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#to being a mother#I've sobbed my lungs out to this song for years#mother wound#I'll do better#anouchan#music#Spotify
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Ya'll are gonna see some really late requests being answered and that's on me 💀💀💀 these have been sitting for so long I'd understand if someone pretty much left my blog Though at the same time, I am doing these on my free time and a lot of things distract me and take priority. That and when I do these request with all the kings that easily takes me like 30 minutes to write. This is also the first fandom focused blog I've ran in my entire life so I was unprepared for the amount of requests I was going to receive. Next year though I will be more organized in how I answer requests so no one waiting like months to get their request answered.
(crossing fingers for me getting this all cleared out by the end of this year ya'll...)
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head in my hands as i realize i need to split this bit up into 2 chapters, one of which will be like 80% new... but like honestly how do you NOT devote an entire chapter to scully's first DP ??? i'd feel like a monster...
#so sorry i tried to gloss over that experience for you scully#i'll do better#i promise#sharing is caring#y'all not ready for this. i'm not ready for this. my husband however is bugging me daily for new pages lol.#hope to be ready by kinktober
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i just realized that i forget pah a lot in my gc's😔
#i think it's cause he was “written off” so early in the story but i really like him actually#sorry pah fans#i'll do better
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How I Would Have Written Resident Evil: Village
let me preface this by saying a few things: i am slightly tipsy as i write this, so i apologize for any misspellings, incorrect lore, or things not articulated well. i also do not hate Ethan nor the original story of RE8, but i do think there was a lot of wasted potential and unnecessary plot holes
moving on, under the cut
i'll start off by saying that i loved Biohazard. it's genuinely one of my favorite games and the atmosphere is done so well. i love the horror, the mix of action, and the genuine fear you can feel as you run around, searching for answers.
Village did not have this, and it was a massive disappointment, as was the game itself, overall. i do still love it and it'll always be one of my favorites, but Capcom fumbled hard with the plot and the general story.
let's start off with this: in my own little fantasy land where Capcom doesn't hate women (joke), Mia would have been the protagonist in Village. think about how well the story could have gone between her knowledge from the Connections, her unknown relationship with Miranda, the fact she likely would have been struggling to actually fight (just like Ethan should've), and how much different her interactions would be.
i'm genuinely so tired of seeing husbands and/or fathers searching for their lost wife and/or child in horror games. appeal to a different audience!!! where's my mother searching for her lost child, taken by Eldritch horrors???
anyway, i won't be super detailed, but we'll say Mia is the protagonist and Ethan is sidelined :3
throughout the game, i personally would have made it much more obvious that the lords are indeed a family. like, i thought it was obvious enough, but apparently lots of people in this fandom didn't get the memo?? so i would make it more apparent.
and just like i mentioned in the one video i'd already made on this (kinda), i would have changed the lords' appearances and their deaths, pretty much meaning that only Donna (maybe) would have been killed. everyone else would have just been something for her to escape from.
(i'm sorry this isn't super detailed. i don't want it to turn into an eight hour essay, which i may do for a video later on, but anyway)
i will say that i probably would have changed the beginning sequence and made it more mother-daughter focused before Rose is taken. like, imagine Rose being kidnapped right from under Mia's nose without all the brutality and shooting, as comedic as that was, once you knew. the whole thing with Chris not telling Ethan what was going on was probably the dumbest thing in these games and i will forever stand by that.
so, we'll just say that Miranda somehow finds a way to subdue Mia long enough to kidnap baby Rose, and Mia wakes up cold and alone and has to follow a barely-there trail of footprints and feathers that eventually lead her to the village and the horrors within
i also probably would have kept the game during nighttime or early morning, simply because of how terrifying that would be. it's not as fun when you can blatantly see the mutants trying to stalk you (ahem. lycans.)
at this point, Rose is taken and we now have an angry mother on our hands that is very wary of what's going on around her, but now knows that Miranda is a culprit (because in my mind, Miranda has no real reason to hide from Mia, and came to her in her true form). this would leave the audience to question what she really knows and what she's been hiding, and while it would create skepticism, it would also generate curiosity.
Mia traverses the village in relative darkness, led only by the moon's light (hehe symbolism) and the occasional torch. she searches the village for any inhabitants, and while she mostly finds blood and corpses, she also finds a group of people still surviving and untrusting of her.
i think the scariest thing would be that every time Mia progresses and comes back to the village, more people are missing and she finds out rather quickly that it's Miranda's doing. this would leave a sense of fear within her: Miranda is watching and waiting, she is causing Mia distress and threatening her without outright doing anything, letting her know she is unsafe and alone without ever laying a hand on her.
we'll say she goes to Donna's first, under the impression that the hermit dollmaker could have taken Rose per Miranda or she's just being mislead by Miranda posing as a villager (or even the witch lady). from there, she's forced through hallucinations, vivid fabrications of Rose and Ethan, all while struggling to see what is real and what's made up.
she finds out that Rose isn't at the Beneviento Estate, but now, Donna isn't letting her leave. she's not allowed to let her visitors through those doors, saying something similar (though perhaps slightly more afraid) to, "Don't leave... I can't let you." this may hint at the fact that Donna herself does not want to hurt Mia, but cannot let her leave.
Donna's boss fight consists of hallucinations and fabrications, and Mia "dies" when she succumbs to one and doesn't realize what it actually is. there is no "monster" in this section, but it's probably one of the scariest parts, as it takes place throughout the blackened estate and the dolls are, in fact, still moving and making little noises.
Mia escapes somehow, and when she returns to the village, she overhears a conversation from Miranda and someone else (perhaps Rednic?) basically hinting at the megamycete and the ritual and what needs to be done. this begins the plot of finding out what the fuck is going on and where the hell is her daughter, which she believes will be found together.
(sad mother moments, of course. i'd make them tearjerking.)
Mia then finds herself stumbling to Moreau's reservoir, cold and angry, and from here, she starts to realize just how deep Miranda's corruption really goes and how much danger she's actually in. in her mind, prior to this, she thought Miranda was under some kind of control or that she was simply a lackey in a larger scheme of things.
after all, the Miranda she knew was much different than this one, much less angry and violent. Mia doesn't recognize this woman any longer, and she begins to find herself very afraid of what she's gotten herself into, though she doesn't regret it.
Mia hears Moreau's pleas for his mother to help him, to be proud of him, to notice him, and all Mia can feel is the heartbreak of a mother watching this child throw a tantrum for his mom's attention. she tries to kill him, but in the end, she finds herself out of ammo and cornered and freezing her ass off, as well as injured from wounds so graciously gifted to her by lycans and the varcolac.
she escapes, leaves Moreau to his cries and his desperation, and at this point, Mia wonders just how much farther she can go until she collapses. she remembers those little moments with Rose when everything was starting to look up and when she thought her life was going to be normal again, and for a time, she fades into unconsciousness.
when she wakes, it's eerily quiet, and she knows she needs to leave. after more of the villagers go missing and they mention laughing and screaming from the castle, Mia decides she will go there next in her attempt to find Rose and take her away from this fucked up place, get her out of Miranda's grasp before she can do god knows what with her.
the castle is... eerie, yes, but not quite as dangerous as she had been expecting. she meets the Dimitrescus and she's most likely flirted with a bit (as they tend to do), and because Mia is a woman, her pleas are heard and she is allowed to speak, if only for a moment. they come to find that Mia is only there for her daughter and she will gladly leave once she's found, but they're under orders from Miranda now to keep Mia alive (wink wonk).
that doesn't stop them from chaining her up and giggling as they leave, as they did before. i'd make the castle much darker and make more noises throughout the halls, like footsteps or quiet laughter, maybe some soft clanging or things slightly being moved, like vases or chairs, only for there to be nothing.
it's creepy, but there's nothing outright dangerous until Mia finds herself cornered in the kitchens with a very angry Bela now out for blood. she holds back only a little during this little spat, but eventually, it gets to the point that Mia shoots open the window and only distracts Bela before she runs and manages to get away.
(it's now a safe room for her, as Bela would have run away when her weakness was exposed and warmed up, bruised ego be damned. she'll just regroup with her sisters and go from there).
i think the phone call scene would still happen, but it would be a little different. at the very least, it would still show that Miranda does not care about the lords as much as she claimed to and cares more about the ritual and ceremony, but now Lady Dimitrescu is pissed and wants Mia out of her castle before she can actually kill one of her daughters.
(i like to think Bela and/or Cassandra would be in the room, quietly observing, and if the player looks away long enough, looking back would show one or both of them staring right at Mia before quickly looking away. you know the drill).
Mia somehow finds a way to sympathize with Lady Dimitrescu, perhaps because she refuses to kill Daniela while the former is nearby or something, and she ends up escaping (though it's obvious the action is allowed, as Lady Dimitrescu is blatantly keeping her distance but ensuring Mia is chased out. yada yada).
more creepy village stuff happens, more fights with lycans, blah blah. i'm not entirely sure what to do here, but i'll think more on it.
the factory would be last, and i think it would be incredibly interesting with Heisenberg likely knowing that Mia and Miranda had a past together. he might try to use that against her and try to convince her that Rose is their only hope for being free (maybe playing into what she'd seen with his siblings), but he's ultimately denied again.
Mia doesn't know this dude, doesn't know his true intentions or if teaming up with him will guarantee her death at the price of his freedom. everything she'd gone through would have been for nothing, and so, she refuses.
i think the factory would have been creepier if the mechanical noises weren't so loud and in-your-face, but that's just me. keeping the lights low and the enemies quieter but still lit up would have been great, but oh well.
after making it through the factory and proving how strong she really is (never doubt a mother), she is, once again, faced with the opportunity to join Heisenberg or join the dead. she denies him once more, manages to escape the factory (and Sturm) as metal flies by and she's probably pierced a few times, and when she eventually becomes free, she just collapses in the middle of a dusk-lit village.
she's been through so much, lost everything dear to her, and she still hasn't found answers or her daughter. she begins to wonder if she ever left that first hallucination at Lady Beneviento's but she's too tired to care-
and then the moldy tendrils begin breaking from the ground, near enough to terrify her but far enough to know that she's not in immediate danger. she hears laughter and searches through the mold (which she comments on), vision blurry, only to completely freeze when she finds Miranda standing near one of the tendrils, watching her with a fond smile on her face.
this is all i've thought about (because the ANGST of seeing your, at the very least, old coworker/friend who is now a CULT LEADER and trying to kill you...) but i'll probably expand way more on it if i ever do a video on it. i didn't want this to turn into a massive ramble (even if it already did), so i'll pause here for now.
i didn't hit everything i wanted to and i'm sure i'm missing a LOT of points, but these were all the major things i would have changed or implemented. i am very tired and tipsy, and i do apologize for anything that doesn't sound quite right or that's left with like... no other point or explanation. i'll do better next time <33
#i've had a rough few days im sorry#today was so frustrating and im just tired of being a person#but here are my thoughts#my incoherent thoughts anyway#enjoy <3333#im sorry if they're hard to understand <33333#i'll do better
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Hello. I'm not going to make a habit of being too openly, and in depth, about my feelings and mental state on this blog, since it's a sideblog for my art and other art related projects. I'm making a small exception today to both agonize/apologize, and show appreciation. I try not to be too obvious when I'm distressed but last night I was openly sad and drunk. I had got home from work with some blisters under my skin, got a little drunk, decided to draw while drunk and having trouble holding my pencil and got progressively more drunk with each picture. I'm apologizing for making my emotional burden other people's problems on a blog not meant for that, but I also really appreciate how kind you guys were on my post. Thank you for being so sweet, and I'm sorry for being annoying, and for getting so drunk. I'm also sorry cause I had a couple more girl oc's I was gonna draw but the drunk sleepiness made me forget. I'll do better in making sure I leave my emotional duress on my main blog, under a read more.
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Got another team to add to the fire, Canada
HOW COULD I FORGET ABOUT OUR MAPLE LEAVES. Babes have been fighting a war for EONS
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at this point I'm pretty confident I alone am responsible for team courage being in dead last
#alex drabbles#and then i fired. and then i missed. and then i fired. and then i missed. and then i fired. and then i misse#i'm so sorry my fellow courage homies#i'll do better#maybe
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Soooooo I haven't watched the last three games and we've lost the last three games
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please don't leave tumblr! you must stop adriennbanai2!!! some of my friends have been getting messages from throwaway accounts calling you a rapist and pedophile and i know it's just adriennbanai2 accusing you of things through alt accounts!!! #nia1sworldarmy!!!!!
I'M TRYING BUT...ALL SHE'S KEEP BEING SO INOCENT AND HER FRIEND @untitled14360 IS ALWAYS PROTECT HER LIKE SHIT! ALL I'M LEFT IS SOME BULLIES WHO INSULT ME! AND PEOPLE BLOCKING ME ALOT! So yeah...I'll stop her
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I have a confession to make. I didn't know Cecil until recently.
#from what i can tell#cecil gershwin palmer#was tumblr's sexyman in 2013#and i joined this hellsite in 2014#i'm sorry#i'll do better#is this how tiktok kids feel
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"That language is unbecoming of you, Hitsugaya-Taichō."
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" I suppose you're right, Captain Kuchiki. --- That was ignorant of me."
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happy birthday!! I'm glad you had such a good one 🖤💓💙🧡💛
Thanks Kareena! Kissing your face
#i just spent too long looking for this gif in my files#it's not even as good as i remember aghdf#also stalking your blog to find out when your birthday is and somehow i managed to miss it this year??! 😭#i'll do better#highwarlockkareena#ask
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i hate when people try to make me feel crazy for always trying to lose weight. after the realization i've come to, i will NEVER give up. and the realization is that whenever i've been maintaining or when i feel like i've gained, everyone in my life suddenly becomes more distant. and then when i'm locked in and losing weight, people talk to me more and are just generally so much nicer. i've been eating normally recently and maintaining and i swear everyone has been acting like i don't exist. now i know why. part of me gets it but the other part wants everyone to go to hell and leave my life for good instead of treating me like this. but now that i know this i will do my part to make people want to be around me again. it hurts but maybe it's the motivation i need.
#came to this realization while on a walk#sorry for being fat but does everyone really have to ignore me bc of it LOL#also doesn't help that just being on my period is making me super bloated and i actually can't fix that at all#i'll do better
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crowley
#fem presenting crowley you're everything to me#as you might know I've been recovering from an injury these past few weeks which is why I couldn't draw as much as usual#been doing a bit better so I wanted to give drawing a try again#while my arm isn't back to normal yet it feels a LOT better than 2 weeks ago#which is a good sign#still gonan take things easy of course#good omens#good omens fanart#crowley#fem crowley#why was one of teh suggestions for that tag fem crocodile#I'll have to look that up#david tennant#crowley fanart#aziracrow#aziracrow fanart#my art#fanart#my good omens art#good omens 2
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Any more info you can share about the mouse family? They just look so cute and sweet!
Thank you!! Heres some doodles of mouse mom & rat stepdad, I had a very hard time drawing legibly on a very small piece of paper so please clap for me
#I'm still thru hiking for another month or so. maybe I'll do something better once I have access to a paper larger than 3×4inches#Mouse#Rat#Anthro#Furry
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