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Imagine being a Blue Lock manager! ⚽️
VERSION XVI.
(a/n: YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST cause guess what? We hit a 100 followers omg 😭🎉 you don’t know how grateful I am, thank you so much for reading these I swear I’m gonna improve!! tyyy x 1000 love u 🫶! back to Hiori idk what took over me during my time writing this but I guess it fits the sentimental vibe so yeah lol ty for ur support again!)
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FROM THE PROLOGUE:
“Congratulations L/N Y/N! Based on your results, you've earned your place in Blue Lock as the manager of player number…
…16, Hiori Yo.”
The more you read his name under the little icon, the more familiar it sounded.
While trying to recall a memory of anyone with the same surname, someone whispered behind you to their friend.
“Aren’t his parents famous? My mom used to talk about them.”
Bingo! Yes, that was it. His parents, famous athletes of Japan, their names printed in the newspaper your dad once read out loud during breakfast before moving on to the weather. Damn, does that mean you got an already talented prodigy?
Leaving the room with a satisfied smirk, you patted yourself on the shoulder, feeling smug about your luck.
Imagine being Hiori Yo’s manager.
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Hiori Yo who notices you trip and hit your arm while walking down the stairs before quickly recovering as you glance around, hoping no one saw your little incident. He can’t help but smile at your clumsiness across the field, watching you take a seat on a bench while pulling out some papers from a folder. He’s doing his warm-up exercises, running the usual laps, while wondering why didn’t you approach your player before the match, but figures you wanted to observe him first—so he carries on, silently reminding himself not to get distracted just because you’re pretty. You probably weren’t even his manager to begin with.
Your eyes stayed fixed on the cyan haired—despite his solid build and smooth moves, there was a certain softness in his features that made the boy much more captivating compared to his teammates. The quiet presence on the sidelines, making assists that turned into goals—ones that wouldn’t have happened without him.
As the match comes to an end, you try to get his attention by waving your hand before he notices you and nods.
“Hi! I saw ya—uh, waving to me right? I’m Hiori Yo nice to meet ya.” he smiles, giving you a warm handshake.
“Yes, I’m L/N Y/N, your new manager. Nice to meet you too!” gosh that smile was gonna be the death of him.
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•Hiori whose calm personality makes the everyday chaos seem just a bit more bearable than usual. He’s careful with his words, always being the first one to greet you in the morning before accompanying you to the cafeteria.
•Good listener especially when you’re rambling about how busy they made both of your schedules to be, barely giving any time to get to know each other better. He agrees while assuring you that friendly talks can always be squeezed in between breaks.
•Hiori is a well-built gentleman, doing what he’s instructed without a complaint, and gives all his attention to you during your suggestions for the games. He’ll speak up when needed, and respectfully shares his opinions.
•You don’t say anything but you notice it—the way the spark in his eyes seems to fade on the field, unlike when he spoke to you the other day about his love for gaming.
•Trains hard, early mornings and late nights are what he’s always been accustomed to. Not wanting to be left behind or get lazy, he often takes the extra effort to be better, making you happy to get such a hardworking person.
•On some days though—he’ll secretly stay up all night, playing video games without your knowing before the next day you catch him yawning a lot more than usual, rolling your eyes at his explanation.
•“Wasn’t worth pissing ya off but it felt nice to beat someone online after a hard day, y’know?”
•Months of working together means you get to know the boy better than ever, conversations often shared besides work and training plans. Yet the one topic he never talks about is his parents.
•Hiori who took a long time before he finally opened up, only letting you know basic details about him, carefully avoiding the topic of his childhood. You figured he wasn’t on good terms with his parents when you told him about yours—his smile barely visible, voice more quiet than usual.
•It happened on a rather tiring day—everyone, including Hiori was easily annoyed and by the time analysis came around, he broke down after a lost practice match, telling you everything that was weighing on his heart as he sobbed for comfort, spending the whole night in your arms.
•“So you don’t even like soccer?” you asked, his head on your shoulder as a small chuckle left his mouth.
•“No, not really anymore.”
•The things said that day were kept a secret—a special moment that made you one of his closest friends, forming an unbreakable bond between the two of you.
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AFTER THE U20 MATCH…
•Hiori changes his views on soccer, his playstyle evolving into something new, something better, and the spark in his eyes seemed to return for the first time after a while.
•God of fan service. He’s so chronically online it’s crazy. Knows all the memes, slangs, ships and phrases going around the internet that even his fans cringe whenever he uses them in interviews.
•Loves to raise his eyebrows while looking at a camera and once mouthed the word “kaisagi” when Kaiser and Isagi were arguing, the two boy barely keeping any distance, making it look like something else.
•While his screen time skyrockets, his sleep schedule reduces to a mere 5 hours a night, making you groan, and seriously consider confiscating his phone at the sight of dark circles under his eyes every morning.
•Often plays with fans, quickly gaining followers on each of his social media accounts.
•Hiori who’s been a big fan of the yogurt drink, Yakult, since his starter days, causing you to get him a collab with the brand, in hopes of getting free drinks for his training.
•You also make sure to try, and help with his mental health—offering a sheep plushie after a Bastard München win, telling him it helps to cope with loneliness and all that, making him laugh at your serious face. Says he doesn’t need it but can’t sleep without it since :)
•To be fair, you always knew you had a bright future ahead when they paired you with Hiori and when he tells you he’s looking forward to working with you even after the top 23 announcement?
•You happily agree, sharing the same sentiment—a quiet sense of reassurance washing over both of you.
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when you're back from your break, it'd be really cool if you wrote headcanons about Dean raising Sam :) I feel like the fandom forgets that Dean is basically his dad sometimes and I think it'd be interesting to see how Dean acted like a dad at such a young age 😌 things he did, ways he protected Sam, idk, stuff like that :3
(obviously there's literally no pressure to write this, I just really love and respect your headcanons and style!!)
(p.s. just to make sure you know: in no way is this prompt related to Wincest 🤮)
ooo wait i love this omg and thank you for clarifying no wincest lol bc i will NEVER support or write about it. i hope i did your request justice, and thank you so so so much for your sweet words!
DISCLAIMER: this really should go without saying, but i’ll clarify it anyway in case anyone wants to think otherwise— in absolutely no way am i romanticizing or aestheticizing what sam and dean both went through as children or adults. while supernatural is a tv show, and sam and dean are fictional characters, real people and children experience domestic violence, neglect and abuse in the our world every single day. please do not read or interact if you are sensitive to these topics.
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❝ long as i’m around,
nothin’ bad is gonna happen to you. ❞
OR my headcanons of dean being a single mom who works two jobs (aka raising sam while also raising himself)!
『 part 7 of @bejeweledinterludes’ headcanons series. 』
‧˚₊⋅ ──── faith’s tell-all. to everyone who’s ever shown my writing love / support, thank you to the stars and back— it means everything and more. also, i’ll be leaving again, perhaps for good. all i’m gonna say is that my thoughts / emotions aren’t doing good at all right now, and this app is the cause of it (for the first time ever). obviously, i don’t like feeling this way, and i certainly don’t want it to reflect in my writing / my actions on this app, so i’m probably gonna dip. i don’t really like talking about my feelings (in general, but especially on here) or asking for pity, so i’m not going to bother y’all with that. anyways enjoy this one, hopefully see ya soon <3
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> “protect sammy,” was the only thing dean remembers from his younger days for the most part. only thing he knew. i could delve into the absolute nitty gritty, the abuse, the hardships, the burdens that both sam and dean endured, but if i think too hard about it, i get mad— because no child should have to raise another child. ever.
let me be very clear on that, and this: most of the family dynamics in supernatural are not healthy by any means— but they are a reality for many, which is one of the reasons why people resonate with the show.
> now, throughout the show, we can see that dean is potrayed as somewhat of a father figure / guardian type— from regular children to monster children, to ben, jack, claire, kevin, etc. maybe more of a ‘fun uncle’ type situation, since he’s told kids (and thus, the audience) time and time again that he is not someone to look up to, or to become. which is a double edged sword.
because on the one hand, dean has a point: he’s self-deprecating, an alcoholic, has a temper, treats people like shit, and makes rash decisions that usually end in violence or a shattered bond.
but don’t think that’s everything. dean’s self-deprecating because that’s all he knows. and how the hell else would he treat himself? he’s an alcoholic because everyone that was around him drank when he was a kid— and the father figures in his life didn’t promote sobriety at all. he has a temper because when he can’t control things, that means he can’t control the outcome. he doesn’t know what’s gonna happen, and that’s why he gets so angry all the time. he treats people like shit, mostly because the ones he does treat like scum usually deserve it. the rest are because of his big stupid mouth. the rash decisions come from a place of pure panic, fear, and worry about his family— instilled in him since the night his house went up in flames.
now, all this to say, dean is a good person, deep down. because we see all throughout the show that dean wants to be better, to stop being the way he is when emotions do eventually get the better of him, to stop the habits he’s created.
> and it’s no secret that dean winchester was forced to raise sam— yet i feel that it’s severely overlooked in the show itself. sure, we do see flashbacks once in a while of a young dean taking care of a young sam, but people (including myself) brush over the fact that this was pretty much every day for dean. weeks, months, years, a decade? taking care of his brother, always before himself. let’s dive into my mind of what i think happened:
> dean stole for him and sam. obviously, yes, we all know this, since it’s canon from the show— but that was dean’s ever first crime: shoplifting / petty theft. the cop let him go, though, until one of the next towns a few months later when dean got too cocky with the cashier and smartmouthed the deputy. that landed him in a holding cell.
> dean also protected sam at school. and yes, once again, this is shown in the show, but dean was a grade-a menace when it came to his brother. shit talk dean all you want, call him anything you please, but if his brother was brought up? he blew a gasket, and the dude’s lights out. every time.
> dean did all the talking (and still does, sometimes). anywhere he and sam went alone in his younger years, dean’s mouth was the only one that was moving. diners, motel lobbies, libraries, restaurants, dive bars, pubs, you name it. sam was too nice to talk to strangers— and dean learned early on that strangers aren’t doing something ‘just to be nice’. ever.
dean’s mistrusting, down to his last nerve ending— but if his dad’s with them, he can relax. otherwise, it’s eyes everywhere, making sure they won’t be messed with.
> dean made the most of everything. we see this in the christmas episode (the flashback to their younger selves) and the fireworks memory in dean’s heaven. his main priority, if not to protect sam, was to cheer him up. keep him happy. maybe not distracted— but to take his mind off of the real world. we all do it, dean just made it easier for his brother to do so.
but sam wasn’t totally clueless, obviously— he’s smart. maybe an idiot sometimes, but not outright dumb. he knew there were things that dean and john didn’t tell him, but he didn’t press when he was younger—because sometimes, being oblivious to things was kinda nice.
this changed as sam got older, as we know. sam noped his way out of there the second he got a chance. and while dean was mad that he left— he was happy for him, too. because sam did it. he got out.
> dean definitely is / was a ‘do as i say, not as i do’ type when it came to sam (and pretty much everyone else too). dean was a bad influence, yes, but he never let sam just do whatever he did. back then, dean drank, smoked, the whole nine yards to fit in, be cool, whatever— but best believe if sam wanted to try any of that, dean shut down that idea immediately.
> that sums up most of dean’s side, though. because sam was the one who was too good, too nice, too soft— and dean wanted him to stay that way. because he wanted sam to have a normal freakin’ life (cue that speech dean gave sam in like… season 5?), to have a family. dean didn’t think he could have, or deserve that. besides, who the hell would take him?
(it’s me. i would take him)
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Guilt
// Est. Sam Winchester x you
summary: lucifer did what he always does, he stole from sam what never should’ve been his to begin with // ~600 // base content: death, guilt, sam hates himself, i love him but this whole fic is formed for how god just seems to hate my poor sweetheart, hopelessness
A/N: hey hii, it’s your fav angst queen here. look, i’m feeling some type of way rn (depressed lol) and just spit this out. there’s like SO little editing, it’s crazy. sam winchester means the world to me but i just couldn’t help myself </3



It had taken quite some convincing to let you come along on this hunt. Sam was so against it that it almost didn’t happen. Almost.
Lucifer.
Of course Sam wouldn’t want you to come, he could barely hold it together to keep himself standing, let alone watch out for you too. But you insisted you were fine. You assured him that you had yourself handled and you were too damn stubborn to be told otherwise.
Sam knew better, so why did he listen to you?
Because now here you lie, sprawled in an uncomfortable twist on a prickly gravel lot. Sam falls to his knees, stone digging past the denim and into his skin. It imprints and probably pulls blood, he admits he deserves it.
Lucifer is gone and only Sam and Dean are left breathing. Everything is muffled and anything Dean is saying is useless to the moment. It’s fucking useless as your last breath was cut short as Lucifer snapped your neck.
No blood, no bruising, not even an echo of expression on your face- just limp muscle.
Everything hits him at once, the grief, the anger, the guilt, and it shreds his skin. It’s on fire under his layers of clothing and his chest is a hollow cavern that quickly fogs with fumes.
A hand lands on Sam's shoulder and he snaps back to his brother, looming over him like a shadow ready to suck him back into a life where you don’t exist anymore. He’s not ready, he never would be.
Dean is taken back by his brother's morphed features. He looks offended and crazed, like hearing your bones shatter had flipped a switch in his skull and he now had no means to return to the Sam Winchester that Dean knew.
Sam’s hands, warm and calloused, grab at your quickly iced face. Has that much time passed already? He couldn’t allow it.
Plea’s and desperate calls fluttered past his trembling lips but no one was listening, not even Dean. No, because Sam knew that Dean always made things better and if Dean heard the gutting beg from Sam’s hollow shell then he’d do something to fix it, right?
Your head was heavier than he remembered, it weighed him down, quickly sucking him into the quicksand of your death. He would let you drag him anywhere as long as he stayed right beside you. How was he supposed to deny you now anyways?
His vision blurred and his nose was wet. He sniffles, trying to pull back the reality of the situation. It’s an attempt to clear his senses so he can really see what’s before him but when lively eyes don’t meet his focusing vision, he feels worse- if that’s even possible.
His knees are surely bleeding now. The sting has melted into a burn and the muscle throbs as the skin grows numb. He deserves it.
He should’ve made you stay behind.
He should’ve locked you away if that’s what it took.
He would regret that for the rest of his pathetic life.
Even now, barely moments after your erased existence, he’s haunted by a ghost of your laugh and a brush of your skin against his lips. What he would give to relive his last pure moments with you.
But here you are. Stones dug into your flesh from your dead weight. Body stuff with mortem. Skin chilled from blood stilled. And it’s all his fault.
It’s always his fault.
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I JUST REALISED SOMETHING IN S1 & S2 OF HEARTSTOPPER!!!!
Right so in S1 Episode one the song playing at the beginning is ‘Want Me’ by Baby Queen, which is about a childlike crush and unrequited love and Charlie says in Bens last scene “I went along with it because I had a crush and I didn’t know any better.”
In S2 Episode one the song playing is ‘Shatter’ by Maggie Rogers, which is about the desire to be with someone against all odds!!!
THE WAY THESE SONG CONTRAST REALLY SHOW HOW CHARLIE’S RELATIONSHIP WITH BEN AND WITH NICK COMPLETELY CONTRAST AND WE ALL KNOW WHICH SONG HAS A NICER MEANING AND WHOS THE BETTER BOYFRIEND AND IF YOU LOOK UP THE LYRICS FOR THE SONGS THEY ARE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT TO EACH OTHER!!!
Want me was all about dreaming about stuff she wanted in a relationship and Shatter is about doing literally doing anything for your partner because they mean EVERYTHING to you!!!! In this essay I will-


#heartstopper#I think I’ve watched this show too much 😭#I literally realised this when I was going to sleep#I’m probably reading too much into it lol#charlie spring#nick nelson#ben hope hate club#baby queen#maggie rogers
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Local big sister experiences emotions, more at 6
Been wanting to do one of these with Lauren for AGES, but I never got round to it. Then I saw the Lydia and Phinium expression sheets on @littledigits’ website and I felt inspiration like never before.
The funniest struggle I have with Lauren’s design right now is that she nose too big for she got damn face. Literally, Hilda characters noses take up a fairly small portion of their faces, and her’s took up WAY too much, leaving little room for her to make facial expressions. But I struggled to find a fix because when I made the nose smaller it just didn’t look like Lauren anymore, so I took this as an opportunity to work on that!
She still has a larger nose than most characters, starting higher up (like her grandad!) and ending lower down (but not quite as low as before). I also made her eyes a little smaller and with a shape similar to Lydia’s (though you can see in some of these I hadn’t quite landed on that yet and her eyes are a bit too big), which works both as a nod to her parentage and because I think it makes the nose look bigger. This still doesn’t leave as much room for the mouth as most other characters, but that’s okay — Lauren is a very private person who keeps her feelings close to her chest, I think it works for her to have subtler expressions, adds to how guarded she is! Oh and I also updated the shape of her hair slightly, just to make it a bit more style accurate.

These changes are pretty small on their own, but I think combined they work well to make Lauren feel a lot more…alive? Far less stiff, anyway. I think she also has a more unique facial structure now, instead of just “what if Johanna was 90% nose”. She’s still got a big old nose and I love it but now she can emote, yay!
This is really all just concept stuff, I’m hoping to get a new fullbody style-ref for Lauren out soon! Now that I’ve improved the main issues I had with her face in the last ref, now it’s onto the silhouette! I want her to read as more of a strong character (though it comes across decently in her current ref, I wanna push it more without being as exaggerated as Ahlberg, which is. A challenge for me lol), streamline her silhouette, and finally make her taller than Johanna like she’s always meant to have been <3 I made her shorter for so long because I thought it would help her read better as her daughter but you know what? That’s dumb actually, she’s tall.
ANYWAYS, thank you for listening in on the annual Lauren redesign, and to the artists behind the show for posting so much amazing inspiring show stopping concept work for free because it makes my autism worse /pos
#her hair will prolly need some slight adjustments to account for her blue streaks but that’s a problem for future Sadie#also#local Sadie can’t stop saying “’local person… more at six’#more at NEVER. STOP IT SADIE ENOUGH#oh and apolgoes 2 @littledigits 4 the tag I do not mean 2 bother u <3#anyways these are not perfect! it’s my first time doing an expression sheet like this#but I’m proud of em anyway!#hilda#hilda the series#netflix hilda#hilda netflix#art#my art#digital art#fanart#doodle#Hilda oc#drawing#Hilda Lauren#Hilda fanart#don’t look too closely at the background I was very lazy with editing the template. which is also from littledigits blog#I will probably do more of these one day#I especially wanna work on her angry expressions lol cause if you’ve read plenism you know my girl has anger issues ✨#and she’s worked on the m since but.#she very much still has a temper so long story short her angry expressions are IMPORTANT I think lol#also the third expression on the top row? my favourite genre of Lauren expressions#just experiencing the horrors#oc#my oc#also the expressions are ordered weird I know but I couldn’t be bothered to line them up properly or in a way that makes sense alright shus
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just got to penacony !!!! i’ve been obsessively drawing the guys for the past few days lol
#if u look closely then you can see i gave them different eye highlights#sundays is crosses because biblical imagery#ratio is a plus and multiply sign#and aventurine is heart and diamond like card suits#also i literally have no clue what the background for aventurine is supposed to be#i was like “nicooo what should i do for the background” and they were like uhh uhh#and showed me a pic of some like squiggles ? looked like it was on the edge of banner art#so it’s probably aventurines banner art#but if it has another meaning#don’t assume i know lol#man it’s a yap fest down here#bonus points if you read my tags !#say squidward if u got this far /hj#tbh i don’t like the sunday one that much lol#i think his hair looks wrong#might redo it at some point in the future if i feel like it#i think aventio both look great tho#sunday and ratio have been made into stickers too#just for me and friends tho#i won’t be selling them#i’m gonna draw boothill next (whenever i meet him…)#and also a friend is gonna commission me to draw argenti !#very fun#thats my yap :P#dr ratio#aventurine#sunday hsr#penacony#hsr sunday#hsr fanart
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Very few things will be quite as chilling to me as when Will hides in Martha’s closet — only to emerge with “The name is Lila.” I cannot describe the amount of confusion and fear I felt hearing that voice during my first playthrough.
#who’s Lila#spoilers#ok I’m gonna get very pretentious#and it’s like 1:00am here so it might not make sense#but! I don’t know what it is for me. it’s so hard to capture this type of uncanny horror but man garage heathen accomplished this lol#the cadence of the voice?#the pause?#im probably reading way too much into it but there is something that feels very sadistic#specifically the way in which it’s said#it makes me feel like a prey animal#I might write an essay about this in the morning but also maybe not#thank you for coming to my Ted talk
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All I’m going to say I think now that my brain remembered part of what it was thinking is that Taylor and Joe went through a lot together (good and bad) and regardless of how it ended or what led to it they both seem to be determined to keep that private and not throw each other under the bus and in the end they’re just two very, very different people whose outlooks in the long term were just never going to align and never has that been clearer.
#I AM NOT DEFENDING HIM JUST TO BE CLEAR#I’m just saying�� he said a lot of nothing in those quotes beyond ‘people on the internet suck’#which is true#and both he and Taylor are keeping things close to the vest about it all#and just seems to me that whatever they went through together they are determined to keep it between them so that’s the end of that#(again in contrast to how she has no qualms about reading m for filth)#he’s just some guy and now he gets to be just some guy forever#and she gets to be extraordinary#like yes the loving committed thing raises eyebrows given how much pain she was in#but like he could have shaded her about how it ended too and he didn’t#AND I AM NOT DEFENDING HIM#we know he was a terrible partner and she felt like shit#I’m just saying neither of them want to delve into the specifics and i think they’re just moving into footnotes in each other’s lives now#like i want to make it clear AGAIN I am not condoning anything on his part here — clearly there were huge issues#I’m just saying just because he may have sucked as a partner doesn’t mean the internet being cruel isn’t also true idk#and yes it’s transparent why he’s choosing to speak out now (or rather why the Sunday times is choosing to reach out to him now)#but like… idk i just can’t muster up any feeling about this man one way or the other lol#and take cues from Taylor (and even him) she’s determined to keep it between them other than the broad strokes#so I’m following her/their lead#(like I have thoughts about why but that’s not important and ultimately is just… it’s the most normal of ltr breakups)#like he just sounds a little pretentious with his ‘real life’ which like… good on him keep living that real life you do you dude#meanwhile his ex is flourishing with every passing week and milestone and is living her unabashed best life#and they’re probably both happier for it now
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Not a huge fan of what it probably means about me as a person that I’m super into age gap relationships 😭
#nothing like. illegal/morally fucked but like#it honestly probably stems from the fact that I’ve had to be the Mini Parent (read as older sibling) for much of my life +#bc of this I want to feel taken care of in a relationship by someone a bit older and more stable than myself#which isn’t like a horrendous wish I think but. it’s not entirely fair to a potential partner#I wouldn’t ever want them to feel like they are responsible for my well being if that makes sense#idk this is why selfship stuff is so good for me. I can just play touys :)#Murdoc is that safe older stable (sort of) vaguely authority figure that I crave in a relationship.#he’s always gonna be there for me when I need him as is selfshipping in general!#also we are fucking nasty style in my brain too so there’s that 👍#idek I’m just talking lol
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i’m READINGGGGGGG BABEL
#now i do have a bad ish tendency to let popular opinion influence me#which is lowkey probably why i picked up this book at all idk if by summary alone it sounds like smth i would pick up#altho i don’t think ill ever be picking up a book i haven’t heard of i have too many to read that i have heard of now lol#anyway the first bit was lowkey like idk#i think it was hard to get used to the style / setting / whatever and it was kinda dense and like#a lot of history/setting stuff ig it seemed like#so i was kinda reading very slowly and it felt a littleee forced def a lot of me being like ppl say this is so good just keep going#buT when the end of book one happened i was immediately like oh ok yes im INTERESTED now#and i am very excited now hehe continuing to read and its def getting more interesting im excited#even tho it was kinda slow for me at first i took so many quote pics tho lol#like so many lines/passages that made me go oh#yeah#anyway this is kinda unrelated at least unrelated to babeI (by rf k/uang that’s the book :p )#i read some a/dsom fic again#which i haven’t been doing bc there’s not that much of itttttt 😭😭😭😭😭😭#that i want to read at leasttttt and i can’t make myself write any rn#but anyway i NEEEEDDDDDD to get my hands on fragiIe threa/ds of power next#so i can read some of these spoilery fics#and also bc that willllll give me more KELL CONTETNNTTTTTTT#what im fiending for tbh#i got a library card and was immediately like giddy w the power i have now lol#after babeI i’m 100% getting ftop gonna put it on hold when im like halfway thru or smth im so excited LOLOL#me when i need to pack in the reading before i start work :|||||||||#jeanne talks
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caved and rewatched a few eps (sort of only pieces tho) of tudors (and BSR, drama scenes only… #ilovetohavefun) last night and like the way… you can literally so plausibly cast so many actors in that cast as hviii… except the one playing hviii….
i know steve waddington is the fan fav, he would be perfect for henry like circa 1530 (except the brown eyes), but i also present:
Kris Holden Reid , perfect for circa 1515 (and 6’3 asw!)
#i was like flitting in and out as i was washing dishes#BSR is perfect for that actually lol#everytime a panelist made a blatantly specious claim i was like alright imma head out.jpeg#the thing is jrm is not a bad actor and the intensity is there like he’d be good for … someone. else. royal#a fairytale prince maybe. the evil king in donkeyskin. i think i someone fancast him as the prince in batb? her mind …#ofc this is all circa 07 he is botoxed to hell now but … yeah#(last time he looked remotely hot was roots and like. his arc on vikings)#I remember I was salty as a TC that fancasted him and natdormer as hviii’s parents 😂#I was like so you ADMIT they had chemistry then… ok then leave us nasty problematic disgusting h/a shippers alone#you are all SO RUDE to us . aNYWAYS#now ; luckily … it does not bother me … as I have that Buddha nature 💚#but I still remember my crashouts#like a previously on.#bcus why not …#there was a really good young Henry casting in a docuseries I watched recently but I’m not sharing . boo tomato#did you think I would say hcavill? it would have been the worst thing lol (he did audition for hviii tho? iirc ?)#yeah he had the body type but his acting is bland as hell#and it would’ve been a too much of a good thing#had he been cast as Henry there would be like 500k h/a fics on ao3 😭 (vs … 100s?)#it would be so saturated with mediocre smutty WIPs i probably couldn’t stand reading them#anyway. Sliding doors moment
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2025 reads / storygraph
Love Points To You
YA contemporary coming of age
an artist struggling to get used to the idea of moving in with her new stepmother & stepsister can't wait to go away to art school
when her ipad is destroyed, her rich classmate offers to buy her a replacement in exchange for concept art for an otome game she’s developing, and as they work on the game, they start to fall for each other
while she tries to get used to her new family situation, and the fact that her parents seem to be more invested in her stepsister’s future while ignoring hers
bi ace MC, bi demi LI
#Love Points To You#aroaessidhe 2025 reads#asexual books#sapphic books#demisexual books#I thought this was pretty good overall!#It’s very much a coming of age kind of story with as much focus on her family relationship as the romance which I appreciate.#I like how their romance developed pretty casually into dating rather than being all in love all of a sudden#- and all the moments of bonding over otome games and both being acespec and both speaking Mandarin#I like how the conflicts with her stepsister/art rival/family etc were quite grounded and mostly resolved (semi) maturely#and not all overblown into drama despite Lynda’s petty explosive personality.#( and honestly; love some girls who are kinda petty and pretentious and stubborn and oblivious)#That is - until the end she kinda fucks up with everyone and pretty quickly realises she’s in the wrong; I feel like it was a bit overdone?#I understand why she felt and acted that way but it was all very fast paced and a bit of a contrast to the rest of the book#where things were handled with more nuance and maturity.#And oh my god if you found out that a potential investor wants you to change the game’s pairing to straight#why would you not think that’s a dealbreaker? like how could you have any other reaction? I know she realises she was wrong to#react that way pretty much immediately but it felt a little too much like it was there to create a conflict rather than being natural#My favourite part of the book was her developing friendship with her stepsister. made me tear up fr#(this also backtracks a little at the end with the final conflict in a way that felt a little overdone but whatever)#I put some specific art opinions and asexual opinions in my storygraph review (in link above) but a main point for each lol:#She has a sticker shop that’s mentioned a few times but no details…. is this via print or demand or is making/sending them herself#because that's a MASSIVE amount of admin that I'd expect to see depicted in some form. i have experience. lol#Generally speaking I liked the depiction of asexuality she already identifies as such and it’s not brought up all the time#but it does effect how she interacts with the world / thinks about people from time to time#- her dad says “even though you're not interested in dating this applies to you too” & she thinks: “I'm asexual not dead"#- which.. oof. unnecessarily arophobic. I know it’s probably unintentional on the author’s part and I’m used to brushing that aside#- because it’s so common in romance books but I’m gonna be honest it soured my opinion on the rest of the book a bit.#it also felt at odds with her otherwise having various anti-amatonormative thoughts and feelings about various things.#that and the slightly too much conflict in the very end i didn't love but everything else about the book i thought was rly good
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Crowley responding to “You’re a good lad” with “I’m not, either. But thank you”
#what does this mean#he’s not either good or a lad?#is lad like child in this case or like not a man?#or like he’s not human#am i reading too much into this?#probably lol#I’m high#good omens#Crowley
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🛻 anon i genuinely can't stop thinking about single dad lawyer sam these days T_T he's on my mind 24/7
#so i loved the name joey for his daughter but i also accidentally got really attached to the idea of her name being ryan#and her nickname being ry :')#she's five and soft spoken with a sweet smile#but also says really unhinged things like any five year old#she loves playing with dinosaur toys and stuffed animals and really really likes drawing and crafts!#she's loves story time with her dad before bed#and can't quite read a lot yet but is very good with the alphabet#she can be painfully shy and probably gets a little too attached to her teachers. bc yk. her mom is dead#and she cries when sam drops her off for the first couple weeks of a new year at preschool and still cried this year for kindergarten#definitely has adhd but none of her teachers notice until kindergarten because it's much less likely to get noticed in girls#but teacher!reader knows whats up and brings it up to sam and he's so relieved because he wasn't sure but already thought so#and he does sooo much research and reading about that and anything parenting related he can think of#he reads maybe too many parenting books actually#because then he gets confused about what he’s supposed to do#so he has to learn to trust himself as a parent (but also know he won’t always be perfect and might need help from books or friends etc)#i love them so much i’m sobbing#actually i also really like the name rory for her#but i fear everyone would just think of gilmore girls LOL#idk i just really like r names#. >> sammy !
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I’ve come across a thought of options for Spruce/Bruce and I’m curious… Spruce does end up at Vacay Island, however, when Thrash starts to push borders and his invasion/war becomes more known in the world, Spruce is kicked out of Vacay Island due to the possible threat. This is about 10 years after Brozone breakup.
1. Option 1 - Some of this might be confusing so if you have any questions, let me know. At this point in the apocalypse, the kingdoms are taken over and under rock rule - although not everyone is zombified (long story) so when Spruce goes into a town, they think he’s a pop troll except he has no idea what that is. A sub genre living in the town comes to his aid and claims him as one of their own.
2. Option 2 - upon being kicked out and heartbroken, Spruce turns a bit gray and is mistaken for a rock troll and stumbles into being involved in the Rock Rule and invasion. As he learns more of what is happening, he keeps to it to survive.
3. Option 3 - he is caught be rock trolls but as Thrash learns Spruce literally knows nothing, he manipulates Spruce and tries to use him to try and lure the few known pop trolls left to Thrash.
This timeline is actually kind of short so this doesn’t happen over the course of a superrrrr long time. Spruce does spend most of the time on Vacay Island. I do have one I’m leaning towards but I was curious on what others thought.
If you need clarification or have any questions, please don’t hesitate to ask!
#at this point I could almost just change some names and slight concepts and make this entirely original#but I won’t for now cause I’m way too lazy for that lol#this au keeps getting more and more#there is so much to tel y’all#but idk you probably would want to read the actual story rather than my explaination
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I’m deeply overthink the fact my interests are obscure that ranking how obscure they are shouldn’t even be a thing given they are all something a normie never fucking heard of HOWEVER I’ve finally concluded the order of my MAIN hyperfixations in “How much of this has a relevant online presence regardless if it debatably has a fandom” is:
Getter>Big O>Kikaider>Casshern>Jeeg
All of the mecha ones aren’t a shock because getter is crucial to the genre, big o is unique that every mecha fan at a point will hopefully have a obligation to check it out, and jeeg is sadly overlooked but we’ve been known.
Kikaider and Casshern I was going back and forth on them especially cause don’t get me wrong there’s still a fuck ton of casshern content online-especially compared to jeeg-but I’ve checked and the fandom for sins is DEAD, anytime I post about it it doesn’t get any buzz at all. Kikaider while the anime version is a bit overlooked the fact it’s known for at least the toku version helps it a bit, because I haven’t been in many Toku circles but it seems like a no brainer to check out. (Also the ishionmori pipeline helps, though jeeg sadly couldn’t get that benefit from being a technical Nagai mecha 💔)
I was mainly torn up about how known Kikaider was given how I never EVER saw it mentioned being a inspiration for mega man yet I always saw casshern mentioned, but I assume it might be due to fandom overlap even if I’ve met a handful of mega man fans who like toku. (Also mm only not counted on the list bc being real here it’s the most active fandom but I don’t fuck with the fandom itself LOL, besides my own corners)
Also if you’re wondering “Meg what about this other show you watched” and I didn’t mention? It likely wasn’t a hyperfixation 💀 (I’m sorry that I’m not a big 3 fan, my feelings about mazinger are complicated and I barely have interest to watch more Gundams after G)
#meg text#I know by technically mentioning these series it’ll be tagged but I’m not bothering to tag fandom#mainly because this post is nonsense and I observe online culture too much that I wanted to throw this out#I’m worried to develop more anime fixations because if I get lower than jeeg im going to fucking cry#(there are ABSOLUTELY more obscure mecha than it which is why I’ve been trying to avoid random ass shows)#Mfw I wonder if this is why I stopped trying to read Inazuman even if it was neat cause it likely would’ve been the same result#but fucking worse cause who the fuck remembers this guy other then watching all the Kikaider animes (like me)#granted that also ties back to my struggle to read cause if I did read more I’d probably be into more obscure stuff#<still never fucking finished Majuu Sensen but literally got halfway there#there is so much more old anime I need to consume and I’m eyeing a few rn so will see how it goes for me#even if I’m weirdly scared to have more then 5 hyperfixations cause I feel like this is A LOT as is#but you can’t control the autism sometimes LOL
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