#I'm hella awkward!

[vextersworld]

It's hard being trans, bi, and poly sometimes. It really sucks when you're in a great relationship and the person you're with makes you happy, but you still can't help longing for something more. Something different. And even though you're partner is okay with there being another person in the relationship, they leave it all up to you to find the new person.

[the-cookie-of-doom]

currently plagued with thoughts of BabyGayPanic!Kim doing some research re: all the smut. Because liking Chay is swiftly turning into liking Chay, and wondering what other things he might like. After burying himself in 4 different VPNs and a burner phone, and checking his security three times before finally locking himself up in his recording booth (later considers maybe he could have done this in his room? In bed? That would be more normal, right? Except the room is Soundproofed and Safe and he's so embarrassed he forgets to get horny about it)

He's not a stranger to porn, okay? He's watched it before. Infrequently, because he's spent too much of his life on camera not to be a very harsh critic, and it all rings very false for him. (He does like amateur videos when he bothers, though. The angles are never good, and the sound/lighting are usually worse, but it's real at least)

This is different, though. Because it's all men, and it's for research, and it's something he might actually do? someday? hopefully? with Chay?

And nope, he can't do this, absolutely not. exits right out of that tab before the dicks even come out because his brain just turns itself off.

next time he sees Chay, though... Kim can't stop thinking about kissing him, and touching him, and wanting him, more than he's ever wanted anyone else before. He's kissed women, sure, mostly for the sake of music videos, had a couple dates. But none of those times made him feel half of what he does just thinking about kissing Chay, and it's kind of overwhelming.

It's really overwhelming. So much so that he just. Does it. In the studio. Because Chay is telling him he likes Kim and it's so cute and sweet and Kim's heart is hammering in his chest, and he's been starting at Chay's mouth nonstop whenever they're together, but pretending like he wasn't, but Chay has to know, and now he's confessing, and Kim's heard a lot of confessions before but never like this, and. yeah. it's a lot. So Kim has to kiss him about it. Except he's terrified about what will happen to him if he actually kisses Chay, so he kisses his cheek instead, for the sake of his own sanity. (Chay doesn't return it. Kim really wishes he would, but the hug he gets is good, too, pressing Chay's whole body against his own, soft and warm and it makes Kim feel soft and warm and wow, can they stay like this forever, maybe? Obviously not, but maybe?)

[campingwiththecharmings]

ever get the feeling some people are just...tolerating you?

[aithusarosekiller]

My sister reminded me today of smth I did when I was 12/13 that is...quite possibly the most embarrassing thing I've ever done and I've spent entire day trying to forget about it and convince myself that it made me who I was today but it is literally THE WORSTTT

and I know full well my mum remembers it too but I don't wanna remind her

So that's why I've been offline, I was trying to force myself to forget it

Sobbing

Putting it in the tags bc I just...have to tell someone or I'll explode

[i-love-side-characters]

WHAT THE FUCK?!?!!?!E>Q?EWLAJ

LESSO WAS IN LOVE WITH RAFAL NO THAT'S NOT TRUE WHAT

[rotisseries]

girl the what ttt

the narines bj ask. duh

[confinesofmy]

i was thinking surely i don't need to go pick berries every morning. like i must normally do that for the novelty of it, no? but no i just got another pint today. there are two bushes where i just stand in one place for 5 minutes at a time going from bush to bucket then step two feet to the side and do it again. i got contact dermatitis from the friction of completely non-irritating leaves and branches. i'm absolutely going to have enough berries for everything i want to make, no doubt.

[lesbianslovebts]

Me writing Juwon, who is autistic + OCD:

Okay, now what would I think or say in this situation?

[alteredsu]

What star sign are you and do you believe in the zodiac?

*.･ﾟ✧ I'm a libra ♎ ✧･ﾟ. *

literally one of the best star signs, were charming, aesthetic and charismatic, like natural flirts <3

Aldo apparently materialistic, indecisive, and easily influenced 😅

I do like astrology but idk about believe, like its a decent guideline but everyone is different and special

[forshadowing]

I really want to make friends, but it's so nerve-wracking..

[totallylulalutiacreations]

Lmao that's how i feel about most my Mutuals. I love making friends. Even if i'm standoffish, it's because I'm actually quite shy!

However, if you wanna interact with me feel free to! I won't bite :3. I'm just a weenie on toast.

[spoopy-sloth]

hey uhhhh i'm at a haunted airbnb

[illgiveyouahint]

The strategy for talking to my dad on the phone goes like this:

He asks how I am. I start telling him something absolutely meaningless, either about my job or about my flat. He at some point hooks on some detail of it all and starts rambling about his own experiences, and I know the next 20 minutes I can just tune out until it's time to say goodbye.

[matchamenace]

Anyway the more time passes the more I'm considering becoming a tattoo artist. Any mutuals have or know of anyone with experience in that field? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[multishipper-baby]

One of my college professors is making us edit a video as if we were a youtube and oh god do I hate the sound of my voice