#I'M NOT DYING

[fairy-verse]

There is a risk that it'll be quiet for a while, because I'm really not well, and the last time I was this type of ill I fell into a two month depression, so I'm sorry if your ask goes unanswered for a bit.

I might feel better once the medicine starts to work, but as for now, I'm just giving a heads up if I'm quiet for too long.

[deepseadozing]

hello i think ur rlly cool plz dont explode into confetti..!!!!!!!!

this is like those tiktok comments of people going "i think you're really cool please don't die"

[fangbangerghoul]

Hello everyone!

I have a small announcement to make!

First off thank you to everyone who has shown support for the last chapter of Fleeting Pleasures. Thank you again for everyone who joined me on that ride!

I made the masterpost for that fic when I published the last chapter.

You can check it out here: Fleeting Pleasures MP

I had been working on that story since oct/nov and it's my first long running fic! I'm still amazed that I finally finished it. There were a lot of times I considered just giving up on it. The normal self doubts of a writer, do people even care, why am I even bothering, etc. While I loved crafting and creating it, it did cause stress at some points and creatively when it comes to writing I feel burnt out.

That being said! I still have half a semester left and a lot of projects and big papers ahead of me! (nooo I know) So when it comes to anymore Starfield fanfiction I will be on a hiatus for the time being.

I still look forward to reading all the lovely fics out there when I can and uplifting my lovely Coemancer Crew! On my end however, I probably will not be publishing new fics for the time being. So no more wip wed(unless I decide to post fanart I'm working on) or snippet Sunday posts with new material. But PLEASE feel free to still tag me so I can at least see your work!

There's a small chance I might dip my toes in another fandom and do shorts(like with my MTAS fics) but I'm not holding my breath because I definitely need a rest.

Again thank you again for all your support and for keeping up to date on all my silly little stories. I look forward to seeing what other amazing stories are out there to interact with.

Please keep writing, crafting and creating!

[thevoidstaredback]

I am in a lot of pain and I am bleeding very much.

The two things do not correlate. Pain is mostly not caused by bleeding.

But! What if I do a shady hand off in a back alley? I give you all new content to read and you give me the ability to sleep tonight because I work a 15 hour shift tomorrow starting at 4am.

[iamcoralinenotcora]

Y'all know when you're bored at 1 am and you go on AI writing and it calls Hob Gadling a hobgoblin and now you can't read The Sandman ever again

[blxck-rider]

In case you're wondering why I'm not super active at the moment~

Last month I lost my apartment due to being unable to pay rent. Since my job was tied to my apartment and my boss laid me off for reasons that unemployment found was not enough to justify being fired or even documented, I was unable to pay rent and eat simultaneously.

Which lead to me moving back in with my father and being 25 miles away from the city. We're talking watching coyotes and deer casually stride through your yard, finding animal bones half buried, and no noise pollution away from the city.

While I am immensely grateful to my father, I am still unfortunately entirely broke without a dime to my name. So yeah, I'm only able to post and reply through mobile currently because there's no internet here and I have no other way to write.

If you wanna help a bit, feel free but by no means are you obligated.

[captain-grammar]

ill write a more coherent post about my hospital consultation later but it can best be summed up as FUCKING *YIKES*

[bitletsanddrabbles]

Okay, this is going to sound damn pathetic, but I don’t care...

...especially since this is exactly one of those posts that gets 0 responses, but...please...

...even though someone just started following me and said it was because they liked my fic and my opinions...

...even if it’s just that person again...

Someone.

PLEASE.

Someone who loves Thomas Barrow.

Someone who loves Thomas Barrow and Richard Ellis together.

Someone who has not made me want to delete my entire Tumblr and take all of my fanfiction down off of Ao3 - repeatedly - for daring to write Thomas with someone other than Richard. Or for speaking well of Julian Fellowes. Or for feeling represented by a ‘poorly written depiction of gay people who we both happen to love, but gawd could JF have done a worse job?’.

Tell me you’d miss me if I walked out.

Tell me you’d miss me if this blog went away and the fiction was gone over night.

Tell me that all of the times “someone else in ‘my’ corner of the fandom” said something that “everyone who loves Thomas or Thomas/Richard absolutely agrees on” and left me feeling like Thomas in the servant’s hall while everyone else danced at the Carsons’s return to Downton were worth sticking through, and I was right not to throw in the towel.

Maybe I’m just tired and stressed from the holiday season and burnt out and frustrated at not being able to write. Maybe I’m sick of dealing with hundreds of people a day who could take offense at my packing they’re groceries wrong or asking them to obey State law. Maybe I’m just 100% done with feeling like I have to walk on eggshells around every other damn person on the planet, but they can stomp all over me with cleats and I have to say ‘thank you’ for the privilege.

But I really, really need to hear that I’m worth it to someone right now. That I’m not a bad person for needing a place I can go and enjoy something as simple as a show I enjoy. That I have the right to occasionally get a little bit cranky on my blog at people who do nothing but find reasons complain and be dissatisfied and reblog my posts so they can complain and leave comments in my fiction so they can complain and to assume that of course I’m going to agree with them.

I need to know hear that I’m not responsible for thinking of the entire fandom’s feelings, especially since the entire fandom sure as hell doesn’t think about mine! I don’t have to return a favor that isn’t extended in the first place! I can care about my mutuals and that’s good enough!

With everyone else clustering around in their mutual support groups, please just tell me I’m not as alone as I feel.

[murobrown]

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[newmsies]

I'm shaking really bad and I'm super sick rn, could die, could be my last post, ily all if i do /p /nsrs

[soaptaculart]

The cat and the dad she said she "didn't want"

[cheddarcheddarcheezits]

based on recent events

[rattanwhip]

Criiation

[c-tepx]

CHILCHUCK "MY DAUGHTERS CAN'T MEET YOU BECAUSE THEY WILL WANT TO MARRY YOU" TIMS

[pangur-and-grim]

oh. I think my fears about Chiefcake passing from old age were more on point than I realized. she's acting very weak right now.

and it's late on a friday, when all the rabbit-specific vets have closed. I'll call around anyway to see if at home euthanasia is an option tonight.

[gingersnapwolves]

okay I don't post a lot of political stuff but this is sending me