#I'm working on it i promise

[mochie85]

Seen Depeche mode last night and the song "Stripped" made me think of Loki.

Maybe it might inspire you to write something...

Anyway, I love your writing ❤️

@gruftiela my darling. Your ASK did inspire me to write something. But I feel like it's taking longer than expected. (Especially because my life is constantly wanting me to live it.) So, I wanted to give you a little preview of the WIP that I'm working on it for it.

This is the first page of the fic, it's fluff. but I plan on having, smut, shadow play (thank you Loki Season 2 trailer), and mild hallucinations for the completed fic. (Snippet under the cut)

Besides the point...YOU SAW DEPECHE MODE! I'm so jelly. I bet they're amazing live!

I also want to use this time to apologize to everyone for not having the time to read your wonderful stories. I will catch up soon.

🏷️ who might be interested: @emarich7 @michelleleewise @coldnique @psychospore @lokisgoodgirl @silverfire475 @fictive-sl0th @springdandelixn @wheredafandomat @goldencherriess @peaches1958 @salempoe @thomase1 @kkdvkyya @a-witch-with-words @mischief2sarawr @vbecker10 @peachymallow @irishhappiness @cakesandtom @simplyholl @here4thefanfics @tallseaweed @holdmytesseract @immersed-in-mischief @joyful-enchantress @lokisninerealms @kikster606 @glitterylokislut @loz-3 @slytherclaw1227 @chantsdemarins @the-lady-amphitrite @eleniblue @km-ffluv @lokidokieokie @n3rdybirdee @gigglingtiggerv2 @lokischambermaid @loopsisloops @muddyorbsblr @luvlady-writes @kellatron55 @huntress-artemiss

[rainbow-crane]

Arcane has me in a chokehold. If I had a nickel for every time a franchise gave me two morally questionable blue haired girls meant to be similar to each other, where one was meant to be a sympathetic victim of the system they were born into that lashes out from fear, wanting nothing more than to keep the family she found together and safe, while the other was an upholder of a system that tears apart those within it that believes she's doing the right thing but is really just losing herself to her own need for blood causing her to lose sight of the humanity of those she targets. I'd have two nickels

Maybe I'll go more in depth on this later but that's a later post for someone that doesn't still have an unfinished media analysis of a certain DR mastermind still sitting in my docs

[spicymambaae]

Next chapter of your smut when? We're starving here 😠

Finish the damn smut you lazy ass bitch - me to myself

[sylvanfreckles]

Ever look at a thing you made and think wtf how did I do that?

Yeah. Every time.

[ashtonisvibing]

finally made an icon for @mcdonalds-unofficial

mikey is slowly losing it what with everyone asking for the grimace cum shake

referenced this screenshot from o.k. k.o.! let's be heroes cuz it captures mikey so perfectly:

[monster-noises]

I think it will/would be best for me if, over just posting regularly little snuppets of my OC's, my Comics get popular and I can kinda like.. be a step removed from the people who read them

Because i want people to enjoy my oc's but i don't think i could handle people sending me unsolicited asks and messages about their Headcanons for My little guys

And I realise posting a comic instead of just About my Oc's in sort of contextly chunks won't Stop this behaviour but i feel like i could somehow put up better bounderies that way..

[metal-mouse]

Hey ! It's the self reflecting anon ! (the one who asked you deep questions lol) I have one again. If you were in front of the erised mirror, what would you see ? You don't have to share :)

I've sat on this one for a really long time, because y'know what? Fuck it, I'll answer it.

I would see mental stability. I would see a Reni who doesn't struggle with bipolar disorder. Someone who doesn't self-sabotage every fucking 6 months lmao.

Oh and I'd also see mental healthcare being free and accessible for everyone, bc then others can receive the care they need because I personally know how awful it is when you can't receive care.

[arkon-z]

I know I've been complaining recently about being left out of things by my allo friends, but I promise it's nothing like I'm making it out to be. They make a point to include me in lots of things, because we are really good friends. I don't feel excluded or isolated in group hangouts because they want me there. No one looks down on me or pities me for being single (as far as I know), because I have value as an individual.

Do I get left out? Yes. Those double and triple dates they talk about honestly just sound like group hang-outs and FOMO is real.

Do I get frustrated at them for it? Yes! But it's not up to them to make me feel included in that kind of space. Honestly, I'd prefer that we all understood and embraced relationship anarchy so there wouldn't be any perception of a difference between dating and hanging out, but we're a long way from that point.

Look, my point is, despite my complaints about them, my friends are awesome. They like having me around. They even respect my orientation enough that they've never bothered to try and set me up with anyone. They're as human as I am, with all the joy and shortcomings that it implies. Hell, I'm going shoe shopping with one of them tomorrow and she's super excited to take me. I don't think she would have suggested getting brunch if she didn't enjoy my company.

[mareastrorum]

In my defense, there's only a few tabs now.

sorry i haven't read your fic yet it's been in my open tabs for 8 months

[egophiliac]

still ruminating over Lost In the Book With Spooky Skeletons Part 1, so here's a selection of some of my favorite little bits! (...some more loosely paraphrased than others) (I just feel like Idia has no room to criticize in general, okay)

anyway, I'm sure we're just going to have a fun time celebrating Halloween and nothing bad is going to happen whatsoever! :)

[sadbeautifutragic]

i keep thinking about my response to the attraction poll like even though i've gotten better about my self confidence i still have moments where i fear that i'll never find love as an awkward 6 foot tall dark skinned african girl and it suuuuuuucks

[artisfaction]

[servingcuntry]

please take care of ur body

even if I don't like my body today, I will still take care of it

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

[peachylynnie]

sylus: check it out! i got us matching bracelets!

mc: are those handcuffs?!

sylus: never leave me.

[bookshelfmonkey]

Ok but imo (as a trans guy) the dress moment could also work very well as an ftm Gender Moment.

I feel like the basis of the dress moment being so significant (or even being included in the show, although god only knows what the creators meant it to show) isn't that he's* considering wearing a dress. We see many other crew members wearing dresses at the party, laughing with everyone else and generally having a good time, and it's never brought up again, because it's a costume worn to a party. To Fitzjames, it seems to be more than a costume, hence his reluctance, hence the significance of the scene.

The common transfemme angle (as I see it, correct me if I'm wrong) is that this represents a moment where Fitzjames confronts the fact that his desire to wear the dress runs deeper than a desire to dress up for a night. This is more than a costume, this is a significant, meaningful expression of a desire that he's hidden for years, a desire that he knows (has been taught) is shameful, and now he has the opportunity to show that part of himself and have no one bat an eye and he just can't do it because it feels too vulnerable.

The transmasc angle is more complicated, so I'm going to explain my own experience real quick. When I was younger, I had to wear dresses and I hated it, but it was what was expected of me, so I didn't feel like I had a choice. Refusing to wear dresses and presenting masc was an act of rebellion for me, a hard won victory. It was also, up until I medically transitioned relatively recently, the only way I could pass. So I have that background: the years of having to wear dresses, and many more years of being pressured to wear them even after I'd repeatedly expressed that I didn't want to. But, now, I am living as a queer man. A lot of the men I surround myself with are more androgynous/feminine than I am, and none of my friends would bat an eye if I wore a dress. I also pass pretty much 100% of the time, and if I went out in public in a dress, I'd just be seen as a man in a dress (which comes with its own issues, but I don't have time to get into that right now). So I could wear a dress, and not massively run the risk of no longer being seen as a man, something that means a lot to me because it took a lot to get to that point. But I still haven't worn a dress since I stopped when I was 7. Look, I've got some internalised shit going on, it's not necessarily healthy, but it does help mimic the kind of shit that would be going on in the mind of someone living in 18th century england. Wearing a dress would-- to put it simply-- make me dysphoric. Not because I see dresses as something only women wear, but because it would remind me of when I had to wear them, and because I'd feel like that would be all people would need to see through me to my past and start seeing me as a woman again. To bring it back to ftm Fitzjames, this could easily apply. He knows that the crew see him as a man, he knows that a cis man in his position could (as many do in the show) wear the dress as a costume, have a good time, and never experience any kind of consequences for it-- he knows that he could do that. But it's more complicated, because, although he knows that it'd be fine, wearing the dress feels too vulnerable, too familiar. It breaks down the performance of the perfect (cis) man that he tries to keep up at all times, and so he doesn't do it.

Or maybe I'm just projecting, idk.

* just gonna use he/him throughout the post for consistency

i don’t think we consider ftm fitzjames enough like yes of course we had the dress scene which was crazy but also have we considered a guy who is So Obsessed with living up to the victorian masculine ideal despite everything going against him from birth. and yet somehow he is able to rise above all of that until they’re stuck in the arctic where society has all but forgotten them. and he can only really accept that it’s okay not to be this perfect heroic guy when he becomes friends (lovers?) with another guy who has long stopped trying to be the perfect victorian man because him being irish and lower birth status means society will never accept him as such. and again i recognize the Gender Moment of the dress but from the ftm angle the whole fucking show is a Gender moment