#I’m really fucking scared
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If this gets 10,000 notes I’ll tell everyone I’m non-binary…
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Facing homelessness 😀🤙
#I’m really fucking scared#why do I always get the shit end of the stick#it’s freezing. I have no where to go. no credit. can’t rent. I’m so stuck and scared I don’t even know what to do#TW rant#<- it’s in the tags but still
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listen i know we all love steve “completely ignorant of queer culture to the point that bisexuality is a surprise” harrington being roasted and educated in turns by robin and eddie, yadda yadda, good stuff. i read “they made a horror version of rocky?” in a fic recently and cackled. also a big fan of “he knew he was bi from the start and just never talked about it” as a trope, love it excellent well done
but what about steve who realizes after starcourt that the most important person in his life now has this thing that’s a major part of her life that he knows nothing about, and what if he fucks it up? what if he says something ignorant or rude by accident, and hurts her? what if he loses her because he didn’t know the right thing to say? what if he can’t keep her safe because he doesn’t know what to look out for? absolutely fucking not, this steve says
and listen she’d never say anything, because she can tell that he can tell how much she likes teasing him and teaching him things, so he plays dumb, and she thinks it’s very sweet. but she notices when the zines she keeps under her bed that she buys at that one secret bookshop in indy when she can sneak away on family trips start going missing, always one at a time, and replaced in a few days with another disappearing. and she finds the new ones he must have gone to buy the weekend she was at her aunt’s house hidden in the back of his closet when she goes to steal one of his sweaters. and she notices when he slips more of her queerer movie recommendations into his personal take home pile rather than the movie night stack when he thinks she’s not looking.
she doesn’t notice when he drives to indianapolis after she tries to explain to him why she can’t just ask out a cute girl, tries to impress on him the fear attached to every moment of attraction that he simply has never had to feel, but later she finds a crumpled receipt from a diner in one of his jacket pockets when she’s looking for his keys, and the address is across the street from the bar the gorgeous woman at the bookstore told her about, the one she memorized the address of but hasn’t worked up the guts to think about visiting, and she knows he must have gone looking for a place like that, must have been trying to understand, must have been scoping it out to make sure it was somewhere she could feel safe, after she told him she never had.
so when eddie nearly pops a blood vessel when they clock each other and she mentions that steve is the only person she’s ever come out to before, her hackles come up. because she gets it, she does, he’s only known king steve until recently, so it makes sense that he would be afraid, be concerned for her safety.
but steve is her person, and no one- no one- has ever made her feel as protected or as cared for as he does. no one has ever tried as hard to understand her, no one has ever put so much work into making her feel safe and seen and loved. and she thinks maybe even if no one else ever does, that’s ok. because she has steve, and more importantly steve has her, and that means no one gets to question his ally credentials in her presence without a dressing down to remember, no matter how well they mean or how recently they helped save the world.
(and maybe she’s not as surprised as she could be when he figures out bisexuality all on his own, because she’s been reading all the same pamphlets he has, after all. and she’s seen the way he looks at eddie, i mean come on. maybe no one else has noticed, but then, nobody knows steve harrington like she does.)
#stranger things#steve harrington#robin buckley#platonic stobin#steddie#(if you squint)#this got away from me#i just really love love giving steve a bit more credit yk?#like yes he’s very stupid and he has a history of being self absorbed#and we love that about him#he’s very flawed and that makes him interesting#but i really feel like one of his defining traits is his need to be useful to the people he loves#combine that with his abandonment issues and i really feel like he would be scared of fucking up and losing robin#and yeah he would play dumb like he does with dustin and d&d#but i don’t believe he knows nothing about d&d after all this time and i don’t believe he would let himself know nothing about queer culture#i’m just so so attached to the idea of steve who knows that teasing him for being dumb is his friends’ love language with him#so he pretends to be dumber than he is so they have chances to explain things to him#also stobin sharing clothes is so so so important to me just putting that out there#anyway i just think they’re neat#my writing
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No one asked but “I’m scared” is such an underrated motivation for a character to do shitty things to others.
Sometimes it’s just that simple, but there’s always some deeper meaning as to why that character is scared— like the Bad Guy heavily traumatized Protagonist and now Protagonist is deathly afraid of getting on Bad Guy’s bad side again. It’s so underrated that a character is scared solely because the situation and personal consequences scare them more than the determent of others.
Maybe I’m not looking at that kinda of media that much, but sometimes I kinda just want a character to do shitty things to others because they’re scared. Like pressing the Big Red Button is gonna launch a nuke at the building they’re currently in with the Bad Guy, but if they chose not to then the whole rest of the city gets leveled by the Bad Guy’s evil death laser of doom— and then they chose not to press the button because they’re just frankly scared of dying. They entered this fight hoping to walk away, and now between the choice to save themselves or save others they indirectly kill everyone they knew because they were just to scared to pull the trigger on themselves.
So yeah maybe make characters be cowards a little more often?
#and I don’t mean the ‘uwu I’m so scared of everything but especially other people’ type of coward usually found in anime esque games#I solely mean cowards#people severely underprepared for the situations they’ve found themselves in#and now are to scared to act in the preservation of others for fear that the consequences for that are to hefty a price#and I also see why being scared is such an underrated motivation#the worst thing a character can do is be annoying because that makes the reader not want to read anymore#and being scared is really fucking annoying sometimes#so I get that if a character starts out a coward then they’ll probably develop past that#they’ll become self sacrificing or greedy with fear as the main drive as for why#but like it would be so tragic if at the end of the story a character underwent all that development#only to still be the same coward the auidence started with#that would be so tragically awesome if done well
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I know Beardsley already alluded to thing but it was really sad and powerful when Kristen tells Cassandra that she knows “chaotic is not cute.” And then Cassandra straight up tells her, “I can’t rely on you.”
And Kristen and the entire audience have to agree. It’s really humbling for me as an audience member but I’m guessing also for Kristen in that moment
#it kind of reminds me of the beginning of acoc when the cast realized oh FUCK this shit is serious and we might all die#chaotic is not cute#at least it no longer is junior year#both of my junior years were really quite stressful#oh damn they’re talking about that same sentiment in the adventuring party#it’s really weird cause normally I as an audience member side with the party and the intrepid heroes#but I was fully on Cassandra’s side#poor Cassandra#dimension 20#d20#fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#fhjy ep 3#fantasy high spoilers#fhjy spoilers#not all who wanda are lost spoilers#not all who wanda are lost#fantasy high cassandra#I’m a bit scared for kalina’s return#live reaction
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I want yall to know that it was technically Torbek’s entire character that made me realize what Kremy and Gideon’s character arcs are, and that they even had character arcs in the first place
And I have an actual explanation for this. I’m not just pulling this out of my ass here.
Torbek from the get-go is everything that Kremy and Gideon are not. He is honest (or as honest as he can be), kind, compassionate, morally decent (I’d say the goblinoids are the 2 party members with the highest morals), and is incredibly emotional (and forthright with said emotions).
Not to say that the husbands are incapable of being any of these things—in fact, Kremy and Gideon both have repeatedly shown signs of kindness and compassion, both to their friends and to strangers. But also…im not gonna sugarcoat it, they’re not good people. They steal, they destroy, they murder (and actively enjoy the murdering process—or at least Gid does), etc. Kremy’s whole character is built on lies (literally his part of the opening poem says “when turned to words, could only lie”), and Gideon is very emotionally stunted (I’ve made a separate post going into this fairly in-depth, so I’m not gonna get too into it here, but he clearly hides behind a mask of anger whenever he feels genuinely sad, nervous, frightened, etc).
Anyway, I didn’t realize that Kremy has been going through a sort of character arc regarding his lies until they met Pincushion, where Kremy tried lying and bullying his way into getting what he wants (and it not working), and Torbek tried being kind and truthful into getting what information they needed (and it working wonderfully).
#yall im gonna have a fucking field day analyzing these fuckers once S2 starts#yall think I haven’t shut up about them now#I really won’t shut up about them once the hiatus ends#if it ends#*sigh* someday they’ll return#also I do eventually wanna go really in depth about frost and the goblinoids character arcs#since I know I haven’t mentioned them at all except in passing#but theirs I feel like I need to wait until the campaigns end#since I have no idea what a couple of their character arcs are or where they’ll lead#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#ouaw#kremy lecroux#gideon coal#torbek#also unrelated but I’m scared Torbek might be doomed by the narrative#but that’s a discussion for another day#anyway goodnight
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my two moods are:
1. steve harrington has final girl energy and nothing can kill him
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2. steve harrington is destined to die a tragic and martyrous death and i will never be okay again
#season 5 i have my eye on u 👁️#okay but if steve really dies i’ll never recover i’m so serious#that’s my princess and i cannot lose him i’ve projected way too much of myself onto his character#also scared for him to be final girl bc i know the duffers will find some way to fuck up his character arc#keep steve in ur prayers#he’s too sexy for this world#steve harrington#steve harrington headcanon#steve harrington hc#steddie#joe keery#fruity four#steve x eddie#eddie x steve#stranger things 5#st5 predictions#st5 theory#stranger things#steve harrington my beloved
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guys genuinely i’m both excited and terrified the dhmis pilot will be shown in full again because . first off, never before seen (by me) content, and we don’t get that a lot in the dhmis fandom. possibly new characters, dialogue, etc!! second, THE CREATORS DONT EVEN LIKE IT AND HID IT FROM THE PUBLIC AFTER IT WAS SEEN ONCE WHAT IS IN ITTT😭
#i know a couple reasons is that it’s not the direction they wanted to take and they thought they could have written some things better#BUT FROM HOW LITTLE THEY’VE TALKED ABOUT IT..#AND FROM SO LITTLE WEVE SEEN#im honestly scared there’s gonna be a moment or two that is just not good at all and possibly shockingly bad (for me at least)#but tbh. they are kinda really smart at making things and i don’t think they’d fuck up that bad#STILL WHO KNOWS.#also like mari im terrified of seeing morgan in HD#MORGAN DOESNT EXIST (delusional)#i actually don’t care too much about morgan it just. surprised me is all 💀#anyway i’m actually mostly excited and i’m hoping we’ll get to see the full pilot in HD or someone will actually record the whole thing#like i said in the reblog i’m mentally preparing myself for a “he would not fucking say that” moment#anyway see y’all when it airs#for later#☎️#dhmis#don’t hug me i’m scared#dhmis wakey wakey#dhmis pilot
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how am i coping with the US election today, you ask?
with ✨memes✨
#i already voted don’t worry#i did my part#now it’s just a waiting game#my mental health is ✨suffering✨#hence the memes to keep my sanity 🙃#anyways happy destiel love confession anniversary to all who celebrate#destiel#spn#supernatural#nov 5th#nov 5 2024#us politics#2024 election#i’m really fucking scared y’all#reinanova rambles#us election#go vote#vote harris#vote vote vote
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loving and moving my body this week (25.11.-01.12.)
Monday. pilates for strength and flexibility [30 mins] // [12 mins surprise]
Tuesday. restorative evening yoga flow [14 mins] // [6 min surprise]
Wednesday. gentle morning pilates (miracle cure) [20 mins] // [10 mins surprise]
Thursday. yoga sculpt [24 mins] // [13 mins surprise]
Friday. yoga to ease into the day [20 mins] // [13 mins surprise]
Saturday. ballet dance and stretch routine [24 mins]
Sunday. power pilates [20 mins]
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November coming to an end (??!!) has me hyperaware of the rapid passage of time. This week, I’m trying to find my focus through my selection, building trust in myself and graceful strength.
In case the suggestion doesn’t feel right for that day, here are some alternatives (13 minutes or less, can also be used as add-ons). No shame in taking it slow! Let’s move according to our needs! :) bedtime yoga stretch to release stress & tension [13 mins] // beginner’s ballet flexibility [8 mins]// slow & smooth beginner belly dance workout [12 mins] // lazy girl full body workout [7 mins] // express pilates [10 mins]
#workout#I procrastinated a lot until I finally did those 30 mins#fantastic#extremely luxurious#I feel really good#I’m always a little scared of my split class because I’m the most inflexible one in there and my hips are fucked up etc etc#so idk this was a nice wake up session
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Begging everyone to please be normal about this man
#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#mithrun#ryoko kui#who am i kidding?#they are not going to be normal about a single aspect of his character#also i am super afraid for the mithrun says a slur scene#because this fandom sucks so bad with racism in dunmeshi (despite it being a major theme)#either they’ll excuse mithrun for being a twink#or demonise mithrun despite the fact every dunmeshi character is really fucking racist#it will be enlightening though#ughhh the racism thing annoys me so much because ryoko kui genuinely writes these themes of race so interestingly and shows how it manifests#in all the characters#rather than just racism=bad and only bad people can be racist#instead we see the roots of#i’m not just scared because people are gonna infantilise him or twinkify him#but because i also know another half of you all are gonna demoise tf out of him in order to combat the first group
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i’m realizing that one of my favorite ways to create a character is by first establishing a major flaw of theirs and then examining how that will inevitably fuck them up a bit. then fleshing them out from there
#i’m realizing that’s how i created like. the majority of the characters i rp with LMAOOO i would start with flaws i think would be#interesting to examine in whatever story they’re in !!!!!!!! and then i’d build out positive traits/backstory in order to flesh them out#but starting with that major flaw really helps me build their character i’m realizing . i’m doing it with the new rp oc i’m trying to make#like for sae (after deciding she’s a fisherman) i wanted her to deal with impatience. sadie is self centered + controlling. erin is fake af#and even for dnd characters i’ve played like immian is a hermit and naive while tinni is SCARED as FUCK!#i really honestly believe flaws are greatttt for your characters story. like just in general really good for a guy to have negative traits#that will impact the narrative in a way that almost feels inevitable and thus force them to confront it OR succumb to it#so instead of starting with going Oh Well Sae is Nice and working from there i’m able to say oh sae is actually pretty hot headed deep down#which allows me to build more traits based off of that… she’s resilient bc she doesn’t want to BE hot headed. stubborn as fuck#wise bc she wants to grow. slow talking bc of her afi which connects to her backstory which connects to being hot headed#guys is this anything at all. is this microphone on. it’s 2am#lee chat
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𝐌𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐑𝐨𝐨𝐤♥
That’s Lucanis’ hand btw. I can’t wait to romance him!!
I’m so sorry for the low quality😭 I will see if I can try and reupload it with better resolution.
Anywaysss I hope yall like him!!
#dragon age#lucanis#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#datv#dragon age the veilguard#rookanis#shadow dragon rook#I heard that you can apparently fuck up his romance really badly I’m scared😭
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by the way im like nearly halfway through season three of mob psycho and I see what the serizawa/reigen people are on now. like yeah you know what i do think two cripplingly lonely probably definitely gay guys in their early thirties would end up with Something happening if you put them in a room together for long enough. don’t get me wrong i honestly think it would suck at least a little bit, but there’s Something There, i hear you. there is a possibility of me getting more invested depending on how they interact in the future…there’s Stuff here i need to like place them next to each other and observe them. put them in like a petri dish.
#also I know reigens like what. 29? but serizawa’s exactly 30 I think and like#yeah that’s on the Edge of early thirties but like. they pass the vibe check.#lemon speaks#OH ON THE OTHER HAND whatever the fuck ritsu and sho have going on is very entertaining#Like what do you Mean you told him he looked good in a maid dress and said it Like That like..?#sho do you have something???? to say???????#not even mentioning him practically seeing ritsu from afar and being like. you. I like you.#for seemingly no reason other than…he…seemed…interesting???#that just stinks of ‘oh he kinda cute let’s see what’s happening over there’ like I dunnooo#fascinating#you know my only critique abt this show is that I do really wish there was more women#I need yuri to complement my yaoi#like a charcuterie board#serirei#yeah I’m not tagging this with like anything else I’m too scared
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Screaming crying sobbing shrieking punching kicking yelling bawling weeping LOSING MY FUCKING MIND
#The small ‘I’m so scared’ surrounded by darkness- my heart is broken#That sound you can hear is the sound of my heart breaking#DC really thought hmm let’s just put Jason through hell that’ll be fun#I love angst don’t get me wrong#but this oh my god#It’s so heartbreaking but also I want to eat it#The ‘please…’ and ‘I’m so scared’ FUCKING RIPPED OUT MY HEART#I don’t care if this was Bruce or whatever the hell zur is possessed him- this fucking hurt#I want to hug him and tell him everything’s going to be okay 😭#red hood#jason todd#batfamily#batfam#Dc really took the ‘family’ out of batfamily#batman#dc#dc comics#I once again forgot to queue this ahead of time
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Found a tick on my brother now I’m terrified
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