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Could I get 8, 11, and 24 for Ethedis from the OC asks? 💚
8. "do they have a nickname? who gave it to them? if it's not derived from their real name, what's the story behind it?"
She usually just goes by Eth, or Ethe if you wanna be cute :3 oooh it would be adorable if Corunir had his own special little nickname for her though, but I haven't thought of one yet... I should get on that. I'd make one up now but I don't wanna force it, it's gotta be good, ya feel me?
11."what do they have in common with you? how are they different? would you get along with them?"
oh ok so that's a very interesting one!
as Ethedis is one of my oldest OCs, created by a much younger me, she was one of those that started out as a thinly veiled self-insert. But as I got older and changed in big and small ways, her traits stayed more or less the same, making her like a time-capsule of sorts. A window into what past me was like, or at the very least, the traits past-me saw as her most important/defining. Of course I've still tweaked and changed things, but the most fundamental parts of her have stayed largely the same. Fitting for an ageless elf don't you think, to remain eternally young and unchanged after all these years while I did not?
Anyway I would say she was created to first and foremost embody the sunshiny jokester with a heart too big for her own good I thought of myself as at the time, but seemingly without realizing it, I also wove a deep thread of loneliness into the background of her story that I didn't seem too keen on exploring until fairly recently. I mean, the elements were all there, a human love interest who's doomed to leave her forever, a family out of the picture before the first act of her story even began, a distinct lack of elven friends and a gnawing sense of 'otherness', it was all THERE but I was just like "haha we're not gonna worry about that today :) yay silly elf :) she is fine everything is fine :)" (look, I was a lonely autistic kid with exactly 0 friends outside of my sister and something adjacent to abandonment issues going on probably, but I wasn't ready to like, DEAL with that yet. Ethedis wasn't supposed to be sad!)
anyhow, we don't need to delve further into ALL THAT right now *hastily shoves my past back under the rug where it belongs*
Suffice to say, I think I'm a bit more comfortable exploring those elements of her story, and giving her a happy ending despite it all. Her best friend who loves her so very much fights for her to get into the same afterlife as him so she doesn't have to be lonely forever <3 because I said so and also friendship <3 (is it just wish fulfillment for my sad inner child? yes and that's probably cool and good. I will not take constructive criticism at this time thank u). Also she's a huge people pleaser who get incredibly demoralized when anyone is even slightly upset with her. that's one thing she still has in common with present me lmao
24. "do they have any creative hobbies? (art, writing, music, etc)"
Well of course! Most elves tend to pick up on at least one craft eventually. Of course Ethedis sings, tra la la lally elf and all, but it's not something she takes super seriously, just one of those things elves do to pass the time in Rivendell. I think she also dances, and that is something she takes more seriously (well not like it's a Serious™ activity, she's still having fun of course, but it's like she puts much more care into it?), but tends keeps to herself mostly. She usually dances in secluded places, away from anyone she fears might judge her skills for not living up to the legendary elven dancers of old, as she is acutely aware that despite all her efforts she is NOT Lúthien Tinúviel (in more ways than just this). So dancing is something she tries to view as Her Own Thing that she doesn't wish to let anyone into.
Well, except for Corunir that is. I don't know exactly when or where yet, but Ethedis is gonna invite him to dance with her at some point, and while it might seem like a small thing, to her it is very much a Big Deal. He tries his best, but he's inexperienced and a little clumsy, probably almost steps on her feet a couple times, but Ethedis doesn't care in the slightest. More than anything she's just happy to finally have someone she's comfortable sharing this part of herself with, someone who isn't trying to compare her to anyone else, someone who's just happy to be with her, dancing and laughing in the forest wholly content in each other's company. sorry hang on I'm gonna drown in my own feeling real quick. They're literally Too Cute I can't-
#sobbing sobbing sobbing I love them so much#Ethedis isn't the legendary Lúthien Tinúviel! she's literally just some girl!! some deeply lonely girl!!!!! she can't choose her fate!!!!!#I'm gonna explode!!!!!#AND WHEN SHE SUCCUMBS TO HER LONELINESS AND DESPAIR AT THE VERY END. HER BESTIE WON'T ACCEPT IT.#HE ARGUES WITH A GOD FOR HER. HE FIGHTS FOR HER WHEN SHE DOESN'T HAVE ANY FIGHT LEFT#SHE GAVE UP ON HER HAPPY ENDING BUT TOSSDIR REFUSED TO! HE WOU;DN'T LEAVE HER TO THAT!!!!!!!#I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#lotro#lotro oc#Ethedis#Tossdir#Corunir
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learning to love
#they make me so fucking unwell i feel so ill whenever i think about them#it's OVER for me i'm done#teen skk is going on my fucking suicide note thanks for everything asagiri#something something your bloodied hand in mind something something by you i am forever undone#something something to the world we may be villains but to each other we're two halves of the same soul#head in my fucking hands#sry for getting all emo i rewatched pmmm yesterday and i've been feeling existential about everything#i actually listened to the pmmm ost while drawing it saved me i love you yuki kajiura😍 (i died)#nothing like a haunting latin chorus echoing through my empty head while i draw tragic yaoi 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰#big shoutout to sis puella magica i had that one on loop for like two hours‼️#anyway enough about the doomed yuri anime back to skk#forget everything i said i actually hope they explode i'm sick of their asses#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd#chuuya nakahara#nakahara chuuya#osamu dazai#dazai osamu#soukoku#skk#posting at ungodly hours again this is gonna catch up to me 💔#lotus draws
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big fan of this genre of selfies.
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May all Aventurine wanters be Aventurine havers!! 🎟️
#hsr aventurine#aventurine#honkai star rail#aventurine fanart#PLEASE COME HOME MY WIFE#30 minutes left before i can pull i'm gonna EXPLODE#i hope everyone has chance with their pulls
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Team loserboy
#been feeling REALLY manic about gravity falls and by extension#this crossover#I've been quiet on here but my mind is constantly on FUCKING FIRE WITH THOUGHTS ABOUT SO SO SO MUCH#I feel like I'm gonna explode#i was just cleaning my desktop and I was like i may as well throw this on here#i'm currently cleaning these up and making character sheets for them#... dont tell anyone >:)#gravity falls#dipper pines#invader zim#dib membrane#billy gaobam#grim adventures of billy and mandy#billy is definitely the least loserboy here#but I've been mostly doing comms#that comes first
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just.. shart talking about wanting to grow flowers and be surrounded by colors because she's sick of darkness & lae slowly falling in love with faerun's flora over the course of the game... y'know..???
#shadowheart#lae'zel#shadowzel#bg3#baldurs gate 3#baldur's gate 3#my art#((thinking about them living together after the game's end and enjoying all of life's colors together OUGHGHOUH i'm gonna cry and explode))#((im sorry this has been driving me nuts for days it's way too yuri.....))
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toji sends you a pic of every stray cat he comes across whenever he's out and about because he knows you'd wanna see them too (he'll either simply send the picture or he'll add a text that just says 'cat')
#miji#😭😭😭😭😭😭#I'M GONNA DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THIS IS THE BEST THING EVERRR WHY HAVEN'T I THOUGHT ABT THIS BEFOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE#GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD#him adding the 'cat' is so funny#ashgdghsadfsghadfsa#i do that too😭😭😭#i love him so fucking much oh my god i'm going to explode#mickey is daydreaming#toji
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BOSS WAIT I'M HAVING AN ASTHMA ATTACK RN AND I'M LITERALLY POSTING THIS WITH A NEBULIZER ON MY MF FACE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 DON'T COME AT ME LIKE THIS MY BLOOD PRESSURE'S GETTING HIGH STOP 😭😭😭😭😭😭
#twisted wonderland#twst#pomefiore#vil schoenheit#i legit can't lose my shit rn or else the chord of the nebuliser's gonna wrap around my neck BWKFNKAJFKAKFKAJDKWK#CLAMLY STARING WITH BULGING EYEBALLS WHILE MY MOM EYES MY LIKE I'M ABOUT TO EXPLODE ANY MINUTE#i need aN oxYGEN TANK ASAP
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haha I think they're gay
#SUPERBAT AS KNUXADOWWWWWGUHUHUH#this is kinds rushed but I had to get this out so I can do other stuff (like not posting for another month😔#shut the fuck up who said that#man i acrually coulda done fucking better but like it's whatever the fuck#knuxadow#sonic fandom#shadow the hedgehog#knuckles the echidna#sonic fanart#my art#sonic#sonic art#sonic the hedgehog#I'm gonna explode#dc x sonic
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(Unseen Academicals, Terry Pratchett) I think Shang Qinghua and Ponder Stibbons should have tea and compare notes about somehow accumulating so much behind-the-scenes power by doing menial jobs no one else wants that they could basically run the show if they wanted...
meanwhile we have Shen "meh good enough" Qingqiu
#svsss#shang qinghua#shen qingqiu#sqh#sqq#cumplane#discworld#my art#sqq 100% knows how to delegate meanwhile sqh is here trying to run a sect a demon kingdom and juggle a bunch of secret conspiracies#his little rodent heart is going to explode from stress at this rate no qi deviation necessary#i'm gonna need to draw sqh more i really don't know what i want his design to be yet but i like him a lot#if anyone has any sqh drawing prompts send them to me i need some ideas to play with (WITHOUT SPOILERS THOUGH I'M ONLY ON BOOK THREE)#i was scrolling back to see the last time i had drawn cartoony cursing to remind myself which shapes i like to use and wow#it looks like it's actually been a while??? it surprised me because i really love drawing them#i laugh any time i see them in a comic#anyway what are the odds i reread unseen academicals again before the month is through? highly underrate pratchett novel imho#variations of this quote is actually used a few times in the discworld series i think but this is the one that stands out to me#when stibbons reveals just how much power he actually has at the university#*chefs kiss*#the wizards are so dumb i love them so much
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#Mr Alex I'm not gonna babysit him Claremont Diaz#Henry about to explode#firstprince#Red white and royal blue#Rwrb#Gifset#rwrbedit#Alex x Henry#alex claremont diaz#henry fox mountchristen windsor#Rwrb movie#Clowngifs#They screwed us over with the yellow ass lighting all over the
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chatt do we fw the basilisk one design ⁉️
#the power of two#tpot#one tpot#bfdi#traditional art#fanart#art#artists on tumblr#this isn't even a gijinka#fan design#character design#I CAN'T STOP MAKING FUNKY DESIGNS FOR OBJECT SHOW CHARACTERS#I'M HOLDING MYSELF BACK RN#SO MANY IDEAS FOR MY TINY BRAIN#I'M GONNA EXPLODE#i should rewatch bfdi ngl
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the best of enemies
#bsd#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#dazai osamu#chuuya nakahara#soukoku#skk#sketchy#if i keep looking at these i feel like i'll explode so i'm just gonna let them go#enjoy my brainrot <3
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The Dark King and his lieutenant 👑⚔️
I read the Dark Rise books and they're taking over my entire brain - so I had to draw Sarcean and Anharion
#Dark Heir's ending had me so distraught#I was SOBBING actually#and this is how I cope#I'll explode if the next book doesn't come out soon TT#I was originally gonna draw Will and James but how was I supposed to pass up on drawing the LONG HAIR#also the collar hehehe#i'm laughing like that wasn't the most traumatizing thing ever#Dark Rise#Dark Heir#sarcean#anharion#will kempen#james st clair#boraboop
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🌻 Metadede Week 2024 : Day 7 - Loyalty 🌻
I'M LATE but I really wanted to make something... These two goofs mean a lot to me. So here it is! Their life together!
Individual pictures under the cut.
#kirby#kirby series#meta knight#king dedede#metadede#mtddweek2024#bandana waddle dee#bandee#please god please don't let this be crunched too badly#if it is i'll try to provide some external link or smth#NORMALLY I'D RAMBLE BUT I'M IN A HURRY. I HOPE YOU LIKE IT !!!#i'll ramble in the evening reblog or smth#this one i'm gonna reblog at least twice i'm so proud of it#SORRY FOR NOT INCLUDING THE SUNFLOWERS IN THE PICTURE BOARDERS MY COMPUTER WAS EXPLODING#it is 8 years old and almost froze when i deleted an empty folder. so yeah#my art
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Arcane practice
#finally watched it!!#i'm gonna explode#leon s kennedy#leon scott kennedy#leon kennedy#resident evil#arcane#oc#oc x canon#fanart#art
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