#I'm a bit sad
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My beloved river Ogre, my source of energy and power holding my dearest childhood memories. You have cradled me in your gentle hands through all my life. You are the sacred spring I wash off all the darkness and emerge new and charged. I know every wave, every sandcorn on your shore. You are my home, my heart, my everything. I've been swimming in your dark waters in the middle of the night and felt your energy sipping through my veins. This is for you!
O Ogre, source of life and quiet power, In every season, every fleeting hour, I’ve drawn from you a strength that never fades, A light that shines through life’s most shadowed glades.
You are my river, steady, calm, and true, In every drop, a part of me and you. For all you’ve given, all you still impart, You’ll always hold a place within my heart.
So here I stand, beside your flowing grace, With gratitude, in this familiar place. To you, dear Ogre, endless thanks I give, For teaching me what it truly means to live.
O River Ogre, flowing wild and free, Your waters sing a timeless song to me. In every curve, each ripple, every wave, You’ve been my guide, my guardian, strong and brave.
Through childhood’s days, beside your gleaming shore, I found my peace, and sought for nothing more. Your gentle flow, a constant, steady stream, Has fueled my spirit, shaped my every dream.
Beneath the skies of endless blue and gray, You’ve whispered secrets, led me on my way. In your embrace, I’ve grown, I’ve learned to stand, To trust the earth, to hold the river’s hand.
You are the pulse that gives my heart its beat, The flow of life beneath my restless feet. With every glance, your sparkle in the light, Reminds me of the joy within my sight.
O mighty Ogre, source of strength and grace, In you, I find my calm, my sacred place. From dawn to dusk, your song will ever be, The hymn of life, the rhythm guiding me.
#personal#I'm a bit sad#I'm leaving tomorrow#I've found my second home#but nothing compares to this small place on earth#that holds my most sacred memories
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I got 5 hits and 2 kudos on AO3 in more than 12 hours, is the apex fandom really that dead?
#i haven't checked the tags in years#posted some stuff that was sitting in my folders since 2020 so i didn't expect much engagement#but dayum#I'm a bit sad#that ship used to bring me so much joy#bangawraith#voidstrike#apex legends
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I wonder if good students who are also good people and are okay in their head actually exist.
Or if they're just a myth that teachers tell us about.
#i'm a bit sad#i feel like i'm either a good student either a nice person or either happy#i can't be the three at the same time#i wish i could have friends and work at the same time#they are all going to hate me if i keep being me#being serious
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I think one of the kindest things you can do for people with various mental health struggles is just... let people back into your life after they've been absent for a while.
Making friends as an adult is so fucking hard already and isolating yourself from other people is a very common symptom of depression, anxiety, burnout, ocd, trauma, grief, etc. Which means that someone will do the hard work of recovery/healing and resurface back into a world where their previous friends have written them off because they stopped showing up.
So if you know someone where you're like "yeah we could have been better friends but they fell off the map a bit" and that person suddenly reaches out, or starts showing up to events even though you kind of forgot they were still in the group chat... well they may have been Going Through It and you don't actually have to punish them for their absence you can just be glad that they're back.
#forever grateful for friends that let me disappear for a bit because I was too sad for everything and just held space for me to come back#so I'm trying to pay it forward by holding that space for other people#my nonsense
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Zelda goes mushroom girl
#tloz#a link to the past#zelda#link#my art#I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one...#I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea#I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat.#it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd#if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl......#I'm falling back into my old ways rn though#anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends#like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder#they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it#in a proper way that might make sense....#if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth#and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh
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Hornetpocalypse! I'm a bit late
I still want to draw more designs but I can't add more
Designs belong to: @featherlouise, @dooblebugss, @raddest-laddest, @alexparozi, @xylo-art, @little-demy , @tenyardstowitchyard , me, @orion46037 , @conconpasta , @misslimao0, @ostebee, @rainyreyn9, @little- -ghost, @artistlara, @hakunoknight , @honorrry, @doodledrawsthings , @thehappiestgolucky , @foileadeux , @bug-game-blogging , @abugshapedeldritchbeing, @cheese-grater-terminator , @malk-with-tea , @byfulcrums , @sad-ist, @mewnia, @dairyfreenugget , @gncbozo , @charlie-jpeg , @theellipelli , @pseudepigraphon
Everyone's Hornets are so beautiful, I've never been so happy to come back to this fd
#hk#hollow knight#hollow knight fanart#hk gijinka#hk hornet#hollow knight gijinka#hollow knight hornet#my art#@sad-ist is the reason why I decided to draw hk gijinka when I was in fd around 2018-20 ago#I know I'm a bit crazy#hornetpocalypse
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I'M GONNA BE KING OF THE PIRATES
25 years ago, Monkey D. Luffy hits the screens embarking his journey to become the freest man of the seas. Happy One Piece Day!
#ik that technically the anniversary of the anime is in october but it's op day fellas#and ofc I'm hit with an off day for drawing orz#so I tried to have more of an experimental mindset and yes it's so rough looking but hey#bit sad this is all I can offer but it's something#I can recommend listening to the “I'm going to be the Pirate King!” or the “The Greatest in the World is Oden” ost - man I love op#monkey d luffy#one piece#op#one piece day#one piece fanart#o0kawaii0o
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Some people say making all romanceable BG3 companions pansexual was "for commercial reasons". I think there was an idea behind it:
Whoever you are, you can be loved and cherished.
It doesn't matter who the main character is in terms of gender, species and race (or race and subrace in game terms), they have a chance to be loved. A comfort for traumatized souls.
Imagine a person start playing the game where they know there is romance with companions, trying to flirt with someone they like and being rejected. It would be heartbreaking. And it is not the game easily replayed, my first playthrough took 200 hours.
What I want to say is... Thank you, Larian Studios, for this masterpiece of a game. There is nothing like it, and I doubt there will ever be.
#sorry I'm a bit sentimental today#romance with sad wizards do this for you#bg3#baldur's gate 3#baldurs gate 3#baldur’s gate 3#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#astarion ancunin#astarion#wyll ravengard#wyll#lae'zel#lae'zel of k'liir#shadowheart#karlach#karlach cliffgate#halsin#halsin silverbough#minthara#minthara baenre
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Panic Attack 🪩👔
#Been watching my twin play this game and even tho I'm catching it in bits it's SO compelling#Took me way too long to get into this fucking game#But here's the sad man#disco elysium#harry du bois#disco elysium harry#harry dubois#fan art#art#sketch#character art#I will say it's kinda daunting to draw for this game cuz all the fan art I see is IMPECCABLE and COLOURFUL. which is exactly what I lack#Like I wish I could do big colourful peices but I struggle sm. And my art looks so bland next to those amazing ones I see#Pls accept my humble greyscale Harry Du Bois offerings
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can he come back now? please?
#i'm going through withdrawals#also been having a bit of a sad day and i think he could fix me#lou ferrigno jr
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"I'll make a save here and try breaking up with Astarion, just to see the dialogue- I could see him get kinda nasty about it, but I honestly don't know what to expect so---"
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#-ke me back but that didn't fit#astarion#squirrel plays bg3#when i tell you i reloaded so fucking fast.....#curse my curiosity#jesus fucking christ he's so RESIGNED#it's such an “ah; there it is. yeah can't say I'm surprised but it was nice while it lasted”#it sounds a bit mean but i fully thought he'd get at least a bit nasty about it#(the breakup also doesn't seem to have any options that nets disapproval???)#(which is just..... sad)#(it'd be so much less painful if he could at least hate you for it you know)#(this boy's self-esteem is -as we say in my country- beneath the miner frog's asscheeks)#(and now i need to go spend some time kneeling on the floor sobbing please do excuse me)
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anyone else gonna talk about how Colin is the only member of his family that Anthony doesn't embrace when he comes back
and how Anthony is the hardest on Colin out of all his siblings and the most distant
and how Anthony was the only one who wasn't immediately happy for his brother upon the announcement of his and Pen's engagement other than Elosie (who was upset for different reasons)
and how Anthony then says he has a lot to talk about with Benedict and Colin and ended up knitpicking Colin's actions in his proposal and essentially said 'Well, at least you finally made a good decision'
and how Colin and Anthony have a very evidently fractured relationship that was conveyed just through that one small action of an arm pat instead of a hug
or do I have to go crazy about it all on my lonesome?
#anthony bridgerton#colin bridgerton#bridgerton#bridgerton season 3#polin#bridgerton spoilers#like i saw it and my heart went so sad about it#anthony hugs everyone else but Colin is there and he gets a pat on the arm and Colin's the one who initiates it#Anthony being like 'well you made a good choice for ONCE but I'm still going to criticize you about not professing you love her'#like anthony sorry not sorry but colin did EVERYTHING BETTER THAN YOU when it came to his relationship#and you're still out here knitpicking every choice he made?#like care about your brother a little bit more or you and i are fighting
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This was home.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#blood#Good bye Jiang Disciples. May you live on in the Lan Wangji in lotus pier AU.#This is going to be the start of a bunch of sad scenes I desperately try to undercut with humour.#You may ask where Elle Woods is considering her help was requested.#The canon answer is that she didn't make it there in time. This is the reason why WWX has the pink phone in present day.#It is a favour she owes him out of apology.#I am also making it canon that Jiang Cheng hates Elle Woods for not being there. His two Nemeses in PD-MDZS are Elle and WWX.#This is why Jiang Cheng doesn't have the phone. He would hunt her down but Bruiser bit him really bad last time he tried.#His pride is too hurt to try again.#I don't think I've done a wordless comic in a while - what a fun challenge!#I'm getting lots of practice with backgrounds in the last few comics - I really feel like I'm getting more comfortable with it!#Obviously I still have a long way to go but this is a journey B*)
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"My sweet little magic user...Uwee-hee-hee!"
happy october and official spooky season :)
#final fantasy 6#final fantasy vi#ffvi#ff6#sketch#final fantasy#terra branford#tina branford#kefka palazzo#9 hours and 42 minutes of work.#i'm a bit sad because some of the detail in kefkas outfit and tinas got lost in translation (read: lighting effects) but WHATEVER#it still looks good and i'm quite proud of it#my art#spooky season#halloween#-ish?#it's FOR halloween technically so yeah#illustration#by the time this is posted it should also be on my tiktok with close-ups if anyone wants to see those (@/_seepingfrommyskin)#for my own peace of mind do not look at tina’s shoes
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ULTRATOBER // Part 1 - Day 2: Favourite soundtrack
Its only desire: to see the sky for one last time.
(alt version under the cut)
#ultratober2024#ultratober#ultrakill#ultrakill fanart#minotaur ultrakill#i'm gonna try and see how many days i can complete#mostly by just drawing what seems fun to draw#violence has a banging soundtrack and my favourite song has got to be bull of hell#my original idea for this drawing was a bit more intense and ultrakill style but like‚ the minotaur makes me sad#don't look too closely at its rightmost hand. i had fixed it but csp crashed and took the hand with it upon death#galadraws#arttag#id included#oh god the post i have drafted right under this one is so horribly contrasting in tone
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~ a little something about Beast Dazai and his inability to let you go ~
Your hand trembles as you're about to knock on the massive office doors and you wonder if you're about to make the biggest mistake of your life.
You got too close working for this terribly lonely man, and now you're knocking at his door with the only solution you can think of to put an end to your silly infatuations that have gone on for longer than you'd want to admit and can possibly handle. You open the door slowly, and walk into the elegant and massive office space, your eyes falling right onto the dark haired man in all black hunched over the desk, scribbling away as if he didn't hear you come in. You walk quietly, and when you reach the wooden desk, your voice comes out soft and firm.
"Dazai, sir? I wanted to speak to you about something sensitive, if I may."
You chew on the corner of your bottom lip, but quickly compose yourself when you see the face of the man you've spent so much time with, the unfortunate love of your life. if it weren't for his Maroon scarf, he'd look like nothing but a black void. A burnt Black cat. He looks up, narrowed eyes scan you as he takes a sip of his tea, replying in a monotonous tone.
"What is it?"
"After much consideration, I think.. I need to leave the Port Mafia. We've worked together for quite a while now, and I can assure you it's not about the quality or enjoyment of my work. You don't even have to acknowledge this beyond me simply saying it, I just have to confess something that makes my heart ache. You make my heart ache. I know how unprofessional that sounds and that you have no use for such affections, but I can't keep pretending. It's why I think it's time for me to move onto something else otherwise my work will become disrupt-"
A lifted finger is shoved into your face, signaling you to stop, and so you do. Of course you do. You always had a habit of word vomiting when you were anxious. Dazai is staring down at his tea, and he stays quiet for a long time, trying to pick what emotion he can mask his real outraged ones with. Finally, he flashes you an unbothered look, his eyes half lidded as they taunt you. A cruel smirk curls onto his lips.
"Oh? What an awful time for your honesty! I'm currently drowning in work and responsibilities, ones that you're supposed to aid me with, actually. Thus, I have no use for your confession." He simply says.
You can feel a sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach. You expected this. Looking down at your shoes, you chew on your lip again.
"I had to tell you.. Like I said, you can just forget about it."
"Well you see, that's the problem. I can't forget it. The moment you uttered those nasty little words to me, I realized I have to carry the weight of finding a new secretary. And I resent that."
He looks away for a brief second, his words are bitter and laced with what sounds like remorse and irritation.
You cross your arms and sigh, your voice comes out lower than your confidence.
"I just thought that we were... I suppose I should have never dared to assume you'd ever see me as more than a-"
He instantly leans over his desk, now placing a finger on your lip, his voice just above a whisper.
"... And though these feelings you have for me may be inconvenient, it doesn't mean that they're unwelcome."
He lets his finger rest on your lips for just a second too long, meanwhile you're frozen in place feeling like your chest is going to collapse in on itself. His voice becomes softer.
"Sit, please."
You sit down, now facing each other. It's quiet for a few moments as you both study each other's expressions. This form of intimacy was unusual to everyone else but the two of you, having spent countless hours in the past working across one another without uttering a single word, yet communicating in perfect sync. You were a part of each other's routines, a never ending spiral. Dazai feels himself teetering on the edge of something dangerous, something peeling away at his very soul. He's usually so arrogant and domineering, but in this instant, he suddenly feels an exhaustion wash over him trying to keep that going. He's kept it going for so long, he forgot that he doesn't like doing it with you. You don't deserve to be a part of all of this, and he doesn't deserve to want you.
Oh how he loathes his true identity: A simple man. A human man. Your man.
When he can't take it anymore, he slowly creeps his bandaged hand on top of yours, applying light pressure, but his eyes don't dare look into yours. Not yet. Finally, you break the silence, staring down with furrowed brows at the way your hands fit around one another. You mutter under your breath, tired of being vague.
"What are we to each other, Dazai? I mean really?"
"Do I really need to spell it out for you?" He snorts, trying to cling to the last of his cruelty but failing as he lets his emotions sway his judgement.
You sigh, flipping your hand over so that your fingers can fully intertwine.
"I just don't know how I could ever take up any space in your mind. I didn't think you noticed whether I stayed or left."
He looks up, flashing you a mildly offended look, his sharp eyes narrowing. He scoffs quietly, dropping your hand and standing up from his desk. He walks over to you, his full height now looming. He bends down and scolds you.
"What an obscene thing to say. You're invaluable. You have always been occupying my mind, every minute, every second, every microsecond. I always notice. I'd notice even if I was on my deathbed."
Your breath catches in your throat, and you finally manage to swallow the lump that's building up as you stare up at your reckoning.
"I just- I'd never try to leash you, sir."
His eyes soften, and he tilts his head slightly. You drive him mad with the way you don't realize what a dog he is for you. His voice comes out strained.
"You wouldn't need to. And don't call me that. You know my name, and as your superior l'm ordering you to address me properly."
Your cheeks flush, and you part your lips, letting out the breath you can't stop holding. A faint smile appears on your face, and you stand up slowly to meet him.
"You're like the moon, you know? You control everything like the tides. You control me, Osamu."
He shakes his head, and sighs deeply. If only you could see how wrong you were. He steps closer, moving his hand up your arm gently as he trails his way to your collarbone with ghost-like strokes.
"Did you know that sometimes when I'm laying in bed, all alone after a long day of controlling things, my only thoughts are about you?"
He confesses, sincerely. Dazai brings his face inches from yours, his voice now becoming a pleading whisper. His hand travels down to your waist, gripping it gently.
"Do you find it hard to believe that you bring me to my knees, the big scary Port Mafia boss? Because if so, you're a great fool! I love spending my time with you. I quite literally need you by my side in my times of need and at any random and mundane moment that passes. It brings me unimaginable joy when you nag me to get more sleep, especially when I don't listen because I can't wait to hear you say it over and over again. I don't like it when you have plans, or when you report to anyone else but me. I want you to stay with me tonight and every single night after and I don't care how awful this sounds. I don't care about you having a life outside of me."
Your throat feels tight, eyes wide at the fervor of his words alone. You reply with a shaky breath.
"Every single night after?"
"Every. Single. Night. After..."
"As if we were together?"
"We are together." He declares as if it were obvious this entire time.
Hearing Dazai be so blunt makes your mind fog over quickly, a whiplash of feelings that you never thought would ever see the light of day suddenly surface. He feels the same, realizing how much he's given away to you in such a short amount of time, but for him it's been rotting inside for years. He's been held together by the glue of your support too long not to kneel for you now. It's over for him, he's run out of masks to wear. He slowly guides your body backwards towards the opulent leather couch at the center of the room. You stop when you feel yourself backing up into the cool pebbled hide, and he slowly lowers you down onto your back with his arms supporting you. He delicately hovers over you, looking deeply into your eyes as he takes in the way your bodies feel against each other. For a moment he worries he might actually be trembling.
His breath hitches when you place a hand on the bandaged side of his face that covers his left eye. You stroke the fabric lightly, eyes twinkling with unfiltered adoration. He thinks about the only other person who's ever looked at him with such reverence, and how painful it is not to be able to tell his best friend he's in love. He leans into your touch, humming softly and closing his eyes as he molds his lips deeply into yours. It's not a kiss of sexual desire. This is a kiss born of romance and intimacy, a mutual oath of surrender. cold bandaged hands instinctively wander your body, starting at the waist down to your hips, and slowly exploring the plush of your thighs, kneading them. He runs them higher, lightly tracing your ribs with his index finger while the other hand cups your face. Dazai's mouth moves gently, and slowly pulls away from yours with a soft whine. His fingers trace your jawline as he stares at you. You taste like milk and honey. Like the moon and rain. He smiles at you, eyes sparkling like the night sky. You feel his heartbeat against your body. Every single pore of your skin is connected.
"Please— don't leave the Port Mafia, and don't leave me alone... Not tonight. Not ever. I'd become a tyrant without you."
"Is that also an order?" You murmur in between shallow breaths, dreamy eyes trained on him.
His eyes flicker over to your lips for a moment, then return to your eyes. His voice drops to something that resembles a soft whimper.
"Noo. No, it's not. I could never demand anything from you. But if you'll allow me to act selfishly, I just want to make you happy, to see you smile. I want you to keep greeting me with that tea you make every morning before our meetings. I also never want to hear you call me 'Sir' again. I am not your boss or your friend... I'm so much more than that. We've always been together. We will always be together— Is this too much?"
You shake your head, smiling uncontrollably at the way Dazai rambles in this moment, it's a side of him you've never seen in all the years you've known him. A stark contrast from the detached and cruel presence that frightens others on an almost daily basis. This seems like a person pretending to be the boss of the Port Mafia, an almost perfect imitation. You're not sure what barriers within him had to break for him to become the mushy and needy mess you see before you and what it all means in the long run, but you dismiss it for now. You get the feeling this might be the real Osamu Dazai. And that excites you.
"Never too much. I'm here and I'm staying. I would always stay."
He chuckles, it's a broken shaky laugh bordering on a sob. He buries himself in your neck, smiling against your soft skin, nibbling on it. He lightly runs his tongue against the mark he leaves, and slowly lifts his gaze to meet yours
"... I know you would. You always do."
You tilt your head, and hum in mild confusion at his odd little comment.
"Do you know something I don't?"
He flashes you a knowing smile and speaks prophetically as he lightly traces a finger over a large vein on your neck, following it down to your soft chest. He murmurs lazily while bringing his lips down to where he won't be able to get them off for the rest of the night.
"I know everything, silly.~"
The Port Mafia can wait, he's going home first.
#i know this is over 2k words i HAVE A STORY TO TELLLL IM SORRRYYYY#i need to go into visceral detail abt needy desperate beastzai OKAY. HES DISGUSTING FOR U#THAT REQUIRES MUCH PATIENCE ANF WORDING#beastzai is a mix of all my fav dazais obsessive rlly sad and rlly fucking into you#i'm actually am so sorry i hope u guys like this#when that anon gassed me up so much abt beastzai i said let me make u regret that#i love u anon........... i need a nap and a beastzai body pillow#also i canonically confirm u did in fact freak it all night after the end#hinting at beastzai and reader being in love in every universe didndjejd ....God#lets let beastzai have fun and kiss a little bit okay#in a way this could be a spiritual successor to my first beast dazai drabble................#bungou stray dogs#dazai x you#osamu dazai x reader#bsd x reader#bsd dazai#dazai imagines#dazai x reader#bungo stray dogs#osamu dazai#dazai osamu#beast dazai#beastzai#bsd beast#beast dazai x reader#gn reader#fanfic#beast!dazai#bungo stray dogs beast
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