#I'm very happy with it so far tho
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The rough draft of the next chapter is already 5k words and I only expect that to increase.
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I have decided that because I don't know how to art I must fix this by drawing yosano so uh here have my art wip that will get finished
#who am i kidding#I prob won't finish this#I'm very happy with it so far tho#Yosano is so fucking cute in this panel#I just love her#Am I an art student?#No#But also I regret not taking any art classes in high school so here I am trying to teach myself to draw#Also yosano#If I want something then I gotta do it myself#I learned this with Barbara from genshin#I have an unfortunate track record of having unpopular side characters as my fave#Not that they aren't liked#It's just that they aren't a fan fave#bsd yosano#bungou stray dogs#My art#Wow never thought I'd use that tag#fan art
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A Linked Universe meets The Dark Crystal AU! I don't even remember what started it at this point. I remembered that the Dark Crystal and Age of Resistance are things I like, blinked, and woke up three days later with an AU and a bunch of art.
The designs and the story are a wip and for fun so expect a lot of variation! (I have a few different beginnings, ideas for different designs, etc)! :D
In addition to #linked universe I'll be using the tags #the dark crystal lu au and #courage of the dark crystal!
#linked universe#tdc aor#the dark crystal lu au#courage of the dark crystal#lu au au#lu legend#lu hyrule#lu four#lu wind#I've made an au of the au I've gone too far help help-#I gotta get better at drawing gelfling! Their facial structures are very distinct#ALSO I went really big with the ears here lmao#the hugest ears ever seen on gelfling#TRANS ROOLIE TRANS ROOLIE TRANS ROOLIE YIPPEE!!!!#I drew this last month (except for Four) sO HAPPY PRIDE! Roolie gets WINGS! :D#I'm SO pleased with Wind's design! he's a lil fishy! and Four with the horned headband/armor in place of the lil ups in his bangs#gonna try to put the aureyal or symbol of the conjunction and triangles on all of them#IF YOU HAVE QUESTIONS ABOUT THE AU PLS ASK THEM#I'd love to tackle some worldbuilding mayhaps?!#I'm thinking of placing them somewhere before the first battle of stone-in-the-wood in the arathim wars#or after the events of the comics with Kensho and Thurma somewhere#and just figure out another reason for the crystal to be shattered. so many possibilities!#where's the crystal shard this time and how can I split it between them? >:3 niiiiine shards made whole >:3#quest for the ~~triforce~~ crystal#Hello from summer camp also! Lots of shenanigans!#I'm surprised I was able to draw Four at all last weekend I've been so busy!!!#having fun tho!!! we're having a lunch cookout at archery and campfire is tonight!!! It's going good! see ya!!!
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✦ Ektor ✦ Miloš ✦ Huf ✦
#ektor has been such an incredible muse for me so far this year#i've been wanting to have my bigger pieces to look rougher & i think this is the closest i got to the idea so far! i'm very happy with it!#ektor#oc#original character#oc art#centaur#dnd#dnd oc#comic#just realized i forgot his little chin hairs but like#he can shave sometimes if he wants to#even tho his entire face is covered with fur actually#im gonna stop questioning this before it gets to me#we love inconsistency here
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can someone come and switch my brain off at 9pm each night because the "my fics are shit and i'm not saying anything worth saying with them" thoughts really do tend to fly at me with increasing fervour as the eve wears on
#i just. find it very difficult to feel proud of myself for very long#or happy with my work#because ultimately there's so so many fic writers out there who've been doing it for so much longer than me#so so much better than me#and like#that's okay#i never expected or wanted to be the best#and i still love writing fic sm#it's become my lifeline#but my brain is constantly going hmmm aren't u shit tho#like aren't there far more fascinating writers to be reading#okay i think i'm done now#personal#ineffabildaddy
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for requestober ! my heart's been aching for yanderapy for a while and i would like to get something about them :3 i don't have a specific prompt . i do like to see them more on the angsty-unhealthy-relationship side lol like some of the requests you made last year . overall , just seeing anything about them would be nice . X3
Day 1 - Sodium Chloride Couple
#My art#Requestober#Yanderapy#First req of the year is my boys!! I am blessed!! 💕 Thank you for thinking of them <3#Hopefully this will sate your desires enough - it's not exactly angsty but I did try to bring in a bit of their weirdness lol#Y'know that one post that's just accidentally recreating the Homestuck shipping quadrant?#I still know very little about Homestuck but does Kismesis do anything to make the two chill out or is it just aimed at each other lol#Personally I really like the concept of a sodium chloride couple! That two people match each other's freak just right and become harmless#Because that's these two so much!! They're perfect for each other on accident (on purpose) and make each other better!#Ishida would ask too much and Mitsu would give too much if they were with different people#But their tendencies balance each other out - make them realize they're going too far because of what they see in the other#That and they genuinely like each other <3 They want to improve the other both selfishly and altruistically#Selfishly because then they get the best version of the other all to themselves hehe <3#But altruistically because they wish for each other's happiness and gain confidence in their ability to grant it#They're good for each other's self esteem! Although Ishi was already pretty self-confident before they got together haha#He feels happier and more whole with Micchan tho <3 Like he wants to - and can be! - his best self for and with him#All the mushy-gushyness on them being silly together lol - clearly it's been too long since I've doodled them I'm rambly ♪#Had a lot of fun with the hands here :) Ishi holding Mitsu's face so delicately ♫#They probably could (and probably do lol) switch who's got what and be just as happy#They just enjoy being together and making each other all head-silly haha <3 Not hard for either to achieve ♪
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Please infodump about the JayTimSteph Grotesquerie AU WIP if possible.
OF COURSE i've been thinking about it since i saw the trailer and now it's a little brainworm. (disclaimer i've not watched the first two episodes yet, this is like. solely on the vibes of the trailer. some details might change once i. watch the show depending on if i follow it or just go with the vibes the trailer gave me. which also means there will be no spoilers for the show if you care about that.)
the current idea involves Detective!Tim, Nun!Steph, and Priest!Jason. the vague idea for the plot so far is that a serial killer leaves a *very* artful display of a crime scene inside of the church that Jason and Steph operate out of. Tim is assigned as the leading detective on the case and ends up in a relationship with the both of them as he spirals in madness trying to catch the killer.
for Steph, i want to explore the idea of her father, Cluemaster, being a *very* prolific and artful serial killer who's whole gimmick was sending clues to the police until he was caught when Steph was still a child, and her and her mother were forced to go into witness protection for their own safety, which led her down the path of becoming a nun. it was a defining childhood moment for her to walk in on one of her father's crimes, so when she's the one who finds the crime scene in the church, it *immediately* sends her back to her childhood and she's caught between PTSD-fueled horror and a sick, enticing fascination. she wanted to become a journalist before going into WITSEC but that career was basically all but ruined for her. now she runs the small newspaper for the church and is desperate to write on the first "real" story she's ever had, dragging her into an intense obsession over the crime and trying to prove she can solve it.
for Jason, i want to deal with his history as Bruce. the current idea is that Bruce is Tim's police chief who adopted Jason and Dick from a young-ish age and raised them to be detectives, taking them to crime scenes as teenagers and teaching them the ins and outs of how criminals think. it leads to Dick becoming a detective, but when taking them to crime scenes led to Jason being kidnapped and brutally tortured by "Jack Napier", almost dying. Dick kills Napier to save Jason and it fractures their little family so badly that Dick switches departments to another city and Jason runs away at 17, eventually happening upon joining the clergy. he's the new, young priest in the church who's known for being very pretty but very emotionally distant even if he's nice enough. and he's *pissed* that Bruce is in his church investigating a murder and that no matter where Jason goes, he can't seem to get away from the horrors.
and for Tim, he's the young new detective in his department who is *entirely* unaware that he's been taken under Bruce's wing bc Bruce is treating him as a surrogate replacement for Dick and Jason. haven't fully decided his backstory yet, but it'll likely be similar to canon with losing his mother and father. i kind of want him to be lost and lacking a sense of direction. very gifted in noticing patterns and detective work, but it's clear he doesn't *really* want this job. and when he's assigned as the lead on a case that feels *way* too big for his experience bc Bruce is showing clear favoritism, he's forced to go to Steph for help, which leads to Jason ending up wrapped up with them too.
despite how heavy the plot *sounds*, i honestly want this fic to be like. 40% porn. like the show i want to explore a lot of fucked up sexual interests in Jason who's punishing himself for it, Steph being too interested in things for her own good and desperate for a taste of what "real life" feels like, and Tim just being incredibly repressed. like i want the line between horror and erotic to feel like a jumprope. lots of fucked up sex balanced with like. them actually trying to catch the killer. and then of course the emotional aspect of how Jason's baggage with Bruce works into all of it. also want Tim to have a mild hero worship for "the great Detective Dick Grayson" while being clueless that he's Bruce's son and Jason's brother. i sort of want it to be Steph-centric, but still have POVs from Tim and Jason just to round out their emotional arcs. i haven't fully decided everyone else who'll be in the fic but i know i want Cass to be a fellow nun and friend of Steph's, Babs to also work at the church, Helena to be Tim's favorite coworker, and possibly for Damian to be around somehow. those roles will probably get more fleshed out when i. watch the damn show tho.
anyway TLDR: religious imagery, body horror, kinky sex, and a mystery that might break everyone psychologically once they get to the bottom of it. i have some very specific scenes and dialogue planned out. probably cannibalism as a metaphor for love thrown in there too. idk i just want these three to be as fucked up as possible and unhinged about each other but fighting their repressed side with their unhinged feral side. and since it doesn't exist by god I'll create it.
#necrotic answerings#necrotic works in progress#jaytimsteph grotesquerie au#<- temp tag until this fic gets a real name#jaytimsteph#when i shared this idea with my partner they were like. this should just be an original book#and yeah they're right but given it's derrivative of a show i don't think it *can* be. ergo. fanfic.#and i'm *already* writing one fucked up romance book with serial killers and a nun okay i've hit my quota.#but tysm for asking about this anon i was so excited to talk about it.#also! one scene idea i have in my head involves the three of them getting attacked#and jason killing the attacker with tim's firearm. which tim basically snatches from him and takes the blame for the kill#and even tho he's in the clear legally bruce sitll forces him to do a psyche eval that he hates.#and meanwhile jason asks tim to “punish him” not bc he killed the guy but bc he *enjoyed* it.#very fun scene for like. the descent into madness of the three of them getting more and more unhinged trying to solve this case.#like how far are they willing to go type shit#also i have a *lot* of sex scenes planned.#don't ask me who the killer is i haven't decided yet#i'm leaning on it being someone connected to tim tho#just to flesh out his backstory more. so we'll see#anyway i'mso happy to ramble about this fic idea to anyone who wants to ask more about it bc it'll help me develop it more#i've got the basics down but i'm an outline girlie at heart so i need evertrhing planned out for it to work yk.#this is my petition to make more ppl care about jaytimsteph. they're so cool i swear.
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My media this week (21-27 Apr 2024)
📚 STUFF I READ 📚
😊 rounding third, sliding home. (througheden) - 68K, enjoyable steddie AU with pro baseball player Steven & massage therapist Eddie
🥰 Daddy Issues (His Boy Next Door #39) (RJ Moray) - reread; just a big fan of Jack & Channon & their ongoing story!
🥰 Common Ground (His Boy Next Door #40) (RJ Moray) - LOVE that Jack & Ewan are finding some common ground - really love that this series is showing how two people who don't particularly care for each other can work to find connection for the sake of the people they DO love
😍 ACT-verse series (ann_anotherthing) - truly outstanding series about middle-aged Steddie getting a 2nd chance romance after their first one flamed out 25 yrs earlier. Full series is 117K but it starts with A Certain Type (54K), which is a fully complete story with satisfying HEA - the rest are flashback fics or wonderfully indulgent epilogue/vignettes, full of fluffy and delicious porn. The author confesses to basically turning them into her middle-aged OCs but 1) I think her projections of their characters in middle-age with these particular life experiences seem reasonably plausible and more importantly 2) I don't fucking care because this story and these characters (main & supporting) are AMAZING.
💖💖 +227K of shorter fic so shout out to these I really loved 💖💖
When you stop being a ghost in a shell (Bittersweet_in_Boston) - MCU: Stucky, 12K - Hydra finds Steve in 1952 & then they have The Asset and The Captain. Except they really should have known better than to ever let them see one another.
Where the Sunflowers Grow (AidaRonan) - Stranger Things: Buckingham, 30K - incredible Chrissy recovery fic with bonus Buckingham. Just. So Fucking Good.
Early Returns (rageprufrock) - Inception: Arthur/Eames, 15K - fabulous AU where Arthur's an editor who has everything on lock, dammit & Eames is a reporter who wants to mess him up. Also the newsroom is nothing but a high-pressure high school when it comes to gossip.
📺 STUFF I WATCHED 📺
Murdoch Mysteries - s16, e14-20
Um, Actually - s9, e5; s1, e3, 4, 6-20
Game Changer - s6, e6
Smartypants - s1, e1
Ghosts (US) - s3, e9
D20: Fantasy High: Junior Year - "Untapped Rage" (s21, e16)
D20: Adventuring Party - "Honor the Cock" (s16, e16)
Dead Boy Detectives - s1, e1-3
🎧 PODCASTS 🎧
Worlds Beyond Number - WWW #13: Of the Gentle Sea
Worlds Beyond Number: Fireside - Fireside Chat for WWW ep13 "Of the Gentle Sea"
Worlds Beyond Number - WWW #14: There is an Ocean Vaster Than This One
Worlds Beyond Number: Fireside - Fireside Chat for WWW ep14 "There is an Ocean Vaster Than This One"
99% Invisible - The Power Broker #04: Rep. Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez
What Next: TBD - The Internet Archive Endangered
⭐ The Atlas Obscura Podcast - Tree Week: A Tasty Tale about Meyer Lemons
⭐ The Atlas Obscura Podcast - Tree Week: Love Letters
The Sporkful - Priya Krishna Writes The Kids Cookbook She Wished She'd Had
The Allusionist - 193. Word Play 3: Lemon Demon
WikiHole - Cicadas…LIVE (with Matt Rogers, Carl Tart and Claudia O'Doherty)
In Defense of Fandom - Season 2 Episode 3: Fanfiction fixit data
Vibe Check - Her Mediocrity Cannot Touch Me
Code Switch - How Jewish Communities Are Divided Over Support of Israel
Short Wave - Beavers Can Help With Climate Change. So How Do We Get Along?
The Atlas Obscura Podcast - Tree Week: Oh, the places you will go …. to see these notable trees
⭐ Decoder Ring - Making Real Music for a Fake Band
Ologies with Alie Ward - Columbidology (PIGEONS? YES) Part 2 with Rosemary Mosco
All Songs Considered - Cruel songs for the cruelest month
Pop Culture Happy Hour - What Makes A Good Sex Scene?
The Atlas Obscura Podcast - Tree Week: Killer Trees with Mary Roach
Shedunnit - Agatha Christie's Many Houses
⭐ 99% Invisible #579 - Towers of Silence
Worlds Beyond Number: Fireside - Fireside Chat: Sound and Music Talkback Extravaganza: The Sound and the Fury: Music is All Around Us Volume 1
Dear Prudence - My love language with friends is touch, but it makes my partner jealous. Help!
Worlds Beyond Number - Fireside Chat for Chapter 1 of The Wizard the Witch and the Wild One
⭐ Endless Thread - The Jackie Show
Worlds Beyond Number: Fireside - Fireside Chat for LEVELING UP (1 to 2)
Today, Explained - Honey, We Saved the Bees
Wait Wait… Don't Tell Me! - Renée Elise Goldsberry
⭐ Hit Parade - The Bridge: What Made Them Beautiful
History Is Sexy - Episode #86 - Napoleon III
🎶 MUSIC 🎶
'80s Pop Party
Village People radio
#sunday reading recap#bookgeekgrrl's reading habits#bookgeekgrrl's soundtracks#fanfic ftw#dropout tv#dead boy detectives is a lot of fun so far#i'm a sucker for a queerplatonic ride-or-die to the end of the line relationship‚ dead or alive#even if they are so very teenagers#the cats are my faves tho#'80s music#village people#99% invisible podcast#hit parade podcast#decoder ring podcast#endless thread podcast#the atlas obscura podcast#vibe check podcast#shedunnit podcast#worlds beyond number podcast#worlds beyond number: fireside podcast#wikihole podcast#the sporkful podcast#pop culture happy hour podcast#code switch podcast#what next: tbd podcast#ologies podcast#all songs considered podcast#history is sexy podcast#today‚ explained podcast#wait wait... don't tell me!
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Seems like tged is making you sad and angry about different parts, stop quick question: which summon would you prefer to pet? Assuming Lloyd isn't charging you for it.
ppodong no questions or hesitation. gimme the hamster rn.
i am guilty of the exact same thing as lloyd, my favorite child is very much ppodong, closely followed by bangul, then hamang and finally ggoming. i am not impartial nor above playing favorites (´-﹏-`;)
#hey i got an ask#anonymous#this was such a sweet ask thank you so much for sending it nonnie#i promise i'm okay tho! any frustration i show is just because i like this story very much and i know it could be much better!#but i swear the moment i stop having fun i will simply stop thinking about it lol#life is far too short to not dedicate to stuff that makes you happy. i simply just happen to be a little hater that likes complaining!
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I've never heard of emts working only at events? What's that like for you if you don't mind my asking?
Yeah, there are ambulance companies that staff certain events, but there's some event specific companies out there lmao. For me specifically, it's almost entirely college events, whether it's happening on a campus or not. It's not great, usually pretty boring, but it's better than being on an ambulance or in a hospital. We do get actual emergencies sometimes, but usually it's just getting drunk people to the tent or giving out water and bandaids lmao. Again, boring as fuck, but I chose this over working on a 911 rig, so that's on me 😔 if I'm being so real tho, other than my coworkers, the best part of the job is the food lmaoooo it's so good and all the food trucks/food booths give discounts or free food to us depending on the location and event. And there's almost always a ton of downtime, so I basically just get paid to sit there and vibe for the most part
#not snz#when i say i love my job i mean i love very specific parts of it lmao#idk if I've said it here before or not and this is gonna sound so bad coming from someone working in healthcare#but i don't like patients lmao#i love the book stuff and i love everything in theory and i know how everything works and I'm very enthusiastic about it#but man do i not like patients ahskaksk#there are exceptions obviously but those are few and far between#it's why i love being an emt at my fire station bc we don't reslond to medical calls#like I've done medical calls there for the public but very rarely bc people either approach us or we stumble upon them#so i really only do my emt things on the people i know and i love that#i love my coworkers so I'm always happy to make sure they're okay and help them out when they're not#but i feel nothing for the public and i didn't realize i genuinely couldn't care less about them until i started doing my clinicals#it's just awkward and I'm not invested in them i just like figuring out what's wrong with them and interact with them as little as possible#again there are exceptions and i do like some of the patients but generally I'm just trying to hand them off asap#so yeah i do like working events bc the alternative is being confined to a tiny box or trapped in a hospital#i like being outside and being able to walk around the place and do things if i want to#and obviously i adore my partner#and even on the rare occasions i work with someone else all day i love my other coworkers too#and i mean yeah this might be more boring than working on an emergency rig However#it pays so much better#like why do y'all think my medic partner works there lmao he's actually good with patients and prefers the ambulance#but the pay in the field is shit so he gets paid way more working events than he would at the three letter company#insane actually that he makes over ten dollars more an hour working chill events than he would being overworked on a rig#anyway i digress#I'm looking into pathology assistant school rn bc there's like no patient interaction there but i still get to be nosy#so that's perfect for me lmao#everyone keeps saying i missed my calling as a vet tho like i don't cry when a dog dies in a movie lmao i wouldn't survive#working with animals would be amazing but the only thing that really gets you money is being a vet#so that can be a hobby
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So those death flags on Roberto eh... Meryl is definitely using that derringer after he dies, right? It's her signature gun, there's no way she won't...
#If they don't do this actually I'll be '??????????'#But yeah the theory that we will be getting Milly after Roberto dies in July grows stronger every episode#[chanting] timeskip timeskip timeskip timeskip timeskip... I really really want one#More experienced Meryl taking on a newbie partner in Milly. Wolfwood aging super fast. Knives healing period. Older Elendira... PLS.....#Trigun#Trigun stampede#Spoilers#Trigun spoilers#Trigun stampede spoilers#I'm very curious to see where episode 5 is going to take us bc they're nowhere NEAR July or even the orphanage#Which means. Hopefully. The pacing really is slowing down now. This episode was great with it... I'm v happy so far#Still bitter about elendira being a kid in this remake tho. That's one of the really big reasons I want a timeskip tbh#I wanted to see her using the giant fkoff crossbow and kicking ass :(#Plus her new design isn't anywhere near as visually interesting as the others shown. I really liked zazies redesign#But she's just in like a white gown. I couldn't even *tell* it was her til I checked the subreddit n they talked about subtitles.#I thought they had introduced a new independent plant bc the design doesn't resemble her at all#She's one of my fave characters and I was SO excited to see her finally animated after all this time 😭#It's the main reason I'm gunning for a timeskip so bad... I want actual elendira not a totally different character with her name attached
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kindergala? more like: lou singlehandedly revives the kindergarten tumblr rp community part 2 electric boogaloo /lh /silly
#🖋️ ––– ・゚★。・:*:・゚☆ 001. Misc.#actually maybe this is the 3rd time if u count the months of hiatus we had before getting back to it with new blogs and then stopping again#∠( ツ 」∠)_ idk why ppl keep indulging my rp brainrot like this sometimes but tysm for keeping the streak going :'D#also genuinely tho thank you everyone for being so excited for the kindergala and making this so much more fun than it would've been alone#like!!! the energy and response to this event so far has been outstanding!!!!!! and i am so grateful fr!! :'''3#i love the designs everyone's been making. i love the plans for interactions. i love the art and writing. i love the designs from ppl who#aren't participating but want to design something fun and cool anyway!!! (ps that is 100% valid and completely in line with the spirit of#kindergala!! this is a creativity exercise event as well for sure!!!!)#i know that it would still be fun even if it was just me and very few of my friends. but it's gotten a lot bigger than i thought it would#and i am so so happy abt that and happy that you are all enjoying yourselves and interacting with each other within the community like this#there are some shy ppl i've noticed! but it really seems like ppl are less shy about interacting than the 1st time around!!#and if you are shy: pls remember plenty of other people are too. but they joined this event to interact with other kg fans just like you#and it would probably make them happy if you reached out!! just like you'd probably be happy to have someone reach out to you too#and if you're scared about not knowing who to interact with. my inbox and dms are always open. i give you express permission to interact :D#i'm over on my displacedbias blog!! :3#also if anyone is feeling negative about this or like things need some improvement during the event-- feel free to talk to me abt feedback!#or if you just need to talk to someone in general. very much not a therapist but i will help to the best of my ability :')
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I want to lay claim to the dark power of my monstrous identity without using it as a weapon against others or being wounded by it myself. I will say this as bluntly as I know how: I am a transsexual, and therefore I am a monster. Just as the words "dyke," "fag," "queer," "slut," and "whore" have been reclaimed, respectively, by lesbians and gay men, by anti-assimilationist sexual minorities, by women who pursue erotic pleasure, and by sex industry workers, words like ‘"creature," "monster," and "unnaturaI" need to be reclaimed by the transgendered. By embracing and accepting them, even piling one on top of another, we may dispel their ability to harm us. A creature, after all, in the dominant tradition of Western European culture, is nothing other than a created being, a made thing. The affront you humans take at being called a "creature" results from the threat the term poses to your status as "lords of creation," beings elevated above mere material existence. As in the case of being called "it," being called a "creature" suggests the lack or loss of a superior personhood. I find no shame, however, in acknowledging my egalitarian relationship with non-human material Being; everything emerges from the same matrix of possibilities. "Monster" is derived from the Latin noun monstrum, "divine portent," itself formed on the root of the verb monere, "to warn." It came to refer to living things of anomalous shape or structure, or to fabulous creatures like the sphinx who were composed of strikingly incongruous parts, because the ancients considered the appearance of such beings to be a sign of some impending supernatural event. Monsters, like angels, functioned as messengers and heralds of the extraordinary. They served to announce impending revelation, saying, in effect, "Pay attention; something of profound importance is happening." Hearken unto me, fellow creatures. I who have dwelt in a form unmatched with my desire, I whose flesh has become an assemblage of incongruous anatomical parts, I who achieve the similitude of a natural body only through an unnatural process, I offer you this warning: the Nature you bedevil me with is a lie. Do not trust it to protect you from what I represent, for it is a fabrication that cloaks the groundlessness of the privilege you seek to maintain for yourself at my expense. You are as constructed as me; the same anarchic womb has birthed us both. I call upon you to investigate your nature as I have been compelled to confront mine. I challenge you to risk abjection and flourish as well as have I. Heed my words, and you may well discover the seams and sutures in yourself.
Susan Stryker, My Words to Victor Frankenstein above the Village of Chamounix: Performing Transgender Rage (1994)
#lin.txt#readings#<- i am likely never going to post like this again#but the few weeks i've been in grad school so far have exposed me to so many cool readings#and i just loved this one so much i had to share it#this one was for my class on renaissance lyric & feminist theory which has been very cool so far#i was so scared of grad school but honestly i'm really happy w it atm. lookin forward to reading more cool shit#i hope other trans people enjoy this as well. other lgbtqia+ people in general.#it's very well written and i recommend reading the whole thing if you liked this bit. it's in the post source! she has a lot of great to sa#tho warning for some transphobia when she quotes points that she rebukes
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Real quick, not because it's come up or anything, I just want to be pre-emptive about it:
Remember that I'm not the world's leading expert in anything, including kink. Remember to take things I say with a grain of salt and do your own research. I never want to be one of those people who styles themself as an expert and is treated as some sort of guide/leader. For one thing, that's not a power dynamic I'm comfortable with. I'm here to make friends and have fun and spread my love of RACK, not be in charge of anyone (save for moderating the discord).
I happen to know more about queer identities, disability, and kink/bdsm/safe sex than the average person just because they're the three areas I've studied a lot and that most affect my personal life in various ways. But that doesn't mean I'll always be right about everything, or that I'll get across my knowledge well, or that you should just listen to everything I say and take it as fact.
Especially when it comes to kink and bdsm, you should never be teaching others about it just from what you've learned from me, nor should you be practicing it if I'm the only source you've gotten your information from. As a general rule of thumb, never get all your information from one source or believe people just because they usually know what they're talking about. Look for multiple sources, do your own research, remember that there's always going to be different perspectives and everyone has blindspots they don't know about.
So yeah, idk. I just don't wanna be creating weird power dynamics just because I happen to know a lot about kink and like to share my knowledge. And I definitely don't want people engaging in irl kinks based only on what they learn from me, because I've barely brushed the surface of what you need to know before you can safely engage in kink.
Also just because I tease and flirt does not make me anyone's dom. I don't engage in play without negotiation and trust (and friendship or money). If I'm flirting with someone, it's because they've consented to it and they can revoke that consent at any time. But I will never try to engage in actual power exchange here, that would be irresponsible and once again create a power dynamic I'm not comfortable with. I have my limits, and I'll make them clear, so never worry you've accidentally broken them without knowing. And don't worry about trying to defend me, I can defend myself.
#sunshine#idk maybe this doesn't need saying but I want to say it anyway#especially the power dynamic thing#I get uncomfortable when people try to make themselves like... 'leaders' or whatever of fandoms or online spaces#turns real weird and culty real quick and makes it easy for people to be taken advantage of#so I don't wanna be one of those people or encourage people to treat Anyone like that#don't put people on pedestals or make them your leader especially not internet strangers#I'm happy to be a fun silly blog y'all go to and I'm happy to be peoples' favourite writer/blog/whatever#I'm happy for people to enjoy my content and chat with me and ask me questions about kink#I'm happy to educate as best as I can#I'm NOT happy to be taken as a supreme authority on anything tho#I'm just some dumbass I do not deserve that power#also I'm very good at sticking to my boundaries/limits so if I ever respond to something then it means I'm comfortable with it#so like I won't let flirting go any further than I'm comfortable with#which means I don't need people coming into my inbox trying to defend me because they think someone went too far#if they did then I'll let them know myself otherwise it's all good no one needs to worry about it
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WIP: Jevil the devil
#oooh i really like this one so far.........#is it really a wip if it's already pretty much done? (on my file not here lol)#Its based on a fic i read recently (Iykyk)#but i might be too much of a coward to post the full thing on my main lmao#I'll probably show the fic writer tho; at the very least#ugh i dunnoooooo#bc i'm really happy with it but it's... *emberassinggggg*#wip#lee arts#also i don't draw Jevil like... at all#so i'm surprised he looks so good! Might have to draw this boi some more heheh#jevil
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It's really funny looking back at my old concepts for this doll/character and seeing oh I was going for x vibe and now that I'm redoing it (and with better techniques/tools/practice kind of) it's going so much better than it did before
#twist rambles#like. why did i want to do full acrylic on the lips 😭 it does NOT look like real lip texture i promise#this is mostly thanks to a VERY helpful bjd forum member who was very patient with me but i feel that even tho I've taken over 6 months off#doing faceups this one is better than the one i tried to do last on her. weirdly parallel to the first faceup i did on cordy tbh bc that was#after YEARS of not practicing or doing it but doing more art related stuff. and it turned out very well for the time i was doing it#and thats how this is going. i think doing digital art has helped a lot weirdly like I'm working in more subtle layers and building it up#which works better for well. guy w insanely shaky hands disease (esp rn. ive been up nearly 24 hrs). so im glad its going well so far :)#hope that will continue bc i rly am happy w it thus far. rn just waiting for like 5 min until the sealant is dry and then... more eyebrow#work :/ <- hates doing the eyebrows. would love to never ever ever have to do eyebrows again okay.
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