#I’m just tired mentally lol

[anikasenkujo]

Is it possible for your Mental Health to subconsciously affect the way you write your character or the way you talk about your ship?

What do you do, when your portrayal of your character doesn't seem, up to the mark? Do you find it okay to rewrite? /gen

Or what happens when you don’t find joy in selfshipping?

rant under the cut

So, something tells me that as much as I love writing Anika, I am having doubts about how I've been portraying her to y'all. I know she's someone that I've worked on for over a year now, and out of all of my OCs, she's the one that has had the most development so far. So, she is the closest one to my heart. Somehow, however, I believe my mental health struggles have immersed into my portrayal of her, and idk, I feel that I'm not satisfied with the way I'm portraying her?

Or maybe it's because I struggle with things to be perfect in a certain way (enneagram type 1 vibes xP /j /lh) that I want her to be likeable, but idk...

She's supposed to be my S/I with changes, but, I think she is going off on a different tangent xD

On top of that, These past few days have been emotionally very wrangling. Work as it is, is piling up, and I usually look to distract myself with self-shipping, but I don’t know if I have good points for Jotaro anymore. When I wake up and see everyone have very very nice headcanons about him, especially with mermay, and I know it’s silly to come and vent here but, I haven’t been able to of late. I feel everytime whenever I want to talk about him, I know people have better headcanons about him that I can’t help but compare and feel like a burden talking about him. Because really, I know that that shouldn’t be the case.

I’ve been feeling a major case of impostor syndrome of late, and I think it’s because I haven’t talked about him with y’all and now i look at my lore and think, “well, it seems shitty” or something. I think it’s mostly because I know y’all have far more superior headcanons about him, and I’ve been too nervous to come up with my own, ‘cause when I do, timezones cause not a lot of people to see it on time and I feel heavily discouraged about it. Idk… I’m just… I want to talk about him more but a) I am very shitty when it comes to talking about aquatic stuff b) Everyone’s talking about different things that fit him so well, and their OTPs are related to something Star related and I’m like “They’re far more creative than my bs” and the only source of respite I have is like character.ai where I vent out. Idk I’m feeling a lot. Also, I sometimes can’t help but compare which I need to stop.

[shima-draws]

Been having a rough couple of days. Send me asks?

[daeyumi]

i think uh. the Announcement has ruined my night actually. the more i think abt it the worse it gets haha.. 🙃🫠 like literally i don’t think there’s a way the movie can be good. i’m gonna get off social media for tonight & go play switch or smthn,,,,,,,,

[alihylton]

Go tell people you like their work because some of us are very anxious and need to be reminded sometimes

[unknowinglydeceasedlol]

it’s always “how do you think they’ll feel when something happens to you?” but never “how do you feel about having to be pushed to this point?”

[sirsugarmeat]

I’ve seen a lot of people be like, “oh how did people NOT know that Mr. Beast isn’t a good person?? Isn’t it obvious once you watch any one of his videos?”

And, like, yeah. I think to most sentient adults it was clear that this was prime fake-charitable philanthrocapitalism. But I think a majority of us who are celebrating this wave of Anti-MrBeast content are just happy that someone from the inside came forward with more tangible stories and proof that he’s actually abhorrent that even people who didn’t think he was bad before can’t ignore.

I think a majority of sentient adults, before this whole thing, saw a Mr Beast video once or at least heard of him and said, “I vaguely know what he’s up to; he reeks of finance bro. I don’t like him, but all I can do is not watch his content” because to Mr Beast fans there was nothing you could definitively say that would “prove” that he was a bad person.

But now there is, and it’s sparked a movement of people trying to expose more of his shitty practices, and I’m just grateful that those people can finally be heard now instead of immediately dismissed because Mr Beast “donates to charity”.

[babyfairy]

it takes about 5 seconds of thinking about my personal life before i start to cry now i think that’s really cool and good. fun too

[xxbimbobunnyxx]

My tummy hurts so bad today

[saviorpilled]

having hetchless au thoughts again. i rlly need to start writing

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Just applied for a summer childcare position (like for a camp type thing) that pays 20–28 dollars an hour based on qualifications (I should be towards the end of that scale because I work in a school; and the only requirement the job lists is to be 16 and have experience with children). So hopefully they’ll consider me. That would be wonderful.

[singedbutter]

Ahhhh I really need to sit down and take more content but I 👏🏼 DONT 👏🏼 WANT 👏🏼 TO 👏🏼

[kazerdam]

I am like really not okay lol

[justsomebirdy]

Fuck panic disorder, actually

[ace-no-isha]

feeling deeply unlovable and then remembering that luffy could love you no matter how horribly damaged you are is a lot of emotions

[raamitsu]

aaaaaaaand… because of today’s leaks, I am going to take another break from spamming #wind_breaker series and will continue tomorrow ✌🏼😂

[leahthedreamer]

Wanting to do well in exams vs end of semester burnout & final year mental illness.