#I’m so tired of it all

[yautjalover]

I don’t know if anyone here is reading my fic “Kira”, but I promise I’m working on the next chapter! Depression has hit me hard again, yay, so it’s been hard to do anything productive.

I’ve put down 2k words and may just upload it as is. This particular chapter I wanted a big thing to occur, but I feel it deserves it’s own giant chapter. Plus, I just haven’t had the brain power. I’ve been stressing about everything. 😅

With my country actively participating in a fucking genocide in supporting a fascist neo-nazi colonial settler regime, day to day life becoming harder with artificial price hikes by corporations that own everything, both presidential candidates being unfit for office and too old, and then just dealing with my own personal baggage has been exhausting. I’ve found it hard to really continue writing these past weeks. It’s hard to do anything knowing my country is collapsing, the world is burning but no one cares, and then watching evil win again and again just really kills motivation.

I’ll never give it up. Writing is one of the few true joys in my life.

Life has just been a lot.

I hope my readers will understand. 😭 I know I’ve made a post like this before, and I know I can be a “negative nancy”, as I’ve been called before, but since I can’t provide an update on Ao3 like I can WP, then I’ll update here! 🥲

[questwithambition]

Spending the summer after I graduate in a semi constant state of anxiety because of medical issues and appointments really wasn’t on the bucket list

[beautiful-songbird]

You know what I realized…I actually just don’t like when people have strong opinions about people who disagree with them.

You didn’t like that book? Cool. You’re fighting with the people who like it? Not cool.

You loved that book? Cool. You’re fighting with people who didn’t like it? Not cool.

People have different opinions, especially when it comes to media. Why can no one seem to respect this? Don’t insult someone just because they didn’t like your favorite book series. Don’t insult someone just because they like a series you think is bad.

Why are full grown adults insulting each other on the internet based off of book tastes??? You guys do realize that no one is going to agree with you 100% of the time, right????

[arandombiped]

I know it’s really early for me but I’m really worn out

bedtime post

overall 3/10 day

had to deal with that one guy. ruined my day. tried to talk to my mom about it. she couldn’t even bring herself to try and see my side. she agrees with him. she thinks it’s ok to misgender me. even though it hurts. she couldn’t bring herself to be on my side because she thinks God would have a problem with it.

i am so tired.

songs for tonight

Gn yall <3

[cyberr-v0id]

I hate you stomach ache I hate you sore hand muscles I hate you head ache I hate you sore ear I hate you chest pain when swallowing I hate you sore foot I hate you random pain over my body I hate you stabbing pain in my muscles I hate you ache over my knee I hate you crackly joints I hate you easy to roll ankles I hate you asthma I hate you severe back pain I hate you pins and needles I hate you painful hiccups I hate you skin conditions I hate you all

[rosescented-tears]

I hate AI so much. Idc. I love people, I love REAL things. I love knowing someone dedicated their entire life to do one thing and I love seeing the result of that thing. I love knowing there’s a living breathing person behind something. I love knowing someone poured their heart and soul into making that something. People are so beautiful and AI is so devastating.

[xpvnk]

I did every single thing on my to-do list today, I exercised, I cleaned, bills got paid, etc etc and yet today sucked and I feel like shit

[ptsdickgrayson]

“Cis is a slur” like damn I wish we actually did have a slur for cisgenders cuz I fucking hate them

[youknowitslove]

sometimes i hate my brother for being able to sit on his phone while my mum and i make tea, for being able to walk around in shorts and not feel embarrassed or self-conscious, for being able to go to prom wearing shorts and a fucking hoodie and no-one pointing it out, for being able to walk around the streets without fear of being kidnapped, for not flinching when he hears footsteps behind him, all because he was born with a dick.

[chloesimaginationthings]

Oooo I love the way you draw Jeff he's cute <333

I hope I did Jeff justice.. gotta love tired men

[apostaterevolutionary]

Okay can I be a bitter Anders fan for like. Just 2 minutes here lmao

Cause bioware released some game stats for veilguard and apparently 72% of players redeemed Solas which is like. Okay yeah the game kinda pushes you towards that. But when I think of all the shit I used to have to put up with just for enjoying Anders like at all and…

(This is not me being anti-Solas, I do not care if you love or hate him, but I am gonna say what he’s done is like. Objectively worse than literally every other companion so lmao. And that’s fine! You can still enjoy him! I’m not saying you can’t and it’s important to me that people understand that! I’m just saying he did in fact do objectively morally worse things in game than Anders did and I don’t think that’s really debatable. And I can’t really make my point here without saying that but I do want to make it clear this is not some moral condemnation of Solas enjoyers cause it’s not)

Getting anon hate on the regular, being told “oh you’re allowed to like Anders as long as you regularly talk about how much he sucks”, people gleefully describing how much fun they have killing him ON your posts about the fact that you like him, the devs making jokes about shitty fates for him when fans asked innocent questions about him, the absolute audacity of his writer to say half the shit she did in interviews (about bisexuality and mental illness, most critically), and then being beaten over the head again in inquisition about how Anders is the worst character to ever exist and there’s no redemption for terrorists who lie to you one time in the entire game and he deserves death or worse and that’s it

And now… 72% of people are down to redeem the guy who lies to you for 2 games straight and who did a lot of questionable things that includes creating the fucking blight and. Like. I guess I’m glad that Solas fans can live in a world where they aren’t constantly harassed and can give their ship like. A pretty damn good ending all things considered. And that the devs love Solas and actually give the option for that happy ending and have characters go to bat for Solas throughout the game and the most annoying thing they have to see are people making scrambled egg memes. I would not wish anyone to have to deal with the shit Anders fans had to put up with back then cause it sucked. It really sucked. And I’m glad it’s not being repeated with a different character, if nothing else

But like. Man there really is a difference when the writers actually like the character who does the thing, huh

[shorthaltsjester]

when people think delilah just completely takes over and laudna has no control. when people think jester is just an uwu child who has been manipulated by every man she’s met. when people think vex is an empty husk of daddy issues without her brother by her side. when people think fjord is an arrogant asshole who doesn’t pay attention to the party around him. when people think scanlan saying that vox machina doesn’t care about him is an accurate assessment.

[jkftkth]

fucking disgusting how so many big boycotter accounts are using the recent bt21 announcement to confirm tae’s “endorsement” despite how many people are in their replies correcting them.

instead of taking a step back to realize they never knew how long this collab has been official for, they double down on their lies.

they don’t even know what they’re fighting for “in the name of love” because they apparently have no problem spitefully hyping up anyone who is spreading the same misinfo as them, even if those anyones ends up being vile racist incels. this is not activism.

this is being consumed by so much hate you’re blinded.

I’m not posting any of the full asks I’ve received but I wanted to share my thoughts on the recent fandom bullshit. While it’s valid to feel disappointed by Tae's photo, the level of vitriol directed at him is so disproportionate to the situation. All this over a photo from over a year ago that was part of a multi-post photo dump? This wasn’t some deliberate attempt at making a statement nor was it declaring his support for isr@el, bffr.

So labeling him as “evil” or claiming that he had some malicious intent is incredibly unfair, and honestly, such an insane take, especially when weighed against everything we do know about him as a person. People jumping to all these drastic, disgusting conclusions about his character based on this one photo just completely disregard the fact that he, like so many other people, might not be aware of all the nuances and implications that fans read into. Like, I literally just responded to someone about how it’s unfair to blame him for how others perceive him and his actions. And accusing him of posting that photo with some nefarious ulterior motive feels like such a stretch.

So while I do think it’s valid to express disappointment, saying Tae deserves hate is bullshit. Everyone dogpiling on him and harassing him genuinely doesn't care about what they’re supposedly advocating for – it's devolved into a means for engaging in petty ass fan wars, which is even more upsetting. And they don't care that the selective activism is diminishing the actual cause – instead of focusing on meaningful conversations and using this as an opportunity to properly educate those who might be unaware, they’re using it to incite a whole ass hate campaign and create more conflicts.

And I genuinely hate arguing with whataboutisms, but I can’t help but point out the amount of hypocrisy that’s on the timeline, which tells me that the reactions aren’t coming from a place of genuine concern, but are likely influenced by their own personal dislike for Tae as a person. And lbr, we all saw the difference in reactions when it came to the other members and even other idol groups doing the same thing, if not worse. None of them actually care, they just don't like Tae, and the "activism" feels so disingenuous and gross.

[synthwavecryptid]

mods are asleep, post tender old men

[domesticateddog]

i wish someone would just kill me with a brick

[bloobydabloob]

Holy shit I love your Dirk interpretations, it's so true and I could talk about this shit forever. I feel like another part of his character that people seem to forget (along with Roxy for some reason) is that he's from the future in solitude in an apocalyptic wasteland. I just see that part of his character always removed which is disappointing because I feel like that's a pretty big part, especially regarding his themes around technology, his brother's theme of Time, his own isolation, and how he plays in the vastness of the universe and spacetime.

Art I drew related to the subject because I like to respond to asks with art.

But absolutely. I certainly understand where the lack of discussion over his isolation + upbringing comes from, considering a majority of the fanbase that I have seen builds their ideas based on their own version of postcanon. I’m not entirely sure how that would be fixed, but certainly even in the somewhat recent past I would see a lot more content regarding his upbringing both literally and symbolically. I don’t have much to add regarding the things you’ve mentioned, because they just are what they are. Dirk being confined to a singular room left to him by a father figure he never met, in a future where the only other person left on the planet is someone he cannot pursue a relationship of because of himself, with purely 3 robots to keep him companion, one being an exact replica of his own brain who is *also* trapped inside a pair of glasses, is about as literal as it gets to me.

The contrast to me involving the flooded, organic world in comparison to the little speckle of Dirk’s apartment packed with the dude and his technics is not only a representation of his isolation and entrapment within himself, but also of his lack of control. I think his obsession with & themes of control are a direct product in the case of Dirk specifically *of* this kind of upbringing. His themes of technology are also related to his themes around control. So much of his character is actually revolved around this to me like so much. Dirk is so deeply disconnected from humanity in every way and so much of his character + symbolism is based around that.

It doesn’t even have to be about the symbolism or anything though. It’s just pretty *interesting* in the literal sense that he lives in the middle of the ocean in the future. There’s not only a lot to theorise on to do with his young life there, but on how it might affect him in the way he acts for the rest of his life. The latter part is probably what I see mentioned the most by people talking about Dirk regarding this, I’m surprised I don’t see more discussion on the former too though. I really ought to actually talk more about Homestuck stuff on here. I will do it myself.

Roxy & Dirk’s relationship is largely ignored though because there is a narrative a certain demographic spreads that Dirk resented and blamed Roxy for her interest in him, and thus too many people believe that their relationship was or would continue to be an abusive one. Realistically, I believe it’s important to acknowledge that the way Roxy treated Dirk regarding his homosexuality wasn’t right while still acknowledging the obvious amount of respect and admiration Dirk had for Roxy. I mean we have a huge piece of dialogue from their post trickster mode conversations on the quest beds from Dirk purely stating how he feels about Roxy that people completely ignore somehow. I think this usually happens to characters that are women though. I know everyone says it, but it is true. Jane gets the exact same treatment of boiling her down to solely her negative aspects. The things I see completely mischaracterising both of them are horrific.

I mean how much more explicit can it get that their relationship is obviously very important to Dirk? But I digress. I think the best or I should say “most interesting” interpretations of their relationship usually come from DirkRoxy shippers actually.

I would be interested to hear about Dirk’s relation to his brother’s theme of time though. I don’t have any thoughts on this and I don’t recall ever hearing anyone talk about it before. If you or anyone else would be willing to enlighten me I’d be thrilled.