#I’m okay just venting !

[ygodmyy20]

Maybe if I drink more coffee that will make today better

[trying-to-jew]

Constantly torn between my desire to convert and the crushing weight of knowing that I won’t be able to exist in the wider fandom spaces that I love without being constantly reminded that Jews are always guilty until proven innocent post-Oct 7.

[arliedraws]

Also, just a side note, when people say things like, “Good art, but I hate this ship,” or “they would NEVER be romantic,” it’s actually insulting the art!!!

What an artist chooses to depict is PART OF THE ART ITSELF. That’s why I get so angry when folks HAVE to share their opinions on why they hate what you drew (while praising HOW you drew it).

Basically, you’re telling an artist, “Your idea is shit and I hate it! But nice lines though.”

[syrupfog]

Being the captain means always being the one everyone turns to.

[catbuggirly]

I need to get my own place so I can be horny and play with toys and make content more often without being paranoid and uncomfortable and all that stuff but also living at home means I’m up a hundred a week and then I get to spend it and I’m pretty sure I have a shopping addiction trying to fill the void inside me and also it’s just fucking expensive being a girl like if I want to be hot it’s £50 wax every month, £50 nails every 3 weeks £100 on hair every two months, £30 lashes every 3 weeks and then I have to work and go places and do things and honestly I think I’d miss my family but I can’t cope with my parents and other times I can’t bear being appart from them and my sister needs me she’s only 14 so I have to take her places and cook her meals but then I feel like I’ll never get out of this city if I don’t leave now and honestly I think I must be evil or stupid or a terrible mix of both and everything is a waste anyways cause we’re all gonna die in the end and does it actually even work like I want it to and there so many things in my life and the world and the lives of people I love that I can’t fix and I try so hard but I literally just can’t and uni is kicking my ass and I’m so unprepared all the time and work sucks cause my boss hates me and the pay is shit and the hours are bad and the customers are rude and I try so desperately to stay on top of ally my competitive childhood hobbies just to feel things and it doesn’t work but they’re too intertwined with my personality to be okay with just letting them go but actually sometimes I do enjoy them and sometimes I don’t even know what I think and I need to break the cycle I need to break the goddamn cycle I need to I need to I need to because I’m actually going crazy. I hate the way I look I don’t know how I look I hate the way I look I don’t actually know what i look like I hate my body so much o need to fix it I’m loosing weight but it’s not enough not fast enough I feel like death all the time I simultaneously hate the way I look and don’t know how I look and I’m scared of foods and I can only eat certain ones and I think all my friends secretary hate me and think I’m wierd and I’m so alone all the time I need to fill the blind I need to fill the VOID anyways catbug rant over sorry sometimes a girl just needs to scream and can’t hope you never actually read this if you did I’m sorry for wasting ur time lmao

[smooshednetwork]

Having a mental breakdown at 12pm while 3 your friends talk in a discord server about skibidi toilet animatronics was a life changing experience, I am truly a changed man.

[plagued-by-visions]

Sometimes every year is one of those years where you need to look in the mirror and say “I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me” because one day there will be feasting and dancing. Maybe it’s not next year, but you need to keep making it so you can find out when it is.

[cinnamonsly]

tw// blood

sum vent arts from the past while that i think are pretty enough to share here

[crowrelli]

“Which person would you respect more? A man strumming the guitar in a bar for 200 a night, working a second job to keep himself fed. Or a man who’s playing the guitar that same night, same town who’s sold out a whole stadium?”

“Well that depends. Which one is your step son?”

“That has nothing to do-“

“Yes it does. Which one is your step kid who’s working his ass off to get paid for the thing he loves and is still slaving away trying to make a better life for himself? Which one is in desperate need for a support system that understands and supports his skill and values his hard work? Which one do you have the power to demotivate at your hearts content? Would you go to his performance at the club and yell BOOOO YOURE NOT AS GOOD AS ‘PERSON B’!!! YOU WILL NEVER GET PAID ENOUGH BECAUSE YOURE NOT GOOD!! YOU’RE NOTHING!! And that man still goes to the club. Still plays so hard and for so long he makes himself sick. Still pays his bills and consistently works to better his own life. And sits through your screaming and petulant passive aggressive comments during his entire set and then goes home to hear you say it all over again at dinner? Works while you lie and belittle him on the phone with your friends and real children while he’s in the room? And when he finally goes to bed, he gets up at 6 am to start working and you get up at 9 and start all over again? Which would YOU respect more?”

now spitting mad, “THE ONE SELLING STADIUMS!!!”

“….okay.”

[giddlygoat]

i just finished rewatching gravity falls for the first time since i was dipper and mabel’s age, and somehow i only remembered AFTER it was all said and done that today is their birthday. poetic. i’m in emotional shambles.

i hope everything works out. i hope my twin brother and i stay close forever. this show gives me a lot of hope and determination and i hope i never lose that, or my childlike sense of wonder and whimsy. you know, the important stuff. i’ve also decided just now that i’m going to stop being self-conscious about getting sappy. i love this show with all of my heart and it’s been my dream for a long time now to someday create something that can inspire sincerity in others as much as gravity falls has inspired me to always strive for authenticity. that was a long run-on sentence but i hope it makes sense.

thank you alex hirsch for creating the perfect show!

[ch2n2o2x3]

₊‧° 𝓣𝓸𝓭𝓪𝔂, 𝓘 𝓪𝓶 𝓖♡𝓭 °‧₊

𝒯𝑜𝓂𝑜𝓇𝓇𝑜𝓌… 𝓌𝒽𝑜 𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌𝓈?

[jameswilsonsupremacy]

sometimes I’m like

damn it makes sense that nobody who knows me actually likes me???? Because like—I am violently transgender/queer, plus I’ve been to rehab. (I live in a small Catholic village in the Midwestern USA)

but then I open tumblr and see everyone loves House for the exact same things???? so basically i think I should move to New Jersey and be a doctor

[twinsfawn]

anyway i can’t kms cuz i’m seeing ethel cain and reverend kristin michael hayter in august :)

[whereismyhat5678]

Hey.

I’m gonna be off Tumblr for more than a few days. I’m sorry this is so sudden but I think I need a little break from the internet for a while.

I don’t really know when I’ll be back but I think for now I’m just not gonna be active.

I hope everyone is doing well, I just need a break.

[liesmultixxx]

being the ugly friend is really humbling

[borrn-to-diiee]

I tell my family I’m fine, for 3 years now, I can hide it so well they actually believe me.. but in all reality I’m most definitely not okay…. Like how can they not tell?!? Do they not care? Do they not love me anymore? Idk man…. Idk..