#I’m EMOTIONAL

[psychicbby]

so fucking emotional at dan howell being named a top 10 influential lgbt+ figure. i can’t stop thinking about how much he went through with the bullying and the self hatred and the years where hoards of people felt entitled to his sexuality and harassed him over it before he could properly put a name to it.

thinking about how dan said when he finally realised and accepted that he’s gay, he spent 2 hours sobbing on a balcony and drinking an entire bottle of rosé. thinking about how dan said he wanted to cancel interactive introverts because he knew he’s gay and felt like he needed time away from everything to process. thinking about the dan howell who went on tour anyway despite this gnawing at him. thinking about how dan took a year off to collect himself and then posted a 45 minute video detailing his journey and struggles with sexuality, self acceptance, outside pressures, and invasive strangers in detail because he owed that to his past self and present self. thinking about 2019 dan saying he wasn’t confident in his sexuality and couldn’t say he was proudly gay. thinking about dan going to london pride that year anyway and walking around with the gay flag and his silly shirt, beaming and radiant like we’ve never seen before.

thinking about the dan howell who wrote a best selling book all about his relationship with mental illness and how his queerness deeply impacted that because he thought that people could use it if needed. thinking about the dan howell who decided to perform a two hour stage show where he made loads of dirty jokes about his gayness to thousands. thinking about the dan howell who wears whatever he wants and posts whatever he wants without having to worry that the internet is going to pick apart every bit of him to see if he’s queer.

thinking about the dan howell now who came back to the gaming channel and now mentions his sexuality in almost every video posted. thinking about the dan howell now who is going on tour where the point is he and phil are gay as fuck and they don’t care anymore and honestly just wanna let their hair down and have fun with their dedicated audience. thinking about the dan howell now who poses with pride flags at m&g as a member of the community, not just an ally. the dan howell who is selling merch stating “dan and phil made me gay” because it’s really funny and he recognises that his audience is mostly queer and feels a sense of community with them. the dan howell who no longer shies away from the existence of phan bc it’s lowkey funny to him. the dan howell of 2024 who was voted in the top 10 influential lgbt+ figures. the dan howell now who is proud of that as a gay person who went through so much shit and came out the other side. no matter how bad it got, it still got better. it took time, but he got there (,:

[eterniravioli]

no one can say anything about max not deserving this win, it wasn’t gifted, it wasn’t scammed, he clawed his way up the grid with bloody hands and gritted teeth

[sunghoons-mole]

whoever put these together like this has RUINED MY DAY

[soupbtch]

tfw you fought so hard and now you get to retire with your first and only love and yea sure maybe the situation isn’t perfect and there’s a massive hole in the roof of the inn but it’s got good bones and you love him you love him you love him enough to give it a try and you finally feel secure enough after a lifetime of struggles and unhappiness and he’s smiling at you and you smile back and call him ‘babe’ and it feels so good to finally be happy

[philsbrownquiff]

I think what really reallllly gets me about Dan’s crows feet/smile lines is that we know he got them from looking at Phil like this for 15 years… something something the physical impact of love, to love is to be changed, etc. etc.

[cirr0stratus]

“There was a time when we weren't enemies. Perhaps that time has come again.”

[norastarfall]

Don’t get me wrong I’ll be the first in line to admit I hate ooc writing- or at least to some extent (whatever). But you DONT UNDERSTAND!!!

I NEED to see wet cat zoro- isolating himself as he finally lets himself cry! Added points if it’s night watch and he’s in the crows next. Hes holding back the tears until he feels it starting to rain. As he looks up to the endless sky and as whatever’s eating at him overwhelms him- he finally lets himself silently sob. The rain mixing in with his tears- as he finally lowers his head to muffle any noise capable of escaping.

I don’t CARE if it’s a shipping/ romantic fic- or a character study or just straight up whump fic!!!

I NEED TO SEE THAT MAN HOLDING HIMSELF AS HE SILENTLY SHUDDERS AS TEARS FALL DOWN HIS CHEEKS!

[everywaythatmatters]

The fact that Fitz isn’t even capitalized in Burrich’s dialogue until he’s almost ten years old is just. God. He’s just a little kid and he just wants to be safe and loved and he doesn’t even have a name I can’t do this

[louferrignojrofficial]

tommy still looks so fucking beautiful even when he’s leaving my screen and buck’s life forever

[uswnt13]

Not to sound dramatic, but if Ali Krieger doesn’t get the ball out of our corner, Megan rapinoe doesn’t find Abby wambachs head, and we don’t go to penalties vs Brazil. The USWNT doesn’t go nuclear in the media following that win in 2011, there might not even be an NWSL, and now both Ali and pinoe get to walk away in front of over 20,000 people. Thats leaving the game better than you found it.

[kraeki]

Same picture, 4 years apart

[emmettspeakz]

Blitz letting Stolas decide when Blitz was allowed to kiss him??? Like after he was rescued and showed he cares???

IT’S THE GROWTH FOR ME FAM

[emmyrosee]

let’s get angsty bc my cycle is late again and nO IM NOT PREGNANT SHADDUP-

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Kuroo is known for being ridiculously focused.

When he’s in it, he’s fully into the thick of it, throwing himself into the responsibility of making his work the best it can be, the words and statistics being all he knows for those many hours he sits, tapping his fingers on the laptop on his desk.

Nothing else can weasel its way into his focus when he’s working on something. 9 times out of 10, he’s immune to the interruptions of the outside world.

But nothing snaps him out of a focus more than your pretty voice. Especially if it’s in distress.

But he’s not perfect.

“Tetsuro?”

“What’s up, princess?” He hums, barely looking up from his laptop. He merely pushes the glasses on his nose up and continues to type. He hears you sigh softly and shift on your feet.

“Todays just… been rough,” you explain, and finally Tetsuro pauses to look at you. “Do you… do you think you could come and cuddle? I know you’re busy but… but I really need you.”

Tetsuro smiles and nods understanding, “yeah baby. Just let me wrap up this paragraph or two and I’ll come right down. Make sure you eat something okay? Don’t wait for me.”

You smile hopefully and nod, slipping out of his study to your room, letting Tetsuro right back to his work. He makes a mental note of the time before cracking his neck and diving right back in.

One sentence turns to a paragraph. Then, one paragraph turns to two. Two to three. Three eventually becomes two pages and Tetsuro is on a writing high that he can’t stop; he’s smiling at his own work, eagerly gnawing his lip and beyond excited to finally wrap this shit up, and-

He’s interrupted by a buzzing on his desk.

Annoyed, he tries to pause it to stop, but when he can’t, he groans in frustration before picking up his phone.

22:30 : Medicine.

Fuck.

It isn’t until his medicine alarm goes off that he realizes how late it’s gotten. It’s been four hours since you came in.

When he snoozes his alarm, there’s a text from you that shatters his heart: gn i guess

Immediately, Tetsuro feels sick to his stomach. He doesn’t even bother shutting off the lights and saving the documents on his computer before he flies down the stairs and into the room, chest heaving and breath caught in his throat when he sees the heatable bear encased in your arms, light from the tv casting a shadow on your features. He tries so hard to keep his breathing quiet, he knows he let you go to bed alone, cold and in your own head waiting for his stupid ass to come down and be with you.

He swallows thickly before he shuffles over to you, plopping on the edge of the bed and trying to keep you comfortable. He doesn’t want to wake you, not when he’s done so much already.

“I’m sorry, angel,” he whispers, thumb gently smoothing over your temple. You whimper and angle your head into the warmth of his hand. “Fuck, I’m so sorry…”

Sometimes, when Tetsuro talks to you in your sleep, you give him a smile, a little quirk of the lips at the tone, and he takes it as a sign that you’re there with him and you can feel his love even if you’re not conscious to witness it.

Tonight, though, your brows furrow. Your throat releases a meager noise of distress and he sinks his teeth into his lip; even as you welcome his touch, it’s as if his words still distress you, and you’re hurt. Your nose lets out small, huffy breaths, and you crush the bear tighter to your chest.

He lets his head down in defeat before kissing your head one more time before standing up; he shuffles like a zombie up back into the small study and shutting everything down: slamming his laptop shut, snatching the cold cup of tea and aggressively flicking off the lights to go back and join you in bed.

He plants the tea on his nightstand before curling up next to you under the covers, careful to keep his cold feet away from you. He tugs you softly to his chest wordlessly and buries his head against your neck, arms heavy and caging to keep you against him.

He wishes you could feel the way he’s blinking back his frustrated, remorseful tears. He wishes you could’ve had your last awoken moments be filled with cuddles and giggles and stolen kisses and playful bites.

But no. Instead, you needed him, you came and asked for him, and he couldn’t stop himself for one damn hour to be with you.

“I’m so sorry, babydoll.”

[psalm40speakstome]

No Gain, No Love. Episode Four.

She rented his ring!?

But he is STILL wearing it!!!!

Did he buy it!? 😭😭😭😍😍

More proof it’s been real to him from the start.

[devil-in-hiding]

so i got amazing news and i can breathe fucking easy now

thank y’all for being a place for me to escape to. it means the god damn world. I’m not going to go into details, it’s a sensitive topic for me and it’s an on going situation but i’m seeing the end of the tunnel.

This year has been one of the worst years of my life and after 2020-2021, i didn’t think that would be possible. The only good thing that has happened is my son, he has truly been the life raft keeping me afloat because even on the days i don’t want to get out of bed for myself, i do it for him.

Creating this blog has given me a place to go and be fucking insane, for the last 14 months i have been in my house, and honestly long before that, before my son was born i was my grandmothers caretaker and i lost her in january of this year, and ive lived with my granny my whole life and i took care of her when her state started declining in 2020.

Yall have given me a place that i can come to and feel accepted and like yall actually enjoy my company even if its through a screen, yeah its parasocial but i truly do not have a single person in my corner in my life right now besides my parents, ive had more conversations on this hellsite than i have had in person in ages and thats kinda sad but thats my reality right now

this post is a fucking mess but i’m literally sobbing into my moms spider-man squishmellow right now so it shows my state of mind

just

thank yall for giving me a place to escape to during such a crap time.

it means the world

[karihighman]

chenford + 🐶 = ❤️

+bonus: Tim being the best dog dad & behind the scenes photos ft. 🐶🥲⬇️