#I’m doing totally fine

[ascendingtostardust]

Good morning this is a reminder that Sam takes selfies with his puppy and probably has dozens that we’ll never see

[sassygwaine]

see the thing is sometimes you do have to lose every friend you ever had and hate yourself for the better part of a decade to become a better person

[trashgrl666]

[its-your-mind]

I’m sorry I need to talk about this for a second

This part right here. When Nirvana tries to use Thought Infection on Kim Dokja. And this ability that absolutely neutralized Yoo Joonghyuk, Min Jiwon, and Yoo Sangah…

just…

bounces right off.

and it’s set up like this big badass moment. Kim Dokja saves the day again. Kim Dokja can face down anyone. He’s more powerful than every other incarnation and constellation, no matter how much foreknowledge they have.

But honestly?

It kinda just makes me sad.

yjh is incapacitated by the Eternal Nightmare ability because of all the awful things he’s seen and experienced, yes.

But as we know from 1863, happy memories can be much more debilitating for him than sad ones. And while he’s only got 1-2’s memories right know, we know that 2 had some incredibly happy memories to pass on, memories that make the losses that much harder to take.

And Min Jiwon?

Of course she doesn’t actually want to visit a spa while her friends and troops are dying. But can you blame her for having some deep craving for comfort and relaxation right now?

But for Kim Dokja…

The Fourth Wall isn’t just protecting kdj from the negative effects of the skill. It’s not hiding his secret desires, or absorbing his emotions.

It is literally preventing him from experiencing the world around him as reality. Not just because it feels improbable or surreal, but because it is literally keeping him separate from the world around him. On a fundamental level, he does not believe he is truly present in this time and space.

This is derealization and dissociation on an unbelievably intense scale.

“If we’re just characters, why did you die for us so many times?”

Why wouldn’t he? He’s not here, not really. He’s just Reading this story, no matter how much sway he’s been having over what has happened. All of that is just his work as a Reader hoping to see the Epilogue of his favorite novel.

“It was a really great story, isn’t that right?”

Narratively satisfying. A twist ending. A fate that subverted expectations.

An Epilogue worth Reading. Not touching, not feeling, not joining, not creating. Just watching. From a distance away. From behind glass. Through the cracks in a wall.

After all, a story can’t exist without a writer, a protagonist, and a reader. Only two of them truly participate in creating the story. But when you’re the Reader, it’s always worth reading the story again. And again. And again. And again. And again ,

[mvrdermeharder]

As promised… here’s my character design for 20+ Isagi w an undercut and tattoo sleeve💙

Tagging those who’ve said they’ll be waiting for it @scara-simp69 @zendersenders @someprettyname 🫶

Sidenote: if anyone speaks japanese please please please let me know if i used the correct translation and kanji!!

I looked it up in japanese dictionaries but i’m not sure if it’s correct or not…

[qrcane]

Hey guys, things kinda suck rn and I’m sure we could all use some positivity, so I offer a carton of eggs

[mika-you-nerd]

Duality of man

Trust me I am super normal about this guy

[fixated-on-something]

I think you're magicians because you're unhappy. A magician is strong because he feels pain.

He feels the difference between what the world is and what he would make of it. Or what did you think that stuff in your chest was? A magician is strong because he hurts more than others. His wound is his strength.

Most people carry that pain around inside them their whole lives, until they kill the pain by other means, or until it kills them. But you, my friends, you found another way: a way to use the pain. To burn it as fuel, for light and warmth. You have learned to break the world that has tried to break you.

—Henry Fogg, The Magicians by Lev Grossman

(Unlabelled Gifs sourced from here)

[beefis]

Maybe I’m in a weird mood tn but I can’t get the image of Cheol wanting to eat you out so bad he’s crying out of my head. Like I just know he gets in that intense anxious headspace and cannot handle himself or his own thoughts and they catch up to him so strongly that he doesn’t have another outlet except crying. Wanting something so bad he can’t even verbalize it, just strong tightness in his chest until it explodes. He’s crying before he even knows he is, and falling on the floor with blurry ass eyes too choked up to speak and just trying to nose your legs apart like a dog.

And if you give him what he wants he just cries harder because he doesn’t have to fight it anymore. He’s just dragging his face against your thighs and making them all sticky with tears. If you tease and keep your underwear on he nearly has to give up because it’s all too much!!

idk he’s totally the type of guy to get stuck in loops in his own head until it’s all he can think about and of course he’s gonna need help to fix whatever his problem is. It’s always just a tiny thought about you in the middle of the day, one that flickers by so fast he has to think about exactly what it was in case it was important (it’s about you, of course it is). That’s where the trouble starts. By evening he’s pacing his room, and swallowing around knots in his throat and trying to think of anything else. But what brings him the most comfort and distraction? Exactly who he can’t keep thinking about. So when he finally collapses in front of you it’s just too much and he’s a wreck. But god if being in your arms isn’t so good. a hug after an anxiety attack doesn’t slow your heart but it’s like pouring cold water on your head and it makes everything better. You make everything better.

It’s not just the urges and the overwhelming waves of need that’s making him cry, it’s the relief. Thank god he can bury his head between your thighs and get wherever he needs to to feel ok. Shaky hands finally steady enough to help with what his tongue can’t do. Basically using your crotch as a lifeline, where you’re warm and solid against his cheeks and with something grounding and so real in his mouth. Shuddering breaths in between licks and eventually breathless ‘thank you’s. Completely collapsed against your thigh, cheeks and chin wet with spit and cum and tears, finally managing a sheepish weak smile when you bend down and grab his face with your hands.

It’s 4 am

[sad-endings-suck]

and if I said that lots of mizu/akemi shippers are actually mizu/fem self-insert and mizu/fem oc shippers then what?

[cupiidzbow]

ummm sorry if i come off as a bit of a debbie downa I think I gotta add raw meat/cannibalism/implications of cannibalism to my please tag bc i know this site like themes of that and stuff but it always makes me incredibly upset everytime and i always try to push it away bc I don’t want ruin peoples fun but it makes me extremely upset and very physically sick irl . sorry about that ☝🏽

[shannonsketches]

Do y’all ever think about how Vegeta’s only ever mad at Freeza for what happened to his planet and he’s never mad at Freeza for what happened to him because I think about that a lot

[stuckinapril]

I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

[l-crimson-l]

Ok so incoming gunpla post about tools:

So you’ve started building! It’s fun! It’s cathartic! And they look so cool!

But…

You kinda want them to look Even Cooler.

You also don’t have a ton of cash and you’re feeling intimidated by how deep this hobby can take you (you’ve seen those cool customs online). No worries! Here’s a couple cheapish (<$40) tools to help you get rolling on taking your kits to the next level.

1) Sanding Sponge/Glass File

These are great bc 1) they’re cheap and 2) do the job wonderfully. Specifically they’re for helping to remove Nub marks off the price you’ve cut from the runner. If you don’t know, Nubs are the leftover plastic still attached to the piece after you’ve clipped it from the runner, they’re important to remove bc of how the kit is engineered. Moving gimmicks or the sturdiness of the kit could be compromised if your pieces can’t fit flush.

The sponge is the cheapest option but it also runs out at some point and you’ll need to replace them. However, the glass file will simply just keep rolling. I bought mine from Newtype about a year and a half ago and it’s still doing great. I believe Walmart might have even cheaper options.

2) Gundam Marker

So you know those grooves on a part that’s sunken in? Those are called Panel Lines! Using this pen (it’s basically a Micron pen) you can color in these lines to help give your kit extra depth. This is especially great on kits that are primarily a single color with few variations (think Calibarn).

All you do is draw in your line and then wipe away with your finger or paper towel or what have you. These are super cheap and you’ll run through half a dozen or so HG’s or even MG’s before you need to think about getting a new one. With this you also don’t need to worry about top coating or being mindful about what you’re applying it over (unlike other panel liners where you need to keep some chemistry in mind).

3) Single Blade Nippers

So these are the most expensive item and while double blade nippers work absolutely, you’ll end up creating less work for yourself with single blade nippers as they can make cleaner cuts off the runner meaning you have less nub to clean up.

These ones I snagged from USA Gundam Store (they give a discount for snagging these) and they work great. Not the greatest durability over multiple kits as they really lose that initial sharpness over the first kit or two, but they stay sharp enough to do the job well. There’s several different options out there (some as expensive as $60 or so) but starting out a cheaper pair is great to have.

I used double sided nippers for the longest time but after switching I firmly believe they’re worth the extra $$ to invest in.

To elaborate on 2 bladed vs single bladed a bit: double blades cut from both sides (obviously) but what this means is that there is stress being applied to the piece from each side. This causes stress marks (if you’ve seen a white spot left behind after a clip that’s a stress mark) which either need cleaned up and painted over or it causes a crater in the part (especially easy to do when the nub is especially large) which either never gets fixed or you need to use tamiya cement to melt plastic and then puddy it innnnn and thennnnn sand everything againnnnn and it’s a pain.

Save yourself the headache. Singe blade nippers are the way. I especially hate those beginner nippers that look like this

I hope this helps you dig a little further down into the plastic crack rabbit hole! With just a little extra effort you can really make your kits pop. You can do it!

As always I really love seeing all the new people building gunpla and making it their own (special shout out to that person who bedazzled their guncannon). Love ya friendos

[driedlillies]

I had a vision (I don’t know how I feel about the design but it’s the best I could do)

[itspileofgoodthings]

my romantic self-esteem is just absolutely rock-solid. for whatever reason!