#I’m just. so angry and sad.
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realizing that people who equate cynicism with intellectual rigor are often just being lazy and pathetic has been so helpful tbh
#like the endless amount of cynicism i see on here particularly amongst american leftists just very much reads to me#as a combination of moral ocd and identity politics / optics#where if you’re sad/angry enough it excuses you from participating in the real world#instead of like. funneling a real desire to see positive change into channels of action#anyways. aoc and rashida talib the only bitches out here i respect#i am never going to be a person who responds to like. paragraphs about how electoral politics are evil or america is evil like yeah. true.#but i live here. people i love live here. strangers i love live here. so now what do i do that is Real outside of the whining chamber#optimism = stupid / fatalism = intellect is like. LOLOLOL#we all have to chose to believe that we can create a world that is livable#which is not to say i am#at all aligned with the dem#establishment or the liberal agenda but like. i’m not taking myself out of the game bc i believe i can Do Something and it’s my duty to do
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Training is important…. But talking about your favourite show is important too
Blue belongs to PopcornPr1nce
Ink belongs to comyet/ myebi
Dream belongs to Jokublog
In case you can’t read my handwriting:
Blue: Huh, that’s weird. Dream is late for training
Ink: Wait, IM not the one late? That’s new!
Blue: Maybe we should check if he’s alright
Blue: Dream, wake up! There’s no time to be a lazybones!
Dream: uh… hey guys! What’s going on-
Blue and Ink: YOU WATCH MY LITTLE PONY?!?
Ink: Please please please tell me you’re a brony too!
Dream: A… brownie?
Blue: OMG you have so much to learn!
#art#utmv#comic#dream sans#ink sans#swap sans#star sanses#sorry this is a bit rushed#i mostly draw Dream really sad or angry in my comics#so I guess this is just to give him a break#also I’m trying to give blue more attention cause I barely give him any lmao#don’t ask me why dreams tv was on the floor#I just didn’t want to draw a couch 😭#and it’s funnier that way anyway
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my sirius & harry thought of the day:
harry kept that firebolt alive for all 137 years of his remaining life through sheer willpower and magical strength. he did not let a single twig of it die off. not only was he absolutely unhinged about taking care of it, not letting anyone near it after 5th year, but he also basically single-handedly reinvented the field of broom-crafting just so he could keep his godfather’s gift to him alive. he didn’t do anything with this skill, basically driving everywhere who knew him spare bc !!! ‘harry do u know what u just did? most brooms don’t last over 6-7 years, not even a fraction of that if used at the pace and frequency as u. if u could just—‘
and he just flat out shuts them up bc how does he tell them that the reason his firebolt is still alive is bc sirius’ love runs thru it and harry would die himself before he let it bc he can’t lose the last piece of sirius he has left. he cannot perform this miracle on any other broom, tho he can probably make the single best non-sirius-gifted broom that the WW has ever seen just bc of how extensive his knowledge is now
and the thing, right, is he doesn’t keep the firebolt locked up in some display like some artefact. sirius would’ve never wanted that. his dad would’ve hated it. brooms were meant to be flown. so fly, he does. wonderfully. it’s forever his primary broom and he puts it thru all the paces, keeping up with all sorts of newer, flashier, pro models w utter ease.
it’s like this: when he uses this firebolt, it feels like perhaps he has his godfather back for just a second. and harry is forever weak to that feeling.
#sirius black#harry potter#good godfather sirius black#haven’t been here in a. while huh#s&h my beloved <3#there’s just something. about sirius gifting harry his first and last broom.#that makes me go feral#i need harry to be unhealthily attached to his broom#it’s a problem. like a legit mental health one#but he doesn’t know how to move on from it#he spends hours polishing that thing and grooming the bristles or stuff#or wtv*#the only other person who got to touch it was james sirius#for obvious reasons#never w/o supervision tho harry is not that hinged yet#or ever#his kids know this is one line they cannot cross w their father#not bc he gets angry. but bc he gets unbearably sad#and they all know about papa sirius#this hc is becoming yet another rabbit hole so i’m gonna pull the breaks#but this is yet again making me realise how much i love next gen#the potter babies are just!!!#and dad harry is lovely#ok yah that’s it#pen’s notes
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no bc how in the hell did we go from daniel being adorably cheeky and somewhat confident he’s got a seat next year, and bayer saying singapore isn’t daniel’s last race… to this
to journalists and fans and the fucking f1 account themselves not knowing what the fuck is going on and everyone being collectively confused and upset at how things are now being played out
congratulations redbull you united everyone daniel fans and haters alike here with the fucking disgraceful and disgusting way you’ve treated him, I hope you burn in hell
#daniel ricciardo#dr3#f1#formula 1#red bull racing#red bull f1#christian horner#I don’t have - im angry and im sad and thats what keeps fighting in me#I’m literally crying and cursing at the same time like at least TELL US what the hell is happening#Daniel doesn’t deserve this he deserves so much better this is beyond disgusting this is beyond disrespectful#i have no Words left im just upset and I will be until we get actual information#joey rambles#nothing makes any sense
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cw: pregnancy, kids (you guys have a daughter together), fwb’s, angst with a bit of a hopeful ending, refers to you as ‘girl’ once
Friends with benefits Bakugou who never really got over his ego to fully commit to you. You’re a little ashamed to admit it, but when you fell pregnant, you thought that things would change. That the whole “no feelings” aspect would’ve been dropped, that he would’ve embraced you fully.
But he just…didn’t? If anything, he distanced himself away from you, became so formal like you were another coworker he would address. It was heartbreaking, going through your first pregnancy feeling so, so alone, but having to grin and bear it the whole way through.
He supported you though in every way that he could. He never missed an appointment, would trek to your house during late nights whenever you craved something. He even moved you in to his own apartment during your last trimester, but a couple months after your baby was born, you went back home. You never felt unwelcome, but you couldn’t pretend to be a happy family when he slept in the guest room every night.
So now, you coparent quite easily. At least, it seems easy to Bakugou, but really, it’s all a facade.
In all honesty? He thinks he’s a fuck up. An idiot. The stupidest, shittiest person who’s ever existed.
He thought what he was doing was enough, that the words he didn’t say carried across oceans, formulated into titles that he never verbalized. So when you told him you would be happy to coparent, his world felt upended suddenly, as he holds his tiny little baby girl in his arms.
Coparent? How could a couple coparent? Where did he go wrong? (He only slept in the guest room to give you and baby space, only moved you in late because you lived so far away and you were getting so big. He never said I love you because he was too embarrassed to say it out loud. He didn’t know he had to say it out loud to solidify it. He thought you just knew.)
So it’s why his heart breaks when he catches a glimpse of curly blond hair and red eyes in the grocery store. He tries to duck behind an aisle, but his baby would recognize him anywhere. (It’s true; you’ve sent many videos of her recognizing him on billboards and tv commercials and magazines.)
“Bakugou?” You call, ducking around the corner to catch a glimpse of him. He tries to act nonchalant like he’s looking at cans of soup, tries not to cringe at your formal name. He turns when you come into view, eyes drinking in your attire. His heart breaks a little when he recognizes the shirt you took in your second trimester, still has the pic you sent him of you grinning as you show off what you stole.
“Hey.” Bakugou greets gruffly, mouth pulled tight, but it cracks into a grin when his daughter starts squealing. She’s in the front part of the shopping cart, twisting her little chunky body to get out and get to him. She damn near screams when he sets his basket down to pick her up, rubbing his nose to hers.
“How ya doing, squirt?” He asks quietly, pecking at her chubby cheeks as she instantly starts babbling to him. He holds her close to his chest, eyes full of pure love for his baby girl, and it makes your heart squeeze so tight you think it might burst.
“This isn’t your neck of the woods.” You mutter, head tilting to the side as you take in your daughters excited face to see her father. Bakugou’s eyes snap to your own, letting his daughter play with his fingers in the meanwhile. He looks embarrassed, cheeks a dusty pink as he grumbles and looks away.
“I was just picking up some stuff to drop off for her. Was gonna text you and see if you were home,” he replies, and something tells you that it’s a lie. But you don’t pester him about it, just nod a few times, taking in the sight.
He looks so good like that, in his compression shirt and sweats, his hair mussed from your daughters incessant pulling. He’s grinning at her, but looks so bashful when he turns to you, like he’s thinking about things he knows he shouldn’t, like he has a boatload to say but can’t cough up.
And if you were a mind reader, you’d be so fucking right. He can’t help but reminisce on before you got pregnant, the nights spent with you. The day you told him you were having a girl, the tears you cried when you delivered her. He thinks, filled with so much guilt the entire time, that he wants another one. With you.
“‘S it okay if I walk my favorite girls home?” He asks you gruffly, nibbling on your daughters cheeks to hear her giggle again, uncaring of the drool she leaves on his hand. You feel your eyes widen at his term for you, face suddenly flushing. Favorite? You, his favorite?
Something tells you that you shouldn’t fall down the rabbit hole that is Bakugou Katsuki and his suppressed emotions and shitty ego. But there’s another something that tells you to trust it this time, to let things happen organically and without expectation. So you do.
“I’m sure she would love to show her daddy the new toy her grandma just brought her.” You tell him, giggling when he rolls his eyes at the mention of his mother. But he walks with you the entire time you finish up your grocery order, holding your daughter the whole time and pays for your groceries despite repeatedly telling him that he doesn’t have to.
He pushes her in the stroller stored underneath the shopping cart on the way home, making small conversation. And when you’re halfway home, does he reach for your hand. Only to cross the cross walk though, he tells himself, only for your protection. But he doesn’t let go until you’re in your own place, and even then, he’s close by the entire time. He helps you put away groceries, remembers where everything is like he lives here.
And for some reason, the familiarity makes your heart ache a little more than you would like it to.
#full of sadness tonight srry#but I’m obsessed with this idea actually#I wanna expand on it even more in a fic#I don’t like to write angst for him but this idea is just :(#he’s so shitty at communicating his feelings and you hate assuming things#so many things are just left unsaid for so long that you just force yourself to get over it and move on#and he’s so confused and so angry that you could leave him like that#but he never had you in the first place now did he?#ohh it makes me wanna sob#obviously in the end you get back together and have 98 more kids 🙄#but the journey along the way is RUFF#okay I’m done writing my wrist hurts lol#bakugou treats! 🍬#—new treat in the streets! 🍫#dad bkg
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>warning for scars from canonical self harm<
I’ve been wanting to learn to work with color more, so I started doing these little pieces with songs I associate with isat/Siffrin! Here’s the song if you want!!
#remy rambles#remy doodles#my art#fanart#in stars and time#isat siffrin#I just. love this song. I have for a long time even before I played in stars and time#I just LOVE the sentiment ‘you’re a celestial body and you’re loved.’ because it means a lot to me#(a person who struggles to feel valuable and loved)#and I think Siffrin would relate.#also the whole ‘they want you even when you’re angry. even when you’re sad. they want you’ is SO family core to me#ok I’m done rambling but please listen to the song if you want!!!!#(sharing music is my love language. I’m surprised I don’t do these pieces more often!)#Spotify
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I got a medical diagnosis for my child today and I’m feeling many things about it (both good and bad) and I’m just trying to process it and figure out how to explain this to THEM.
I just want to say - follow your mom gut, follow your intuition, don’t stop fighting for your child!!!! And get a second opinion if the first one doesn’t feel right.
#I feel so validated lol#but also sad and scared and I just want to protect my child#and I’m so angry at the people who told me I was wrong#including my dad!!!!!!
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At one 1D concert I attended where I was very close to the stage, I was shocked when Liam made eye contact and winked at me less than 5 minutes into the concert. I wasn’t particularly attractive or special. As I watched him, I noticed he did it again, and again, and again, to any fan whose eyes he managed to catch.
That was Liam. Liam wanted every fan to have the best experience possible. He wanted everyone to feel noticed. He wanted everyone to know they were loved. I wasn’t a Liam girl but he saw me, and he cared.
Liam certainly had his flaws. I don’t deny any allegations. But I am devastated (and frankly, a little angry) that mental health, drugs, and arrested development from fame at such a young age broke him.
I will always remember Liam for the heart that was within him that I saw firsthand.
#I shared this elsewhere and it got some traction so if you read it I promise I didn’t steal it#I made some edits though to make it harder to find where I posted it#This was from one of my Ottawa shows and you can read the story in my report - the same show Harry dumped water on me#If I’m being honest I’m just so angry at the industry that this happened. That all of this happened. I can’t stop being mad!#Obviously I’m sad too but I’m angry that it came to this#our sweet daddy direction#Just a boy from wolverhampton#1d#1direction
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non american mutuals, i don’t really know how to say this, but like. you’re a reminder that this isn’t everything. it’s not the whole world. comforting words and thoughts would be appreciated, even if you don’t think you have anything to offer. i’m guessing i’m not the only american tumblr user who feels that way right now
#i’m just so ashamed and sad.#and angry.#it’s hard to conceive of a future#and maybe even harder to know that there will a future#whether i like it or not#and that future includes donald trump as the president for the next four years#and maybe never an election again#i can’t go into work tomorrow and it feels wrong to do fictional escapism#and i’m alone. because i live alone
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the worst part and the part i’m drowning in is he won everything. he won popular and electoral. it was never about jill stein or protest voting or abstaining or caring about g3nocide or women or queer people or ab0rtion rights. none of it would have fucking mattered because he would have won anyway because white cishet women sold out against their sisters rather than vote for another fucking woman. none of it would have mattered because this country cares more about pressing their boots on some poor sod’s neck to get ahead.
this country has bred selfish, bigoted, misogynistic, disgusting pigs and we are going to have to eat the same slop as them.
#ari announces#i’m sorry if my politics posting is too much but i’m not tagging. enough. y’all are gonna need to just blacklist me#get out into your local communities. band together. start initiatives. go to a food bank. i know this sounds so doomer but#we got thru 2016. we did. rn you don’t need to think rationally like that though that’s for next week#for now be angry. be sad. be devastated. be depressed. feel it. process it. and get your pu$$y up bc we got work to do#‘waaa don’t dehumanize trxmp supporters :((‘ that’s a pig. that’s an animal incapable of human thought and basic understanding and literacy#sorry if you think otherwise but there is no excuse now. none. zilch. fuck off.#(actually jk i am tagging this bc this is really doomer i’m sorry yall)#tw politics
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I would just like to say if you’re transphobic you can rot 🙂
#love coming in here to slurs in my inbox 🙃#I’m so angry and sad and i just don’t understand it#and transphobes aren’t welcome in this fandom btw
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Blyke in Season 3.
This is my prediction. With the way Season 2 ended, I think they’ll find Blyke months later looking something like this.
Shit happens to people in prison. Terrence was murdered in his cell, Rein was worried about being killed by other inmates, hell, Blyke’s already pretty banged up in the finale and he’s been there for 2.5 seconds. Not to mention that the Authorities seem to have no problem torturing kids *COUgh* Keon.
Perhaps it’s a bit pessimistic, but the story’s been getting a lot darker lately. I doubt Blyke’s getting out of prison without a little extra trauma at least.
Latest Chapter as of Prediction: Side Story — Triple Threat (1)
#blyke unordinary#unordinary#Prediction#Drawing in my diary again#art#unordinary spoilers#normally the spoiler warning is at the top but not this time bc it’s an image post#I changed his expression so many times#I was going for that resigned kind of dead inside look#At first it looked too angry#and then it looked just like nothing#totally nuetral face#then it looked too sad#like he was gonna cry#and then I got this#many more iterations along the way#Was worried about damaging my paper the amount of times I erased his eyebrows#Tbh I think I still fucked it up#Also I spent awhile on the background and you can barely see it#could’ve just made it gray ngl#I also spent a long time on this band of light on him#like as if someone had opened a door and light shined through#but I got rid of it#Waste of my DAMN time smh#I’m rlly proud of the hair though#Shit happens in Lovun Prison#Is all of that blood his? Who knows.#also I drew all those cuts in different stages of healing be proud of me#This was supposed to be a doodle/warmup I did NOT expect it to take all day#Ngl Im really glad I turned my sketchbook sideways for this one bc the lined paper reminds me of prison bars like this
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Sometimes I think about the fact we’re neighbors. There are more things that bring me and a Palestinian woman living in Gaza together than things bringing us apart.
We grew up watching the same sunsets, the same sunrises. If there were no borders, it would take about an hour for us to go and visit one another. We grew up listening to the same music. Our parents did, too.
Our grandparents read poetry in the same language, watched the same Egyptian movies. The foods are similar, the hobbies are, too. When I was in high school I met a girl my age, who grew up in Gaza but relocated with her family to an Arab village within Israel, a five minute drive from where I used to live. We made movies together. We joked a lot. We were one and the same, more often than not.
I can’t stop thinking about the Palestinians in Gaza. I can’t stop thinking about the horrors they endure. I can’t stop thinking about Palestinian men, women and children, having to fight for food. For hygiene products. For water. I can’t stop thinking about them having no time to hide before a bomb hits, about them not being allowed to evacuate. I can’t stop thinking about the ones who died protesting for a better life, long before this war started. They are my neighbors. We watch the same sunsets.
I can’t stop thinking about the hostages, either. I can’t stop thinking about the desecrated bodies of innocent women paraded around Gaza’s streets. I can’t stop thinking about the sisters who were raped and murdered together, aged 13 and 16. The older one was my sister’s friend. I can’t stop thinking about Shlomo Ron, the art-loving 80 year old man who sacrificed his own life to save his wife and grandchildren. He looks just like my grandpa. I can’t stop thinking about Thomas Hand, who was told his little girl was dead and cried tears of joy, because being dead is better than being taken hostage. I can’t stop thinking about the fact Emily Hand didn’t die, and actually was taken hostage. Ever since she was released, she only whispers, too afraid to speak up.
I can’t stop thinking about the suffering. About the loss. About the mothers on both sides of their border who had to watch their children die. About the pain.
Their faces haunt me.
I don’t understand why the West is calling for a ceasefire when they should be calling for peace. I don’t understand why the West is calling for the destruction of Israel when they should be calling for a solution that will allow both people to live side by side, in peace. I don’t understand why the existence of Israel is a bad thing. I don’t understand why the West refuses to call out Hamas, for the crimes of October 7th and their gross mistreatment and neglectful leadership of the Palestinian people ever since they rose to power. I don’t understand why the West views this decades old conflict through a one sided lens, amplifying the voice of one people’s crying and shutting down the other’s.
We deserve better. Palestinians and Israelis deserve better. We deserve to prosper, we deserve to live long and proud of our heritages in the land we both call home.
Maybe one day nations around the world and our own corrupt leaders will stop making us paint one another as the enemy. Israelis and Palestinians, we’re not each other’s enemies. We’re each other’s neighbors.
We deserve to let our children play.
#israel#palestine#gaza#i/p war#I don’t know. just had to let it all out#I’m sad and I’m angry and I’m frustrated and I’m so fucking scared#I just want this war to be over already#am yisrael chai#non Palestinians/israelis can rb but as I mentioned before idc about your opinions on the matter
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I’m sad and angry
#our favorite cat died Sunday evening and then last night while Ror was downtown some asshole broke my passenger window and stole my gym bag#and I know a stolen gym bag isn’t the end of the world but it had my besties FAVORITE pair of boots in there along with my workout log#and my favorite cardigan was in there#it’s October so who wants to drive with a missing window?#ugh I’m just so sad and angry
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incredibly lame of someone to go “making Talia do bad things in your hc is racist and misogynistic”
LET WOMEN BE EVIL AND HAVE FUN SOMETIMES (ik it’s more nuanced than that but those tags were just so insane and funny to me)
(Also hi I love your writing everytime I see it pop up on my dash I get excited)
Yeah I mean— it’s not even a headcanon it’s literally just a PROMPT 😭 and until now I’ve pretty much only ever written Good!Talia so I wanted to switch it up a bit 😂
Oof, but I’m really happy most of you guys enjoy my prompts and know not to over interpret them 💚
And thank you! I’m really happy you enjoy my writing 💚💚💚
#ngl I might now have to make THAT prompt into a whole ass fic#just to be contrary#I’m petty like that ksksks#but I’m so glad to have someone in my corner#I was literally so sad at first that someone attacked me like that#and then I got angry 😂
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what could have fucking been am i right? i’ve been mostly silent today with everything going on because i didn’t feel like i really had anything to contribute. and i still don’t, except to ask what could have been? imagine all the season five moments we could have possibly still had but with the promise of canon buddie covering it all in a warm blanket. the look in 5.01. eddie having a panic attack and being called repressed. buck worrying about him and pushing him to break up with ana (how messy would that have been after we witnessed them have their feelings realization, buck wondering if he was telling him this for the right reasons). the balcony scene. eddie leaving the 118. “you need to move on, i have.” buck kissing lucy. buck breaking down the door. eddie apologizing for scaring chris (for scaring buck?). taking eddie to see charlie. reuniting at work in may day. eddie going to texas. taylor coming back for the jonah stuff but as a friend. “is that really love.” the henren wedding (a perfect moment for them to move further towards an actual relationship leading into season six). god and there’s so many other moments in season five alone that would have been colored differently if they’d only been able to tell the story the way they wanted to.
#this is a rambling mess#and i’m probably forgetting something major#i’m just so sad and angry#and in my mind we’d still get a bi buck storyline#probably not bucktommy but with someone(s) else#starting before the eddie/ana break up and continuing for at least a few episodes#evan buckley#eddie diaz#buddie#i wanna teach you how forever feels#christine.txt
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