#I'm tired and sad

[remwantsmorewords]

At times I wonder

If this is my fallow

Strength sapped from my soul

Like nutrients from soil

And now it sits

Soil and soul unsown

Yet harrowed all the same

But yet still

Does it feel instead as though

Instead the field has been salted

Killing any chance of growth

Any chance of life

Sapping me further of what I need

I feel like a scarecrow

Unable to do naught but stand watch

Never moving but to sway with the winds

Empty fields stretching further than stitched

Eyes could possibly see

Stuck in one spot

Even if the field is drowned by the rains

Or plundered by hungry mouths

Should my salted fields be set alight

Somehow I'd stay rooted to my spot

Unable to do anything but watch

As my fields of nothing char to ash

And I can only hope that should my

Empty fields ever burn

That the ash lingering afterwards

Feeds the earth enough so that I may

Finally watch fields turn colours

From the deep dark of freshly turned soil

To the bright green of life

As it shifts to swaying seas of gold

[hoothalcyon]

the pain of being a Runaan/Ruthari fan is so specific and lonely. our faves aren't dead, just sort of abandoned for the time being while every other character (and new ones, too) gets their time to shine and get loads of fan content made of them. sigh

[booksandwine7]

This past couple of days have been awful. My personal and labor life have been a chaos.

I'm a person that hasn't gotten used to adulthood 😭.

[hylias-gremlin]

If I forgot to follow one of my lovely mutuals again, please let me know.

[gay-nidoking]

Between the miscarriage, the car, moving, my dad's birthday, and everything going on at work, idc if I can take ten more months of this year

[lazylittledragon]

made a sticker for anyone to slap onto their work if they need to

[sga-owns-my-soul]

reblog to give ur mutuals a soft lil kissy on the head

[daydreamsinthemoonlight]

i know you're not supposed to have your life together in your 20s, but i still feel uniquely horrible about my state of affairs

[rotting-bitch]

try to be gentle while tearing me apart

[boopicide]

i don't wanna die, i just wanna never have existed in the first place.

[darkacademiboy]

[heartorbit]

lets run to a new world together! ✨

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

The fact that I'm still "alive" in 2024 just feels like a huge mistake...

[necroticghost]

why the fuck am I the way I am

[stealerofthe2ndbraincell]

There's an aspect of Original!Elias Bouchard that makes me so sad to think about in a weird kind of "meta" way.

And that's the fact that he has to be labelled as the "OG" not as Elias.

Technically speaking Elias has been dead for years. It's Jonah that's taken over - literally having his eyes removed and replacing them with his own and living as him (he even seemingly keeps his "old fashioned haircut" on Elias' hair).

And yet we as the audience don't often call that form of Jonah "JONAH". Instead it's Elias, cause he's been Elias for 4 series at this point.

"Elias started the apocalypse", "Elias beat that old man to death with a metal pipe" when it was never really Elias in the first place.

He's been so robbed of his own identity that not even death can spare him; all of Jonah's actions in his body are recognised as him.

(Btw this isn't me saying you can't call Jonah!Elias straight up Elias, I do that regularly ofc. I'm just being emo rn lol)

[tesco-finest-aromantics]

please i'm begging you think about aplatonic people when you make a post about aro issues. not all of us care about friends. we can prioritise other relationships even if we've deconstructed amatonormativity because friendship is just not important to some people. being aro doesn't make me inherently care more about friendship