#I’m actually dying inside
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I’m on a No-Fic ban till after my GCSEs and it’s making me want to drown myself in a lake.
#I’m actually dying inside#I WANNA READ ABT MY LOVES#marauders#the education system is thorough shit#get me out man#FOUR WEEKS IM SHITTING BRICKS#sirius black#james potter#regulus black#wolfstar#remus lupin#harry potter#black brothers#love#james & peter & remus & sirius#jegulus#gryffindor#slytherin#jily#marlene mckinnon#lily evans#peter pettigrew#starchaser#mary macdonald
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Is it?
#void#voidcore#void state#yelling into the void#eternal life#666 satan#darkness#666#aesthetic#gothic#dark aesthetic#alternative#dark art#ave satanas#the devil in me#dark romance#i’m mentally ill#mental illness#mental health#actually mentally ill#going crazy#crazy girl#creepy girls#spooky#spooky girls#i am slowly going insane#insane girl#i am insane#dying inside#im going insane
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extremely attracted to him rn
BONUS:
#ffxiv gpose#ffxiv wol#erenville#based off a few tiktoks#i want to be clear that the conversations about biology and weird adventures are part of the attraction#the intellectual attraction is so funny to think of because you get situations like this lmao#oc: avi’li#aville#posting this now instead of later because i’m dying inside about it actually
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Fun fact:Jest knew he was going to die!! <3
Everyone knew that if they went through the door the prophecy might come true. Cath went through to save Mary Ann but she told Jest to stay, so it wouldn’t come to pass. Just in case the sister’s rambling wasn’t just stuff and nonsense.
And yet he followed after her to help her, to keep her safe, to protect her. He knew what would happen and yet he followed afterwards. If he didn’t know, he guessed at it. He knew or had an idea of what would happen when he stepped through the door.
He knowingly died for her before he was ever killed. He really was dead all along.
#THE OBESSION CAME BACKKK#If I’m suffering you have to suffer as well!!#fun facts!!#I’m actually dying inside rn#SEND HELP#PLEASE#heartless#Marissa Meyer#Catherine Pinkerton#jest#read heartless but now IM the one heartless#💔#I MISS HIM#BRING HIM BACK
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GUYS GUYS GUYS WAKE YOUR ASSES UP NOW
I KNOW YALL SEE THAT CAUSE I CANT BE THE ONLY ONE
ION WANNA ASUME ANYTHING BUT BAE.. WHY YOU HOLDING HER HAND AND WHY SHE HAS HER HEAD TURNED🤨🤨🤨
OUUU GIRL QUIT PLAYIN WITH US RIGHT NOW
IF YOUR HAPPY IM HAPPY, BUT NOT REALLY CAUSE ITS NOT ME BUT STILL GIRL YOU DO YOU AND KEEP DOING YOU🙏🙏😭
I HOPE YALL TREAT EACHOTHER GOOD😭😭
WE LOVE YOU TISH🫶🫶
Im dying on then inside🫶
@s0lam3y @mal-urameshi @neptoons1998 @pocketsizedpanther @imjusthere2readbruv @imnotb
#IM ACTUALLY PANICKING RIGHT NOW IF ITS TRUE IM GONNA SCREAM#TISH THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO PLAY RIGHT NOW#I’m dying on the inside#letitiawright#letitia wright#monsespeaks
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Baby, let me be, take my noose and set me free
Light my home on fire, take me higher than I wanna be
Baby, on my knees, begging for the sweet release
Let me hear the choir full of liars, tell them I want peace
I wish I wasn't problematic, I'm semi-automatic
I'm trying not to panic, panic
I'm burning bridges into ashes, light them up like matches
How could you understand it, 'stand it?
- Problematic // BoyWithUke
#I wish I wasn’t problematic#problematic#boywithuke#semi automatic#music#lyrics#song lyrics#hyperfixation#actually mentally ill#actually bpd#actually borderline#actually obsessive#tw depressing thoughts#dying inside#overwhelmed#i’m so exhausted#i’m not okay#self mutalition#mentally tired#mental illness#mentally fucked#mentally exhausted#mental health#adhd problems#tw self destruction
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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.
#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void#shits rough dawg#I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts#haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier#it’s cold#saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours#guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left#even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are#I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh#my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week#maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting#woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside#hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning#can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience#anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments#I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now#ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever#you can ignore this#text
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Currently feel like I’ve been hit by a truck, hope you all are faring better than me lol
#Bro I was so. SO fucking sick last night#It was legitimately awful. Like there was a point where I thought ‘dying would be better than this’#I can’t remember the last time I’ve been this sick#Emetophobia tw ahead—#But yeah I was throwing up like all night#And it was freezing inside the house so I was having like. MAJOR chills#I probably also had a fever at the time too fjdnndn#My body is so sore and achy it really does feel like I’ve been hit by a car#Just the combo of being in pain + being nauseous + having severe chills#And you know that feeling right before you throw up where you get the shivers so bad. IT WAS THE WORST. THE WORST!!!!!#I actually had to lie on my back for most of the night bc that helped curb the nausea a little#But ooough. The torture ladies and gents.#I still feel like shit but not nearly as bad as last night#Nausea’s gone now (thank GOD)#Hey do not get sick 0/10 do not recommend ever.#Shima speaks#Help I’m so achy and tired and sore and I just wanna sleep. My body will not let me tho 😭
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sorry bitching again
Super annoyed that my tolerance to oxy has completely fucked with it being able to do shit for my cramps. I am now in a hot bath with a fan on me so I don’t pass out because it’s fucking 27 degrees outside & my body doesn’t regulate temp properly anymore, thank u anorexia
#I also love that I’m so tummy sensitive that a single yogurt tube had me dry heaving#actually thank you anorexia for completely and utterly ruining my immune system and body#I use to be so brave about this stuff#but I also hadn’t ruined my digestive or tummy lining when I could be brave#I’m so nauseous half passed out from the pain & heat I could be convinced I’m dying rn#if you don’t know what it’s like to burn from the inside out on your skin I’m honestly jealous
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saw a comment about how Gojo’s afterlife could’ve actually been a product of his imagination that was his acceptance of death—I never even considered it, although now it feels like an obvious option on the table. Haibara mentioning him butting into Nanami’s death is the only thing I can see going against that, but Gojo knows of their past that affected Nanami his entire life, so it doesn’t debunk it. When Jogo was dying, he spoke of reincarnation with Hanami and Dagon, and that too was vague in how real it was (at least for Hanami and Dagon being there), but was likely Jogo himself accepting his and their ends. A surprisingly similar end to Gojo’s. That interpretation does make everything 10 times sadder though.
#both takes seem valid but now I kind of like this one more 😭 I feel dumb for missing that interpretation completely#with maki and mai that seemed like an innate connection similar to when yuuji died and met with sukuna before reviving#pandas siblings end are also vague. but since their souls are stored inside I wouldn’t be surprised#if their moments saying goodbye were also in an innate landscape that they’re connected to#whereas in scenes where the character of focus is dying they often see other dead#and it’s unclear if hanami is actually there for jogo. or if haibara was there in nanamis last moments#the latter DOES seem like nanamis imagination#so honestly I could see how everything in gojos afterlife scene was 100% himself dying and conjuring his ideal version of passing over#jjk spoilers#gojo satoru#thanks to the random person who commented that#maybe a ton of people think this and I’m late to knowing but it’s a fun interpretation#and unless there’s definitely proof against it. it’s 100% a valid reading#jjk 236
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what if Crowley gets ascended and they wipe his memory and he introduces himself to Aziraphale who is dying inside because he knows Crowley would never have done this if there was literally any other real choice . But Angel!Crowley is all peppy and cute like “hi! I’m Rory. Aurora if you want to be formal about it. Blurgh. Haha! Who are you? 😇”
#and David would nose crinkle and Michael would Face Journey so freakin hard#and actually I really love aurora as precrowley’s name#ineffable husbands#good omens#ineffable spouses#hi dying inside I’m dad#I made myself sad#angst#or OR ‘I remember you’ - breath of cruel hope - ‘-Aziraphale right?’#I love you coming back from the dead wrong#oh and Aziraphale has to give him back the Fall? the pain?? and it kills him#but he does it because it’s right and it’s what Crowley would want and it’s right#if I’m gonna cry on my way to work I’m taking you all down with me
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concept: take your kid to work day but you work for The Company
#lethal company#can you imagine though#like it’s objectively going to be bad no matter what you do no matter how safe you try to make it#they’re gonna have a bad time#like even if you tell them to stay on the ship there’s dogs and the possibility of masked men and giants outside#and you and your crew are inside risking your lives and you could all die and the kid is just sat inside the ship waiting for you#and like. if you give them a walkie so you can chat with them they’re going to hear a bunch of grown-ups shitting their pants#and possibly dying#also bonus point in my head i’m imagining like. what if the crew does die?? and they didn’t have enough for quota#so this kid knows they have to arrive with the quota their other parent will be waiting for them at the company#but they know something bad will happen if they don’t meet quota they just don’t know what#so it’s the final day and they decide they have to go to a moon as a last effort to try and make quota to avoid The Consequences#the kid writes the report about it and only gets a C. ‘vivid descriptions and very imaginative. next time write about your parent’s actual#job’
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Omg hi Ms. Hán! Could you please explain the meaning behind your color palette? Your pants have an orange hue so why do you only have a little patch of blue- hello? Hello? Did you hang up on me-
Hán Huì Qún is one of the two medical officers on The Little Bird, as well as one of the two humans onboard. Hán is from Beijing, working as an emergency physician there for most of her life. She wound up volunteering for a deep-space exploration program, and now she’s living quite a ways from home. She received her xenobiology training on the space station The Lord Acknowledged before being hired for The Little Bird.
She’s very good friends with her fellow medic Ankiusk, and her and Cereza know each other fairly well. Despite this, Hán tries to keep some distance with the crew. She doesn’t want her to get attached and let that interfere with her work.
And her alternative outfits! She tends towards pants and short-sleeved shirts, preferring to have a lot of mobility as well as have her hands free. Outside of work she doesn’t wear much purple, preferring tans with some blue.
Hán’s medical notes on herself and the original color tests I did her under the cut
Hán writes all of her own medical notes for the entire crew of The Little Bird. These are meant to be quick notes made during the very first checkup, and she would likely rely on making entirely new notes for consecutive checkups. In canon she’d write these notes in Mandarin, and if they’d ever be translated into English it’d be done by T-132 sometime after the story.
Hán did get a little lazy writing notes on herself, but since no one else is actually supposed to read these ‘quick notes’ it doesn’t matter.
Colors! I was working on Hán before I even starting with Cereza, so I was figuring out what I wanted the base or “””””neutral””””” color for The Little Bird’s crew to be (it’s purple)
#took me ACTUAL WEEKS to finish this. I’m dying inside.#character design#sci-fi#science fiction#little bird worldbuilding#my art#oc: Hán Huì Qún#there is no tag for humanity
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“the thought of death consumes me, but I am afraid of dying” -m.h
#death#dying inside#death and dying#i’m scared#death scares me#dying scares me#mental problems#actually mentally ill#actually bipolar#actually borderline#actually bpd#borderline personality disorder#bipolar 1#bipolar 2#sadgirl#bpd#sad thoughts#poetry
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still not done =D
the empty chairs and empty tables one made me realise that I could have done the full thing of do you hear the people sing instead of a crappy acronym so I may do that one again at some point
my favourites are probably I dreamed a dream and lovely ladies just cause the colours look nice
@pilferingapples I followed your advice for the one day more one thank you so so much for that :D
#woah im actually original#Les mis#djsgdjassjjsna#the cleaners are coming today so I have to clear my whole floor and then get it all back out again when they’re done#😃#I’m dying inside
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She hurts and
She cries,
But you can’t see
The depression
In her eyes,
Because she just
Smiles.
#tired#falling apart#dying inside#3 am thoughts#deppresing thoughts#depressing quotes#overwhelmed#thoughts#depressing shit#self h@rm#fat#overweight#depressed#anxitey#i am unworthy#cute without the e#depressing poem#i cant do this#i want to disappear#darkness#sorry for being depressing#i’m so exhausted#i’m not enough#3 am feelings#never good enough#im so tired#mentally tired#actually mentally ill#mentally exhausted#mental health
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