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Pregnancy as a kink makes me uncomfortable so man am I glad your pregg Flug stuff is explicitly not kink oriented!
yeah I... don't wanna judge anyone... but it's more than that, it's downright terrifying to me. Blame my hormones bc I'm expecting irl but wow... I'm very sensitive and it feels dehumanizing. but ig that is kinda the point of the kink(?)
it's so common in fandoms!
I'm completely vanilla anyway tho, so not surprising.
I've tried to pretend for a super long time that I'm into kink, but most of them are off putting and I consider them intrusive thoughts, not fantasies. I'm kinda fluctuating between sex-repulsed and neutral (aroace) even fictional... ig kink just isn't for me. I tried so hard to get over it. I know some people in my asks/requests are gonna be disappointed but I'm sorry💔
I'm slightly ashamed of how boring I am and I have serious trouble connecting to anyone in fandoms due to this actually🤕 feel like the most NT autistic person ever.

anyway here's a doodle!
#that's autism for you#I'm sadly really picky and easily grossed out by things#I'm not even trying to be judgemental#I wish I was such a person that is just chill with everything but I have more icks than likes#so my fandom experience is like 80% discomfort and trying to avoid things without shutting out the majority of content in the first place#from what I heard I seem to have this problem particularly in this fandom bc the series is horror.#and I ship a toxic ship.#but I neither enjoy horror nor this trope. so what the fuck am I doing here#how did I get here. I'm lost guys#but yeah; it naturally attracts more people that are into quite dark or hardcore things#and I'm just sitting here with my soft dick in my hand wondering where it all went wrong#i don't belong here#I can't relate to 99% of people#honestly? I just... like Flug....... I just adore the autistic scientist#and I wanna SMOOCH him but I can't identify too well with myself or thus my sona#so how the fuck am I gonna smooch and love on this man#I need SOME second character for this!!#well Black Hat is pretty cool and easier to draw than the rest; I like his design...#so here we are.#I'm not really in it with my heart. I don't understand the essence of this ship. I'm a fandom blep#that's why a lot of content is probably disturbing and upsetting as hell to me.#but that's just my theroy..... a Joshi™ theory#sorry for rant I am bored and tired😔#enjoy#villainous#villanos#dr flug#kenning flugslys#my art#ask reply
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#proving something. I feel like people are a lot less judgemental than we often think??#was bringing home a soft toy from a thrift store the other day and like.#I'm visibly not a kid right.#people were smiling at meeee or not giving me a second glaaance and a few kids looked delighted to see the soft toy even#anyway!! was curious!!!#listen to my gibberish boy#I know this poll is a little biased but I'm not trying to get an accurate representation of the general population#just!! trying to show that actually people don't need to be so afraid sometimes#if I saw someone carrying around their soft toy in town or on public transport#I would be DELIGHTED... I might even ask what its name is!!!
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Demon AU (krkb)
+ bonus Kuro


Kurokabuuu!! If Kabru gets to be naked then so does Kuro, equality for all 🔥Not to break the mystique but in that intro comic Kuro isn't flexing he's just pushing Mickbell away bc he about to be in business mode gdbdg. Was weird trying to make Kuro look more demony, did not work very well except for making him buffer but hey...! A black dog demon yeah yeah yeah...!
I have accidentally recreated Howl's Moving Castle... NOW HEAR ME OUT- The base concept for my satyr Kabru AU (the initial idea was the sketch where he has no horns haha) now turned demon AU was materializing Kabru's fear of anything monster, particularly his insecurity as a kid of being an incubus('s child and that making him a monster), and helping him work through it so he can love himself and others and the world better, but everything started clicking only after thinking about Kuro's role in the setting more. He's this feared dude with a witchy reputation and a lil rhyme about how everyone should stay away from him for their own sake etc etc, but he's not a demon just a dog dude really. The setting in this AU is much like Dunmeshi, but all monsters are called "demons" instead and tied with this concept of demonic not just monstrous, there's special generalized fear in them being kinda fundamentally evil. But they're just beasts, and sometimes just demihuman races, like Kuro. Magic does exist though, and curses, and yeah just a folk kinda vibe!
Kabru because he's become supernatural knows how to speak Kuro's tongue now too, or maybe he's always known it idk... But Kabru sought Kuro out because he's The demon guy around, thought if anyone around would know how to do anything about his having become a monster it'd be him- Mickbell is there too ig like waaa this innocent-looking (def isn't) human loves this demon and lives with him, alone but peaceful as hermits in the woods? Wah wild. Wah we can still have love?? Wah we can fall in love together and live happy monster lives even if ostracized??! Wah wait I'm not even a monster it was just my own latent magical powers cursing myself because I worried and believed myself to be a demon so intensely for so long?!! Wah we can truly have it all...... Growth feels so nice. Except Mickbell, that grown ass man is not finding inner peace yet. Still he's chill here since he's a side char not a main one
It's how Kuro's confident in himself despite everything being stacked against him, it's how he still trusts and likes himself, it's how he just wants a simple happy life and pursues what he wants, it's how he takes things simply... Self-critical Kabru always neglecting himself over obsessing about the greater good could learn from him........ Kuro is the only one after his transformation that unconditionally welcomes him and shows him compassion and it's all so confusing to him, especially since at first Kabru wouldn't even offer that same humanization to Kuro, only risked it out of necessity for his own circumstances, but he gradually becomes able to see the humanity in him despite his appearance, mannerisms, way of life and ideals, until he sees the humanity in him and himself too despite their appearances, until he finds there's nothing wrong in this routine and life of theirs in this isolated magical little place, until........... Just about accepting all of those fuzzy inbetween ways to be that are unclean and hard to understand from the outside, and growing comfortable in them and loving himself and kuro and the life they've made together.......!!!!!! What if through humanizing you I humanized myself... What if through growing a understanding for each other wevalidated ourselves, love as self-love...
I love including Rin into things, for a more plotty story it'd be neat if she tried and followed Kabru... He up and disappeared and she's a capable mage and she doesn't know what his plan was because he never tells her anything so she goes out and pursues him- Could even be the main antagonist besides just idk self-hate and townspeople lol, like she thinks Kuro is keeping him prisoner or something and also because she kinda represents the same kinda social trauma Kabru has, where she's strict about conforming and being an irreproachable undeniable human so she kind of wants to drag him back to that state he was in of anxiety over acting and being human enough...... But of course in the ultimate confrontation when she has her staff pointed at Kuro and they talk, she's hurt by him not confiding in her and thinking of her as someone who wouldn't help, but she understands and stops and yay happy ending :> And if we want them to be in this Holm and Dia may be allies I feel 🤔Like maybe they help out Kabru when they see him, help him escape their human village at one point or something, Holm is quite nice and cares for spirits and Dia's fled her home too so they kinda get it in a way, it'd contrast Rin... This isn't about the Laios party lol. Rin & Mickbell shenanigans would lowkey be fun like maybe Mickbell tricks Rin into thinking Kabru IS there against his will so she can take him away and the status quo of Mickbell not having to share Kuro with anyone is preserved, or maybe they just shittalk and grumble together. Gbdgd this is a plotline about accepting change and these two are noooot happy about it
So yeah he hates being a monster that's the schtick!! Won't a cool dog man pleaseeee turn me human again. Surely he can do that right. So he goes to live with this feared coolass magicky guy and that guy's little guy at his weird home and through making connections and self-love the curse you actually unknowingly put on yourself gradually lessens and disappears, but you don't care anymore because that's the point 😌 Which is why I call it a Howl's Moving Castle recolor gdbd
Kabru is usually the voice of reason within kurokabu so it's really fun switching the roles in that way. If you're just stumbling into this and are sooo confused first of all congrats on getting so far second I can't overstate how unironic this is + if you want more explanation about the ship I made a brainstormy manifesto here <3 Like, did you know Kuro's name is actually Yodan? He was likely called Kuro by Mickbell due to the language barrier. In this AU it's because no one's interested in him as a person so people just give him an ominous title that means black. But Kabru learning his name and Kuro willingly giving away that information and Kabru feeling the weight of it because he really thinks this'd allow him to control him (he can't actually control bc he's not a demon! No one's a demon yay! Just weirdo humans who get otherized)......
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Other vers because I 1) really like it and 2) am very indecisive. I overthink every single slight color change I stg lol
Sigh....... Like bro what if we were both so so far away from home and we knew we can't really go back and we've made our peace with that but man I miss not having been ripped away from my homeland and we are both so so isolated in our own ways in our presents and with a small yet gigantic gesture of compassion and of seeing each other we can learn and grow together with secret study dates where I teach you how to communicate the same way you're teaching me your language, we are both reaching across to each other we are both finding in one another a presence and humanity that feels so rare anywhere else. A sliver of warmth a sliver of home but also a sliver of the new, and embracing that things are changing and that we've changed and wow the animality within humanity and the humanity within animality!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey bro your humanity I am only now fully grasping and coming to terms with is so hot bro............ What if your beastly features ended up making me more comfortable in my own stinky human animal flawedness bro........ What if we could just be together reassured through each other that we're human enough no matter what and that's all we need to just be and wahhhhh aughhhhh
Kurokabu is Kuro needing to choose between Kuro and Yodan. Kurokabu is needing to feel comfortable in animality within humanity. What if we stopped repressing ourselves 🫶
#Dungeon meshi#dunmeshi au#kurokabu#kabru#kabru of utaya#kuro dm#Incubus kabru#Sort of but also not really#There's something in the marchil march sauce........ my art's thriving#I'm sick again though guys........... My household's playing hot potato#Also My Goodbye about kuro or even kabru goes kinda hard. Esp about the whole mick kuro situation n complacency idk was listening to it#One day you'll hear what I'm saying / One day you might understand / One day but not today / For after all you're Just a man#🔥This day you sever your own head🔥#Not relevant to demon au tho mickbell's just a lil rascal in this one.#I wanna write an unrelated krkb fic and then i'll prob lose steam for making krkb content for a while#OH ALSO THAT WHICH FLOWS BY AU LOWKEY....... Little tea boy Kuro and nobleman general Kabru with water trauma idk idk...#The quote “one might as well be trying to conceal the sky with their palm” from it goes so hard with them#Demon kuro looks like spiderman hm#Anyways isolation is a bog theme w them. Self-imposed for kabru n circumstances imposed for kuro. Which is why them learning#a language together is suuuch a big deal. Teaching each other their language that's sooo........#Drawing them is lowkey hard bc they're equally tall and equally buff how am I supposed to complementarily shape language this#Special shoutout to lucky-fy who is always in the dogman yaoi pit with me which i deeply appreciate & aatom87 who harasses me to commit#& finish my shit#Kabru x kuro#Kuro is so funny. 18 yo speaks like he has all the wisdom in the world. PLEASE do question your own judgement#... Which kinda parallels kabru actually hm#DON'T LAUGHHHHH runs away sobbing........
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HELP! I've fallen down a Bering and Wells hole again and can't stop watching fanvids. I misssssss them!!! 😢
#I'm also thinking about a platonic Pete & Myka soulmate AU and all the bickering that would come with it#Like Pete trying to feel out what the rules are for him dating someone if she and him are soulmates#and Myka's like 'I literally never want to talk about who you have sex with ever'#“But-” / “NOPE! Just do whatever you want Pete!”#And then later as joke (but delivered completely seriously) she says she wants full approval of any serious relationship he has#And she'll be the one planning the proposal for him#(No no no! That's not happening.)#Actually! She might just play matchmaker for him too because she's not sure she can trust his judgement#... or his ability to make a good first impression.#“You wanted my input remember?” / “Not like that!”#And then even LATER when she meets Amanda for the first time she's like 'Wow that's your ex-wife? Man you really fucked up there."#“Yeah thanks for that Myka. That's very helpful.”#“No chance of winning her back?”#“Winning back my ex-wife who's about to be remarried? No I think that ship has sailed.”#“Yeah.... My ex girlfriend is a hologram now so at least this is a step up from that.”#“I never agreed to HG being your girlfriend.”#“.... Yeah but I wanted to.”#“.... Okay this is getting way too gloomy for a wedding day. We need to stuff ourselves with cake.”#Warehouse 13#Myka Bering#Pete Lattimer#Helena Wells#Bering and Wells#my fic#(I guess accidentally in the tags lol)#(idk I'm tired man. My head is all over the place today :P)
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me @ ken rn
#tetro danganronpa pink#blakewords#feeling like that one shellshocked shinji gif#peeps keep saying 'omfg what if hes already dead' NO. he is not jfc#no way there's no sign of him for more than 1.5 days 😭😭#'oh well at least without kamimura he'll have more screentime by himself and a chance to bond with others!' they said#my man without kamimura is a non-entity he doesn't gaf#'oh at least we'll see who he is when he's not in kamimura's shadow!' they said#my man is nothing and no one 😭😭 MY MAN IS THE TYPE IS TO HAVE 1 FRIEND and be like aight im good for life#he doesn't gaf about these other mofos who even are they 😭 he doesn't know them like who tf#my man is the type to know people casually for years and only say like 3 sentences to them during that time#'dont reduce ken to just kamimura' they said#HE doesn't care about anyone else but kamimura bruh...kamimura was the only one he truly liked bruhhh noooo#i need to see him i'm tweaking#ok just so yknow I didn't mean that ken is an apathetic prick that hates everyone and wishes they'd go to hell#obviously he cares about the others and their well-being he's a kind person#I meant that he doesn't care to try to form any interpersonal connections with any of them. Hes just not very interested#either that or it's just so hard for him that he doesn't want to try#there's a reason I kept yapping on and on about what he and kamimura had being easy soo many times#its not just the depression and grief when he's been like that since the beginning#This is not supposed to be a judgement or a criticism upon him lol I know who he is and I love him for it#not everyone can be a social butterfly#I'll be pleasantly surprised if he does manage to connect to someone else with the cast dwindling even further in chap 5
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This is the only time I'm gonna even mention the whole leaking incident and that's it but my reaction to the bits and pieces I stumble upon despite my constant attempts at avoidance is the following:
Various fans: OMG THIS IS TERRIBLE! IT'S FORCED SHOCK VALUE! MY THEORY, MY HEADCANONS, ETC.
Me: Now hold up, let 'em cook... Like really let 'em cook!
#starchild rambles#ramblings#hazbin hotel#if you know you know#i've been trying to avoid them like the plague#idk if the stuff that was leaked is gonna even happen but I'd like to see where this goes tbh#honestly a lot of the backlash feels less like legitimate complaints and more like tantrums that their theories possibly won't be canon#they could be right to be fair but I'm gonna hold my judgement on whether it's bad or now#but yeah...#to the asshole leaker: eat shit and you deserved jail time#all in all I'm very intrigued!
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Thinking about girlfriend,,,, Girlfriend pretty and sweet,,,I just wanna cuddle and kiss her-
#pan gushes#I'm still all flustered over calling hwr my gf-afnsnfnd#(Though technically it would be wifeypon since Shulk is also Wifeypon by xb3 but shshshhh I'm still too flustered for that!)#👉👈 That's all I wanted to say#I just love her a lot#f/o: 🪽#I think the rest of the night I'll watch judgement. Maybe play some O.ctopath#(Speaking of judgement. Yes I saw that ask that was sent to me <3 Give me a while longer to respond though-#I get too AFKSBFKDNKF While reading it that I can't even write a proper response. I'll try to respond by today though ^^)
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guess who had to get dragged out of the distillery, practically hanging onto their body by a thread. again.
#placeholder art tag#dead cells#dead cells oc#charybdis knows about the whole “unable to truly die” thing (being in the same boat itself ofc)#but it'll still try to prevent the deaths of its fellow firey-headed travellers if possible. even despite its better judgement. lmao#oh yea also i'm changing its design a little (goodbye left arm! deoxys gen 3-4 sprite moment)#side note i really need to get faster at drawing LMAO this took way too long. also need to learn how to backgrounds. but i don't WANNA :(
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#not to be a bummer dude but like#gen z really is the lonliest generation and we're so screwed#it's so hard to meet people that want to make friends & people are judgemental but at the same time everyone is lonely it's so strange#any time there's an event people flake & like. genuine closeness in friendships is rare#i feel like all i do is listen to my friends or my sister and try to help but the second i talk about myself no one cares#i feel like it'll be hard to find people (or god forbid a partner) who genuinely like me because i'm so...out of place#i've always felt that way my whole life. too 'weird' for normal people & too 'normal' for weird people & generally a piece that doesn't fit#people would look at my insta like 'oh why do you only have 10 follwers' & it's like. sure you might have hundreds but do you talk to them?#do you know them?#i feel like even close friends these days hang out like once a month/every other month#i feel like. idk i want deeper friendships and relationships but everyone around me wants to drink and smoke and fuck and flake#my deepest hope is that it's an early 20s thing and not my generation's thing but knowing me we're just fucked#also there are the online friendships which i really appreciate but there's always gonna be that question of like#do you like me because i make the content you like? would you hate me if you met me irl?#and like. no one is under any obligation to like me or cater to me but i dunno. it's just kind of a bummer#post ovulation clarity goes crazy i hate it here#rose.txt#tw vent
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i always have so much fun when people who don't know me that well start being negative about taylor. i love giving them my sweetest, toothiest smile and asking if that's so, and watching them squirm as it dawns on them that they're talking to a swiftie
#some feel bad and are afraid they might have offended me and some are trying so hard to hide the judgement#either way the expressions are priceless#it just happened today again lol#it also makes me happy for non-asshole reasons#my younger self would never tell anyone except my best friend about any of my fandoms#because i was so afraid that people would think i'm weird/childish/nerdy#even people who i knew liked the same things at me because what if i don't like them in the right way or i like them too much or not enough#and now i do it even if i know they're gonna judge me beacuse their reactions are funny and im genuinely fine with whatever they might thin#at a party a while ago i heard a group of girls from my uni department complain about having their spotify wrapped ruined by pop hits#and i walked up to them and told them that i was a 0.5% taylor swift listener#the array of badly concealed horror and judgement on their faces#one of them literally wordlessly walked away from that circle#ts
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I've finally finished my first boss for my demon hunting game Judgement Nights! A guard dog for a much stronger demon, Grub keeps their secret safe and hidden from all mortal or demonic eyes
#I hope the notes help to understand what I was trying to go for hehe#Judgement Nights as a system hasn't really been tested by players yet. Just me.#I haven't played enough ttrpgs to know if something like this has been done before or not but something like it probably does lmao#think original fallouts if all of your allies shared one turn instead of being sorted into a turn order. If it was all just your guy's turn#And you had to balance using your AP wisely because whatevers left over you can use to counter the opponents turn!!#I hope that makes some sense I've been writing for a minute now and am kinda tired I'll probably go more in depth in another post#this post was supposed to be abt Grub but now its abt the combat as a whole woopsie :3#Grub needs just a bit more polish but I'm really happy I've gotten this far. Used to kinda be a far out idea but now that a Demons characte#sheet is right in front of me it feels almost surreal#First time designing a Tabletop game from the ground up and not basing it off an existing ip/ converting a video game into a tabletop#(even though its still very video game inspired taking a good bit from Devil May Cry)#indie ttrpg#Judgement Nights#ttrpg
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Watched the first 2 episodes and the only conclusion i got so far is that Sophie Okonedo is the real true QUEEN and i would gladly submit to her, she doesn't even have to ask ❤️🔥👑🧎
#wot#wot spoilers#i'm a little incoherent rn because i'm processing but the only sure thing is that i absolutely ADORE the way she acts and plays siuan#not a surprise ofc she was magnificent in the previous seasons as well but ugh gosh she's smashing it what an actress 🙌💘🤩👏#as for the rest i have to be honest i'm a little underwhelmed (even if ofc i know it's soon and i'm holding my judgement until the end)#especially about ep1 - idk i felt the vibe was a bit off after the battle in the Tower#too much smiles and “lightness” between the “kids” at the beginning of the episode#(idk how to put it ok a couple of conversations doesn't mean they are taking things lightly i can see they are all traumatised#and are trying to find a resemblance of normality and the life they used to have#maybe it was just too unsettling for me changing scene abruptly from the carnage at the beginning of the episode and the chitchat scenes#following right after 🤷) and ofc they had to rush things rushing or happening off screen like aviendha and elayne's relationship#i understand that the length of the seasons now forces the storytelling to hurry up and they can't deepen anything really#(how i hate this trend btw 8-10 episodes are often not enough to tell a story properly imo)#but i really hate to jump “in medias res” especially when they want to show me romance - and a queer one of all#while i still have to see rand and egwene interact romantically (or whatever that is)#or rand and lanfear (at least i had a little of nynaeve and lan) even if i know it is necessary for the plot#anyway i would have loved to see the relationship between elayne and aviendha start and blossom#i haven't read the books but as i understood it they will be involved with rand (ugh) in a romance#(i'm not even sure though if in the books the girls are involved romantically with each other as well#or they are just both into rand and he into them - ugh again if it's the latter - sorry i don't care about rand in general what can i say#what is it with me and not caring about white male protagonists recently - either be rand here or lestat in iwtv 😅)#but it's still better than nothing - at least it's one more queer relationship#anyway now i fear what they'll do with perrin and faile (btw the wedding ring conveniently breaking in the fight#sorry but i rolled a bit my eyes at that even if i know it's a sign that perrin will move on from layla-as he should be free to do i suppos#after his mourning but yeah i found it a bit cheap as expedient - ok today i'm quite quarrelsome 😅)#in any case ep2 was already better - finally more intrigues and politics#tbh i don't really care about romance plots i'm mainly here for the (women) scheming plotting and fighting#(and the intrigues and politics mentioned) 😁#there would be much more to say ofc but i'll ponder on it on my own without haste for now
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// I'm getting the department transfer i wanted finally. I don't need to stay sitting right beside the racist woman that called me fat and is passive aggressive to me all the time anymore.
#˗ˏˋ ooc. ⟶ ❛ faded reflections ❜#Finally some good news#This person talks so much that I was like socially drained every time I left work#And she is judgemental and gets on me for not being femme enough (I'm transmasc enby but can't present entirely open)#Called me fat#And nitpicks everything I do including trying to look at my phone when I'm on it#And she doesn't even help at work and ignores customers#I've been doing twice the amount of work as her while she acts like she's better than me all the time#And makes me feel shitty#I'm so happy I won't have to sit next to her anymore#I'm so glad my current manager saw how toxic she was#cw personal#Cw negative#I am nervous about learning a new position but it's less customer focused so it should be better
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bruh the more time I spend in this fandom, the more I realize how much of a dinosaur I am lmao. I was recommended joong's tiktok of trying a filter called "thai babe" with a bunch of actors and. tell me why off wasn't there. gun wasn't there. tay-everyone's-favorite-fucking-tawan wasn't there. new wasn't there. singto. even fluke natouch. not even my baby gawin??? likeeeeeeee... not only was I upset bc I would've NEVER been happy with any of the results, but it made me feel SOOOOOO old like bruh, the kiddos & me truly stan different people 😂
#axelle rants#gmmtv#I'm a grandma but the worst thing is that I know people who've been in the thai bl fandom since its inception... what does that make them 😂#I'm 24 years old babe I cannot ethically stan anyone who was born after 2000's. even 2000's is pushing it but. drake laedeke.#all the others that are below that I just look at them like an older sister fr#might be judgemental but I'll never understand grown ass bitches that lust unapologetically after 20 years old 😬#(anyways I would like to take this moment as a reminder that when bitches on here were trying to get me cancelled a couple years back-#-they called me a p*do for lusting after drake & calling him daddy when he's one year younger than me & was 20 at the time 🙃)#(no I will never let y'all forget the bullying I went through on here at a time when I was going through depression & tumblr was quite-#- literally my fucking lifeline 🙃)
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"You don't look disabled/trans/bi/like a guy/sick/diabetic/mentally ill/neurodivergent/autistic/in pain"
*Fucking smacks you with my big paws*
#dorian speaks#for a lot of these it's just dealing with bigotry/blatant ignorance#and many people won't even listen to you if you try to explain#they'll just believe their own assumptions to be true#and as a result - they'll “suggest” things that are legitimately harmful/don't apply whatsoever#this has been particularly true for me being a T1 diabetic#and people not knowing how hugely different it is from T2 diabetes in most ways#like... T1 is something you couldn't HOPE to prevent if you tried and it can happen to literally anybody - it's AUTOIMMUNE#I don't have any known family history of ANY diabetes and I got it#people will assume I'm not “allowed” to take any spaces for the disabled#just because they don't see my disability (T1D... chronic joint pain... foot injury that won't heal due to circumstances... etc)#and people have specific beliefs of what LGBTQIA+ people “should look like” or whatever which is just... don't.#The “you don't look neurodivergent/autistic” shit is something a lot of people deal with#If you had seen me as a kid you'd definitely think I'm autistic (actually a lot of people did but only as a reason to bully me)#But like... do you expect me to act/behave/have the same experiences my ENTIRE life without ANY changes whatsoever?#You do realize people learn to cope/adapt to some stuff... right? The experiences will differ throughout life. Each person is different#Nobody bothered to diagnose me when I was still a kid and my country doesn't diagnose adults at all so... fun times being taken seriously#I won't “look” neurodivergent or even mentally ill because there's this little thing called MASKING#and I had to learn to do that to keep myself safe for much of my life (from judgement/abuse/etc)#which has brought its own challenges#People don't have to look/sound/behave/outwardly seem like they're something or dealing with something to be valid#Idk how to phrase any of this any better but I feel like a lot of this is stuff people have experienced to some extent
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hhhh the fathom pose I like best is the hatchling pose but I don't want to have 80 million bajillion hatchlings in my lair ;o;
#it's such a weird grey area lorewise like#I want a lot of fathom characters who are like...adults#I don't just want a bunch of kids running around my lair it's hard enough to weave them into lore as it is with the ones I already have#but pretending lorewise that an eternal youth dragon is actually an adult feels like it would stumble into all sorts of wrong territory#like I'm not out here trying to pull the “this is an adult in a child's body” shenaniganry#I just like the pose :(#but even if I decided to canonically make them an adult how are they supposed to have like partners and stuff#the judgement of seeing their avatar in their partner's bio would be overwhelming#I don't want ppl to think I'm some sort of creep because that is 10000000000% nowhere near the intent#I guess I'll just have to buck up and add more hatchlings to my lore if I want to have permababy fathoms...#mew's musings
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