#I’m okay just venting !

[bookishpower]

The absolute hell of having anxiety attacks spanning multiple days is that I know it’s for a stupid, stupid reason. But I can’t talk my body out of fight or flight mode.

And then having to work this around trying to do normal everyday things…

[trying-to-jew]

Constantly torn between my desire to convert and the crushing weight of knowing that I won’t be able to exist in the wider fandom spaces that I love without being constantly reminded that Jews are always guilty until proven innocent post-Oct 7.

[syrupfog]

Being the captain means always being the one everyone turns to.

[smooshednetwork]

Having a mental breakdown at 12pm while 3 your friends talk in a discord server about skibidi toilet animatronics was a life changing experience, I am truly a changed man.

[plagued-by-visions]

Sometimes every year is one of those years where you need to look in the mirror and say “I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me” because one day there will be feasting and dancing. Maybe it’s not next year, but you need to keep making it so you can find out when it is.

[cinnamonsly]

tw// blood

sum vent arts from the past while that i think are pretty enough to share here

[crowrelli]

“Which person would you respect more? A man strumming the guitar in a bar for 200 a night, working a second job to keep himself fed. Or a man who’s playing the guitar that same night, same town who’s sold out a whole stadium?”

“Well that depends. Which one is your step son?”

“That has nothing to do-“

“Yes it does. Which one is your step kid who’s working his ass off to get paid for the thing he loves and is still slaving away trying to make a better life for himself? Which one is in desperate need for a support system that understands and supports his skill and values his hard work? Which one do you have the power to demotivate at your hearts content? Would you go to his performance at the club and yell BOOOO YOURE NOT AS GOOD AS ‘PERSON B’!!! YOU WILL NEVER GET PAID ENOUGH BECAUSE YOURE NOT GOOD!! YOU’RE NOTHING!! And that man still goes to the club. Still plays so hard and for so long he makes himself sick. Still pays his bills and consistently works to better his own life. And sits through your screaming and petulant passive aggressive comments during his entire set and then goes home to hear you say it all over again at dinner? Works while you lie and belittle him on the phone with your friends and real children while he’s in the room? And when he finally goes to bed, he gets up at 6 am to start working and you get up at 9 and start all over again? Which would YOU respect more?”

now spitting mad, “THE ONE SELLING STADIUMS!!!”

“….okay.”

[alluralater]

hey so guess what. i’m a switch and i love stone femmes. i love pillow princesses. i fucking LOVE it when i get to derive so much pleasure by fucking someone until they can barely breathe or even stand. it is a privilege to experience that. if someone has anything to say about stone identities they can talk to ME because i find it cringey as fuck when someone decides it’s “selfish.” like??? sorry you don’t understand boundaries lmao. i’m gonna go eat some stone princess pussy and fill it up with my strap. get well soon i guess??

[giddlygoat]

i just finished rewatching gravity falls for the first time since i was dipper and mabel’s age, and somehow i only remembered AFTER it was all said and done that today is their birthday. poetic. i’m in emotional shambles.

i hope everything works out. i hope my twin brother and i stay close forever. this show gives me a lot of hope and determination and i hope i never lose that, or my childlike sense of wonder and whimsy. you know, the important stuff. i’ve also decided just now that i’m going to stop being self-conscious about getting sappy. i love this show with all of my heart and it’s been my dream for a long time now to someday create something that can inspire sincerity in others as much as gravity falls has inspired me to always strive for authenticity. that was a long run-on sentence but i hope it makes sense.

thank you alex hirsch for creating the perfect show!

[jameswilsonsupremacy]

sometimes I’m like

damn it makes sense that nobody who knows me actually likes me???? Because like—I am violently transgender/queer, plus I’ve been to rehab. (I live in a small Catholic village in the Midwestern USA)

but then I open tumblr and see everyone loves House for the exact same things???? so basically i think I should move to New Jersey and be a doctor

[twinsfawn]

anyway i can’t kms cuz i’m seeing ethel cain and reverend kristin michael hayter in august :)

[whereismyhat5678]

Hey.

I’m gonna be off Tumblr for more than a few days. I’m sorry this is so sudden but I think I need a little break from the internet for a while.

I don’t really know when I’ll be back but I think for now I’m just not gonna be active.

I hope everyone is doing well, I just need a break.

[borrn-to-diiee]

I tell my family I’m fine, for 3 years now, I can hide it so well they actually believe me.. but in all reality I’m most definitely not okay…. Like how can they not tell?!? Do they not care? Do they not love me anymore? Idk man…. Idk..

[diegusting]

Current mood.

[mrsblackruby]

I just don’t understand how so many people hate 2012 master splinter in the TMNT fandom after the episode entitled “Lone Rat and Cubs” which came out in 2017 in the the last season (Season 5) like my guy of course he’s fucked up a little bit after all he went through to keep his kids alive in the show he had to protect them from the kraang and the humans he knows he’s imperfect and he’s trying his best I feel so bad for him people are usually so harsh in fan works whenever they mention 2012 splinter they don’t consider all 2012 splinter lost in the process when he came to America. Idk I just think it isn’t fair to his character in the story.

[honeypleasejustkillme]

when i find a new person to obsess over and have romantic delusions about