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ghwosty · 2 years ago

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According to the info posters in the front office and breakroom at work, May is mental health awareness month. Personally, mental health awareness is a year round thing bc it's something I deal with, well, year round.

But still.

Check in with your people, especially the ones who seem fine outwardly, especially the ones that often default to being quiet about their internal struggles. Some people (*points at my reflection*) can get so tangled up in their own thoughts that they don't even realize that they need help or worse they think they don't deserve the help. Which is never ever fucking true. Sometimes it really does take someone from the outside looking in to be like "Hey, you seem like not your usual self lately. I care about you. Are you okay? Do you need help? I'll help you get the appropriate help if you want it" to make it click in their brains that "oh shit I do need help, and, oh shit I matter to this person maybe I deserve help"

And Also:

the U.S suicide and crisis lifeline's emergency number is 988

#also the 6th anniversary of Chris Cornell's death is this month..#I've been reflecting on it recently #doesn't even feel real that it's been 6 years already.. still feel like it was yesterday..#it fucked me up at the time bc I was also going through some weird dark mental shit #and I've said it every year since but I fucking miss Chris Cornell.. like fuck..#he was in the middle of a tour with Soundgarden and they were making a new album #they played a show THAT NIGHT #there pictures of his last performance taken just mere hours before he'd be gone..#those pictures are on my sideblog but they are hard to look at sometimes cause like.. what was going through his mind in those photos? :(#but that just goes to show you never know what someone is going through internally what demons they're fighting in their own head #I just wish he could've been helped #I wonder if 988 would've been around if he could've used it #I wonder how many suicides in general could've been prevented is the lifelines number would've been a shortened emergency number earlier

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exlimix1a · 6 months ago

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Quick piece of @luluyamofficial 's character Lucelia + a 30 second speedpaint!

#my art #digital art #gift art #artists on tumblr #i hope you dont mind being mentioned!#stretches #anyway theres something that clicks in me with these characters #It feels tricky to describe #Because these characters are so personal and symbolic to the artist and I've only recently begun looking into them #I cant claim to fully know and understand them #I feel some sort of odd way saying something like that #but I do love is seeing this way of expression through characters that align in ways that are similar to how I operate with my own #These stories and characters crafted to be reflective of the artist's life and experiences and self perception #I love to see these little pieces- the glimpses of understanding for whats being conveyed #I love understanding and there are things I believe I do understand in some ways as they pertain to mental health and the relationship #to the self #but Understanding is secondary to enjoying seeing the expression of lived experience #coughs #anywhey. i hope you like the piece!#I've been turning these guys around in my head for a few days and have felt compelled to show appreciation for what I see #the general genre and type of work isnt what I've found myself drawn to in the past so ive been enjoying the Brain Expansion #bugs #roaches #cockroaches

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residentialsinyomakai · 5 months ago

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Hello hello!!! Guess what. Yokai art dump below the cut!! So cool and shiny wow

Its true, I do >u<

I'll try and section these and give the usual explanations below! Image ID for more drawing specific inksplanation.

Click for full image! Since a lotta these are weirdly shaped they were cut off....augh...

McKraken and Maddiman related doodlesssss they're some of my faves <3 i will always love them even if they're not my focus characters atm (well. McKraken kinda is rn but also Babblong so YAY)

Misc. Yokai and ocs! The frog is Kerosque, the guy w the swirly pompadour thing is Swiss, and the monkey is Romono (although he's a Regretevator OC from FOREVER ago, he's still my son <33)

SWISS STUFF RAUGHHHH ! inconsistent style will be APPARENT here try not to notice shuhhhhhgh

Height for main yokai in my AU/on Casp's team! (In the anime it's just primary summons then wwwww)

Some yokai practice/design hcs bc my friend asked!! I was so happy to share 🤭 LOVE YOU CHERCHERRRR

Some of my little guys once more! Rawry' prob one of my faves yokai to draw, easy and fun to do show-accurate or stylized.

OCSSSSSS. AND BADDINYAN. MY EVIL CAT <3333 the guy next to the frog in the middle is an oc idea but idk for what yet =▽=

AUGH. THERES AN IMAGE LIMIT? Well in case you're wondering it's 30....post the rest after I get tomorrow's doodles. See you then and thank you for looking at and reading about my arts!

#Also this is me just rambling now but like where would I be without commas and parenthesis? I love using them #...as I'm sure you've noticed. But that jusy proves my point!!!#I've been so insane about drawing recently like I will sit down and fill a page or so withing like 30 minutes bc I get bored #(Idk how much that I'd in retrospect but per my usual rate that's a Lot!!)#I've been using Swiss bc I wanna decide what to do with him in the AU after Event...#I also project onto him a lot bc some of his personality really reflects my younger self #Although very traditional my mother raised me rather androgynous in terms of typical child stuff. I got to hang with boy and girl stuff so #Swiss has a few aspects of when i hadent (and admittedly still havent) really gotten past my pride or fear in favor of #Oh i don't know #Making friends??? Not being unintentionally or intentionally a jerk?#Fun little fact; it's not really that Swiss is a picky eater #But rather he has some Problems.....#Like that he's really puntable/j #Caspian has tried to have him answer. Anything without lying but unfortunately he just Does That Sometimes #Sometimes it's not even on purpose. Odd but it happens!#Anyways. I could go on and on but it's almost midnight over here....I really am.like Babblong jajaja ○u○#□ yolo watch 2!#yokai watch #●posts from yomakai #yo kai watch #I'll just tag those with at least 3 appearances methinks #Aswell as ocs bc I flatter myself!!#Caspian ykw #Swiss ykw #Kerosque #Fuwhirl #McKraken #Dr Maddiman #Baddinyan #Casanuva

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ahollowgrave · 2 months ago

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hi people can see your tags!! i know we like to talk about how 'safe' screaming in the tags feels and to an extent it is safe, indirect communication. but it is communication and the OP is very likely to see them. if its not something you'd say to them don't put it in the tags, maybe. (:

#OOC #I do not understand some of you #if you don't like something why reblog it just to say how much you don't like it?????#Do you need attention that badly that you're gonna tear someone's hard work down??????????????????????#Don't answer that I don't care #It costs 0 dollars to not be an asshole and some of you are in asshole debt so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#a real live person worked on that art/gpose/writing #and you reblogged it SOLEY to say how much you didn't like it???? that's!!! wild!!!!!!!!!!!#I still remember every weird or mean tag I've ever gotten so maybe just don't #why spend any energy on engaging with something you don't like i cannot fathom that!!!!!!!#pathetic behavior.#no one has done this to me recently and much like any weird anons I get i just #block them and move on #but I've been seeing some MEAN tags lately in reblogs and like #what the FUCK #here i go again asking people to have some self reflection (':

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daily-ethoslab · 1 year ago

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[478] "watch me"

#I've been feeling unmotivated recently sorry if that reflects in my ethos #:(#etho #ethoslab #etho fanart #ethoslab fanart #day 478

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wonder-worker · 9 months ago

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people really do not know what they're talking about when it comes to Elizabeth Woodville's social status, huh?

#yes Elizabeth was without a doubt considered too low-born to be queen #no she was not a commoner and nobody actually called her that during her life (so I'm not sure why people are claiming that they did?)#Elizabeth's social status was not a problem in itself; it was a problem in the context of queenship and marrying into royalty #Context is important in this and for literally everything else when it comes to analyzing history. Any discussion is worthless without it.#obviously pop culture-esque articles claiming that she was 'a commoner who captured the king's heart' are wrong; she wasn't #But emphasizing that ACTUALLY she was part of the gentry with a well-born mother and just leaving it at that as some sort of “GOTCHA!”#is equally if not more irresponsible and entirely irrelevant to discussions of the actual time period we're studying.#Elizabeth *was* considered unworthy and unacceptable as queen precisely because of her lower social status #her father and brother had literally been derided as social-climbers by Salisbury Warwick and Edward himself just a few years earlier #the Woodvilles' marriage prospects clearly reflected their status (and 'place') in society: EW herself had first married a knight and all #siblings married within the gentry to people of a similar status. compare that to the prestigious marriages arranged after EW became queen #Elizabeth having a lower social status was not 'created' by propaganda against her; it fueled and shaped propaganda against her #that's a huge huge difference; it's irresponsible and silly to conflate the two as I've seen a recent tumblr post cavalierly do #like I said she was considered too low-born to be queen long before any of the propaganda Warwick Clarence or Richard put out against her #and the fact that Elizabeth was targeted on the basis of her social status was in itself novel and unprecedented #no queen before her was ever targeted in such a manner; Clearly Elizabeth was considered notably 'different' in that regard #(and was quite literally framed as the enemy and destroyer of 'the old royal blood of this realm' and all its actual 'inheritors' like..)#ngl this sort of discussion always leaves a bad taste in my mouth #because it's not like England and France (et all) are at war or consider each other mortal enemies in the 21st century #both are in fact western european imperialistic nations who've been nothing but a blight to the rest of the world including my own country #yet academic historians clearly have no problem contextualizing the xenophobia that medieval foreign queens faced as products of their time #and sympathizing with them accordingly (Eleanor of Provence; Joan of Navarre; Margaret of Anjou; etc)(at least by their own historians)#Nor were foreign queens the “worst” targets of xenophobia: that was their attendants or in times of war commoners or soldiers #who actually had to bear the brunt of English aggression #queens were ultimately protected and guaranteed at least a veneer of dignity and respect because of their royal status #yet once again historians and people have no problem contextualizing and understanding their difficulties regardless of all this #so what is the problem with contextualizing the classism *Elizabeth* faced and understanding *her* difficulties?#why is the prejudice against her constantly diminished & downplayed? (Ive never even seen any historian directly refer to it as 'classism')#after all it was *Elizabeth* who was more vulnerable than any queen before her due to her lack of powerful foreign or national support #and Elizabeth who faced a form of propaganda distinctly unprecedented for queens. it SHOULD be emphasized more.

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fagrackham · 3 months ago

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my favorite bit of 2010s nonsense was when people were mad at becky albertalli for writing books about gay people when she wasn't gay and then she came out and turns out she's just not a good writer

#i've been reflecting on that decade a lot recently. what a time.

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enviousennui · 1 year ago

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same as it ever was.....same as it ever was

minor glitch effect under cut

#my post #my art #spiderverse #jonathan ohnn #the spot #im not dead #I've been active and ive been doodling but like #barely posted anything recently - not gonna look good on my 2023 art reflective

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funnylittlelad · 5 months ago

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when you think about it, it's actually kind of wild that i was convinced i wasn't disabled my entire life. i was literally delayed in walking for years because my legs were casted and then braced up so much they were unusable. instead of mobility aids, i was provided skateboarding knee pads so i could shuffle around outside and feel included with the other kids.

HOW WAS I EVER CONVINCED BY PEOPLE THAT IM NOT DISABLED???

#why wasn't i given crutches????#oh right because then i might learn to rely on them and would need them my whole life #now instead i just have tons of knee and hip problems #i've been doing a lot of disability related reflection recently #heds #hypermobile ehlers danlos #hypermobile ehlers danlos syndrome #disability things #chronic illness #chronic pain #disability #funnylittle ramblings

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tachypodion · 5 months ago

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I'm still intentionally for my own safety not saying anything about my stances on anything happening in the Middle East. So please do not try to interpret any part of what I am saying as evidence of my opinions. But I am observing that regardless of my personal stance, I feel a lot safer as a Jewish person in the small rural super red pro Israel town in Georgia that I'm moving to than I have felt being Jewish in any of the predominantly white non-Palestinian pro-Palestine spaces I've encountered on the left. Obviously this safety comes with conditions, and I don't need anyone lecturing me about what my new neighbors really think of me, but it bears saying that if you want us to feel welcome in your spaces a good way to start is by not reducing everything our culture has centered around for thousands of years to modern day colonizer bullshit when we've been here the whole time. And if you don't want us to feel welcome in your spaces, you don't get to claim that you aren't being bigoted.

#jumblr #this is not an invitation to make assumptions about my thoughts about Palestine #this post has been carefully crafted to not give an indication of my beliefs at all so pls don't act like i'm saying anything i'm not #you don't get to read into my feelings of safety either #this is specifically intended to make white leftist pro-palestine spaces reconsider their attitudes towards my people #i know this is probably going to get more attention than i want but i've been Reflecting a lot recently

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twilight-good-yall-dumb · 9 days ago

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I'm realizing that the reason I feel so deeply attached to things I loved as a kid probably has something to do with the way I don't feel that attachment with my parents. Like yeah, I'm going to be devastated when the member of a band I've loved for over half of my life dies because he was there for me when my own parents weren't. And yeah, I'm going to feel ridiculous adoration for the woman who writes and sings songs about love and heartbreak who I've been singing along to since I was a child because she's shown me what love could be when my own mother couldn't set that example. And yeah, I'm going to love a cozy atmospheric piece of media because I felt comfortable living inside of that world when my own home growing up was never a place of reprieve. etc etc etc

#like sometimes I really wonder if I'm just developmentally stunted because no one else seems to hold onto the things they loved as a child #as much as I do #but I'm starting to realize that those things play a very specific role in my psyche #like there's a reason my brain won't let go of something that brings me this much joy #I need these things to feel whole #and maybe that's a problem or maybe it isn't #I've certainly felt the negative aspects of it recently #aka feeling like my own life was falling apart because a celebrity I've never met died #but also I'd rather have codependent relationships with media and trinkets and artists than with people who could genuinely hurt me #like if this is the way my brain has chosen to cope with that feeling of loneliness and helplessness #I'm fine with it #because at least I'm not seeking comfort/validation in worse places #I'd rather be a bit delusional about my hyperfixations than end up in an abusive relationship #and it isn't as if I don't find comfort in my friends and people in my life because I do #but I don't think friends can always make up for the emotional wound of parents who weren't there for you the way they should have been #also this is not meant to make anyone feel invalid for liking something just for the sake of liking it #not all of our interests have to stem from trauma of some kind lol #you are totally valid if you still love things that you loved as a child even if you had a perfect childhood #there's literally nothing wrong with that I'm just reflecting on my own experience #personal

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kotoyin · 2 months ago

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Urge to finally make a proper personal, twt and bluesky :|

#mobile.#Lyra’s rp blog has been the only social media i've had for like almost a decade now #i want to finally be active in wider fandom!!#not ever leaving here obvs but u know #i've been reflecting recently about how hard it is for me to share my creations outside of this community #bc u guys are all so lovely and supportive and it's been v healing #but. i want to get some of my writing published #and i actually really struggle to write and share bc of the pressure of a perceived audience #i think fan works would be a gr8 training ground #i wanna dive in finally

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bravewolfvesperia · 3 months ago

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/ so I finally updated my rules and verses pages to reflect current activity and such since they were a bit outdated. if you haven't checked them in a long time, pleeeease at least skim them again! I think I mostly got everything, but I'd realized I hadn't properly updated them since shortly after I made this blog. 🙇‍♀️

#{ bravewolf mun }#/ part of the updates are cleaning things up and reflecting more recent stuff/decisions (some I updated without saying so along the way)#part of it is that like. previously I was trying to like. force myself to comply with some loc game aspects #bc I figured nobody would wanna write with me if my muse was strictly a JP portrayal #but the more I tried to use any Yuri-specific loc aspects the more uncomfortable I became with them (esp personality conflicting moments)#and the more I thought abt it I realized like... why am I trying to force myself to write things that make me so angry #and I slowly but surely started to yeet them all out one by one along the way #and by the time I realized it my rules no longer reflected my decision to be strictly JP based #I just genuinely used to be worried nobody would wanna write with a version of a character they didn't know #so I rly appreciate everyone still writing with me even if they aren't familiar with my specific muse #I recognize he's very different than what most ppl in the west know and I was rly just #afraid of ppl not wanting to write with me thinking my muse was too ooc but like #they're just practically two very different people in a lot of core ways #I know it shouldn't be a big deal that ppl are writing with me bc of this but... it is!!!#I rly thought ppl would be turned off writing with me out of lack of familiarity with the version I play #but you've all been rly nice to me abt it and I've been able to develop my muse freely the way I'm happy and comfortable with #and I'm not afraid to be up front with which version I play now so ummm idk thank u guys ;n;#just mentioning it bc I know my rules prob look a lot more firm abt my position on my muse now #aside from that stuff there are a few odd end updates and rewordings in there! /

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automatonknight · 1 year ago

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i hope u kno i think ur tf2posting is awesome because i am too scared to play it (pvp....) but really love tf2 anyway

AWW THANK YOU SO MUCH I'M SO GLAD TO HEAR GENUINELY!!!!!!<333 i love sharing honestly it feels so special...not to get sappy again but this is my first video game experience like that, since tf2 is the first like. multiplayer shooter i've ever played and it's just. so nice when someone teaches me how to do silly stuff like the "intel funny" or when i have the honor of participating in a server-wide dance party. it's just so!!! well. nice and really cool honestly :]

#ask #like. total strangers i may not stumble upon again are making my day better just because i think we just. like being nice to eachother #deep down kind of #as i said that thrusting sniper may not know how hard that made me laugh and the dude who said 'good job' to me also might not know how #special i felt but. well i feel all of that and i'll remember it. do you get me #love forever ok?#and honestly! i know some fears are hard to overcome i was definitely shaking when i joined into my first match but people are really ok #most of the time! and if they aren't honestly just hit the bricks! if i'm not having fun or see an asshole i usually que for another game #2fort i feel like is also super forgiving since people are kind of expecting silly players? but even on idk payload maps nobody gave me any #trouble for being a 50 minutes of playtime noob pyro. and you get better the longer you play like genuinely!#like with the whole spy thing. you start to get a feel for when someone is acting suspicious #recently i've also been unlearning going with the rocket launchers against pyros but that also took like. 5 reflected rocket deaths to #really stick. ok i'm rambling now but it can be a wonderful game :3 #i know this all might sound silly but i started like. kind of genuinely playing games only last summer so discovering all of these new #things is just ahh!!! it's so cool!

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mielmoto · 5 months ago

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finally. the algorithm finally gets me.

#( i have never been so pinpoint accuracy nailed in my life. )#( but also despite my recent media consumption not reflecting this my youtube home page just decided to go: )#( 'i know what you are' and it's. like. 80% sapphic / adjacent content. )#( i've been watching nothing but analog horror vids and arknights guides for 2 weeks. is this the brand. )#ooc.

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guesswhosaninja · 5 months ago

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do you ever hear the phrase "I was so scared of wasting a day that I nearly wasted my life" and have it haunt you for a month

there are so many times I've felt like I simply lost years, and you'll finally do something and realize you spent six months saying "I should do that soon" without doing anything or "I should get back to that" each day for months on end

#this post is primarily about a mix of gender and writing stuff #but there's also a lot recently where I've felt like I came to thinking when did it become too late to do anything #I spent the last 8 months unsure what was happening with hrt treatment and it took 10 minutes to get the next process to start happening #instead of waiting unsure #(to be fair my doctor was just On Leave for 4 of those months but still)#and likewise it has been six months since I properly worked on my novel and it kills me inside not doing so #but it's also about like #idk missing people that just kind of drift away and u never really noticed when it just kind of happened and suddenly its been forever #it is a Rough Melancholy Evening #and while this is also celebrating the fact I did get the hrt ball rolling again #and trying to really pump myself up to return to The Shape of a Lie to finish a shareable draft with my friends #I think I spent a lot of July just kind of mourning many months of these things being on standby because I was afraid of wasting a day #and wasted half a year again #anyway love u guys I had a little bit to drink at a work party tonight and it made me sad and reflective lmao <3

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