doc has just started her career as team asgard’s head athletic trainer after selvig’s retirement the year before.
laufeyson goes down after a slide tackle to the horrified sound of the crowd. he was on track for a record season. the center forward is now out for the 2024 season.
cut to loki hating doc because she’s the one who hands down the news about his rehab time, hating because she’s intent on making sure he plays next season, hating because she’s kind despite his anger.
and he is angry. he might as well quit. he will never play again. just last week he was a star athlete in his prime — a paparazzi’s dream. now he is some fame-starved, hungover loser. he sits on the damn bench.
but that damn doc pushes. and pushes. long days when he can finally wear a brace, to rehabbing his knee entirely. sunsets in the summer over the pitch as she runs drills. again. again. again.
Sam’s video/ Going on a tangent about Sam and somewhat Vincent
“But I’m still good. I can still do good. I can still help. I can help…”
Going to ramble below…these are just my thoughts. No, this isn’t a deep analysis on Sam.
Sam is so interesting, because as we’ve gotten to know him, he’s made it clear that he is someone who is stubborn about his morals and his beliefs. He’ll put his own health aside for others, even if they nag at him that he’s overdoing his magic.
He’s soften up on his walls with Darlin’, but he’s always struggled with one thing. And that’s his identity. This isn’t only a struggle with Sam, as Vincent also struggles with his identity. They’re both Solaires, or at least Sam used to be and Vincent is still up in the air. They’re handed this identity of being a part of a powerful house. One they didn’t want or ask for.
They were both forced into this life of vampirism, and were told they had to accept that now. Vincent somewhat already mourned his past life (don’t take this as fact. I haven’t rewatched his vids), but Sam is still mourning who he was.
He consistently brings up how he’s a healer and that he can still help. How I see it, it’s almost like he’s comforting himself. He’s affirming to himself that his vampirism can’t take away his healing. The one thing he was able to keep from his past life, even if it isn’t strong like it used to be. He’s still a healer.
And it’s still something he struggles with, even if not as much as before. His life has been unsteady and he wants that stability. Anything to just keep him afloat. Something that gives him peace and assurance. He says that’s all he wanted and he can’t even have that now. He feels sick, because he was affiliated with the Solaires, and that was part of his new identity. Now his environment has shaken and revealed it’s hidden truth. He’s angry that he even was a part of the Solaires.
This isn’t to say that Sam is weak or that he has no idea who he is. Because he does know what his morals are and what he wants to stand for. He proves time and time again that he can handle himself and make choices for himself. He only struggles with his past self, and trying to find that in between. Of accepting his new self and keeping what was his past self.
Accepting what has changed.
Sam is not someone who kills for fun or to gain something. Anytime we’ve seen Sam kill someone, it’s been out of self-defense. He isn’t power hungry or in need of a higher status.
He just wants to be Sam.
I think Sam has grown and is capable of growing.
He’s affirming to himself that he’s not some high status vampire with connections to the Solaires. He’s just Sam. And Sam is a healer who only wants family and peace.
Which is exactly Vincent wants. He wants normalcy.
Poor cowboy honestly needs a break.
Vincent….Vincent is so precious. Someone help the man.
I’m so sad that all the old No 9s have gone off iPlayer as of today😭😭😭 I knew it was coming and rewatched as many as possible as often as I could.
I know I can get the dvds but it’s so much more convenient to stream them. I could pick and choose from any series. At least I had a chance to see them all and catch up. Watched my fave episodes multiple times
idk his voice is so gentle he would be a great ASMRtist…i feel like re2 leon specifically would be kind of a yapper at night…catching you up on everything and rambling about work and his plans and how much he likes you and UGH
I love how sometimes the whump community is like. “here’s a terrible experience I went through that may or may not have been quite traumatic for me. now here’s how to apply this suffering to your whumpees!”
do i ship johnny and ponyboy romantically? no. do i think they had a platonic bond that is so intense it just feels inherently queer? maybe. do i think their relationship is absolutely beautiful to the point where it makes me tear up when i think about it too much? YES.
Am I the only who has ocs but basing them off songs i was listening to while making them??? Like I have this one character I’m thinking of naming Franny and I based her backstory on Maya the Psychic by Gerard Way and color pallet Mx.Sinister by IDKHOW