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recycledbeercans · 3 years ago

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Good god I can’t do this. I gotta break my personal rule to not make txt posts on the internet because I GOTTA say something or I’m going to burst.

I cannot, cannot, for the life of me understand Freela as a ship.

I think most ppl are more willing to give it a pass or just shrug and say it’s cute because no one dislikes Fry or Leela as characters, and hell, I don’t even dislike Leela (she’s awesome, I love her, 11/10) but I cannot wrap my head around WHY this ship is canon when it’s written so fucking badly. I’m not even against het ships bc I have plenty I absolutely love, but this one just hits a nerve in me and it grates me even more every time I rewatch Futurama. The older I get, I’ve gone from initially finding it cute to just, loathing it.

Hhrgh ok before people point pitchforks at me, lemme try to explain… my thoughts are kinda all over the place but my biggest gripe with Freela is that it is so ONE-SIDED and FORCED. Leela NEVER shows interest in Fry unless her other options (literally anyone else) don’t work out. She views Fry as childish, immature, and bosses him around much to Fry’s dislike. Most of the time (if not exclusively) whenever she shows any appreciation for Fry, it’s over what he does for her, but she never shows interest in doing anything back for him. You never see her make any grand gestures of love or affection towards Fry.

And ok, yeah, when Fry is saving her life by giving her his oxygen, or jumping in front of a killer bee to try to protect her, it’s easy to go “aww” and want them to end up together. But, at least for me, I realized most of that was directed at how I found it sweet that Fry cares about Leela, not that the two of them are a good couple. Fry loves Leela enough to give his life for her and try to protect her, (but he also feels similarly about Bender, in godfellas really the only reason he even eventually gave up in looking for Bender was because Leela convinced him it was time to move on), but it’s, genuinely something that makes me sad because when does Leela ever return that energy? She doesn’t. Fry pines over her for YEARS in the show timeline and she just constantly turns him down and rejects him, and shows blatant disinterest, until she almost seems worn down because none of her other options are working out.

And maybe you want them to end up together, because you want Fry to be happy, but it sticks out so sorely that Fry isn’t the kind of person Leela wants. Without even getting into how uncomfortable the writing is with Fry constantly pestering and pushing himself onto her and whining that she won’t date him when she explicitly tells him no over and over (the way Futurama treats consent wigs me out but that’s a whole different topic), whenever Leela does show interest in Fry, it’s NEVER because Fry is someone she would pursue or even sees potential in.

This is constantly reinforced throughout the show, such as in the episode where the parasites allow Fry to express his feelings for Leela in a romantic way, the climax/takeaway is that Leela is won over by Fry’s romantic gestures that fit what she wants, but has no interest in him as a person or his gestures when it comes from himself, and even feels grossed out by him at the end.

In The Devil’s hands are idle playthings, ok, yeah, Leela let’s Fry finish his song at the end, and you can say it’s sweet that she listens, but if anything it just feels sad because Fry is trying to express his love for her, and because it’s not ~good~, she’s not even watching with the intent to date him or return the feelings, she just lets him pour his heart out to her I guess, just because, to be nice? is it pity?

Everything about it makes me sad at how empty it all feels! You see a character like Fry be so affectionate and loving, and Leela on the other hand is clearly more independent and goal oriented so she’s not really the kind of person Fry would really get to have his energy matched with.

Not to mention in The Sting, throughout Leela’s whole fever dream after being poisoned, she never expresses missing or wanting to be with Fry because she loves him, she just constantly states that she feels responsible and guilty for his death, but her subconscious has Bender state that Fry is the one person he always excluded from “kill all humans”.

Even in Bender’s Big Score, Leela isn’t interested in Lars (older Fry) because he is like Fry. Lars is a completely different personality, much more mellowed out, completely lacking in basically every characteristic that makes Fry, well, Fry (can you even consider Lars to be Fry when he doesn’t even express anything towards his first friend he made in the future, Bender? lol). I think the point the writers were trying to get at is that Fry still had some growing or maturing to do, but honestly, it’s presented in the worst way possible. Fry is, what?, in his late 20s/early 30s in the show timeline by this point, is he really supposed to wait until he’s like 40 so he’s finally “good enough” for Leela? Is he supposed to become a completely different person so she’ll finally see him as dating material? Like, everything about this is basically just saying that Fry can have Leela, but only if he stops being Fry. Meanwhile, in this same movie, Bender cries for a thousand years because he was forced to kill Fry, and immediately runs and jumps into his arms as soon as he sees Fry is ok. Then to make it even worse, after Leela realizes Lars WAS Fry, she still didn’t decide to try a relationship with Fry, making it apparent she does not see Fry as Lars. They may as well just be different people. Plus, Lars was just, being romantic and suave and wooing her, and once again there wasn’t really anything she was doing to pursue him...

The whole series focuses on Fry having to change himself to be what Leela wants in a romantic partner, never Leela actually liking Fry for being himself. She can’t stand most of his habits, and it throws me even more for a loop that the focus is on Fry having to figure out the right way to win her over, as if if you perform a certain amount of steps properly, you can get someone to like you. It’s just, bad.

Like why is their relationship written SO BAD?! It’s so so so bad.

You can’t tell me that Fry and Leela are supposed to end up together when their romantic chemistry is in the negative, Fry has to both push himself onto Leela, make constant one-sided grand gestures to win her over, give his life for her multiple times, and change his entire personality to be appealing to her over YEARS, and she has to fail with everyone else to finally consider him.

MEANWHILE, Bender, fucking Bender, is so happy to be Fry’s roommate, considers Fry the most important person in his life, is always hugging him, throwing himself at Fry, shows open affection, cries over him, becomes sober when Fry doesn’t give him attention. Even Bender’s negative traits, like his possessiveness, jealousy, are directed at Fry in such an intense manner, that regardless of whether or not it’s healthy, it’s just, precious? sweet? The lengths he’ll go to for Fry’s attention and approval. The entire ending of Beast with a billion backs is Bender being unable to handle not being with Fry and so getting him back, and Yivo feeling cheated on because Fry sent a letter to Bender, meanwhile Leela wanted nothing to do with Fry and even said she needed space from him. Bender loves Fry just the way he is. Fry doesn’t have to change himself to be with Bender, they already live together, they have the same interests (I don’t even think Fry and Leela share interests), they love to goof off and laugh together, Fry is just, himself around Bender. He’s happy around Bender. All these things that make me throw up my hands and ask why Fry and Leela weren’t written this way if they were supposed to get together.

In the episode where Fry is a mutant, Leela wouldn’t even touch him, while Bender just threw himself into Fry’s arms.

And like, here’s the thing, Leela and Fry as characters don’t even have a bad dynamic on paper. Like, I get it! The tough girlboss type character and her dorky idiot bf IS a cute dynamic, but the writers just, wrote them so badly? Like, even if you try to argue it’s to follow the trope of “will-they-won’t-they”, you could easily do that without Leela showing negative interest in Fry? Without Fry having to force himself on her? It could have just been that she DOES want to date him but has hang ups about relationships, or that Fry is too scared to confess to her, if they could have just have, a natural progression of growing closer without all the forced shit inbetween of Fry begging her to date him and Leela saying no and showing her blatant disinterest a million times.

I know some people like to poly ship Fry, Leela, and Bender also but even as someone who is 100% on board w/ poly ships, I can’t see that here either because neither Bender or Fry really are what, Leela wants.

But don’t get me wrong, Fry, Bender and Leela have a great dynamic, those three interacting is WHY I watch the show, but Leela very much exudes mom-friend energy, like she has to chaperone these two dorks and so it’s not really about her getting her needs met...

So uh yeah, i think there’s more I want to say, I could pick out so many specific examples but I’ll stop this here because it’s getting long, maybe i’ll write an essay. But,,

Freela sucks.

Actually the ship just pisses me off I’m not even going to give it the “well they are cute” treatment. I want to see Fry have his clingy, affectionate energy matched because it just makes me sad to think about the fact that he wouldn’t get that from Leela, but Bender would absolutely baby and smother him in affection and return his energy 110%, as he should. Bender loves Fry exactly as the idiot manchild he is.

Those two should have ended up together, or at the very least Freela shouldn’t have been canon. But whatever, I know ppl will say it’s a product of its time, but good god it still pisses me off how mediocre the writing is.

I’m FUCKING FERAL I’M FOAMING AT THE MOUTH OVER THIS.

#no read more get a wall of text and die like men

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ogravensimp · 3 years ago

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this one is for@mistkissedmoon a lil more Dad!Constantine with a ft. from Jason Blood and John would be so terrible at taking care of ppl but still like really care, so I hope I captured that feeling in this

“This was your big emergency?”

Jason Blood gave a blank stare to the British man across from him.

He didn’t usually just drop everything to attend to someone; especially if that person was John Constantine, but ever since the exorcist decided to take care of the Gem of Scath he proposed it would be a good idea for John to keep him on speed dial.

He didn’t actually expect John to use said number.

Constantine was a demon expert in his own right. Jason believed that he was right to assume that the only reason his help would be sought after was only if the apocalypse had begun.

He felt a nerve in his temple twitch in annoyance (and, ashamedly in disappointment).

It's just that when John rang him and pressed for him to come to the House of Mystery, he had simply been expecting more...destruction. Maybe some blood and fire raining from the sky, the earth itself cracking open to release eldritch horrors of all kinds or even complete ripping of the fabrics of reality.

Anything along those lines would have justified his presence being required, but instead, he was met with-

“achoo!”

Jason looked down at the small form below him.

The spawn of evil incarnate was smaller than he thought it would be. If one ignored the glowing red gem wedged into its forehead, it could easily fool for another harmless 7-year old girl.

Especially as it laid half-dazed in its bed, staring up at the ceiling in a lucid trance. With only half its face poking out from under their star themed blanket, it sniffled pitifully due to the snot dripping out its flushed nose.

The room was perfectly mid-temperature, but the child has so drenched in sweat that even the towel on top of its forehead had over-soaked but yet it still shivered as if it was below -0 degrees.

Was the level of the child’s symptoms extreme? Yes.

Was it worth calling him for? Definitely not.

The daughter of Trigon was sick, yes, but it was obviously just the flu.

“That’s what I‘ve been saying.”

Jason turned to the source of the voice—a young woman stood in the doorway and held a tray of what seemed to be cups and bowls.

John had introduced her as Zed and he had just assumed they were in a relationship— to focused on the assumed threat to try to examine their personal lives.

Maybe he should’ve guessed this excursion would be a waste of time by Zed’s expressions. When he arrived she had shot him nothing but apologetic looks. At first, Jason believed the worst laid behind the doors he was led to but as he now knows, that was not the case.

“That idiot thinks it’s some paranormal curse,”, Zed huffed as she sent a glare at the blond man who began to try and defend himself.

“It's been weeks and she's still under the weather. You think Beelzebub gets the bloody sniffles?!”

“But a child of her age would! Especially one who reads in the tub and doesn't dry her hair before going outside in August,” Zed rolled her eyes as she spoke as if the answer was obvious—and they were, "maybe if you stopped treating her as the destroyer of worlds and instead as a 7-year-old, you won't have wasted the poor guys time."

Jason couldn't help but internally agree with her words.

John continued his defence, "All I'm saying is when I got a cold, I just carried on with my day maybe a bit foggy up there but hardly half-dead like Blackbird over 'ere."

Another eye roll from Zed was the only reply.

Approaching them, she extended the tray towards Jason. He gave a look at the cup of tea and noticed it seemed to be next to another 'sweat towel' in a bowl, he cringed a little before rejecting the offer.

Zed just shrugged before dropping the tray onto a side table and drinking the cup herself. Taking a seat at the edge of the bed, her gaze was soft as she stared down at the child, her hands ran through the child short dark tresses in a comforting manner.

Jason studied how she gently cupped the back of the Gem of Scath’s head and raised it, picking up a cup of water from the side and bringing it to the demon’s mouth and it drank with obedience.

The more Jason watched, the less he could even continue to refer to this child as a demon.

Etrigan was a demon—looked like one too.

How could he use the same term he'd use to describe the bastard in him, to describe this tiny looking thing before him? And though he could sense the hellish magic pouring out of her, for now, she was harmless.

"Alright, summon him out."

John's voice pulled him out of his thoughts. He gave him a perplexed look before asking, "Excuse me?"

"Etrigan. Your demon buddy," the way John looked and spoke, you could tell he saw no issue with his request, "Just wanna confirm from a primary source whether if this is something worse or natural way of life."

Jason was flabbergasted, 'was this why he was called?!'

John sighed.

Actually looking peeved by Jason's confusion.

To the side, he heard Zed's chuckle as she began to switch the towels on the girls head, "told you he wouldn't do it."

"Oh bog off," John retorted back before turning back to him and placing a hand on Jason's shoulder, "Listen, it's either you or I visit ol' Luci and I'm simply not really...eager to have that encounter. So do me a favour here, and just bloody say the rhyme."

Jason looked at the hand on his shoulder like it was a parasite before smacking it off. Taking a breath to compose himself, he turned to the exorcist, " I assure you, there is nothing Etrigan can assist you with that I cannot also offer."

"A huge fuck-off sword?"

Jason glared, "Let me see the child," he spat—obviously ignoring the previous statement.

John put his hands up in surrender before indicating with a turn of his head to the child who had actually risen during their conversation and was now sitting upright—well, slouched and she was staring half-lidded at the wall with the only sign she was awake being her harsh breaths.

He bent down as to be in her level of sight and stuck his hand out, "Hello, my name is Jason Blood, you must be..." "Raven." "-yes, thank you, Zed. They tell me you are a bit under the weather?"

Jason realized halfway that he never learnt the girl's name and had simply just been referring to her as the Gem of Scath. He felt a tinge of guilt for his rudeness, but the dazed stare the girl gave him was confirmation that she was barely conscious enough to even notice.

He also realized it was ridiculous to try to shake a child's hand and was bout to retract it when he felt a pair of smaller ones latch onto his fingers.

Looking up he met a sleepy pair of amethyst eyes trying to focus on him, "N-n-nwot sick...jus-jhwust..uh sleepy and...cwold," with a voice that was softer than a whisper, plus the slurring of her words due to the fever, she was basically incomprehensible.

He was going to try and retract his hand again when he felt something soft come in contact with it. He looked down to see that she had placed her face in the palm of it and wrapped around it like a snake.

With a single muttering of, "...warm...like hellfire", she fell asleep with his hand still under her.

He looked at Constantine.

Not really sure what to do, but the con-man only grinned before giving him a tap on the back, "Good lad Jason, put her to sleep. Even I couldn't do that, let alone Etrigan. Guess I'll leave it to you."

And with that, Zed and John stood up and began to exit the room.

Jason was still in shock to even speak; so before he realized what they were doing, they already switched off the lights and closed the door with a soft click.

He simply stared into the darkness, the only illumination being the moon and stars outside.

Sighing, looked down at the fiend holding his hand prisoner and contemplated yanking her off. She was small. it would incredibly easy to flick her away and then he could simply depart home...but then he felt a squeeze.

As if the girl sensed his thoughts, she clung harder onto his limb like it was a lifeline.

She looked truly at peace right now; her harsh breaths were now nothing but puffs and she was less...sweaty. Demon spawn or not, the girl was no more vulnerable than a newborn fawn at the moment. Jason just didn't have the heart to disturb her peace for his own gain.

Another sigh could be heard in the silent room.

'Maybe an hour longer won't hurt but after that, never accept a favour for John Constantine again.'

hope you like it, feels weird writing characters that aren't just raven and my other faves, hope I didn't make anyone ooc

#raven dc #raven teen titans #john constantine #zed martin #john x zed #dad!constantine #constantine & raven #dc comics #raven fanfiction #jason blood #etrigam the demon

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kaaytea · 4 years ago

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So how about Lev, Tsuki, Kuroo and Oiks with a really short and shy s/o. (I'm 4'9 so all i want is for someone to pick me up from under the arms like a cat and carry me on their shoulders 👉👈🥺) - Bug Anon

Jsksndk ✨this~✨

Short s/o

⤷Includes: Tsukki, Kuroo, Lev, and Oikawa

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Tsukishima

I'm sorry but this is Tsukki, he will clown you

No one else is allowed to tease you about your height tho, he will actually end them with some back handed comment

He's the type where if you walk up to him during the day and start talking he'll kinda ignore you a bit then be like "oh sorry, I didn't see you down there"

He’s so mean about it but at the same time he loves when you ask him for help

He makes a big show about being annoyed that you need him to grab something off the top shelf when secretly it's his favorite thing

Thinks it's the funniest thing when you try to kiss him

Like it's not gonna happen you're way to smol to reach his lips

He'll torture you for a bit but eventually he leans down so he can kiss you

Sorry but he rests his arm on your head a lot 😔

Is probably happy that you're a bit shy bc it's easy to fluster you and he vibes well with people that lean more introverted

Living with tall people is actually the worst, like whY does Tsukki feel the need to put all of your favorite mugs on the tOp!! Shelves when he knOws you can't reach them

You know it's fine, you're used to this and have become a champion counter climber 😌✨

So that explains why you were currently kneeling on the counter reaching up for a mug at 10 pm

"What the hell are you doing?"

".......getting my mug? What's it look like silly"

Why are you like this? Why do you feel the need to put yourself in dangerous situations so much?

Kei sighed and walked over to you, he grabbed your waist and pulled you down from the counter then reached up and got the mug down

"You need to stop endangering yourself when you could literally just ask me to help you"

"I wouldn't be endangering myself if you stopped putting MY things on the high shelves!... I swear you do it on purpose sometimes"

He definitely does it on purpose....but he'll never tell you that :)

Kuroo

God he loves you

Kuroo is such a huge dork so expect him to fawn over you

He won't tease you toooo much like he occasionally will hold something out of your reach to watch you jump around trying to get it back

But he really just appreciates you as you are 😌

Kuroo is used to shy, introverted ppl so he's not bothered by it at all

As long as he can hug you he's happy

He LOVES to rest his chin on your head!!

If you're still too short for him to do that he also LOVES giving you back hugs, so either way it's a win win

You were watching Tetsu practice spiking, most of the team had left, only a few stragglers remained trying to get in some extra practice

You were very content with your spot, you were out of the way and happily sat swinging your legs back and forth. Plus you had a pretty good view of Tetsu and Kenma from your bench meaning you could soak up the pure joy that radiated off your boyfriend

Tetsu looked over to see you watching

"Wanna try spiking, sweetheart?"

"Tetsu, I don't think I can even jump high enough to see over the net"

"We won't know until you try~"

I mean he was right...I guess it couldn't hurt

And ya know he looks really cool when he spiked so maybe you'd look pretty cool too!

You walked over to Tetsu and gave Kenma the ok to set the ball for you

You jumped up and you actually hit the ball!!

But the ball didn't even make it past the net 😭

"DON'T LAUGH AT ME!"

"No no you did really good!... You uh... Looked very cute?"

">:(("

"Here do it again I wanna try something"

You sighed, he was just setting you up for failure so he can watch you make a fOOL of yourself again

Kenma set the ball and you jumped up

ONLY THIS TIME YOU KEPT RISING

NDKDNDK KUROO IS REALLY LIFTING YOU UP RN SO YOU CAN SPIKE

You hit the ball and it shot to the ground with a satisfying slap!

"THAT FELT SO COOL!! I FEEL SO POWERFUL!!"

"Yeah you sure look intimidating having me lift you up so you can look over the net"

"Let me have this moment, Tetsurou"

Lev

If anyone were to pick you up like a cat it's this kid

He is lAnKy and you being smol?

He will pick you up....you physically cannot stop him

Likes to lift you up and spin you around when you come to visit him at practice

It usually ends with you being pretty dizzy and Yaku kicking Lev for treating you like a cat

Lev is pretty oblivious to what he says, specifically to people that are shorter to him

He might say something that’s a little rude and unknowingly offend you but he really doesn't mean it

Like it just doesn't click for him that there's a chance he's being insensitive

Just remember that Lev would never ever hurt you intentionally and if he realizes that he hurt you he'd probably panic and continuously apologize to you for the next week

I feel like Lev would compare your hand sizes a lot. He thinks its funny how much smaller your hands are compared to his he gets this funny feeling in his chest whenever he does, you’re just very tiny and cute

It seems like wherever Lev goes he always finds a cat

It's very odd

You were walking around a park for a date when he suddenly stopped at a tree

"AH A CAT WE HAVE TO HELP IT!"

"......It's pretty far up there Lev, I don't think even you can reach it"

"We can't just leave it!!! Quick get on my shoulders!!"

What

How did this happen?

Correction, How did you let this happen?

You reached your hand out to the orange cat sitting on the branch, it slowly made its way in your direction

"Did you save it?"

"almost, move a little to the right"

That cat gracefully leaped into your arms and started purring

Ok maybe this was worth it bc this cat is really cute🥺

You and Lev ended up playing with the cat for a bit getting it to bat at some leaves

The cat even followed you guys for a bit and you see it every so often on your park dates

You named it apricot

Oikawa

I hate to say it but you know that feeling you get when you see a really cute kitten or puppy?

Yeah that's how Oikawa reacts

You're just.....tiny and he has this overwhelming need to hold you

He honestly loves that you're short

Oiks is, surprisingly, pretty tall. Like man is pushing 6'0 so having a small s/o just makes him :))!!

Oikawa doesn't mind your timidness, he thinks it adds to your charm!

Boy friken loves when you hide your face in his chest

Also king of piggy back rides 😌

He will carry you everywhere if given the chance

You were walking back to Oikawa's place

He just finished practice and it was a Friday so he insisted you come over for a sleepover

Yes he still calls them sleepovers, let him live it's cute

You were walking down the street, hand in hand, and the sun had just started going down painting the sky with warm reds and oranges

To be honest you were kinda tired so you started dragging behind a bit

You took a nap while you waited for Seijoh’s practice to end and you only woke up maybe 15 minutes ago? So you were kinda in that weird state where your awake...but not very aware

"(y/n)-chan?"

"huh?"

"Did you not hear what I said?"

"no....I'm sorry Turoo I'm still a bit tired"

":0!! I can't have my precious s/o wAlking if they're tired!"

He just scOOPS you up bridal style and continues walking like it's nothing

I-

Huh I mean sure I guess, if you really insist Tooru

You wrap your arms around his neck for more stability and he sneaks a kiss on to your cheek

"Won't your arms get tired carrying me?"

"Oh please, you're as light as a feather"

😳 ig Volleyball training has it's benefits bc he really can carry you everywhere and never get tired

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tellywoodtrash · 4 years ago

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immj2 30.10.20 lb

lol ishani is suchhhhhhhhh a messy bitch. not even pretending to look less than outright gleeful.

le, iska rona shuru. god sis, you knowwwwwww these bitches have it out for you, then why do you give them the satisfaction of seeing this reaction???

yeh aadmi hai ya bhagwaan? koi bhi jagaah koi bhi time marzi se prakat ho jaata hai.

THAT FUCKING STUPIDASS SCARF IS RUINING THE WHOLEEEEEE LOOOK. GOD WHY DO THEY DO THIS TO HIM?????????

TUMNE JITNE TELLYWOOD FANS KO KHOOOON KE AANSOON RULAAYE HAINNNNA SHIRALI, BHAGWAN TUMHE IN PAAPON KE LIYE KABHI NAHI MAAF KAREGA!!!!!!!!!!

also, just noticed the set and production design credits and finally have names to put on all the hate mail i wanna send.

naaaah jk, i think it's really nice that they got employment in this pandemic, even with their OBVIOUS lack of taste. so much so, that it seems to be a medical condition!

anyway, he said he got this sargi for ishani on behalf of angre, but since she's got hers anyway, this one can be given to riddhima. noice. this fucker be worming his way into my heart with shit like this.

inka phir se popat bann gaya.

mummy biting out and giving the worst blessing of all, “sadaa suhaagan raho.” which is just an elaborate way of saying "hope you die before your husband does, because life without a man is worse than death itself!!!!!!"

“thank you mummyji. aapne ~~sachchi neeyat~~~ se sargi taiyyar kii thi toh dekhiye, mere haath khaali nahi hain!”

lmao nice. where was this riddhima allllll along?????? i've been waitinggggg for this snarky bitchhhhh who doesn't take shit!!!!!

le, aadarsh bahu mode is back on. sab ke liye koi paath ka intezaam kiya. chanchal chachi was right, she's suchhhhh a annoying suck-up to dadi, honestly.

husband is like here, no one's looking; sneak some almonds, come on. yes, i approve. this the kinda man* you want ladies. one who's willing to have a few hours taken off his lifespan so you don't get hangry.

(*T&C strictly apply: only in this feeding waala criteria wrt this dude. baaki sab toh disaster hi disaster hai iss mein.)

“kaisi baat kar rahe ho??? vrat sachchi nishtha se kii jati hai. koi nahi dekh raha par bhagwaan dekh rahe hain!”

lmao, the most appropriate response.

wait you guys genuinely need a gif of this moment, coz it’s priceless:

i can't believe they don't let this dude move his face in this show when he is the MOST ENTERTAINING when he doessssss.

he's like dude i'll adjust with the 2 hours less in my life, but dharampatni is i won’t let you escape a minute of suffering existence in this flesh prison we’re all trapped in, so help me god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

who the fuckkkkkkkkk is this????? and you know you didn't need a needle on the syringe for this whole thing, don't you???

vansh's "baaz ki nazar" toh i've long given up on, but riddhima's peripheral vision also seems to be completely shit if she didn't notice a wholeass person wrapped in all black skulking around directly in her eyeline, not 10 feet away.

lmaooooooo dadi is like tf you doing here, and the hasty retreat he beat. scaryass men soft for their sweet old grandmas is a trend i really do love in tellywood.

oh i like ishani's outfit.

blah blah blah KC gyaan idgaf.

riddhima has lit diya and instant cough attack from the smoke.

it's her. she's the one who did this. looks like she's okay with bhai dying a few days earlier than fated, as long as it means she knocks riddhima down a few pegs.

mummy rubbing it in saying dekho yeh akhand paath hai, beech mein rukna nahi chahiye, apshagun hota hai. godddddddddddddd.

I HONESTLY CANNOT WATCH HER COUGH AND CHOKE THROUGH THIS THE SHEER RIDICULOUSNESS OF THIS IS FUCKING KILLING MEEEEEEEEE

yeh lo ji, parmeshwar prakat ho gaye to save the day and read the paath himself.

all dudes in the world should be in whatever business this guy and angre are in. ki biwi mil gayi toh it manages itself while he devotes himself to her.

lmao the sheer earnestness with which he's narrating the KC paath. both wholesome and fucking hilarious. looks like those primary school kids at their first public speaking contest.

i am ishani. god, why won't this scene just endddddddd already, i'm dying of cringe.

whoooooooooooops. bhai is pointedly asking ki how riddhima's throat got messed up when she was fine like 3 min ago.

behen is giving earnesttttttt excuses and he's really "sure jan"-ing her.

dadi's all no matter what issues crop up in these two's lives, i'm sure they'll win over it with their lurrrrrrrrrrrrrrve. yeah, it looks that way rn, but i wouldn't be quite so optimistic yet, dadi.

literally no one is surprised by this revelation.

oh god, she has something more planned. man who are these ppl with so much energy in their lives WHILE PREGNANT, to do such scheming and plotting??????? just my period cramps have me taking 2 hours off work to curl up on my heat pad and cry about ouchieeeeeee.

great. ragini ko ab daure pad rahein hain.

and poor angre is saddled with getting her treatment. WHY DOES HE HAVE TO DEAL WITH ALL THESE TROUBLESOME WOMEN IN YOUR LIFE VANSH?!?!?! EK ADIYAL BEHEN ISKE SAR PE BAANDH DI HAI WOH KAAFI NAHI THA, KI AB INVALID EX KO BHI ISKE HI HAATH MEIN THAMAA DIYA. i know you got your hands full with that disaster wife of yours, but come on man.

oh god is he gonna blow up at her again for eavesdropping!?!!?!?!?

thank the lord above, she had airpods in. (also lmao, ofc she's literally the airpods meme.)

isn't HE supposed to give HER a gift today???

i liked his other watch better. but this watch is supposedly riddhima “ke dil ki dhadkano se judi hai” so........ i'm no expert in cutting edge watch technology, so sure. sounds like something that would be available for the wives of billionaire gangster’s wives to buy.

oh man she got herself a matching one. which ofc is “tumhare dil ki dhadkano se judi hai.” lord, she CHEESY CHEESYYYYYYYYYYYY. and i'm mildly lactose intolerant, so 🤢🤢🤢

this dude is not though. he falling for this hard and fast. which is....... unexpected. nice, but also suspicious.

“yeh ghadiyaan chahe rahein naa rahein riddhima, lekin tum mere dil mein hamesha rahogi.”

that's sweet. and i'd believe and squee over it if this was any other show. i would. but in this show, literally everyone other than dadi/siya is out to fuck each other over and i don't trust a single goddamn word out their hissy snake mouths.

aaaaaaaaaaaaand ofc he's vrat-ing for her too. BECAUSE THIS IS A FEMINIST SHOW WITH THIS VERY FEMINIST HERO OK?!!!!!!?!?!!!!?!? THIS ONE EPISODE ABSOLVES ALLLLLLLLLLLL THE OTHER 98 EPISODES FILLED WITH HOT FLAMING TRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!

“apni umar badhaake kya karoonga main, agar tum saath nahi ho. main chahta hoon ki tum meri zindagi ki aakhri saans tak mere saath raho.”

again, very very sweet and all, esp. with these soft melty eyes; but it's this show. and we saw the upcoming promo. sooooooooo, kill bill sirens in my head, i'm afraid.

both mann hi mann mein deciding to tell each other the truth about their backstories after the vrat. which should work out splendidlyyyyyyy.

lo ji dream sequence shuru. voot blocked the music but colors put up the scene with bol na halke halke on instaTV so i watched it there.

yesssssssssss you messy trainwrecks. get it onnnnnnnnnn.

this is literally alllll i am watching this show for. the moment y'all bang in canon, i'm outttttttttttt. it's always the best time to quit a tellywood show. always. take this protip from wise, old TT. quit the show the episode the lead couples fuck. just trust me on this.

idk WHOSE dream sequence this is, but lmao it's got the vibes of a not-that-great wedding "promo" thing ppl have got going on these days. which one of y'all is binging these on youtube and thus has their subconscious filled with it/??? it's gotta be riddhima, but it would be absolutely fucking hilariousssssss if it was in fact, vansh.

yup. it was her dumb ass. i bet she had the exact video in mind for kabir and just cut-copy-pasted vansh's face in there from the last week onwards.

oh chachi's back from maayka for vrat kholing.

mans literally do be looking like the chand today. because they eased up on his yellow foundation, thank god.

poor ishani. god, this is why we need feminism. so our sisters don't get pushed into shit like this against their willllllllllllllllll.

dadi and siya shipping riansh to the point of making ppl uncomfortable. what next, you gonna be writing mature fanfic about them on IF????? BACK THE FUCK OFF, YOU WEIRDOS.

“humaare plans kamyaab hote toh vansh iss waqt riddhima ko zeher ki pyaali pilaa raha hota. hmph.”

lmaoooooooooooooooo mummy is an eternalllllllll mood.

this one is getting overly emotional about her first completed karwachauth vrat. eat a snickers, bitch.

dadi overpromising and saying shit like evennnnnnnnn god himself can't shake your love for each other, tumhari prem kahaani billlkulllll pooori hogi and what not. oh dadi, did YOU not see the promo?????

this one got the footage she needed and has duly handed it over to bhai. both of vansh's sisters have the trait for going straightttttt to him with their sordid discoveries, albeit for completely polar reasons.

lmaoooooo the way she peaced out.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand he's started growling about how all this KC naatak was fake and and vowing revenge and games for her dhokaaaaaaaaaa. i hate to say it but............ i told you so.

also abbe oh gobar ganesh. itna CCTV footage mila hai kahin se, toh baaki ka bhi toh dhoond, where you see how she got into the bloody dickey?!?!???! nahi, 2 out-of-context second hi dekh ke paagal saand ki taraah bekaabu ho jaana hai. shit for brains, literally everyone in this show has.

anyway, if i was vansh’s murti maker, i’d be expecting a call righhhhhht about now. riddhima yahaan rahe na rahe, uski murti zaroor rahegi, which vansh and his next paramour will demolish together as a bonding/foreplay exercise.

#ishq mein marjawan 2 #immj2 #immj2 lbs #episode liveblogs

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onlygotafewdollas · 5 years ago

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cuddles w/svt

I was talking to a friend about being cuddle deprived and it got me thinking about this and now I can’t stop thinking about how much I wanna cuddle svt

Seungcheol

he’s broad as hell so u know those cuddles are about to make u feel SO safe

gently fiddles with your hair, strokes your head, etc. just LOVES that shit

rubbing soothing little circles on your thighs, shoulders, anywhere really

loves the feeling of having your head tucked in the crook of his neck so he can hold u extra close

or when u spoon bc it makes the top of your head easily accessible for kisses

just a big cuddly teddy bear ok

Jeonghan

will probably start a poking/tickle fight at some point if he gets bored

but let’s talk about the cute part of cuddling w/han

loves having your head on his lap or vice versa to play w/each other’s hair

also just loves when you’re sitting around and just. lay ur head on his shoulder.

lazy cuddles. mostly just your head on his arm lol. but like, in a cute way.

you two are absolutely falling asleep no matter what position you’re in and just when you think you’re safe he’ll start the tickle fight

Joshua

singing “sunday morning rain is falling” gently

the type to hum sweetly while you cuddle if you guys aren’t busy talking or he’s not busy singing “sunday morning rain is falling”

soothing arm and back rubs and cheek kisses to make you feel as comfy as possible

i imagine his voice would get huskier as you two get more comfy and he gets sleepier....yea u two are probably gonna end up passing tf out on the couch lol

likes having your head on his chest so he can stroke your hair

probably also going to start a poking/tickle fight at some point

Junhui

usually he’s bouncing off the walls, but when it comes to cuddling he will be calm at least half the time

bc when he wants a cuddle, he just. wants a cuddle. please give junjun his cuddles.

he’ll probably poke at your cheeks if he has access to them though bc he thinks they’re cute

if you’re telling him about his day he’ll listen intently but you know if you say something funny he’ll do that thing where he impersonates u and just won’t stop lol

otherwise, he’s kind of a vanilla cuddler, which throws all of svt off, but the boy just likes his classic, comfy cuddles.

Soonyoung

would at least wanna hold hands while cuddling, but is definitely handsier than everyone else

loves the feeling of having his hands under your shirt bc he likes the skin to skin contact, mostly bc it’s warm and comforting

he might get kinda shy about it and start rubbing circles into your skin...or it might go in a completely different direction but that’s a series for another time

probably enjoys being the small spoon every once in a while, when he’s not busy worshipping your body lol

would probably also enjoy laying his head on your lap or stomach

Wonwoo

also broad so. another boy to be feeling very safe with while cuddling.

might be a little self conscious about being skinny and could be afraid that he might not be very comfy to cuddle with

but i don’t actually think skinny ppl are that uncomfortable to cuddle with, you just gotta find the right way to go about it

probably the kind of guy to put a pillow over his arm for you to lay your head on tho, even if you insist that it’s fine

i think he would enjoy spooning a lot tho

would absolutely be the kind to have you sit in his lap while you two read or something

Jihoon

would not want to cuddle at all with the others around bc he knows he’ll probably get clowned, but at some point i’m sure he wouldn’t care about the clownery anymore

secretly loves cuddles but might not be the kind to always CUDDLE cuddle ya feel

like it’s more of you two just having one body part in contact with each other (like legs on the other person’s lap or something)

enjoys laying his head on your lap while he scrolls through his phone

in private, clinging onto you like a koala on a tree

Seokmin

idk why but he just seems like he has the sweetest cuddles. perhaps it’s because he exudes such a loving energy.

wants!! to!!! hold!!! your!!! hands!!!! and gently toy with your fingers, but mostly he wants to hold them for comfort

wants his head patted and hair played with tho if he’s not already busy doing that to you lol

humming. lots of humming. and soft singing. and sweet whispers.

also probably the kind to always want some sort of physical contact with u so even when you’re not actually doing a dedicated cuddle, he’s got an arm around u or something

just wants you to feel so loved

Mingyu

broad boy #3. like u know how in idol room after the swimming competition game. gyu just. goes and hugs soonyoung SO tight. imagine that.

his fav might be when you’ve got your head on his chest tho and his head is kinda bent and leaning on top of yours (does that even make sense lol)

either that or when you’re sitting up and he’s leaning into you between your legs. he likes feeling small. fight me.

either way he likes to have some part of you under his hands and will rub little circles into it (i saw a video compilation of gyu holding hands with the members and now i cannot stop thinking about it ok)

LOVES to have his hair played with if you’re in a position to do so

smol giggles. he just loves cuddling so much

Minghao

just. SO soothing.

we all know hao is kind of a romantic so i’m sure if he’s in the mood for cuddles, he’d be so sweet and gentle

perhaps one to enjoy laying with each other face to face so he can see you and talk to you

GIGGLES. CLASSIC CUTIE HAOHAO GIGGLES

one arm wrapped around u, the other busy holding up his phone to take cute photos

Seungkwan

please give him so much attention he’s like tinkerbell if u don’t give him attention and affection he might die

the softest cuddles with lots of little kisses

u know that thing where he just puts his head on the members’ shoulders? that. but like even cuter bc ur actually cuddling. imagine that on the couch while u sit in his lap. ur welcome.

actually spooning is probably the optimal position for his little head to rest on your shoulders. how cute is that.

it’d also be the optimal position for him to kiss ur cheek. heh.

Hansol

lazy, comfortable cuddles

like the kind where u just lay on top of each other and scroll on your individual phones doing nothing productive. probably sharing memes with each other.

but also sweet, caring cuddles

worships u. showers u with gentle caresses and the occasional kiss on your temples

u will probably talk for HOURS about literally anything and lose all sense of time

Chan

i think he would be a very protective cuddler????

like he’s always being babied by everyone so he would wanna baby you, and show you his adult side lol

just wants to hold you v close and give u gentle top of the head kisses

will probably end up giggling a lot bc of how giddy he is

also possibly another member that would start a tickle fight

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vyther16 · 4 years ago

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dolls with diamonds stuffed inside

chapter 1; chapter 2

whumptober 2020 theme 7: i’ve got you; prompts 1-3: support, carrying, and enemy to caretaker

Content warnings: (basically a repeat of last chapter) mentions of past torture, noncholance towards character’s own possible death, self-depricating talk, Yan Bingyun is not in a good headspace for this, frank talk about murder, brief mention of aphrodisiacs

Edits October 12, 2020: changed all instances of daoren to the correct daren

Glossary for ppl like my mum:

Ge-- older brother, informal.

Daren-- lord.

Gongzi-- young master, or a slightly more diminutive form of lord

xiaojie-- lady (lit. little big sister; used as lady in this context)

xiao-- little

Guniang--young lady, female counterpart of gongzi.

Lifts almost all dialogue from Episode 39 of Joy of Life, found on youtube. Credit for those words go to the wonderful translators there.

—start—

Yan Bingyun keeps his eyes on Fan Xian, waiting for the other man to turn on him. Haitang Duoduo is driving the carriage for him. The ninth ranked master who stands right hand to the empress dowager of BeiQi is driving the carriage for him, and Fan Xian looks absolutely nonchalant. There’s no way that he could truly be the envoy from DaQing.

Fan Xian’s gaze catches on his staring. “Why are you looking at me like that?” he asks, sounding vaguely affronted.

“Saintess is your helper. Do you really think I’ll believe it?” he replies. He’s not going to break because of a false rescue.

“Aiyo, again?” Fan Xian makes an exasperated sound, shaking his head.

“It’s too strange,” he protests. He means to continue on, but he’s cut off by a cough that rattles everything in his chest, knocking him forward. His ribs ache, a persistent burn that he long ago learned to ignore.

Fan Xian jerks forward, catching Yan Bingyun before he can fall and helping him sit back up. “Just rest,” he says, “don’t think too much.” He wraps his arm around Yan Bingyun’s back, light enough that it only grazes the wounds carved there. Yan Bingyun doesn’t think about how nice it is to have someone helping him sit up, even if that person is a traitor to DaQing.

Saintess calls the horses to a stop, and then someone pushes back the curtains and climbs in the back with Fan Xian and him. Yan Bingyun squashes the brief flair of hope that burns when Wang Qinian settles down next to Yan Bingyun. He reminds himself that Wang Qinian works for Fan Xian now, and Fan Xian cannot be anything but a traitor.

“ Daren ,” Wang Qinian says as Haitang Duoduo sets the carriage off again. “By your order, I went to ask Haitang- guniang for help, and she got you out!”

But Wang Qinian sounds exactly as Yan Bingyun remembers, even looks exactly as he remembers, and he can’t help but ask, “Wang Qinian, you’re really here?”

Fan Xian moves back to his original spot in the carriage as Wang Qinian answers.

“Yan- gongzi , long time no see.” He thanks Yan Bingyun for the information that won DaQing the war again. Yan Bingyun doesn’t know why everyone keeps bringing it up if they’re with BeiQi.

“You’re also with BeiQi now?” he asks, not really sure if he can take yet another betrayal of DaQing, but sure that he has to know.

“What do you mean?” Wang Qinian turns to look at Fan Xian, confusion written on his face.

Fan Xian waves a hand in dismissal. “Forget it.”

“The biggest confusion of the whole thing,” Yan Bingyun says, slowly, because he wants desperately for this to be real, for Fan Xian to really be the envoy, really be here to take him home, and he’s near-begging Fan Xian to prove him wrong, to prove this is real, prove Yan Bingyun is being too paranoid, “is why the Saintess of BeiQi is willing to help us.” If they want him to believe they aren’t with BeiQi, that is the biggest flaw in their narrative.

Wang Qinian grins, then motions Yan Bingyun to lean closer. “No wonder you feel confused,” he says. “Saintess, she is not helping us , she’s helping Fan -daren .”

Fan Xian glares at Wang Qinian as he leans even closer to Yan Bingyun, hiding his mouth as if they are schoolboys sharing secrets. “They serve different countries,” Wang Qinian stage-whispers. “But they do like each other.” Wang Qinian chuckles. “When a girl falls in love, she makes her love very big.”

Fan Xian cuts him off. “I can hear you even at a whisper,” he scolds.

Yan Bingyun considers Wang Qinian’s reasoning. It does make sense. Love can make people want to do foolish things. Though there’s one odd part. “How did they fall in love?”

Wang Qinian brightens. “Their story should be started with the aphrodisiac. Before--” Saintess drags him through the window before he can finish his sentence.

Yan Bingyun turns an incredulous look on Fan Xian. “Aphrodisiac?” he says. He didn’t think Fan Xian would stoop quite that low.

“It’s a mistake,” Fan Xian bites out, then looks away. Yan Bingyun stares at him a minute longer, then returns his gaze to the curtains. He settles into meditation, content in knowing that he’s unlikely to be hurt during the carriage ride.

He shakes himself out of meditation when the carriage stops again. The weight shifts as Haitang Duoduo jumps down, but Fan Xian doesn’t move to get out of the carriage, so Yan Bingyun remains where he is. There’s cheering outside of the carriage, then Saintess pats the side. “Back door,” she calls.

Fan Xian doesn’t seem surprised as Haitang Duoduo begins leading the horses. “There’s a whole line of people waiting to fight me, but they’ve got to fight Gao Da first. He’s been fighting people since we got here, only stopping to eat and sleep,” he explains.

Yan Bingyun doesn’t want to know what Fan Xian did to have so many people want to fight him.

The carriage stops again, and Haitang Duoduo sticks her head inside the carriage. “I’ll help you get him inside,” she says, as Fan Xian climbs out.

Yan Bingyun takes a last deep breath before following. He stumbles as his feet hit the ground, but two sets of hands grab his arms before he can fall.

“C’mon, let’s get you inside,” Fan Xian says, taking the lead. Saintess keeps hold of his other arm, and Yan Bingyun is pitifully grateful for the support. He knows he would fall if they weren’t keeping him upright, and he knows that this vulnerability will be used against him later. Weakness will be exploited. But he can’t bring himself to care.

Then a gaggle of ministers that he grew up looking up to rush over, calling his name. Haitang Duoduo steps back, but Fan Xian keeps hold of his arm.

Yan Bingyun stares at the faces of men he knows would never betray DaQing, then turns to look at Fan Xian.

Was this real the whole time? he wants to ask, but the words won’t come. Fan Xian seems to understand anyway, because he just purses his lips and gives the tiniest of nods.

The ministers crowd closer again, but then Fan Xian steps forward, waving them back like flies. “Enough, that’s enough,” he orders. “He’s injured, send him to my room! Talk later, let’s go.” He sounds so casual as the ministers take Yan Bingyun's arms and lead him across the courtyard. The two men fighting move out of the way at a terse command from Fan Xian.

The ministers carry more of Yan Bingyun’s body weight than his own legs do, and he’s pathetically relieved when they enter the room. There’s a bed in the middle of the side wall; they lead him there, and Yan Bingyun sinks down onto it as one of the ministers closes the door.

He closes his eyes, and lets himself believe, for just a few seconds, that this is truly real.

The ministers leave after a few minutes, letting him sit alone for a few moments before Fan Xian comes in and starts fiddling with the boxes on some of the tables.

Yan Bingyun resettles himself, reminds himself that he is still in enemy territory. “Most of the people here are from the Court of State Ceremonials,” he says. He’s taken off his outer robe, not knowing if he’ll get a new one. He doesn’t want to get bloodstains on his outer robes if he can help it.

Fan Xian sits down in front of a table. “As the diplomatic corps, it’s reasonable to have many of them,” he says.

“Are you really the envoy?” Yan Bingyun asks. That’s the most likely explanation now, with all of the pieces instead of just a few. A man who’d betrayed DaQing wouldn’t have so many state ministers with him in BeiQi. But that still doesn’t explain Haitang Duoduo’s assistance. Wang Qinian’s love story is plausible, but unlikely. And it doesn’t explain why Fan Xian had to hold Shen- xiaojie hostage to find him, instead of just waiting for him to be returned.

Fan Xian looks up from his vials. “Absolutely.”

“BeiQi agreed to let me go?” Yan Bingyun presses. The only thing they’ve learned from him is that he has a high pain tolerance. They haven’t learned anything about DaQing’s spies. BeiQi wouldn’t have agreed to let Yan Bingyun go so easily.

“We gave them who they wanted,” Fan Xian says, nonchalant.

Yan Bingyun racks his brain for who DaQing would have agreed to give up for him and comes up empty. “Who?” he asks Fan Xian, knowing he’ll dislike the answer, knowing that he has to know.

Fan Xian doesn’t look up from his work. “Xiao En.”

Yan Bingyun shoots to his feet, heedless of the pain it causes. “Exchanging Xiao En for me?” he shouts. “Stupid!” He pauses, chest heaving. His ribs ache. Yan Bingyun is not worth Xiao En, not unless DaQing has succeeded in learning his secrets, which he doubts. Xiao En is even harder to break than Yan Bingyun himself, and not for lack of trying. “Is Xiao En still under our control?”

Fan Xian rolls his eyes, looking back at his table. “To get you back, we gave him to Shen Zhong.”

“Did you know his secrets?” Yan Bingyun presses.

“No.”

“Don’t you know who Xiao En is?”

“Yes.”

“Then why did you return him to them!”

“To get you back!” Fan Xian's eyes flash. “I’ve told you!”

“I can die!” Yan Bingyun shouts. “How could you return a powerful enemy just because of me!”

Fan Xian purses his lips, cocking his head in a way that spells danger. “Your life doesn’t matter?”

Yan Bingyun takes a breath. One he shouldn’t have. “Since I’ve been one of the Overwatch Council, I should know, my life belongs to the state cause.” Everything is for DaQing. He pauses, then adds, “What idiot made this decision?” He isn’t worth Xiao En.

Fan Xian gives him what would be an impressive side-eye, if Yan Bingyun weren’t panicking. “His majesty and Chen Pingping.” He sets the last vial onto the tray and stands up.

Yan Bingyun processes this statement, tries to figure out why the emperor and the director decided that Yan Bingyun was worth more to them than Xiao En. Yan Bingyun, him, who was sent out of the capital in disgrace to be a spy in enemy territory and got caught, is not worth more than Xiao En. He pointedly does not think about the fact that he just indirectly called the two most important men in DaQing idiots.

Fan Xian transfers the tray to one hand, taking Yan Bingyun’s arm in the other. “His majesty said that Xiao En is old, while you are still young. This is a good deal.” He leads Yan Bingyun back to the bed, pushing gently until he sits down with a thump, still reeling from the new information.

Fan Xian stirs some of the medicine as he continues to speak. “His majesty told me to kill Xiao En on the way.”

Yan Bingyun jerks back to his feet, adrenaline dulling the pain of so much movement. “You were given an order,” he snarls. “Why didn’t you kill him?”

Fan Xian gives him a wide-eyed look. “Shen Zhong controls him now. How?”

Yan Bingyun glares. “The Overwatch Council doesn't find it hard to do anything!”

Fan Xian takes a measured breath, looking down. “Listen,” he says. “Shen Zhong is torturing Xiao En all the time. They’re the enemy. Xiao En can do nothing in the future.”

Yan Bingyun’s anger rises, covering the burn in his chest as he breathes and the ache in his limbs as he moves. “His majesty gave you an order. You must kill him!”

Fan Xian’s expression is growing more exasperated. “We’re in Shangjing. Saving you is already an adventure!”

“You’re just going to disobey your orders!”

“I can’t kill him,” Fan Xian protests. “What can I do? How about you go kill him!”

Yan Bingyun shoves past Fan Xian, grabbing for the sword he saw on the shelf.

“Hey! Where are you going!” Fan Xian exclaims, rushing after him. The vials on his tray clatter as he sets it roughly on the bed.

“To kill Xiao En!” Yan Bingyun snarls. If Fan Xian won’t fulfill a direct order from the emperor himself, Yan Bingyun will, even if it kills him. His life is DaQing’s. Everything is for DaQing.

“Are you insane!” Fan Xian blocks the door, arms spread. “How can you kill him like this?” Yan Bingyun doesn’t know if he is sane anymore, doesn't know if anyone could go through what he's been through and come out on the other side with some semblance of sanity, but he knows he must fulfill the orders of the emperor.

“It’s not important if I’m able to kill him or not,” Yan Bingyun returns. “The order must be obeyed!”

“If you go out like this, you’ll die before you find Xiao En!”

“I’ve already been dead,” Yan Bingyun snarls. “When I was caught!”

“How can you say death so easily!” Fan Xian snaps. “Have you thought about your family?”

His family? His mother is dead. His father has given everything to DaQing, including his own son. His family? Yan Bingyun wants to laugh. Not everyone is as lucky in their family as Fan Xian. Everything Yan Bingyun has, including his family, is for DaQing. He hardly thinks before he’s drawn his stolen sword, pointing it at Fan Xian’s neck. “Everything is for DaQing!”

His chest heaves with exertion, at least three of his wounds have started bleeding again, his ribs are burning pains in his torso, and his arms are shaking with the weight of the sword.

“For DaQing?” Fan Xian repeats, raising an eyebrow. “Don’t you know what price DaQing paid to save you?” he snarls, gesturing sharply, heedless of Yan Bingyun’s sword.

Yan Bingyun’s eyes widen. They traded him for Xiao En, he knows, but he isn’t worth Xiao En.

When he doesn’t receive an answer, Fan Xian keeps going. “Right now, you just let your life be taken by others. His Majesty said that you must get back to DaQing safely. If you die like this, we’re the traitors to our country.” He looks away, back, rephrases, “You’ll be the traitor. You! Traitor!”

Yan Bingyun’s breath stutters. He isn’t a traitor. He isn’t. He can’t be a traitor. He knows he isn’t a traitor, knows he would never dream of being a traitor. Everything he is is for DaQing. Everything he has ever been is for DaQing. Everything he ever will be is for DaQing.

Everything is for DaQing.

Everything.

He barely notices Fan Xian murmuring “for DaQing,” as he takes Yan Bingyun’s sword. “For DaQing, we should love ourselves very much,” as he takes the sheath.

Yan Bingyun’s breath heaves still, trying to understand Fan Xian’s words over the horror and confusion and anger swirling in his mind.

“Well?” Fan Xian says. “I promise I’ll find a chance to kill Xiao En.” Yan Bingyun barely has time to focus before Fan Xian has moved on. “By the way, the commander of the imperial guards is Shen Zhong. We can kill him together. Let’s make a disturbance in BeiQi. What do you think?”

Yan Bingyun thinks he needs a moment to process, but killing Shen Zhong sounds… nice, and they’ve been ordered to kill Xiao En anyway. He’s not sure why Fan Xian is asking his opinion, but… “How will we kill Shen Zhong?” he asks. He is the leader of the imperial guards in BeiQi. The two of them won’t be able to kill him without help.

“Work with others,” Fan Xian says, digging through the tray of medicines from earlier.

“Will Haitang Duoduo help you to kill a major official of her country just for love?” Yan Bingyun can’t think of anyone else who would possibly help.

“What love?” Fan Xian scoffs. “I’m gonna work with the emperor.”

Yan Bingyun processes this, then moves closer. “The emperor wants to remove subordinates of the empress dowager to gain power?”

Fan Xian smirks at him. “You really are an experienced spy. So smart to see it through,” he says, like he’s complimenting a five year old.

Yan Bingyun ignores this, needing to focus on something. “Tell me every detail,” he says, “of what happened after you came to BeiQi.”

“Alright,” Fan Xian says, not looking up from his work. “Take off your clothes and lie down.” Yan Bingyun hesitates, and Fan Xian sighs, holding up a bandage covered in medicinal paste. “I’m going to apply medicine.”

—fin—

a/n

I’m not quite as pleased with this chapter as I am with the last one, but there’s a lot of emotional whump in this one, so, cheers? I know I barely hit on the actual prompts for today, but Yan Bingyun is supported in walking across a courtyard and into a carriage and whatnot, so I hit the carrying and support buttons with that. Yan Bingyun also believes Fan Xian is his enemy at the beginning, but at the end, Fan Xian is preparing medicine for him and keeping him from running off and dying, so I guess that counts as Enemy to Caretaker. Idk, I kinda stretched it.

Fun story about this one: I edited it during Government class, and boy howdy do I have Thoughts about the governments in Joy of Life, and also the government in my home country of America. Although I will not share them because I cannot put them into eloquent words. Anyway, Yan Bingyun’s head was really hard to get into because I cannot imagine giving everything to my country. I can’t imagine being that patriotic. (See story last chapter about not standing for the pledge and incurring gov teacher's suspicion.)

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#whumptober2020 #no.7 #i've got you #support #carrying #enemy to caretaker #joy of life #qing yu nian #yan bingyun #fan xian #haitang duoduo #wang qinian #fic #fanfiction #tw:#torture #discussion of murder #self-deprecation

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diisenchvnted · 5 years ago

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KIERNAN SHIPKA, DEMIGIRL, SHE/HER. — looks like BEATRICE “TRIXIE” BELLEROSE is attending AURADON PREP in auradon. they're the NINETEEN year old child of THE ENCHANTRESS, which means they're from THE ISLE. heard they're ENERGETIC & CREATIVE, but can also be OFFBEAT & NAÏVE ; we all have our bad days. people normally associate them with RED PETALS FALLING OFF A BLOOMING ROSE, A CRACKED HANDMIRROR BY YOUR BESIDE, RUBY RED LIPS AND BIG BROWN EYES, WORN STUFFED ANIMALS SALVAGED WITH A POOR SEWING JOB. — hylia.

❛ it’s only me who wants to wrap around your dreams and... have you any dreams you’d like to sell ?? ❜ playlist. pinterest. to listen as you read. tws : mental abuse ( by a parent )

so hi again i am hylia and this is Baby. idk how long this one’s gonna end up eITHER bc my allergies are kickin’ my ass today and I should be resting but I cannot stay away from this group for that long. So yes !! pls continue reading for more info abt trixie bby here. i lov her.

HISTORY

The daughter of the Enchantress - yes , the same Enchantress that turned Prince Adam into a beast - Trixie never really understood why her family was stuck on the Isle. Since of course , the Enchantress only taught Adam a lesson , yes ?? It was maybe through more harsh means than one would think , but . . . she wasn’t a bad guy.

...Right ??

All Trixie knew was that this was the life she was given , and she had to suck it up and deal with it. And never one to really sit around feeling sorry for herself , she took it. And her life was pretty normal for an Isle kid , save for her mother projecting her anger at being thrown on Isle onto her child.

There was always a talk of showing them. Telling Trixie , One day we’ll show them what a real lesson is since they didn’t learn from last time. Excessively tutoring her in all things magic and enchanting despite the fact that powers like that actually terrified the child to her core.

But there was always pressure - and it only increased when it was found out the Isle kids were getting a chance. In Trixie’s mind , this was a new way to explore , a new opportunity for a brand new life - UNTIL Trixie’s mother decided it would finally be able to kick their plans into motion. All of that tutoring , all of the training that made it so Trixie never had many friends , couldn’t leave the house much - it would have to pay off.

Gifted with an enchanted mirror and an enchanted rose by her mother - exact replicas to the beast’s , the Enchantress gave Trixie an ultimatum to make sure revenge was sated : give the Beast’s family the same fate he once bore ( essentially , transform them all into beasts like he used to be ) by the time the last petal falls , or be doomed to become a beast herself.

And . . . that’s where she is now.

FACTS / CHARACTER

SO YES THAT’S IT - Trixie’s mother basically wants her to turn Belle, Adam , and their kids into beasts to get revenge or else Trixie’s gonna be the one turning into a beast if she doesn’t do it. And yes it’s fucking terrifying.

Nobody knows of this secret except for the two people involved in the deal - Trixie , and her mom. And by God Trixie does not want to do this.

And realistically , for RP purposes , I’m gonna inform you now that there is no way that the revenge is gonna be carried out. The Florians are fine. We all know she’s not gonna do it. But right now , since Trixie just got here and has that ultimatum , she doesn’t know that yet. So she’s struggling with a lose-lose situation since if she does do that , she makes herself an Auradonian criminal , and if she defies her mother and doesn’t , she becomes a beast and she has no idea how to undo a spell like that.

So yeah , just to clarify - nobody else really knows about this. Trixie keeps this deal hidden , and also hides the two items related to it in her closet ( the handmirror and rose ) so nobody finds them. Even though she routinely carries the mirror around with her and checks on the rose frequently because yes , its petals are starting to fall.

Which brings me to my next point - Trixie has AMAZING power , and essentially , later on in her life it’s destined that she’ll become the next Enchantress. But because Trixie’s magical prowess isn’t manifesting fully yet , aka - it’s not showing on the outside , she doesn’t think she has much of a talent with it. She doesn’t know her own strength yet.

And of course , her mother knows of this. Her mother knows she’s going to excel - but there’s both difficulties in keeping that a secret and letting her become aware.

She keeps it a secret right now - it’s in an effort to keep Trixie under her thumb. But this is also proving difficult for Trixie to carry out the revenge scheme due to a lack of confidence paired with her morals.

If Trixie becomes aware of her power , then that means she’s going to find out she’s growing stronger as her mother’s magic is waning - kind of like the deal with the Supreme in American Horror Story. Trixie’s power grows stronger as her mother’s grows weaker , but that isn’t showing yet in the former of the two.

So right now , Trixie is forcing herself to practice her magic to get stronger to appease her mother - even though honestly ?? She does not like magic. It terrifies her , and she blames her ability to use it for why her life kind of sucks right now.

To sort of make sure nobody is suspicious of her , Trixie doesn’t even tell people who her mother is. She just says her mother was a fling of Gaston’s banished to the Isle by association - that’s it.

And this is sort of how she’s managed to get a part-time job working in Ben’s castle as a maid to get close.

...Even though she really , really , really doesn’t like that.

But also !! One thing she has going for her is that despite everything - she is very outwardly FRIENDLY and optimistic - always smiley , always chatting up somebody up. This is sort of an effort to make herself feel better rather than put on a facade , since Trixie’s more keen on focusing on things that don’t make her feel sad to distract herself from the actual situation.

“Trix you’re in denial” “I know.”

Also this sort of influence her tendency to ignore or run away from situations as much as she can bc... mood.

Acting in her own world is very normal for her - and it’s a major coping mechanism. She’s very creative , obsessed with fairytales and stories and probably knows the whole story about your parents more than you do. She in fact writes some of her own in her spare time , always keeping a journal around with her for writing when she’s bored.

Also keeps a dream journal ( mR. ELECTRICDAD SEND HIM TO THE PRINCIPAL’S OFFICE AND HAVE HIM EXPELLED !!11!!1!!!!!! ) bc she is big into the belief our dreams have deeper meanings n stuff

She’s not the type to shy away from stuff tho in the sense of like... conversing about very out there topics or saying weirdass things that pop into her head. Sort of seen as a little weirdo for this but it all comes for the fact that Trixie is a HUGE thinker.

Also into the supernatural even on the slightly more malevolent side just bc she finds it interesting - she’s 100% the friend that proposes u guys try and summon demons during sleepovers

My lil weird baby

Looks rly good in green and red tbh and probably owns like forty-five different shades of lipstick since coming to Auradon

Also has a lot of rose-patterned/themed stuff just bc frankly it’s cute.

God as a character it’s so hard to describe her like... in words this sounds so pretentious but I do so much better showing and not telling bc her character is so complex in the sense that she’s. She’s like a dream. That’s the best way I can describe her - a dream as in the random , thought-induced , fantasy-like parts of dreams rather than the romantic parts of everything.

That probably makes no sense but. Yeah.

She’s weird I love her

Probably would do well in Wonderland if she didn’t have her mother lOOMING OVER HER HEAD

WANTED CONNECTIONS / PLOTS

OKAY SO PLSSS GIVE ME FRIENDS TRIXIE USED TO HAVE ON THE ISLE BUT SHE LOST TOUCH W/ FOR BEING SO... CLOSED IN

In general I just want friends that Trixie has that she can’t rly tell what’s going on with her. At all. And it breaks her heart bc she finally has the chance to fit in and get along with people but either way she decides to take her mother’s deal makes it so she can’t keep them.

Lots of secrets are gonna be passed about.

I’d lov her to eventually bond with sb so she can actually EXPLAIN her problem to and cry about it bc baby lowkey feels like she’s on her own in this and can’t turn to anyone for it

PPL WHO TRIXIE HELPS WITH WRITING BC SHE LOVES IT

Ppl who Trixie rly likes in any sense to point where she bases some fairytale characters in her own stories off of them

I’d also love some enemies pls gimme gimme gimme

Some ppl who suspect Trixie bc she seems so... vague. Like she’s not giving the full story.

Isle kids who know EXACTLY who Trixie’s mother is and for some reason resent her for tht bc I don’t think the Enchantress is the nicest magic user out there rn

Friendships that went sour bc Trixie’s been keeping so many SECRETS

First love who went sour for the same reasons : /

The general uhhhhh exes, crushes, that sorta stuff

Any ship that’s gonna b like a full on sHIP SHIP will have to b seen how chemistry works out !! But Trixie’s a panromantic asexual bby who I adore.

I’d love some folks she aCCIDENTALLY exposes her magic to and they can either

A .) Blackmail her n threaten to expose her for it

or B.) Find it RLY RLY RLY cool n she just shows them a bunch of magic... trix

hahaha HAHAHAHAHA

please clap.

BT ALSO LETS DEFFO BRAINSTORM SOME !!! again i’ll be making an official connections page for her like i am w/ luke but in the meantime ! lets plot !

#no graphic atm bc i can't b bothered i'm so sorry #usoa:intro #abt tag tbd #mental abuse tw

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So, I usually find comfort in God but I have this recurring problem where when I think about Hell and the fact that God sends people there to be tortured eternally I start to get this nagging doubt in the back of my mind about whether or not He is truly good and I'm worried this means I'm not really saved and I'm a false convert. Do you have any advice for overcoming this? I just can't wrap my head around the idea that sending ppl to hell could ever be just rather than cruel. Is this just me?

Dear anon,

A) Cruel or just.

“I just can't wrap my head around the idea that sending ppl to hell could ever be just rather than cruel. Is this just me?”

A lot of people feel this way usually it’s the unconverted who do not see the magnitude of the evil sin. A person is usually saved (not always) when they notice they are a totally depraved sinner that cannot stop sinning without divine intervention. The name “Jesus” was attributed to Christ because He promised to save His people from their sins not just from hell. In this life the freedom from sin comes gradually through sanctification. In an instant of the twinkling of an eye the saved will be made with new bodies that cannot sin. Not being able to see the reason for hell simply comes down to not being able to see the magnitude of evil in sin.

1. Who do we sin against?

Is it worse to curse a bug or a human? Is it worse to hate bugs or people? Is it worse to kill a bug or a human. In one way the reason sin is so bad is because God’s worth is far above our worth. The angels are before Him saying “Holy, Holy, Holy” every day with their eyes covered unable to even look upon Him. We are made in the image of God while God is Himself the one we are created to look like. How about this... Is it worse to burn a picture of someone or to burn that person? Maybe if we had a better grasp of the infinite worth and honor due of God we would see the magnitude of our evil. The extend of evil can be measured by the worth of the victim (be it picture, plant, bug, human or God).

Psalm 51:4 I have sinned against you—only against you— and done what you consider evil. So you are right in judging me; you are justified in condemning me.

1 Samuel 2:25 If anyone sins against someone else, God can defend the one who is wrong; but who can defend someone who sins against the Lord?” But they would not listen to their father, for the Lord had decided to kill them.

The devil likes to blind us to the worth and beauty of God. This has been his ploy since he cannot kill God. Instead it’s easier to destroy people’s perception of Him.

2. Is the punishment disproportionate?

It is normal for us to think it too severe if we have a man-centered worldview. Hell tears this humanistic down to see we are not the most important. Many have fancies the idea of aliens and the idea that we are insignificant and meaningless atomic arrangement. That drops to the opposite extreme of the supremacist of man. We are not worthless nor we are not most important. We view sin from the horizontal plane instead of both the horizontal and the vertical. In the bible Joseph did not ask “how can do do this sin against this man by sleeping with his wife?” instead he asked “how can I do this sin before God”. David was not sad he killed a man but that he sinned before God. I previously explained the way we sin against God.

Hell wakes us up to the fact it’s not all about us. We have made God into some man-centered image. So many people want to see God as a genie to see what God can do for them. They think God to be their servant who must come at their beckoning to answer prayers, make them rich, make them successful or so on. Some people literally say “pray for me I don’t think I have gotten all the blessings I can”. The mindset of so many people is how God can serve them. This is how people come up with the prosperity gospel where they think God just wants them successful, famous, rich, wealthy and healthy. The doctrine of hell it comes to the conscious to remind us that we cannot manipulate or minimize this Holy God. We can look to God for provisions but it must be done to His glory not our own.

3. What is the extend of evil?

The problem of sin goes much deeper than one might initially assume. Right now God is by His common grace restraining some of the evil in every one of us. In hell the restraints come off and people are their maximal possible evil without a conscious to keep them in check. God gave us our conscious to put a limit on human evil but once judgment day comes and we are at no risk of harming anyone all the evil will be demonstrated. In hell everything suppressed by our conscious will be unleashed and we will demonstrate the full extent of evil in our hearts. So much is the evil in the hearts of men that most people would never shown their face again if their thought life was projected from everyone to see. The sheer fact that we sin and have to battle not to think or do worse evil gives us just a taste of the evil within our hearts (and that is still restrained). The conscious is a gift from God to minimize evil on earth. This sin in the heart will only grow and last forever in hell.

2 Thessalonians 2:7 The Mysterious Wickedness is already at work, but what is going to happen will not happen until the one who holds it back is taken out of the way.

Proverbs 20:27 The Lord gave us mind and conscience; we cannot hide from ourselves.

Titus 3:11 You know that such people are corrupt, and their sins prove that they are wrong.

4. The cross.

We cannot even begin to comprehend “my God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”. On the cross Christ bore the wrath of God the Father against sin. Christ wasn’t sweating drops of blood and feeling like He may die because of the roman cross. He was overwhelmed by the wrath of His own Father crushing Him. He still suffered it all on our behalf to offer salvation for anyone who will allow Him to take their place.

B) Is God good?

“I start to get this nagging doubt in the back of my mind about whether or not He is truly good”.

What do you mean when you say good? Jonathan Edwards wrote on hell:

I shall use only one argument, viz. that sin is heinous enough to deserve such a punishment, and such a punishment is no more than proportionable to the evil or demerit of sin. If the evil of sin be infinite, as the punishment is, then it is manifest that the punishment is no more than proportionable to the sin punished, and is no more than sin deserves. And if the obligation to love, honor, and obey God be infinite, then sin which is the violation of this obligation, is a violation of infinite obligation, and so is an infinite evil. If God be infinitely worthy of love, honor, and obedience, then our obligation to love, and honor, and obey him is infinitely great. Our obligation to love, honor, and obey God being infinitely great, sin is the violation of infinite obligation, and so is an infinite evil. Once more, sin being an infinite evil, deserves an infinite punishment. An infinite punishment is no more than it deserves. Therefore such punishment is just, which was the thing to be proved. There is no evading the force of this reasoning, but by denying that God, the sovereign of the universe, is infinitely glorious.

I am to show that it is not inconsistent with the mercy of God, to inflict an eternal punishment on wicked men. It is an unreasonable and unscriptural notion of the mercy of God, that he is merciful in such a sense that he cannot bear that penal justice should be executed. This is to conceive of the mercy of God as a passion to which his nature is so subject that God is liable to be moved, and affected, and overcome by seeing a creature in misery, so that he cannot bear to see justice executed: which is a most unworthy and absurd notion of the mercy of God, and would, if true, argue great weakness. - It would be a great defect, and not a perfection, in the sovereign and supreme Judge of the world, to be merciful in such a sense that he could not bear to have penal justice executed. The Scriptures everywhere represent the mercy of God as free, and not that the exercises of it are necessary, as if that God cannot bear justice should take place. The Scriptures abundantly speak of it as the glory of the divine attribute of mercy, that it is free in its exercises, and not that God cannot but deliver sinners from misery.

It is most absurd also as it is contrary to plain fact. For if there be any meaning in the objection, this is supposed in it, that all misery of the creature, whether just or unjust, is in itself contrary to the nature of God. For if his mercy be of such a nature that a very great degree of misery, though just, is contrary to his nature... And then a less degree of misery is contrary to his nature, and a still less degree of misery is contrary to his nature. And so the mercy of God being infinite, all misery must be contrary to his nature, which we see to be contrary to fact. Mercy would be contrary to the nature of God if justice was contrary to the nature of God.

However strong such kind of objections against the eternal misery of the wicked, may seem to the carnal, senseless hearts of men, as though it were against God's justice and mercy, yet their seeming strength arises from a want of sense of the infinite evil, odiousness, and provocation there is in sin. Hence it seems to us not suitable that any poor creature should be the subject of such misery, because we have no sense of anything abominable and provoking in any creature answerable to it. If we had, then this infinite calamity would not seem unsuitable. For one thing would but appear answerable and proportionable to another, and so the mind would rest in it as fit and suitable, and no more than what is proper to be ordered by the just, holy, and good Governor of the world.

That this is so, we may be convinced by this consideration, viz. that when we hear or read of some horrid instances of cruelty, it may be to some poor innocent child or some holy martyr - and their cruel persecutors, having no regard to their shrieks and cries, only sported themselves with their misery - we have a sense of the evil of them, and they make a deep impression on our minds. Hence it seems just, every way fit and suitable, that God should inflict a very terrible punishment on persons who have perpetrated such wickedness. It seems no way disagreeable to any perfection of the Judge of the world. We can think of it without being at all shocked. The reason is that we have a sense of the evil of their conduct, and a sense of the proportion there is between the evil or demerit and the punishment.

Just so, if we saw a proportion between the evil of sin and eternal punishment, i.e. if we saw something in wicked men that should appear just as eternal misery appears dreadful (something that should as much stir up indignation and detestation, as eternal misery does terror), all objections against this doctrine would vanish at once. Though now it seem incredible, [and] though when we hear of such a degree and duration of torments as are held forth in this doctrine and think what eternity is, it is ready to seem impossible that such torments should be inflicted on poor feeble creatures by a Creator of infinite mercy. Yet this arises principally from these two causes: 1. It is so contrary to the depraved inclinations of mankind, that they hate to believe it and cannot bear it should be true. 2. They see not the suitableness of eternal punishment to the evil of sin. They see not that it is no more than proportionable to the demerit of sin.

It is reasonable that they should be sensible of their own guilt, and should remember their former opportunities and obligations, and should see their own folly and God's justice. - If the punishment threatened be eternal annihilation, they will never know that it is inflicted. They will never know that God is just in their punishment. And how is this agreeable to the Scriptures, in which God threatens, that he will repay the wicked to his face, Deu. 7:10. And to that in Job 21:19, 20.

By the end... If you mean good as in “He is unable execute justice if people suffer and must save everyone” then he does not fit your definition. God is however “unable to” look upon sin (by His nature).

Habakkuk 1:13 Thou art of purer eyes than to behold evil, and canst not look on iniquity: wherefore lookest thou upon them that deal treacherously, and holdest thy tongue when the wicked devoureth the man that is more righteous than he?

Meanwhile... if you mean God cannot sin, He cannot lie, He cannot break a promise, He is Holy, He is just, He delights to show mercy and He does love, He is wishing for reconciliation... Yes God is good.

C) False convert or not.

“I'm worried this means I'm not really saved and I'm a false convert”. Well let’s just start with a simple fact. Whether or not you are saved or not does not matter if you turn to God now in faith. God says “also now” and that today is the day of salvation (if you are not saved).

Joel 2:12-13 Therefore also now, saith the Lord, turn ye even to me with all you heart, and with fasting, and with weeping, and with mourning: And rend your heart, and not your garments, and turn unto the Lord your God: for he is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness, and repenteth him of the evil.

James 4:9-10 Be afflicted, and mourn, and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning, and your joy to heaviness. Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.

Ezekiel 33:11 Say unto them, As I live, saith the Lord God, I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked; but that the wicked turn from his way and live: turn ye, turn ye from your evil ways; for why will ye die, O house of Israel?

2 Chronicles 7:14 If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

2 Corinthians 6:2 (For he saith, I have heard thee in a time accepted, and in the day of salvation have I succoured thee: behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation.)

Deuteronomy 30:19 I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live.

Now I cannot tell you if you are a false convert or not since I do not know you. I can just say God made all the promises listed above and that He does not lie. I have never been disappointed by the promises of God. He is the one I trust the most above anyone. I have faith in Him and every time I stepped out in faith He came through.

The good news is you don’t need “Holy Spirit conviction” to be saved. That is you do not need to fully grasp your sin in order to be saved. One is saved by faith alone in the finished works of Christ not their level of faith or assurance. It’s who you trust not how much or how well you trust. A sturdy bridge is just as sturdy for the fearful person as the courageous one.

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You may be sad that you seem to either have little faith or assurance not knowing which one (at least right now). In that you doubted God’s trustworthiness. It’s called faith because you do not see His trustworthiness but you’re willing to “take a leap of faith”. Sometimes the assurance part comes after and you just have to step out and trust Him. My only advice can be to have faith.

It does help to develop a relationship with God to know Him. Prayer, sermons, testimonies and the bible can all help get to know God and his trustworthy promises. It’s easier to trust someone you know more. Feel free to see more on the gospel.

Let me know if you want anything else. Such as recommended sermons, more depths, good testimonies, parables or so on.

God bless!

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softspideys · 6 years ago

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Hang the DJ (Part II) (Tom Holland x reader)

summary: paired up by a dating program that puts an expiration date on all relationships, you and Tom soon begin to question the system’s logic

warnings: none

words: 1.8k

pairings: tom holland x reader

a/n: wow, I actually updated?? it’s a thanksgiving miracle!! I hope ppl still actually want to read this oops. also I apologize for making zendaya the equivalent of nicola but it had to be done somehow.

“I guess I just don’t see the point in something so short,” you said. You’d gone for a walk and were now perched on a grassy hill, looking out at a peaceful lake. Your date with Tom had been a few days ago, but you were still thinking about it.

“Even your reaction to a brief encounter provides the system with valuable information,” Coach said.

“But I didn’t even do anything,” you said, frowning. “Does the system think I’m a prude?”

“The system makes no moral judgments.”

“How do I know she wasn’t the perfect match for me?” Tom asked as he jogged through the park. Like you, he couldn’t stop thinking about your date, wondering why you’d clicked so well but weren’t meant to be together.

“Your ultimate compatible other has not been selected yet,” Coach said.

“I know, but like, what if it was her? What if—”

“The system gains insight as each participant progresses through numerous relationships and uses the gathered data to eventually select an ultimate compatible other,” Coach said.

“On your pairing day, yeah,” Tom said. “Does it always find your perfect match?”

“In 99.8% of cases,” Coach said.

“But I have to go through loads of relationships to find them,” Tom said slowly.

“That is correct.”

As you got up to leave the hill, your tablet dinged. “What’s this?” you asked. “Another relationship?”

As Tom turned around to start jogging home, his tablet dinged. “What, another?” he asked.

“That is correct,” both of your Coaches answered.

“Huh,” you said. You wondered what your date would be like this time. “I guess I should go get ready.”

Tom pulled the hem of his t-shirt up to wipe his face and caught a whiff of himself. “Ugh. I guess I should go get changed.”

★ ★ ★

When you arrived at the restaurant later that night, Coach informed you that your date wasn’t there yet. You sat down at a booth, different from the one you’d sat in with Tom, and waited.

A few minutes later, a man walked into the restaurant, holding his tablet and looking around. His dirty blond hair was tousled and wind-blown, and the bright blue of his eyes stood out even from across the room.

“Please, please tell me this is him,” you whispered.

“I cannot confirm identity until a personal introduction is made,” Coach answered, unhelpful per usual.

The man began to make his way over to you. “Hi,” he said when he approached your table. “I’m Harrison.”

“Y/N,” you answered, standing up to shake his hand and silently thanking all of the forces of the universe at work for pairing you with him.

“I like your hair,” he said as you took your seats.

“I like yours too.”

“Thanks, I grew it myself,” he said. It wasn’t a particularly clever joke, but you laughed at it for a few seconds too long. He furrowed his eyebrows. Shit. There was something about attractive men that made you nervous, although you couldn’t remember feeling that way with Tom.

“Sorry,” you said, immediately trying to form an about-face. “That was just . . . funny.”

“Gotcha,” Harrison said, nodding slowly. “Hey, do you want to check our expiry date? Get that out of the way?”

“Yeah, sure,” you said. The two of you pulled up the info and pressed REVEAL.

9 MONTHS

“Oh,” you said, trying not to look too thrilled. “Wow.”

“Well,” Harrison said, smiling at you. “Cheers to the next nine months.” He held up his wine glass. You grinned, clinking yours against his.

“Cheers.”

★ ★ ★

When Tom arrived at the restaurant, a beautiful but formidable-looking girl was already sitting in the booth. “Hi,” he said, nervously playing with the buttons on his jacket, “I’m Tom.”

“Zendaya,” she said without smiling. “You’re late.”

“Yeah, I’m sorry, I had to change.”

“Hmm.”

“Uh, I see you ordered already?” Tom asked, sitting down across from her.

“I got hungry,” she said, raising her eyebrows like she was daring him to find a problem with that.

“Right, yeah, of course.”

There was an awkward pause before Zendaya said, “So, should we just get it over with?” At Tom’s confused look, she said, “Check our expiry date?”

“Oh. Oh, yeah. Sure.” As they both looked at their tablets, Tom privately hoped their relationship would be another one of those 12-hour ones. This girl seemed a little too intense for him.

At the count of three, they both pressed REVEAL.

365 DAYS

For a second, neither of them spoke. “This must be a mistake,” Zendaya said with a disbelieving laugh. “It’s gotta be. Coach, is this a mistake?” Tom knew he should probably feel insulted, but he also kind of wanted it to be a mistake too.

“This is not a mistake,” Zendaya’s Coach answered.

Of course.

“God,” Zendaya said, sitting back in her seat heavily. “An entire year.”

“Look on the bright side,” Tom tried to joke as the waiter brought out his food. “Spaghetti and meatballs.”

“What?”

“Spaghetti and—it was a joke,” he finished lamely at her unimpressed look.

“Oh, so you make jokes,” Zendaya said flatly. Tom swallowed.

Only 365 days left.

★ ★ ★

“Hmm,” Harrison said as you entered the house you’d be living in for the next nine months. “Yup, this is pretty much the same as my last one.”

It was different from the one you’d stayed in during your short time with Tom: this one resembled more of a cozy log cabin, with exposed wooden beams, an open floor plan, rustic furniture, big, airy windows, and a huge stone fireplace crackling away merrily.

“Last one?” you said. “How many of these have you had?”

“Relationships?” Harrison asked. You nodded. “Well, let’s see . . . this will be my sixth, I think.”

“Wow.”

“Yeah. I’m a veteran now, I suppose,” he said with a grin. “Anyway, I’m going to go shower, do you mind?”

“No, not at all,” you said quickly. While he was gone, you went from room to room, taking everything in and getting used to the fact that for the next nine months, this was going to be your home. With Harrison.

When he came out of the shower with just a towel wrapped around his waist, it was to you sitting on the bed, looking around idly. “Hey,” he said, smiling.

“Hi.”

“So, listen, I know this is kinda forward, but this is relationship six for me. I’ve honestly found that it’s just best to have sex straight away. You know, it breaks the ice, gives a kind of glimpse into our compatibility.”

“Right, yeah,” you said. It was a miracle your voice still worked.

He picked up his tablet from where he’d tossed it on the bed. “So, this is me consenting to everything now. And whenever you feel comfortable doing the same—”

Before Harrison even finished his sentence, you’d grabbed your own tablet and pressed the button. He laughed, raising his eyebrows. “Okay then,” he said, and dropped the towel.

★ ★ ★

“Meatballs,” Zendaya grunted.

“What?” Tom said. They were currently in the middle of having some, admittedly, very boring sex. She hadn’t even wanted to do that much foreplay, or even really kiss. “Just put it in,” were her specific words.

“Meatballs,” she repeated. Tom was wondering if that was some sort of safeword (but how could it be? They were literally in missionary, his hands braced on either side of her head) when she sighed and said, “Your breath. Meatballs.”

“Oh,” Tom said, realizing she was talking about his dinner. “Sorry, I—”

“Talking does not help it,” she said, wrinkling her nose.

Tom closed his mouth and tried to mumble, “Sorry.” He turned his head and tried to concentrate on thrusting into her, feeling how nice and soft she was, and—

Suddenly, your face popped into his head. Tom blinked. Well, that was weird.

“Let’s just do it from behind,” Zendaya said, interrupting his thoughts.

“Huh?”

“From behind.” So, they switched positions, with her getting on her hands and knees and Tom kneeling behind her. He lined himself up with her entrance and pushed in slowly before pulling back out and sliding in again.

“Faster,” Zendaya instructed. “More motion.”

Tom tried to speed up his thrusts, holding onto her hips for support. “Um, like this?”

“No, more motion. Like, side-to-side. You’re all in-out-in-out like you’re trying to shut the drawer of a filing cabinet.”

Ouch. “Uh, okay.” He tried to do as he was told, and for the next few minutes Zendaya was quiet, her head bowed. That seemed to be a good sign. Maybe she was actually enjoying herself. “Is that better?” he asked hopefully.

“No,” Zendaya said finally. “Not really.”

★ ★ ★

You lay in bed, listening to the sound of Harrison making you some post-sex food. You were too spent to even get up and help him.

He hadn’t been lying when he’d said that he was a veteran with relationships. The sex had been incredible and pretty fun, too, full of jokes and whispering in between your soft moans and whimpers. He didn’t even mind letting you go on top, gripping your hips and staring up at you with his bottom lip between his teeth as you rode him.

If this was what the next nine months were looking like, then you certainly weren’t going to complain.

Oddly enough, as you waited for Harrison to come back, you found yourself thinking about Tom. You wondered what he was doing, if he too was in another relationship with somebody else. You hoped that whoever she was, she was treating him well.

Harrison returned with a plateful of toast, bacon, and eggs. “Nothing like breakfast at midnight,” he said with a smile. You laughed, taking a few slices.

The two of you ate in silence, both consumed in your own thoughts. Suddenly, a loud, wet noise brought you back to the present. You glanced over and saw Harrison eating a piece of toast, chewing loudly with his mouth open.

You furrowed your eyebrows. Okay, gross. But maybe he didn’t know he was doing it. Maybe the food was just hard to eat. But it’s toast, you said to yourself. Toast isn’t hard to eat.

You decided not to say anything about it. It was your first night together and you’d just finished having sex; now was not the time to be bringing up any potential annoying habits.

Later, you were still awake long after Harrison had fallen asleep. You lifted your head and saw one of his hands was on the mattress between you, palm up. For some reason, you thought of Tom.

Very carefully, you reached over and slid your fingers into Harrison’s. His hand tightened around yours as he let out a soft snore without waking up. You lay back and closed your eyes, trying to imagine Tom’s hand there instead.

But it still didn’t feel the same.

★ ★ ★

“So I can’t just walk away?” Tom asked as he gave the punching bag several good hits.

“That is correct,” Coach said. “One day it will provide you with your ultimate perfect match.”

“One day,” Tom repeated. “One day.”

#tom holland #tom holland x reader #tom holland x you #tom holland x y/n #tom holland fanfic #tom holland series #tom holland imagine #black mirror au #hang the dj #writing

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barista!Kang Daniel

Pairing: Kang Daniel x Reader

Genre: fluff, barista!Kang Daniel (sorta), bulletpoint-scenario

Summary/Extra: barista daniel but it’s kinda off track at times lool. Plz enjoy thooo

(actually wrote this bc i felt bad for writing ending 1 for regret so badly. accept my heart lol)

You started a cafe after graduating barista(?)uni

You employed a past classmate named Ong Seongwoo

You remembered him as Kang Daniel’s friend

Kang Daniel…..

wow

He was a mess

You were partnered up with him a couple of times in high school for projects and such but then WOWZERS

You see him at your uni

You don’t know how that happened since you actually moved out of town to go to the barista college, but you guess Daniel wanted to go there too

Small world

You hated Daniel bc he basically ruined your life

He would always somehow mess up your experiments whenever he was your partner

But for some reason all your teachers partnered the two of you together?????

Anyways

when you opened up your own coffee shop and hired Seongwoo, he had brought Daniel along with him

Daniel was employed at this other shop but he decided to quit since they weren’t paying him that well even if he had a barista license and all

With no choice you hired Daniel to work at your place

Tbh his coffee was amazing

Not too bitter and not too bland

It was perfect

He attracts way more customers than barista!Seongwoo

He has good skills and good looks

Who can say no to that?

He also looked

HAWT

When making coffee

Rolled up sleeves

With the brown apron around his waist

And when he’s focusing on a really hard recipe or something and all you can see in his eyes is determination

Especially when he’s creating a new recipe

OH GOSH

KILL ME NOW

The problem was that he was really clumsy

He broke the machines at least twice a week

Like how is that even possible!?

After the fifth time he broke it the last month, you decided to take the maintenance expenses from his salary

But that didn’t really do anything

About a week ago, you spent an hour putting up ornaments on the ceiling by the window

Daniel comes in for his shift and he’s always easily amazed by things and he touches the ornaments hanging down

You shout in surprise “WAIT! THE STRINGS ARE REALLY-”

Then the strings holding up the ornaments snap and they end up on the floor as shattered glass pieces

So much for that hour

He always says he’ll be more careful, but it’s always the same

Tsk tsk

You can’t really hate him tho bc he’s always so nice to you in general

And he won’t

STOP

APOLOGIZING

Anyway

You thought Daniel would fail in working

But you found out that he actually work really hard and manages to have a smile on his face whenever taking orders, serving ppl, and just everywhere/everything he does

You sorta kinda TOTALLY fell in love w/him and his personality

Even when his shift ends, he stays an extra two or three hours just helping you out bc he’s supposed to leave right before rush time

And he doesn’t want you and Seongwoo to be suffering from the impatient customers

So he stays extra but he ends up staying until closing time and helps you clean and close up the store

an angel i swear

Then he walks you home

SQUEEE

You always tell him to go home since it was always almost midnight and his shift starts at 6am

But he stays stubborn and insists he walks you home since it’s dangerous

Aww

And when you get home, he smiles his gummy smile, his eyes disappearing

“Good night, Y/N! Sweet dreams!”

Like girl how are you NOT head over heels for him yet

And you also noticed he stays in front of your house until some of your lights go on, knowing you’re safe inside

Do ppl do that??

I can’t he’s so sweet

He actually tries to walk you to the shop in the morning, but he just can’t wake up no matter how hard he tries lol

So he always beats himself up about his sleeping habits, but it’s all good

You wouldn’t want him to be falling asleep while handling hot coffee anyway

The day your small crush on him just shoots upwards is the day when your ex comes into the shop

You were at the register bc Daniel was packing up his stuff to get ready to go home (even if he was gonna stay till closing) and Seongwoo was running late as usual

Then in comes Minhyuk your ex-bf who cheated on you a few months back

You felt like you couldn’t function bc you realized Minhyuk was sort of a creep

thank goodness you found out about his true self b4 it went too far

He came at the time when there were no customers

and wow lucky you

No one else to be taking the register either

“Hey, Y/N…..What’s up?”

He does a sly grin and you feel like throwing up

Minhyuk notices it’s just you and him in the shop, so he uses that to his advantage

When Daniel hears “Get away from me!” from the employee room

He drops down his backpack and rushes out to see a guy, on the “employees only” side, seeming to harass you

And oh hoho

He ain’t having none of that

Daniel roughly pushes Minhyuk away from you and throws a punch at his jaw

You run up behind Daniel and pull him away b4 he gets too agitated bc Seongwoo once told you how Daniel shouldn’t be messed with and when he gets mad….HE GETS MAAAADDD

Daniel immediately calms down and turns around to ask if you’re okay while grabbing your shoulders, looking at your arms and face

You assure him like ten times that you’re okay and he turns back to Minhyuk and gives him the scariest glare that gives you chills

Daniel’s voice goes like twenty octaves deeper when telling him to get lost and never show up in front of you again

After that incident, you never saw Minhyuk again and you cannot stop staring how angelic Daniel is

So charismatic *squeals*

He likes you too, if you didn’t notice, and he accidentally confesses to you while cooing at some mistake you did

“OMG Y/N. This is why I love you so much!”

“....”

“....did I say that outloud?”

You start dating and it’s so cute

During your short breaks, Daniel whips up a latte and draws all these cute hearts on it since he’s really good at latte art AND making lattes

Daniel doesn’t even pack up anymore and works for the whole entire day

Getting more love AND more money

You should’ve given him that raise earlier

Girl what are you doing

Seongwoo always third-wheels now

“HOW DOES IT FEEL ONG? THAT WAS ME YA KNOW”

“SHUT UP, Y/N. CAN’T YOU TELL HOW BETRAYED I FEEL BY BOTH OF YOU!? DON’T TALK TO ME ANYMORE!”

drama queen!seongwoo plz

When you’re struggling to reach something in the upper cabinets Daniel always comes up behind you and gets it for you, making you blush

One time Seongwoo does it to you, as a prank, instead of Daniel and you freaak

Bc instead of Daniel’s cute smirk it’s Ong’s meme face looking down at you

But now Seongwoo doesn’t do those types of pranks bc Daniel lowkey highkey gets jealous

Did i mention Daniel smells like coffee?

I love the smell of coffee

When he wraps you in a bear hug b4 sending you in your home, a whiff of coffee hits you

Sometimes you wonder if he wears coffee scented perfume bc it’s oddly really strong

it’s weird bc Daniel actually doesn’t enjoy coffee and he drinks it like once a year

....

It shall remain a mystery

when guys kiss, he tastes like coffee

lol

and when walking you back home, you wear his sweaters

AND BOY OH BOY I WANNA WEAR HIS SWEATERS

I think this is pretty much it

I apologize for writing crap aka ending 1 for regret

So accept this instead aha

Hopefully

this

was

good and enjoyable

Byeee happy thanksgivinggggggggggggggggggg

#wanna one #wanna one scenarios #kang daniel #kang daniel scenarios #bulletpoint scenario #kang daniel fluff #happy thanksgiving everyone #thankful for all my followers:))#wanna one au #kang daniel au #barista!au #barista!kang daniel

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