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Commission Status: Open
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Hi, I'm Nena! (⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝) I'm a Brazilian freelance artist who likes to play DatingSim games… You'll probably see more about Touchstarved on my profile, but there may be other obsessions. If you contact me, use she/her.
✦ About my Art
For some reference, visit my art tag> 「 ✦ Nena ✦ 」
Lineart: Only the lines of the drawing. Coloring any part with black will not change the price.
Flat Colors: Lineart with flat colors and only a few details (cheek color, sparkle in the eyes, shine in the hair)
Rendered: Complete illustration with colors, shading, lighting and lots of details!
Chibi: All chibi art will be fully colored, full body, and with some extra details.
Simple Character Design: Full body character (front only), with underwear and 1 more set of clothes! Comes with 3 different facial expressions of your choice.
YMH Touchstarved: I draw your Chibi MC with the LI(s) of your choice. The figure on the right is just a base, it can be changed according to the appearance of your character.
✦ Prices
The prices above are per character and background coloring (optional) only, if there are extras:
Extra character: 70% of the base price
Simple background: 10% ~ 30% of the base price
Complex details: 5% ~ 15% of the base price
✦ Size
Bust, Half body, Full body and Character Design: The base size is usually A5 (2039x2894, 350dpi), but it can be a little bigger or smaller, depending on the commission.
Chibi: about 900x800, but they can be bigger too.
✦ How do I commission you?
You should send an email to [email protected], with the title "Commission - your @", for better email organization. The email should contain all the references you can send, such as: poses, images of the character, clothes, details you would like to see in the illustration, etc. The commission request should be made only by email. The final file will be sent as a response to the request.
⭕: Simple backgrounds, Original and non-original characters, Suggestive/NSFW (only if you are of legal age, please), Blood, Kemono, Monsters (not complex) and other debatable categories.
❌: Complex backgrounds, Mecha, Furry, Gore or anything that makes me uncomfortable.
✦ Payment
Paypal (international)
Pix or NuBank bank transfer (national)
If possible, I would like to receive 100% in advance. Otherwise, 50% of the amount must be sent after confirmation of the commission (after sketch process) and the other 50% before sending the complete illustration. The drawing can be modified only while it is in sketch mode and any changes that come after this process will be charged extra!
✦ Commission turn around time
I usually vary a lot in hours and days, so it will depend on the complexity of the commission. On average, simpler and less colored drawings can take between 7~15 days, while more complex ones can take between 15~25 days. Chibis, even colored and rendered, take about 7~10 days, but if it is very detailed there may be a greater variation in days.
✦ What do I need to know to commission you? - Any and all commissions will be made for personal use only, commercial use is prohibited! However, feel free to use it to make a personal product, something like: print, keychain, etc… And show me, please! - Even if the commission is your request, the art is entirely mine, that is: it is prohibited to claim the art as yours. - Feel free to repost the art on other social media, but please be sure to give me credit! - Any unpleasant request may be denied. - Even if the commission request is made only via email, the conversation about the progress should be done through other social media, just call me and let me know that you commissioned me. - Ideally, I would like to publish your commission to showcase my work. If it is too personal and/or NSFW, it is your choice whether to post it or not. - When the commission is posted publicly, a watermark will be inserted so that it cannot be used by others. - Please do not remove the signature from my illustration. - If you plan to use AI with my art to "improve" it, please do not contact me.
#my art#ych#ych commission#ych open#art commission#commisions open#taking commisions#touchstarved fanart#touchstarved game#leander#kuras#ais#vere#mhin#casper a date with death#a date with death fanart#a date with death oc#「 ✦ Nena ✦ 」
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Ranking the yandere rottmnt boys by how likely they are to kidnap their darling
Just a little crumb to keep myself from losing my mind while staring at google docs this late at night. Sorry if this is super bad, it's way later at night than I'm used to staying up and election night stressed me the hell out.
Donnie.
I have absolutely no doubts that he's going to at least try very very hard to kidnap you. And honestly, I doubt it would be too hard. He's a highly trained, mystic wielding, tech inventing, mutant ninja turtle. And on top of that, he's very fond of planning absolutely everything. And to finish it all off, I think it would be once in a blue moon that he actually treats his darling as an equal. He already thinks he's better than almost everyone, and when he gets obsessed, he has to make himself feel better about it somehow, so he decides to cope by thinking you need him instead of it being the other way around. As a result, he treats you a bit like a very glorified songbird, and songbirds.. well, aren't they usually put in cages anyway? You won't even care after a week or two of adjustment! (He will get upset if you aren't content with being kidnapped by then, by the way.)
2. Raph
The only reason Raph is behind Donnie on this list is because I think he would take longer to justify it to himself. He thinks you're fragile, that you need to be protected from the harsh world! I mean, he barely trusts his youngest brother, who is also a highly trained ninja, to do a simple mission on his own. How do you think he'll treat you after the obsession sets in properly? Not really as an equal, I'll tell you that. He's much nicer to you than Donnie would be, but he still doesn't respect you enough to let you handle yourself, even if that's not how he sees his behavior. At the same time though... isn't he supposed to be a hero? Do heroes kidnap their darlings? Or would this make him the dragon... In the end though, he'll decide that he's fine with being the dragon so long as he knows that the rest of the world won't be able to run their metaphorical (or maybe literal, depending on how unpopular you are in the area) pitchforks right through your heart.
3. Mikey
Mikey wouldn't just.. outright kidnap his darling, I think. I think it would start with a fun sleepover at the lair! Then he insists you stay just one more day! You're having so much fun, after all! Don't you wanna hang out with your best friend for a while longer? You agree, of course- him and his brothers have been nothing but nice to you ever since you met them, and their company is always a delight, so it's worth a shot, isn't it? Then suddenly, the weekend is over, and school's ready to chew you up again, so you do leave. Then it's finally the weekend again! You've heard of a fun game from your school friends, so you plan on trying it when you get home this afternoon- it's friday, after all- when you get a text from Mikey in the group chat with his brothers. He wants you to come over again- and, of course, you say "sure". Not like you can't just play the game on sunday, or when you go home saturday. The sleepover flies by, but you're a bit weary by the time you're pretty sure you're supposed to go home- but here's Mikey, and he's so sure that you promised you'd stay at the lair until sunday again! So, you give in. There's always next weekend, right...? I think you get the pattern, but eventually, he'll be keeping you at the lair 24/7, and you'll be rubbing at your weary eyes wondering how you got into this mess. Sometimes you can even see his brothers shoot you worried looks.
4. Leo
Leo would only kidnap his darling as a last resort, and I think it's because of two reasons. One, he's the brother who sees you closest to being an equal (Donnie and Raph constantly go against your personal autonomy and Mikey puts you on an extremely restricting pedestal), though to be fair, that's not a high bar to pass- and two he much prefers to have some sort of interesting conflict to be present because he finds it entertaining. His life is a weird, morally incorrect soap opera at this point, and he's the number one viewer. Kidnapping would only really happen with him if he thought you were either seriously leaving him (moving or getting into a serious relationship with someone else) or if the circumstances around him got too stressful and he needed something to cling to for any semblance of support outside his brothers (who, at that point, would probably also be super stressed). Think post movie, when the city is still recovering. Man, he was probably freaking out thinking that you might've died to the kraang.
#yandere tmnt#yandere rottmnt#rottmnt x reader#yandere#tmnt x reader#Strawberry's basket#oughhh im so tired#just have to add a little more to something....#then i can sleep....
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i think it's super duper hard to find out what i'm currently obsessed with. must be impossible, even. (*lying as i cover up all of the isat images in my gallery*)
#❄️ramblings❄️#look i'm a simple person i see found family and emotional torture and i eat that stuff up#and now a new obsession has joined the ranks of my silliness#in stars and time#isat
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Honestly I really want to be able to side with Solas in dreadwolf. I think it'd be super interesting to play as an elf in Tevinter and be able to just go "yeah actually I think Fen'Harel is right let's tear down that veil." I mean I assume the main conflict will be Solas trying to convince your character to join him, or your character being told they have to try and stop him, and there are not enough games that let you side with the presented "villain" character. I want to see what the world is like with no veil I'm so interested. Also so interested to see what full-on Fen'Harel Solas is like. Is he still as empathetic? Or is he more conniving and distanced from "mortals" like the old stories would have us believe?
#side note it's been a hot minute since I've played trespasser I've been obsessed with origins and anders and justice recently ok#i don't have super high hopes cause bioware sucks ass#Idk if they'll have the balls to introduce the player to that level of moral nuance#i just think it would be fun and cool to have some choices on the final outcome#*with the main villain character I should say#instead of 'player character who is awesome hero defeats evil mean bad guy'#i feel like the past games have always tried to paint a very clear target of who the 'bad guy' is#when in reality that's rarely ever so simple#i want a story that lets you decide if you actually think the bad guy is bad or not#and then lets you choose what to do about it instead of directing you to kill this one guy to save the day yknow?#and I think this would be a wonderful opportunity to explore that#and I mean we did get this is 2 if I'm honest#there's not really a singlular villain#you can choose if you think the mages or the Templars are right and side with one or the other#dragon age dreadwolf#fen'harel#solas dragon age#i just like complications in stories that make decisions very hard#make solas the players friend or something again make him seem like a person and not an evil mage entity bent on killing everyone#maybe I'm just tired of how often the writers have done moral gymnastics and tried to swap it around#to make it seem like actually the mages should all be locked away and treated like shit cause they're all egotistical maniacs#and that the Templar/mage issue is a both sides have a point thing when it is clearly not#maybe I just want them to direct us towards taking the side of the oppressed instead of the oppressors for once#Hope you enjoyed my longish rant I hide in the tags as usual
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I just found a way to deckbuild and potentially play online multiplayer with my custom cards. This is awesome
#in summary: cockatrice#it's a free online mtg program where you can just build decks and play them against other players online#and you can upload custom sets :D#magic set editor even has a built-in export option for exporting a cockatrice set#it's a little awkward and i keep needing to reboot cockatrice but it works! i can build and play custom decks!#how well does it work online? no idea#the other player(s) may or may not need to have the custom cards as well. i don't know#but honestly just being able to do this much is incredible already#i can even build sealed decks because MSE has a pack opening simulator that you can export from#gosh i'm getting so into this that i'm considering making super-simple art for the cards to help visually distinguish them#very very nice to be able to identify a card at a glance#just like quick mono-color lineart doodles#i've barely drawn anything in my life but i'm so obsessed with my creation#definitely going to want to finalize the flavor of it before i start making art tho#god i am NOT eager to give proper names to all 180+ cards#making a few proper nouns will help name things better and faster tho#a few major characters and faction names and locations#instead of just “forge spirit” it would be “flameworks spirit” or something#give a touch of flavor and personality to it
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Sometimes I feel like we don't talk enough about the romance of being perceived. For me at least, it is the ultimate form of romance. When somebody is so utterly infatuated with somebody that they can't help but notice all the intricacies of them...??? YES! I've started to notice how much I crave that and how much I adhere to it in my writing. So many of my favorite love songs are the kind where somebody just lists things they've noticed about the person they love. And when this happens in a book or a movie or any kind of story???? Kill me! Like literally put me down because I've gone rabid!!!! When the love interest points out the MCs endearing nervous habit, when they comment on the color of their hair in the sun, when they talk about how much they love the sound of their voice, etc etc etc!!! Like to be loved is to be perceived, to be observed, to be paid attention to! That is adoration!!! Y'all don't get it because you want the grand gestures and the sex and the expensive dates and the Instagram face sexy looks, blah blah blah! I just want for people to dissect and discover the person they love and to find endearment in all that makes them! It's so GOOD!
#I'm not even kidding whenever a guy I like notices something about me and mentions it I will fucking blush like a schoolgirl#like just say you're obsessed with me!!! god#maybe I'm just a simple girl maybe my bar is too low#but i don't give a fuck nothing is more flattering to me#don't tell me you think im hot or that you'd die for me or whatever#i want you to comment on the color of my eyes or tell me something about myself that I haven't even noticed#please!!!!#maybe this also just stems from my own romantic desires idk#bc when I like somebody I don't fantasize about the usual stuff#I fantasize about picking their brain and staring at their cute face and discovering them wholistically#it makes it so much more interesting#maybe this is the neurodivergence speaking idk#is my ultimate romantic fantasy just having a person to hyperfixate on forever? maybe...
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I need to really focus on figuring out what's wrong with me and unfucking myself instead of burying myself in humanitarian crises and novels. Whenever I'm really struggling to get through the most basic tasks, I keep thinking it's because I'm not pushing myself harder, rather than the fact that something is clearly critically wrong. Even after all this time, disabling myself more and more trying to push myself past breaking point, my knee-jerk response is to feel like I'm failing everyone around me, instead of having the self-compassion to realize I really, really need help. And I know that it's because there never seemed to be any point begging for help, knowing I'd be ignored at best and punished for it at worst. Maybe I avoid thinking about it because it breaks my own heart when I do. I can't figure out if that's self-compassion or self-pity.
#knee of huss#i have this bone deep conviction that i'm not a good person#i mean if i was being graded on the average human curve i would definitely be ranked above it#for the simple reason that i have a heart and a sense of justice#but the fact that half of humanity fails to clear the bar that's on the floor doesn't mean the bar is any less on the floor#doesn't seem enough to just be able to step over it#also well aware that this is self-obsession and counterproductive to actually being of use to anyone#but i have OCD so. aint my fault really#idk. all this is just a distraction and self-flagellation about the fact that Im too disabled to cope w life#and that terrifies me#better to just try to break myself into pieces trying to prove that i can cope but i just wont#parentification#actually cptd#abuse survivor#maladaptive coping
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uh oh rereading death in venice (well. listening to audiobook of the heim translation, for the first time-- don't remember what translation i read previously) and thinking abt garak as aschenbach
#LISTEN HEAR ME OUT the disdain for the federation's ways but then the adoption of them.#devotion to duty. obsession with a beautiful youth. the gradual abandonment of his personal values and convictions to be close to the youth.#BUT SPECIFICALLY aschenbach intending to introduce himself to tadzio by putting his hands on his shoulders 👀#YES i'm aware of how embarrassing i am#i am a snob#i am a pedant#thinky thoughts#sigma reads#...#plain simple garak#doctor tailor augment spy#elim garak#gustav von aschenbach#death in venice#thomas mann
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beau is sooo messy i'm obsessed with him. him being happy to see felix seemingly flourishing and being more confident etc but also feeling weird and almost jealous at the fact that it used to be just him that got to see felix that way. that he used to be the only reason for it. and like he KNOWS that's a messy and kind of fucked up way to think about it but he also knows he's in a really weird spot emotionally and can't help it
#one question i am obsessed with at the moment is what makes a person/character 'toxic'#i don't think it's a simple yes or no a character either is or isn't#especially with grief and complicated emotions like...#i have had some UGLY thoughts about people. even about people i love and consider friends#and i have had times where i've had to question myself and wondered if i'm actually this spiteful and meanspirited person#but i realised all of those moments were happening in very difficult and dark times in my grief#which was making it harder for me to regulate emotions and being much more sensitive and quick to take something personally#even though i would know logically that i did not feel that way AS I FELT THAT WAY#it was a mind fuck and it took so long to figure out how to process and unpack all that...#anyway im obsessed with grieving characters having sensitivity and messy feelings and being easily triggered into them#and feeling them even though they know logically that's not how they actually feel under 'normal' circumstances#all this to say i dont think beau is a toxic person. but i do think he is grieving and his is the fleshiest/rawest character ive written in#a while LOL#hes competing with felix and dorothy. who imo were actually being toxic to each other in RR LOL#but then it's like. a character that is toxic at times is not necessarily a bad person to me!#im specifying character because i dont want to get into a discussion about irl morality. but like.#oughhh i love characters who are hypocritical and suck but are also full of love and a desire to be better but its hard to be
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I truly do not understand how my parents expect me to just. Be totally chill and normal and have no rules or issues with food completely out of the blue, as if they didn't spend literally my entire childhood from ages 0 to 19 like. Fully banning 90% of "junk" food, not allowing anything other than water or juice more than once a month on special occasions, only letting us have fast food more than once a year (if we were lucky) when it was literally medically prescribed to me bcuz I was so underweight and deficient in shit I needed a neurologist to tell me if I didn't eat Pringles every day I would probably die, literally saying to my face that the blood sugar gummies I ate bcuz I was too sick to keep anything else down were "too high calorie", saying that even iceberg lettuce is unhealthy, and so much more. Like. You guys. Why are surprised that I'm not comfortable having two cups of iced tea in a single day. I unironically feel like I should be taken out back and shot for doing this. And that IS your fault. You cannot act surprised that I'm like this when you are the ones who raised me to be this way.
#prolly delete later this is personal I'm just. like. why r they upset that I don't want to do this#why are they upset that I would rather b dehydrated than drink two iced teas-#-when that's literally what they explicitly told me to do for two whole decades#idk what switch flipped in their brains to suddenly b like. normal abt food but I cannot easily undo all of that#esp not when I was also bullied for being fat when I was medically classified as underweight. thst kinda fucks a person up#(tbc im working on it but 2 decades of actively encouraged EDs is not simple to get rid of lmao)#and none of this is even getting into how fucking obsessed they r with healthy teeth n how food goes into that#anyways. my brain is extremely unhappy and I have a bad feeling abt how it's gonna behave tmrw#armchair speaks#tw implied abuse#food mention#eating mention#calorie mention#weight mention#ed cw#ed tw#tw ed descussion#tw fatphobia#healthism#hopefully that all covers it???
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One of my main goals for this year is to make and finish a game even if it's tiny and I made it in a day, but. All my ideas keep escalating before I've even started. !!
#was going to make a simple puzzle game based on a type of puzzle i love (nonograms)#and. just thought of how i could make it a horror game#and now I'm kind of obsessed#i shall focus on making a nonogram game first.#personal post
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It seems you have invoked the ire of the General Mahamatra...
#NephiamArt#Personal Art#Genshin#Genshin Impact#Cyno#Look I'm a simple person#You can't just give me a dark-skinned grey/white-haired and orange-eyed egiptian dude and expect me not to simp him#I'm just following my heart#And my heart is telling me Cyno should have had an adult model#Tbf is a good thing he doesn't because I'm already obsessed with him as he is#I don't want to think how obsessed I'd be if he had an adult model#I'm riding a new hyperfixation and I'm making it everyone's problem
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being the only fan of something is so great because i am the sole ruler of this kingdom. no one is around to tell me my headcanons suck or that all the characters are ooc
however it also sucks because i am the only fan. no one is around to support my headcanons or tell me they love my portrayal of the characters
#in a way i'm really glad there's no celceta fans. i don't think i could take meeting another person who knows the game#building your house out of donuts and all that#same with zestiria i'm very glad there's no one around to tell me how ooc sorey is in my mind palace or any of that#but god it would be nice to have a friend to bounce ideas off of once in a while. get some positive reinforcement in this echo chamber#of mine#altho the thing is i don't really have these kinds of elaborate aus and stories and headcanons for stuff with an actual fandom.#i love psychonauts with all my heart but the simple fact that there are other people who enjoy it just makes me feel shyer or smth#like i know that these people have played the games a million times more than i have and are a million times more obsessed with the charact#characters than i am so why should i bother developing my own headcanons abt these characters when there are people out there who do it muc#much better than i ever could. so why bother at all you know#that's why i tend to be a passive enjoyer of most things i care about on here#i'm not out here giving complex and unique takes on psychonauts or mario plots or characters#i'm just gonna enjoy what's presented to me by people who are cooler than me#and when i do have original thoughts it's only gonna be about stuff nobody else gives a flying fuck about. like tales or ys or tok#which is kind of sad! i'm not gonna lie!#but i guess i do this to myself huh. if i managed to find an ys fan they'd probably scare me out of my own theories#idk man. theres not really a solution is there#wyvern rambles
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Anyone familiar with my taste in fiction should have absolutely no surprise that whatever the hell is going on between Mike and Matt is entirely up my alley.
#That time travel podcast#So glad Matt seems to be becoming a character in his own right#And not just a prop to motivate Mike with#I'm a simple person. You give me estranged characters with a messy past who obviously still care about each other#But now it's mixed in with a bunch of other less positive feelings#And throw them back into each others' lives#And I become obsessed with them.
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i love character customization sooo much but i hate playing most video games sooo much. the only games i actually see any kind of purpose in playing are competitive/rhythm type games that score you like tetris or rock band.
#myevilposts#i also don't quite have the physical dexterity or patience to learn skill based games outside of rhythm games basically.#like if it's story based i do not have enough energy to play through long games. i might as well just watch a playthrough.#sims is a kind of exception to this where it has the character customization and can be as simple or complex as you want#but playing the sims depresses me so much. i prefer to actually try to achieve my dreams#in real life so writhing in my own neediness and dissatisfaction by playing a wish fulfillment game is bad#for my mental health. so basically i'm fucked.#i prefer to at least pretend to be productive and i don't see many games as productive.#sounds like a major me problem but at least i know what i like.#WHEN THE FASHION OBSESSED STEREOTYPICAL TRANSFAG LIKES CHARACTER CUSTOMIZATION: 😲😲😲😲#you'd think i'd like story based games but i do not have the energy to play long games so i prefer to watch.#i do like first person shooters bc it is competitive and with fortnite there's also fortnite festival.#i am excited for the next fortnite season 🥰#it's the only video game i really play regularly.#also like wordscapes bc i still am weird about my intelligence/knowledge and my self worth.#it makes me feel good about myself to score well and be smart. i know right? i am getting better#at not basing self worth so much around that though.
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Remember this joke?
Well, I am going to do something similar only with photography. This is a photo someone took for an Amazon review of their Clinique products.
Honestly, it is not a terrible photo. They did some staging. They have an interesting background. All of the labels are legible. It is properly exposed. This would be a perfectly acceptable product photo for an Etsy page.
I've been taking these advanced photography courses in preparation for whenever I am able to create a new studio in the house. And my teacher is a photography badass. I just watched a 6 hour class on how to recreate a professional Clinique ad. And at first glance it looks deceptively simple. It's just some skin care products being splashed with a little water.
Which is why I wanted you to see an average person for reference.
This is what Karl Taylor came up with.
And I don't think I've learned so much about photography in one tutorial before.
Product photography is just loads and loads of problem solving. You have to light the chrome caps with a gradient. Which requires giant diffusion scrims.
Those big white panels are literally only there for the two chrome caps.
You need a pure white background, but you can't let light spill all over the studio, so you put up giant black light blockers.
And you have to add another light just for the orange bottle on the right.
Oh, and if you want the bottles to glow, well, you have to hide a silver reflector behind them.
But you still want the edges of the bottles to be darker so they have some contrast. So you add some black tape to the sides.
And in order for the reflective labels to have bold black lettering, you have to reflect black cards into them.
Ack! Karl's beautiful bald head is showing up in the chrome caps! He must put on the naughty blanket.
And once you get every aspect of every bottle perfectly lit, you finally get to yeet some water at it all.
I don't love product photography because I have a weird obsession to help greedy corporations make their wares look more beautiful. I love it because it is a complicated and challenging new puzzle every time. Every product is a different shape and requires a different technique to make it look its best.
I don't know if I will be able to live up to Karl's standards.
This is about the level I was at in 2017 before I quit photography.
I have so much more knowledge in my brain now. I'm really hoping I can surpass that.
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