#I’m asking the big questions here

[proudtobealuthor]

So during the scene where Agatha is taking off all of her clothes and clawing her way through Wanda’s spell, was she just stripping in front of Rio

[its-your-mind]

*deep breath in*

the fears 👏 have always 👏 been (in one way or another) 👏 parallel 👏 to 👏 desire 👏

let me explain.

so many of the statements given by actual avatars center around some sort of need that was met by their entity. Lots of them even had a positive relationship with the fear that drove them.

Jane Prentiss is an excellent example - the Corruption has always been about a form of toxic and possessive love, but she personally has a deep desire to be “fully consumed by what loves her,” and finds a perverse joy and relief at allowing herself to be a home

Jude Perry is another - she fucking loved watching people’s lives be utterly destroyed. The Desolation only offered her a power of destruction on a grander scale, and then gave her a more intense rush of joy as she did its work. When she tells Jon that he needs to feed the Eye before it feeds on him, it’s almost as an afterthought; she was happily feeding the Desolation long before it burned her into a new existence.

Simon Fairchild. Every time that old loose bag of bones wanders into the picture, he is having a fucking EXCELLENT time playing with the Vast. He loves showing people their own insignificance, and he loves luring them into situations where he can throw them into the void as he smiles and waves.

Peter Lukas (hell, the whole Lukas family (except Evan. RIP Evan.)) hated. people. all he wanted was for them all to go away, to leave him alone. The Lonely only fulfilled that desire.

Daisy, Trevor, and Julia, all devoted to hunting those things they deemed monstrous.

Melanie, holding tight to that bullet in her leg because on some level, she wanted it. It felt good, it felt right, it felt like it fit right alongside the anger and spite that drove her to success.

Annabelle Cane first encountered the Web when she was a child, running away from home in order to tug on her parents’ heartstrings in just the right way to have them wrapped around her little finger. Later on she volunteered to be the subject of an ESP study. Hell, she’s the one who dangled the “Is it really You that wants this?” question over Jon’s head in S4.

And that brings us to Jon, beloved Jarchivist, the Voice that Opened the Door. Ever since he was a child targeted by the Web, he was looking for answers. He joined the Magnus Institute’s Research Department looking for them, he stalked his coworkers in search for them, he broke into Gertrude’s flat and laptop out of desperation for them. And when he realized that all he had to do was Ask to get truthful answers to his questions? It was only natural for him to jump at that opportunity.

Elias told S3 Jon that he did want this, that he chose it, that at every crossroads he kept pushing onwards, and the inner turmoil that caused was one of the focal points for Jon’s character through the rest of the podcast.

There’s a certain line of thinking in many circles about the power of the Devil: he’s not able to create anything new. All he’s able to do is twist and warp that which was already present, making it something ugly and profane while still maintaining the facade of something desirable.

Jon didn’t choose the Eye. But he did wander into its realm of power, exhibiting exactly the qualities it was most capable of hijacking and warping to its own ends. Jon didn’t choose the Apocalypse. But Jonah picked at him little by little, pointing him towards each Fear individually. Jon didn’t want to release the Fears. But the Web tugged on his strings just so and laid a pretty trail for him to follow until he reached its desired conclusion.

Jon didn’t choose ultimate power, or omniscience, or even his own role as Head Archivist. But he said “yes” to the right (wrong?) orders and kept on pushing for the right (wrong?) answers. He wanted to succeed at the work he had been assigned. He wanted to protect his friends. He wanted to rescue them when they were lost. He wanted to prevent the apocalypse, to save the world. He wanted to know why he was still alive, when so many had died right in front of him.

The Great Wheel of Evil Color that is the Entities might not fit as neatly into categories in this universe - maybe there was no Robert Smirke trying to impose strict categories on emotional experiences, or maybe the ways they manifest in the world has turned on its head (goodness knows many of them have been showcased and blended in some very fun and new and horrifying ways so far) - but their fundamental foundations seem to be the same. Hell, in episode one we learned that there had been enough individual incidents to create a distinction between “dolls, watching” and “dolls, human skin.”

Smirke’s Fourteen isn’t going to be relevant as common parlance, RQ said that already, but I don’t think that means the Fears themselves (and their Dream Logic-based rules) are different - I think it means that the levels of understanding, language used, and personal connections among people “in the know” are going to be entirely unfamiliar

[chloesimaginationthings]

Sorry if you’ve already put this somewhere and I didn’t see, but what’re your favourite ships?? :3

Women

[bargarean]

i don’t think i’ll ever move on from how mtz and red dwarf are just. the same shows. they’re about a little group of people in space who are so bad at their jobs and/or do not do their jobs. they’re all always fighting but love each other more than anything. the protagonist is a purposeful subversion of your usual sci-fi protagonist by making him kind of so pathetic to varying degrees. his best friend is either a robot or arguably a robot and also they’re kind of ridiculously gay for each other despite having one sided beef that grows into absolute best friendship. i could write essays on how rimmer and lister are like if pleck and c-53 swapped roles and personalities. rimmer IS nermut if you put them in a room together they’d leave several hours later not shutting up about how they finally met someone who was On Their Level who UNDERSTOOD and APPRECIATED their career goals. one time nermut was very clearly about to get executed but he was COMPLETELY convinced he was getting a promotion—this would happen to rimmer. holly and bargie? okay sentient ship/ship ai nation. they’re both about The Horrors and how important it is to find love for life and for the people around you to get through it. this list does continue i’ve been thinking about this for months. these are the same shows in different fonts and it’s beautiful.

you know what’s insane though. mtz parodies basically every popular piece of sci-fi media in existence and yet there is not a Single red dwarf reference in here. if any of the cast had watched red dwarf there WOULD be a reference somewhere. But there isn’t. these guys don’t know they remade a british sitcom in podcast format. They don’t know how many hysterical episode premises they missed out on

[abs0entr0]

You guys seemed to like my last art post so I wrote down some info + art about That Guy (mostly abridged version. Because I think about them Too Much) So! Here’s my tf oc, Blitztwitch!

(I’m sort of riffing off of what I remember about g1 and idw continuity from when I first got into transformers like. A decade ago. So the exact timeline here is iffy at the moment, bear with me)

Basically, back in the day before total war broke out but tensions were still starting to rise, Blitz was forced to join a violent paramilitary group on Cybertron. The main idea behind the group was the the people leading recognized that a war could be on the horizon, so they planned to train up a whole big secret army that they could use to take over after all the other factions either killed or at least weakened each other.

Blitz and many others were kept in horrible conditions, forced to train and fight each other, and were often used by the more science-minded members of leadership as test subjects for new methods of control. This all came to a head when the war actually started, which destabilized the leadership of this group and led to a rebellion within the soldiers ranks. During the chaos of this event, Blitz is heavily wounded and experiences massive head trauma before their body is lost in the rubble, or perhaps shoved into some crate or pod which then gets swept up into some evacuation ship’s cargo. One way or another, Blitz’s near dead body ends up lost on an alien planet: Earth.

Sometime later, when there’s an Autobot presence on earth, Blitz is found and fixed up. When they awake, not only do they have no memory of their past aside from their name, but the trauma of the event has also put a mental block on their autonomy as a coping mechanism after “disobeying orders” got them so messed up. Basically what this means is that, at least during the moments when they’re first awoken, Blitztwitch literally can’t make their own decisions and will do whatever anyone tells them.

I’ll be brief about the rest since this is getting long ;-; but the rest of Blitz’s story at the moment revolves around the, slowly gaining back their memories and control because of their interactions with the current transformer forces on earth. It also revolves around Blitz being a little shit (affectionate) as soon as they get control back since they are so ready to cause chaos after having to follow boring orders for so long.

Anyway I talked too long byeeee

[mossy-paws]

Guess what time it is yall,,, HAPPY 400 FOLLOWERS YAHOOOO!!!!! This is an awesome milestone and I can’t thank you all enough :3!

Due to the same circumstances as before I’m not going to be taking any more doodle requests for the time being since I already have like. A LOT stacked up,, my askbox is definitely going to be staying open though :3! Feel free to ask any QNA style questions you would like too! Be it semi-personal (EX. What is your favorite color?), stuff about my au’s and such (the mermaid au is most likely going to be revisited in around 4 months while I finish my TMA, so it’s best to ask questions about the TMA one for the time being), or just more fun silly stuff! Nothing too personal or weird of course though :3!

[robylovi]

highkey hate that whenever I share having doubts about my sexuality ppl will act like I’m a character in a tv show whose interests can only be defined by the canon like, my dude, you do not know me better than myself

[veone]

I personally enjoy fight club because it’s very interesting to watch the physical and mental self destruction of person trying to find a purpose in life when they don’t desire the typical traditional american ideal life. To see the descent into delusion.

[fallingtheseus]

biblically accurate angels with bad vision who need glasses to see true forms or else they also burn to death and go insane

[itspileofgoodthings]

like. She is a tour de force, she IS the one-woman show, she is truly a superstar. It’s not like I didn’t know that going in but it was seeing that power at work and in its right context for the first time.

[merevide]

i should stop making cringe posts tbh. but i can’t.

[futureghost97]

me: accidentally creates a character that is a convincing portrait of a CSA survivor and realizes it months into the campaign (I went in with very little backstory other than “formerly involved in a sex cult”)

my brother, our dungeonmaster, a person who should be in therapy more than any of us, who has no language for processing trauma: “but… what is the point of it?”

me: “what is the point of anyone being abused?”

him, missing my meaning: “come up with a goal that stems from it and we’ll work it in!”

[mar-zom]

do i finish watching Doctor Who or do i just rewatch all of series two through four… hmmmm

[mars-ipan]

HOOO my brother just touched a nerve

[j-esbian]

i get annoyed and talk shit but i really am soso grateful for my parents.