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lol didn’t think someone giving money would give me anxiety
#to the judge that’s gonna see this case next year and the lawyer that is representing it assuming the state idk how this all works#why has the person to say the least get to go a whole year without consequence? a known criminal who after stealing from me and being#released and again getting arrest now for gang violence or some shit she was let go? she maybe associated to the group that killed that boy#last year. and here i am panicking because im afraid to carry cash. im paranoid that imma go outside and my car will be missing. i’m get#panic attacks when i drive to close to that gym and tired going back but physically cannot get out of my car and i start to cry in the#parking lot. i’m not sitting at work shaking forcing myself not to cry because someone handed me cash and i’m afraid someone is going to#steal my purse again. you think that’s not a big deal and honestly i didn’t think it was until my purse was gone. my cards stolen and used.#my key missing EVERYTHING in my purse GONE. so many things in there plus the purse i had money and all that is stuff i paid for now im out#all that cash i’m out 500$ for a key replacement i stopped feeling safe leaving my house all my non replaceable things gone and everyone#spoke to me like it was my fault and had to stand their crying while adults told me not to use a gym locker ??? but in the same breath telli#telling me this isn’t the first time she’s done this she has a warrant for her arrest she’s known to steal cars i’m the problem and there’s#nothing they can do to help me. so while i cry because all the money i had lost and never got back i had to do ALL the work to call my bank#track where my cards were being spent at call the jpay line she transferred money to look up the person she cashapped money to call the#business she was actively spending money at ask the manger if she is currently there and if they could give the police all the receipts and#video of her there for them to act like the hero’s for my brother and i tracking her down while you all belittled me#FUCK YOU AND FUCK HER i can’t be fucking normal about STUPID mundane shit i’m stuck here shaking and crying and what you tell me later it’s#not a big deal? give me all the content of your car and wallet or purse or backpack take nothing out and see what you’re left with and how m#much you need to spend to drive your car again and to tow your car home let a stranger have all your cards and address and tell me you feel#safe#OH and for the gym to tell me they know about her she used to be an employee there she doesn’t have a membership so they don’t know how she#got in and they can’t help but she did steal from another girl that night and an employee last month and who knows how many more ppl like#that’s convenient you pos sounds like she has friends that still work at the gym and open the back door for her or just let her in that’s#crazy no ? and this is all alleged because when if i lost all these things i can’t speak on what did or didn’t happen that’s some crazy bull#shit anyways the towing company felt bad for me maybe because i hadn’t stopped crying they gave me the key replacement number and told me to#mention he referred me so i could get a discount and the layman felt back for me because when i called him i started to cry and when he told#me the price i cried harder so 500$ was the cheapest but pretty much my whole check#key man*#bad** LET ME FIX TAGS#allegedly all these ppl are privileged kids from a privileged background that grew up in a sheltered community and thing there’s no#consequences to their actions because of the lack of accountability from their parents who willing pay for people to look the other way
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reminder. to draw. new icon 4 main blog & discordt.
#pk;m lullaby💮#either tonight or tomorrow if we have time tomorrow#the hyperfixation did not completely switch but we're leaning a tad more towards gf rn#so im gonna draw bill and i for our next icon :3c bc that's who the brain's hyperfixated on specifically lird help me#if my ass gets Spotlit i will start killing. anyway
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here's my hot take
#your boyfriend game#i forgot who the other characters are but heres little miss cockblocker and my beloved TK 💚✨💕💖🫀💔#i call him that becuase he keeps COCKBLOCKING me by committing murder and thats crine.#cringe#i like thinking about the high school au because i have confidence that if he went to school with me i could drive him to suicide.#i have the opposite of rizz. like instead of making people want me i make them hate themselves. only when i want to tho#and it's not like i have anything against bald people or violent criminals. the warden from human centipede 3 is both of those and i want#him so fucking badly. all day all night no lube no protection god is dead and we have killed him knock me out and attach me to the prison c#ntipede.#anyway i tried to play this game because he reminded me of said warden. but i got kind of attached to the landlord character#and when i found out theres no way to have sex with him i got so mad i threw up & punched a wall & now my real landlord is mad at me for p#unching a wall.#god's whims are cruel and i am a plaything of life😃#and its all this eggcel (pre-trans femcel) (my headcanon) 's fault i hope everyone die slowly and painfully#except TK i want them to live. they deserve to be happy 💖#anyway i wish p*t*r was real so i could send him this image. i think he would kill himself if he saw this. i would if i was him#i would also kill myself as soon as i found out i was named after a f*mily g*y character tho. so obviously he's not very similar to me.#hate. let me tell you how much ive come to hate you since i began to live. tehre are 387.44 mi9llion miles of#hey if you censor f*m*ly g*y like f***** g*y people will think you're just being homophobic instead of a show hater#gonna start censoring it ike that. teehee#anywway#miku binder the joker and vivziepop heffley. fight#my posts
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every single thing my friends & i have done since the end of may has been tinged w the fear that that everything is ending forever
#SO SCARY. i know we’ll stay in touch i know this. as a group at least i can’t speak for whatever’s going on w my (ex??) best friend (and#former situationship). but also more pressingly there’s currently a HUGE split in the friend group bc of the whole f/m/d situation. and it#might lead to the friend group actually for realsies splitting with ME PERSONALLY STUCK SMACK IN THE MIDDLE#which’ll suck for the obvious reasons but ALSO it’s gonna be hard enough staying in touch w one group of high school friends once we all#start uni. 2+ means i’ll actually just kill myself#.txt
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like. he’s literally my stupid fucking cat are we all getting it, is it clicking
#SECOND PIC ILL KILL YOU#I’m gonna start throwing punches and if you happen to be standing there when I get to you it’s your fault#i feel queasy.#the pics where all that’s communicating are the ears make me feel the worst emotions#that’s the littlest guy in the world and no one even CARES <- the emotions#the worst#okay i have to stop now. genuinely feel queasy#lee know#m
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After too many years here I've final what hornets' nests I am not brave enough to kick
#m/cc#thought about making a certain post and decided... no... I would rather not#I am not prepared for responses to that. it might actually kill me#specifically it was:#'going gluten/dairy/food dye-free CAN improve certain neurodevelopmental things but it cannot 'cure' autism/ADHD/Tourette's'#I already know I'd get vitriol both from people claiming I think autism comes from gluten or 'needs cured' because they can't read the post#and that I'm trying to trick everyone into going gluten-free because Toxins or something and lying about a connection#(even though (neuro)dev disorders can be made worse by flaring immune issues like - oh I don't know - undiagnosed gluten intolerance?#hypersensitivity to certain food dyes?#we already know autism and ADHD in particular have HUGE correlations with gastro and immune issues#which is why some mommy bloggers genuinely do see symptom improvement from diet changes)#and from people saying 'um actually no-gluten DID cure my nephew's ADHD?? the science is on our side/big gluten is covering up the research#and I don't know if I could handle dozens of people per day telling me I'm a science denier AND a eugenist from both sides#I am simply. ADHD. and autistic. and incredibly interested in the wild amount of comorbid physical disorders that correlate with these#autoimmune and gastro issues but also loose/hypermobile joints; epilepsy; delayed sleep phase disorder; COPD; skin conditions#it's so fascinating to me and provides a huge chunk of data to run with re: the gut-brain axis#whether [neurodev] causes [other]/[other] causes [neurodev] or an underlying thing causes both is unknown#but honestly with the huge interest in the gut-brain axis and microbiome in the past decade or so#I think we're going to see a lot more research in the next thirty or forty years examining physical comorbidities with neurodev stuff#I'm probably not gonna link to research because I don't wanna just start the war anyway and I'm too tired to go back and find the articles#but the TL;DR of the tags is neurodev stuff isn't caused by gluten intolerance but if you're unknowingly aggravating a gluten intolerance#you're probably not gonna feel great and it's gonna make your symptoms worse because of the effect it has on your body#it's like a very mild long-term allergic reaction and yeah if you get rid of that it'll improve other areas (e.g. sleep cycle; irritability#so of Course it's gonna improve a bunch of things-that-get-worse-with-poor-sleep/decreased-stress-tolerance#if you were always sitting on a slightly uncomfortable chair you'd probably do a lot better if I switched the chair#just because you can focus better or you didn't know the chair was uncomfortable doesn't mean it caused your ADHD#also in this case the chair affects your hormone levels and immune response and what chemicals accidentally leak into your bloodstream#if you're interested look it up there's been a Ton of research on correlations of specific physical issues with neurodev in recent years
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want to bite his little cheeks <33 🥰🥰
#he has the cabeza shape of the cartoon head starter kid#a circle at the top then a connecting oval more like bottom of an egg shape for the chin#his pretty lips girls would kill for so they can finally live their dreams and bite lipstick#hes so cute.. hes so babygirl#he reeks of mental illness#he is easily doodlable#his cut is a little off center#he is my jerma.. my Everything#hes uploading a new youtube video and if i see that Typical Youtuber Photoshop Thumbnail#with Obviously Oblivious or Luring Title....#im gonna cry so hard.. ants Will Not survive.#they will be flooded and have a noahs arc with no arc for them#do u want to do that to me sauce?#ur very first 'this guy is cringe#.........i crave his flesh.' enthusiast???#ur number one YES sauce is a BTTM enthusiast??#probably overwhelmingly yes lets be honest LIKE 😭 i am enthusiastic at his pain and his fails#i am a hell man ‼️‼️ NOT a hype man 🫡!!!! ... unless u truly do deserve hype man then ill do u like that#but usually it's bd*m central round these here parts pardner! sorry! dont like it then teeth the ballga#anyways he started it tho. by being cringe#im just following thru like it's football#like a good qb does with a good football throw OKAY?? this is FOOTBALL ! ! OKAY ‼️‼️#WE PUT D*CK IN A S S 🗣‼️‼️#F O O T B A L L !!!!!#anyways#sauce#how babies look at u when they want ur takis n tell u 'i looove spice' 'i can really eat spicy food well <3!!'#like ok? congrats spice warrior now samba the hell out of here please im MUNCHIN !!
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okay i have enough prompts left to do one final round of texting answers tomorrow so i think i'm gonna call it there for the night! after that i'll get my ass on some drafts again. i think i just needed some quick, fun lil things to catch my breath with so!! tysm to everyone who shoved those into my inbox!! ♡♡♡
#started feeling overwhelmed again bc my drafts are uhhh kinda stuffed again lmao#honestly i just have to get better about replying to what i feel like at any given time rather than worrying about how much is waiting on m#or doing things in the order i get them back bc that's just not sustainable#that's what really kills my enthusiasm & ability to focus#anyway i'm rambling so i'm gonna go vibe for a bit before bed#thanks @ everyone for caring about my angry glittery little weirdo ♡#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ OOC ⋮ DON’T @ ME.
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hm. jury's out on whether i'll finish riverdale ep 4 before watching 5 tomorrow. idk when i'll have time to even watch 5 tho so literally nobody say anything about it until i get there i have a lot riding on this one...
#hardly my fault episode 4 was so bad it made me want to start killing people.#you know shit's bleak when i/m watching riverdale and thinking wow i'd rather be watching grey's anatomy rn#like that was evil that was so evil. roberto please get it together soon. you have until june and if you haven't made it good by then...#honestly at that point i might just give up on watching it until the whole thing is out :/#which is so BLEAK like seriously. you're gonna make me give up on riverdale?? my beloved riverdale????#i still really think 5 is gonna be good tho. don't tell me about it if you've watched it i need to maintain hope rn#beth.txt
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I really am beginning to get murderous impulses
#if she doesn't start respecting me she is going to very soon do something and I will not be able to control myself#and I will end up beating her into a pulp#and I HATE to admit that. I do not want to do that.#but I am so scared that I'm gonna get pushed too far and because I don't have flight or fawn options I'm gonna react with fight#I'm so tired of this. I'm so tired of walking on eggshells.#I'm having trouble with my relationship with my m*ther because we're both targeted.#y'know. the woman who simultaneously neglected/enabled neglect on me and was far too close to me#whatsit. emotional incest? that isn't even scraping the top of it#the woman who thought it was real fun to chase me around the house and beat me up every time we washed up the cutlery#the woman who I now have a close relationship with that I DON'T WANT#I should've killed myself before we'd even left home#I should've hung myself the moment I heard the knocks at the door#I don't wanna live in a house where I'm scared of being gassed because she keeps putting bleach in the toilet and denying it#and I KNOW it's chlorine because of the smell#because there's a line of rust down the back of the bowl from the leak that she won't acknowledge#of getting beaten up for not wanting food poisoning#of her screaming at me that I don't have anything wrong with me despite evidence to the contrary#of her fucking with everything I own to the point where I'm gonna develop a hoarding problem OUTSIDE of the ocd hoarding#my grandpa and m*ther have!#I don't have enough of the symptoms to have ocd despite having a few of the major symptoms#but I think that's from other issues#but god. I'm gonna fucking do something drastic soon
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HOLY SHIT, I'M LIKE 98% SURE I FOUND THE FUCKING BOOK
#suicide tw#i'm not gonna buy it obviously bc it frankly doesn't look too interesting anymore#and clearly the most memorable part was the unrelated girl killing herself in the opener#but i'm 98% sure it's g.irl p.arts by j.ohn m c.uisack (not the actor)#it's so unmemorable that the only thing that rang a bell was the android girl's name#APPARENTLY IT'S TWO GUYS WHICH. I FULLY FORGOT ABOUT. I THOUGHT IT WAS ONE DUDE AND HIS ROBO GF#there's Popular Boy and Loner Boy and Popular Boy's parents by him a robo girlfriend bc he's got dissociative tendencies????#but like. they can't fuck ig???? and he's bummed???? so she starts opening up to his loner friend???? idfk#i'm guessing the suicide in the prologue was to like. idk set the tone of ??? current teen struggles of the last 10 or so years????#but like goddamn dude when the thing that sticks with me about your YA novel is the prologue#where a teenage girl blends an entire bottle of tylenol into a coke slushie#and sips on it while watching her favorite movies until she passes away in her sleep#like. clearly you peaked at the very start idgaf about these boys i care about this barely named npc girl#it was exactly the Wrong book for me to read as a teenager with severe suicidal ideation let me tell you#ANYWAY shout out to r.ose the robo girlfriend ig#christina.txt
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sometimes curly just grabs me (or like. as best as it can without hands) and starts telling me about how much people he's going to kill or that he needs to kill people Immediately and I'm just like. ok man. are you good
#pk;m jimmy🐑#im literally vibing listening to jerma and he started gently biting me and going I'M GOING TO KILL SO MANY PEOPLE.#SO MUCH PEOPLE ARE GOING TO DIE. IM GONNA START KILLING RIGHT NOW. I WILL KILL SO MUCH.#and I'm just.#good lird.#edit: it just cackled at me and opened spotify and added I Kill People to his playlist.
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uh oh! it’s Seven’s Dean Winchester Kinnie Hours again!
#cw vent#vent post#you know what that means! time to be cringe and obnoxious on main like it’s 2020 again! 😃#i’ve had this entire video memorized for years atp and every rewatch is just as cathartic. it doesn’t get old to me.#No Sam I’m not okay. I’m pretty far from okay.#Look. I don’t need to feel like hell for failing you.#For failing you like I’ve failed every other godforsaken thing that I care about—I DON’T NEED IT.#This weight on my shoulders man I’m tired of it.#ig my only complaint abt the video is how the gun in his hand is cropped out of that clip. it added a certain Vibe y’know#People—people /pray/ to you.#Bobby I’m not even supposed to BE here.#l m a o couldn’t even finish making this post before i had to draft it and go make a sandwich for a man i hate. what a life. anyways#mf you didn’t ‘go to bed hungry’ u had fish for dinner and i made u a sandwich an hour ago. but i’ll make another one!!!#a n y w a y#I couldn’t save mom. […] I can’t even save a scared little kid.#I’m okay. I’M OKAY. I swear the next person that asks me if I’m okay—I’m gonna start throwing punches.#This—Inside me… I wish I couldn’t feel anything Sammy.#The things that I saw? There aren’t words. There is no ‘forgetting’. There’s no making it better.#impressive that i can recall that many lines with the absolute trainwreck in my mind rn. the Power Of Blorbo Hyperfixation ig#anyways enough quoting a random spn amv or whatever they’re called. i have shit to do#vent blogging#Seven’s Public Diary#i guess#no other organization tags bc i don’t want this in the fandom tags. im just venting and being cringe bc it’s all i’ve got left lmao#well it’s not All i’ve got but it’s one of the least destructive options#unless were talking destruction of my public perception but y’all already know i’m cringe and insane#god my head is fucking killing me. ok im done. for now. gotta go clean dog piss out of the carpet#Youtube
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so i landed on a learning japanese um basic coversations thing an teh fkcgnf reaction i had when i heard "un" RHYTHM TENGOKU HAS RUINED ME. I CANT EVEN LEARN JAPANESE NORMALLY /SILLY /VPOS
#migbt start goin yahho as a stiヤッホーm#oh boy@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i can t wa#tommysillyrambles#um. japanese speakera pelase dont kill me#/i was gonna use a tone tag but i forgor which one
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Legit cannot tell if the accutane is making me drowsy and fatigued, if its simply my anemia from being on my cycle, or the aforementioned cycle itself, or the also plausible idea that I am simply just heatsick because summer is starting and its getting warm here.
Or some combination
#ughh#gonna be a long summer#I get heatsick in 70° F and above#despite having livedin central cali (or surturs armpit as I cal it) my whole life#its regularly 115° F here#like#gods I feel like I am dying most of the year.#and the anemia and horrible heavy/painful/irregular menses I deal with don't help anything#at least now I have some diagnoses but it doesn't changedthe fact that nothing has really been done about them#I am so tired of needing iron and blood transfusions to function like a person#which requires me to be in the ER for 8hrs minimum#I was supposed to get surgery to remove the tumors#but they decided that since I haven't *had kids yet* it was too dangerous.#and just put m on the fake menopause shot that can cause bone damage and osteoporosis instead#because that is so much safer than risking the fertility I likely don't even have bc of oyher diag#sometimes I hate OB-GYNs#I have Adenomyoisis and so many fibroids there wouldn't be room for a fetus to start with#have been on birthcontrol since I was 10 for this bleeding problem#and have had hemoglobin levels so low I could have died#but oh#w can't remove the tumors because yo may want kids later#like yeah#I planned on surrogacy or adoption anyway#you think I wanna make use of an organ that has nearly killed me on many occasions already?#NO#take the damned whole thing out
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Oh I just had an Awful awful nightmare Yikes
#i dont remember much ofit but#we were on a ship and for spme reason they didntn render us as living m??? ormm?? something#and so all the doors locked with us inside and we were sepersted from those we love and this was connected to another dream i also hated#that one was abkut acorns and it was weird scary#but like this alarm started blaringnand either someone was gonna come kill us or we would simply Die but i know we had limitwmed time#and the alarm was persistent until a voice came our over the intercom and was like Yeah we'll let you out in the morning#and i never got to see us let out#because i woke up#and god it isnt that scary but now i have an alarm stuck in my head and now im scared for somw reason#weird because other person had a dream about me dying
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