after he was struck.
Hen was looking up too the same way she did in 6x10.
Furthermore, Eddie's (it looks like Eddie on the left and Buck on the ladder on the right) position on the ladder in 8x7 appears to be the same as it was when he climbed up without a harness to save Buck.
There weren't any shots of Chimney looking up in 8x7 or of how he will be involved in the rescue but his role was key in 6x10 so I'm anxious to see how it will all play out.
Gerrard and Bobby are standing side by side and they're both looking up so I want to know if Bobby will have a flashback to Buck being struck and I also want to know if he'll have to tell Gerrard the best way to get the actor down.
I also noticed Chimney and Eddie are wearing sunglasses but no one else is. They all have them and since the sun is out and Buck's squinting when he looks up, it seems like he should be wearing a pair. Hen has eyeglasses that have lenses in them that transition to sunglasses but she's not wearing them. Also, I've noticed Eddie only wears sunglasses when he doesn't want anyone to see his eyes 👀.
When Buck (on the right) and Eddie (on the left) start trying to rescue the actor, Buck starts yelling "No, no, no, no!" and it sounds similar to the yell he let out after he was struck by lightning.
Just saying.
It's unclear what TM is doing and no one will know until the episode airs but I'm excited to see if Eddie being in the same position he was in after Buck got struck will have an effect on him.
I'm excited for 8x7 and I hope the obvious call back will have some meaning and allow the 118 to remember what happened to Buck and hopefully, Buck will ask questions about what happened to him. Reminder, he STILL HASN'T PROCESSED HIS DEATH.
#buddie#eddie diaz#evan buckley#hen wilson#chimney han#bobby nash#911 abc#911 on abc#911 season 8#911 season 8 speculation#911 meta#911 spoilers#911 speculation#118 firefam#tw: flashing lights
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hi! let me just start by saying I've been seeing your posts about wardrobe and color theory a lot lately and i LOVE them so thank you for posting!
you mentioned, in a reply to an ask, that white is Eddie's color when he's going through emotional moments. i was wondering if those are usually negative (maybe the white shirt from the birthday video will be about something related to chris?) or does he ever wear white in other moments? sorry if it's a bit of a complicated question 😅
Hi!! Okay, first of all, thank you for reading!! The white with Eddie is interesting, they're not negative as a rule, but they are usually transformative in a sense. A white moment I didn't add to the other post, mostly because I already had this image, is right before the tsunami.
I personally think they are using white with Eddie for beginnings, in a sense. Eddie was always written as a widow archetype in mind, even when Shannon was still alive, so I think her funeral is a beginning for Eddie since her death defines his character. The tsunami is a beginning because it kickstart buddie the way we know it, he's is starting the arc that makes Buck his coparent. The outside looking in dinner kickstarts his breakdown arc. The scene with Kim kickstarts him deconstructing himself. The scene with Weston's dad is the start of Eddie's arc starting to figure out who he is. Is about beginning to change.
White is used for simplicity, purity, honesty, stuff like that. But I think they use the way they use it with Eddie is about the ending of a cycle and the beginning of the next, kinda like the way we use white for new years for example. It's a clean slate for Eddie to be built upon. And that pairs with my theory that Eddie is finding his yellow (you can read about that here), they are playing with lighter shades with him, until he figures himself out.
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A secret rendezvous. <3
#ffxiv#karoiseka#thancred#7.0#7.0 spoilers#wolcred#and three makes a chorus#error: g'raha not found#Thancred actually came to the cabin in the city before the official “reveal”#as to not distress Karo#so they already had *one* good quiet reunion before this#but they sure as hell weren't going to pass up being near each other again#I've been thinking about this since the scene played#lol#well--different versions#but I like what I did here#I'm happy with these#despite the flaws in the last two poses that I know I see horribly but they still look nice#wheeeeeeee#gonna also try to clean up my drafts and actually post some stuff in the next week!
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This scene is always in my mind
They make me sick get them out of my head NOW!
#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#my roman empire#I think about this all the time#i'm gonna be sick#i'm gonna throw up#I want what they have#you're telling me they weren't playing this as a romantic scene? lies. one of the most romantic things I've ever witnessed#star trek#star trek tos#star trek the original series#star trek a taste of armageddon#spock#s'chn t'gai spock#james t kirk#jim kirk#captain kirk#spirk#not art#video#get them out of my mind now this scene has been on replay since 2020#You're telling me this isn't supposed to have romantic undertones. You're telling me this is a normal heterosexual not at all romantic#conversation between a captain and his first officer.#why did he say it so lovingly#one of the most romantic scenes in any media ever#s01ep23#I think
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BEE KISS TOMORR- *dead* /j
If anyone wants to watch me drawing this like a little victorian child then the timelapse is below the cut 🤣
(FLICKER WARNING. It's all through out so be careful!👍 )
#RWBY#Bumbleby#Blake Belladonna#Yang Xiao Long#Foxarts#YOUR HONOR I HATE THEM (that's a lie actually)#I'VE BEEN STARING AT THIS FOR 3(?) DAYS NOW AND I'M SICK#Technically this doesn't contain spoilers but let me know if I should add the tag!#In reality I think cloud scene will happen episode 7-ish BUT being delusional is what being a bee fan is all about-#This is the first time I've actually tried drawing a kiss sooooo hope it turned out ok xDD#I am the one who looks away when anyone kisses for more than 2 seconds so.#Kisses aren't very photogenic that's all I'll say (I had 3 tutorials open and 5 references pulled up)#This was so messy- I forewent line art because I hate it and I thought it wouldn't be bad to just clean up the sketch. I was kind of right.#Watching back the recording is funny because I've always known I'm disorganized but just watching it play out is hilarious.#Enjoy my little notes and doodles 😌😌#They're so soft I want to scream.#I SURE HOPE I DIDN'T FORGET ANYTHING 😭#Risking my livelihood for these stupids since 2020 *strikes pose*#Anyways that's enough of my rambling.#HAVE A NICE DAY Y'ALL!!
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things that are hard to find: writing advice that isn't condescending.
#ambie.txt#I've been really thinking about this story in my head and wondering what caused me to get burned out from writing#and realising it's all the formal bits. planning an outline organising things into a timeline. I'm more of an impulse writer#and having to think about all those dry and formal things makes me quit before I even start#this is my autism but I hate having to stop and figure out all this before I write because that way I won't write at all#ever since I started free writing I discovered that I still love writing. I love it so much#but I hate doing all of the other things because they are not my special interest and they keep me from pursuing my special interest#it's just very hard to find writing advice that isn't condescending in this aspect#people stressing out you need an outline first are very common unfortunately#I'm more of a vibes no plot person and like to just discribe the vibes in vivid detail#before worrying about the plot too much. and yes in a story there had to be a plot#but if worrying about the plot and connecting all the scenes is killing my creativity#I want to just go from details first and bigger picture later#again. autism. also writing dialogue is the worst. idk how people talk. I don't understand body language etc etc#I have written some pretty good dialogue before so I know I'm capable. it just really sucks when I have to scrutinise everything#and think “would people say this? do they talk like that?” its draining#so I was thinking about writing dialogue separately. maybe write it as a script for a play#which is essentially just dialogue. and then match it with the scene descriptions I have written#like. I know I'm a good writer. I very good one. but the way I have been writing so far has burned me out#because it was too much focused on all the boring bits and not enough on the freedom and joy of just writing#which is why I love free writing. it allows me to focus on a few tiny details and then develop them into something bigger#also I hate writing on a computer so I got some notebooks so I can write on paper instead#it's where I'm most creative I've found#anyway this all just to say that I think following writing advice is not for me at least not now when I'm rediscovering my passion#and that I need to trust myself more and do things that make me happy#so um yeah. best writing advice is to just write and worry about it later
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rereading order of the stick (again), and greyiew is only in a few comics so far but man do i love this nihilistic wolf
#order of the stick#yes i know it hasn't been terribly long since i last reread it but#i've been desperately trying to get my dnd group to read it and i just had to go back and go through it again#and again. the first 250 strips or so are pretty cringey and there's aspects even later that make me wince#but fuck once you get to the soul splice arc you've read the last bad oots comic#''utterly dwarfed'' is fucking *incredible*#i am both incredibly ready and incredibly not ready for the climax#i bet durkon will live and i'm sure haley elan and roy will#o-chul i'm leaning ''survives'' and lien i think will make it#minrah will probably make it. i bet serini is doomed.#belkar is obviously doomed#i'm 100% on the fence about v#like straight-up 50/50 both ''live'' and ''die'' serve strong narrative purposes#but as to how it all plays out?#v still owes the fiends 23 minutes meaning the order can't rely on them to back them up in the clutch#so on the one hand it would make the most sense for them to hit as hard and fast as possible#but on the other - if the fiends *don't* call in the debt for their own purposes#they will have burned out their most powerful member too soon#burlew is too clever and too good a writer for a traditional battle scene as the climax#more is going to happen. *something* massive is going to shift#serini turns? redcloak turns on xykon and gets eaten by the mitd?#i can't tell! i'm going to flip tf out whenever it does happen though#hnggh this has been 20 years in the making and the climaxes have not failed a single note yet#burlew is goddamned *good* at rising action and nailing the climax of a story arc#it's gonna be fucking incredible ugh
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hi!! just read your cake at the craft store fic and thought I'd introduce myself on here :) you're a talented writer and seem like a lovely person!
oh my gosh thank you so much! that's so sweet of you 🥰i'm so glad you enjoyed my work! (and thank you so much for the lovely comment on ao3!) also love your handles on both ao3 and here, i'm a big fan of herons myself 😊
#so sorry for the late response! i saw it n wanted to have the best response n then psyched myself out#and life's been kicking my butt however! i am finally here to say tysm and this was a very sweet ask :))#i am assuming that you are herons_and_spoonbills on ao3 this will be very embarrassing to me if you're not lol#but assuming so#re: your comment on 'do you wanna touch' about using neurodivergent tags on rpf fics#i def totally get why people don't use the nd tag on rpf bc you're right! it's def v different to write about real people than fictional#characters and everyone has different lines on how to portray these sorts of things in this genre of fic#and tbc i don't think that cake are nd irl#when i write 5sos fic the basis on irl 5sos is so slim that sometimes it's nearly nil lol#like some of my fics are more original fiction using 5sos' names & faces so as to be able to play in the sandbox genre that is fanfic#as apposed to short stories or flash fiction since these have v different rules in terms of what's acceptable in the medium#but yeah basically i understand why people may be hesitant to tag that sort of thing in 5sos fic lol#and i would love to hear about ur fav 5sos fics with nd themes! i need to get back into the 5sos fic scene tbh i've been absent for too lon#answering mail#ari/silver#do you have a preference on names btw?
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I've seen like two videos of Aerith and Barret from Rebirth and I've been thinking about their relationship ever since and im shambles, like
Barret didn't know Aerith before they officially met, and first he heard of her it was during a life or death situation where his babygirl was in danger but Barret had to be on the frontlines to try to keep everyone safe
And he had left Marlene back at Tifa's bar and then Cloud and Tifa come to find him after days where they had disappeared and Cloud was thought dead,
And They tell him that they left Marlene in the care of someone they trust but was a perfect stranger for Barret
And he doesn't even have time to freak out because he has to make sure the Turks don't blow up the pillar holding the plate but he can't have been at ease with this
And then when he officially sees Aerith for the first time she has been kidnapped by the Turks and Tseng is brutalizing her, Cloud and Tifa panics, and yet this girl that Barret didn't know, who was being hit in front of him, just takes the hurried time she has reassuring Tifa that she brought Marlene somewhere safe.
Like for Barret it was a total stranger who got in danger to protect his daughter, and while now this stranger was in danger and in pain, her full concern was on making sure everyone knew Marlene was safe while also dropping hints of where she was for Cloud to bring the squad back to Aerith's house
She was a total stranger who didn't hesitate to put herself in danger to protect Barret's daughter and make it her priority over anything that happened to her
No wonder then Barret is totally with Tifa and Cloud when it's time to rescue her, and i think Barret and Aerith should interract more after that
I don't recall any scenes that aren't group scenes with them but tbh i saw their linked attack from Rebirth where they're both dorka and it made me cry on the spot it's so soft
#also i saw a video of when the team wants to get Aerith back when she left for the Ancient Temple#and Barret says - super tenderly - 'let's get our girl back'#and ngl it broke me a little#I've been thinking about this line for days since i saw the video#if the remakes just give me more scenes of barret and aerith hanging out i will forgive everything in it#i want to see it so bad bc ive been broken by those two scenes#also dmm im stuck in the train and so i cant help letting my thoughts wonders#and i thought back on those videos and i want to cry and now i make it everyone's problem#ichatalks about ffvii#rebirth spoilers#ish??? for the scenes i am vaguely mentioning#also i never reached the scenes im talking in my post in the remake -- its vague original games's memories#and i havent played it in like 5 years memories are foggy#but oughhh#next time i replay the og I'll stick them in team together more for sure
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this barbie saw the barbie movie
#i was telling my friend how i've been following news about the production of this film literally since like. 2014 or smth#when ppl complain about how amy schumer said she was gonna play barbie... YEAH SHE WAS AT ONE POINT#AND I REMEMBER BEING REALLY PESSIMISTIC ABOUT IT#but it didnt get a lot of buzz and i was the only person i knew who gave a shit#ppl dont realize how long this has been in production. bruh i remember when it was scheduled to come out in 2016#i think it came out in the right version at the right time tho. it's very current#and very VERY fun#the world wouldn't have been ready for this barbie movie any earlier#i have a few small complaints but overall it's great#it doesn't have an after-credits scene though so don't stick around for one#tales from diana#i was physically incapable of not seeing this movie asap#if anyone saw this more than a few hours before me i wouldve literally dissipated#i am the no. 1 barbie girl
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having a mild freakout over forgetting a major canon event that actually influences literally everything about the character whose POV I am not only writing in but whose character arc is literally the driving factor of this entire goddamn fic
#like. the thing that is DRIVING ME NUTS is that I have been sitting here#trying for WEEKS to figure out an appropriate backstory event to drive the specific character development that I need for this fic#and it's right there! in canon! this ENTIRE TIME!#and not only did I forget about it I didn't even bother to skim the wiki!#me! who prides themself on writing things in-character and as true-to-canon for characters as possible!#and it isn't. actually. a huge issue. there is plenty of space in the narrative because like I said#I've been trying to come up with this kind of driving event for a while now and this just happens to slot in perfectly#because like... the themes of the character are all the same and the themes of the FIC are playing off the ones in canon and fanon#and since it's all connected it connects in the fic too#which means I don't need to do a bunch of edits to like... scene order and content I just need to slightly shift what they're about#and specifically what the main is thinking ABOUT while they're happening#which isn't really all that hard as editing goes#HOWEVER#I am both agonizing over the amount of editing I am going to need to do to the sections that drive character motivation#AND the sections wherein that character motivation and backstory drives character ACTION and therefore the plot#(this fic is like thirty thousand words already this is not a small task)#and I am also fully tearing my hair out over being enough of a dumbass to NOT EVEN THINK TO CHECK THE WIKI#WHEN I WAS ALSO AGONIZING OVER NOT BEING ABLE TO FIGURE OUT THE RIGHT KIND OF BACKSTORY#BUT IT WAS THERE THE WHOLE TIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIME :(#anyways yeah I'm kind of an idiot and I've just made a whole bunch more work for myself because I was too confident in my own skill to just#check the fuckin' wiki and actually reread canon
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I love Christian.
#I love him. I love how sweet he is. I love that he is terrible at speaking his love but it's something he appreciates#I love that he hopes Roxane will be refined and is elated when he learns she's a précieuse#I love that he's ready to fight Valvert the very moment he learns of his and de Guiche's plot regarding the marriage of Roxane#And I adore that he leaves despite this and himself when he learns Lignière is at risk#I love that everyone is in awe when Roxane enters the scene but he doesn't even look up because he's paying the seller girl#I don't know. I find him adorable and charming and sweet from his very first scene#And already I find a lot of similarities between him and Roxane and Cyrano#I don't know... I just really love Christian#I'm just going on and on about this play but I keep focusing on different things I love about it when I reread it#And still I'm procrastinating uploading the parallels/continuity/thematic repetition fragment and even just the ones I particularly love#Anyway... At one point I'll go back on this tag to refresh my memory and actually do the thing‚ and clean a bit these posts since I'm at it#Cyrano de Bergerac#Christian#I must choose but I think I've been incoherent before and I have to go check which tag I've used where and fix it#I talk too much#I should probably delete this later
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I think I wanna draw some scenes next
#dol#degrees of lewdity#been thinking about a traumatized robin scene#or whitney park scene#it's gonna take a billion years cause I'm super slow at art#also I've been playing a lot of ts4 because horses and I'll probably disappear for a long time when bg3 releases august 3#I wanna be more social but my anxiety has been bad since I went to the movies#pale rambles
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i'm scared i'll be called out if i talk about having OCD because i don't have a diagnosis and have no plans to get one (i cannot figure out where the first place to go to for a diagnosis is and i don't want treatment for it since it seems like the primary form of OCD treatment is exposure therapy which is a hell no for me) but at the same time i feel like it would be helpful to a lot of people (which is why i usually talk about being audhd because i want to help people)
#like i cannot find anything wrt autism or adhd about intrusive thoughts like these and i feel like its forbidden to talk about#especially for me because my brain separate self-diagnosed and clinically diagnosed and i hate that it does that#but it feels like a solid and distinctive DIFFERENCE you know?#and its been like 5 years total since i first self dxed with ADHD and i never shook the feeling of “you'll be called out for faking it”#(professionally dxed now but i still cannot shake the feeling)#it doesnt help that youtube is one of my lazy pastimes and they're HORRID to self-dxed people on youtube#like countless videos on why self-diagnosis is bad actually#whereas in my experience it was genuinely necessary to be diagnosed with ADHD. and it was genuinely necessary to be assessed for autism too#(maybe not a full self-dx but i had to have a solid suspicion at the very least and a willingness to spend $2500 per assessment for it)#i'm hoping once i get a job i can seek out therapy for everything but i dont want OCD treatment if it means exposure therapy#(i genuinely think it would make things worse for me because i'm really bad with masking everything and so i do genuinely expose myself#to a lot. and it hasn't really helped unless i know exactly what im expecting and even then it doesn't help at all)#(like i've seen re8 played through several times and still some scenes catch me off guard (especially in house dimitrescu))#hence why i only really play heavily animated games right now. even the intro to totk was almost a trigger#(but totk is still rated like e10+ so it wasn't too bad. it just almost set me off because of the intensity of the scene)#(the rest of it was fine. including the gibdos)
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fun fact: I actually have not 1, not 2, but 3 dedicated playlists of OST-style music for my various Guild Wars 2 AUs, and... that, of all ways, is the closest I get to "outlining" my stories. every sequence has a dedicated track that I picked out according to what I'd imagine playing in-game if it was an actual playable story arc in Guild Wars 2.
Regrowth's playlist has 59 songs and Flourish has 28.
then the Tideturners have one too, with a grand total of 22.
......... I don't have a problem,
#my posts#someday i might share some of them tbh#though at the moment there's so little context for these AUs that it'd probably not be particularly interesting yet lol#the boss battle and character themes are some of my favs#I'll give you one for peeking down here in the tags: Saoirse's main battle theme is 'Unforgiven' by Two Steps From Hell.#it's especially good because it even has 3 versions that would perfectly match up with her progression through the fight;#orchestral version is phase 1. instrumental is phase 2 adding drums. and final phase is the main version which adds a choir.#okay i'll give some more too if you're still down here lol but spoiler alert they're like 99% songs by Two Steps From Hell#'We Will Bury' You is the initial betrayal/encounter theme between Pirkko and Saoirse just before the battle starts#'Tragic Dragon' is the theme for Oblivion... Dragon of Null and Void. his true nature has always been a pitiful one.#'Science' is Pirkko's theme and I still love it a lot tbh#then there's 'Prelude to a Nightmare' as a general theme for Scarlet's ghost while she's still tied to Saoirse#'Gamechanger' and 'Where's Waldo' have to do with when Scarlet is in control of Saoirse and takes over the fight#when the latter starts playing you KNOW shit's about to get real. all inhibitions are out the window. it's do or die.#but on the flipside: Ceara post-Oblivion has some really emotional themes too. 'The Mechanical Heart' by Shannon Chiang for one#with that one having to do with when she starts trying to reclaim her identity and find a new path forward#all of these playlists are still WIPs though; Regrowth actually has a lot of defunct tracks from scrapped scenes in the Alpha version#and Flourish and the Tideturners need a lot more lol mostly Flourish tho since the Tideturners are more of a setting than a story#anyway. i think i've rambled enough to no one in particular lol#i am putting absolutely none of my tags on this. rolls away
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