#I'm not even trying to be judgemental
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orengejoshi · 4 months ago
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Pregnancy as a kink makes me uncomfortable so man am I glad your pregg Flug stuff is explicitly not kink oriented!
yeah I... don't wanna judge anyone... but it's more than that, it's downright terrifying to me. Blame my hormones bc I'm expecting irl but wow... I'm very sensitive and it feels dehumanizing. but ig that is kinda the point of the kink(?)
it's so common in fandoms!
I'm completely vanilla anyway tho, so not surprising.
I've tried to pretend for a super long time that I'm into kink, but most of them are off putting and I consider them intrusive thoughts, not fantasies. I'm kinda fluctuating between sex-repulsed and neutral (aroace) even fictional... ig kink just isn't for me. I tried so hard to get over it. I know some people in my asks/requests are gonna be disappointed but I'm sorry💔
I'm slightly ashamed of how boring I am and I have serious trouble connecting to anyone in fandoms due to this actually🤕 feel like the most NT autistic person ever.
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anyway here's a doodle!
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crabussy · 7 months ago
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fuumiku · 11 days ago
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Demon AU (krkb)
+ bonus Kuro
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Kurokabuuu!! If Kabru gets to be naked then so does Kuro, equality for all 🔥Not to break the mystique but in that intro comic Kuro isn't flexing he's just pushing Mickbell away bc he about to be in business mode gdbdg. Was weird trying to make Kuro look more demony, did not work very well except for making him buffer but hey...! A black dog demon yeah yeah yeah...!
I have accidentally recreated Howl's Moving Castle... NOW HEAR ME OUT- The base concept for my satyr Kabru AU (the initial idea was the sketch where he has no horns haha) now turned demon AU was materializing Kabru's fear of anything monster, particularly his insecurity as a kid of being an incubus('s child and that making him a monster), and helping him work through it so he can love himself and others and the world better, but everything started clicking only after thinking about Kuro's role in the setting more. He's this feared dude with a witchy reputation and a lil rhyme about how everyone should stay away from him for their own sake etc etc, but he's not a demon just a dog dude really. The setting in this AU is much like Dunmeshi, but all monsters are called "demons" instead and tied with this concept of demonic not just monstrous, there's special generalized fear in them being kinda fundamentally evil. But they're just beasts, and sometimes just demihuman races, like Kuro. Magic does exist though, and curses, and yeah just a folk kinda vibe!
Kabru because he's become supernatural knows how to speak Kuro's tongue now too, or maybe he's always known it idk... But Kabru sought Kuro out because he's The demon guy around, thought if anyone around would know how to do anything about his having become a monster it'd be him- Mickbell is there too ig like waaa this innocent-looking (def isn't) human loves this demon and lives with him, alone but peaceful as hermits in the woods? Wah wild. Wah we can still have love?? Wah we can fall in love together and live happy monster lives even if ostracized??! Wah wait I'm not even a monster it was just my own latent magical powers cursing myself because I worried and believed myself to be a demon so intensely for so long?!! Wah we can truly have it all...... Growth feels so nice. Except Mickbell, that grown ass man is not finding inner peace yet. Still he's chill here since he's a side char not a main one
It's how Kuro's confident in himself despite everything being stacked against him, it's how he still trusts and likes himself, it's how he just wants a simple happy life and pursues what he wants, it's how he takes things simply... Self-critical Kabru always neglecting himself over obsessing about the greater good could learn from him........ Kuro is the only one after his transformation that unconditionally welcomes him and shows him compassion and it's all so confusing to him, especially since at first Kabru wouldn't even offer that same humanization to Kuro, only risked it out of necessity for his own circumstances, but he gradually becomes able to see the humanity in him despite his appearance, mannerisms, way of life and ideals, until he sees the humanity in him and himself too despite their appearances, until he finds there's nothing wrong in this routine and life of theirs in this isolated magical little place, until........... Just about accepting all of those fuzzy inbetween ways to be that are unclean and hard to understand from the outside, and growing comfortable in them and loving himself and kuro and the life they've made together.......!!!!!! What if through humanizing you I humanized myself... What if through growing a understanding for each other wevalidated ourselves, love as self-love...
I love including Rin into things, for a more plotty story it'd be neat if she tried and followed Kabru... He up and disappeared and she's a capable mage and she doesn't know what his plan was because he never tells her anything so she goes out and pursues him- Could even be the main antagonist besides just idk self-hate and townspeople lol, like she thinks Kuro is keeping him prisoner or something and also because she kinda represents the same kinda social trauma Kabru has, where she's strict about conforming and being an irreproachable undeniable human so she kind of wants to drag him back to that state he was in of anxiety over acting and being human enough...... But of course in the ultimate confrontation when she has her staff pointed at Kuro and they talk, she's hurt by him not confiding in her and thinking of her as someone who wouldn't help, but she understands and stops and yay happy ending :> And if we want them to be in this Holm and Dia may be allies I feel 🤔Like maybe they help out Kabru when they see him, help him escape their human village at one point or something, Holm is quite nice and cares for spirits and Dia's fled her home too so they kinda get it in a way, it'd contrast Rin... This isn't about the Laios party lol. Rin & Mickbell shenanigans would lowkey be fun like maybe Mickbell tricks Rin into thinking Kabru IS there against his will so she can take him away and the status quo of Mickbell not having to share Kuro with anyone is preserved, or maybe they just shittalk and grumble together. Gbdgd this is a plotline about accepting change and these two are noooot happy about it
So yeah he hates being a monster that's the schtick!! Won't a cool dog man pleaseeee turn me human again. Surely he can do that right. So he goes to live with this feared coolass magicky guy and that guy's little guy at his weird home and through making connections and self-love the curse you actually unknowingly put on yourself gradually lessens and disappears, but you don't care anymore because that's the point 😌 Which is why I call it a Howl's Moving Castle recolor gdbd
Kabru is usually the voice of reason within kurokabu so it's really fun switching the roles in that way. If you're just stumbling into this and are sooo confused first of all congrats on getting so far second I can't overstate how unironic this is + if you want more explanation about the ship I made a brainstormy manifesto here <3 Like, did you know Kuro's name is actually Yodan? He was likely called Kuro by Mickbell due to the language barrier. In this AU it's because no one's interested in him as a person so people just give him an ominous title that means black. But Kabru learning his name and Kuro willingly giving away that information and Kabru feeling the weight of it because he really thinks this'd allow him to control him (he can't actually control bc he's not a demon! No one's a demon yay! Just weirdo humans who get otherized)......
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Other vers because I 1) really like it and 2) am very indecisive. I overthink every single slight color change I stg lol
Sigh....... Like bro what if we were both so so far away from home and we knew we can't really go back and we've made our peace with that but man I miss not having been ripped away from my homeland and we are both so so isolated in our own ways in our presents and with a small yet gigantic gesture of compassion and of seeing each other we can learn and grow together with secret study dates where I teach you how to communicate the same way you're teaching me your language, we are both reaching across to each other we are both finding in one another a presence and humanity that feels so rare anywhere else. A sliver of warmth a sliver of home but also a sliver of the new, and embracing that things are changing and that we've changed and wow the animality within humanity and the humanity within animality!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey bro your humanity I am only now fully grasping and coming to terms with is so hot bro............ What if your beastly features ended up making me more comfortable in my own stinky human animal flawedness bro........ What if we could just be together reassured through each other that we're human enough no matter what and that's all we need to just be and wahhhhh aughhhhh
Kurokabu is Kuro needing to choose between Kuro and Yodan. Kurokabu is needing to feel comfortable in animality within humanity. What if we stopped repressing ourselves 🫶
#Dungeon meshi#dunmeshi au#kurokabu#kabru#kabru of utaya#kuro dm#Incubus kabru#Sort of but also not really#There's something in the marchil march sauce........ my art's thriving#I'm sick again though guys........... My household's playing hot potato#Also My Goodbye about kuro or even kabru goes kinda hard. Esp about the whole mick kuro situation n complacency idk was listening to it#One day you'll hear what I'm saying / One day you might understand / One day but not today / For after all you're Just a man#🔥This day you sever your own head🔥#Not relevant to demon au tho mickbell's just a lil rascal in this one.#I wanna write an unrelated krkb fic and then i'll prob lose steam for making krkb content for a while#OH ALSO THAT WHICH FLOWS BY AU LOWKEY....... Little tea boy Kuro and nobleman general Kabru with water trauma idk idk...#The quote “one might as well be trying to conceal the sky with their palm” from it goes so hard with them#Demon kuro looks like spiderman hm#Anyways isolation is a bog theme w them. Self-imposed for kabru n circumstances imposed for kuro. Which is why them learning#a language together is suuuch a big deal. Teaching each other their language that's sooo........#Drawing them is lowkey hard bc they're equally tall and equally buff how am I supposed to complementarily shape language this#Special shoutout to lucky-fy who is always in the dogman yaoi pit with me which i deeply appreciate & aatom87 who harasses me to commit#& finish my shit#Kabru x kuro#Kuro is so funny. 18 yo speaks like he has all the wisdom in the world. PLEASE do question your own judgement#... Which kinda parallels kabru actually hm#DON'T LAUGHHHHH runs away sobbing........
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amtrak12 · 4 months ago
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HELP! I've fallen down a Bering and Wells hole again and can't stop watching fanvids. I misssssss them!!! 😢
#I'm also thinking about a platonic Pete & Myka soulmate AU and all the bickering that would come with it#Like Pete trying to feel out what the rules are for him dating someone if she and him are soulmates#and Myka's like 'I literally never want to talk about who you have sex with ever'#“But-” / “NOPE! Just do whatever you want Pete!”#And then later as joke (but delivered completely seriously) she says she wants full approval of any serious relationship he has#And she'll be the one planning the proposal for him#(No no no! That's not happening.)#Actually! She might just play matchmaker for him too because she's not sure she can trust his judgement#... or his ability to make a good first impression.#“You wanted my input remember?” / “Not like that!”#And then even LATER when she meets Amanda for the first time she's like 'Wow that's your ex-wife? Man you really fucked up there."#“Yeah thanks for that Myka. That's very helpful.”#“No chance of winning her back?”#“Winning back my ex-wife who's about to be remarried? No I think that ship has sailed.”#“Yeah.... My ex girlfriend is a hologram now so at least this is a step up from that.”#“I never agreed to HG being your girlfriend.”#“.... Yeah but I wanted to.”#“.... Okay this is getting way too gloomy for a wedding day. We need to stuff ourselves with cake.”#Warehouse 13#Myka Bering#Pete Lattimer#Helena Wells#Bering and Wells#my fic#(I guess accidentally in the tags lol)#(idk I'm tired man. My head is all over the place today :P)
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auguryofjellyfish · 1 month ago
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me @ ken rn
#tetro danganronpa pink#blakewords#feeling like that one shellshocked shinji gif#peeps keep saying 'omfg what if hes already dead' NO. he is not jfc#no way there's no sign of him for more than 1.5 days 😭😭#'oh well at least without kamimura he'll have more screentime by himself and a chance to bond with others!' they said#my man without kamimura is a non-entity he doesn't gaf#'oh at least we'll see who he is when he's not in kamimura's shadow!' they said#my man is nothing and no one 😭😭 MY MAN IS THE TYPE IS TO HAVE 1 FRIEND and be like aight im good for life#he doesn't gaf about these other mofos who even are they 😭 he doesn't know them like who tf#my man is the type to know people casually for years and only say like 3 sentences to them during that time#'dont reduce ken to just kamimura' they said#HE doesn't care about anyone else but kamimura bruh...kamimura was the only one he truly liked bruhhh noooo#i need to see him i'm tweaking#ok just so yknow I didn't mean that ken is an apathetic prick that hates everyone and wishes they'd go to hell#obviously he cares about the others and their well-being he's a kind person#I meant that he doesn't care to try to form any interpersonal connections with any of them. Hes just not very interested#either that or it's just so hard for him that he doesn't want to try#there's a reason I kept yapping on and on about what he and kamimura had being easy soo many times#its not just the depression and grief when he's been like that since the beginning#This is not supposed to be a judgement or a criticism upon him lol I know who he is and I love him for it#not everyone can be a social butterfly#I'll be pleasantly surprised if he does manage to connect to someone else with the cast dwindling even further in chap 5
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smolstarthief · 5 months ago
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This is the only time I'm gonna even mention the whole leaking incident and that's it but my reaction to the bits and pieces I stumble upon despite my constant attempts at avoidance is the following:
Various fans: OMG THIS IS TERRIBLE! IT'S FORCED SHOCK VALUE! MY THEORY, MY HEADCANONS, ETC.
Me: Now hold up, let 'em cook... Like really let 'em cook!
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wayfinderships · 6 months ago
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Thinking about girlfriend,,,, Girlfriend pretty and sweet,,,I just wanna cuddle and kiss her-
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prismit · 10 months ago
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guess who had to get dragged out of the distillery, practically hanging onto their body by a thread. again.
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rosesradio · 6 days ago
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#not to be a bummer dude but like#gen z really is the lonliest generation and we're so screwed#it's so hard to meet people that want to make friends & people are judgemental but at the same time everyone is lonely it's so strange#any time there's an event people flake & like. genuine closeness in friendships is rare#i feel like all i do is listen to my friends or my sister and try to help but the second i talk about myself no one cares#i feel like it'll be hard to find people (or god forbid a partner) who genuinely like me because i'm so...out of place#i've always felt that way my whole life. too 'weird' for normal people & too 'normal' for weird people & generally a piece that doesn't fit#people would look at my insta like 'oh why do you only have 10 follwers' & it's like. sure you might have hundreds but do you talk to them?#do you know them?#i feel like even close friends these days hang out like once a month/every other month#i feel like. idk i want deeper friendships and relationships but everyone around me wants to drink and smoke and fuck and flake#my deepest hope is that it's an early 20s thing and not my generation's thing but knowing me we're just fucked#also there are the online friendships which i really appreciate but there's always gonna be that question of like#do you like me because i make the content you like? would you hate me if you met me irl?#and like. no one is under any obligation to like me or cater to me but i dunno. it's just kind of a bummer#post ovulation clarity goes crazy i hate it here#rose.txt#tw vent
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the-evermore-willow · 6 days ago
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i always have so much fun when people who don't know me that well start being negative about taylor. i love giving them my sweetest, toothiest smile and asking if that's so, and watching them squirm as it dawns on them that they're talking to a swiftie
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darthyolk · 5 months ago
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I've finally finished my first boss for my demon hunting game Judgement Nights! A guard dog for a much stronger demon, Grub keeps their secret safe and hidden from all mortal or demonic eyes
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dracimexidae · 12 days ago
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Watched the first 2 episodes and the only conclusion i got so far is that Sophie Okonedo is the real true QUEEN and i would gladly submit to her, she doesn't even have to ask ❤️‍🔥👑🧎
#wot#wot spoilers#i'm a little incoherent rn because i'm processing but the only sure thing is that i absolutely ADORE the way she acts and plays siuan#not a surprise ofc she was magnificent in the previous seasons as well but ugh gosh she's smashing it what an actress 🙌💘🤩👏#as for the rest i have to be honest i'm a little underwhelmed (even if ofc i know it's soon and i'm holding my judgement until the end)#especially about ep1 - idk i felt the vibe was a bit off after the battle in the Tower#too much smiles and “lightness” between the “kids” at the beginning of the episode#(idk how to put it ok a couple of conversations doesn't mean they are taking things lightly i can see they are all traumatised#and are trying to find a resemblance of normality and the life they used to have#maybe it was just too unsettling for me changing scene abruptly from the carnage at the beginning of the episode and the chitchat scenes#following right after 🤷) and ofc they had to rush things rushing or happening off screen like aviendha and elayne's relationship#i understand that the length of the seasons now forces the storytelling to hurry up and they can't deepen anything really#(how i hate this trend btw 8-10 episodes are often not enough to tell a story properly imo)#but i really hate to jump “in medias res” especially when they want to show me romance - and a queer one of all#while i still have to see rand and egwene interact romantically (or whatever that is)#or rand and lanfear (at least i had a little of nynaeve and lan) even if i know it is necessary for the plot#anyway i would have loved to see the relationship between elayne and aviendha start and blossom#i haven't read the books but as i understood it they will be involved with rand (ugh) in a romance#(i'm not even sure though if in the books the girls are involved romantically with each other as well#or they are just both into rand and he into them - ugh again if it's the latter - sorry i don't care about rand in general what can i say#what is it with me and not caring about white male protagonists recently - either be rand here or lestat in iwtv 😅)#but it's still better than nothing - at least it's one more queer relationship#anyway now i fear what they'll do with perrin and faile (btw the wedding ring conveniently breaking in the fight#sorry but i rolled a bit my eyes at that even if i know it's a sign that perrin will move on from layla-as he should be free to do i suppos#after his mourning but yeah i found it a bit cheap as expedient - ok today i'm quite quarrelsome 😅)#in any case ep2 was already better - finally more intrigues and politics#tbh i don't really care about romance plots i'm mainly here for the (women) scheming plotting and fighting#(and the intrigues and politics mentioned) 😁#there would be much more to say ofc but i'll ponder on it on my own without haste for now
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ochazos · 10 months ago
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// I'm getting the department transfer i wanted finally. I don't need to stay sitting right beside the racist woman that called me fat and is passive aggressive to me all the time anymore.
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bossthebicon · 1 year ago
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bruh the more time I spend in this fandom, the more I realize how much of a dinosaur I am lmao. I was recommended joong's tiktok of trying a filter called "thai babe" with a bunch of actors and. tell me why off wasn't there. gun wasn't there. tay-everyone's-favorite-fucking-tawan wasn't there. new wasn't there. singto. even fluke natouch. not even my baby gawin??? likeeeeeeee... not only was I upset bc I would've NEVER been happy with any of the results, but it made me feel SOOOOOO old like bruh, the kiddos & me truly stan different people 😂
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11-eyed-rook · 7 months ago
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"You don't look disabled/trans/bi/like a guy/sick/diabetic/mentally ill/neurodivergent/autistic/in pain"
*Fucking smacks you with my big paws*
#dorian speaks#for a lot of these it's just dealing with bigotry/blatant ignorance#and many people won't even listen to you if you try to explain#they'll just believe their own assumptions to be true#and as a result - they'll “suggest” things that are legitimately harmful/don't apply whatsoever#this has been particularly true for me being a T1 diabetic#and people not knowing how hugely different it is from T2 diabetes in most ways#like... T1 is something you couldn't HOPE to prevent if you tried and it can happen to literally anybody - it's AUTOIMMUNE#I don't have any known family history of ANY diabetes and I got it#people will assume I'm not “allowed” to take any spaces for the disabled#just because they don't see my disability (T1D... chronic joint pain... foot injury that won't heal due to circumstances... etc)#and people have specific beliefs of what LGBTQIA+ people “should look like” or whatever which is just... don't.#The “you don't look neurodivergent/autistic” shit is something a lot of people deal with#If you had seen me as a kid you'd definitely think I'm autistic (actually a lot of people did but only as a reason to bully me)#But like... do you expect me to act/behave/have the same experiences my ENTIRE life without ANY changes whatsoever?#You do realize people learn to cope/adapt to some stuff... right? The experiences will differ throughout life. Each person is different#Nobody bothered to diagnose me when I was still a kid and my country doesn't diagnose adults at all so... fun times being taken seriously#I won't “look” neurodivergent or even mentally ill because there's this little thing called MASKING#and I had to learn to do that to keep myself safe for much of my life (from judgement/abuse/etc)#which has brought its own challenges#People don't have to look/sound/behave/outwardly seem like they're something or dealing with something to be valid#Idk how to phrase any of this any better but I feel like a lot of this is stuff people have experienced to some extent
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mewrising · 8 months ago
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hhhh the fathom pose I like best is the hatchling pose but I don't want to have 80 million bajillion hatchlings in my lair ;o;
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