#I’m tired of myself
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I’ve made the fucking. I’m tired of this. I’ve changed in my interior, I haven’t in the exterior.
I want to move on to another city, and be a completely different boy. I just want to be a normal boy, even if I were an npc, I’d be happy.
#olivia rodrigo#sour#guts olivia rodrigo#guts tour#guts spilled#sour tour#sour times#making the bed#depressing shit#I’m tired of myself#iwbft#radio silence#I don’t like the person who I am
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ignore this but where is the filter on me yo. what is wrong with me !???!! LMAOOOO /angry at myself gonna fucking URGHHHHH what is wrong with me!!!!! i need to be institutionalized LMAOOOO shuts down locks myself away i did stupid shit and found out LOL!! 😁😁😁😁😁 i am literally crazy and hate myself and sometimes im like “haha im so funny and crazy lol love it.” but then im also like “im so fucking crazy it should not be normal to be sexually attracted to the things i am and also be so fucking disgusting” i hate myself !!! i
will die. LOLLLLLL sorry i’m just processing this ignore it but HAHA i fucking hate myself i’m so fucking disgusting . miss when i was a decent person and not so fucking vile and gross and
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Like the majority of society I’m obsessed with Nimona
And I rewatched it a million times and one thing always sticks out to me
There are moments when Ambrosius is surrounded by light like a little protective bubble
That keeps him away from the man he loves more than anything
#nimona#nimona 2023#ambrosius goldenloin#ballister boldheart#ballister x ambrosius#goldenheart#he always looks so small in these scenes#like the light is going to swallow him whole#it almost looks like a little kid wearing his parents clothes#like he’ll never live up to the expectations society has placed on him#this man is so lonely for the whole movie#poor baby had to figure out everything by himself#he looks so tired in the second picture#the thing that kills me is in the last scene he tries to leave the bubble#but Bal shoved him back in#bubba looks ethereal throughout the whole movie#this movie man#it kills me slowly#I love it so much#I’m gonna go cry myself to sleep now#people from the rise fandom know I only post angst when I’m sleep deprived
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#epic the musical#epic: the vengeance saga#epic: the musical#epic the vengeance saga#jorge rivera herrans#OT#okay I’m almost done guys#I keep making myself laugh#I’m so tired
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you can replace studying with 0.5-4 hours of thinking about The Character. but watch out
#warning 2 myself#i’m tired so i’m gonna post nonsense until i get sleep#no i’m not. not doing that#i’m gonna study#where’s crunchy picard
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They proceeded to recreate all of motm. Geo got to dress up as the munce queen and felt very smug about it.
(We are pretending it is still Halloween for me and not past midnight since an hour. Thank you.)
#Y’ALL I NEED YOU TO KNOW. I HAVE HAD THIS IN MY BRAIN FOR THE PAST LIKE.#6 MONTHS. LITERALLY.#but i can’t telling myself no. i can’t. i must wait until spooky day.#AND IT’S HERE SO FUNNIES BE UPON YE#i’m going to bed it’s 1 am i crunched this so badly#sorry if it’s kinda shitty lmao#two art in one day???????????? halloween 2024 really has the strangest events happening..#ninjago motm#ninjago dragons rising#ninjago#lego ninjago#dragons rising#ninjago fanart#ninjago vania#ninjago vangelis#ninjago sora#ninjago arin#ninjago cole#ninjago lloyd#i don’t even know uhhh#ninjago wu#there#i’m so tired i ain’t tagging nothing else sorrey#cablart
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good god, i need to keep reading fire and blood
#i read a chapter and leave it for two months every time i pick it up#i’m tired of myself#i swear i like it
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Noel seems to be the one comforting people pretty often, I think he deserves a quick menty b (and some comfort from his boyfriends)
woagh ourthur comic be upon ye
Arthur probably spent 20 minutes trying to get this man to finally break for the night
#OUGH WE GOT SOME GOOD PANELS IN HERE !!!!!!#and some EXCELLENT John faces I’m obsessed with him#I probably could’ve made it m o r e Noel centric but I couldn’t help myself#this ask also spawned two other drawings but those are going in different posts#alternate ending where Arthur n Noel just start making out and Oscar’s like yknow what I’m too tired for this and leaves.#far too eepy to get freaky#ask#malevolent#arthur lester#oscar malevolent#detective noel#john malevolent#arthur lester and his three boyfriends#and some kingsmen for u all. and a hint of gold cross and some jarthur. we got it all bb
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Not done fighting, I don’t feel I’ve lost
Alt under cut
#Hi this took me 9 hours#This is like the most ambitious piece I’ve done so far#And uhhh I’m tired#mob psycho 100#mp100#shigeo kageyama#My art#fanart#silverlombaxwitch#okay I’m gonna ramble#so I really love how I drew the hands and I love referencessss#I’m not happy w the composition on this one bc it’s not that obvious that shigeo is the main subject at first glance#Rendering the psychic aura and stars was fun but rendering and figuring out the lighting for shigeo was not very fun#Nonetheless I’m so proud of myself for improving so much#10 year old me would be amazed#It’s almost Christmas break so I’m going to draw much more!#Honestly I rlly need to learn to draw more efficiently and be faster why did this take me 9 hours#ALSO PLS LOOK AT MY LINEART THATS THE THING IM MOST PROUD OF
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#yknow. instead of doing all this school and going to work and being hungry and trying what if i just didn’t#what if i just. didnt wake up tomorrow?#i’m tired of myself#my therapist once told me that a lot of times when we say we want to die we just want our situation to change and don’t know how to make#that happen. and i’ve felt that before#but no i just want to give up. it hit me all at once that i’m fucking tired and i don’t want to do it anymore#too lazy to do anything about it so i’m just gonna ruin my life until i get lucky enough for someone else to do it for me#the problem is me. it’s me and i don’t know how to fix it im not sure if i even fucking can#i say this but i knkw i’ll drag myself to work tomorrow#heartwarming. local disappointment disappoints past what was thought possible
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Holy shit I love your Dirk interpretations, it's so true and I could talk about this shit forever. I feel like another part of his character that people seem to forget (along with Roxy for some reason) is that he's from the future in solitude in an apocalyptic wasteland. I just see that part of his character always removed which is disappointing because I feel like that's a pretty big part, especially regarding his themes around technology, his brother's theme of Time, his own isolation, and how he plays in the vastness of the universe and spacetime.
Art I drew related to the subject because I like to respond to asks with art.
But absolutely. I certainly understand where the lack of discussion over his isolation + upbringing comes from, considering a majority of the fanbase that I have seen builds their ideas based on their own version of postcanon. I’m not entirely sure how that would be fixed, but certainly even in the somewhat recent past I would see a lot more content regarding his upbringing both literally and symbolically. I don’t have much to add regarding the things you’ve mentioned, because they just are what they are. Dirk being confined to a singular room left to him by a father figure he never met, in a future where the only other person left on the planet is someone he cannot pursue a relationship of because of himself, with purely 3 robots to keep him companion, one being an exact replica of his own brain who is *also* trapped inside a pair of glasses, is about as literal as it gets to me.
The contrast to me involving the flooded, organic world in comparison to the little speckle of Dirk’s apartment packed with the dude and his technics is not only a representation of his isolation and entrapment within himself, but also of his lack of control. I think his obsession with & themes of control are a direct product in the case of Dirk specifically *of* this kind of upbringing. His themes of technology are also related to his themes around control. So much of his character is actually revolved around this to me like so much. Dirk is so deeply disconnected from humanity in every way and so much of his character + symbolism is based around that.
It doesn’t even have to be about the symbolism or anything though. It’s just pretty *interesting* in the literal sense that he lives in the middle of the ocean in the future. There’s not only a lot to theorise on to do with his young life there, but on how it might affect him in the way he acts for the rest of his life. The latter part is probably what I see mentioned the most by people talking about Dirk regarding this, I’m surprised I don’t see more discussion on the former too though. I really ought to actually talk more about Homestuck stuff on here. I will do it myself.
Roxy & Dirk’s relationship is largely ignored though because there is a narrative a certain demographic spreads that Dirk resented and blamed Roxy for her interest in him, and thus too many people believe that their relationship was or would continue to be an abusive one. Realistically, I believe it’s important to acknowledge that the way Roxy treated Dirk regarding his homosexuality wasn’t right while still acknowledging the obvious amount of respect and admiration Dirk had for Roxy. I mean we have a huge piece of dialogue from their post trickster mode conversations on the quest beds from Dirk purely stating how he feels about Roxy that people completely ignore somehow. I think this usually happens to characters that are women though. I know everyone says it, but it is true. Jane gets the exact same treatment of boiling her down to solely her negative aspects. The things I see completely mischaracterising both of them are horrific.
I mean how much more explicit can it get that their relationship is obviously very important to Dirk? But I digress. I think the best or I should say “most interesting” interpretations of their relationship usually come from DirkRoxy shippers actually.
I would be interested to hear about Dirk’s relation to his brother’s theme of time though. I don’t have any thoughts on this and I don’t recall ever hearing anyone talk about it before. If you or anyone else would be willing to enlighten me I’d be thrilled.
#homestuck#homestuck fanart#hs fanart#dirk strider#blooby posting#ask#Sorry for taking so long to reply to you on this. I’ve been in more of a drawing than a speaking mood lately#which is very unusual for me. This is definitely not as much of a post as it could be but I’m still not back on my thought and speech game#I know the Roxy mention was in brackets but good lord the treatment Roxy gets from fanbase is insane. Couldn’t help myself#Sorry if anything is worded badly. I’m tired per usual#I think (with no malice in my heart) people just tend to leave out what they don’t like about characters though.#I was very briefly talking with Pomme johnegbertirl#and it got me thinking about how far a lot of people’s interpretations of characters stray from what would be realistic to canon#based on their own biases. Which I guess I probably do too to a certain degree.#I’m not one to judge people for their characterisations at all#I tend to be very forgiving when it comes to reads#but… I admit that is indeed a little disappointing to see how completely ignored some parts of his characters are.#Sorry for tangent that is tenuously related. It is relevant enough to shove haphazardly into tags#I’m glad you like my Dirk ramblings though. Thanks brother#We live on
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#I wanna fucking off myself Jesus Christ#why did nobody help?#I’m so tired of them saying “well we didn’t know#THERE WERE SIGNS LITERALLY EVERYWHERE#bpd#mental health#actually bpd#mental illness#bpd shit#actually borderline#bpd shitposting#bpd problems#bpd mood#bpd meme#parental abuse#tw sa implied
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PHIGHTER 15! (PHIGHTING!)
Hi tumblr here’s your food for the time being LMAOOOO anyways I like him a lot,,,,, very cool dude,,, love that he has a fursona /silly /pos
anyways! Yeah! This took about 10 hours and I speedran it in like 2 days, was it healthy? Nah. Was it worth it? I would say so! I do like how it came out and it was nice since this is the first time I’ve drawn canines in like. 2 years LMAO
anyways fun closeups too:
#art#phighting!#phighting fanart#phighting#digital art#roblox phighting#phighting roblox#phighting art#artists on tumblr#roblox#Wooooboy I’m tired#I have a. AWFUL headache at the moment and my depth perception is all screwed up#Eh we Ball though#I think it’s because I just pushed myself a bit too hard in fencing + I’m EXHAUSTED right now lmao#Anyways! Enjoy this ;3!#I have a LOTTTTT more art cooking so I’m super excited to finish all of it!#phighting! roblox#phighting! oc#phighting! coil#phighter 15#coil#phighting! art#coil phighting#coil phighting!#fan art#my art#illustration#artwork#drawings#art study
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perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:
does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies
#when i tell you every single resource i’ve ever found or tried to get through or anyone i’ve ever asked#has been just so. mean about it#not even intentionally#not always at least#but there’s so much inherent shame tied to being late to things or being a person who used to be late to things#that i don’t think people can untie that from their ‘helpful tips’#it’s all ‘i used to also be a lazy uncaring piece of shit! you don’t have to be a horrible wretched loser anymore!’ and it’s like. okay.#you see how that’s not helping. right.#making me feel worse about it is NEVER helpful. i promise you i already have tortured myself over it FARRR more than any ‘on time’ person#ever had#this has been a comic i’ve been stewing on for ages as well but. well there’s of course the shame#idk it’s something that people are always despicably mean about bc fundamentally people who have never struggled with it#see it as a personal choice to be late#and as something one needs to just ‘try harder’ to fix. and that if you don’t#you inherently don’t care about other people’s time or even other people in general#and that feels horrible! it feels really bad!!#i mean i’ve got it from EVERYONE. disability allies. other adhd folks. disability resource offices#it’s something that nobody ever cares to acknowledge or try to accommodate for#bc time blindness and exec dysfunction are NEVER taken seriously as disabilities. they’re always always viewed as a personal failing#and i’m sick and tired of it. bc all this does is make people struggling with this Hate themselves#and worry endlessly that maybe they Are selfish and actually Don’t care about anyone else#there’s a bit too much here to keep in the tags i should really do the comic for adhd awareness month
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[ cw: death mention / sibling death mention / isolation / ]
Thinking about how Leo’s portal and teleportation powers have both directly (and in one instance, indirectly) been the cause of him being separated from his brothers at least four times now.
There’s that time in Portal Jacked, where his inexperience leads to his portal being messed with and his brothers ending up in Tahiti.
There’s the Bad Timeline, where Leo’s portaling led to them losing the Key, therefore indirectly leading to the apocalypse and in turn, ending with Leo being the last of his brothers alive (though just for a few minutes.)
There’s him teleporting him and Krang into the Prison Dimension, cutting him off from his family so wholly that the only way to fix this was a literal mystic miracle.
Then there’s the comic, where Leo’s powers act up again and make him lose months of time completely isolated from everyone and everything he knows.
Just, looking at all of this, it’s like the universe gave him the powers of distance on purpose to test him (and his bros), literally seeing if they can overcome unimaginable space and still make it back together. Imagine if it doesn’t stop here, and Leo has to learn to either deal with the occasional complete isolation or deal with time travelers coming back to stop some terrible event his powers (whether directly or indirectly) have caused, events that always lead to separation in some way, shape, or form.
It’s worth noting, too, that his portals often led to accidental separation, but his teleportation was the one power of his that was used to isolate himself on purpose…and was also the one that in any other scenario would have been the most permanent.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rottmnt headcanons#rise leo#rise comic spoilers#tmnt 40th anniversary#adding those last two just in case even though it’s been months lol#anyway hiiii I still think about Leo all the time and the Implications of his abilities#I truly do think their powers matter sooooo much to their characters frfr#and it’s very very interesting to me that Leo’s whole lineup has everything to do with space and distance#and he himself is constantly forced away from his family#no but imagine this happening all the time - like…his abilities almost PURPOSEFULLY causing his separation in some way#maybe as a test? to test his and his family’s bonds? their bonds are what ultimately power them after all#Leo in particular has lacking faith in himself and his powers despite his confidence in other areas#and I wonder if that comes through in his abilities#I love Leo getting better and better at his powers but the innate self isolating/self destructing nature of them never leaves#Leo: no I don’t wanna be vulnerable#His Powers: no? but what if *this*#Leo: w h y#Leo: actually what if I do it MYSELF *teleports himself into the Prison Dimension*#His Powers: 👍#Mikey: 👎 ⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ NO????#leos over the years isolating themselves for training and/or self punishment indirectly leading to rise leo being cursed#(also I’m still gone haha this just hit by brain and I’m too tired to not write it out lmao)
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Actor AU 🎭 For Day 5 of #SherliamWeek2024
I didn’t intend to draw a detailed comic like this but here we are…
+ Bonus details because important extra strong hold for the ahoge ✨ proven to hold 221x stronger than average hair sprays
#damn I’m tired I need to sleep early tonight I drew so much last night and today#I really take any opportunity to draw them kissing huh#sherliamweek2024#sherliam#yuukoku no moriarty#yuumori#ynm sherlock holmes#liam james moriarty#the intern is RIGHT where is the kissing in the OP themes HUH we know they did you guys cut them out#forcing myself to bed early tonight#instead of 4am#my usual is 2am (normal)#actor au
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