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in constant mental anguish because I can’t protect my friends from the horrors 24/7. screaming crying throwing up
#I am not a violent man#…#I’m neither of those things actually#but I do want to hurt one of my headmates#and again I won’t#because it goes against everything I believe in#but god fucking damn it#I want an easy answer to my problems#and while violence isn’t a good answer#it’s a really easy one#-Party
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i don’t think i’ll ever get over chapter 122 actually. like it’s genuinely baffling. it’s a wild fucking thing. to say something like that to a person. to then collapse in their arms. to have them cry over you thinking you died for them. it’s just…. holy hell. the things mashle does to me is unspeakable truly
#it’s not at all rare for me to just think about how differently that could have gone#so many possibilities#lance dies. lance doesn’t manage to move in time and dot dies. lance only kind of makes it and they Both die.#and those are only the most basic ideas#like what if lance gets hit to protect dot but dot gets hit later on and neither are strong enough to win#what if dot’s the one to protect lance and he doesn’t make it out#regardless of which one dies or how the one that’s left alive will have his whole worldview shattered by that#and if they both die? they manage to beat epidem but die as well?#mash finn and lemon will have THEIR worlds shattered#it’s a losing scenario no matter what happens unless they all live like in canon#god there are just so many things that could have gone wrong#it lives in my head rent free#i’m so insane about it actually#landot#gravbomb#mashle manga spoilers#mashle
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In my heart Jeremy Heere and Michael Mell spend the day after Valentine’s Day together every year, I feel like they’d buy a bunch of holiday snacks on sale and give themselves stomach aches eating them all.
#obligatory Jeremy being upset about not having a date#dude look right in front of you#this isn’t even really meant in a romantic way#it’s kind of just one of those things they do that neither of them really realize is important to them#I like these guys#I might draw meremine for valentines actually#I think about them a lot#I’m putting them in a box and shaking them up#be more chill#txt post
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god does anyone know a good alternative to duolingo that doesn’t cost money just to use properly. like i don’t mind ads but everything else i look at there’s a paywall just to get the full course
and i knooow language learning apps aren’t like, the be all end all but they’re good enough for getting the basics as long as they don’t start using bloody ai like duolingo is trying to do
#.txt#and firing most of their translators in favour of ai..#like i’m sorry do you want your app to be actually good or do you just want profits#because the direction you’re going you’re getting neither of those things#tbh i’ve been kinda losing some steam on learning spanish since my qsmp interest is waning a bit#[been rlly into doctor who lately]#but i’m determined to keep going#i do think i need to try delving into some other resources/methods too#i’ve seen kids shows mentioned as something good to watch#because they’re slower and simpler so easier to keep track of and understand
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sorry im just thinking about bcs but like. why not add a few smaller scenes of gus interacting with his own men? why does it seem like, in comparison, mike is almost immediately elevated to a higher status than those two in bcs purely because we actually get to see him having normal conversations with gus? like i understand they might not keep the plot moving as well because of the fact obviously if victor is currently doing something it’s because gus told him to etc. but for the most part all of the smaller interactions gus does have with those two ends up being in a somewhat high stress situation where it feels very tense between everyone. and it’s just like damn! is it always like that?? why do those two even care that much about their jobs if their boss is a bit of a dick? etc. i think even an additional scene or two with those guys (either alone or the both of them) talking with gus in a more normal situation could’ve both added a bit more depth into how gus treats his employees (we got a lot with how he treats lyle and co., but not a whole lot with the illegal side of things), how comfortable vic and tyrus feel around him in a calmer setting, and exactly why they both feel the need to be as loyal as they are to the guy.
and also on the other side of this i don't think it'd hurt to maybe elaborate on their pay just a bit..? i'm not saying to randomly put a number out into the atmosphere but i just mean some smaller things like. do they buy nicer things for themselves? what's their housing situation? what's their car situation? are the escalade / yukon their own vehicles or does gus just use those two for business situations? do they use them when they're doing their own stuff off the clock or do they have their own cars? etc. that can also help with understanding their motivations a bit. don't get me wrong i don't think they should be visibly rich or something because that's not what gus would want but just smaller things! cause it's easy to write their loyalty off as Well they probably get paid super well, which i'm sure is true, but if they don't show a single hint of that then what's the point. even something as simple as giving tyrus a nice watch, or maybe victor having a nicer looking gun, etc. something small like that. because as it stands right now the average 41 year old viewer who watched the show once only knows and will only ever know victor and tyrus as those two guys in the background who do random stuff for gus with no clear motivation. just the personification of "On it boss (salute emoji)". and to be honest this is true for a whole lot of fans who do watch the show multiple times and enjoy thinking about it more in depth, because on screen we barely have anything about the two.
and to be clear i'm not trying to say we should have an episode just for them or something like no i understand they're side characters. i understand we don't need all that. and i understand this is also primarily Jimmy's show. but it's not like these two are on the same level as like, arlo or paige and kevin etc. these guys have been around since brba. victor was literally introduced in the same episode gus was. and they are a huge part of gus's story, especially in brba. s4 wouldn't have been what it was without victor and tyrus. and in bcs, ignacio's situation wouldn't have been the same if it weren't for victor and tyrus as well. and i just personally believe that if their goal with gus in bcs was to go back and elaborate on how everything came to be and show what he was like a few years younger, they could've dragged victor and tyrus into that. and i think his character would've benefited from taking that extra step with those two.
#gray.txt#and you know. obviously i personally have my own clear ideas of everything. and i'm content with what i got. this isn't coming from a place#of Well victor is my favorite guy so everything should be about him LOL. i know what he is.#but thats only because i spent like what? 2 years now watching random interviews and analyzing the smallest details within the show that#genuinely meant nothing while they were writing the scripts. and then throwing some random ideas at the wall to see if they stick.#and i just dont think everybody should have to do that LOL. and i think gus's character gets a lot more interesting#when do you do have this clear idea of victor and tyrus in your head and how he interacts with them. but 99% of people dont have that!#nobody fucking knows everything giancarlo and vince ever said about box cutter. nobody knows about the interview where giancarlo referred t#his entire business (meth and restaurant) as his 'family'. and they'd never think of that in those terms#because with the exception of his restaurant workers and mike#it feels like he HATES them LMAO.#tldr all i'm saying is i think we could've benefited from at least one 1 minute long scene of victor and gus exchanging words#where it doesn't end in gus snapping the phone in half out of anger. and also let tyrus speak his mind and have gus agree with him once#also yeah sorry this is all over the place but it is somehow the most coherent i have felt in months so this is as good as its getting sorr#sorry .#also to be clear about my earlier statement that’s a lie my idea of those two is not clear in my head whatsoever i just meant in comparison#to literally the average viewer. and my own personal thoughts about them aren’t even true it’s just opinions and guesses.#and i love a character that i can just say shit about but at the same time i think it’s fun to have idk something in the source material#that you can actually use while thinking and not have to dig around 11 year old reddit AMAs#and that money paragraph sort of came out of order what i meant by saying all that is like#i feel those two could benefit from a clear motivation for why they do all the things they do#and if we have neither personal reasons nor monetary reasons then it just makes them feel like one dimensional henchmen or something#came out of no where* not order you dumb fuck (< me)#also it doesn’t have to be clear in our faces or anything whatever you know what i’m saying . this is too long i can’t keep elaborating
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forgot that visual clutter makes me feel the hunted for sport emotion and could NOT work out why I felt like I was going to explode until I looked at my kitchen (a single days mess accumulated).
Luckily a 5 minute tidy mostly cured me
#I’m still stressed bc I didn’t do my Thursday things and also lost book but neither of those things ACTUALLY matter#I’m just guy who worries. unfortunately :P HOWEVER I try very hard to not be!!!!!!!
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re last answer: please don't stop, being very unhinged about these two pretty white boys is helping distract me from the sharks losing streak rn so bring it on
https://www.tumblr.com/bondedpairs/764566430180147200?source=share
(sideblog woes but there's the link for you) anyway in the vid they talk about going over to each other's houses to have dinner and things and while that is a delicious example of their codependence i love it bc through an rpf lens there is definitely some old man ******* going on. they can have the dilfs and each other.
(someone else mentioned kept boys which i could write an essay on but i fear being Perceived™️)
anyway if you have anything to add to this please do, if not ignore me and i will hide under a rock until the stress-related insanity has worn off and i am a functioning member of society once more 😂
- @bondedpairs
ty for the video!!! and please, WRITE THE KEPT BOYS ESSAYYYY i promise i will read it with my hands over my eyes if you don’t want to be perceived. do it scared!! do it anyway!! we’ll all love you for it!!!
#like. i don’t know how to explain how narratively aware will smith is to me. he knows he’s being put into the codependent rookies arc.#he’s aware that zeev buium transforms into a dog. he knows that he and mack aren’t getting together because mack’s gotta work it out first.#& in a less unhinged way i simply mean that will smith has an air of both self-conscious thought & projection i think is maybe fascinating.#but not in a way in which i actually know this or think that he thinks about himself and how he comes across. he just Is Something ????#the best way i can explain is one of my alltime favorite fics i use it like a shorthand citation bc i love it so much but catchascatchcan’s#many worlds universe but specifically the second tk/pat story second person you the ouroboros spits out its tale nolan walks off screen.#like that is the kind of narrative awareness i am trying to explain that no matter where i put him will smith knows he’s inside a story but#not in a way where he’s trying to do anything to it. he’s just present there. this makes no sense to me either please understand#liv in the replies#bondedpairs#happy to have brought you something in your times of woe!!! also hope things get a little less stressful for you!! <3#we’re 2gether p much 24/7” no go on i say in my nature documentary voice. watching them like bugs under a rock rn observing from a distance#this DID get me to actually watch the video. agreed with puckpocketed saying rich text and ur tags like. YES the daddy issues popped out.#just wants to make sure he’s having fun!! checking up!! mack the prime irritance in will’s life!! foisted off on one another w/ no choice#it’s like when your parents are friends so then you have to be friends with their kids in a way and then also like. you’re the only kids#close in age to each other but they’re NOT but it is definitely not like. i would choose you for any lifetime it is very will smith hockey#(once again) very aware he has to wait for mack to settle down. like now that i’m saying this i DO want clairvoyant will smith which is not#where it goes in the first half but just in the sense of like. those silly posts that are like ‘invested early in stock!’ & it’s a picture#of braden holtby & his beautiful bisexual wife brandi back when holts was a hipster who wore skinny scarves & now everyone thinks he’s sooo#like that but it’s will smith saying my god you are insufferable but you’ll be fantastic in five years. get in the fucking car.#(yes i am drawing extensively from the one picture where will has COMPLETELY tuned him out (there is a football reasoning reference here?#with the patriots? neonfretra drew this also but it was a tweet about the teams. there’s layers to this here ANYWAY) we’re building a life#i realize after the fact i addressed neither the dilf (gilf?) fucking here nor the content of the actual video & polycules to which i say:#brain scrampled egg. the burnsie/joe/patty/(pavs???) polycule just exists to me and the kids intersect the venn diagram but in a much#smaller portion than they intersect each other in both ways (will/mack joe/the guys)#also as for the content of the video. you’re gonna have to give me at LEAST (how long did it take me until i actually started posting tzjd?#i hate that this is my metric but it really was like. i see everyone yelling about them & i’m like ok. [please ignore the irrational hatred#i have for tz at the time it has to do with moritz seider and also whenever i see him on the ice something awakens in kill mode] and i DO#blame tzjd for my 800 drafts and it took me like. a good while before i finally went OH kay. i see it. okay i can get invested. horizon at#a 45 degree angle moon in the late waxing gibbous winds scented of orange & blowing S by SW from the vortex cycle etc etc ass conditions)
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#I hate who I am when I start missing human contact and feeling lonely#I start missing someone who was awful to me simply because they were reliable in talking to me every day and at least sort of my friend#I start craving the connections that you see in media even though I know those types aren’t real#it seems like everyone else has more people and better people and closer people in their lives than me#it seems like everyone has best friends and partners that are closer to them and better for them#and idk it just feels like things are missing from my life#I have a partner but I can’t always talk to them when I need to because they can’t always handle a conversation#I have a best friend but he barely ever answers my calls and things feel distant between us lately#I have other friends but they’re not the kinds that I feel I could turn to for help when I’m lonely like this#I have my parents but neither of them are very good at comfort in these situations#and I just want to cry because I feel so completely by myself and I don’t know what to do anymore#I just want someone to talk to and who will listen to me when I need help and advice and be there for me#I’m starting to really miss the wrong people again even though I know I’m better without them in my life#but at least I could send them anything and get a response fairly soon when I needed to#at least for a while they were very close to me and i think that’s what I really miss most of all#just the closeness of another person since I don’t always feel that with other relationships these days#it’s times like these I wish I’d just killed myself at 16 so I wouldn’t have to keep dealing with this over and over forever#it’s times like these I wanna fade away#if I’m going to be alone anyway then why bother keeping others around at all? why not just break off and go be a hermit somewhere else?#but I can’t do that because I have too many responsibilities that I need to take care of#idk maybe I should just kill myself and get it over with#pretty sure I wasn’t supposed to make it this long in the first place#I mean I’m being facetious cause I’m not overly suicidal and I’m not actually going to do anything#just kinda wish I could in a weird sort of way#like missing the feeling of a blade slicing my skin since I stopped cutting a long time ago#just want more out of my relationships and from myself and from my life and idk how to get any of that#personal
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had one (1) good night of sleep saturday night and then was immediately made to pay for that last night with a 5-for-1 deal of: dream about my dad being homophobic/waking up and not being able to fall back asleep for ~4 hours/stuffy nose and sinus headache/sleep paralysis/stress dream about b.sd
#saturday night was probably my only Good Sleep for the month#and even then i briefly woke up in the night :/#also i combined stuffy nose and headache bc the headache was caused by the pressure in my sinuses from the stuffy nose lol#that is significantly better now at least#also it was the striking memory of the b.sd stress dream coming back that made me realize how terrible this combo actually was#i was like ‘man the hyperfixation stress dream on top of the one wher emy dad was being homophobic? kinda rude tbh :/‘#and then i was like. haha wait. neither of those were even the worst thing to happen last night what is wrong with me#hello grace here#also i’m actually fine this is no worse than most of the sleep i get#worst part was the sinus headache#i just want to complain for a sec
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Problems with leather beyond ‘it kills animals’:
- the chemicals in the tanning process. They are nasty. And often just end up dumped in the water.
- air pollution due to the transformation process (hydrogen sulfide during dehairing and ammonia during deliming, solvent vapours).’
- worker conditions.
But that stuff doesn’t count, I guess.
‘But every part of the animal gets used!’ Nu-uh. That’s very much company specific. If you’re not looking into how *they* source their leather then you don’t get to make claims about how much of the rest of the animal is used. (Also, like ‘it’s okay to use this bit of an oil derived product because other parts of the oil also got used!’ is that a good argument?) and hey, don’t forget we need to factor shipping for both industries, too - where is it being made, where is it sent to be turned into the final product, where is that product being shipped?. And we need to factor in everything used in the entire lifecycle of the animals. Every problem with the meat industry has to be accounted for in this calculation, too. Every part - every single step of production - of both industries needs to be assessed.
Like whatever, have your silly arguments about why you hate vegan alternatives, but don’t pretend that leather production isn’t also profoundly bad for the environment and for the people who work in the industry. Honestly reading the notes half of it just seems like apologism for people who wanna pretending the only problem is big oil and if you’re not sitting there ranting about oil companies being bad then what are you even doing as activism?
This conversation requires nuance.
It is not a black and white issue.
Like, it’s just not ‘vegan alternatives always environmentally better!’ Or ‘leather always better!’ It’s complicated shit. The best anyone can do is research individual companies (and wow is that difficult and time consuming).
"Vegan Leather"
Plastic. just say plastic.
#I know someone who is genuinely spending his RETIREMENT writing an article defending big oil companies because he is a soulless man I guess#(I.e. spend his life working for an oil company and is now looking for ways to morally justify his complicity)#but seriously#this is stupid#leather production is bad#so is overuse of plastics!#and other fabrics derived from oil.#like… say polyester#and ‘I’m vegetarian but wear leather because it’s okay someone else will eat the meat’#cool just say that about different cuts of meat#it’s okay the animal got killed someone else will eat the trotters so I can eat this cutlet guilt free!#all of these arguments are stupid#everything here is stupid#‘I only have to account for the carbon footprint of the single animal that was killed for this bit of leather’#’but THOSE people have to account for the entire industry! HAH! checkmate!’#better solution than this bullshit: just consume less.#like Jfc where do you think the leather is made?#you think most of the people working in tanneries are well payed an well protected?#trying to figure out what is the best thing to do is HARD#^ this shit? absolutely not helpful#reductive bullshit#if you have leather than look the fuck after it so it can last as long as possible#pass it on or hand it down or whatever#like of course if you have it keep it throwing it away would be ludicrous#but… and hear me out here#neither of these products are actually essential to the lives of the vast majority of people
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still thinking abt the ashfur redemption au if anyone was wondering
#i’ve decided it’s now featuring squilf and bramble tension during po3 bc she wants the deputy spot#added tension to her choice to foster mother for leaf bc she knows it sets her back from becoming deputy#but she loves leaf more than . anything else#but also maybe there’s a little resentment there anyway#anyway she doesn’t tell anyone who the kits father is#but everyone assumes it’s ash bc he and squilf are still . close friends#neither of them do anything to deny this bc it’s easier than explaining the truth#(ash does not know the truth either)#anyway in the meantime fire is having a Weird Time watching all of this#thinking of bluestar and the choices she made and why she made them#knowing squilf wants to be leader#bramble in this au is not Evil but he is a little more aggressive and prideful bc of hawk & tigers influence#and fire is looking at his daughter and looking at who he chose as his deputy#and wondering if he made the right choice#meanwhile ash is like (staring out at the lake) i think im gay#and missing hawk and feeling so conflicted and wrong about this#and can’t talk to squilf bc he’s terrified those actually Are his kits#and she’s desperate to talk to him bc she needs support rn but she can’t be fully honest with him abt this#without betraying her sister#if i didn’t clarify this before ash and squilf did have a Thing#but then they both realized they weren’t actually interested in each other#it was just easier to pretend they were than to confront reality#reality being ash is gay and in love with the son of the guy who killed his mom#and his not bf manipulating him to be the backup plan for orchestrating fire’s death#and for squilf it’s ‘i’m probably a lesbian but i have a job so i don’t have time for that’#i will continue writing this in tags because erm.#i have anxiety#anyway<3#have a nice night
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I think people look at me wearing all black with band tees and sneakers and 14mm tunnels in my ears and think I don’t know shit about horses. And like… I’ve had my gelding for a decade. I’ve ridden him basically everywhere in every situation you can imagine. Yeah, I’m a core kid, but I’m also a certified horse girl, and I have the back problems to prove it lmao
#she speaks#we had a minor crisis yesterday that required an unplanned vet trip#he’s fine I was just being cautious#cuz like he had some swelling over a tendon in one of his legs and I didn’t like it#tendons are nothing to play with#but there’s a new vet tech at the office and I think he was convinced things were gonna get a little western#and like nah we’re fine lmao#this guy is a fancy broke show horse and a dynamite trail pony and we’ve done just about everything together#the vet tech who’s always been there and knows me was like nah we’re gonna stay outta her way she’s got him#dude kept tryna cut in and like… no. I’ve got him please let me handle my horse whom I’ve had for a decade#we trust each other completely so just chill lol neither of us are gonna freak out#guy kept tryna ask him to move too and woody was like no? my mom’s got me and I’m gonna listen to her and ignore your stupid ass?#and he did too I was so proud lmao#didn’t even flick an ear at the guy his focus was on me the entire time#and like I took lessons for a couple years and my ex-best friend is a horse trainer#I never took lessons under them because fuck that lmao but I learned a lot from them#I had a different trainer who I went to and showed ranch pleasure under#won a fair few ribbons with woody in that time too#even won reserve champion in an aqha/apha sanctioned world qualifier in halter#my ranchy baby beat a bunch of double muscled hypp halter bred monsters and denied them points for world lmfao#judge told me and the little ranchy appy who got champion that she chose us because our horses were perfect and actually looked like horses#said all those other horses couldn’t carry a rider if their life depended on it and that’s what’s wrong with the halter ring today#and on the trail like I’ve ridden woody on the side of the highway at night#up a nearly vertical slope#through river beds with water up to his belly#we were even on tv riding across my college campus#so yeah#all this bragging to say we know what we’re doing lol#anyway he’s fine today#not even lame so I’m happy
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nah you don’t get to doompost about the state of the world when all I ever see you do is go to work and fuck around at various events
#maskless too#anyway#mute mute mute#like okay….#what are you doing to fix it then???#going to a little clowncore party???#not voting???#neither of those things help anyone babe#like instead of posting about how the world of fucked#you could be posting resources or events that actually help people#like I don’t want to hear it from you anymore#you’re cool otherwise so that’s why you’re not getting blocked outright#but I’m tired of seeing your shit#anyway.#maybe they do go to protests maybe she donates to things#but I’d imagine they’d be posting about those too???#if she’s posting doomerist shit??#if they’re putting ‘free Palestine’ graffiti pics in their photo dumps#y’know???
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I definitely wonder what my high school self would think of me now, idk how many people here were following me when I was in high school but I was so sure I would be masc for ever and ever
#I identified as a butch lesbian for pretty much all 4 years of high school and I’m#neither of those things now but I don’t feel like I had myself misidentified at all it feels like my identity just evolved#at that time in my life I really wasn’t attracted to men#I’m a little drunk rn sorry if that makes no sense at all but that’s just how I feel#it was really difficult to admit to myself that I changed though I kept it to myself for so long bc I was so embarrassed to admit that I wa#wrong except I wasn’t actually wrong and if my identity evolves again in a different way it’s the same thing
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contrary to popular belief, megumi actually likes a couple of things. one of those things happened to be you.
you sat alone in shoko’s lab, ice pack held over your steadily bruising eye and a couple of butterfly stitches over a cut on your jaw. the door creaked open, shoko coming back to check on you before she had to go and patch up ino, who was sitting in the room next to you in much worse shape. “shoko, i told you i’ll be fine—oh. hi, megumi.” there was a sheepish smile on your face once you saw the way his eyes narrowed as he examined your injuries. “what happened?” you let out a sigh. his voice was rougher than usual, a tentative hand coming out to grasp your jaw, turning your head to the side to inspect the damage done to your pretty face. “it’s nothing. it was a curse user. took ino’s mask so he couldn’t summon the beasts. he’s in bad shape.” megumi’s frown deepened, if that was possible. he let out a little huff, hand coming down to land on your shoulder, a soft comfort for a boy so afraid of affection. “he’s gonna be a lot worse when i get my hands on hi—”. “can you not? please? you can’t fight someone every time i get hurt, gumi.” megumi flinched that that. he hated when you chided him. all he wanted to do was protect you. and ino was a first grade, he was supposed to have your back. “can i at least punch gojo for sending you on that mission?” you put down the ice pack, bringing your hands up to cup his cheeks, forcing him to look at you. “i’m fine, pretty boy. besides, now i’ve got my very handsome boyfriend to nurse me back to health.” megumi’s eyes widened. boyfriend. you’d never called him that before. of course he knew you didn’t hold any affection for anyone else, and neither did he. but a label? he was in deep. “boyfriend?”
“problem?”
“nope.”
#x reader#jujutsu kaisen#m.list#jjk x reader#megumi fushiguro x reader#jujutsu megumi#megumi x reader#megumi fushiguro#jujutsu kaisen megumi#jjk megumi#megumi x y/n#megumi x you#megumi fushiguro x you
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caught in the act (of falling) | y.jw
req!: jungwon with fake dating trope (and like he wants to make it a real relationship or smth like that)
pairing: jungwon x fem!reader
synopsis: what started as a fake dating scheme to fend off jungwon’s ex turns into stolen kisses, lingering touches, and feelings neither of you expected. when “pretend” starts to feel a little too real, jungwon’s flustered confession might just change everything.
warnings/others: fake dating trope!, cute flustered jungwon🤭, jungwon’s ex is obsessive (i would be too if i were one actually)
w/c: 1.07k
here’s my masterlist!
you honestly can’t figure out how you and jungwon ended up here—tangled in each other’s arms in his room, no one around but the two of you. his chest is warm against your back, his chin perched lazily on your shoulder, and his hands are wrapped around yours, helping hold the comic you’re both supposed to be reading. except neither of you is paying attention. how could you, when you can feel his breath tickling your neck every time he exhales?
this whole thing started as a joke—or at least, that’s what you tell yourself. jungwon’s ex had been haunting him like a particularly clingy ghost, and out of sheer desperation, he asked you to pretend to be his girlfriend. fake dating, he called it. to drive her away.
at first, you thought he was out of his mind.
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“jungwon, have you completely lost it?” you whisper-shouted, darting nervous glances at his ex, who was seated way too close to your table in the cafeteria. her glare was sharp enough to cut through steel. “she’s going to end me.”
“she’s not going to end you,” jungwon whispered back, though his tone wasn’t exactly convincing. “look, it’s a foolproof plan. a few hugs, maybe hold hands—just when she’s around! it’ll be fine.”
“fine? jungwon, she’s been staring at me like i ran over her cat.”
he winced, rubbing the back of his neck. “okay, fair. but you’ll be doing me the biggest favor ever. i’ll owe you one. please?”
you crossed your arms. “and what exactly does fake dating involve? because i swear if this gets weird—”
“it won’t!” he exclaimed quickly, his face scrunching up in that stupidly cute way that made you want to throttle him and pinch his cheeks at the same time. “just little stuff. harmless things. like holding hands. maybe linking arms. y’know, couple things.”
you eyed him warily. “define ‘couple things.’”
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“couple things” turned out to be… a lot. jungwon, in his infinite wisdom, decided you both needed to “practice” being a convincing couple. this involved a series of increasingly absurd activities that had you questioning his sanity—and yours for agreeing to any of it.
“okay,” jungwon said one afternoon, pacing in front of you like a drill sergeant. “let’s practice nicknames. couples always have nicknames.”
“we already have nicknames,” you pointed out. “you call me by my name, and i call you uwon to annoy you.”
“no, no, no.” he waved his hand dramatically. “those aren’t cute nicknames. i mean things like ‘baby,’ or ‘sweetheart,’ or… or ‘honeybuns.’”
you nearly choked. “honeybuns? jungwon, if you call me honeybuns in public, i will personally make sure your life is a living nightmare.”
“noted,” he said with a laugh. “okay, let’s keep it simple. i’ll call you… babe. and you can call me—”
“uwon,” you interrupted, grinning. “i’m sticking with uwon.”
he sighed but didn’t argue. “fine. but we still need to work on PDA. let’s practice holding hands.”
you raised an eyebrow. “jungwon, we’ve held hands before.”
“yeah, but not like this,” he said, reaching out to intertwine your fingers with his. his grip was warm and secure, and he gave your hand a small squeeze. “see? it’s all about the squeeze. it makes it look more real.”
“this is ridiculous,” you muttered, though your cheeks felt suspiciously warm.
<<<<<<<<<<<<
present.
weeks passed, and jungwon’s ex finally got the message. her death stares became less frequent until she eventually stopped showing up altogether. mission accomplished. but the fake dating didn’t stop.
“uwon,” you call softly, the nickname slipping out naturally as you shift in his arms. he hums, his chin still resting on your shoulder, but his hold on you tightens slightly.
you put the comic down and turn to face him, his hands automatically settling on your waist like it’s second nature. “what are we doing?” you ask, your tone light but pointed.
he blinks at you, his brows furrowing in confusion. “reading?”
you sigh, rolling your eyes. “not the comic. this.” you gesture between the two of you. “what is this, jungwon? because i’m pretty sure your ex isn’t spying on us anymore.”
jungwon freezes, his eyes darting away like he’s suddenly very interested in the corner of his room. “uh… practice?” he says weakly.
“practice for what?” you press, crossing your arms. “you said the whole point was to convince your ex. but she’s gone now. so why are we still… doing this?”
he scratches the back of his neck, looking anywhere but at you. “well, you know… just in case.”
“just in case of what?” you shoot back, leaning in slightly. “jungwon, are you hiding something?”
his face flushes, his mouth opening and closing like he’s searching for an excuse and coming up empty. finally, he blurts out, “okay, fine! i like you, alright?”
your brain short-circuits. “you… what?”
jungwon immediately panics, his hands flailing as he starts to babble. “oh my god, i’m sorry! i didn’t mean to just—i mean, i did, but not like this! and i totally get it if you don’t like me back, but—oh no, wait, please like me? or don’t? no, wait, maybe you could? or we could just pretend this never happened? or—”
“jungwon,” you interrupt, your voice sharp enough to cut through his spiral.
“yes?” he squeaks, his wide eyes meeting yours.
instead of answering, you grab the front of his shirt and pull him into a kiss. he freezes for a split second before melting against you, his lips moving softly against yours. the kiss deepens, and his eagerness makes you giggle into his mouth, causing him to pull back slightly, breathless.
“what’s so funny?” he asks, pouting.
“you,” you tease, your fingers still gripping his shirt. “you’re way too eager.”
his cheeks flush, but he doesn’t back down. instead, he grins mischievously and suddenly hovers over you, gently pushing you onto your back. “you stole a kiss from me,” he says, his voice low and playful, “so now you’re stuck with me. forever.”
before you can respond, he leans down and captures your lips again, this time with more confidence. his hands cradle your face, and the weight of him above you is both grounding and electrifying. when he finally pulls back, his forehead rests against yours, his smile soft but radiant.
“so…” he whispers, his tone teasing, “can we drop the ‘fake’ part now?”
you laugh, wrapping your arms around his neck. “yeah, i think we can.”
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