#I'm still annoyed about the comments

[musicfeedsmysoul12]

Block exists for a reason. I just used it on a couple people screaming about characterizations in the DCXDP fandom.

I know I complain about how people write certain characters and promote others I don’t like (see all my grumpy posts about Iida being made into a horrible person while Bakugou is lifted onto a pedestal) but I dont go around to other people’s posts to hijack them and then make comments about ‘how to write characterication’ and ‘this isn't how it goes’. I make things as vague as I can when complaining and usually I do those posts after frustrating days when I need to complain about petty shit because complaining about my life is just sad and repetitive.

When you directly interact with a post and say things like ‘The characterization is horrible’ or ‘this is trash’ or ‘i don’t like this’of one that happened to me ‘how could you ruin this Plot by doing that’ (and it's not because the takes are 1000% wtf aka they're a terf/Nazi/racist/all of the above) you're ruining the fandom experience for people. Especially in a niche crossover fandom where half the time we are making crack fics.

So: have a life. Block liberally. You dont need a reason why. I block anyone I think I should and others I block because AO3Feed tumblers are annoying. I block tags I dont like and ignore additions to my posts where they try to include things I dont like but dont find horrific. I block commentators on AO3 because they're rude and I'm not dealing with it. I've posted them here when it upsets me but most people do. (also I think shaming these comments hopefully decreases them. They're not edgy or useful or even good, they're assholes)

You're not being rude when you ignore people or block them. You're taking care of your mental health. You're cultivating your fandom experience into the best possible time you can have.

Anyone who feels they have a right to attack others or that they alone know how to write a character can fuck off.

this couldn’t be said any better

[royalarchivist]

Bad: I don’t think people understand the effect QSMP had on some of the streamers in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. [...] Imagine that you were given a friend to play Minecraft with — like your best friend — BUT if this person dies, if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Can you imagine what that’s like?

Bad: If you did not live through the QSMP, if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience the Eggs were. They were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with.

Bad: I’m not saying I regret it. To this day, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. [...] I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, it was just that fun.

Earlier today during his stream, Bad shared his experience and thoughts about the Eggs and the significant emotional (and traumatic) impact they had on him and his fellow QSMP members.

This clip a very edited-down version since his commentary was ~13 minutes long, so I highly recommend checking out Bad's VOD if you have the time. (Timestamp: 47:36 - 1:00:14)

[ Full Transcript ↓ ]

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Bad: To be fair Chat, I really think the QSMP... I don't think anyone really can relate to it, Chat. It's something that's so... I've told people this before, like– but it's hard to understand. Right? Like...

Where was I? Sorry Chat, I'm losing my train of thought. Look, let me explain Chat– here's the dealio, ok? Here's the dealio, and this is what I mean when I say like, it's important to keep this in mind, Chat. Ok? It's important to keep this in mind:

I don’t think people understand the effect that the QSMP had on like, some of the streamers, in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. This is the analogy I’ve given to every person who I’ve like, shared this with. Imagine you meet somebody– [He hears a strange noise] What the fudge was that? Did you hear that?

Anyway– Chip! The story I was just relaying to Chat, Chip, was this: I was sharing this story with them, I said–  I was giving them an analogy. 

Imagine Chat, for example, imagine that you were… playing Minecraft, with like– you were given a friend to play Minecraft with, Chat, like your best friend, and [unintelligible] were like, “Hey, you get to play Minecraft with this person, right? BUT if this person dies – they’re currently your best friend, Chip – but if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Ever again.” Can you imagine what that’s like, Chip?

I don’t think a lot of people understand like, what that does, right? I’m not gonna say that like, it creates this situation, Chip, that like, messes with your head, but it– Chip – but it totally, totally does, Chip. It messes with your head! It literally puts you in a position where you’re second-guessing and thinking about everything, Chip! You’re thinking about EVERYTHING Chip! Ok? And that’s the problem, Chip– is you turn into a paranoid monster because of it, Chip! Like, you don’t understand Chip– I was- I was so afraid of every dirt block, I used to carry a shovel with me Chip, and I would specifically right-click dirt blocks that looked suspicious because mines, Chip– mines could not be shoveled! Like, I was crazy, Chip! But here’s the problem, Chip: that craziness is still there. I’m genuinely like–

I remember thinking Chip, that I would one day– I was like, “I’m going to move past–” here, let’s go up here, Chip. I remember thinking one day Chip, I was like, “I’m gonna move past the underground base, one of these days. You know, one of these days, I feel like I’ll be able to grow and achieve the desire to build a base that doesn’t have to be underground.” But I don’t think it’s possible now Chip, because I think… I just don’t know. I feel like the paranoia– there’s still like, residual leftover trauma from that situation, Chip.

But here’s the problem Chip: I don’t think I don’t think– I don’t think people understand it. Like, I just really don’t. But I also don’t blame them Chip, ‘cuz I don’t think it’s possible to fully understand it if you haven’t lived through it. Like, if you did not live through the QSMP… I’m talking about the QSMP, I don’t- I don’t know if that was obvious– if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience like, the Eggs were. Right? I don’t think people realize it. Like, they were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with, Chip. So, it’s just one of those things that–

[He’s interrupted by a loud rumble of thunder above them]

Did lightning just strike here? Is it thunderstorming out…? But anyway, Chip. That’s the food for thought.

But that’s the problem– Like, every time it rains in Minecraft, I have to like, look at the sky, and I get this weird, like, second--hand vibe because of the trauma. The trauma, Chip! The trauma is real! But that’s the point– I’m not saying I regret it. I, to this day Chip, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. 

[He falls down] Dangit, don’t come over here Chip, ‘cuz I’m coming back up! Ok.

I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering  and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, Chip, it was just that fun. I really wi– I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible, Chip, to give people that same energy, like that same experience. You know what I mean, Chip? I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible again. Like, EVER.

Because… because like, one: I will say on one level Chip, I will say on one level, like– it’s sort of emotionally like… It’s emotionally devastating, and I think to actually go through that– and this is where like, if I ever do end up going to a– see a therapist, if I ever do end up going to see a therapist at any point, I’ll talk it over with them and be like, “Hey, what do you think about this?” Because I genuinely think on one level, like– it’s created this fear of forming attachments because of like, how things can go. You know what I mean? Like, the fear of getting attached to something and then potentially losing it. Like, it’s- it’s a genuine thing. I think people forget about that.

Like, at the end of the day, everything was RP, right? On the server. You know what I mean? Like, everything was RP, Chip. BUT at the same point, even though it was RP Chip, it was still like– there the reality of you were still playing like, with another person, and you were still getting that experience, and it felt like you were genuinely attached to someone and you didn’t want anything bad to happen to them. It was GENUINELY stressful, Chip.

But at the same point, I don’t regret it, and I don’t think it was a bad experience. I’m– 

Sometimes in life Chip, you go through stuff, and maybe you have a certain amount of like, things that like, can happen, that you’re like, “You know what, maybe this wasn’t a good thing that this happened,” but at the same point, you still aren’t necessarily upset about it, because… it’s like growing as a person, right? Here’s the thing Chip; even bad situations, Chip, can lead to an overall good outcome. Like–

Even if you’re going through something bad Chip, just because a bad thing happens doesn’t mean that only bad things have to come from that. That’s one of the things I tell people all the time, Chip, is that if you go through a bad situation, you can learn from it, and you can use your experience to help others. And you can be that– you can be, at the worst-case scenario, you can be someone for other people who are going through that same experience to lean on when they go through that.I think there’s a certain amount of comfort that comes from that; from knowing no matter how bad your situation is, you’re not the only person who’s experienced it. You know what I mean?

[lunarneo]

Poor Neo- "Wait a Second...."

[angelsdean]

is it easier to understand why jensen gives neutral / vague statements re: dean's feelings / destiel reunion if it's framed like this:

imagine a work-in-progress series. the first part of the series is over but it left off with some things open-ended to be addressed in the sequel. some character arcs not complete. one of those arcs is dean's reciprocation and future reunion with cas. would you discuss the future plot points to your highly anticipated continuation and potentially spoil things for your audience or ruin a Big Reveal? or would you keep things as vague as possible and instead stick to discussing what already happened (like the confession scene). to discuss their reunion or dean's feelings in definitive statements would be to potentially spoil or word-of-god confirm things that are still to be explored in the future text of the show. misha can make definitive statements about cas's feelings and queerness because cas got that textual moment already. the kind of statements misha gets to make re: destiel are always going to be different from what jensen can say until we see these moments (dean reciprocation / destiel reunion / pale coconuts colliding) in the text. it's just like how when actors are asked abt what will happen in a new season they stay vague. don't spoil your WIP !!

[jakeperalta]

men in instagram comments will be like "is anyone going to take this random content of a woman doing literally anything and make it an opportunity to share my hatred of women" and not wait for an answer

[destinysquared]

Another day, another barrage of DMs and comments being like:

"Why did you make Uzi black?"

"Since when is Uzi black?! WTF?!" You know....it's sad that I GENUINELY thought ppl would be smart enough to remember that her father's name is Khan and thus put two and two together regarding her origins....

...Ah well.....

[doctorodyssey]

will never stop being amused by 911 fans who are surprised/outraged when the greater fandom acts the same way every single fandom (or really any obsure-ish subculture) in the history of human existence has ever acted before

[icewindandboringhorror]

examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk

[tiger-moran]

When you see someone insulting people who don't care about 'johnlock' and then go on to talk about RDJ Holmes/Moriarty hatesex

[angelicgarnet]

weird how you can just say you find something annoying or in poor taste and people online will be like "do you not have any real problems omg wow there are literally people dying"

[unma]

Saw the Epilogue for Liar Satsuki just now and yeah no, I was coping when I thought it'd make things better. I still can't believe Akira and Satsuki didn't end up together. After EVERYTHING these two have been through together. Komachi is not even slightly as relevant for most of the manga, and you can say what you want about both their abilities tying them together thematically and what not, but frankly the entire manga set it up such that Akira x Satsuki was the obvious choice.

[forcebookish]

i am currently in the precarious situation where everything that i want to work on requires me researching in some way before i can do it and it's making my brain throw a tantrum because i just want to write but i know it will be no good and i'll have to rewrite it once i gather the information i need to actually work on it grrrrrrrrrrrrr

[redgearsmovin]

man .

[the-one-who-lambs]

y'all are so lovely because I've spent nearly my entire life feeling like I'm annoying for being too excited about my interests and trying to bandage them like a bleeding wound because I've learned that even many friends would put up with it until I become Too Much but now I'm surrounded by people who actually love that I pour my whole soul into what I do and suddenly I am no longer as intimidated by my muchness

[some-teeth-in-a-trench-coat]

Hey fun fact: sometimes childhood trauma doesn't come from your parents or even family. Those are very common sources yes but sometimes you will just be subjected to the horrors anyway even if no human is at fault

[nero-neptune]

things you shouldn't say if you wanna claim the moral high ground.

(context being me pointing at that, yes, what susan sarandon said was actually antisemitic, which got me, like, 4+ paragraphs rife with false claims and Even More Antisemitism in response, apparently meant to be directed at me? bc they somehow assumed the only reason anyone would point out antisemitism is if they're a white jewish zionist. makes you think!)