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Say things about gelphie for my entertainment/lh
Omg, I haven’t gotten an ask on here in damn near 5 years.
I felt that there was a real emphasis on emotional intelligence throughout the movie. Elphaba is always too aware of everything she’s feeling and everything she’s causing at all times, whereas Galinda experiences things through a very abstract lense. Hence why this theme of Elphaba being too aware? and Galinda not being aware enough.
And this is why I think Galinda finds Elphaba so bizarre, and from the moment they meet she becomes obsessed. Ariana plays it as if Galinda was studying Elphaba; she’s constantly looking and analyzing, and when she gets past that barrier of jealousy, she’s mesmerized. It’s why I love the ballroom scene; obviously there’s the intimacy of it all, but there’s also the conflict of this girl who is everything you want to be by being both nothing like you, and so much like you. Galinda realizes how much Elphaba cares about what others think in this moment, but she’s struck by how different Elphaba reacts. That rawness and vulnerability she carries is cathartic because it’s something that is absent from Galinda’s life, both from what she shows others, and what others show her. She’s literally never going to find that freedom anywhere else.
It’s also why I found One Short Day to be so heartbreaking in the movie; in this moment, Elphaba doesn’t need to be overwhelmed by all the things that pour out of her, and Galinda is able to actually just not care and let herself do things. They both get a day without restraints.
#gelphie#wicked#elphaba thropp#glinda upland#I’m sorry for the word vomit#they just make my brain malfunction
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I always feel so weird when I see companies making mega expensive “punk” and “goth” clothes. I used to know this other person who kept on wanting to get into the goth scene, and another one of my friends literally was so willing to help her and get her started out with like music recs and clothing tips and she’d constantly tell us. “Oh, but dressing goth isn’t accessible for me. I don’t have the money.”
Which y’know makes sense, not everybody has the money to drop on getting goth clothes. Especially when your priorities are literally keeping a roof over your head and paying bills. We’re all from working class families here. But then we just kind of realised she was referring to the shit you’d find on like… Killstar or Dollskill and everything made a lot more sense. It’s been making me think. Ever since alternative subcultures such as goth, such as punk, even grunge tbf have made their way into mainstream fashion trends on the internet it’s made people believe that the only way you’re able to get clothes to “dress the part” is to fork out shite tonnes of money to these ridiculously overpriced online clothing stores. (You don’t even have to dress goth for example to be goth because it’s a music based subculture but that’s a whole other thing.)
The way trends are today with this whole, “aesthetic” thing along with the consumerist HELL that is fast fashion sparks a wave people just buying swathes of overpriced clothing to hop onto a clothing trend that is actually ripped from a subculture they don’t really understand? Like part of the whole core of these subcultures is that we are anti-consumerist and anti-capitalist. You are a fucking joke.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not talking negatively about people who truly want to get into these subcultures. There is nothing wrong with that at all, of course there isn’t. I’m talking about people who will see a fashion trend and just hop onto it and really have no idea what they’re doing. (This is part of the reason why I believe it’s unlikely we’ll ever have a new subculture as big as previous ones ever again because of just how everything is a trend now.)
Fashion that has been born from these subcultures has always been DIY. Making your own battle jackets, thrifting pieces of clothing and tweaking them to be how you want. Like… I don’t know about you babes but I don’t think goths in the 80’s were getting their clothes from fucking Hot Topic.
The fact that companies are now and have been making ridiculously priced pieces of clothing to capitalise off of: 1.) People who want to hop on trends because they don’t want to make the clothes they just want the style now, and 2.) People who want to genuinely get into subcultures such as punk and goth but may be misguided as to where to get clothing just makes me so fucking mad because it makes getting into the fashion within these subcultures seem inaccessible and consumerist-ridden when they’re absolutely not meant to be.
#long post#word vomit honestly#anti consumerism#anti capitalist#goth#punk#alt subculture#alternative subcultures#goth fashion#punk fashion#i’m sorry if this makes no sense#I just think about it a lot#more than I should to be honest#music#fashion#anti consumption#alternative
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Okay, the scene where Mami kills Kyouko is actually my single favorite scene in PMMM. I think about it all the time. I love it so much. Which sounds horrible, I know? But I think I love it because of its honest look at the characters in a desperate situation. And how in-character it is for all of them. It’s such a fantastic bit of storytelling from the writers.
Like Mami would absolutely be the first one of them to snap like that. She’s such an emotionally unstable character. Mami, more than any of them, wants to stop witches and save people because that’s how she makes peace with her lifestyle. So, learning that they’ll all turn into witches… of course she’s going to try and eliminate that possibility before it happens, even if it means killing her friends.
But even more so than Mami’s characterization in this scene, I love Madoka’s. I think it would be easy to assume that Homura would be the one to stop Mami, because Homura is seen as the colder character. So, I love that it’s Madoka. Madoka makes the quickest call she can in that moment to save Homura. Maybe they could’ve talked Mami down, and at that point, that would’ve been what Homura tried first. But Madoka couldn’t risk it and needed to react right away.
It shows us that in the main timeline, Homura is giving Madoka the time and space to make her decisions carefully/fully stop her because she knows that Madoka is impulsive when it come to her friends.
Basically it shows their characterization as this: Mami will always try and make the call that she believes will save the most people, Madoka will always try and make the call that saves her friends, and Homura will always try and make the call that saves Madoka. And that’s because for each of them, those are their salvations from the cruelty of being a magic girl.
#and also for homura lesbian reasons#ANYWAY#I feel like ppl may disagree w me but I’m not the sharpest tool sorry#this is more of word vomit than meta#it’s brainrot hours#from the drafts#pmmm#puella magi madoka magica#madoka kaname#homura akemi#kyouko sakura#mami tomoe#sayaka miki#holy quintet
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OOUGHHH been thinking about Grovyle lately and how much I just *clenches fists* love him. Listen to me. Listen,
He is the character of all time. He’s introduced as a wanted criminal stealing something SO forbidden that even the worst Pokemon criminals won’t even touch. That immediately shoots his coolness factor through the ROOF. And the fact that nobody is able to catch him;; AND we see that he’s ridiculously clever and smart and can worm his way out of just about any situation with a bit of quick thinking. And he’s always surrounded in this air of mystery and intrigue and you’re set up to think well yeah he’s stealing Time Gears and stopping time everywhere OBVIOUSLY he has to be an asshole. Except during your first encounter with him he’s very calm and collected and shockingly polite, and even apologizes when he attacks you?? Basically just the opposite of what you’d expect from a criminal. And then to top it off you find out he’s from the FUTURE?? Which is SO sick. And he’s got some secret history with Dusknoir. And when he’s finally captured and being brought into Treasure Town all tied up he doesn’t even act out UNTIL Dusknoir mentions the planet’s paralysis. Which is the first hint you get that things are a leetle sus.
And when you get taken to the future and are about to be executed…he helps you? He has literally zero obligation to do so, esp since you’ve attacked him before. And there’s another subtle hint that maybe deep down he’s got a soft side, that he’s actually not a bad person. And it’s heartbreaking bc he finally knows someone else who is a common enemy of Dusknoir, and he clearly wants to team up with you, bc all this time he’d been by himself in the past and having people he can trust would make things so much easier (and it’s startling how easy he trusts others, too, especially considering everything he’s been through). But your partner isn’t having it and you can FEEL the disappointment he feels that he’s not able to convince you, that you aren’t going to work together, that he can’t have someone else to rely on besides himself. But that little spark, that glimmer of hope comes back when you catch up to him and you’re like yeah we’re going to decide for ourselves what we think about all this. And you find out from Celebi that Grovyle’s always been hasty, always hurrying ahead to try and achieve his goals, and it’s admirable but also regrettable bc he doesn’t ever have time for anything else.
And THEN you discover the truth…that he’s been your partner all along…and he speaks of you so fondly and has such faith in you that he’s totally fine leaving things to you and letting himself get captured because he trusts you SO much. And the despair right after when he finds out you’ve been traveling alongside him the entire time. His precious partner is also going to get captured and executed and the world is doomed to fall into disrepair. But then your partner ignites that spark of hope again and it’s enough, and you make it back to the past, and suddenly things are different but in a good way because Grovyle suddenly has someone to rely on again, even without a memory to go with it. But he can also tell that because of your amnesia he’s no longer important to you, not by choice of course, but you’ve found someone else, a partner suited for you that brings out the best in you. And that’s fucking heartbreaking because everything the two of you shared is gone now, and you’ve moved on, and even though you’re THERE you’re also so far away and so different from the person he once knew. But he knows he has to let you go, had to from the start anyway, because of the sacrifice you were prepared to make. That BOTH of you were prepared to make. And despite the fact that you have no memory he still. Trusts you. Completely. Enough to sacrifice himself to take Dusknoir back to the future. And believe that you’ll follow through with the vow you made and prevent the planet’s paralysis. And he KNOWS you will so he doesn’t know how much time he has left but it doesn’t matter because he’s been prepared to disappear, to die knowing that he’s saved the future, that he made his mark and was able to shine in his finest moments. He can leave this world knowing he did what he set out to do and he made a difference and things will be better for everyone he’s leaving behind. Shut up. Shut UP. I care about him so much I am GOING to explode. THE character ever. You don’t understand,
#I’ve been in love with him since 2008 and I will love him until the day I die.#Fuckign Grovyle PMD. Love of my life. TRULY the best Pokemon character ever written.#Shima speaks#Pokemon#PMD#Pokemon Mystery Dungeon#Grovyle#PMD Grovyle#PMD Sky#PMD2#PMD Explorers#Sorry for the word vomit I’m just SO emo right now. God dammit.#Long post
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back again with another year of raquetball
#not my best whizzer but i’m very happy with this marvin#he was too good to not post so i’m sorry whizzer i’ll redeem you someday#i think there’s been some good improvements#still stuff i need to work on but overall good!!#hoorayyyyyy#falsettos#falsettos fanart#the marvin trilogy#whizzer brown#whizzer falsettos#marvin falsettos#fanart#whizvin#ava’s word vomits
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So you’re in college and you work at a bar where you’re a performer and you have like 18000 side hustles to make money so that you can save up to go to a music festival and also so that you can help out your mom and one day you see a guy (who you got into a scuffle with before in the bathroom) and he’s absolutely wasted so you take him home so he doesn’t get himself or anyone else killed and then y’all start hanging out a bit and end up having a one night stand and now this guy just keeps inserting himself into your life but you actually like it and you’re starting to like him to and you spend your entire birthday with him AND THEN you find out that he’s been in love with his best friend for like. Years. And also said best friend is dating the guy who stole your ex. So now you’re just pissed off and you remember the sex tape your roommate has of the aforementioned ex stealer so you come up with this whole scheme to get it onto your phone so that you can give it to the guy you have a crush on so that he can give it to the guy he has a crush on and you can ruin the ex stealer’s life. This whole thing leads to a massive blow up and you being called a whore by the guy you like and then he drives off but he’s drunk and you unfortunately care about his wellbeing so you go after him and he gets into a car crash so you take him to the hospital and you take care of him and for a moment you’re actually happy but then you see him dancing all romantically with the best friend that he’s in love with. Also you keep getting cockblocked. It is not your day your week your month or your year
#sand and the terrible horrible no good very bad….. few months??? I think???#oh well have this word vomit#I’m sorry it got so long#i can’t control how these things go I’m afraid#only friends#only friends the series
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the way that their first kill had to be passive! the way that they could barely look her in the eye when it came time to slit her throat, but stood back when he “just happened to go under”…
they will do anything to justify the hunt and make it as though the wilderness “chooses,” when their unwillingness to face their victim and take any sort of responsibility makes it all the more evil.
they aren’t reduced to their most primal state out there, they are reduced to the ugliest thing that a person can be. a carnivorous animal doesn’t hesitate or discriminate - it goes for what it can find, and it goes for the jugular. they chose carefully, and they waited.
natalie has seen shit that none of them could possibly imagine. on top of that, she spent hours in the cold every day looking far and wide for this young boy when none of the other girls would. she is the rational one when they start to go off the rails. she is the one having to go out and kill for them, and they are thankless. they owe any ounce of good fortune to the wilderness.
they may be choosing the cards at random but in that moment, she is willing to sacrifice for them after what she’s had to go through. travis is the only one who stands up for her. javi is the only one willing bring her to safety. so she accepts these acts of kindness that she is so rarely met with and runs, only to lose the young boy she spent months searching for to the people who blindly chased her down for slaughter until they realized who they were hunting down.
they let go of the moose that could’ve fed them all, denied the notion of lottie’s plea altogether, and preyed on an easy target - travis’s only remaining family out there, no less. they put themselves and particularly natalie through the very worst, time and time again.
bruh is this the cost of human survival???
what will their “devoted queen” make of this???
#lottie travis natalie javi I’m so sorry#natalie scatorccio you will always be famous#I hate episodes of television#yellowjackets spoilers#lottienat#natalie scatorccio#travis martinez#javi martinez#lottie matthews#yellowjackets#yellowjackets showtime#yellowjackets s2#word vomit
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Till has to have known Ivan had a crush on him right. He's not that oblivious. He didn't think Ivan was trying just to bro it out with him like bros do right. He didn't think they were just pals palling around. He didn't think that his very much straight friend Ivan was just asking for a kissy right.
I feel like this Alien Stage Friday post is going to come back to haunt us later
THIS ALIEN STAGE FRIDAY IS GONNA HAUNT ME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!1!!
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Honestly, I don’t know WHAT is rattling around in Till’s skull.
He may not know that Ivan likes him in the same way that he likes Mizi, but I hope he doesn’t think this is average bro behavior 💀
Kissing your guy friends isn’t just “guys being dudes” Till! That’s guys being gay!! (Or bisexual, at the very least)
And also, what the FUCK Ivan?!?
You think the guy who considered KISSING YOU as a BIRTHDAY PRESENT doesn’t care about you AT ALL????? 🤨
Till wasn’t in Anakt Garden chatting it up with fucking Acorn like “Yeah bro when’s your birthday? I’ll kiss you on the mouth as a gift, no tongue tho.” IT’S JUST YOU.
If any other guy even thought about asking Till to kiss them, he would probably punch their lights out. Actually, I’m surprised he didn’t punch YOUR lights out!!
But the fact that he didn’t means SOMETHING!!!
You think Till wouldn’t be TRAUMATIZED over you SACRIFICING YOURSELF FOR HIM after KISSING HIM LIKE YOU ASKED FOR YEARS AGO?????????? LIKE HE’S NOT GONNA REMEMBER THAT SHIT?????????
#they make me SICK#i hate them (i’m unfortunately lying)#this completely recontextualizes round 6 in a way i was not prepared for#i’ve taken so much psychic damage at this point#i need to be heavily sedated for the next 72 hours#sorry if this is all over the place#i’m word vomiting all of the thoughts trapped in my brain right now#also sorry for so much caps lock#just imagine me screaming those words for emphasis#alien stage#alnst#alien stage friday#alnst friday#alien stage ivan#alnst ivan#alien stage till#alnst till#alien stage ivantill#alnst ivantill#ivantill#and you don’t have to squint this time#ivanttakethis shut up about ivan challenge: impossible#ivanttakethis answers#ivanttakethis talks too much
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I know we’ve all discussed Lucy Gray as a foil for katniss, peeta, snow, ect BUT I think she’s all of them??? Lucy Gray is the blueprint for modern hunger games, and so she has elements of all the victors who came after her
Her theatricality and beauty captured the capitol from the moment she was reaped with nothing but a snake, a song, and a rainbow dress, the same way katniss captured them volunteering for prim. But even more so, she could use her songs the same way peeta used words. She knew how to use her talent in her favor, and ultimately won the hunger games because of it.
She may not have been a career, but she was still offered up as a (forced) sacrifice to protect the other girls of the district. She showed the capitol that the children in the districts were almost human, setting the stage for the luxurious quarters and food tributes came to expect. She’s the whole REASON mags’ 11th games had a victory tour! Parading her around like a spectacle to be dehumanized, instead of a traumatized teenage girl forced to fight for her life and forgotten back in the districts.
Hell, her and tigris’ implied prostitution is likely the origin of snow selling desirable tributes like finnick and cashmere
tldr: Lucy gray is a bad bitch who can’t be compared to just one character from the original series, because she’s an amalgamation of many different victors who came after her, and was largely the inspiration for all future hunger games
#I wanna crawl inside Suzanne Collins’ brain and live there#Lucy gray also reminds me of Johanna but I couldn’t quite figure out how to work that into my word vomit#so excited to see the movie Friday!!!!#lucy gray baird#coriolanus snow#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#finnick odair#mags flanagan#tigris snow#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#tbosas#the hunger games#thg#sorry for word vomiting again I’m just really passionate#also sorry if this is something that someone else has said
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HELLLOO MONAKA >:3
So your child star au, is branch a lil cocky? Like you've mentioned about him in world tour and being famous expecting people to know him. I just wanna kinda grasp his personality a lil more 💖
HIIII ROSE HEHHHE
Anyway he’s def cocky and maybe a little self centered here. He’s lived in his own bubble for pretty much his whole life while living with 3 older brothers (one of which is vicariously living through him) and constantly being the center of attention at a young age its expected.
Like in the movies even in the first movie you’ll notice he would flex his singing skills every chance he gets its that but 100x worse here
He’s a bit of a coward, he avoids confrontation on basically everything. Maybe even paranoid that if he messes up everyone will be disappointed and hate him. He definitely overthinks things.
I feel like some people would misinterpret him as selfish when he’s actually the complete opposite just want to make that clear. He will put up with shenanigans and being in mortal peril if it means keeping everyone happy and safe.
He probably doesn’t have a very good idea of what he himself likes. More of a follower than leader, his public persona is probably the complete opposite of who he actually is.
#trolls#trolls au#child star branch au#perfect family harmony au#idk if this is helpful I just started word vomiting o_0#trolls branch#sorry for slow posts I’m working on a comic rn and another au ;3
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I’ve made a billion fucking drafts and can’t find the words to talk about cellbit and bagi from today. how the fuck do you explain the intricacies between a brother who has lived a life that has sharpened him to cut what he touches, and a sister who had to live with his absence? a man who has to see the childhood he never got to have whenever he looks at the woman he now knows is his twin? said twin who cannot understand why her brother would be anything but glad they are reunited? how do you get across that tangled mess of emotions cellbit had to get him to burn his old pet worm? the paradox of longing for what could have been while desperate to get rid of any reminder, with a healthy dose of paranoia that anything could be a federation bug. or the pure devotion bagi has to decide to stick with her brother even though he is not close to the same as he was when he went missing? the unfairness of it all, of cellbit being taken and made into a killer before he turned 14, of bagi looking for him at the detriment of her own safety and self, of ripped up childhoods and everything that could have been? the fact that the first thing cellbit asks is what he could have done to deserve it? the disgust he holds for himself for what he’s done, and the anger he has for the federation that’s taken everything from him, and the resentment he has towards bagi no matter how unfair it is because she never had to go through what he did? how after bagi swore to help him burn the federation down, cellbit went to bad instead, because bad was there and fought alongside him, and he trusts bad because he’s seen him at his worst, and all he feels like doing is his worst right now? the two of them so similar still because they’re consumed by their need for revenge, while bagi just wants to leave the island? how the fuck can you summarize all this and the emotions that accompany it?
#adding this here a lil too late but bagi’s own resentment because she’s been looking for years and he’s been doing nothing even though he#doesn’t remember#like great! you put more childhood trauma and the feeling you get coming home to a place that isn’t home anymore in my minecraft rp :/#like. fuck what do we do with all this???#there’s such a specific visceral anguish around ruined childhood and knowing that things will never be like the good old days again yknow?#especially when said childhood ruiner is ‘I was taken from my home and made to fight in a literal war’ like wtaf#or when it’s losing a sibling and missing them like a lost fucking organ#sorry if this is too train of conciousness I’m tired and word vomiting and emotional at all this pfkdjfjs#idk I have thoughts I cannot verbalize about this. tv static in my chest#all this lead up to tomorrow where Cellbit will finally meet hatsune miku#mcyt#qsmp#cellbit#q!cellbit#bagi#q!bagi#q!bbh#z speaks
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imodna has been so subtle from the beginning and deniers have always claimed they’re like sisters or another platonic familial relationship and like no explicit mention of romantic feelings has ever been made before. There was dusk/yu asking if they were romantically entangled and imogen calling laudna beautiful all the time and various pregnant pauses that you could read into if you ship it but Everything has been implied or subtext. Obviously it’s a popular ship, but the cast is under no obligation to make something canon just because it’s popular. I spent so much energy trying to wrangle my expectations of canon imodna and convincing myself it’s fine if they’re just platonic soulmates and never are canon romantically
The “Can I kiss you?” was such a steel fucking chair because it was the first time something romantic between them was explicitly stated and I love Laura so much for that bold move
#sorry i’m just word vomiting all my thoughts right now#i genuinely could not tell you how much i’ve rewatched it#critical role#cr spoilers#imodna#sorcerer babes
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What are Mike and Will’s top three artists? (Idk if you’ve mentioned it before sorryy)
oooh i don’t think we’ve named specific favorites for them before!! i don’t know if we’ll be able to just name Three (edit: coming back to proofread after typing out this ask. i did not just name Three), bc to me acswy mike and will both have pretty varied music tastes — i think they’d both listen to a lot of different genres and artists, especially music that their friends/family/assorted loved ones introduce them to that might not be something they’d usually go for.
mike: we did mention in ch2 that mike has a demon days poster above his bed in the blue cabin, and while i don’t think gorillaz is one of his Favorite groups by any means, i do think he 1. listens to them a lot while driving specifically and 2. just reallyyyy loves their album art. to me mike is also such a pop punk enjoyer, so i think some of his go-tos include bands like all time low and paramore and blink-182, probably with a little midwest emo thrown in bc the boy did literallyyyyy grow up in indiana. i do also think he has a soft spot for feel-good pop, especially boyband music like 1D and BTR, and i think 5sos is not technically a boyband (or that they don’t like to be called one? iirc? maybe?) but i think he would listen to them quite a bit as well! really and truly i think mike would just like a little bit of everything, and his fav artists probably rotate a lot depending on his mood.
will: always a jeff buckley enthusiast across universes to meeeee, and the clear answers here are also the cure/the clash and other oldies rock OBVIOUSLYYYY but i think he would also totally dabble in typical 2020s Male Manipulator Music lol with likeeeee peach pit and the backseat lovers and the strokes especially. i think he’d also be into midwest emo (cannot escape his fate), and maybe also deftones and ptv a little bit (<- self indulgent and me projecting but i am not sorry). i think he also has a soft spot for pop, but not really in the same way mike does — for example, el definitely makes him listen to a lot of carly rae jepsen and the like when they’re together, and he also has a lot of good memories of listening to older pop songs with his mom when he was younger! like. he hits shuffle on his liked songs and it’s destiny’s child followed by radiohead followed by jenny by studio killers. he contains multitudes i’m afraid
#jenny by studio killers is a very special will song to me. if you guys care. i’ll scream it until i’m blue in the face#i also rec’d a fic on my main blog that basically cemented will as a sufjan stevens enjoyer for me for life#likeeee that is my canon now. sorry#anyways i’m so sorry i know you asked for Three and i just word vomited at you#but i just am so insane about them#and their music.#i have a lot of thoughts#asks#acswy reference
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took myself on a little shopping trip yesterday in the city where i used to study in hopes of lifting my spirits but by the end of the day i felt so disheartened. wandering the same streets 10 years later and not much has changed. i’m still the same lonely unlovable girl.
#i just wanted to have a good time and not rot in bed for once on my work free weekend but of course my brain can’t let that happen#it was such a lovely day actually the weather was sunny and windy it wasn’t too hot or cold ideal weather to stroll through the city#i had delicious food and found some comfortable clothes but at the end of the day i just felt so empty and worn out#seeing all these couples and friend groups and families and i’m still all by myself after so many years#tbh i’m even lonelier now than i was 10 years ago back then i at least had a few friends#idk what i’m doing with my life tbh.. i just want to be happy but even when i take myself on a cute little date i end up feeling miserable#bc it just hits me how truly lonely i am#i fear i’m incapable of forming any genuine relationships anymore bc i had so many bad experiences that i just stopped trying to connect..#with anyone.. even though i crave community friendship companionship and love i completely shut myself off from the world#i’m not even sure what i’m trying to say with all this.. i wish i knew how to be a person in this world#i wish i could be happy#tbh ever since i got back from my italy vacation i’ve been feeling depressed bc life could be so beautiful if i didn’t have to sacrifice..#almost all of my time for work#the post vacation depression is too real…#realizing you can only spend a very limited time traveling and enjoying yourself bc you have to work most of the time just to afford living#let me stop.. i keep rambling and my thoughts are falling like a waterfall#idk what’s wrong with me… i should have breakfast and put my phone away#sorry to anyone who actually reads all this word vomit#☁️
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me and gutenberg on saturday I’m gonna
#the andrew one looks bad I’m so sorry#anyways#gutenberg#gutenberg the musical#andrew rannells#josh gad#ava’s word vomits
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it’s about this boy this adaptation that takes a predator and makes him back into a boy he’s just a boy and he wants to keep children safe from the horrors of the world before, keep them safe in the way he never was, create a shelter for them not in isolation but in family. he tells them a bed time story like some kind of pied piper, he leads them away into a fantasy so that the future–past they’re all hurtling towards can be staved off just a little longer. the last thing he downloaded before the satellite went dead was the wikipedia entry on capitalism— he asks if he should just delete it. he spends every waking moment after trying to keep it from happening again. “there is no before.”
it’s about this girl this girl who has never had the chance to say goodbye who holds people so close that sometimes they end up passing through her altogether and she knows the boy’s story, it’s his bedtime story— but it’s her guiding light. she remembers damage too, the damage and horror of the world before, but instead of falling into a fantasy she makes herself a horror, makes herself untouchable. because if she couldn’t pretend the world was something better then at least she could protect herself from the worst this new world has to offer. knives tucked into hair, boots, belts, sharpened lovingly and methodically. she picked up her first knife out of the pool of her brother’s blood, wiped it clean. spends hours throwing it end over end into the wall of the cabin— she never misses. “to the monsters, we’re the monsters.”
it’s about their parallel lives, their ever-narrowing orbit around one another their inevitable collision. it’s about a knife drawn like a breath and pressed tight under his jaw. it’s about his gasped words in response to the sudden blade. were they a threat? a promise? did it matter? because, really, it’s about the knife he didn’t see coming— fast, short, sharp as anything, and deep in his guts. “Kirsten, why are you helping me?” “stabbing you didn’t work.”
#sorry this is absolute word vomit i just had to get it out#kirsten and tyler’s dynamic makes me crazy in the head genuinely#like i have never wanted enemies to soulmates so badly#it doesn’t even have to be romantic they’re just such twin flames such mirrored disasters#it’s all SOOOOO!!!!#AUGH!!!!!#i’m genuinely shocked by the lack of fandom on here for this show like it’s criminal#it’s so fucking good#station eleven#station 11#myken talks
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