#I'm starting to look like a young adult.

[fourfuckinghorsemen]

Being in a young body is weird.

[uncanny-tranny]

I love you smile lines and worry lines and grey and white hair and wrinkles and purple spiderweb veins and the process of aging and living in a body that is standing the test of times. I love you experiences that make you wiser and stories that make you laugh, and every little process that happens to get to the point where you have so many memories because you have the fortune to be here and be so radiant

[brown-little-robin]

okay, I'm crowdsourcing advice for a minute, so bear with me and please lend some words if you have any:

I want to get out of the house more. Like, on a regular basis. Weekly, maybe. Preferably, I would like to be interacting with people—the same people—every time, for... like... accountability, but also because I am hoping to put myself out there as the 21st century's most neurotic platonic Casanova. Uh. Making a friend or more out of this would be desirable. But I think if I go out with the intention of making a friend, I will be disappointed.

So. I want to go do something, for that something's own sake. I don't want to go be fake once a week hoping to get a friend out of it.

However, the beautiful state of Iowa is a bit cultureless, and I am too introverted and easily overwhelmed for this world (e.g. going to bars is probably not gonna be my thing). So.... I guess.... any suggestions? opinions? thoughts on making friends in general, or finding good activities as an introverted adult, in general?

oh yeah, also: I am poor. that's a factor. so. signing up a class or similar is not a great option right now.

what the heck, I'll add a silly poll for fun:

[mars-ipan]

some postgame doodles for pride month

[guinevereslancelot]

for the first time in my life i was just asked if i have kids instead of if i'm in college yet. the years start coming and they don't stop coming huh

[tskva-happens]

seems like so far the #1 enemy of the bg3 modding community has been... *checks note* age. just like... any signs of age whatsoever.

[vigorouslycoy]

i love saying young man and young lady and ma'am when i'm scolding people. it's like bruh but way cuntier

[beggingwolf]

why does no one talk about alex rider. that series had me in a chokehold through all of elementary school. when he "killed off' alex at the end of scorpia I fully went insane

[mint-mumbles]

Gonna use this image any time someone says something low key sexist about Sable (ie "she's showing too much skin" regarding a fucking bathing suit 😭🤦)

I don't hear you complaining about Spirit 😭

[ceiling-karasu]

Update on the Second Round of the shipping polls from January: Tomorrow

Since enough people really wanted round two, featuring polecules, I have finally managed to get around to it.

Since they are a lot of work, I am collaborating with sah-headcanons for this. Plus, it would be fun to have one of us do the Weasel Unit, and the other do Flower Hill!

[solpng]

back from my assessment

[astrxealis]

making myself suffer looking thru ffxiv stuff on tumblr when i could be playing ffxiv rn but i eternally love and miss ffxiv

[im2tired4usernames]

They stole any possible joy of motherhood I could have possibly wanted they stole my entire childhood they stole my teenage years my twenties and they continue to steal my future they won't be happy untill they've taken my whole life

[hiruzensux]

Can't decide. Hiruzen would treat you right in bed and cuddle and I bet that fucker kisses your forehead after proper wreckage. Danzo is sexy in a "bottom with issues" kind of way, there is probably some pleasure in wrecking him senseless. Homura is "sub without issues", on that note, same thing different thing. Koharu makes me scared. Kagami also makes me scared but he's more covert and it's less about physicality (oh she could stab me) but more psychical about this (he can manipulate and mindrape me). Torifu probs has best aftercare game. How am I supposed to decide.

yeeessssssssss thank you for sharing ur thoughts 💖 i feel you anon, these are all solid points.

i was for a moment like "hmmm idk if i'd say Homura's 'without issues' exactly" ...but in terms of their respective sexual presences, yeah that's accurate — Homura's like an extreme internalizer so everything's pretty well-contained, whereas Danzō's an *externalizer*, and i think his issues are kind of the star of the show in his sexual scenes XD but that's part of what makes him so fun

[sysig]

Thank you for voting! ♥ I’ll make the follow-up post in the next few days :)

[queen-mihai]

All of this, except I was thirty-freaking-nine.

I've been so used to being abused for "not wanting to do the work" that it has created this little red hot coal scorching my soul forever now. Because now I KNOW what it looks like when someone Just Doesn't Want To Do The Work

And it makes me want to take that piece of red hot coal from my soul and shove it down that person's throat

Because my parents, teachers, trainers, bosses, supervisors, friends, and PARTNERS have never been able to tell the goddamn fucking difference between them and me

As a kid, I wasn't taught any concept that there's a difference between wanting to do something, and enjoying it. I was a largely unsupervised kid with undiagnosed ADHD and parents who expected their kids to just raise themselves on their own. So when I was capable of spending hours drawing or reading a fun book, but couldn't even remember that I had homework, ever, I was told that I simply didn't want to do well in school. And who was I to question that, I'm eight years old.

Enjoyment and passion were the only forms of motivation I knew, and if I couldn't make myself either love doing boring math homework as much as I loved my hobbies, or force myself to push through things I hated with sheer willpower alone because I want to succeed so bad, then clearly I was simply not as good as all the other kids, who could do that. And that attitude carried onto adulthood. Every time I struggled to muster genuine love and passion into something, I thought that I just don't want it badly enough. Not to enough to love it, or to suffer through it.

Being medicated for the first time was a game changer. Like holy shit, so this is your brain on dopamine. And suddenly I wanted to do things, turned my life around, took up the passion career I had never dared to try. And when the first "honeymoon phase" of the meds wore down, the same fear came back - I don't like this anymore, do I not want it bad enough? What else could I possibly want?

And I shit you not I was literally 30 years old when I understood that life isn't just either loving every minute of pursuing a passion that you love, or joylessly dragging yourself through things that you don't even want to do. I can just tell myself "just because I don't like doing this doesn't mean I don't want to be doing it." It's not a mark of failure, weakness or lack of motivation, if sometimes the career you want to be doing just feels like having a job.