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As a system with a lot of nonhuman and alterhuman members (hence our system name) our alterhumanity often affects our daily life and make many of us want to nest, or make us be able to make nonhuman noises, or even have individual scents. And as embarrassing as it is to admit to more "normal" people, it can affect sex lives as well, including some members going into heats or ruts or whatever equivalent they have. Which would all sound like a perfect mix-match of things to get us into the misceverse! But there feels like there's just this significant barrier between us and that community
That being just how heavily it focuses on people's sexes and ascribing certain personalities or dynamics or behaviors or what have you to being a certain sex or having certain sex characteristics. Even when it comes to people making it more explicitly queer there's still an expectation to believe that, say, it is "typical" for a certain sex to be more submissive and calm while another is more aggressive and territorial. And, even more notably, it's seen as fun and interesting, quirky even, new, for this to be treated as a fact of life. The idea that one sex could instead do the actions typically associated with another is queer and known to be unusual (even if the person is describing it as a Good and Interesting thing, they're still enforcing the idea that certain actions typically belong to another sex)
Which.. Is just Sexism 2! "Women cook and clean and are more quiet, demure, submissive and Men protect the territory and what is theirs (which includes their wives, being treated as possessions), they're sex-driven and aggressive" 2. "Women nurture and Men protect" 2. We want to go into animal care, we spend much of our time researching animal dynamics and behaviors for fun. But even if nonhumans & alterhumans often do not see themselves as human, we are still all people, and the idea that ascribing certain personalities/behaviors/traits/etc to certain sexes is okay and fun as long as they aren't human sexes is.. Blegh.
I don't quite like being kicked in the head even when the kicker has a paw instead of a human foot. Something being seen as "natural" or a part of being a nonhuman animal does not automatically make it good
We've had this issue with omegaverse as a concept in general as well, especially when it comes to the versions that focus solely on men. Obviously the point is to explore secondary sexes and not the primary ones, but if you were to replace "omega" with female (and yes, that word specifically, so you understand what I mean) and "alpha" with male suddenly the problem becomes a lot more clear with ascribing submissiveness and nurturing behavior to one sex and aggressiveness, domination, and protectiveness to another
Adding a third sex or even sexes that have a mixture of traits assigned to them doesn't necessarily get rid of this discomfort, as there's still the fact of the matter that sexes are getting assigned typical personality traits. Not to mention that within the community there's an expectation to say what your sex is, and to see the idea of others being able to instantly tell what sex you are as hot and fun. Even with queer labels existing to make the idea more expansive and inclusive there's just something that feels.. Off. About how inherent to the community the idea of certain sexes coming with certain personality traits and behaviors is. I'm not much of a fan of bioessentialism even when it has a coat of nonhuman paint over it
(Also, the wolf studies that alpha/omega/beta as concepts were derived from are extremely inaccurate studies that don't have basis in real life and we honestly wish that the idea of alpha males would die out already so people stop thinking it's a real thing. It hasn't been pleasant to run into in any iteration, whether in zoology, incel culture, or alterhuman communities)
#Sunrise.og#nonhuman#alterhuman#alterhumanity#suggestive#(due to the mentions of sex)#I won't put this into the m1sceverse tag out of respect so I hope it also doesn't come up in searches.. Ah well#I do feel as if I'm bringing up a point that should be discussed in the community at least#And people are free to tell me if I've gotten something wrong or if there's an aspect I'm overlooking#I also must disclaim that I have no problems with the misceverse as a Concept nor with people simply coming up with words that describe how#they live their lives#Like said we also experience many of the same behaviors!#But we wish we could have the community without the discomfort#that comes with people ascribing certain sexes as having certain personalities and behaviors#Like said I don't like it coming from humans so I'm not a fan of it coming from alterhumans either#If you agree with the fact that female and male are nothing but the words we came up with to describe combinations of sex characteristics#And that they have no bearing on an individuals personality or behavior outside of how *society* raises them due to *ideas* of what#Someone born with those characteristics should act like (not to even get into how this affects intersex individuals)#Then you should also agree that those ideas should not be perpetuated even when talking about sexes outside of female/male#So sorry to followers and friends who will be jumpscared by this post on their dash#I'm crazy I'm insane etc etc
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Blood sticks, sweat drips Break the lock if it don't fit A kick in the teeth is good for some A kiss with a fist is better than none
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wait what do you mean a red string of fate ties us together but all we do is strangle each other with it. what do you mean this string can only stretch and tangle but never break and yet we keep biting and gnawing on it to try to free ourselves from it anyway.
#taimizu#mizu x taigen#taigen x mizu#taizu#blue eye samurai#mizu#taigen#there was an attempt#i love that my last art of them is super soft and warm and tender and this one is them at their most toxic#i must stress that both of these are important to their dynamic <3#early taimizu = toxic crazy insane#late-game taimizu = soft yearning tender sweet growing together etc#at least that's how it is in my delusional mind bcs lbr taimizu are NOTTT capable of tenderness YET#but their scene together in the forge is proof that they do have potential to be soft and playful and happy together <33#but anyway this post is not about that. this post about them both being feral murderous bitches who get turned on by violence <3#lol i keep saying it but it's TRUE so i'll say it again—they HAVE the range honey!!!!!#ok i'm done
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anya + flinching at loud noises and sudden movements (vs dmitry noticing, adjusting his behavior, and becoming a source of comfort)
#anastasia broadway#anastasia#my gifs#my edit#dimya#christy altomare#derek klena#my guy is like yeah i break the law every day but i draw the line at touching anya without her consent#he's like yeah i'm tough and heartless. omg honey are u okay <33 it's just a loud sound ur safe <3 anyway what was i saying#but yeah.#will always be so so so crazy about the nonverbal narrative of anya having a bit of trauma with touch/sound/etc and dmitry clocking it#and then making sure his intentions and movements around her are extra clear#makes me insane!#in case u couldn't tell ashldjfk (see: 10k fic from like 4 years ago)#anyway idk if other anyas played it this way but this was something i noticed from christy right away#obsessed with the way she played her like this#the complexity u know
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grif's surgery but just a little more... obvious?
I actually rly rly ADORE frankengrif but I don't have an in-show reason why he'd have extensive long-term allogeneic skingrafts on his face 😔
#rvb#red vs blue#dexter grif#grif#*24#mine#art#cw wounds#Look I love biology stuff like this so I like researching what would be at least semi-plausible even if it's just for a dumb halo show that#makes 0 sense where CPR cures a headshot but i cant help it!!! and like the 'lazy' reason for it would be sarge is just crazy like that but#its not a good reason imo. and like the things he lists needing replacement are mostly internal and body parts which makes sense#considering how grif got injured by sheila like I could 100% see that rupturing organs and crushing his hand and there being burns etc#but like nothing points to grif needing any surgery above the neck and i dont think anyone mentions his face being different? i could#make up injuries for him but nothing in the show actually supports that he'd need grafts for anything but his body..#I'm SOO ready to be convinced otherwise btw like I said I want an obvious frankengrif to be true so bad !!#AGH would it be too insane of me to make like a surgery/injury overview thing for grif just so i can convince myself abt this idea...#i can bend to some fun stuff tho im not a total joykill u know! thats why i give his body the mismatched donor skin look despite allogeneic#grafts not being permanent w/ current tech. like it really doesn't matter if it's realistic or whatever but also Yes It Does.#and like during/after chorus would grey offer to 'fix' it? i imagine the feds could mesh a skin so they could use grif's own skin..#or like during rats nest when they got reassigned?
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we sang in the aeroplane over the sea tgth ☆
#27% circle line with a lovely friend of mine rail tracks screeching etc etc u know the usual. im just gonna write down memories#a few weeks ago my friend read thus spoke zarathustra by the fire to the music she was dancing it was her silhouette#against the flashlight lit up gold and royal blues and tiger's silk i tried not to fall in love with her. in bordeaux we searched#for pomegranates he sent her 300 quid by the beach she cut it open with a knife her hand covered in red we each had a taste of her work#sweet red wet the sweetest grit. too barely clothed to go into the cliffside church they painted my eyes we painted hers#8 shots of gin she screamed joyfully IT'S ALIVE! at the book she said become the child i said i feel like a monster she said i was insane#i tried to believe her. fortified wine and later a red pen crossword defiled by humidity her hair in my hands two king sized beds#pushed next to each other she took her top off she told us to watch her arms raised up the musculature on her back was precise cut from#marble we saw oceans we saw the birds take cold baths the midnight sun over a wasp-infested pool our chemicals in their bodies#gold flakes dark skin gold cross shoulders against mine drawing some form of each other on the train i didn't hesitate#to say her eyes were beautiful over and over monks at the soapshop with titanium credit cards i loved you like i loved no other#he tied his hair up and walked us into the river he held a bullet between his lips i never held his hand he said what an honour#you own too much capital your mother thinks i'm a natural i realised i haven't told my mother i loved her in years she's always been mother#never mom i'll watch you watch seaweeds this is terminal akrasia i'll feel your fingers smear perfume on my lips your girlfriend grins#bite into the straw take the shot hold my hand get it all wrong draw in the sand kiss him right stab through leather shower in chlorine#you're the determinable vicissitude is all yours we won the Game AND the Battle AND the War i'm proud of you like crazy we feed each other#saffron cliffside lovers well-fallen brothers fat cats blue windows southwest sun ALife SynBio design aXAA grow us a city in silico#we've grown to the ends of glee fire-jumper ocean-eater sure-footed lists on lists hands on eyelids не устану искать тебя#...anyway ive put my face on this blog b4 but hiii again#feel free to rb btw the rants r not personal
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#NOT DISCOURSE /#It's insane how close this fandom came to making me hate B*ddie#I had to create distance and filter all that shit out because I don't believe in letting people ruin a ship/show/character/etc for you#because that gives total strangers way more power over you/your interests than they deserve#but whewwww#There was a solid two or so months where I just had to remove myself from all things Buddie because god... y'all were annoying#I'm still annoyed. Not mad just irritated by many many things#But. Yeah. That was crazy#Wild times#/ NOT DISCOURSE#jack.txt#tv: 911
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the way i know it's taking everything in him not to say some ridiculous comment to the press rn 😭
#like this man cannot talk to the press right now#he knows he'd say something crazy :')#the strength lmao#listen...i made a whole rant in some tags about this yesterday#but tldr: i did NOT expect his camp to be making a fuss like this so soon?#we know he was willing to wait until jj got done#i just assumed that would extend to next year#since the cap will go up and i'm sure average WR APY will go up#but it's looking more and more like he wants the new contract now??#which i'm all for!#and the bengals should be too! but uh we aren't GREAT at making the most efficient business moves#fascinating to see how this is gonna go#i'm sure he won't hold out the whole camp#1. he wants to be out there and he wants to work (and he wants to beat the chiefs week 2 probably more than he wants any money in the world#2. he's got 2 more years on the his current deal#so holding out won't really accomplish much#and i do just want to emphasize i'm sure a deal WILL get done#i just assumed the timeframe was next year?#and probably it still is?#but i guess ja'marr/his agent are just seeing if they can make one last big push to get it done this year?#(aka getting kelsey and schefter etc to bang the drum for him in the media)#(because HE certainly can't do it without saying something insane)#haha look how i said tldr earlier#i obviously didn't mean it i never mean it#y'all know i can't shut up to save my life about this man#ja'marr chase
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now that i've taken in the entire show and am about to rewatch simply because i can............... i'm so pissed that dave erickson got fired because damn........
#i just think that s4 would have been insane.#i presume frank still would have wanted off the show and so naturally that chasm dave built between maddie and nick would've been... yea#idk- i think it would've been good tv. maybe. he doesn't talk too much on it but he says enough to give an impression.#i'm also inherently biased because he also said madison was the one character he saw making it all the way to the series finale#which ultimately. she does. but the story would have been much different for her. she would've felt More Madison#additionally.. of course there are characters born from the switch of writers that i'm glad we got and may otherwise have not got but....#i'd pay a pretty penny to have been able to see what dave had in store for the characters we had with us at the end of s3.#and to see what he would have done with 3b had he not wanted to wrap up certain loose ends of his creation before his departure.#the first 3 seasons of fear are the best ones. imo. for so many reasons. which i think had a lot to do with dave.#he separated ftwd from twd in big ways that i'm not going to get into but so much got jammed in s4-s8 that. it felt like the new writers#were mostly trying to pay homage to twd than to the characters and the story lines that made fear what it was. y'know.#the entire tone seemed to shift in the show. they subjected it to all the crazy time jumps. etc etc etc. which works in some ways on twd bu#they didn't do the same service to ftwd.#maybe that's just me.#dave Got the vision.#and i think it would've been really beautiful to get to see him ride it out (even if for another season or two)
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if I could draw humans well it would be so over for you guys
#i've made this exact post before but i'm making it again now#because I'm thinking about Mouthwashing. So much. that fucking game is sitting in my head so . aggressively#i mean how could I NOT. It's got the unreliable narrator and horrific tragedy combo. i'm insane i'm crazy. etc.#but. UHRGHH. Hhhrgh...#humans. hard.#hhrgn. me when. i hope this hurts. /ref#clamtalk
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i really need to stop taking on building projects in VS that are more ambitious than my abilities and attention span. anyways if you need me i'm trying to compare aerial shots, the immersive walkthrough 360 pictures, and google maps pictures of the winchester house to figure out the floor plan of the house when the winchesters bought it
#hya talks#i'm insane i'm crazy asylum asylum etc#yuo see if i build the house as it was when it was purchased thats less work says the guy whos been doing this for a few hours now#see my vision tho: recreating the original house means i have a do it yourself mystery house and thats so fun! :)#this isn't a dupernatural thing this is a i'm obsessed with evil houses in or tangentially related to connecticut thing
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yeah it's important to create a character who's flawed but likeable, realistic, interesting, dynamic, etc. but the most important part of creating a character is asking yourself: will the people of www.tumblr.com go insane about them?
#one day i'm gonna self-publish my insane sci-fi novel series and y'all are going to go crazy over my main characters. we have:#1. telekinetic middle aged woman who is a menace. she is just so pathetic. her self-loathing is off the charts. i would die for her#2. evil lesbian scientist. she's consumed by ambition and it's so sexy. she & her gf have a bit of a macbeth/lady macbeth thing going on#3. wife guy with no wife. half his personality is just worshipping all the cool interesting female characters he interacts with#there are some really cool side characters too including:#mc 1's unofficially adopted autistic daughter who has one of my favorite arcs in the whole series#3 separate female antagonists who are just. so awful. i love them.#mc 3's work bestie/romantic interest who's seems like a stereotypical pinterest mom but is also a badass fbi agent#a group of underground agents called the crayola gang. all their pseudonyms are colors. crimson maize azure emerald etc.#ugh i just love this story so much. i'm so excited to be writing it again 🥺❤️#i wrote 2500 words yesterday & i'm on track to write about the same today 😤#m.txt
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the longer i sit with it the more it really gets me how nobody ever really mentions obito and rin before obito's reveal in shippuden. kakashi vaguely mentions his old friends and i think other characters allude to the tragedy of kakashi's past but rin and obito themselves are lost to time. something about that is so fucking haunting and so gutting. you would think it would be a pretty big deal that two kids from the same class died within a year of each other, but the nine tails attack probably wiped so much clean that nobody could really carry the grief... still, when we see their class in flashbacks, we recognise almost everyone else, so... there's something really sad and hopeless about their absence...
there's a lot a LOT to say about it from a lot of different angles and i don't really feel like going into meta posting territory i just have big feelings about it you know? and to me i guess obito encapsulates a lot of the anger. for the people who get left behind and forgotten. and that can mean a lot of things
#two of my classmates died on separate occassions in short span of time in high school and i wont claim that grief because#i didnt know either of them well but i did feel a lot of anger and overwhelming hopelessness. that life keeps relentlessly going on#even when people get left behind#it feels so unfair and so painful... there are so many more aspects to it though as well#like people who are left behind in other ways due to circumstance or class or race or etc etc- often a combination of those factors#and obito as a kid reminds me a lot of a good friend i had when i was little who was late to class every day#because of those outside circumstances#and again someone in high school who i was late WITH every day. because ya#and i feel very big about that. and about rins death as something so fucking preventable#the tragedy also of baby teacher minato who was so so not ready to be in charge of anyone. but. that's something else#anyway i guess i just really feel a connection with that anger and despair#sorru was watching niji and felt fucking insane about it#obito and rin are like two sides of one thing. maybe of one person. of one concept#part of why i'm so so crazy about obito being trans is because i see him as also using rin's memory as a conduit for#his anger and grief about his own lost younger self. hence: baby obito is also a little girl#i think they are best friends. its so important. idk none of this is wider narrative meta#its just my feelings about them in particular#haunting dead girl and the ghost who has to carry on and can't rest
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i can’t be like. completely anti the 1975 bc i do like some of their stuff and also have weird nostalgic teenage feelings wherein i can’t separate certain albums from times in my life but i would like the matt healy-ification of other artists to stoooop please why does everyone feel the need to work with him lol
#like i know amber bain is literally signed to dirty hit but why is he everywhere goo awaay#this is insane and crazy but does anyone else feel this weird dyke-y betrayal when your favourite female musicians love to work with your#least favourite men. or just men in general lol#i'm aware this is like. absolute whacko but it is so rare to find artists who are solely focussed on women and trying to write with women &#have women work in the studio etc etc. kind of like how just in general it is so lonely to want to see men completely decentred from#everything as a lesbian and never actually getting to see that. idk it's stupid to be mad about it but i am anyway lol
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The Me who bought tickets to see TMBG in february 2023 and the Me who's going to actually go to the show next month are two completely different people
#slash extremely negative#it's funny to actually live this whole sort of cliche of: the time between buying tickets and going to the show can be so absurdly long#with what was supposed to be my 1st 'real' concert no less#'i bought the tickets as a teenager but i'm going to see them in my 20s etc' and stuff like that#and then when it gets rescheduled too... well. a year and 9 months is in fact a pretty long time!!!#and i'm not even talking about rescheduling due to covid because god at least i didn't have to deal with that i guess#(it IS funny though that by the time the 30th anniversary of flood tour ends#flood will be 2 months away from turning 35. so yeah lmao a lot happened in the meantime huh)#anyways day two of going crazy going insane for no reason other than well i guess that's just my life now!!!!! 😃😃😃#me when i say i'll stop documenting my rapidly progressing mental breakdown online and then keep doing it anyway#but idk maybe this will heal me in some way. my only hope rn no joke#and my mom actually seemed to be unsure if i we should book the hotels and stuff because. ig i'm this obviously unwell even over the phone#but BY GOD this is the only thing i can really look forward to right now i really need this to survive#(trying to forget how i was doing in september of last year when they rescheduled the tour#and i couldn't even be sure if i'd ever get to see them in the end lollllll#and at the heights of my tmbg obsession this was my number 1 dream. i mean it still is)#also i think i'm finally entering my tmbg autumn era now with some more frequent listening after not doing so for a while#how could i let myself pretty much forget that i love tmbg??? and that their music is so good and makes me happy???#they're still my fav band of all time just like they were back then. THAT didn't change at least#it's just that now they share that spot with sparks also lol. can't choose between them and why should i anyway#what else. ig i just hope i get the energy to finally draw tomorrow at least#because if i don't turn the ideas i have into reality then they will never become real! and that would be so sad#so maybe this can be my main reason to continue for now. whatever#goosepost
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i'm never getting over this mf 👇 like it's so serious
#fearandhatred#my heart my hips my body my love tryna find a part of me that you didn't touch etc.#he's so tall 🤪 and handsome as hell 💃 he's so bad 😝 but he does it so well 😵#i'm so crazy about him bro. i'm so insane over him#giggling and kicking my feet and twirling my hair as we speak#literally this close to writing poetry about him the likes of which shakespeare has never seen#i'm gonna pass out i need him so bad actually#i'm so ill. i'll so ill i'm so ill#ok i'm fine#good omens#crowley#ginger crowley#*heavy breathing*#ok i'm fine.
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sorry felt like a hater. shoutout to dan and phil for having The Worst audience and still continuing on. bravest people in the world.
#obviously OBVIOUSLY do NOT harass people for this#that's why i cropped out all the usernames etc#i blocked all of them. this is not a callout post or anything#i'm just. i go in the tag and i see everyone literally going INSANE over an emoji#it's so crazy. it's like they don't even watch their videos. or just mute whenever they start talking abt their fandom lol#whalesong#their birth moons complete each other.... i'm fucking dying
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